i think you may be interested in this seeing as it started because of his twitter

Late Late Show

Summary: At the launch of your new series Riverdale, you and Cole’s relationship has finally become public after KJ leaked a photo of you two out of character onto Twitter. In addition to dating him, your character is Jughead’s love interest, and so you have an interview with James Cordon.

Word Count: 1141

Originally posted by paranoid-papi

Originally posted by yourreactiongifs

“Everyone please welcome, one of the newest stars of the CW’s hit Riverdale, (Y/N) (Y/L/N)!”

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“I‘d love you“

Request: “Could you do one where reader is in another band and is the singer or something like that“

(Y/N): I missed out on an episode of adventure time for this so you guys better like it. Thank you for submitting x 

Words: 1,030

Originally posted by spookijosh

Being on tour is one of the greatest thing ever. You get to travel the world and do what you love with the people you love at the same time. Of course it has its pros and cons but overall, it‘s something you could not be enough grateful for. On top of that, is the opportunity to somewhat give back to your fans, that have supported your band as a whole throughout all these years, through many ups and downs.

You wake up at early in the morning in the stronghold to watch the sunrise. This morning isn’t grey, but soothing lavender and brilliant amber. The colours merge into neon pink and peach. Catching a glimpse of your phone, you notice that it‘s way too early for you to get out of bed, so you choose to use the time to check your social medias. Immediately after opening the Twitter app, your vision gets bombard with thousands of notifications. However, almost all of them are hinting to one single tweet.

 ‘@tylerjoseph: @joshdun is seeing the love of his life live tonight. wish him luck‘

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New York // Part 1

hi. um, sorry I haven’t been really active on here, I didn’t have any motivation to do any of the texts or write one shots or anything like that. although after Harry’s performance on snl I was like yanno what I really wanna write somet about it so here it is. well, the first part. I am planning on writing the part where he’s on set and stuff I just kinda had to intro the whole thing plus I guess it was about time I posted somet as well. hope you enjoy it, make sure to tell me if you have any ideas or if I should start one shots which are continueous? I’ve seen some people do that and it seems interesting, it’s not so much as a fanfiction because the events wouldn’t be happening after each other but they would have some connection. wow I’m rambling but tell me what you think! happy easter guys! 🐰 oh and you can follow me on my main blog which is hesasnowflake bc i kinda got back onto it? idk up to you. oh that’s also my twitter if you wanna give me a cheeky follow lmao shameless promo x have fun reading this tho also idk when part 2 will be out so keep an eye on this blog or just turn the post notifications on. lotta love, xoxo -b

Travelling was always one of my favourite things to do and so when it meant it will excuse me from doing other things I was supposed to, I just loved it that much more. Working on assignments wasn’t near as much fun as packing a suitcase, getting a plane ticket then driving to the airport and getting on a plane to get somewhere else in the world.

Honestly, there was nothing better.

Even though many people don’t like long flights I personally enjoyed it. I liked going on different planes, experiencing different journeys with different people. I know I might sound like a right weirdo at this moment and time but I’m only telling you the truth.

And so going back to the beginning, where I was saying I loved travelling just a little bit more when it meant I didn’t have to do certain things – well, at least for a little while – that was exactly the situation I was in right now.

My luggage was already checked in and I went through security as well so I had the chance to get myself a nice cup of coffee from Starbucks with a sandwich which I ate at one of the tables there. Feeling extra happy, I pulled my phone out of my hoodie pocket and pressed down on the button on the device so that my screen lit up. A smile made its way onto my face as I saw unread messages from my best friend who also happened to be my boyfriend.

Harry: you’re still coming right? I’m absolutely flipping nervous

Harry: oh crap I’ve gotta go, we’re doing an intro ad thing for the show. see you soon hopefully. love you x

A light chuckle left my lips as I clicked out of the message and opened another one from my lovely mother who was asking me if I made it onto the plane yet or if I’m still at home, lying around on the couch. Well what can I say I was never one to leave in time or make it in time to somewhere therefore I wasn’t surprised when I saw her messages.

Instead of texting her back, at which I was absolutely terrible but I think that was already shown when I never answered Harry, I clicked on her contact name and called her.

“Hey love, are you at the airport yet? Are you all checked in, yeah?” she asked me straight away, not even letting me take a breath before she flooded me with her questions.

But I guess mums will always be like this, right? And I should be grateful she’s like this with me because most children don’t have the opportunity to have a good relationship with their mothers or parents in general. 

“Hi mother, yes, I am at the airport and yes I am checked in,” I laughed as I lifted my cup full of hot coffee which may I add very rarely drank. I wasn’t the biggest fan of coffee but I needed it in that moment.

“Very well then,” she sighed. I heard soft clicking noises in the background so I knew she was working on something like she always did. It was as if she never stopped. If she wasn’t at work she was cleaning the house, the garden or doing extra work at home. I guess you could say she was really work-orientated, she liked keeping herself busy at all times. “Have you talked to Har yet?”

“Hmm,” I hummed as a huge smile appeared on my face again. My mum and dad called Harry “Har” and he loved it and it just made me very-very happy because they got along so well. “Although he had stuff to do so we didn’t talk on the phone.”

“Right, he is a busy man, isn’t he?”

“He is,” I agreed. “Anyways, I think I should get my laptop out and do some work so I don’t have to do all of it when I get back. I know for a fact I’m not gonna do anything while in New York.”

“That’s great thinking, my love. Looks like you inherited some of my drive to do work whenever wherever,” she laughed.

We talked for a few more minutes then she had to excuse herself because she had a Skype interview with one of the applicants or something like that. I guess you could say my mum was a boss-kinda-person at work meaning that she was an important member of the company she worked with.

While I had my laptop open and my drink in my hand I didn’t really do much although I didn’t expect any less or any more from myself. Basically, I just wasted my time until I had to pack my stuff away and get my arse on the plane. Which might I add was happy about. How could I not been happy about it?

Finally, I was going to New York. Not to mention the fact that I was also going to be seeing my amazing boyfriend who I miss very much.


Those eight hours on the plane didn’t even do anything to me. Probably because I slept all the way through which was clearly shown in the fact that my phone’s battery was dead since I forgot to plug it in once we were in the air and I was listening to music throughout the journey.

When I got through the security and immigration which was literally the longest bloody thing ever, I got my stuff then sat down inside and got my laptop out. It took me about fifteen minutes to connect to the free Wi-Fi which was terrible on its own so that just added to my stress and small amount of panic which was starting to build up within me.

I had to get a hold of Harry somehow because stupidly enough I didn’t tell him the time my flight would be arriving here and I also didn’t let him buy my tickets. Well, he helped me out because he truly insisted but he just transferred money onto my card, which honestly was more than I needed so I sent it back to him and only used a small amount of it, and I was the one who bought the tickets.

Once I was on the internet, I clicked on my messages which were blowing up, all of them from Harry. I didn’t even bother reading them I just clicked on the little bar and started typing out what I wanted to tell him before that stupid free Wi-Fi cut off.

Me: hii, I’m here and I’m stuck lol. my phone’s dead cos I never charged it on the plane so if you could come get me from the airport that would be lovely. sorry for not telling you when I was landing, I totally forgot. I’ll be outside but don’t bother replying bc the wifi is shit and I’ll probs won’t get your messages. I love you see you soon x

To send that message it took me like another ten minutes and just when I thought it would never go through, it said “Delivered” under it. I felt the built up pressure leave my shoulders as I almost closed my laptop off but then I saw his message pop right up.

Harry: good thing I have amazing connections right? I figured I’d find out when you’ll arrive because I know you and I had a feeling you’d end up stranded at the airport

Me: wait what you spied on me little fucker smh well at least you’re here right I’m really hungry haz hurry up please the wifi will go away pls xxxxxxx

Harry: get up your ass then and come out. I’m in a white Audi right as you come out the sliding glass doors

I smiled reading that message. I didn’t even bother putting my laptop away I just closed it down, put my backpack on my back then with my macbook in one of my hands and my suitcase in the other I started making my way out of the airport.

The sun was brighter than my future in that moment and I absolutely regretted not taking my sunnies out but it didn’t matter too much as soon as I set my eyes on the car which he mentioned in his text.

Squinting, I walked towards the car and as I was about to open the door, the window rolled down at the driver’s seat.

“Hey, what are you doing?” asked the lad as I looked at him, one of my hands coming in contact with my forehead so that I could keep the sun out of my eyes.

I could feel my cheeks heat up as I looked at the stranger, confusion taking over me completely.

“I-I’m so sorry sir, I thought-, my boyfriend,” I stuttered as I didn’t know what the actual hell to say. Was Harry seriously taking the piss? “I’m sorry, I’m going now,” I told the man as I reached out to my suitcase handle then pulled it behind myself.

I couldn’t believe how big of a dick Harry was. Did he find that amusing? Well, knowing his crazy ass he most probably did. And he definitely saw it all happening from one of the cars.

I crossed my arms once I put my laptop away in my backpack and leaned back on the seats. I honestly didn’t find this shit funny at the beginning then as I started to get over it, I begun to chuckle slightly until I realised I was shaking my head and grinning like crazy.

This was not the first time he had played me like that. We’re always like this with each other though. Some people would say we are too immature for our ages but I mean we couldn’t care less about their opinions. This was another reason why we worked so well together with Harry.

“Now that, my friend, was absolutely hilarious!” looking to my left I saw him walking closer, looking bloody gorgeous as always as his deep voice made a few people look at us.

His outfit was full black like always, his skinnies hugging his legs perfectly and his dark coloured shirt was so see-through you could easily make out the butterfly on his tummy and the swallows on his chest. He was fricking perfect and he knew it. Well, I was hoping he did because he was.

He was laughing by the time he got to me and all I did was shake my head and stood up, my hands still folded together and pressed against my chest.

“You’re just so funny, aren’t you?” I asked him, arching a brow while the tone of my voice was nothing but pure sarcasm.

“That I am, baby, that I am,” he smiled as he put his arms out, ready to pull me into a hug and boy did I waste any time? The fuck I didn’t! I almost flew into his arms, my body literally smacking into his and he had to take a few steps back as I basically fell onto him. “I missed you too, love,” he laughed quietly.

His arms wrapped around me in a tight hug, his chin resting on the top of my head then later he pressed a few kisses onto my hair. I hid my face in the crook of his neck as my hands wrapped around it and locked my fingers together at the nape of his neck. I sighed as I let myself melt in his touch, in his hug, in his arms.

“I love you,” I whispered as I pressed my lips against his skin for the shortest second then pressed my temple against his neck before I pulled away.

“I love you more,” he kissed my forehead as he let his hands slip off of me; down my arms and in the end he intertwined our fingers. Bringing them to his lips, he kissed my knuckles while he shut his eyes, not minding one bit that we were still out in the public.

Once he let go of me he took my hand in one of his hand and got my suitcase in the other one. I rolled my eyes as I saw we were nearing a black Audi and not a bloody white one. I could hear him chuckle as he opened the boot and put my luggage in and I just got in the passenger seat at the front.

Soon enough he was sitting next to me, buckling his seatbelt in and starting the car right away.

“Hand?” he held his right hand out to me as he looked to the left to see if any cars were coming and I just had to give in. Making sure my sigh was loud enough, I put my left hand into his and he once again intertwined our fingers. “I’ve gotta nip to the studio real quick to sign some papers with Jimmy. D’you wanna come or should I take you to mine first?”

“Whichever works for me,” I shrugged. “If yours is too out of the way I’ll just go with you and then we can get some food because I’m still starving then go home.”

“Sounds like a plan.”


And so that is what we did. Harry quickly went into the studio and he was out within ten minutes. I was dying at that point, my potential jetlag and hunger both doing my head in.

“Okay-okay, what d’you wanna eat, hm?” he asked me as his hand found its home on my thigh, gripping it a bit here and there.

“Dunno, don’t care,” I muttered. “Whatever’s close s’fine by me.”

“I’m guessing you don’t wanna go in, right?” I shook my head no and he hummed in response. “Have you ever had Taco Bell before?”

“Do I look like I spend all my time in America like some poeple?” I asked back sassily. I was tired and hungry with a headache on top. I wanted to cuddle Harry and sleep. And food of course.

“Drop the attitude, sunshine. I’m not up for it.”

“Well I’m not either so that makes two of us,” I told him right away. “Take your hand off of me now and take me home. I can’t be arsed getting food now.”


It took us twenty minutes to arrive at Harry’s penthouse that he rented while he was in New York or he owned it. I honestly didn’t have a clue and I couldn’t care less. I wanted a bed and nothing else. I was starting to get in a pissy mood and I didn’t like it because I knew Harry didn’t need my stress on top of his.

Throwing my stuff on the floor I found my way upstairs and into a bedroom which most probably wasn’t the one Harry was staying in because it was way too clean and I didn’t see anything in this room apart from the basics.

Shutting the door behind me rather strongly I plopped down on the bed, slowly crawling under the sheets and putting my head on the pillow. My eyes were shut right away and I felt content. Relaxed. Cool.

In that moment I also knew I should’ve stuck it out, taken my attitude back and get food instead of coming home but oh well. I made a scene already so it didn’t matter. Especially not after I fell into a deep slumber.

Fic: Creeper

Summary: Dan and Phil meet for the first time
Word Count: 1,869
Rating: G
Tags: 2009 Phan, Fluff, First Meeting, Awkwardness
Author’s Note: This fic was inspired by how simultaneously provocative and innocent Dan seems in the “AmazingDan” video (even though that wasn’t filmed until 2010). Combine that with how young he was and his constant insistence that he is painfully awkward, and I thought his first meeting with Phil probably wasn’t as instantly easy as most fics portray it.

[Chronological list of all fic posts in the Creeper series]


Phil hunches his shoulders a bit, not exactly hiding behind a pillar but just standing … really close to a pillar. And maybe a little behind it. Just a bit. But definitely not hiding. Definitely not hiding like some creeper waiting to meet up with a teenage boy he met on the Internet.

He’s never done this before, actually arranging to meet one of his subscribers in real life. Dan has become more than just a subscriber to him over the past few months, of course, but he can’t deny that the … relationship? friendship? … began with Dan stalking his videos and hounding him on Twitter like so many other subscribers had done before. Phil’s had plenty of admirers as his subscriber base grew over the years, and a lot of them flirted with him, some outright propositioned him, but he was never tempted to take any of them up on their offers.

It’s just … Dan is … different.

But Phil can’t deny the power imbalance. He knows he’s a well-known personality, even if only in a limited little sphere of the Internet. His YouTube channel has thousands of subscribers. Tens of thousands. He gets fan mail. Lots of it. Weird as it sounds to him sometimes, he has … fans.

And Dan is one of them.

And he’s only 18.

And Phil, AmazingPhil from the Internet, has invited this teenage fan to come stay at his house. Overnight. For three days. While his parents are away.

Yeah, it sounds creepy. Which makes him incredibly self-conscious. What in the world do Dan’s parents think about this? Phil hasn’t asked, because he doesn’t want to mess this up.

Because, despite the power imbalance, he’s really excited and nervous to meet Dan.

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HannibalCon RDC3 - day 1. Personal recap

So yesterday was the day that so many of us feverishly anticipated and dreaded :), the actual possibility of meeting Bryan Fuller, Hugh Dancy, Aaron Abrams, Scott Thompson, Demore Barnes and Ellen Muth! I mean. What -are- the chances?

I flew over Friday morning (having dreaded flying in that storm but it did die down that night, fortunately) with Alex and we made our way over to arrive at 10 am, to photos of other Fannibals on Twitter already, though the hotel was still very much empty. Good to take photographs :)

I got upgraded to the next room level (which is why I can now drink coffee while writing this at 5:30 am (thank goodness)). By afternoon the lobby was filling slowly, flowercrowns everywhere. A truly elevating atmosphere, because even though I’m not really a flowers and frilly stuff kind of gal, it just is incredible to watch. Btw the bloody flowercrown @idontfindyouthatinteresting made for me drew many compliments (thank you, again!)

Registration openend a bit early and people went queuing until the main ceremony started. Incredible, there were soooo many people there, so many beautiful cosplays already. @lovecrimecat came by and we distributed the flyers for @radiance-anthology flyers to those standing in line, managed to meet so many of those who signed up (yay), got little gifts in exchange from so many people (and everybody just gave me a second one when I asked so I could give them to Katrina who couldn’t come - so awesome of you guys, thank you again!). I met so many people ‘from’ Twitter and it’ so nice to recognize some from last time, to put name and face to the @s. *hugs at all*

Opening ceremony.
I have a gold ticket this year so I went up front and sat next to SpiceyScorpion, only to realize that -that- was way to much in front for my nerves …. *rolls eyes at self*. I went a few rows back and to the side, which was a good decision for later^^.
“They” came in a few minutes to late, we saw Aaron and Scott do shadow theatre behind the scenes and Sean called them out one after the other.

Demore seemed honestly happy to be there, addressing us with such kind words, upping the applause and calling backstage that that could not possibly be topped*fg*. Aaron came out and asked us to clap for Hugh because he was supposedly afraid he wouldn’t get any ^^^^^, Scott said something along these lines as well, I think. Both very funny. Ellen was there^^ and addressed us with a few kind ords and then Sean announced Bryan next and the room (not in any way quiet before) went -wild-. And Bryan…. Bryan went “crowdsurfing”. Meaning he ran through the aisles and high-fived us. You know that sitting to the side decision? Yeah….
What a moment, there’s lots of pictures in the Tag #HannibalCon, go and look, it was…. incredible. God bless. Anyway Hugh came out last, announced by Sean as one of the best british actors, and boy, that was applause^^. He seemed a bit overwhelmed with the energy there^^ and honestly, I can’t quite remember what he actually said but it was something along the lines that he was looking forward to a wonderful weekend.

They came out together after that and we held up the signs that @the-winnowing-wind distributed - “Fannibals Forever”…. They took videos and photos of us. Bryan posted some of it later. Incredible moment to have been part of. I’m even in Bryans video (yay^^ (and if you know where to look^^)).

The gold ticket holders went across the hall next, to a slightly smaller room with tables set up and we were seated by group/friends. And then we waited, because they got something to eat first…. (darn^^^). Colleen got out some booze and we talked a lot and proverbially bit our nails a lot *g*. When they finally got in they were sent to the various tables for 4-minute-meet-ups. Only the meet-ups didn’t stay at 4 minutes :P.

Demore was first and I was soooooo nervous. (The seat next to me was free btw, and so the -all- ended up sitting right next to me (*still screaming about that*. …. ) I shook my hands in the air in an effort to get rid of some of the energy and he put his hand on my shoulder asking me why I was nervous and I brabbled something unintelligible and shook my head. Very sweet. We talked a bit about his fight scene with Mads and that we would have liked to see more of him^^ and I told him I can’t wait to see him in American Gods and he rubbed my back when he left. *float*

Next was Scott, who brought his pizza and drank some mooneshine with us^^, played Tarot with us and was generally just this very kind and interesting person. I wasn’t -quite- that nervous anymore by then (thanks Demore (and Colleen for the prosecco)), meaning I actually talked a bit, though I can’t quite remember what^^.

Ellen was next and she was also very nice, we talked about the fact that her scenes are imho some of the most scary in Hannibal. She also wore some of the coolest jeans I’d ever seen^^.

Ok. Next? BRYAN. He saw the Will!Faun scarf of @flying-rotten we had put on the table cloth and chuckled that he knew who -we- are waiting for and that he couldn’t blame us^^. He asked us, if push came to shove, if we would prefer Will & Hannibal S4 or SotL. Our table was Hannigram, though there was apparently one that was 'done’ with it…. He told us about it a bit, much the same that Hugh has said before as well, that it would be an inversion of S1 etc. I…. hope that push does not come to shove, because he told us a bit about how much he loves the lyric of Thomas Harris books and I would really love for him to be able to fully lay out his vision. I hope he gets to do this (we have to continue to fight, guys!!!). He also told us, that Thomas Harris apparently writes a new book and he…. poked Martha to get the rights to it already, without quite knowing what it was about yet *g*.

I…. took all my courage then and showed him one of the Radiance-Flyers and explained a bit and we asked if he wanted to do a little something like a foreword for it. And guys - HE DOES! He asked when it would need to be done and I said May 1st and he looked at the flyer and indicated the twitter @ there and asked if he should send it there and I was like (you know this situation, where, once you start, your mouth kind of runs away with you?! At least mine did^^^) “Oh well, yes, or you know you follow me on twitter, you can just send it there if you want” and he looked at me (directly) and said “yes, I know.” Well, RIP me. I answered with a very intelligent “ah” if I recall correctly and ducked my head and then Romina and I emphasized that it would be awesome if he actually wants to do that and finds the time.

He asked us after what drew us to Hannibal, as he got feedback from a lot of the other young women (I thanked him for 'young’, you know, once you’re in it doesn’t matter anyhow *another eye roll at self*) and we said that its not only beauty and connection, but also intelligence. You have to think with Hannibal. He recommended 'Legion’ to us and asked if we’d seen it before and I said that some stuff hasn’t made it across the big pond yet. And then Bryan went and …. not ranted directly…. but expressed his lack of understanding of the fact that things take so long to be legal and why series were not streamed worldwide because people would just go and pirate it anyway -because- it was not available legally. He went and made a (imho) very fitting anology with the conservative stance on abortions in contrast to piracy, meaning just because it’s forbidden it doesn’t stop people from doing so, it just gets unsafer and illegal.
Oh and he took photos of our table and @dr3piecesuit s and another girls tattoo, because he loves them. :) And he told us that he brought something for Hugh to wear for the Cosplay contest. Can’t wait *g*
He was called away then, way past the 4 minutes^^ and …. he is such a precious human being?! Exuding so much warmth and honesty and exuberance. I feel honored that I got to sit there.

A propos honored… Hugh was next and there I was again - nervous. Awesome. *third eyeroll* He complimented Camilles Will!Faun, saying it was very beautiful and then laughing that that was maybe a bit weird^^, and then telling us about all the gifts he gets and that he keeps the little plush Wills, giving them to his son to play with, even the bloody ones….. *fg*.
The girl next to me (@OnTheVerger) talked to him about how much Adam means to her because she has Aspergers and then broke into tears and Hugh comforted and hugged her and it was sooo sweet. We showed him the Radiance flyers as well and he said “blood fueled embraces, indeed” *g*.
Bryan ran by then and left a bitten off Babybel for Hugh. IDK if Hugh bit off that piece or if Bryan did but it was hilarious^^.

Hugh had to leave then and Aaron came to our table last, I told him I backed him and he told us about the film he and Scott are in (Scott came by and set down next to him^^) and we talked about how much we would all want to see more of Hannibal. Oh and Scott said (before) that he was supposed to teach Clarice Starling - how awesome would team Sassy Science be doing that in SotL? Seriously?
Anyway, I remember I touched Aarons shoulder in the spur of the moment talking about -something- but I can’t remember what exactly and the panicking about that. ;))

I went to my room at 1:15am, got into bed by 2am and was wide awake again at 5:15 am.

What. a. rush.

PS: This is no photos because my cameras not that good - check the Hashtag on Twitter, there’s TONS of them ;). Already ;)

Rosemary: The Ship That Sank the Homestuck Fandom

As you may or may not know, I was recently accused of hating lesbians. Seeing as how I ship Johnrose pretty feverishly, I get this a lot. As in, every time I fucking post something on the tag. So I decided to pull up one of my old essays on the matter. I posted this some months ago on Omegaupdate under the name ‘Salty.’ Enjoy.

Long post incoming.

I think the main reason I dislike Rosemary is for what it did to the characters in terms of progression; or, in this case, the lack thereof. Homestuck post-A5 always suffered from a certain kind of stagnation, wherein neither the characters nor the author really knew what to do next. John, Jade, and Davesprite stagnated on the Prospit battleship; the Trolls, Rose, and Dave stagnated on the meteor. Both of these derived from a lack of initiative to use this time in any constructive manner, i.e, not deal with the literal garbage fire of issues that they all had looming over them. Sure, they talked about Lord English and Bec Noir… kinda. Sure, they had a few confrontations with each other… kinda, and all those confrontations had to do with romantic entanglements which I can guarantee most of the fandom didn’t particularly care for. They didn’t even really have an antagonist–Gamzee never fit that role well, and was hardly utilized in such a way that made him anything more than another forgotten character, like most of the other trolls.

Not only were these conflicts uninteresting, however, but they never went anywhere. Like the characters themselves, they stagnated, and any hope we had for them to be resolved was washed away in the actual shitstorm that was the Retcon. Everyone got a happy ending off-screen where nothing was solved; ‘show-don’t-tell’ is a good rule of thumb for a reason, even if Hussie was so fixated on ‘subverting’ typical tropes like an A+ pretentious asshat too big for his britches. Which, along with stagnation, is a good way to describe A6 and beyond: too big for its britches. It tried too do much and stretched our characters too thin. Instead of being about four kids playing a game and being assholes on the internet, it became a teenage soap opera designed to pander to it’s most vocal demographic. And that killed the comic.

Now, you may be asking 'but Salty, what does this have to do with why you dislike Rosemary so much? You’re just talking about the problems with the comic itself, not the relationship!’

Well, like almost everything in Homestuck, these all correlate pretty close together.

To simplify, we’ll start at the beginning: I think Rose Lalonde is the best character pre-A6. She had a level of depth and nuance to her personality that inevitably made her the most interesting character. We actually gave a shit about that happened to Rose. I mean, we gave a shit about all the kids at that time, but especially Rose. Her Grimdarkness? Coming to terms with the fact that her Mother wasn’t the monster she thought she was, and that she hadn’t had nearly enough time with her? Just watching the way she grew as a person? Act 5 and before, she’s honestly the reason I think the comic was so successful, or at the very least a large contributor. Her character helped tie the others together, especially Dave and John.

Then we get to Act 6, and Rosemary becomes canon.

All that development? Thrown out the window. Rose becomes a drunk, and it never gets resolved; Rose admits she was a terrible daughter, has tremendous guilt over the death of her mother, but who cares? Time to make her the comic relief! Her powers are never truly utilized again,nor her connection with the Horrorterrors: her personal growth is stagnated, her intellect and, quite frankly, most of her defining personality traits are cast haphazardly by the wayside. Her entire personality begins quite rapidly to revolve around two things: drinking and… Kanaya.

Kanaya, her badass, chainsaw wielding GF, who has her own character slowly “develop” into a full-on Mary Sue. Kanaya, the troll she had the most contact with, but they were never shown to have anything more than an established friendship between them. Hell, their trope was originally supposed to be one of moirailship.

Rosemary suffered, albeit in a far lesser sense, what Davekat suffers from: it came out of nowhere, and then never went anywhere after. Sure, they were friends, and sure, Kanaya admired her, but what about Vriska? What about John? What about her other friends, and the game she just lost her mind to? What about all this buildup to these other relationships that never went anywhere, and seemingly got dropped off the face of the paradox space? Are we to believe that Rose and Kanaya are really so callous as to forget the others even existed, going about their day-to-day in a sick mockery of 'second best?’ I wanted to see those story arcs come to something.

I wanted to see John and Rose bond over losing a parent. 

I wanted to see Kanaya finally help Vriska turn her life around, and Vriska help Kanaya become less meddlesome. 

These are problems that were never solved because of Rosemary.

Hussie wanted so desperately to appease his 'fans’ that he forgot about plot-lines; character arcs; relationships; story. He made Rose gay not because he wanted to make her gay, but because he backed into a corner and gave into the mouth-frothing rabidness of his following. He didn’t know what to do with her. This would be the first time Hussie changed his script, but would not be the last. This is the first step, as I see it, into the downfall of the comic; it’s maddening descent into stagnation and Hussie’s continued reluctance to finish the story the way he wanted, to the point where he handed the comic over to 'funny twitter man’ Cohen because he just couldn’t deal with it anymore. 

Honestly, I can hardly blame him.

Do I have a problem with Rose, or any other Homestuck character for that matter, being gay? Of course I don’t. In fact, I would have loved it! I crave positive homosexual representation in the media. But for the love of god, what I didn’t want was forced, stagnated homosexuality just for the sake of having it. As a bisexual myself, I honestly found it insulting – are we really that easily pandered to, that easily placated? Is our community so obsessed with this backwards idea of 'representation’ that we don’t even care for it to be portrayed in a decent manner? Are we so desperate and shallow that we’ll scramble towards the most lackluster, half-assed content and call it genius just because it has two people of the same gender kissing? Others might – fuck, I know others will and have – but frankly, I like to think I have higher standards than the bottom of the barrel. No artist, no writer should ever have to jeopardize the integrity of their story in order to appease the arbitrary wills of some vocal group of fans who, frankly, don’t know jack-all about romance. 

Their story is their own; people read them because of what they wrote, not because of what others wanted, which is a lesson that Hussie seemed to unlearn post-A5 – hell, maybe even post-Problem Sleuth.

I honestly attribute this to the massive decline in Homestuck readers overall. This kind of pandering, along with the stagnation that followed, and, of course, the frequent pauses, turned off at least 75% of the readers by the end of the comic, and that estimate is generous at best. A7 didn’t even reach one million views. 2011 through 2013, you couldn’t even go on the internet without seeing something Homestuck related pop up out of nowhere. /hsg/ got banned on 4chan, something that hadn’t happened since the rise of /mlp/. Tumblr was constantly pumping out new content that stretch as far and wide as Homestuck itself. The subreddit was at an all-time high. Homestuck and it’s huge fan projects dominated the internet like no other piece of media had done before.

And then people couldn’t deal with it anymore, so they left. The fanfic writers, the artists, the theorists… almost all gone, with only a handful of good content creators still around to fill an ever-growing hole.

And guess what?

It all started with Rosemary.

Lady in Red

Picture not mine

A/N: What do you guys think?

You were getting ready for your first premiere for a marvel movie, marvel was by far your favorite comic company because they had better quality & different type of superheroes with different backgrounds and personalities. You wore a tight red dress that had slits on the side but they only hit your thigh, you weren’t so sexy when it came to clothes although it was backless and hugged each part of you body making you look longer and sensual and even though it was your first premiere you didn’t let some random designer that you’ve never heard of style you, no you let your best friend (Y/BF/N) she had a passion for fashion and her custom designs would look better than any known designer because her work was based on the person and their comforts and assets not the other way around. “Damn I’m good , I mean look at your ass man.” She said in a dreamy voice while she placed her hand on her chin leaning on the bar, you rolled your eyes and put on your black heels even though no one would see them because your dressed reached the floor. “Do you think I may have over done it ?” You asked nervously, just because it was your first doesn’t mean you wanted to be the belle of the ball “You look absolutely stunning bitch, all the men are going to drool over you and some women as well.” (Y/BF/N) said winning at you, putting you at somewhat ease. You didn’t look absolutely regular but you didn’t feel stunning as you looked in the mirror your shoulder length hair was straight, you were a very fair amount of makeup that consisted of highlight, false eyelashes, a dab of concealer and lipstick but you felt more then comfortable with your look. 

You wore a single strand of diamond earrings and no necklace trying to keep as much attention away from your chest as possible, then you heard a knock that broke you out of your focus you watched as (Y/BF/N) ran over to open the door which revealed your driver of the evening “Ms. (Y/N) (Y/L/N), I’m Jared and I shall be your driver tonight the car is awaiting your entrance.” He said and walked right back to the car waiting for you “Are you sure you can’t come with me ?” You whined holding your best friend which caused her to laugh “No silly ! Now go out there and show them how bad ass you are!” She said hugging you for the support you so desperately needed. You nod kissing her cheek making your way to the car and you see Jared already standing by the door holding it open for you “Thank you Jared, that’s very kind of you.” You said softly smiling at the older man who returned your happiness, he closed the door behind you sand went back to the drivers seat silently driving to the premier and just as you were about to get out you heard “Knock me dead Ms. (Y/N), show them all who you are.” Jared said smiling at you widely and just his words gave you the extra push you needed to be yourself, you took a deep breath, relax and you had become (Y/N)(Y/L/N) blogger and marvels new story board creator. You smiled and nodded opening the door and not even a foot was out of the car when you heard the shutters but you didn’t freeze you continued to get the rest of you out of the car but once you did you wished you could immediately go back in , so many people were screaming your names, so many paparazzi members had been taking your picture but you held your head high, smiled and walked along the carpet until you were stopped for a few interviews with E!, Buzzfeed, Vogue and Insider after all those were done you had finally found your manager “(Y/N)! You look gorgeous, I almost didn’t recognize you! You’re working gold magic of all your interviews the fans are eating you up on twitter, so keep this up kid!” George said sticking up two thumbs.

 You respected George as a man but not so much a manager, he truly never cared about your career only his own so if you looked good he looked great but you nodded and smiled snapping a few more pictures as the night went along before the movie started and everyone needed to be seated. You were just finishing up your last picture when you heard a CRACK and then you felt yourself fall backwards, why backwards because you just so happened to be walking up a step when you fell. You didn’t open your eyes because you were waiting for the embarrassment to begin but no such thing happened because when you opened your eyes Chris Evans face was so close to your face , you felt his quiet breath “Are you all right?” He said with pure concern looking at you with worry “Yeah, my heel just snapped… so professional of me huh?” You said laughing which caused him to laugh “Hold on to my neck.” That was all he said when you felt your body begin to lift off the ground and you quickly wrapped your arms around Evans “What are you doing?” You asked him quietly looking at his side profile, shit was this man perfect from every angle. “I’m carrying you, I mean unless you want to limp around with your broken heels?” he asked looking at your broken heel in your hand you shook your head quickly blushing at him as you felt all the sparks hit you eyes, the paparazzi was truly eating this up whole, you felt your feet touched the cold floor “Looks like you got lucky because you’re my seat buddy.” Chris said placing you gently in your seat as he took his after “Thank you Mr. Evans…” you say blushing harder due to the embarrassment that you were now feeling “Please call me Chris, Ms. (Y/L/N)” he said and this shocked you, the Chris Evans knows your name.  “I make it my business to know everyones name, and I’ve seen you when we filming Civil War, I had to know your name the second I saw you.” You whispered in your ear causing you to look away from his so fast “Well Chris I appreciate your interest in me.” You said calming your face down from the red coloring.

 Just as Chris was going to speak again Stan Lee stood before the audience “Thank you all for coming and supporting my work and love, I hope you enjoy the latest edition to the Marvel franchise.“ He said loudly before exiting off the stage and on cue the movie began causing everyone to hush down “If you jump, I have a comfy landing for you (Y/N).” Chris said whispering in your ear causing you to blush once again shaking your head at his remark but he was some what right because you had ended up clutching his arm in pure suspense during one part of the movie but you kept your hand on his arm through out the movie watching in pure silence but you would look at him from the corner of his eye watching him every so often noticing him looking at you. Once the movie ended everyone stood up and clapped the movie was truly a work of art, and as you went to hug the cast for all the amazing and hard work to complete you find that the last cast member you didn’t speak to happened to be Chris Evans who was talking with fans, smiling and looking so damn good, you were going to walk passed him and congratulate him on twitter but Chris had over ideas as he grabbed your waist in front of everyone “Lady in red just where do you think you’paparazzire going you must take a proper picture with me.” he said posing you in front of him as his hands sat on your waist pulling you close to him and if the paparazzi didn’t eat you up before they were eating you both alive “Call me sometime.“ Chris said whispering in your ear putting a piece of paper in your hand before walking away from you which caused you to walk towards the nearest exit. 

You looked around for Jared and once you found him you hopped into the back of the car not saying a thing on your drive back home, you thanked him once again before wishing him a good bye and you had believed your night was finally over until you saw your best friend sitting on your couch with the TV on and thats when you froze, it was a picture of you and Chris when you fell and when he made you take a picture with him but the title is what truly caught your attention "Lady in Red takes Captain Americas Heart.”

Chanyeol’s self composed song ‘’Heaven’’ lyrics (Analysis)

So, this is my first post & the first analysis in tumblr (since I had a lot in twitter lol).

Anyways, this is based on my own opinion, accept it or not; it’s your decison.


Let me start from the beggining.


Chanyeol once asked a queston ‘’If you could describe Baekhyun with one word, what would it be?’’

He answered ‘’SKY’’.

Since 2014, when Chanyeol started using Instagram, he often started posting pictures of sky as well and he still posts them, till now. Let’s see.

Now, I’d like to show you something from Baekhyun’s account. 

This pic. As we all can see, the caption is a cloud, which a certain person (and not only him) uses when posting a pic of SKY. But this is just a selfie and obviously it’s not related to the sky. Baekhyun doesn’t wear any blue thing or etc that might be related to a cloud, yet the caption says it all.

Now here.

Chanyeol puts different captions while posting sky pics. Such as ‘’Beautiful’’. But also, he puts clouds. 

In conclusion, we can guess, since Chanyeol thinks the sky resembles Baekhyun, he was actually the one who posted Baekhyun’s selfie with such caption. Usually Baekhyun rarely posts anything. When he does, he always puts some long captions, thankses fans and so on. But here we see a single cloud which, I do repeat, doesn’t really relate to the post.

Of course, it might be a coincidence but as they say ‘’Coincidence isn’t a coincidence at all’’. Haha, anyways, you may have your own opinion about this posts.

NOW, let’s go the the main topic, since we all, I think, realized the word ‘’Sky’’ for Chanyeol is related to Baekhyun.


‘’Heaven’’ is a song composed by Chanyeol (!! only the lyrics !!)

Now, let’s start analyzing what’s behind the lyrics~

‘’Hello angel, you’re like a painting

You’re all I see when I look to the skies…’’

These two sentences are quite simple, I think. The author (Chanyeol) as we see, talks about his beloved one and tells us that he sees his beloved one when he looks to the skies. The beloved one is related to the sky. 

‘’City street lights, even if the lights go out

And the moon disappears, It’s bright because

I have a star that fell from the skies

And it’s you…’’

As we see, he keeps repeating the word ‘’light’’ several times. He compares his beloved one with lights as that one, he claims, is brighter than all the street lights.

Lights, lights lights… Would it be safe to remind Baekhyun’s power is exactly the LIGHT. Not only that, but also the fact that he’s the light, the brightest member of the group, and as EXO claims he keeps them as one.

‘’Even the brightest jewel in heaven

For sure couldn’t be brighter than you

Don’t drift away from me

Baby won’t you stay

I’ll love only you forever..’’

Quite interesting that Chanyeol keeps talking about lights and brightness. Indeed, the beloved one is brighter than any jewel :)

‘’I keep laughing for some reason every night

Even when I close my eyes, I can’t sleep

I spend the entire night with thoughts of you

Your sparlking smile lets me breathe..’’

I really should mention, that besides any romantic relationship, Chanyeol and Baekhyun are besties. People say ‘’The best relationship is when you both can be lovers and best friends at the same time.’’

Chanyeol’s stans and Chanyeol himself admitted it. During the concerts, awarding events and so on, we see they’re all over each other, smiling and laughing at jokes only both of them understand. So I guess, we can bravely relate the first sentence to this, because no matter anything Chanyeol laughs most when he’s with Baekhyun and at anything that Baekhyun does.

The following sentences are very intimate as well. Some people might misunderstand it and say ‘’It can’t be about Baekhyun, because they’re groupmates and they’re always together.’’

Nope, they’re not. All of them have different schedules and they spend quite a little time together. The facts say it; for example in their last interview for VIVI Magazine 2016 Chanyeol said ‘’We chat together till we both forget about time’’ .   (almost as sweet as the lyrics to be honest haha).

Your sparkling smile lets me breathe..’’

Well, quite common for Chanyeol because since 2012 he mentioned his ideal type is someone who smiles a lot. 

I don’t even know someone who smiles more than Baekhyun. It’s my opinion, maybe yours differs? Haha, anyways, the sparkling smile

The part about wings is SO interesting. Today (10.12.16) Baekhyun said he was an angel in his past life, his wings disappeared when he came to the human’s world, but there’s still left. He also demonstrated. Lets see.


So there we see, only Chanyeol knows what’s Baekhyun actually doing. He even asked Baekhyun to kneel and turn around so that people would see his ‘’wings’’ better from behind.  Baekhyun isn’t really fond of complimenting himself. So I guess, someone actually gave him the idea of him being an angel and having wings behind back.

Did Chanyeol discover those wings himself? As he says in the song, he’s sure, his beloved one ‘’hides wings behind back’’. Hm, who knows.

Chanyeol keeps talking about skies and skies and skies… 

‘’The sky gave you everything
And this world gave me you
I want to keep you by my side
So you can’t fly back into the sky
Hold you down, keep you with me
Hug you…’’

As we keep reading the lyrics, we can be sure that It’s impossible to write such heartwarming lyrics If you’re not in love.

Chanyeol about the lyrics said himself ‘’I’ve written the song as If I was really in love’’

The next sentences that I’m gonna talk about are very veryyyy important, at least to me. In my opinion, they’re the key of the song.

‘’She says, easily, so easily

To not jokingly call her so pretty..’’

Many people keep saying Chanyeol used the pronoun ‘’she’’ as he describes his beloved one, so It can’t be related to Baekhyun.

Let me tell you, it proves absolutely NOTHING. Chanyeol is an artist, he’s an idol who has responsibility over his members, over his fans. He has an image and no matter what he must keep that image. It would be totally thoughtless if he did put ‘’he’’. There would be rumors, articles that media sites post every day, and of course hundreds of people that would be ready to judge him and question his sexuality. Chanyeol is one of the idols that gets criticized even when he does nothing. It would put his career on risk if he did really put not she, but he.  We all know Chanyeol apologizes for everything, he cherishes his fans too much to be that free in his actions. 

As a proof to my words, I’ll tell you an example of Western artist, a singer Darren Hayes. He, in 2006, got married to his boyfriend. 

In past, before admitting to be in a relationsip with a guy, Darren sang songs that included pronouns ‘’she’’ too. Such as ‘’Insatiable’’. (You may check the lyrics yourself to get sure).

I have more examples but lets not waste time.

To think, he was afraid that public would judge him, so he kept his relationship in secret. Even while living in such democratic and free country as the USA.. Considering South Korea, where homosexuality is judged way too hard, its totally normal Chanyeol is trying to ‘’stay safe in shade’’ too.

So, as we see, those pronounces prove nothing.

Anyways, the lyrics

The word that caught my attention was ‘’jokingly’’.

To be honest, if we analyze, it’s impossible to call a girl pretty jokingly. I mean, a guy compliments a girl by calling her pretty and there’s no way for it to be a joke. You call her pretty to make her happy, to make her smile and I don’t think any girl would stop it. Jokingly call a girl pretty would be even offensive because (‘’You’re pretty. Lol no, never mind I’m just kidding’’) ??? Nonsense. 

But the author (our Chanyeolie) says

‘’She says to not jokingly call her so pretty..’’

Does not make any sense right? Now let’s change the pronounces.

‘’He says to not jokingly call him so pretty..’’

See? :) Now, it makes sense. 

Korean guys, especially idols, have a bit feminine features of face. So usually their fans or friends call them not handsome, but pretty.

I think there’s no need to remind that most of Baekhyun stans (and one of them is me) call him pretty most of the time because he has cute, feminine side. He can be manly, but the cute side, of course, overwhelms.

All EXO members call him cute and pretty, you can rarely see them call Baekhyun ‘’handsome’’. Chanyeol calls him pretty most of all. Me, a fan since 2012, never noticed him to call Baekhyun ‘’handsome’’. 

The key is, Baekhyun always stops them when they call him pretty. Even when his fans call him pretty, he asks to not to.

Between guys, it’s such a joke. They tease each other by calling pretty or beautiful. And as we see in this song, Chanyeol teases his beloved one and calls pretty while that one asks to not to. You can relate, I think.

An important thing that should be mentioned I think is also the fact that during the interview for their EX’ACT Album, Baekhyun was asked a question.

‘’Which lyrics do you like best out of all the songs’ lyrics in this album?’’

And as we see out of ALL THE SONGS Baekhyun chose exactly Heaven and exactly those lyrics :)

His explainations looks so weird to me as well lol.

Another thing.  Here is ‘’Heaven’’ line distribution (credits to cyhun9461)

As we see, the one who actually sang most is no one else, but Baekhyun.

44.4% of the song lines are Baekhyun’s. Jongdae, Kyungsoo are in vocal line too but their lines are only 27.6% & 29.5%. 

Even Chanyeol, who actually composed the song, has 36.8%.

Thank you, if you have read this. I did put a lot of efforts in this article and I hope you all will like it. As I said before, the article is based on my own opinion, which might be different from yours. So yeah, thanks again :)

All Started With a Song Part 3// Conor Maynard

Word Count- 561

Summary- conor sees your cover and contacts you

A/n- (feel free to change the friends name I was just too lazy to write y/f/n that may times) im so glad you are all enjoying this series! i’ve got a few more tricks up my sleeve so stay tuned!

The next 5 days were the longest of their lives. Conor continued to keep in contact with Y/n throughout the week, trying his best to reply as fast as he could. And she continued to respond, but the responses were shorter and vaguer.

It was now Thursday and he couldn’t stop thinking of her. He followed her on Instagram and SnapChat, but hadn’t had the balls to snap her yet. However, he did like her pictures.

He was currently hanging out with Jack and Alex when his phone got a notification.

“Since when do you get notifications?” Alex asked, eyes leaving the TV screen.

“Huh?” Conor asked, looking at his friend, “oh, it’s nothing.”

But it was the exact opposite.

@y/i/n just posted a photo

He opened the app and tried really hard not to smile.

It was a full body picture of you, Alice and Olivia. You were all in footed pajamas. You were wearing a Captain America one, while Alice had Superman and Olivia had Batman.

You captioned the picture:

Name a more iconic trio, we’ll wait.

Conor clicked the picture to see the tags.




Conor frowned clicking the unknown username. It took him to a guy’s page. His frown didn’t fade. He scrolled to see if this Brandon kid had any photos of you. And he almost crushed his phone when he saw the picture. It was of Brandon and you. You were on Brandon’s back and were holding a balloon. You also were kissing his cheek.

The picture was captioned:

Thanks for the party. I’m going to miss her the most. Love you :) @y/i/n

“Hellooooo.” Alex waved his hand in front of Conor. “Earth to Conor.”

Conor closed his phone, “Sorry, what?”

“Why do you look upset?” he asked, looking at his friend curiously.

“Oh its nothing.” He brushed his friend off.

“Conor’s falling for a girl.” Jack said, opening a beer.

“Who?” Alex asked, pausing the FIFA game.

“Her name is Y/n. Look at his twitter.” Jack smirked, looking at his brother who continued to stare at the floor.

“Oh her. Yeah she’s fit.” Alex mentioned, continuing his game.

“Doesn’t matter,” Conor huffed. “She’s not interested.” And with that he got up and went to his room.


“Just post it!” Alice smiled.

“Maybe he’ll like it.” Olivia smirked.

“Fine, but I’m not doing it for those reasons. I’m doing it because we look cute.” You said, pulling up Instagram.

“Who took this?” you asked, showing your friends the old picture.

“Sean?” Alice said unsure of her answer.

“No it was Brandon! Remember, cuz Sean hadn’t arrived yet.” Olivia stated.

“Oh yeah, I miss Brandon.” You smiled, remembering your oldest friend.

“I hope Australia is treating him well.” Alice smiled.

Alice and Brandon had dated for 3 years, then he got an internship in Australia. They decided it was for the best. But it didn’t make the breakup any easier.

“We all miss him,” Olivia said, placing a hand on her best friend’s thigh.

“I mean, he is my brother.” You sighed.

“Anyways. Post it!!”

But Conor didn’t like it.

He didn’t even message you goodnight like he had for the past week. So you went to bed early, trying to sleep off the sadness. You would meet him tomorrow and everything would be perfect.

At least, that’s what you thought.

I was headed to work today, looked at the date, and realized today is the day, two years ago, that I full immersed myself in all that is CrissColfer and began to tip toe my way into this fandom. And what a crazy, fun, interesting, frustrating, sometimes sad trip it has been.  I think you all know, I consider myself, prior to finding this world, a naïve New Yorker. I was a fan of Glee, Klaine, and Chris and Darren for the entire duration of the show. But I never thought to look closer. It simply did not make sense to me that Hollywood would force an actor into the closet who was playing an openly gay character on TV.  

And so I accepted the narratives that were sold. Chris was dating a guy named Will that I really did not know much about aside from a few pictures and that Darren was very straight and had a girlfriend named Mia. While I was a fan of Glee and Klaine, I had no idea what fandom was. Sure, I was often reading the message boards on the Glee Forum, quick to read any spoilers as they pertained to our favorite couple. I will say, I would sometimes fall upon appreciation post of miarren and I could never really understand what there was to admire. Despite the fact that I believed it was real, and again, didn’t give it more than a passing glance, it always seemed off.  Something seemed wrong.  It started with a pic from Joey Richter’s Easter celebration at his parents.  There was a possessiveness to the photo that made me feel extremely uncomfortable and from that day forward, whenever a picture was posted of the PR duo, I really questioned the chemistry and the intimacy. But again, I didn’t look any further.

 Then on March 24, 2015, the infamous twitter hack occurred.  Being a curious person, when I read the tweet, I was instantly curious. After all, not too long before, it appeared that both Lea and Chris had been hacked and it led me to wonder what Darren had tweeted.  And upon googling I discovered what all the fuss was about:

Now my interest was piqued. Why would one bother to tweet, “twitter hacked trying to resolve” about something as innocent as a favorite. I cannot tell you how many times I have accidently touched that icon. It seemed silly and ridiculous and not worth the mention and so, I started to slowly explore.

 March is traditionally my busiest season at work.  For those who practice employment based immigration, this is our tax season or what I “lovingly” refer to as my version of March Madness.  Its long days, stressful, and at least 6 days a week. So I put my research aside until Sunday, March 29. A day where I was utterly exhausted and decided a lazy day of research was exactly what I needed. And well, I never turned back.

 I spent hours that day discovering this crazy world called tumblr. Reading master posts. Discovering the main CC blogs.  And by the end of the day, I had read enough and seen enough to know that all was not as it appears.  

 And I entered the world of fandom.  Something I was not prepared for and had no idea what it was all about. Sure, I have always been a fan. As a child it started with Duran Duran and moved to my complete obsession with all things INXS.  Since that it has taken many turns, sometimes more music, British actors, sports, theater, and of course Glee. But never did I experience anything like this. And so I started my own blog. With the sole intention of reblogging things that were interesting and following the people that seemed to have insightful and interesting things to say, with the intention of remaining quiet. Just observing.

 I have no idea how I started with that and ended up here, someone who is a pretty strong and vocal voice in this community. It happened gradually, starting with a post about the TLOS and the acknowledgments to where I stand today.  And it has been such an insane and crazy ride. And I wouldn’t change making the choice to be here.

Over the past two years, I have personally talked to so many of you. I have had the pleasure of meeting a few of you at events like Elsie and Broadway Con. I have even had the pleasure of traveling to LA and San Fran with some of you.  Just last night there was dinner and a little singing to celebrate the birthday of one of the very first people I ever spoke to in this fandom. I am so very grateful for all of you, whether  we agree or disagree.  Whether we talk a lot or on occasion. It has taught me a lot. And has often shaped my opinion.  

And of course, the reason we are all here- Chris and Darren.  Two men I have my complete admiration. I may not always agree with their actions, but I think considering what they have been handed, they have handled this burden incredibly and bravely.

I think you all know that I am one of those that firmly believes in CC. That they have been a couple for years and I have seen enough that I do not waiver in my beliefs. I think a large part of why I decided to write so much more is because I think it is so important that people learn about the reality of Hollywood.  And how the constraints that are placed on actors have a profound impact on their lives.  

I often field like I want to take them and shield them under my wing. And if I feel that way, I can only imagine how their families feel. I often wonder if Cerena cries at night and the nightmare that her son in particular has endured.  And it has touched me in a way I cannot explain. And that is why I continue to be here and support them regardless of whether I agree or disagree.

Anyway, I was just feeling a little nostalgic today and I felt the need to write it down.  Here’s to hoping that the journey ahead becomes smoother and a little less tortured and that these men start their journey towards the light.  As I have said, I have no idea what their plan is for the future or how long it will be until we ultimately get to the truth, if we ever completely get it, but I will continue to be a supportive voice through it all. And if I can convince one person to see the truth and start to support the real Darren and Chris than I will feel that I have accomplished something small.

 And if perchance my words ever reach them, I will smile knowing that perhaps my support meant something to them personally.

DAY6 Imagine: Once is a coincidence. Twice is not.

  You let your heart melt as he smiled sheepishly after singing. He blew his hair away from his eyes and smiled widely for a bit before he let his tongue out. You rolled your eyes as you feel your heartbeat doubled–or even tripled–as the crowd let out deafening screams. ‘Such a tease’ you mumbled to yourself as you let your heart sink in jealousy, if it hadn’t completely melted earlier. You sighed and walked away from everyone, reminiscing how your heart was captured when you first saw him play & sing with his band when you were a freshman.

    It’s been a year now. You unconsciously pouted when you thought about it’s a new school year. New students; another bunch of girls will start dreaming and trying to get ‘his’ attention. It’s not like you’re trying to get it, too. Ever since, you’ve been just contented with every glance you steal from him; sometimes–you’d even stare. You always look away, though. Afraid that he’ll catch you staring. Why would you even dream in the first place when you know he’s out of your league? Right, because it’s just a dream. Dreams are just dreams. But truth to be told, he’s out of anyone’s league. He’s always been the top of his class, he’s popular, talented and he’s even in a band. But you? Oh, a simple sophomore who doesn’t even fix her hair or even wear makeups. You always let your hair down, sometimes tie it in a messy bun.

    In a café, where you’re always at, you’re seated beside your friend who’s busy stalking Jae, Brian’s (your crush) best friend and bandmate. You glanced at her and put your attention back to your notes when you heard her contain her squeals and the next second, she grasped your arm and started shaking it. She pursed her lips when you threw a death glare at her, she’s pointing at something–someone. You let out a sharp breath and rolled your eyes away from her to what she’s trying to point. You felt your heartbeat raised and stopped at the same time, if that’s even possible. Brian and his friends are now seated on a table beside the glass window. You looked away and stared blankly at your notes. Your friend hissed at you for doing so. “Could you please stop looking away every time?” she asked before staring back at Jae. “Hey” she nudged you “go stare at Brian and count to three”. You didn’t wanted to but she’s so persistent so you gave up. You tried to calm yourself–somehow–and did what your friend told you. One. Two. Three. Your eyes widened when it met his. You felt like the world stopped together with your heart and you didn’t realize you were holding your breath until you ran out of it. You winced at your friend’s squeals. She told you to do it again and you don’t really wanna dare to do so. But she always wins. So again, you fixed your eyes at him and started counting. One. Two. Three. You just want to disappear at that very moment when again, your eyes met. He even has this playful smile plastered on his face. At your surprise, your friend shrieked and you just want to curse using 50 languages.  You shoved a doughnut in her mouth. She grabbed the glass of water to stop herself from choking. She tried to compose herself, so do you. 'I am never gonna do this 'count to three’ game again’, you thought to yourself as you stared blankly at your friend who closed the space between you. “Once is a coincidence, twice is not”, she teasingly said as she wiggled her eyebrows. You let out a breath & rolled your eyes. 'It’s not like it’s really not’ you tried to contradict her in your mind but you know deep inside, you’re hoping that it’s really not. But we’re talking about Kang Younghyun here. He winks and throw hearts to random girls. He’s popular, duhh! Of course, that meeting of the eyes meant nothing.

   Months passed and you forgot about it. Tried to. But your friend always reminds you of it and tries to open that little ray of hope you’ve been trying to shut. It’s never meant to be opened. “Oh! He’s a pandora! His love is a box of pandora!” Your friend sang along with Brian’s band, changing she to he and her to his. Of course, she’s implying something. You ignored her and fixed your ears to Brian’s voice and the rest of the members’. You closed your eyes and appreciate their music, their voices, their talent. You flipped your eyes open from sensing someone’s eyes are on you but as you scanned the crowd, all eyes are on the band. You sighed and shook your head. You, once again, directed your gaze back to him. He’s playing freely, dancing to the beat, swaying his hips, you smiled. 'He really loves what he’s doing’ you thought. He scrunched his nose and let out his tongue for a second. Moments after, he winked. You felt a pang in your chest. 'Yeah, that’s Kang Younghyun. That’s Brian’. You let out a surrendering sigh. 'He’s the type of guy who unconsciously lead girls on.' You ran a hand through your hair as you thought about how kind and sweet he is to everyone. Always wave at people, smile at them as he scrunches his nose. You bit your lower lip as you dragged your friend. “Let’s grab something to eat and check the other booths” you excused. It’s the school festival anyway.

    Couple of hours after, you walked back to the bench where you left your friend a little while ago, with cotton candies in both hands. You slowed down half way as you got a glimpse of a familiar figure with his bass guitar strapped around his right shoulder. He was smiling as he was talking to his friend. Your throat dried and your feet seemed to forgot how to take a step when he turned his head and his gaze instantly locked on you as if he knew you were there, and he wanted to take a glimpse of you. His smile turned into a grin. You blinked once. Twice. You looked away and at last, your feet remembered how to walk. “Once is a coincidence. Twice is not”, your friend’s voice echoed in your head. You carefully turned to look at him again and his eyes are still fixed on you. His head was tilted as he simper.  Amusement was evident on his eyes. You brushed it off and continued to walk toward your friend. 'That was nothing. That’s normal to him’. But does that “normal” means seeing his name in your messages on twitter? You dropped your phone as your knees dropped on the floor. You’re home now. The message was sent 4 hours ago. Your eyes widened in realization, that was the time when he was looking at you, wasn’t it?

“Gotcha ;)”

If your heart didn’t flip, then maybe it was dropped on the floor, too. But what’s surprising is how did he know your account? Does he even know your name? You didn’t follow him on twitter, and vice versa. So how in the world? You tried to shrug it off as your received another message.

“Why u turned away tho?”

If you hadn’t dropped your heart earlier, now you’re sure you just did. Your throat is dry. Your knees are week. Are you still even breathing?

“Oh.. Are u shy bcos I caught u looking?”

Your jaw dropped and you’re wondering how many hearts do you even have because you dropped your heart again. With fingers shaking you mustered up the courage to click the see-no-evil-monkey emoji. You didn’t know what to say, and still don’t. Part of you hopes he won’t reply, another part hopes he’ll do. And you felt a race in your chest, which started for quite awhile now, as another message from him was sent. You bit your lower lip as you thought how fast he replies.

“First time seeing me staring at u?”

You took a gulp as you tried to process 'staring’. He called it 'staring’ and not just merely 'looking’.

“Uhm…I guess?”

Why was he asking, though? No, why is he even dm-ing you?

“Actually, no. :)”

It caused you to arch your eyebrows in confusion


It was all you could say. Not to blame yourself, though. You just really don’t know what to say or how to even react.

“That’s just the first time u caught me staring at u”.

You swear you just felt your heart did a back-flip with what he said. You remembered what happened in the cafe as your friend’s voice echoed in your mind again. “Once is a coincidence. Twice is not” That means…? It was not? 

“Come to think of it… It’s the second time u caught me”.

You raised a brow and asked what he was talking about

“At the café where you’re always at”.

Your hands are still shaking as he answered the question in your head. But wait… 'You’re always at’. You took a gulp and asked if he knew that you’re a regular there.

“I’m a regular too”.

You arched your eyebrows again

“But I don’t usually see you. Just sometimes with your friends”

“Because u always face ur notes”

Your mouth made an 'o’ shape as you felt your cheeks heat up. These are too much to handle. The 'stare’ was already too much. And this dm is another thing. Now he’s talking about all of these?

“Am I…creeping u out?”

“Im sorry”

“U still there?”

He asked because you didn’t respond.

“No. It’s just… Too much to handle?? I guess?”

“May I call you?”

   To say you were shocked is an understatement. You clenched your phone on your chest. You shrieked and started kicking in the air as you started rolling over back and forth on your bed, too.

   You’ve never typed your own phone number so fast not until he asked for it. You mentally slapped yourself. ‘You seemed so interested! Get a grip!’ 

   You tried to breathe calmly but your heartbeat is so wild. You once again rolled over your bed, shrieking, and fell off when your phone rang. An unregistered number showed up on your screen but you’re sure who was on the other line. You cleared your throat and practice saying ‘Hello’ before picking up the call but no word, even one, came out. It also took him a little while before mumbling “Hi”. You tried to keep it cool but your voice betrayed you when you responded.

   You always hear his voice but hearing it like this, knowing the words from his mouth right now are just for you and only you can hear, is just so overwhelming. Or maybe it’s even still an understatement. You’re still in a panic but somehow your heart finds comfort in his voice. He apologized for the things he’s been doing, like staying at the café because you’re always there. Little did he know, you kept on coming there with a glimpse of hope of seeing him, too and ended up loving to stay there. You both finally got comfortable and talked for quite awhile. Even laughed with each other like it isn’t your first phone call. He was like doing an indirect confession that he likes you, but you just don’t want to keep your hopes up. As you said to yourself, he’s the type of guy to lead girls on without knowing it himself. Oblivious. But he just told you about him always looking at you and you wondered why all this time you haven’t seen him look at you even once. Not until that “count to three” game. You shut your eyes and curbed yourself from squealing.

“You looked peaceful earlier” you raised a brow and chortled with what he said, asking what does he mean “While everyone was so hype, singing with us, you’re just standing there, closing your eyes, smiling like you’re–” your eyes widened and cut him off “W-what?!” You heard him chuckle while you remembered the feeling of having someone’s eyes on you. That was him? But he wasn’t looking when you flipped your eyes open.

“You’re gonna come listen tomorrow?” He asked after some random chit chats.

“You guys are playing again?”

“Yup. We’ll play Eyeless” You whispered to yourself 'favorite’ when you heard the title “I–I actually wrote that at thé cafe while you’re busy with your notes.” You heard him clearing his throat carefully as if he’s trying for you to not hear. When you said yes, you pictured him smiling brightly from ear to ear, all white teeth are showing and his nose scrunching. You were just about to mutter how he is an epitome of the sun or even perfection itself. Good thing your mouth didn’t betray you. You talked for a little more before finally calling it a day.

“Goodnight, Brian”

   A thousand of butterflies flew in your tummy, all your blood rushed up to your cheeks and fireworks blew in your heart when you heard him say your name (he knows) after he said goodnight. And you thought that was all for today but a text came 

“Next time u catch me looking, dont look away. Even if u’ll do, I’d still be looking at u when u try to look back. Goodnight ♥”

You beamed and mumbled to yourself “Once is a coincidence, but twice is not, huh?”. You bit your lower lip hard before you heaved a sigh as you carefully close your eyes hoping these are all not a dream.

Sequel: Once is enough. Twice is too much

I Miss You- Luke Hemmings

Got this request awhile back…will do the other guys. Almost done with Mikey…To the anon, sorry it took so long but hope you like it!!! 

“Where are you and I’m so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight….  Don’t waste your time on me you’re already, The voice inside my head…I miss you miss you” - I Miss You, Blink-182

Two years. It has been two years since you last saw Luke. Back then, it was like a different life time. You first met him when his band was starting to take off. Back then, things were so simple. You had started dating early 2015, and you both were inseparable. You thought you and Luke would have this incredible future together. How naive could you be?

You were sitting in some fancy hotel room, waiting for the boy who once was the love of your life. Well him and his managers. Ugh. How you hated them. No hate wasn’t quite the right word, more like loathed.

Some lady in a pantsuit walked in, followed by some guy in a fancy tux. They each held folders, and came in and sat on the couch across from you. Then Luke walked in. Even though two years changed Luke a lot, you’d recognize him anywhere. The scruff, the messy hair, the broad shoulders, all new features that blended in with those same baby blue eyes and tall stature. The changes in him, and the time spent away from him, did absolutely nothing to prevent your heart from pounding the second you set your eyes on him. As his eyes met yours, you saw a small smile on his face and his eyes shined. So many memories flashed through your head, and from his expression his too.

Then his face fell, he looked sad…and he gave you a look that could only be described as apologetic. He sat down on the other side of the couch you were sitting on, refusing to look at you any longer.

“So, Y/n, you’re probably wondering what you’re doing here today” The lady said in a overly cheerful voice.

“Yeah…what’s going on? What possible reason would you guys need me?”

“Well we know about your previous relationship with Luke, terrible way for you guys to break up before the band could reach the level it is now, so sad. The fans still talk about it today…”

“Sad?” You said, anger beginning to bubble up within you.

“Yes very terrible…” The lady agreed

“It was your fault! I had no choice but to leave! All you fucking management demanded it, and refused to work with Luke if we didn’t end it! Because…what was it? Wasn’t good for the new hot lead singer to be in a committed relationship otherwise the band wouldn’t seem so appealing?”

“Well that was a different management, that wasn’t us…” The lady said calmly.

“I don’t care! You’re all the same!” You screamed. “I don’t even know what I’m doing here if all you wanted was to bring up bad memories then I guess we’re done here. I’m leaving” You said, standing up and heading for the door.

That’s when Luke stood up, and grabbed your arm.

“Y/n…just hear them out ok?” He said, still not quite being able to meet your eye.

“Yes I think what we’re going to say may interest you” The man said.

“What?” You said, standing by the couch, refusing to sit down.

“We want you and Luke to date again”

“You what?!” This news stunned you. Why? What on earth…

“As a PR move, of course, not in reality. We don’t expect that” The lady clarified.

“PR stunt?”

“Yes, as in fake date. The band needs more attention, something to draw the fans back in, and hopefully capture the eyes of new ones. We think if news got out that you and Luke were together again, then it would do just that”

You gave a harsh laugh. “Why on earth would I do that?”

“Because you’ll be monetarily compensated of course.” The man said. “You are starting your graduate program soon yes? We will cover a year’s tuition, provided you cooperate. A few dates, some pictures, and some tweets. That is all we are asking for.”

You turned to look at Luke, who was sitting on the couch looking at the floor. He looked like he’d rather be anywhere but here.

“Luke? What do you think about this?” You asked him

He didn’t move for a moment, but then looked at you. “I think this would benefit you Y/n, something you shouldn’t refuse just because of me. You’re working towards your dream, halfway done in school. This would make it so much easier for you….and management thinks we need to be in the tabloids some more to stay relevant”

You sat back down on the couch, leaning your head against the back of it, completely giving up.

“Fine” you sighed


The next thing you knew you were waiting in front of a movie theater for Luke to get some tickets to whatever new rom-com was the current hit. You looked around you, nowhere did you see creeps with their cameras taking pictures of your every move, but according to management they were there.

“Alright ready to go inside?” Luke asked, giving you his best smile. Scratch that, giving the cameras his best smile.

“All set!” You smiled. You felt like you were going to barf but you made it seem as though you were the happiest person in the world. At least you hoped so.

You walked into the move theater. Luke being the perfect gentlemen, buying you popcorn and some candy, holding open the door for you, and being the sweet boyfriend you knew he was. Luke always treated his girl right, always treated you right…

You guys sat watching the movie. As time went on you both relaxed more. Him stealing your popcorn, you making jokes about the movie the whole time, you both making up your own script of what you think the characters should say and laughing at the crazy stuff you guys came up with. You both were having a great time, and it brought you back to old times…memories from a different place it seemed. Now, it was like you were both right where you left off.

After the movie, you guys left, the smiles on your faces genuine this time. You even held onto his arm as you left the theater and got into the black SUV designated to take you both home.

As you sat next to him in the backseat, his phone beeped. You raised your eyebrows.

“Management. Says they want us to post a few pictures” Luke explained.

“Sure” You smiled.

You then pulled out your phone, holding it up to take a quick selfie of the two of you. When you were satisfied with the picture, you posted it on twitter with the caption: “@Luke5sos needs better taste in movies, I can’t do anymore rom-coms”

He saw your post of course and laughed. He then held out his phone to take a picture of you both, you deciding to kiss his cheek in this photo. He stiffened when you did this, as if in shock. He shook it off though and posted the really cute picture of you both with the caption “@Y/n what kind of girl hates rom-coms?”

Once you saw his response you laughed.

“I don’t hate them…I just find them super cheesy okay?”

“That’s the whole point!”

“Oh Luke…you’ve always been a sucker for cheesy love stories”

“What can I say? I have a problem”

“I wouldn’t call it a problem” you laughed

“No? What would it be then?”

“A part of you that makes you super cute” You said, biting your lip and refusing to look at him

“Oh so you think I’m cute?” Luke laughed, leaning down closer to you, knowing you couldn’t resist looking at him.

As soon as you looked up, he surprised you by pulling your face to his, smashing your lips together in the most passionate kiss you’d ever had. So many things had happened since the last time you had kissed, so much time had passed, but if anything all of that just added to your kiss. From the way he kissed you, you knew he missed you just as much as you missed him. Despite everything, he still loved you, just the way you loved him.

When the kiss ended, he placed his forehead on yours, closing his eyes.

“I love you Y/n, I never stopped. I regretted leaving you the second after I did, and I’m sorry. But I will never let that happen again. Y/n I don’t want you to ever leave my side” Luke said, confirming what was expressed without words.

“Luke…I still love you too…and I never want to be anywhere but right next to you” You whispered

He opened his eyes, and smiled down at you, eyes sparkling with joy, and he kissed you yet again.


As always thanks for reading! I love you guys…. -Lydia

[Translation] 100% SKE48 vol.1 Matsui Jurina x Nakanishi Yuka

Back with 100%SKE48, it’s time for Jurina and Nishishi.

A long but precious interview. Hope you enjoy reading!

*Please note this interview was done last year*

Because times have passed, so I can say

Jurina, just go without hesitation!

In Spring 2015, Nakanishi Yuka, former SKE’s captain who was the main support for Jurina left Nagoya.

Now, 1 year has passed, positions and surroundings have changed a lot.

What will two of them talk about?

The conversation has gone far longer than 8 years history.

Matsui Rena graduation

Nishi: Jurina, long time no see.

J: long…not at all! I still went to see your stage play recently.

Nishi: Yeah, right. Thanks for coming.

J: “Cherry Boys” at Ginza Hakuhinkan Theater, right?

Nishi: How was it? I played the pregnant wife role.

J: leave that aside, I was impressed having a chance to see Nishishi’s stage play. Even some scenes that weren’t so touching, I still felt “ahhh this is good” You were really sparkling. I couldn’t hold my tears.

Nishi: I’m glad. Next time when there’s a stage play, you should try reviewing it. You would help promoting this way *laugh*

J: Well, though I’m younger but I feel like I’m your mom.

Nishi: Though we have 8 years gap but it doesn’t feel weird.

J: Yeah. I also think like that. It’s because we are in the same gen.

Nishi: But I have twenty-something mind.

J: You are overexaggerating *laugh* but you were really sparkling. Maybe, that’s because it’s what you wanted to do.

Nishi: That’s not it. It’s still too far from my dream.

J: Seeing Nishishi like this makes me want to do what I want.

Nishi: However, after graduation, I felt that I could utilize what I have learnt from SKE!

J: Because it had to be perfect, right?

Nishi: Since I was praised about dancing, my chance got higher.

J: This is great.

Nishi: Enough with my stuffs, let’s get to the point! I graduated in March last year. Then, how were you and SKE48? Still suffering from “Rena Loss”? (t/n: impact from Rena graduation)

J: “Rena Loss” *laugh* I saw it from Rena-chan’s twitter. It’s interesting.

Nishi: I saw it, too. *laugh*

J: Since Nishishi and Nee-san graduated, 1st gen had only 3 left (Jurina Rena Masana). Though I always said “so lonely” but actually, Rena-chan was also thinking about graduating.

Nishi: I see. She just hadn’t determined the time yet.

J: The time when we three being together was short. For me, I wanted “we three, let’s try our best together” so, when Rena-chan announced graduation, I felt really lonely.

Nishi: So, this is the reason of “Rena Loss”

J: Right. The pillars graduated continually.

Nishi: But you still have Masana, right?

J: Um, when we have discussion, I started to feel that I’m being like Masana.

Nishi: There are also other kids, right?

J: like (Kitagawa) Ryoha and Goto Rara-chan, right?

Nishi: I missed 7th gen.

J: And also Kuma-chan (Kumazaki Haruka) as I see these kids growing up, I am happy. They are the reason I can rise from Rena Loss.

Niahi: For Jurina, nurturing these kids is like seeing bright future of SKE48, isn’t it?

J: Yes. 1st gen has only 2 left. There are also not many left in 2nd gen. Up until now, many SKE’s main forces graduated one after another. It’s so lonely.

Nishi: I graduated almost a year, during this time, is there anything changed? I want to know.

J: I remember when Nishishi and Nee-san graduate, you said “we hope that members, who have realized that we won’t be here anymore, would come out and take part” When they heard that, they got enthusiastic like “I have to do something for SKE48” not just for themselves but for group. It was a pleasure to see. They got fired up just like when 1st gen got in the group, like “We have to make SKE48 better” the atmosphere was like that time.  

Nishi: I see. I started to feel lonely a bit. Did everyone forget us already?

J: No way! For example, Suzuki (Rika) and also many others, they said “Nishishi and Miepi aren’t here anymore!” *laugh*

Be your support

Nishi: After suffering “Rena Loss” for a while, you were saved by 7th gen. In March this year, Miyazawa-san also graduated, right? You must be lonely.

J: Yeah.

Nishi: And worried?

J: Yeah. For me, Sae-chan is my first Senpai in SKE48. If only we have her, we feel secure. Not only me, but everyone also thinks like that because of Sae-chan existence. Of course, we were confused both when she decided to graduate and when before her graduation stage started…though we wanted to smile for her, there were kids crying.

Nishi: For Jurina, you felt worried or insecure, which one?

J: I felt insecure. At first, I thought I wouldn’t cry in graduation stage but my tears fell down when I was speaking.

Nishi: You’re also a senior.

J: Um, I would like to have Sae-chan graduates with atmosphere that is full of happiness, so I didn’t want to cry. Sae-chan is essential. Although I said like this, I still can’t be as great as her.

Nishi: It can’t be exactly the same. If your goal is to be like that, I think you are forced yourself too much.

J: I’m overwhelmed with the feeling of wanting to be support for everyone but I may not be good enough to say that.

Nishi: That’s so? Jurina is kind of person who lead everyone just by letting them look at her back. I think you’re showing juniors that everything is okay. Meanwhile, we also had concert tour and performed “Wimbledon e tsureteitte”

J: I got to do a roleplay with you and Masana, too.

Nishi: You want to sustain that condition, don’t want it to end but you couldn’t. You must be very anxious.

J: Now, I have no one to rely on.

Nishi: How about Yuasa (Hiroshi, SKE theater manager)? He’s just like one of 1st gen. You can talk to him about absolutely everything.

J: Yeah, I can talk to him about everything. He also has experience as AKB48 manager. His comeback would make SKE better.

Nishi: You know it when you were on concurrency, right?

J: That’s why he understands when I ask him ‘would doing like this be good for SKE?’ it’s good that he’s back.

Nishi: For me, in fact, I didn’t know that he’s back. Is there any change?

J: The love for SKE48 has increased.

Nishi: I see!

J: He’s doing many things for SKE48 even when members don’t see him.

Nishi: Yuasa wouldn’t tell these things to members. He might be misunderstood easily. He should let them see sometimes.

J: You’re right. Yuasa-san also has weakness. But however, he’s trying to find the way for SKE48. He’s working, anyways.

Nishi: This may be because Jurina’s perspective has broadened? You started working 7 years ago, now you’ve grown up, right?

J: I think so, too. Yuasa-san is also not young.

Nishi: Right. You’ll be 20 next year? You entered when you were 11. As we speak, Yuasa-san must not be quite young *laugh*  

Nakanishi’s this 1 year

J: Hey, how about you in this past 1 year? I want to know, really want to know.

Nishi: I got roles in 3 stage plays, got accustomed to it a bit. Though I can’t compare with other actors but being in new environment, living my life actively, I think I’ve grown a lot in this past year. I started to live in Tokyo alone, signed with new agency, did what I never do, gained more experience. There are more things I accomplished by myself, but I also feel lonely.

J: I see!

Nishi: In those 7 years, there were only things I do with members, right? Now, I’m alone. Feel so lonely.

J: Hahaha it’s incredibly lonely, right?

Nishi: Yeah, very lonely.

J: Has anything changed after you graduated?

Nishi: In SKE48, there were only younger people. Now, colleagues who play in stage plays together are all older. I’m still studying how should I communicate with them.

J: Have you met former members?

Nishi: I met Shawako (Hata Sawako) often, at least once a month, we would go have dinner. She insisted to come to see my stage play because we are in Venus Project together and maybe because we are in the same agency.

J: What about current members?

Nishi: I went out with (Deguchi) Aki, Masana was also there. *laugh* and Ha-chan (Ono Haruka), too.

J: all 1st gen!!!

Nishi: I met Masana many times after graduate.

J: Did you talk about SKE48?

Nishi: Of course, it was about Jurina * laugh* like “recently, there’s something like that” or “she cancelled concurrent position” Around half month ago, I also met Isohara (Kyoka). I got to know that she was about to move to Tokyo. She got agency and would come to work in Tokyo.

J: That’s great! I’m happy to know about graduated members.

Nishi: Suzuki (Rika) also contacts me a lot. (Inuzaka) Asana, too. Asana, she really believes in you.

J: Where did you hear that from?

Nishi: from me *laugh*

J: I’m so happy.

Nishi: right! I also met Kuwabara Mizuki. We went out to eat with (Kato) Rumi.

J: I also met her a lot.

Nishi: For Mieko (Nee-san), though we haven’t met but we talk a lot.

J: SKE48’s bond is so strong. Especially 1st gen, you still keep in touch even after graduate. I’m glad.

Regarding juniors

Nishi: my life is just like that recently. Talking about you cancelled concurrency, you also sent LINE message.

J: To Ikkimuchi LINE group, what did you think? (t/n: Jurina, Rena, Masana, Nakanishi, Mieko aka Ikkimuchi)

Nishi: I think “ahh is that so?”

J: just that? *laugh*

Nishi: Even though I didn’t say it out but I can give you some advice if you need. I think it’s good for your health. You would go back and forth between Tokyo-Nagoya less.

J: Not at all, though.

Nishi: No? *laugh*

J: To be honest, I didn’t cancel it because of this.

Nishi: but I think I understand why you did that.

J: What you said is just like what my fans said to me.

Nishi: During this time, I already turned to be your fans. *laugh*

J: That’s right. Nishishi and Nee-san graduated, Rena-chan graduated, then we faced with “Rena Loss”. For SKE48, this is really huge. I, myself, felt that if I don’t do something, SKE48 would be over.

Nishi: About this, I knew it from LINE.

J: So, just as I said earlier, the ones who saved me were 7th gen.

Nishi: I don’t know much about 7th gen, tell me what they’ve got.

J: so much that I can’t explain it all *laugh* First of all, 7th gen has to perform “Party” stage. I went to see them practice and rehearsal. I felt nostalgic.

Nishi: like looking at ourselves in the past?

J: Yeah. I sat in the front row, watching them practice, seeing those sweat, hearing stomping sound “bang bang” that kind of feeling.

Nishi: Full of young spirit.

J: Yes, this feeling is SKE48. But AKB48’s “Party” stage and SKE48’s “Party” stage are different, right?

Nishi: That’s right. SKE48’s “Party” stage is full of SKE48 characteristic. It has Anna-sensei’s style.

J: When 7th gen performed, they still gave out AKB48 feeling. I wanted to put SKE48 soul into it, so I went to practice with them. There’s a song called “SKE48”, right? There’re famous places of SKE48 in this song. If they don’t perform it with SKE48 soul, it can’t be right. I just told them like “let’s change a bit here and there” Though I don’t know much but I did it with the thought of how would we like the fans, that have been supporting us since the beginning, to feel when they come back to see us.

Nishi: I see. How’s Goto Rara?

J: The moment I saw her for the first time, I felt that this is the feeling of SKE48.

Nishi: Heh? What do you mean?

J: She has aura, looks reliable.

Nishi: I’ve never talked to her. The day I graduate was the day 7th gen debut.

J: To other 7th gen, I would be like “do your best!” “it’s not correct here” but to Rara, there’s nothing like that at all.

Nishi: Has that much fighting spirit?

J: Yeah, she’s good.

Nishi: but being like this means we set very high barricade for her.

J: Is that so? I also think that it puts her in trouble.

Nishi: This is also what Jurina had been through.

J: Um. She is really like me. I went to see Shonichi rehearsal and once again after that. Rara wasn’t cheerful at all that time. She seemed anxious and kind of lonely. When performance ended and sending off audiences, she mostly kept her head down. There might be some fans said something harsh to her. It was the time when she’s in 3rd position in “Mae no Meri”, there may be quite a number of fans that objected against it.

Nishi: There are always this kind of fans.

J: Once it ended, I rushed to her. Though she didn’t say anything but I could see her painful eyes. So, I said “I know what you want to say” At the time of Oogoe diamond, I also went through these things, like skipping me at handshake event. I knew well how Rara felt, I thought I have to encourage her.

J: Jurina became Onee-san *laugh*

J: At first, I thought fans would accept it but it wasn’t like that. Whoever stands on the front must put guard on, no matter with members or fans.

Nishi: but if you couldn’t get through these things, you wouldn’t be able to shine. Like Jurina being Jurina nowadays, I think it’s a step you need to step over.

Regarding SKE48

Nishi: What does Jurina think about SKE48 from now on?

J: I want us to be like Chunichi Dragons. People living in Nagoya say “If you think about Nagoya, it must be Chunichi” that’s the reason they support, right? It’s just like that. We need to pay more attention to locals. Both staffs and members think like that. There are still many people who don’t recognize SKE48. I want people no matter near or far to come to see SKE48. However, the current SKE48 has only little exposure in local. So, we want to go and perform in many places.

Nishi: This is also involved with cancelling concurrency, right?

J: Right. I want to have people say “If you think about Nagoya, it must be SKE48”

Nishi: This issue remains since SKE48 established in 2008. Since we can’t achieve it, we need to continue on.

J: When Rena-chan was still here, we were in AKB48 Senbatsu together. We agreed to “try our best to let people recognize SKE48” but recently, only one SKE member in AKB senbatsu is me. If there is only me in that place, people would see me as AKB member. This thought always lingers in my mind. So, once concurrency ended, I can proudly say “SKE48” out loud

Nishi: if there’s someone come to see you and think that you’re good, I’m sure they will come to know SKE48.

J: Yeah. But if I’m still in concurrent position and talk about SKE48, they would be like ‘what?’

Nishi: Of course, we also like AKB48.

J: Yep. AKB48’s single this time, Ryoha and Rara entered senbatsu, too.

Nishi: ah! 44th single, right?

J: Um! This made my heart grows. Even though SKE48 was the no.1 group in last year general election, but after “Halloween Night” Sae-chan, Aya-chan, Churi and Kaotan were not chosen. It’s so frustrated. Though we were looking forward to make SKE48 be more recognized.

Nishi: That’s difficult. Only one member power can’t do anything.

J: That’s right. We also can’t blame staff-san.

Nishi: So, it’s about how will you create chances for SKE48 to be more popular. But recently, you started to use twitter.

J: Yes. I started on my 19th birthday.

Nishi: I think this can help people know more about SKE48.

J: But I’m not good with internet.

Nishi: Sure, you are *laugh* however, Kamata (Natsuki) is now invading Shogi world. She got calendar from Shogi association and posted it on twitter. Jurina, you can post more of your selfies.

J: I can?

Nishi: Absolutely! Everyone can see cute Jurina. Twitter really has power of spreading. If members show what they can do, it would help spreading more.  That aside, you always push yourself too much. You should know your limit. What if you get sick, it wouldn’t be the same.

J: Okayyy. In that case, I hope there will be a lot of members say “you can reply on me”

Nishi: Up until now, though they have “next generation” tag on them, but I think they shouldn’t be bound by that. I think we all have to take responsibility.

J: Um. Now, I feel that everyone is really solidified.

Nishi: That’s good. If everyone keeps the thought “I will pull it forward” in mind, it would be great, right? Jurina is also considering “who should come and help pulling SKE48?” This is the best way. If anyone can stand as the center of SKE48 without hesitation, that would be nice, right? However, there might be the case that you expect too much from them that they got awfully pressured.

J: That’s true.

Nishi: See, your working schedule is already that full. For example, if you get sick and no one can replace the center position in that complicated situation or only this child can do gravure…something like that, what should we do?

J: For me, I also want SKE48 to have Kami7.

Nishi: That happens spontaneously, doesn’t it?

J: That doesn’t happen spontaneously. I think releasing a single with few members is one way to do.

Nishi: “Gomenne Summer” also has 7 members. It has really good balance.

J: The single released in last autumn also has 7 members.

Nishi: Love Crescendo, is it? I think it’s very challenging because you would never know how it will be.

J: The single released in March “Chicken LINE” me, Ryoha and Rara are on the front row. Though I don’t have authority to determine this but I think it’s the image of SKE48. This is good although I want many members to stand at the front. When people say “thinking about SKE48, it must be this girl” and that face pops out in their mind. If we could have more SKE48 faces popping out, we would be stronger.

Nishi: Yeah. In order to make people remember, we need regular TV program.

J: Correct!

Nishi: That’s the most important!…though we just surmise it *laugh* but to utilize SKE48, we have to form MC team.

Jurina’s feeling

Nishi: judging from what we’ve talked so far, the feeling of wanting SKE48 to be better comes out all the time. You’re not changed at all. I think Jurina’s love for SKE48 is greatest.

J: I always think of how I can spread SKE48 further. It’s what I always worry about.

Nishi: If you ask me, I think it’s not the thing that you have to carry too much. There are things that Jurina alone can’t do, right? All of that turns out to be “I have to do something”

J: Umm this is exactly what I can’t do *laugh*

Nishi: Just leaving it to Yuasa-san is enough. Let staff-san handle it. There are a lot of staffs that love SKE48. There may be things that we can’t do right now but it’s okay. If Jurina wants to do it, just tell staff-san “This kid has this outstanding point” wouldn’t it be good? Just tell them to notice others’ good point.

J: Um, I see.

Nishi: This way, it will be like “our Jurina said that” *laugh*

J: If I say it, will I be able to persuade?

Nishi: Manager-san can’t see members before they changed into costume. Members, when they are in front of managers, get so nervous that they can’t express well. So, if Jurina can tell them “that girl is really good at telling jokes”, maybe when they contact with comedians, they would see this point. Have you tried talking with many persons? For example, talking with BUBKA-san that “This girl has perfect body” or “This girl is really fired up, please invite her too” Oh! In the past, you also told BUBKA-san that you want them to shoot me in swimsuit. Though they didn’t really make the photoshoot, but you did it. *laugh*

J: Fufufufu but I’m still not quite confident in my thought.

Nishi: That’s alright. I can guarantee, have some confidence.

J: Is that so? It would be better if I’m not that serious, right?

Nishi: Yeah

J: Then, in order to do that, I have to know more about members. I want to meet members more often, talk about SKE48 more often.

Nishi: I can’t help you with that *laugh* but Sae-san also graduated. SKE48 is getting to the next chapter, right? No matter it’s big or little issue, you need to think it through though you still can’t see the result.

J: You’re right. SKE48 right now has a good sign. In Sae-chan graduation concert, I said “SKE48 is in a pinch” but now, I don’t feel anything bad. That’s because juniors are so active. Everyone wants to do something for SKE48. So, I think promising future is waiting for us.

Nishi: That’s good.

J: One thing without a doubt is that although member graduates, fans are still here. Just like when I said “SKE48 is in a pinch” the fans replied me “SKE48 will be alright” “let’s do our best together” I’m happy hearing that. SKE48 are driven by fans. Members, fans and staffs, we hold hands and go together. Though there are members graduate, the heat is not cool down at all. So, I’m looking forward to this coming general election.

Nishi: It’s coming soon, do your best!

J: Since I cancelled concurrency, I face with anxiety ‘what I should do’. So, having a chance to talk with you today, I feel that my perspective has been broadened. I want to go forward!

Nishi: Whoa! That’s good.

J: It’s a bit sad but I’m the type that if there’s anything I can do by myself, I would try. I can’t stop.

Nishi: How many times have I told you that don’t overdo it *laugh* eat properly, sleep properly, health comes first!

J: You’re just like my mom *laugh*

Nishi: When you face any problems, come to talk in Ikkimuchi LINE group. Mieko would be the first one who replies. *laugh*

J: You always reply late.

Nishi: Yeah. If you wait for me to reply, you would just change the topic already…about this, just forget it! For me, I want you to stay childish forever.

J: But I’m 19 already.

Nishi: What are you talking about? Kuwabara Mizuki is almost 25 but she’s still childish! She still says “…yaki!” *laugh* So, you just continue being like this.

J: Um, understood! Thank you for today!

Why your art isn’t getting attention from professional clients. | Insight from a client’s perspective.

So a lot of you guys don’t know this, because I don’t like to show my hand, but I am actually an author and the leader of an independent business [we’re JUST getting started so nothing too flashy]; but we’ve got 2 major projects in the works and we’re going to work closely with a lot of artists/designers in the very near future.

As someone who’s been on the “other side” of it, actually seeking professional artists for quite some time, I thought I’d share some insight as to why you’re maybe not getting the responses you want when you submit your portfolio for jobs. 

1: You’re too young.

| When I tell my graphic designer to find an artist, one of the requirements I have is that you must be 18 years or older. I don’t do this to be “ageist”, but there are a lot of things we’d have to take into consideration if we were to work with a minor. Here are just some of my personal reasons why I don’t work with minors.

| +Do you have your parent’s permission? Yes its just drawing, but it’d be frustrating to have to constantly go through your parents every time we wanted to work with you. You are not able to sign any sort of legal documentation [such as a contract to grant us rights to the work] and therefore they’d have to sign for you. 

| +Time vs Workload. In the United States you are legally required to attend school until you are 16/17 years old. You being in class for 8 hours a day, then having homework plus whatever other obligations leaves you a very small window to work for us, vs someone who does artwork full time or controls their own schedule. 

| +Ethics. When adults interact with minors there is a certain set of boundaries and power dynamics that need to be observed. I require anyone who does ongoing work for us to provide a secondary means of communication other than email; this is to make sure we can reach them if there’re any problems. It’d be inappropriate for a high school student [you] to exchange contact information with us, 25-30 year olds. While I know my team and none of them would ever behave inappropriately, this is to protect both us and you. 

So I don’t work with minors period.

2: You require payment up front, but don’t want to sign a contract. 

| When I purchase something online, whether it be from a store’s website or Amazon, I don’t have any problems paying up front. This is because I know it is an accredited retailer with a lot of people and systems in place that ensure I receive what I pay for within a certain window, as required by law. There is also quality control which ensures that I get exactly what I was promised. 

There is no entity that holds you legally accountable aside from me. Even with a contract, the legal process is a strain on time, energy, and resources that could be better spent elsewhere. I’d have to get a lawyer. They’d have to review the contract. They’d have to determine if we have a case. We’d have to wait months for a reply and a court date, then we’d have to show up, and then pay said lawyer: meanwhile for all the time and money spent I could’ve just hired somebody else.

It’s time, its money, its an entire ordeal that isn’t even worth it for whatever work we’re getting 80% of the time anyways. “I promise!” is not sufficient for me to give you a portion of our very limited budget.

If you require your clients to pay anything before you start drawing: expect to sign a contract. 

3: You have no variety/You look just like everyone else.

| I have personally looked through over 140 portfolios submitted to me and I can tell you all but maybe 8 of them: Looked. Exactly. The. Same. Both to each other and to all the other work in your portfolio.

For example: I said I was looking for an anime-style artist for my dark fantasy novel. Every single artist except 8 who showed me their work only had cutesy doe-eyed anime girls posing with pastel colors. They had the same faces, the same body types, the same poses, etc. Which is fine if that what you like to draw. But if you submit to my ad and I’m wondering “okay, but can they do a fight scene? Can they do a different style [chibi? shounen? shojo? etc] What about clothes? Weapons? Different facial expressions? Poses? Different genders? 

[Seriously, why do so many of you only draw young girls/women? 

If I have any male characters (like the protagonist!) then you just disqualified yourself right off the bat! 

Please think about this when you’re putting your portfolio together!] 

Different ages? Different skin tones? Different body types? Hair Textures?” 

- Then I’m going to pick someone else.

No matter what kind of artist you are, variety is so important. Because even if someone says “I need somebody to draw a lamp!” and all you literally draw is lamps- somebody else just submitted a portfolio that looks like an Ikea catalog. Why should I pick your lamps? Especially if all your lamps look the same. If all you draw is one thing and you have no range, it looks amateurish compared to someone who can do what you can plus more.

Telling me “I can draw guys!” when your portfolio doesn’t have one guy in it, vs someone who has male and female characters at the very least- right away I’m looking at them over you. 

| +You never know what someone is looking for. Don’t show them only what you think they’d want to see. It’s always best to show them a little bit of everything you can do. Your portfolio speaks for you. No matter what you tell me, the evidence is right in front of my face. Make sure your portfolio is always an accurate reflection of your skill and range. 

4. You come across as unprofessional.

| This one is a little bit harder to define, but please make sure you present yourself as a professional. Even if you’ve never done this before, approach it like a job interview because it essentially is. 

| +Always use proper spelling/grammar to the best of your ability. At least at first, then once you become more familiar feel free to relax a little. But you want to show people you’re taking this opportunity seriously. Someone who puts effort into their communication vs “lol ok xD” simply looks better. Your personal page/website can have whatever, but the important question you should ask is “how do I want to present myself?” If you come across like you don’t care about whatever you’re doing for me, I’m going to assume you don’t.

| +Keep your page/website active. If your page looks dead then you may get passed over for someone who appears more “present”. It can be as simple as having a blog update every once in a while or uploading a quick sketch of something, or even having a link to a twitter. Something where clients can see “Oh hey, this person is still around.” Even when there’s nothing going on, always try to have recent updates. 

| +Avoid harsh negatives. This is the big secret right here folks! Having your own set of guidelines and boundaries is important for anyone. However, if the first thing someone sees when they go to your page is a giant list of things you “ABSOLUTELY WILL NOT DO!” it makes you appear inflexible. 

A technique I suggest is one I call the “vague refusal”, at least when it comes to professional quarries. Instead of, for example, “NO PORN” a better phrase is “Unfortunately, I’m unable to accept work with sexually explicit themes at this time; however feel free to contact me with any other ideas you have!” This communicates 3 very important things.

|++1: That you understand and sympathize with the client’s needs [Even if you don’t really].

|++2: That you are not necessarily unWILLing, but unABLE [wording is important!]. Even if you’re unable because you’re unwilling- never say you wont, only that you cant. If they ask why then feel free to say whatever, but if a client is professional then they will not challenge your refusal.

|++3: That although you cannot do those things, there are lots of other things you CAN do, and you invite clients to approach you.

[This is a technique often used when it comes to rejection emails.]

“Hi Sarah! Thank you for your interest in a position at ___. Unfortunately we are UNABLE to offer you a position AT THIS TIME, however we will keep your application on file and encourage you to seek employment with us in the future.”

5. You can’t meet their needs.

| Sometimes you just aren’t what they need right now. Maybe your style isn’t what they’re looking for, maybe your price is outside of their budget, or maybe they need more done than your schedule allows for. Chances are it has nothing to do with you personally and it doesn’t mean you’re a bad artist. It just means that they’re looking for a very specific person right now and you simply aren’t that person. Keep drawing! Keep your portfolio up to date! Practice with expanding your range! 

In Closing

I wanted to write this to give a little bit of insight to what goes on in mind of a client who’s looking through your work. Whenever an ad is posted we get hundreds of submissions so it really becomes a game of choosing people who have that perfect storm of prices, quality, and professionalism. Hopefully you guys find this helpful! I had a lot of fun writing it. 

anonymous asked:

in stormcast you mentioned that every other johnny is bi/pan but ults johnny is gay and also mentioned that you went through a lot of careful examination to come to that conclusion? is there anything that stands out about why ults johnny is clearly more boy leaning? (i really ought to start signing the, what, four anons ive asked about ults johnny as like ultimate anon or something im really just very desperate for people to actually talk about 1610)

Hi Ultimate Johnny anon! I’m more than happy to chat about 1610 with you – I think ultimately (badumpsh) we’re going to have to do a proper 1610 Johnny issue of Stormcast, when I can mention Ultimate Marvel without prompting the Yuuhy edition of “we need to delete 45 minutes of this.” So as per usual “careful examination” means “a lot of twitter conversation between your @johnnystormcast hosts and also @teenbrigade“ but yeah okay I’m about to scan the text waaaay too closely for a sec. Here’s my reasoning behind the headcanon:

So first off, while 616 Johnny has a truly disastrous love life, Ultimate Johnny has basically no love life. Two issues is a long relationship for him and he has no actual serious relationships. He expresses a lot of interest in girls initially within his story, but with one notable exception that I’m going to get to later, it’s entirely on the physical side. (Again, as opposed to 616 Johnny, who wants to Fall In True Love and Get Married. I have a lot of thoughts about 616 Johnny and the typical male superhero model but that is another post entirely.) As one of his girlfriends notes, “It’s like your afraid of your own feelings.”

But with guys? Ultimate Johnny pays a lot of attention to guys. He comments to Ben that his eyes are the same before and after the accident, which is notable because Johnny knew Ben for like five whole minutes before they were transformed, so he must have really been looking at his face in those five minutes. Later, when Ben is pursuing Liz Allan, who has fire powers in Ultimate Marvel, Johnny asks him if it’s not some sort of weird power transference thing and it’s not him Ben’s really in love with. When Ben molts his rocky shell, Johnny as well as Sue (who would propose marriage to Ben at the end of this story) gets touchy. (Ask me about how the Storms have similar taste in men, a totally different post altogether.)

And then there’s Peter. Ultimate Johnny adores Spider-Man like, from the first minute. At the bonfire on the beach in Ultimate Spider-Man #68 (a group date, which is Ultimate Johnny’s favorite kind of date, and I’m going to get to that), he says “I love that guy” when Spider-Man comes up in conversation. He’s awestruck and impressed by Spider-Man when they meet face-to-mask for the first time (which is specifically on Mary Jane’s suggestion that Peter should go cheer Johnny up). Peter is Johnny’s inspiration to use his powers to help other people. Later, after the mask comes off, he uses Peter as an excuse to get out of a date he doesn’t want to be on and generally seems to want to be around him, showing up at his school after a bad date and going to the beach with Peter’s group of friends.

After his father dies in the Ultimatum wave and the Fantastic Four break up, Johnny disappears for a while. When he makes his return (exhausted and beaten up, something that’s never explained) it’s to Peter’s house in Queens, not to his sister. Peter seems to give him a sense of security – he’d rather repeat high school and live with three other teenagers in Queens than go stay with Sue in her science tower.

Look at how cute this hug is.

In fact, the only girl 1610 Johnny displays 616 Johnny’s tendency to go “hi we just met but I LOVE YOU and we should GET MARRIED I’ve already named our 8 children which I will stay-at-home parent” is Ultimate Jessica Drew, who is not the 1610 counterpart of 616 Jessica Drew but instead a clone of Peter Parker.

Johnny doesn’t know she’s Peter’s clone but he does know she’s a spider-powered brunette and at one point asks Peter if she’s his cousin, so I think it’s fair to say the resemblance to Peter probably plays into things here.

After Peter’s death, instead of staying with May Parker (like Gwen does) or returning home, he goes with Bobby Drake (another resident of May Parker’s Home For Wayward Youths) to Kitty’s mutant underground in the Morlock tunnels, where his main connection is to Bobby. 

Ultimate Johnny also really, really, really likes double-dating. He mostly suggests it with Peter and Bobby, but he went on a double date early in Ultimate Fantastic Four with Ben&Alicia where Alicia set him up with one of her friends. He proceeded to be completely uninterested in Alicia’s friend. 

On the last double date we see him go on (which is almost certainly the last double date period, since after Peter’s death Bobby and Johnny join the mutant underground, ultimately leading to Johnny’s capture and imprisonment), he has this conversation with Bobby while walking home:

“But would you want to kiss a girl who only wanted to make out with you because you were Iceman?” is some pretty big character development for a guy who claimed to be a totally different celebrity to score a date with a girl at the beginning of Ultimate Fantastic Four. Notably at this point we don’t really see Johnny pay romantic attention to any girl. So I do headcanon that Ultimate Johnny used double dates as a way to go on a date with a guy he liked (primarily Peter and Bobby) without ever actually having to ask the guy out. 

I think a lot of Ultimate Johnny’s story is about him learning what he actually wants: his desire to be around people his own age (USM 68), his desire to be a superhero (USM 69), his desire to live with Peter and May Parker and to have a normal, stable life, and I think ultimately his desire to be romantically involved with a man. But also the Ultimate universe is dead now and Johnny was pretty much totally out of the picture by the end of it so. Jazz hands.

Okay so I literally just started writing this Jarchie thing (I put it under the cut) and want to know what everyone thinks/if I should continue it/put it up on AO3 etc etc. Especially since I wasn’t aiming to have a WIP for Jarchie but here I am, writing a thing. 

I’m basing it more off the new comic versions, but I’m also keeping in mind the TV show, so I won’t have Grundy and I’ll probably keep Jug in the beanie as opposed to the cap. Idk yet, I haven’t made any description of it yet. 
It’s got ace Jug, possibly aro, since yeah I am basing it more off the comics but im not sure yet and I just want to say that because hell it may end up having qpr jarchie but then it might not idk idk this is just the first chapter. 

Basically, I wanted to write one of those disgustingly cliche high school AUs, except obviously they’re canonically in high school. So AU instead where Jughead and Archie were never friends.
Jughead’s that emo loner & Archie’s that popular jock dating that popular girl (Ronnie) and every girl wants Archie. EXCEPT Archie’s kinda pining after Jug, but has never done or said anything because he doesn’t think Jug would care or want to even be his friend or anything (’then why’s he dating Ronnie?’ you may ask, it’s in the chapter’s my fellas). 

So it’s kinda like, you know the story line… that guy that’s perfect and every girl wants but he ends up falling for that one girl who’s average and underwhelming and people are like HOLY SHIITTT HOWWW because they’re destroying the social ladder or some shit. And writing those really cliche scenes, except all of a sudden, I’ve realised, they might not be that cliche because this is Jug we’re talking about like… how will this fold out? As cliche as I was planning to write? Or maybe not so much??? idk…

Currently about 3k words under the cut! (not edited since I JUST wrote it)

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Masterlist Tom Hiddleston fics

So since some of you have requested my older stories here are the links to everything I’ve written so far. I’ve put up 18+ for smut, my earlier stories are suitable for all ages!
I want to separate them because they were written more quickly and the chapters are often very short, if I were to reread them now I would probably change so many things but they are still my babies and I still want to share them with you guys.

My Tom Hiddleston stories:

My older stories:

Trilogy Caged/Torn/Fallen:

Caged (finished) (Loki) Emma is a nobody at Shield, until she ends up in the cell with Loki, she knows she should fear him but all she feels is compassion: full story


Torn (finished) (Tom and Loki) Set after the events of Caged, Loki is gone but not forgotten by Emma when another men enters her life. Is he the one that will finally give her a new start? And is Loki really gone forever? chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4, chapter 5, chapter 6, chapter 7, chapter 8, chapter 9, chapter 10, chapter 11, chapter 12, chapter 13, chapter 14, chapter 15, chapter 16, chapter 17, chapter 18, chapter 19, chapter 20, chapter 21, chapter 22, chapter 23, chapter 24


Fallen (finished) (Loki and Tom) Set after the events of Hold. Loki fals from the sky and he brought something with him, something that may threaten the entire human race. sometimes 18+ nsfw: Intro, chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4, chapter 5, chapter 6, chapter 7, chapter 8, chapter 9, chapter 10, chapter 11, chapter 12, chapter 13, chapter 14, chapter 15, chapter 16, chapter 17, chapter 18, chapter 19, chapter 20


First Impressions (finished) (Tom) When Cate first meets Tom he is a rude asshole and nothing like she pictured him to be. Can he change her mind? Intro, chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4, chapter 5, chapter 6, chapter 7, chapter 8, chapter 9, chapter 10, chapter 11, chapter 12, chapter 13, chapter 14, chapter 15, chapter 16, chapter 17, chapter 18, chapter 19, chapter 20, chapter 21, chapter 22


My new stories:

Captive (finished) (Loki, Clint Barton, Nick Fury) Mia wakes up on Asgard with no memory of who she is and how she ended up there. Loki takes an interest in the mysterious girl. sometimes 18+ nsfwchapter 1chapter 2chapter 3chapter 4, chapter 5, chapter 6, chapter 7, chapter 8, chapter 9, chapter 10, chapter 11chapter 12chapter 13chapter 14chapter 15, chapter 16, chapter 17, chapter 18, chapter 19, chapter 20


Charmed (finished) (Oakley/Tess) During his summer job Oakley meets Tess, a married woman who is bored with her life and intrigued by the young boy. Smut, cheating, explicit, feels. 18+ nsfw: chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4


Kindred (finished) (Tom) When Rae meets Tom she immediately sees everything she ever wanted in a man but there’s one thing that isn’t exactly perfect about him: he’s about to marry her sister. Fluff, eventual smut, sister-sister relationship, cheating. chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4, chapter 5, chapter 6, chapter 7chapter 8, chapter 9


Safe Haven (finished) (Loki) A city wide black out on Christmas Eve brings Scar closer to her mysterious dark haired neighbour. Angst, lots of feels and some smut. : chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4, chapter 5, chapter 6, chapter 7


Crimson Bliss (on permanent hiatus) (Thomas Sharpe, Lucille Sharpe) Sexy and scary ghost story based on the Crimson Peak trailer. 18+ nsfw, explicit and some creepy scenes  chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4, chapter 5


I loved you first (finished) (Tom) Emmy is Tom’s best friend and while they have tried taking their relationship to another level over the years it never really happened, putting a lot of heartbreak and unresolved feelings between the two of them. When Emmy hears about Tom’s new girlfriend she doesn’t waste any time and rushes over to London with only one thing in mind: finally making him realize that she has been the one all along. Feels, feels, feels, romance, fluff, eventual smut, angst, jealousy, …  chapter 1, chapter 2, chapter 3, chapter 4, chapter 5, chapter 6, Chapter 7


Delicate (on permanent hiatus) (Thomas Pine) Character is based on a mix of Tom Hiddleston and Jonathan Pine. Thomas is Kira’s boss, a rich arrogant womanizer that stands for everything she hates. But how long will she resist him once he sets his mind on seducing her? Both recovering from a past that has left scars they may need each other more than they know. 18+ nsfw lots of smut, plot, feels, angst, romance, … Chapter 1, Chapter 2

My One shots: 

The break up: Angst and drama, characters are nameless but I think Tom works perfectly as the lead character. Angst

First Choice(Tom) Sequel to First Impressions, set a few months later in Toronto. Does the relationship survive Tom’s busy schedule? Angst/light smut

A good thing(Tom) Liv takes an interest in actor Tom who stays at her hotel, one night they both end up being the last 2 people in the bar…  18+ nsfw 

Mine: (Tom) Tom is an asshole who cheats on his girlfriend Beth, she wants her revenge. 18+ nsfw  Part 1, Part 2 Warning: cheating

Held: (Loki) Eden is an agent for Shield and she ends up in the cell with Loki, will she give into her desires or keep fighting him? 18+ nsfw shameless smut: Part 1, Part 2

Better: (Tom) Inspired by Tom’s wake up call Twitter pic, imagine being sick and having your friend Tom take care of you and insisting you sleep in his bed to keep you warm. 18+ nsfw 
Better fluff version

Salvation: (Adam) Adam meets his new Eve when he is wondering the streets at night and finds a girl about to kill herself. 18+ nsfw  Part 1, Part 2 

All I wanted was you: (Oakley) Book nerd Kira and popular womanizer Oakley seem to have nothing in common except for sharing an apartment, but what if they secretly want much more than just that? 18+ nsfw Part 1, Part 2

Present(Tom) Tom and Becca have been friends since childhood but with Toms career on the rise they are seeing less and less of each other, will Tom’s birthday bring them back together at last? Fluff

The list: (Tom and Luke Evans) By chance Dani meets two of the actors who happen to be on her freebie list, will they make her most erotic dreams come true? 18+ nsfw Part 1, Part 2

Last dance: (Tom) Tia is starting to go down under the weight of her long distance relationship with Tom, when she comes to realize he doesn’t love her as much as she thought it’s time to make a choice. 18+ nsfw 

I see you: (Tom) Was it possible to fall in love with a voice? Sophia didn’t think so, until she lost her eye sight and woke up to Tom reading to her in the hospital. Fluff

Taking care of the prince: (Loki) If you were a masseuse and Loki ended up on your table, how far would you go to take care of him? 18+ nsfw 

Dog days : (Oakley) One shot inspired by the heat wave going around: after she’s been stood up Kate swears she’s done with men, but then she ends up alone in the pool with gorgeous, young Oakley who has other plans. 18+ nsfw Part 1Part 2

Served : (Tom) Quick little one shot inspired by Wimbledon Tom, using the characters from my fic Down. 18+ nsfw 

Fangirl : (Tom) Maggie takes the tube back to her hotel in London after a failed attempt to meet her favorite actor Tom Hiddleston, but maybe luck is on her side after all. Fluff

Haunt me: (Thomas Sharpe) Lily and her friend visit the old haunted Victorian house from the late Sharpe family. Lily doesn’t believe in ghosts until she spends the night in Thomas Sharpe’s bedroom. 18+ nsfw Part 1, Part 2

Stay with me: (Loki) Set after the events in New York, Loki is kept prisoner in the Stark Tower and agent Emilia gets the rewarding task of looking after him. 18+ nsfw 

Remedy: (Magnus) After watching a scary movie on a stormy night Anna has trouble sleeping and Magnus comes to comfort her. 18+nsfw 

Shelter: (Tom) based on a prompt, Tom walks into an animal shelter looking for a furry companion but maybe he finds something more than that. Fluff

A glimpse into the future: (Tom) short one shot that was inspired by the death of Alan Rickman. How would you feel when one day far into the future you read the news that your favorite actor has passed away. Warning: death and feels.

Bad fangirl: (Tom) Fangirl Trish meets her idol Tom on set and they help each other find sexual relief. This one is very shameless. 18+ nsfw 

All yours: (Tom) little one shot using Tom and Sarah from my ebook Down. Sarah is Tom’s PR agent and they’ve been dating for quite some time but it isn’t without the occasional struggle, when Sarah is confronted with yet another sex scene from Tom her jealousy takes over. 18+ nsfw 

Invisible fangirl: a letter to Tom from me and all the other invisible fangirls here that will never get to meet him in person. I wrote this after I was turned into a sobbing mess from seeing all the Wizard Con fan pictures.



Amends (finished): (Sebastian/Reader, Tom/Reader) Sebastian lives right down the hall from you and one night you end up having amazing sex with him. The morning after however your ex, Tom, is back in town. 18+nsfw Feels, angst, lots of smut. Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3, Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7 (finished)

Luke Evans:

Blind date: (Luke Evans) After a bad break up Becca is being set up for a blind date by her friend in an attempt to help her forget all about her ex. 18+ nsfw 

Thank you all again for reading my stuff, if any link doesn’t work please let me know!


Masterlist Sebastian Stan Fics

Fahc - Super Powered

It’s very important you all pay attention to what I’m about to say. I wish to call your attention to a group that’s been causing us a lot of trouble; The Fake AH Crew. At this point we can safely say they are powered individuals, part of a… not a different species, they’re still human. They’re like another race, but it’s not the colour of their skin or the shape and placement of their features that make them different. It’s their abilities. 

They call them Manipulators, people capable of ‘manipulating’ their environment, hence the name of course. They’re not common, but where there’s one, there’s normally a few, crowding in an area like rats. The Government dislikes their existence due to the majority refusal of Manipulators to fight in America’s wars, however, the many attempts to assassinate or capture these individuals has led only to pain or death to those sent to get them. Basically the government stopped trying. No longer being hunted by the government, Manipulators have begun living normal lives, most of them anyways; of course some went down the hero root. Others didn’t. Everyone knows being a hero doesn’t pay. A life of crime, however, can. The Fake AH Crew isn’t the only one of it’s kind but it’s certainly one of the more well known. They rule an entire city for god’s sake. That being said, it‘s not easy. To use a manipulation takes a great amount of focus and energy; it’s not like riding a bike, that you never forget or it gets easier. You can practice and practice until you’ve worn your body down to nothing, but the weight of using the gift never gets any easier. The Fake AH crew know this. They don’t win every fight, they can’t afford someone passing out because they exerted too much energy, so it’s rare to see any of the crew use their manipulations. 

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