i think this is one of the most truthful quotes ever

Did you really mean all those times you told me “I love you”?
Even though I only repeated those three words to you once, oh god did I mean it; that was one of the most truthful things I had ever said.
And you make me think too much; because if you really were telling the truth all those times, then why didn’t you want me to stay?
—  a.a.
was it really worth the pain to tell me to go away? m.k.j.
The truth is the world is wrong,
And society is turned upside down. And what you’ve been taught as a child is not always true.
Because human hearts hold more scars and damage than the skin ever could,
And brains and souls bury secrets unimaginable to any one else.
Because hospitals hold more Prayers than a church,
And more “I love you"s than any other place.
Because the darkest places can hold the most light,
And the ugliest and cruelest places can be the most beautiful.
Because the most damaged people can shine brighter than the happiest.
Because the world is not how you think it is, it’s not all smiles and its not the stereotypes we put on it,
It’s dark,
it’s powerful,
and it’s real.
—  A.P

Nikita {Sentence Starters}

  • “I made the same mistake you did. The best mistake of my life.”
  • “I want you to know I can get to you, and hit you where it hurts the most.”
  • “You need to stick with what you can prove.”
  • “I can’t believe I ever thought you were cute.”
  • “Look. The more you try to do this, the more you hurt yourself.”
  • “The truth is what we choose to believe.”
  • “I told myself if I could just find you and see if you were OK, that I would’ve done one good thing in my life.”
  • “I’m not gonna let anything happen to you. I’m not gonna lose you, too!”
  • “You said you didn’t want forgiveness, but you deserve it.”
  • “I know you’re in this for revenge.”
  • “Your life is over. I’m here to offer you a new one.”
  • “I warned you not to get emotionally attached.”
  • “What do you think I’m doing? I’m kicking your ass!”
  • “You have no idea how much pain I can take.”
  • “Sometimes vulnerability can be our greatest weapon.”
  • “You couldn’t handle me. Not then, not now.”
  • “I can only promise you one thing. It’s going to get worse before it gets better.”
  • “Making friends isn’t hard. Losing them will be. Trust me.”
  • “The last word they breathe before the end, will be my name.”
  • “Do you think we can ever erase who we were? Come back from it?”
  • “You make it sound like you’re my guardian angel.”
  • “I don’t laugh at your jokes, because I have a sense of humor.”
  • “You had gotten out, you were gone. What the hell are you doing back here?”
  • “Live the lie until the lie becomes your life.”
  • “I was the first recruit to get out, and I’m going to make certain I’m not the last.”
  • “In our world, friends are not assets, they’re liabilities.”
  • “You’re going to make me regret rescuing you.”
  • “Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.”  

If a girl asked me why should she believe in me that’ll be faithful, all I gotta say is the following,

“if it took me 25 years of my life to find you, do you think I’ll let you go that easy? If is so rare for me to find someone I can share similar interest, you think I’ll let an ordinary problem get in our way? If is so hard for me to find someone I can have a conversation for hours, you think your flaws would scare me that easy? No, instead I’ll take the pleasure to know you better than anyone ever could and authentic what love is, that is accepting one’s flaw with the price of holding onto on what you love most of that person…”

—  By me
Your hands replace where my bones should be. You pressed harshly into my skin so that I could remember your name when you were away. Your name was imprinted ever so deeply into the dents in my lips, the curves of my waist, I was sure I would never forget. How could I forget the person who bruised me with the harsh reality of my imperfections? Scarred me until I didn’t remember what my body looked like originally?
Your fingers grabbed at my insecurities; exploiting them to no one but myself, and maybe that was the most painful reality. I keep a watchful eye when I walk around my neighborhood in case I run into my most painful memory: you. I can’t sit at the park without being afraid you would be there. I can’t stop at a grocery store without thinking of the time you grabbed my hand so tightly when I tried to leave the isle.
In my dreams I run away from my demons, but the twisted truth is that you will always find me. I have stopped dreaming. I have stopped taking walks, and going to the park. I prefer takeout rather than fresh fruit and vegetables because I am so afraid.
I am so afraid my bruises will resurface and form fresh ones. The purples and blues will mix and create a sense of overwhelming pain and everything that I have tried so hard to forget will come back to me in a sea of colors.
I don’t want you to come back to me. I want my bruises to fade into the smooth layer of my skin, blending within the peach tone of my thighs. But suddenly you’re back, and the bruises stay dark, darker than they ever were; casting a galaxy on fragments of my skin, only shown to those who look.  Eventually, gloomy nights turn into dark lilac skies, takeout turns into grocery store, and late nights become early mornings.
I believe in the saying, “nothing lasts forever,” so this is me saying that you will NOT become me. You are not my mornings and my nights. You are not my dreams. You are not my insecurities, or imperfections.
You are not my morning walks, or my favorite food. YOU ARE NOT ME. Today, my bones replace where your hands once were, and for once in my life, I am forgetting you.
—  you are not me

“I think the most vulgar thing about Hollywood is the way it believes its own gossip. I know a lot of men fantasize about me; that’s how Hollywood gossip becomes Hollywood history. Someday someone is going to say, ‘All the lies ever told about Ava Gardner are true,’ and the truth about me, just like the truth about poor, maligned Marilyn Monroe will disappear like names on old tombstones. I know I’m not defending a spotless reputation….I’d just like to keep the books straight…”

- Ava Gardner to her biographer Peter Evans (after Marlon Brando listed her as one of his lovers in his autobio which was untrue)

The real world

The truth is the world is wrong,
And society is turned upside down. And what you’ve been taught as a child is not always true.
Because human hearts hold more scars and damage than the skin ever could,
And brains and souls bury secrets unimaginable to any one else.
Because hospitals hold more Prayers than a church,
And more “I love you"s than any other place.
Because the darkest places can hold the most light,
And the ugliest and cruelest places can be the most beautiful.
Because the most damaged people can shine brighter than the happiest.
Because the world is not how you think it is, it’s not all smiles and its not the stereotypes we put on it,
It’s dark,
it’s powerful,
and it’s real.