i think they might be married secretly

What frightens me about the men I know is that I know men are so good at compartmentalizing and creating public and private selves. I don’t think there’s a single man I know, including gay men, including men I love, including men in my own family, who I don’t fear might secretly be doing some horrific shit on the internet. I’ve just read too many stories about women who were happily married for years before they found out their husbands’ abusive online habits.

I’ve often joked with my friends about how me using the internet in front of other people (like in a class) is “taking a walk on the wild side” because the might see my search history, but I just want to clarify: when I say that my search history is private and might be embarassing, I meant, “I look up geeky, uncool things like fanfiction and I spend too much time reading celebrity gossip blogs and looking at Pinterest shit,” not embarassing as in the male sense of “My search history would reveal that I send violent, abusive threats to women online and watch rape porn.” My private self is maybe less cool than my public self, but it isn’t so dramatically different that my ethics would be called into question if my search history were to be made public.

Onibi Series: Recap

A while back, I answered a question for tumblr user @outerkat that gave an explanation of known information about the characters of the Onibi Series. That information is now outdated, so it’s time for an update!  (As usual, this post was made with the help of @shishikusas​. Bless her heart this fandom would get absolutely nowhere without her.)

This is what we know as of mid-2017.

The canon order of the songs is still:

1. The Spider and the Kitsune-Like Lion

2. The Fox’s Wedding

3. The Beautiful Shadow of the Demon’s Frenzied Dance Performance

4. Demon Child in the Clear Mirror (at the same time as #3, in a different location)

5. Beheading Dance

6. Death, Misfortune, and the Amanojaku

7. Will-O-The-Wisp

8. Star Lily Dance Performance Capital

Time for characters!

Mai Shishikusa

She has two designs. The green-haired one with the bow was how she was first drawn, and its only purpose was to make her recognizable as Gumi. Her canon appearance is the one with long brown hair. 

Mai is a member of the esteemed Shishikusa clan, and after being mistreated by some men when she was very young, she ate them and left one of their heads at the scene. She later devours her own mother, Ryou, during her (Mai’s) birthday party. Delectably morbid.

In The Fox’s Wedding, she is kidnapped by Akari’s brother (we call him Takahiro but he doesn’t have a canon name). She is forcibly fed human flesh (which probably made her cannibalistic tendencies permanent), and it’s likely that she may have been molested at this time, too.

In The Beautiful Shadow of the Demon’s Frenzied Dance Performance, Mai goes crazy and begins to devour more and more people.

She is seen as a doll in Death, Misfortune, and the Amanojaku. Also, Masa has confirmed that Mai and Akari are the characters seen in Beheading Dance.

Star Lily Dance Performance is a dream, a figment of Mai’s imagination. She dreams of a place where she and Akari can be happy together, to comfort herself before she dies.

Akari Oborodzuka 

Her name has been occasionally translated as Zhu Li. Like Mai, she also has two designs. She is the character with red or white pigtails, and her canon design gives her short white hair. I believe that she is, symbolically, the “Kitsune” mentioned throughout the series.

Akari is a member of the Oborodzuka Clan, and is the sole member that is not physically disabled somehow. She endured abuse from her family because of this, and eventually gained the power to make other people hurt themselves.

She imprisoned a violent and evil character named Tsukuyomi inside of an altar in the basement of her home, and I’m fairly certain that this altar is what was commonly being referred to with that recurring line, “Open it?” Tsukuyomi was actually the founder of the Oborodzuka clan, if I’m not mistaken, and is freed centuries later in another Masa series known as Maha’s Story.

In The Spider and the Kitsune-Like Lion, Ryou Shishikusa kidnaps her and tortures her until she dies. At the end of the song, Akari curses her family, saying that this “strange habit of eating people” must be continued for a hundred generations or something like that. This seals Ryou’s fate, and Ryou is later eaten by her daughter Mai as part of this curse.

In The Fox’s Wedding, Akari is alive again. She isn’t involved in Mai’s kidnapping, but I think the two of them might have been secretly married at this time.

Akari is also seen in The Beautiful Shadow of the Demon’s Frenzied Dance Performance and Death, Misfortune, and the Amanojaku, but I’m not certain what her purpose is in these two.

Whether or not she is actually there or only being dreamt of in Star Lily Dance Performance is debatable, but the former is the more comforting option. ;w;

Shikyou the Amanojaku

Shikyou is the Antagonist of the Onibi Series. Her name was only learned recently. This is the Amanojaku mentioned in (you guessed it) Death, Misfortune, and the Amanojaku.

Shikyou is somehow controlling Mai’s fate. Masa said that Mai and Akari were “doomed never to meet.” It’s incredibly likely that Shikyou was behind this, which would explain why she screams and appears to be very distraught in The Beautiful Shadow of the Demon’s Frenzied Dance Performance. If those two hadn’t met, many lives would have been spared from Mai’s cannibalistic tendencies.

Because it was likely a character named Emi that helped Akari and Mai meet each other in person, Shikyou and Emi are enemies.

What confuses me is that even though she seems to be trying to protect the people of Castle Town and must therefore care about humanity, something on Masa’s blog also says that at some point in history, she went on some kinda killing spree? Shikyou’s motives are questionable, to say the least.


For a while we thought that she was the purple-robed Gumi, but that turned out to be Ryou. The lovely @shishikusas talked to Masa, though, and helped clear it up! Emi is the Miku seen in Onibi, but she was given an original appearance in the video for the remix of The Fox’s Wedding!

Emi is, symbolically, the “Doll” mentioned throughout the series. Her ancestors were evil gods, and thus, everyone came to hate her. She bears a grudge against these people, but tries to ignore their feelings at the same time.

She appears ONLY in the song Onibi, and is not to be confused with the other blue Miku character, Kaori.   

All we know other than that is that Masa described her as one of the story’s “Main Heroes.” I think that she’s behind Mai and Akari being able to meet.

Ryou Shishikusa

HOO BOY where do we start with this crazy bitch. Here’s what my dear fact checker had to say about her:

Ryo Shishikusa is Mai’s mother, born into the Onidzuka clan but marrying into the Shishikusa clan through daimyo Tomonari Shishikusa. She has one sister, unnamed, who had a daughter after multiple miscarriages (this daughter is Kaori, the one referred to as the “demon child”). She has a tattoo of a spider on her waist and uses a special knife called “Devil’s Blade” to kill people.

She and Tomonari run a theater in Castle Town (Namitsuki). A lot of Castle Town’s entertainment comes from here. One thing that happens below the theatre is gambling, which Ryo and her husband do with human beings. Evidently, the clans of Castle Town take part in illegal human trafficking of young girls, keeping them under the theater and treating them like animals. 

One day, Tomonari comes to Ryo and says that the other daimyos are becoming bored with the performances and that, for the next performance, someone will be killed for the audience. Ryo hates the idea, but it is business.

Their prisoner, Akari, is thoroughly disgusted and calls Ryou a monster. She says that Ryou is “unable to come back, like us.” Grace and I think that this means Akari has the ability to return from the dead, because that would certainly explain why she is alive later in the series.

Anyway, Ryou tortures and kills Akari before a live audience. After Akari is dead, the blog says (roughly) this:

“I looked aside and saw the surprised faces of the Daimyos. They opened their mouths when they saw me.


It’s hot. 

My face and my hand… are very very hot. 

I was surprised by what I saw on my hand. It was bright red. The small knife in my hand and even my sleeve were red, also, and from the cuff dripped… blood? 

That’s it. I remembered. I tried to kill this girl. 

I looked up at the girl again. Her head was completely downwards and I could see the intestines as I looked at her belly. 

This …was me? I trembled. My heart began to beat almost fast enough to break it.. Unconsciously, I spread my hands and turned to the Daimyo. 

‘Ha ha ha ha ha ha!’ I was laughing.“ 

So yeah Ryou makes a lot of stuff go wrong. Her actions, and probably Emi’s, are what eventually lead to the chaos caused by the meeting between Mai and Akari.

Kaori Onidzuka

This little cutie, formerly referred to as “Etsuko” by the fandom, is Mai’s cousin.

All we know about her is that she may or may not be into killing and torturing animals and that she is the one typically referred to as “Demon Child.” 

Really tho there is like NOTHING on the onibi blog about Kaori so there’s not much to talk about.

Tomonari Shishikusa

This man is a daimyo, husband of Ryou and father of Mai. He must really care for his family, because it was his idea to start killing people for entertainment as a way to bring in more money and he threw Mai a rather luxurious birthday party when the day came. 

So Akari’s curse might not be the only thing that pushed Mai to cannibalism. Evidently, those that turn cannibal sometimes devour parents that pampered them too much. 

The blog says that he and Ryou were having a very important talk with Mai shortly before she devoured them both. Tomonari was eaten first, with Ryou bearing witness just before Mai ate her as well.

Daiji Masaoma

This guy is Mai’s bodyguard. At some point he is found with a large portion of his shoulder eaten away, so it’s likely that he was killed by Mai. we crack ship him with takahiro

Kanishiro Oborodzuka

Here’s what we know about him:

  • He kidnapped Mai from her own hometown, so he’s probably a badass.
  • He has snake eyes.
  • After he kidnapped Mai, he forced her to consume human flesh from the back of a truck.
  • He probably did other unspeakable things to her, but there’s no telling

Here are the headcanons:

  • He does have a physical disability, like his family, but it’s deafness instead of bent/backward limbs or an inability to walk.
  • Therefore, he communicates through others with sign language.
  • He is Akari’s brother, and has red hair like hers.
  • He’s sadistic and cruel, but not as much as Ryou.

But yeah for a minor character, he does play kind of an important role in the story. We’ll probably be hearing more about him later on.


She is Mai’s adopted sister, from the Oborodzuka clan. Apparently she found the dead bodies of her parents after Mai had eaten her fill of them.


Remember, this is the updated info! My old post that says Emi is purple Gumi is WRONG. Hope this helped clear things up!

Uri's 100 Secret Game Tidbits

A while ago, Uri tweeted with a tag to the effect of “1 like = 1 secret detail about your game(s).” To the surprise of maybe no one but her, she woke up to 100 likes and said she’d cut it off there and post them later. And now she has.

A bunch of these were already mentioned in bonus rooms and the like, but there is new info as well, particularly for The Hanged Man. The last 30 or so are for The Hanged Man and will spoil it, so to avoid THM spoilers, don’t scroll past the warning!

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I think that when Fuu and Mugen get married (which they will, because while Mugen might not really care about titles, he will marry Fuu just to make her happy and he is secretly pleased to wake up every morning next to Fuu and call her his wife and know that she is his in every shape and form as he is hers) and it is a couple years into their marriage and they already have 2 kids (idk a four year old and a newborn), and Mugen will come across a lone little orphan child  (eight years old maybe) who he caught trying to steal his food and he has tan skin and unruly hair like his and he is struck by how much this kid reminds him of himself at his age because he sees the anger in his face and the mistrust of the world in his eyes and as he looks at this grimy child whose body is covered with scratches and bruises something in him snaps and he drags the kid kicking and screaming to his and Fuu’s home where she promptly baths him (while Mugen looks on snickering) and gives him the best pieces of fish that night (to which Mugen whined about until she smacked him on the head) and they end up raising the child as their own and he grows up with a new family who loves him and everybody who sees him and Mugen together swears that he is the spitting imagine of his father (minus all the prison tattoos and scars) and Mugen doesn’t correct them and just proudly acknowledges that he is his son

proposal - pjm

- taking you out to do your favorite things on your birthday and while watching you smile like a dork, he’s nearly exploding with love for you and accidentally blurts out “god how i would love it if you were my wife”

- shocking you, but you ignoring it and him trying not to die of embarrassment “i said we need to buy a knife…we’re running out of those…at home…” “riiiight okay”

- him slipping out of the house suspiciously in the evening and coming home to take you out to have ice cream “i’m craving it” “didn’t you say you were going to go on a diet” “stfu”

- secretly putting the ring in your ice cream, but then sweating nervously bc he’s scared you might choke on it or something “hey jimin what’s this hard thing?” “hm?” “i think we need to send it back to the kit- JIMIN” “Will you marry me?”

Emergency Family (Part 2)

“Here we are.” Christian opened the door for Daamin to get out of the car. He had already undid the straps of his seat and jumped down to the ground. Circling around Christian he saw the tall apartment building in awe. “You live here hyung?”

Christian nodded before slamming the car door shut. He swung his bag back onto his shoulder before reaching out towards Daamin. “We have to cross the street so hold my hand, okay?”

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anonymous asked:

RFA runs into MC's ex w/c isn't an asshole it's just things didn't work out w/ mc and they had a mutual break up.

I think all of them would behave…whether MC is around or not, by the time they’re in a relationship with her, they’re all rather mature.
But I think they would have varying degrees of how much they CARE that the breakup was mutual.

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  • Serge Durandal: I will live in a land of candy!
  • Klaus Goldstein: I will get married and have three kids probably
  • Elias Goldstein: I want to get married and have a child...
  • Luca Orlem: I don't got any future plans
  • Leon: I will roam the land as a unicorn
  • Yukiya Reizen: I want to live in a wolf pack... since I am secretly a wolf
  • Joel Crawford: I want to marry Liz Hart, or Vincent Knight not sure which yet
  • Vincent Knight: I will show off my chest all the time, because damn I find myself sexy!
  • Guy Brighton: I will be popular with sports!
  • Cerim Leaido: I will own a house and have a tree for my familiar
  • Azusa Kuse: I might do dark magic, kill people that sort of thing
  • Glenn Qing: I will do more studies and live in a big house!
  • Lesile Rosenblade: I might try to fool people of thinking I am secretly Liz Hart's lost brother, because why not?

anonymous asked:

Hi so I just read hands clasped tight aka the new secretly married teachers au for the reverse bang and I loved it!! I was wondering if you had any fic recs where h & l are hiding a relationship and their friends/family/fans/literally anyone are suspicious (like in the precious fic)? I love that trope. Thank you!!

Hmmm, you can try to take a look here at first : Secret Relationship AU

All I can think about is :

- If You Asked Me If I Love Him (I’d Lie) So Harry and Louis might have fucked up.The day of their wedding was the single most perfect moment of Louis’ life and every single day since where he’s been able to call Harry his husband has been nothing short of bliss. There’s just one teeny, tiny problem…Their families don’t know they’re married.*Or the one where Harry and Louis eloped but neglected to mention it to anyone. Meanwhile Lottie is getting married and the only way for them to not steal her thunder is by pretending they’re just friends for the weekend. Featuring Harry and Louis as terrible liars who don’t know the meaning of the word platonic and some Tomlinsons and Styles’s who definitely don’t believe them. (Larry, 26k)

And the new fic is next in my to read list !

Hands Clasped Tight : Or the one where Harry and Louis are high school teachers and their students have been playing matchmaker for over a year. Little do they know, Harry and Louis are already married. (44k, E)

If someone knows another fic to add in there, let me know !

Louis is Smol aka Harry's 'Little One'
  • Harry: Lou. Look how small you look in my arms! I practically had to scoop you up in that hug.
  • Louis: You're a filthy liar Harold.
  • Harry: Oh really? So why is everybody going crazy over the height difference again, huh?
  • Louis: They are not. You're lying. I'm 5'9! Bastards. I'M FOOKING 5'9!
  • Harry: Aw look at your little feet next to mine. You're just my baby, it's so obvious.
  • Louis: Shut your traitorous mouth right now before you find yourself short of one boyfriend.
  • Harry: "Short"...*giggle*...was that a pun?
  • Louis: That's it. You're sleeping on the couch.
  • Harry: Before or after you ask me to carry you to bed, little one?
  • Louis: Get out. I'm not in love with you. Taylor can have you.
  • Harry: Nope. She's not my type.
  • Louis: Yeah, yeah, I'm well aware of your fervent interest in cock.
  • Harry: Your cock. And no, I meant her height. I like 'em tiny and feisty...brunette, blue eyed little spitfires.
  • Louis: I'm sure Grindr would be happy to accommodate your 'needs.'
  • Harry: Nah. I have my eyes on one little spitfire in particular.
  • Louis: Maybe he's lost interest in you though?
  • Harry: I don't think so babe.
  • Louis: And why's that?
  • Harry: He's been secretly looking at rings for months now and he's going to ask my parents if he can marry me any day now.
  • Louis: You ruin everything.
  • Harry: Just so you know. When you do pop the question and we walk down that aisle and I make you mine forever, I will never let another soul tell me that you're anything but 5'9. Course I'll know the truth but I'm allowed to, I'm your husband.
  • Louis: Not yet cutie.
  • Harry: Better get your act together then Tomlinson.
  • Louis: I might just do that Styles.
Ninjago High School AU

This is just the stuff I currently have planned for the characters. Some are more well-developed (like Lloyd) than others (like Wu). Also, yes, there are still Elemental Powers in this AU.

Lloyd Garmadon

  • Certified Sass Master™
  • Will listen to any music
    • His regular playlist quite literally ranges from stuff like Anthrax and Pantera to Ke$ha and Katy Perry.
  • Listens to upbeat, repetitive music when he’s upset or stressed and he can’t focus.
    • dubstep/techno mostly
  • Artsy as all get-out
    • All his elective classes are art
    • Sculptures
  • Probably friends with Morro
  • Will fight you
    • If he loses he’ll cry
    • If you lose, you’ll cry
      • And he will laugh
  • Plays piano!
  • Rebellious phase has hit him hard
  • Gets bored easily
    • Fidget cubes and doodles out the wazoo during math class
    • Seriously all of his homework has a doodle of some kind on it
  • Asexual aromantic
    • Platonic crushes on all the other ninja tho
      • Especially Kai and Zane

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PS I thought you guys might like my guess at what Juliet’s teaching on Warped: And for anyone else who can’t go to the talk in person, here’s the cliffnotes to Juliet’s Patented Scammer Method. Step one: force your way onto the Warped lineup, then find a vulnerable singer. Step two: drunkenly marry him in Vegas. Post cryptic tweets about it, but keep it a secret! It’s only been a few weeks and despite talking a big game, you’re desperately terrified of what people think of you. Next, kick his best friend out of the apartment he just rented with Andy because you’re secretly married now and want to live together. Promptly get into a shouting match and flee the apartment barefoot and without your wallet. Tweet up a storm so people feel sorry for you. Once that’s over, then you spend a few years spending his money buying designer clothes on eBay and second-hand shops, which you will then sell on Depop for even more than you paid because you’re a ~celeb and it’s memorabilia now that you’ve worn it on Instagram! When brands send you free stuff to promote on Instagram, make sure to wear it once and then sell it for the full retail price too! Then, you have a designer fake wedding now that it’s been a respectable length of time to have “dated.” Immediately (and unsuccessfully) try to sell your wedding dress on multiple sites for almost the full retail price. Lastly, hit your husband multiple times on an airplane with people recording it. Cause a big scene. Hit yourself to try to frame him for domestic abuse. When the inevitable backlash comes, blame alcohol (despite not slurring your words and being fully coherent) or even the high altitude. Or, better yet, insinuate that nothing happened at all and that ~haters are making the entire incident up. Oh, and don’t forget to take lots of selfies of you getting cosmetic procedures in between posting about loving yourself the way you are. And there you have it! You’re a certified scammer!

A/N: ^^lol -N

anonymous asked:

Hiii!!! how are you?? hmm, i'd like to ask you some questions: do you think lizzy will go back to OC side? and, giving the huge inferiority complex OC feels towards his brother, to think that lizzy can choose to go with him instead, it would be extremely important to him, right? How do you think their relationship might improve after this? i'm sorry if i disturbed you somehow, it's just that i love them so much ; v ;, Anyway!! I hope you have a lovely day ❤️ thank you in advance ☺️☺️

I expect Lizzie to return to our earl’s side once she figures out the real Ciel she had been betrothed to is no longer “living”, at least not in the usual sense. And that real Ciel is no longer the “nice kid” she once knew.

Since real Ciel once told Lizzie he didn’t like “scary” girls and was happy to marry her (not knowing she was secretly training to be one of those “scary” girls), and since real Ciel is now full of snark, I expect he will say something dreadful to her that will make her realize she’s better off with our earl. Real Ciel might insult her, etc….

I think Lizzie might learn to never be so trusting of anyone after all this. However, she has an amazing ability to find the good in people and the silver lining of situations, so I think she might pull through.

Thanks for the ask! 😊👍

Shadowed Observations (TC&TF fanfic)

Shadowed Observations
By Misha

Disclaimer- Not mine. I’m just borrowing them for a little while and will return them when I am finished.

Author’s Notes- This a is a request based on the prompt “You’re in love with her.” “Aren’t you?” spoken by Raydan and Diavolos. This is set the night before the battle with Azura. The ending of this is actually my justifying why Diavolos would have accompanied his father to the throne room that morning in the first place. And the only thing I could think of is that he is truly torn and so I created a good reason for him to be torn. Also, given that Luther isn’t stupid, he might at least expect the situation and that might explain why he felt he needed to make a move. Also, my headcanon is that Raydan never expected to keep Kenna, he’s always known that she would marry a noble once the war was over and he’s pragmatic about it (though he might be secretly heartbroken).

Pairing- Diavolos/Kenna, minor Raydan/Kenna

Rating- PG-13

Summary- Two men who love Kenna Rys have a conversation about her future.

Words- 1087

“I’m used to being the only one standing in the shadows.”

Diavolos turned to see Raydan standing behind him. “I have a hard time relaxing the night before the battle and don’t feel like socializing,” he commented, “what about you?”

“I find the shadows more comfortable,” the spymaster told him, “I find I have a hard time relaxing at gatherings. A spymaster must always be on guard, I would guess it’s similar for a soldier.”

“Yes,” Diavolos agreed, a little surprised that the other man was able to read him so well.

“But you are also a prince,” Raydan reminded him, “and thus should be accustomed to events like this.”

“And isn’t part of a spymaster’s job to blend in with his surroundings?” Diavolos countered, “I’m sure there are times when you’ve been forced to socialize as part of the task.”

“True,” Raydan agreed, “though once this is all over, I will remain a spymaster, but you will not have the luxury of remaining a soldier.”

Diavolos thought of Kenna’s offer to support him if he chose to lead Abanthus. Though he couldn’t imagine going against his father like that.

As soon as his thoughts turned to Kenna, his eyes immediately searched for her. She was across the room, talking to Annelyse and Whitlock. Almost as if she could feel him watching her, she turned and their eyes met. She smiled at him, long and slow, maybe remembering their hour underneath the stars. Diavolos couldn’t help smiling in return, wishing he could go over there and whisk her away again.

“She’s going to need a king by her side.”

Diavolos blinked and looked at the man by his side, he’d been so wrapped up in the sight of Kenna, that he’d forgotten the other man was there. “I…” He began, not sure what Raydan meant.

“She can’t lead Stormholt alone,” Raydan continued, “her people will need stability, once the war is over they will want her to marry and have children.” The spymaster paused. “And who better to have at her side than the Prince of Abanthus? A marriage between the two of you would unite your kingdoms and end the war for good.”

It was something Diavolos wanted more than he was willing to admit but refused to let himself even think about. They couldn’t think about life after the war yet, not until they actually managed to win. Besides, no matter how badly he wanted Kenna, how right it had felt to hold her in his arms, he knew his father was going to be a major obstacle. He knew his father, he knew that he had to be planning something, the only question was what? Whatever it was, Diavolos doubted he would just stand aside meekly and allow him and Kenna to be wed.

Diavolos didn’t know what to say so he watched Raydan instead, noticing the way the other man’s gaze lingered on Kenna. “You’re in love with her,” he realized.

The spymaster merely shrugged, “aren’t you? She is a very easy woman to love.”

Yes, yes, she was. Diavolos had managed 33 winters without giving love much of a thought and a week in Kenna’s company and everything had changed. She made him feel things he’d never felt before, made him want things he’d never wanted.

“Then why?” Diavolos asked, motioning to himself. Why would the spymaster even suggest that the woman he loved marry someone else?

“Because I cannot come out of the shadows,” Raydan said quietly, “I have always known I had no place by her side. But you could and I believe you have the ability to make her happy.”

The other man motioned to Kenna again, still talking to Annelyse and Diavolos followed his gaze, studying her, and as he did he noted the mysterious hint to her smile, the slight flush on her cheeks and knew that he was the cause, he realized that Raydan knew it too. Had been aware that they had slipped out to be together. But then, knowing things was his job.

“I’d rather see her with someone who she can love, who can make her smile brightly and her eyes sparkle,” Raydan said quietly, “than with someone she chose because she believed he was the right choice.”

“I’m still a Nevrakis,” Diavolos pointed out, trying to ignore the sour feeling in his gut at the very thought of Kenna choosing someone else.

“You are admired by all who serve under your command,” Raydan told him, “in Lykos, where the Nevrakis are known for their cruelty, there are stories of your kindness to the townsfolk who cross your path. Many of your men have vowed their loyalty to you personally, not your father.”

Diavolos would be surprised by the fact that Raydan had discovered so much about him, but again that was his job. “There’s still my father,” he pointed out, “I doubt he would offer his support.”

Raydan was silent. Diavolos met his eyes and immediately understood what wasn’t being said. Whatever Kenna had promised, whatever good intentions she had, there were those in her inner circle didn’t intend to let his father live in peaceful exile when this was over. Diavolos wasn’t sure he blamed them after all his father was not the type to actually accept a life of peaceful exile. He simply nodded, knowing there was nothing to say.

“Of course, before any of this can come to pass, we must win the battle tomorrow,” Raydan and said smoothly, “and if I am going to be any use, I should go to bed.”

Diavolos just nodded and watched him go. After a long moment, he crossed the floor to Kenna’s side. “Would you care to dance?”

“I thought you didn’t dance the night before battle?” She teased even as she allowed him to lead her to the dance floor.

“Well, it turns out I found a way to work off some of my nervous energy,” he reminded her with a grin, “so now I can handle dancing.”

She merely smiled and sank into his arms as he led her in a simple dance. She felt so good, so right, and he pondered Raydan’s words and wondered if he could really have more of this. If somehow, someway, he was going to be allowed to keep this woman and build a life with her.

However, as he spun Kenna around the dance floor, Diavolos caught sight of his father, watching them carefully and he was reminded of the obstacles standing in his way. He could have Kenna, but only if he sacrificed his father. Could he do it? Could he put aside a lifetime of loyalty for this woman?

As she smiled at him, he started to fear that the answer would be yes…

-          End

anonymous asked:

For the ask meme, 5, 34, 84, and 90, please.

questions from here

(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour?

I don’t really know. I like blue, I think. I have lots of blue. 

(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?

there’s like, fish, and weird stuff that might eat you. Eels! Weird leech things. I have done, but mostly now i’m boring and just like to paddle. I’m secretly scared of everything. 

(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today?

1. I wrote 232 words of I had rather at lunchtime.

2. I wrote 37 words of the Harry and Nick get married story. 

3. I did my budget this evening, accompanied by a headache of Great Joy. :/

(90) Favourite Soda Drink?

Coke Zero. COKE ZERO. Coke Zero, but maybe Coke Zero Cherry. 

i have had it up here with all the blame felicity smoak game and the unable to see the wrongs in oliver queen game. you all claim to love felicity smoak as a strong independent woman who makes her own decisions but of course you’d hate her for making her own decisions because you clearly only loves the oliver queen aspect of this relationship, right?

it’s absolute foolishness for oliver to think that a faux wedding is all it takes to fix all the wrongs he had done felicity smoak. it’s utter craziness for him to think that it only takes so little effort to win her back. 

over all the years, oliver queen had hurt felicity smoak so many times that i’ve kind of lost count. let’s talk about him using his charms to get his way with felicity because he knows felicity had a crush on him. 

let’s talk about him leading felicity on with his stupid jealousy regarding barry and then telling her that he can’t be with someone he cares about which is clearly felicity in that situation and then going ahead to be with sara who is clearly someone he cares about

let’s talk about oliver being yet again another jealous asshole even though he has no right because he already told her he can’t be with her

oh how about we talk about oliver queen dragging felicity smoak all the way over to his mansion telling her that he loves her only so she could take down slade wilson because why not? right? why not we pull a woman who has no physical training and the love of your life to be a bait to your archenemy?

there are so many more times that he has hurt her and if i were to recount all of them, i wouldn’t be done in an hour. what has felicity done? she took it all in stride and she forgave him, because she’s tolerant and she loves him and she knows what kind of man he is and she is giving him time. 

felicity had hope that maybe, just maybe, that him willing to ride in a porsche in to the sunset with her means that he’s willing to change. and the six months they spent together gave her hope that he had already changed. that was why she said yes to marrying him; why she loved him with everything in her. 

only today, they were supposed to be in a relationship and they were about to be married and he omitted the fact that he had a son from her. he didn’t tell her - the woman he’s supposed to marry and have children with - about the son he had with another woman.

felicity had every right to walk away. she had had one too many men betray and break her trust in her entire life. she was only considering the fragility of her heart and the risk of oliver reverting back to his island version, which means having her to suffer all the hurt and sorrow that she had gone through since she started working with him. 

so don’t you dare say that she’s selfish for walking away. don’t you dare say that she’d never loved oliver. if she didn’t love oliver, she wouldn’t forgive him over and over and over again for being such an inconsiderate jerkface. if she didn’t love oliver, she wouldn’t abandoned the “perfect” man that is ray palmer so she could fly to Nanda Parbat with oliver. 

felicity smoak loved oliver with everything in her. 

but secretly, we all know she secretly really wanted to marry oliver queen. as independent and intelligent and strong as she is, she is a woman who wears her heart on a sleeve. and when oliver said his vows - which i will admit i have watched over and over again because despite his density he has a way with words - her face slowly transformed from skepticism to genuine surprise. and i think if cupid stupid hadn’t cockblocked them, she might have actually said yes to his proposal of reconciliation.

but like i said, she is a smart woman. and as much as she loves oliver, as much as her life revolves around oliver queen, she loves herself too. and applause to this woman for not letting her love for him to blind herself from getting what she truly wants. and at this moment, what she truly wants is to be away from oliver, because she can’t stand to work with him and not be able to be with him. she wants things to change but things can’t change if oliver doesn’t.

oliver may have given her life meaning. oliver may have changed her life for the better. oliver may have been the reason why she won’t regret dying. all that doesn’t matter if she couldn’t do the same thing for him. because oh dear god she’s just lying to herself when she tells him that what she said didn’t apply to them. 

which is why she said this. she wants him to keep it for good but she keeps staring at the ring, because she wants that ring on her finger, for the rest of her life. except as much as she wants it on her finger, she wants oliver to be willing to fight more; she wants to feel safe; she wants to feel safe with oliver. and if she can’t, then what is the point of the whole marriage?

which was why she had to walk away, because she’s so afraid that if she had stayed, she would relent to him and risk having her entire being destroyed all over again.

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Prompt: A couple of prompts from castlefanficprompts involving being the plus-one at a family wedding sometime during S1.  Starts at the end of “Little Girl Lost”.

Will’s hand lands on her shoulder as he leaves, and she suddenly sees exactly what her life with him would have been.  Following him across the country, transfer after transfer, finding it a little bit harder each time she had to restart her career, eventually getting pregnant and being out of the work force for long enough that once the kids were in school, she’d have no career to restart.  The family portraits with one kid beside her and one on her lap, and Will standing behind them all with one hand on her shoulder.

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Sometimes it’s really hard to love being Bi. I’m all about how great it is to be bi, about not hating myself for it, but it’s hard.

It’s hard when the world tells me I don’t exist. It’s hard when people talk over my experiences to tell me what I am. It’s hard when people say I do this for attention. It’s hard when people say, outright, that a bi woman can’t be raped ‘because they’re always up for it’. It’s hard being told by lesbians that I am the worst thing that happened to the 'gay community’. It’s hard knowing that I have to come out, over and over, even to people who already know.

I get told I have privilege because I married a cis man and I can hold his hand in public. But I know that if the people who passed us knew we were bi, we’d risk the same violence. Sure, I am privileged. I’m white, the 'good kind of fat’, reasonably well educated, middle class. Bi isn’t one of those, though.

I know that as Bi woman I am even more at risk of corrective rape.

And I know that every new person I meet might secretly think of people like me as disgusting, untrustworthy, lying, attention-seeking, confused. I get continual unpleasant surprises from people I thought I knew well.

'But not you, you aren’t like that’.

Sometimes it’s hard to love it.

Kim Kardashian Gets Real: 11 Revelations From the New Cover Story

When Kim was a teen she dated Michael Jackson’s nephew, TJ. It was her first experience in an interracial relationship — and not her last. At the time, her dad, Robert Kardashian, “explained to me that he’s had a lot of interracial friends, and it might not be the easiest relationship. He said I should prepare myself for people to say things to me. . . . When I was in high school, I’d get magazines and see interracial couples and think, ‘They are so cute.’ I’ve always been attracted to a certain kind of look." 

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