i think the worst part about this is it's not even intended as ironic

Breathe ~ An Avenger’s Story  (10/15)

Originally posted by karlmordo

AU Summary: With more elaborate tests with Dr. Banner, Y/N finds more information about her abilities and why she’s alive.

Notes: gravitonium and dr. Hall showed up in Agents of shield. ok? so its definitely in the mcu. also coulson and inhumans :)

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MASTERLIST


“I thought Gravitonium was a pain in the ass to control.”

“Yes. But it is possible to.” Bruce opened up a document with a swipe of his fingers. “Dr. Franklin Hall. He was a former asset for SHIELD and became famous for his work and theories on the extremely rare element known as gravitonium. Hall also designed a theoretical machine that could stimulate the element in a way that would allow its gravitational fields to be harnessed. It was destroyed along with him but the gravitonium was locked in SHIELD’s storage facility. But last time we checked, it wasn’t there.”

“Hmmm.” Stark stared at the holographic files in front of him. “So if we find Hall’s files on gravitonium then maybe we could find the source of Y/N’s abilities. Maybe even make it more powerful.”

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Idubbbz and Tana Mongeau - when you pick the wrong guy to fuck with

Oh boy, this drama is gunna be messy.

This is probably going to be less of a rant and more of a warning annnnd slightly educational.. lol

actually im just really angsty today, seen all this slander about one of the best youtubers to exist, so i gotta vent here we go

What happens when your channel is run-of-the-mill clickbait-y shit, can’t take a joke/dont know what satire is, and you call out the most savage person to ever internet whose entire platform is based on decimating YouTube careers without refute?

Dear god Tana, do you know what you’ve gotten yourself into? I would say she’s oblivious, but I don’t think that’s the case. Her first tweet to idubbbz before all this happened was back in December (I believe? Too lazy to find it rn) where she called him out on his use of “the N word” and “retard”. What I find ironic is that directly after that she told him to kill himself 😂(butthatsnunofmybusiness). Irony is a beautiful thing.

ANYWHO, to anyone who finds these offensive and racist and isn’t familiar with idubbbz, sit the fuck down a moment. (If ur offended and traumatized by “the n word” and other shit like that u may want to shield your eyes in the next part to avoid being traumatized. Wouldn’t want to end up like Tana, would we?) *ahem* now listen up buttercup

1. The term “n***er faggot” and “gay retard” pertain to people who have said it to idubbbz in the past in hate videos. He is parodying those people who tried to demean him by saying those things. it is a long running joke on his channel.

2. His channel content consists of this amazing concept called s a t i r e. If you don’t know what that means, look it up, remember it, don’t forget it, because that term will allow you to thrive on the internets and most likely survive in the real world. With its power you can have fun, and experience freedom in elevated proportions. Any slur he uses is never used in seriousness - like I said, it is a long running parody on his channel. He is not intentionally being racist or offensive or whatever other label you can pull out your ass.

3. Learn to laugh ffs? This dude legit has vids of eating shit out of sewers and dumpsters. Why. Why would you take anything he says seriously

Now to the rant part yey

The thing that pisses me off the most is the blatant. fucking. lie Tana told. She described in her video that Ian had put her in a “choke hold” of some sort, which i’d expect to be around the fucking neck right? And apparently, he was also talking really loudly goading her to say “the n word”

now here’s the reality:


(here’s the OG vid)

wow he’s just choking the life out of her makE IT STOP WHAT A TRAUMATIZING EXPERIENCE

Things i do see: A genius joke

Things i dont see: a choke hold, loud voice, or goading of any kind

For those still confused as to what the joke is, is goes back to her december tweet. he must have found it funny. her tweet is so ironic and priceless how could he not? its the most atypical idiotic white girl tweet from a youtuber, so he decided to show up at her expensive-ass meet and greet to continue the joke (which im hoping was intended for a future content cop in the first place). He’s standing there as if taking a picture with her, and here is the best part. Instead of “say cheese,” he says “say n***er”.

GOD I LOVE THIS MAN

What im most curious about how that’s a chokehold of any kind. Truamatized? GIRL HOLY SHIT I WOULD SELL EVERY LIMB TO JUST BE IN THE SAME ROOM AS IDUBBBZ, LET ALONE HAVE THE FUCKER STAND NEXT TO ME. TOUCH MY PLEBIAN EXISTENCE EVEN. FUCK

some people just arent worthy. the world doesnt deserve you, idubbbz. im sorry.

another thing; she said in her younow mental breakdown that it was idubbbz himself who sent his followers to bully her. bitch where? he didnt say a damn thing (yet). She’s kinda done this to herself entirely, and is now wondering why. First off she started this shit on twitter, then lied, then attacked him on twitter for something he didnt even do?? what. the fuck? he did absolutely nothing but try to make a joke. you know what in some ways i feel bad for her not only because she’s unwittingly screwed with the most immortal community on youtube right now, but because she cant see the problem is her and it’s only going to get worse if she keeps it up jfc. I dont necessarily think she’s the worst person on yt either (though i havent watched many of her vids). If she didn’t blow things out of proportion she might’ve been able to salvage what she had left of her yt career. I guess sometimes mediocre content isnt enough. Often times I hope idubbbz just let’s it go for her sake but…idk, he hasn’t done anything yet and who the hell knows. Honestly I don’t like people being sent hate. But when ur ignorant its gonna fucking happen. Especailly when you think you’re morally superior to someone when you are in no place. ESPECIALLY when you dont know the facts. Choose your battles wisely.

anyway I’m not even entirely pissed at the situation, but ooo the god awful fans of hers. They’re taking e v e r y thing in idubbbz videos out of context and making them ‘offensive’ to push their anti-dubbbz agenda. Like, did yall actually watch the videos?? satire ????? ironic humour ???? do any of you know what this is???? do you even fuckin meme bro ?? ? ? ? why would i expect any less from the fans of this type of melodramatic girl who makes shitty content??? and just slander and misinfo in general dear fucking god when will the sjw trend die

well i only have one last thing to say about this: Tana, say goodbye to your youtube career. you wanted to milk this, you couldnt just solve this in peace. instead of owning up to your mistakes you’re going to play the victim, like every other youtuber that gets destroyed. The rest of the sane internet can smell that content cop from here.

TL;DR: do not fuck with the god of youtube comedy. it will not end as planned. Just go with the joke next time, aight?

nuff said.

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Avengers Rec List

This is the last rec list for this weekend but I’m thinking of maybe doing a few more in the future. There are so many fandoms I’m a part of and I would like to put out a rec list for each :)

Tony/Loki

Those Sinned Against by  Arkada
Words: 185,638
When Asgard invades Earth - led by a huge blond man in a red cape and wielding a massive warhammer - it takes six months for Tony Stark to come up with a plan to turn things around: let himself be taken prisoner, and bring the Asgardians down from the inside.
But it takes less than an hour for the plan to get away from him, thanks to the black-haired Asgardian prince who takes personal - very personal - charge of him.

Rec: Tony becomes Loki’s bed slave and pawn in a much larger game to save earth and rule Asgard. Loki is great in this fic manipulative, dangerous, powerful and his own form of protective/caring.

Pink potion should not be put in coffee by  8fred9
Words: 44,313
Thor wants his brother happiness over anything else and when he decide that this happiness can only be found if his brother has a special someone…well love potion seems the best way to go and the intended target was not Tony Stark…but well he likes sweets!

Rec: Bruce is a BAMF in this story and it’s great. On top of that there is a protective Loki and this is the only fic that made me very much dislike Captain America.

Tales of Deceit and Grief by  Potrix
Words: 77,198
Five years ago, Loki and an army of Chitauri attempted to take over Earth, killing thousands and destroying huge parts of Manhattan in the process. The Avengers managed to stop the God’s sinister plan at the last moment, but the losses were great and humankind left in shocked bewilderment.
Thor escorted his remorseless brother back to their home world and that was the last anyone heard or saw of the Æsir for half a decade.
Until they suddenly - and uninvited, thank you very much for that - pop up in Tony Stark’s living room to deliver the news of Loki’s sentence along with the infamous God of Mischief made slave himself.
In the ensuing chaos, Tony starts to realise that nothing is quite as it seems and everything is much more twisted than anyone originally thought.

Rec: A broken Loki comes to live as Tony’s slave bringing with him a child and a confusing amount of protective feeling from Tony. They become a family and it’s cute because of Ana and sad because Loki is so traumatized from pats masters.

Bend Around the Wind by  Scyllaya
Words: 403,125
A few months after the battle of New York the God Loki appears back on Stark Tower under chaotic circumstances. This time however he is on the run. Tony Stark gets caught up in the crossfire and is taken along with the Aesir. Can the two of them ever make truce in order to get away? And even if they do, how does one escape from such a dark corner of the universe, when they are so very far away from the Nine Realms, that not even Loki knows the way back home. But first, they need to survive.

Rec: Kidnapping, space pirates and a crew turn family. A great Loki/Tony they learn to trust each other slowly. Becoming allies, friends and eventually lovers. Long but it keeps you wanting more.

Off the Record by  goddamnhella
Words: 96,692
It started with a message, a late-night visit, and a God of Mischief in Tony’s bed. A story of trust, trickery, unwilling aid and inevitable attraction.

Rec: Loki will claim you, love you and stab you in the back. Wild ride and fun trip. Read it you’ll like it.

Best (Worst) Possible Time by melonbutterfly
Words: 93,883
At thirty-six, Tony has long since stopped expecting to find his Sentinel, so he’s really not prepared when it happens after all.

Rec: A Sentinel AU were Tony and Loki bond the second they meet each other. Tony breaks Loki out of shield custody and they end up hiding away in Tony’s house. They take care of each other, get to know one another and fall into a physical relationship.

String Theory by lashworthe
Words:86765
Alternate Universe. It’s 136 years since Tony Stark died, taking with him all the secrets of his genius. Loki Ruser is the new up and coming genius who buys up the old Malibu home of Tony Stark to discover its secrets. He gets more than he bargains for when he discovers the Iron Man design plans, and a sentient hologram of Tony Stark himself.

Rec: This is a well developed, emotional, lovely AU. Tony and Loki fall into a relationship with each other even though they’re decades apart and not on the same physical plain. My favorite part is Tony’s totally unethical manipulation of Loki’s health.

Tony/Bruce

This Is Your Heart (Beating Off the Atrophy) by  oppisum
Words: 89,988
Tony Stark is five when Bruce moves into Stark Mansion. He’s fourteen when Bruce realizes they have a problem. Nineteen when Bruce sits in the workshop watching him build a metal suit.
Or, in which Bruce enters Tony’s life much earlier, plays buffer to Howard’s not-so-hot parenting, and realizes that his best friend is a mouthy boy twenty-three years younger than him.

Rec: A look into Tony’s childhood with a good role model. Bruce is great with children, I love how much he cares about little Tony.

Reactors and Radiation by  Drappersky
Words: 5,651
In which Tony Stark and Bruce Banner meet in their 20’s at a science summit instead of through SHIELD. They hit it off, help each other out and end up having a one night stand. Science Bros.

Rec: AU where Tony and Bruce meet multiple times before the Avengers and help solve each others problems instead of struggling through them alone.

Electrolyte Mind by piranabo
Words: 53,305
High school AU The first time Tony Stark talks to Bruce Banner is the same day Bruce Banner first tries to kill himself. Tony Stark doesn’t realize he is the reason that Bruce fails. Bruce doesn’t realize he repays the favor three years later.

Rec: Tony and Bruce forage a unlikely friendship. Bruce has a hard life and Tony has it easy or that’s how it looks on the outside. Not the happiest story but it’s a great look at how Tony and Bruce would work together if they were young and didn’t have super powers.

Steve/Bucky

Selective Service by  Kroki_Refur
Words: 10,935
The serum’s given Steve a lot, but it hasn’t taken anything away from him. Not even the things he never wanted in the first place.

Rec: This is Captain America with secret asthma and a heart condition. It’s fun because he is still super and can do amazing things but there’s a price when he pushes it too far. Bucky is the only one who knows and now that Cap is part of the Avengers he tries to hide it from the team but they find out anyway.

Safe House by  Drappersky
Words: 3,183
“Bucky was a deadly marksman, quick and efficient. So the fact that not one person on Bucky’s hit team had made it to any of the last three checkpoints was disturbing.”

Rec: Bucky is missing in action and Steve is in denial. Here there be substandard safe houses, warm water and smarm. Hurt/Comfort

Come Unstuck by  alwayswithatoneofsurprise
Words: 40,650
A tale of two souls, drawn to each other and despite stubbornness, miscommunication and misguided alpha instincts, a tale of two idiots falling in love.

Rec: This is an omega verse college AU. Very cute protective Steve and the whole Avengers gang is in there too as friends and confidants. Steve and Bucky like each other immediately but it takes them forever to fess up.

Why ‘Tyrion Targaryen’ is neither logical nor desirable

I’d argue that this theory, were it true, would not just undermine the compelling nature of Tyrion’s story and greatly weaken its impact, but it would undermine much of the series itself.

Practically, Tyrion Targaryen Does Not Make Sense

1. Tyrion’s Appearance

Tyrion’s white-blond hair and mismatched eyes are regularly cited as signs of his secret dragon heritage, but when reading the text it becomes obvious that his appearance actually proves the opposite, and that the theorists are attempting to make 2+2 equal 7. Tommen, who is literally 100% Lannister, is also described as having white-blond hair. Furthermore, Targaryen hair is silver, not white-blond. Tyrion’s eyes are green and black, while people try and insist the black is really very dark purple to maintain he has a Targaryen ‘look’. Nope, GRRM says it’s black, it’s black. In short - there’s ample proof he’s a Lannister, and absolutely none he’s a Targaryen.

Then we have those who think Tyrion’s dwarfism and deformity came about thanks to a botched abortion after Joanna was raped…and those people clearly have no idea how abortions work or how genetics work. And those are the least problematic things about a suggestion in which ableism and ignorance are united in service to an illogical theory.

2. Only a Lannister can love the Rock, but not only a dragon can love a dragon

Tyrion’s held a deep interest in and passion for dragons since he was a little boy. This theory stops there, takes that fact at face value and runs with it, without bothering to examine the reasons behind Tyrion’s fascination with dragons. A combination of his physical limitations and his father considering him a deep source of shame meant that Tyrion was kept out of sight, and out of mind, and so reading became his primary activity. It was through reading that he discovered dragons, and it was his family’s abuse and his own loathing of what he was that made him want one of his own.

“Oh, yes. Even a stunted, twisted, ugly little boy can look down over the world when he’s seated on a dragon’s back.” Tyrion pushed the bearskin aside and climbed to his feet. “I used to start fires in the bowels of Casterly Rock and stare at the flames for hours, pretending they were dragonfire. Sometimes I’d imagine my father burning. At other times, my sister.” (Tyrion II, AGOT)

To a disabled, despised little boy desperate to escape a wretched existence, a dragon would have held immense appeal. He imagines using one to fly, so no one will mock or look down at him, and to put and end to the family members who abuse and torment him. Tyrion’s fascination with dragons is rooted in his childhood experiences, not in his blood; and if anything it’s meant to foreshadow his eventual role as a dragonrider, not hidden secret of birth.

3. The horrible A + J = T equation

By far the worst part of this theory for me - I’ve previously addressed how Joanna would never consensually sleep with Aerys, and how rape is also extremely improbable here, and here.

Thematically, Tyrion Targaryen Adds Nothing And Detracts An Awful Lot

1. It diminishes Tywin Lannister’s role in the story, and in Tyrion’s life

Essentially, if Tyrion is not Tywin’s son, the chapters in which they interact become so many wasted pages, because so much of Tyrion is tied up with being Tywin’s son. GRRM devotes a lot of time to this relationship, especially in ASOS, developing it in all its twisted glory, highlighting the parallels while drawing the sharp contrasts. The reason for this is clear - Tyrion’s life and very self has been shaped and defined by his father, it is by far the most important as well as the most toxic relationship he has, and there’s no narrative purpose whatsoever to undercut all this by removing the factor that makes this tragic and abusive relationship so compelling. It wouldn’t matter that Tyrion thought Tywin was his father, we as the readers would know better and our investment in the Tyrion/Tywin dynamic would drop off the charts. We’re supposed to have a mixed reaction to Tyrion’s murder of his father as well. While we might (and do) cheer Tywin’s death in itself for his many, many sins, and chuckle at the quip about him not shitting gold after all, Tyrion killing him is not supposed to be a moment of triumph - it is supposed to be gut-wrenching (no pun intended, Tywin) that a father-son relationship has come to this. It shuts the door on Tyrion ever getting approval or any sort of acknowledgement from his father, it denies him and us catharsis (as Tyrion swiftly finds out, any satisfaction he gained from killing Tywin is very short lived and the guilt, regardless of how much Tywin deserved it, will be lifelong). If we go back to this after finding out that Tyrion is not a kinslayer and did not murder his actual father, this scene, and Tyrion’s arc in ADWD loses virtually all of its power for us as readers. The enormity of the act is diluted to the point where it’s a simple act of righteous vengeance instead of a complicated act of kinslaying. That’s not GRRM’s style, as he likes his shades of grey, and this would make things very black and white.

What’s more, GRRM deliberately set Tywin up as an almost God-like figure for best part of the first three books and then proceeded (and will continue) to tear him, his image, and everything he worked for or cared about down. It’s fitting that as the defining representation of a profoundly oppressive, elitist ruling class and perpetrator of its worst atrocities, Tywin’s downfall is ultimately precipitated by his violent abuse of a commoner: his belief system, his brutal use of violence to end anything he perceives as a threat to him, his utter contempt for the smallfolk, his devotion solely to his own family’s continuing power and status at the expense of others, his ableism towards and mistreatment of Tyrion were all things GRRM fully intended to be proven wrong and ironically self-destructive in the end, and he uses what Tywin did to Tysha as the catalyst for this. He intends for Tywin to be proven wrong about everything and for everything he worked for to come crashing down, hard. So for Tyrion not to be his son would completely fly in the face of all that; it would vindicate Tywin, it would prove he was right to deny Tyrion Casterly Rock, it would justify his disowning him. GRRM is doing to Tywin what Doran Martell hoped to do - albeit stripping him of all he held dear after he killed him off - he is not going to throw him a juicy bone like this.  

A common claim in support of this theory is that it would be supremely ironic for the son most like Tywin to not actually be his son, but that wouldn’t actually be ironic at all, not when it would grant Tywin his bitterest wish; that he could deny that Tyrion is his. In this scenario, the last laugh is not on Tywin, it is on Tyrion. And there’s not exactly an irony deficiency here already either, as Tywin Lannister’s entire life ends up being a cosmic joke: his brand of short-term, swift brutality in reaction to his father’s abysmally weak rule ends up being infinitely more destructive to House Lannister in the long term, and the son he wished wasn’t his is actually him writ small. 

2. It would kneecap the Jon Snow reveal, and for what?

To paraphrase Oscar Wilde: to have one Secret Targaryen may be regarded as a good twist, to have two looks like carelessness. Adding another Secret Targaryen to the mix would feel like a cheap knock-off of Jon’s arc, and would go a long way to ruining the significance and poignancy of the Rhaegar + Lyanna = Jon reveal that’s been beautifully and clearly set up. No such care has been taken to prepare the reader to discover Tyrion is Aerys’ son - one line from Barristan Selmy in ADWD regarding Aerys taking liberties at Joanna’s bedding, five books in, is what almost single-handedly gave this theory wings- for the simple reason that he isn’t. The long-standing logic is that as Dany and Jon, both of whom have Targaryen blood, are the two heads, the third must also be a Targaryen (even though GRRM has come out and said the third head will not necessarily be a Targaryen). Nope. There is a clear narrative reason for Jon to be Rhaegar’s son, there is no reason at all for Tyrion to be Aerys’ son, and a great many reasons for him not to be.

When the letter came, with apologies and gold, she felt a cold settle into her, a fury that would never burn itself out, a longing that would never really be answered. The entire clan, dead. For nothing.

The war table was silent and she left it silent, didn’t turn when she heard Cullen’s footsteps dogging her, until the warmth of him was too close, too human, and she whirled on her heel and held up a hand. 

“Whatever you’re about to say, don’t. Because no matter what it is, I’ll hate you for it, and I don’t want to hate you, not once, not ever.” She snapped at him, and couldn’t find anything under the fury and grief; couldn’t really feel for him as she watched him crumple into himself and sag back against the wall. She left him there. 

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dragon age: inquisition and “both sides do it”

So… I see a lot of people complaining about how, in Dragon Age: Inquisition, Bioware goes out of its way to make the mages and Dalish look “bad” and the Chantry/Templars look “good”. They complain about how both sides are shown as doing horrible, horrible things, when realistically the Templars are the “bad” guys and the [oppressed group these people are fans of] are the “good” ones. 

 And sometimes, I want to tell these people “congratulations, you missed the entire point of the game.” 

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Why I believe The Last makes a better case for Naruto ending up with Sakura then anything else.

Well The Last has come and gone. Yet while it is still in theaters I think it is safe to say that unless you are ardent Naru/Hina shipper the story fails in pretty much every way that the ending of the manga did. What’s even worse is that every time Kishimoto has opened his mouth lately it’s been to insert his foot into it. I mean in all honesty did he really think anyone not invested in Naruto ending up with Hinata would be pleased at the idea that he basically killed Neji off to bring the two together. Something the event failed spectacularly to do as it does portray Hinata as exceedingly shallow as only a few panels later she is fan-girling about Naruto holding her hand.
But one thing I think even a Naru/Saku fan should be grateful for in regards to this movie is it shows that even the author of a work can’t just suddenly reverse course on the development of his own characters without facing well deserved repercussions to his reputation. The Naruto in The Last has been branded as the worst scumbag and if his feelings for Sakura were based on a rivalry game it would be well deserved. But why should we be grateful for this? Well that is because it validates one simple fact that every person that read Naruto has known since chapter 1. That being that if Naruto was going to end up with anyone other than Sakura then you first had to find a way to change his feelings for her. The writers of The Last, being the typical lazy writers that Studio Periott has proven themselves to be, rather than have an honest discussion about Naruto shifting his feelings from Sakura to Hinata, because less face it he wouldn’t, tried to invalidate those feelings by describing it as being a part of his rivalry with Sasuke. Yet all they succeeded in doing was earning Naruto the designation of being the Worst kind of Scumbag.
But why would the writers of this movie think such a revelation would go over smoothly? Well the answer to that is simple, they like most fans interested only in their pairing happening often only need the flimsiest of reasoning to accept something that basically rewrites Naruto’s character and not for the better. It doesn’t surprise me that many of the Naru/Hina fans singing the praises of this movie don’t care. After all, they have been doing the same thing in fanfiction for years. Except in those cases the person they trashed was Sakura by playing up her faults and turning her into a shrew that beats Naruto until he finally snaps on her and runs right into the arms of the writers precious Hinata. It’s lazy writing at its finest, but much like the reasoning given in this movie so long as it serves its purpose who cares as there will be plenty of people that will drink it up simply because it validates what they wanted regardless of what it does to Naruto’s character.
But, what I truly find both Ironic and strangely fitting about The Last is that the reaction by anyone not wholly vested in Naru/Hina shows this doesn’t make for a good story and in fact can easily ruin 15 years’ worth of storytelling. Having the movie state Naruto only liked Sakura due to his rivalry with Sasuke might solve the immediate problem the writers faced. But it then calls into question everything that came before and cannot be easily dismissed or just forgotten. Kishimoto has tried, but people aren’t buying his B.S. and with each interview he looks less like a legitimate writer and more like a sellout. His being a sellout is best shown in a line he himself had Naruto say which Naru/Hina fans often trumpeted as the death of Naru/Saku, but now shows why this pairing was the only one that truly makes sense in the end.
“I hate people that lie to themselves.”
The above statement shows just why Naruto switching his feelings to Hinata is such a fake notion, especially when explained away in the lazy manner the movie has chosen. This movie would have us believe that Naruto has been lying to us readers for the past 15 years, and in essence lying to himself. But again, this was just about satisfying the moment, and had nothing to do with anything that came before. That is why it is so easy to ignore this movie as canon along with the chapter 699 + 700 that are meant to substantiate it. It is far easier to believe that this movie and the last 2 chapters are the red herring rather than the 698 chapters that came before.
I mean consider for a moment that in a manga where one of the first lessons taught to team seven is to look underneath the underneath, which in turn something that is also being asked of the readers, that all the parallels between Mina/Kushi and Naru/Saku are simply dismissed for a pairing that had no development on a personal level. Where a genjutsu is used to almost brainwash Naruto into accepting Hinata’s feelings, while his own for Sakura are explained away in a single sentence despite existing throughout the entire story. Where the author of the manga himself explains that this movie isn’t so much about bringing Naruto and Hinata closer as driving Naruto and Sakura apart. Considering all the above, why should fans accept this ending? The answer is that they shouldn’t. Why should an author be allowed a free pass for what can only be stated as a rushed and lazy ending? An ending where after we have read about Sasuke being well on his way to being a villain for ten years, we suddenly have to buy into the notion that he is redeemed, but only after mangling the hero. Where, despite Naruto and Hinata barely interacting throughout the manga and Naruto professing over and over his feelings for Sakura, we get a chapter 700 where he is married to the girl he has barely talked to. To make matters even worse, we are told to watch a movie that blatantly ignores important details of the manga in order to fabricate interactions between Naruto and Hinata to give us a B.S. connection that wasn’t shown in 15 years of reading.
What is most insulting to me though is despite the laundry lists of faults pointed out above and which isn’t even going into the various plotholes left wide open, is the Naru/Hina shippers telling anyone not down with the ending to be silent about it. I can understand why they want that. After all if these ships were actual ships then Naru/Hina is a raft a person might cobble together from debris found on a deserted island. It is a relationship that they cobbled together from barely 15 chapters of interaction. It’s flimsy and easily falls apart when a person applies any thought not based solely on their own emotions to it. After all, even Kishimoto states that he paired Hinata with Naruto because he pitied her, and as such it destroys his story which he spent the past 15 years building.
Naturally with far more interactions between Naruto and Sakura, I view their ship as being something more akin to a sturdy battleship that 2 chapters and a crappy movie can’t sink. Not to mention whether Kishimoto intended it or not, whether it was to mislead or not, the truth is that what he wrote and drew only made it stronger which is something his shitty ending cannot take away.
I suppose that who I feel has the greatest right to be disappointed in this ending are those that really didn’t ship anything. I mean what did chapter 700 actually provide for them? After all, the reason I’m a Naru/Saku fan is because in chapter 1, Kishimoto gave us a couple of details about Naruto. He dreamed of being Hokage and he liked Sakura. Seeing as I was reading the manga for Naruto’s story, I was rooting for him to get the girl that Kishimoto himself told us he desired. Furthermore, while I despise Sasuke as a character, the only reason I could even partially accept this ending was because through all of Shippuden, Kishimoto made bringing Sasuke back Naruto’s goal. As such, while I disagreed with the idea, I rooted for him to do so, and although how it was handled in the end was just lazily done as it relied on our rooting for Naruto to make us believe it, I could accept it. But what if you aren’t a fan of a particular ship, well I imagine then you have to be disappointed in the fact that we didn’t get to see Naruto become Hokage as much as I’m disappointed in the fact that he didn’t get the girl that Kishimoto told us through Sai that he loved.
To be worse, you Non-shippers disagreements with this ending are just discarded as you being salty about the pairing that you have no involvement with. Never mind that you wanted a story where we got to see Naruto’s accomplishments towards his dream of being Hokage, not Hinata’s dream of being with Naruto. A blogger on tumblr wrote a sentence that ticked me off as he/she put, “An Author doesn’t deserve an Anti tag for a fictional story.” However the reason this is so insulting to me is that this person put this even as they tagged their post Pro Kishimoto. What an ignoramus. This person might feel that Kishimoto deserves praise, but people like that cross the line when they tell others that they shouldn’t be free to express their opinion. But ultimately I believe they fear hearing dissenting opinions because all the Pro Naru/Hina arguments are so weak.
I mean so far I’ve seen Naru/Hina fan state things such as, “We should be happy for Naruto because he has a family now.” But at what point did he ever state that as his goal. We know that he liked and later loved Sakura, which one can assume would at some point lead to a family, but he never said he wanted a family of his own. He desired to know and have a relationship with his parents, but at no point did he express any desire for a family of his own. That is something fans foisted upon him due to their imagining it being a desire an orphan would have. Therefore, why should I be happy for him achieving something that he never actively expressed any desire for, especially with a woman he expressed no desire to be with? Furthermore, what is the image that we are left with for him as a father? He’s inattentive to his son’s needs, who is expressing a loneliness that causes him to act out in the same way as he did in his youth. What’s worse, Naruto, the person that connected with the likes of Gaara and Sasuke, simply tells his son to endure it, and he doesn’t even have the excuse of being out of the village like Sasuke who is implied to be a crappy father to his daughter.
Ultimately this ending and movie just fell flat because not everyone was invested in who was going to end up with who, and as such the movie would have been better used to try and heal the wounds between Team Seven as just white washing them didn’t solve anything. A single chapter wasn’t enough to undo ten years of watching Sasuke’s selfishness hurt both Naruto and Sakura. At the end of the day, a final movie should have been about Naruto achieving his dreams, not turning him into a scumbag for the sake of Hinata’s.

anonymous asked:

Yo! You're always making me smile whenever you write or reblog about Takizawa and Mado's relationship, it's true the pairing is very enticing but I have a question. I'm wondering what does Seidou means when he runs away to find Amon by "I only ever saw you from the side" speaking about Mado? That he only knows one side of her, the investigator side? I'd like your opinion please. And also please never stop reblogging about the two of them!

Hi, sorry for the slight delay! I wanted to take the time to answer you properly (since I never took the time to think about that sentence in particular). First of all, thanks a lot for the nice words and don’t you worry one bit, I don’t intend to stop any time soon! :D

So, you were wondering about that panel right?

Your own interpretation can work actually, even if the fact he mentions her face in particular makes me think it might go slightly deeper than that.

Basically, what I am thinking is that this moment of the arc is all about him finally noticing he’s actually having this huge crush on her and that he’s also going after Amon for her sake, and I think that sentence is the starting point of his realization: because, since he always “saw her face from the side”, there is no way she ever really got a good look at him (in his opinion of course).

So I believe it’s his way of admitting internally that he wants her to see him/look at him the way he believes she looks at Amon (hence why it’s as if he is left behind to watch when Amon is clearly the one facing her/getting her attention in that panel). 

Actually, I think he really believes she never noticed him while he’s so sure she saw Amon as a true man she could admire and love, and the worst part of this is that he’s completely wrong (that’s the inferiority complex once again), since Akira admitted to loving them both by ch143. 

Aaaand since you’re actually making me reflect on them in order to answer you, I have to say that this sentence can add even more symbolism to their meeting in :Re ch31 because…

At first, she’s the one seeing his face from the side, and as she calls his name, he turns to face her completely and she definitely sees him and what he has become. So isn’t that ironic? All he wanted at the end of TG was for her to see him and when she finally does, that’s to see he has become one of Aogiri’s killing machines. 

Ishida sure is harsh with Seidou… :/

So there you go Anon, hope it answers your question! :) And thanks again for the nice words! 

Honestly, think about this... Kishimoto literally may have killed his series and insulted his fanbase
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mccrum  asked:

i saw that varric/cassandra soulmate AU i think we all need one for adoribull too.. ᕕ( ՞ ᗜ ՞ )ᕗ

I’ve wanted to write a soulmate AU for awhile, for this one I went with a signature AU like the Varric/Cassandra one.  I hope you enjoy!!


When asked his opinion of soulmates Dorian’s response varied based upon who he was speaking with.  For polite company he simply stated that they were an antiquated notion perpetuated by hopeless romantics and the writers of sappy poetry.  If the person was a friend, or as close to one as any Altus would dare to claim, he would admit that if his parents were the example of the deep and abiding love soulmates had for one another he was blessed to not have one.

Neither of those answers was exactly true however.  And some nights, when he had been up for too many hours and his defenses were down he actually stroked the series of numbers that stretch in a perfect line across his hip and wonders what he did wrong to just have them rather than a name.  Four eight six two five seven three three one. Nine digits he had long ago memorized and would repeat quietly in the dead of night as he ran his finger over each one.

Thankfully, by morning he has always managed to gather a few hours of sleep and knit his defenses back together. He was the Scion of House Pavus, he didn’t need a soulmate.

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Damon And Elena: Letting Go Was Never Part Of The Plan

Elena: “And I want to thank you for giving me everything I always wanted. A love that consumed me. And passion. Adventure. There’s nothing more I could ever want other than for it to last forever. But it can’t.” 6x01

‘I’ll Remember’ is pure salvation from start to finish. 

In fact, by the look of things, that’s what the entire season will be. 

Because the writers are tearing down long-held misconceptions about Damon and Elena’s relationship left and right. They are refuting every argument anyone has ever had against the very real true love story of this show.

Which was exactly the purpose of Damon’s death. To confirm the endgame, to prove he is the most necessary component of this supernatural group dynamic, to provide him and everyone around him the happy ending they deserve.

To kill the triangle. And I don’t think it needs to be stated that’s been more than accomplished. 

Because this whole fucking episode was about Damon and Elena. And he wasn’t even really there. 

Because the loss of him is more poignant and overwhelming than anyone else’s presence ever could be. 

Especially for Elena. 

Considering how fervently I wished for this story line, I was worried after the season five finale that a time jump would detract from the impact of the loss of Damon and Bonnie. I wanted to see the immediate aftermath rather than how things had changed months later.

Silly me. I had nothing to fear. 

This was such a better approach. 

Picking up right where the finale left off would not have driven home how detrimental this loss really is for the remaining characters. It is much more effective for us to see how difficult the deaths of Damon and Bonnie still are for these people months after the fact.

As I said before Damon ever died, this is not a loss any of these characters was prepared to live with. It has broken them all, individually and as a group. Not only are they spiraling on their own, they have been pushed apart both physically and emotionally by Damon and Bonnie’s absence. 

Particularly Damon’s. Not to downplay how terrible losing Bonnie is, but it is the loss of Damon that has truly crippled them all. 

Because losing Damon has shattered Stefan and Elena. The two who have always tried so hard to stay upright when the world was closing in on them. The two who were everyone else’s shoulders to lean on, even when they were the ones suffering. 

And now they’ve been destroyed by the death of the one person they never expected to lose. The one person who kept them all together, who was always there, who always came through, who rescued them and supported them through endless storms of agony. 

Losing Damon has caused damage to Stefan and Elena that they will never recover from, no matter how long they live. 

Which was the whole point here. The focus of the episode was everyone’s coping mechanism for the death of their friends, their brother, their boyfriend or girlfriend. 

And we know beyond a shadow of a doubt who is taking it the hardest: Elena. 

Let’s not sugar coat this. Elena Gilbert’s life is a tragedy. A never-ending barrage of pain, loss, torture and death. She’s lost everyone that matters to her at least once. 

Yet through all that persistent suffering, she’s still managed to prevail. Because she’s a survivor by nature. Even at her most downtrodden, even when she was chasing death and giving new meaning to the term martyr, she still picked herself up and proceeded to carry on.

Some of that is due to her strength. Of which she has boatloads. She’s one of the strongest, most capable souls in existence. 

But some of that is also due to Damon. Because he’s a survivor too. Because he bears the same type of strength within him that she does. He’s been her only consistent source of support and protection and comfort since she was seventeen. 

He was the only one who was always there. The only one who never left when everyone else did.

He saved her even when she didn’t want to be saved. He sacrificed for her without her ever asking him too. He fought for her, her friends, her safety, her happiness, and most importantly, her life. 

He put her first, no matter who would be left behind in the process. He gave her love like she’s never known and only dreamed of before they met. 

He made her his priority, the singular focus of his rarer than rare all consuming love and devotion, and he maintained that loyalty faithfully until the moment he died. A death, ironically, that was a choice he made, a death that resulted from the soul Elena returned to him when she called on his humanity three years ago. 

Because he drove into that explosion to save his little brother and his two best friends from the Other Side. And he was stuck on the Other Side because he stayed back at the Grille a moment too long to save Liz. 

All decisions he made because of the hero he became. A hero he would never have become without Elena’s influence, without the light and purpose loving her, and being loved by her in return, brought to his life.

She changed him for the better. She challenged him to reclaim his humanity and he rose to the occasion. For her. 

And that cost him his life. 

Like I said, we’re not sugar coating this. Her life is a tragedy. In many ways so is their love.

She pushed him to become the person she believed he could be, and he did. But that person made choices that took him away from her. Not because he would ever, ever want to leave her, or choose too. Because she made him want to live up to her heroic expectations. 

And now she’s being forced to live without him. Something she never expected, a loss she never anticipated. A life she didn’t plan for. 

Because living forever without him wasn’t even in the realm of possibility for her. She didn’t intend it. She wasn’t prepared for it.

So his death has completely ruined her. Physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. She’s been wrecked at every level by Damon’s unprecedented absence.

Which makes her method of coping significantly different than any she’s employed in the past.

“She doesn’t wanna let go. I get it. I don’t wanna let go either. I don’t wanna think that everything has changed, that I have to start over. That the worst thing that could possibly happen actually did. But I don’t have too. Anyway that was my day. How was yours?”

“Can we go back to the part where Ric came back to life to be a college professor?” 

I’ve watched this episode in its entirety four times now. And unlike episodes from previous seasons, it isn’t because of how much I enjoyed it (although I most definitely did). 

It’s because of how difficult it is for me to wrap my mind around the idea that Damon is gone. The entire tone of this episode deviated from the tone of any other episode of TVD that has ever aired. I could feel how something was missing, and it wasn’t until my second re-watch that I realized what it was.

Damon. Damon is gone. Really gone.

Hallucinations or not, he wasn’t IN the episode (minus that final scene with those adorable vamp pancakes and the sexy red plaid shirt). He wasn’t interacting with any of the other living characters. He wasn’t making snarky comments and waggling his eyebrows and drinking a glass of bourbon.

He’s dead. And you can tell. You can feel his absence. As poignantly as you felt Elena’s when Katherine had possession of her body.

And if we as spectators can pick up on how off the dynamic is without Damon, imagine how Elena must feel. 

I mean really. Think about it. 

Imagine waking up everyday knowing he’s gone, that seeing him or speaking to him again is an impossibility. That he was swept away into oblivion and there’s no way to get him back.

Hurts doesn’t it? Now imagine being in love with him. So in love with him that you’d oriented your entire immortal life and future around him. You stayed a vampire to be with him because one average human lifespan wasn’t enough. You worked through the toxicity of your relationship with him to secure that eternal life. 

And then he died. Worse than that, you died with him to be with him, in life or death, on any side of the veil, so long as you were together.

Except you came back to life. And he got stuck on the Other Side and disappeared along with your best friend.

And people are actually wondering why Elena would resort to magical hallucinogens to see him, even if it’s just a creation of her subconscious. A conjuration of Damon formed from her experiences and memories of him.

Are you fucking serious. 

This isn’t some typical loss. Damon wasn’t a friend or a family member. He wasn’t her parent, her brother, one of her oldest friends from childhood. He wasn’t even just a boyfriend.

He was everything. He was her entire future, the person she had planned to be with FOREVER. 

She gave up the cure to be with him. She intentionally broke up with him to allow them both the time to work through the kinks of their relationship so it would last. Even when it looked like being human again was a possibility, she asked him to spend that human life with her. To grow old with her. 

And when hellfire rained down and he put himself on the line to save his little brother, she got in the car with him and drove into an explosion to be with him in death if it came to that.

But somehow she’s just expected to get over this, to grieve in some conventional and healthy way, to move on with her life like she didn’t just lose everything?

Her whole future was just stolen from her. The purpose of her immortal existence is GONE. 

Do you understand? She’s going to live potentially forever in love with a man she believes she will never see again. A man who gave her the life and love she always yearned for. A man who is now beyond her reach. 

Of course she accepted the witch drugs when Luke offered them to her. Of course she got addicted to them and let them drive her to the brink of insanity. 

The love of her life is no longer a part of her life and never can be again. And she can’t just forget how she feels about him (more on that later). 

She also can’t let it in. Can’t open her mind or her heart to the idea that she’s never going to be with the man she loves and lives for ever again. 

So she improvised. Because grieving was too hard. Because if she’d tried to move through the five stages of grief and accept his death it would’ve killed her. That kind of pain is not something she can live with. And why would she want too. Why should she have too.

Damon certainly wouldn’t want her too. 

And that is why, despite the waves of despair that are crippling Elena and her friends (and us by association), Damon’s death was so important. The most relevant seismic shift in the history of the series. 

Because what sane individual is going to dare question the endgame after this. 

Elena has lost it. She’s embraced her denial to the point of self devastation. She’s so terrified to even contemplate living in a world without Damon that she actually runs in the opposite direction, creating a magical substitute to sate the emptiness inside her.

After all she is empty. Directionless. Frightened.

Alone.

The man she’d oriented her immortality around has been ripped from her side. And she doesn’t possess the emotional or mental stability to survive it.

Damon and Elena couldn’t be more endgame if Julie and Caroline hung up a sign proclaiming it in the background of every scene. 

And not only are they using Elena’s pain and Damon’s absence to drown Stelena at the bottom of the ocean forever and plant Delena’s flag on the throne of Mount Olympus, they are also torching any and all claims against them and their endgame. 

For those who have persistently refused to see the light, 6x01 was merely a continuation of what 5x22 started. It was one brilliantly crafted wake up call rolled into forty two minutes of unbearable sadness. 

There are three particular arguments against Damon and Elena’s relationship that have always stood out. 

This episode cast them into obscurity. 

“Anyway that was my day. How was yours?”

“Can we go back to the part where Ric came back to life to be a college professor?” 

Damon and Elena’s relationship is about sex.

Is it really? Did this scene strike you as something two people who are only in it for the sex would ever do? Does this exchange, or any of the hallucinatory interactions, come across as anything other than the product of indescribable eternal love? 

Only about sex my ass. If anything Stelena was more about sex than Delena ever was or would be.

Damon is dead. Gone. And these magical drugs she’s taking allow her to conjure a solid, physical manifestation of him. She can not only see and hear him, but touch him as well.

And what is she choosing to do with this tangible figment of her lost boyfriend?

She’s sitting in the cemetery with him in broad daylight, telling him about every insignificant detail of her day and her life. And cuddling up to him. Nuzzling into his neck, feeling the strength of his arms around her and the feel of him with her. Even though he isn’t.

Because she loves him, misses him, needs him so much that she just wants to BE with him. Sitting in the same space, listening to him talk and watching him smirk and letting him make sarcastic comments and poke fun at her. 

All about sex? Please. This is the purest kind of love imaginable. A love that runs so deep, Elena only had to be in his presence and she was content, wearing a smile so peaceful it actually causes me physical pain that it wasn’t the real Damon who was holding her.

Sex wasn’t even a factor. Because they have ALWAYS been about more than that. They have the most solid, unbreakable foundation supporting them that I’ve ever witnessed. Their love was built on moments exactly like this. On casual conversation and silent understanding, soft touches and gentle smiles. 

Their love was built on the beginnings of love. On trust and reliance and loyalty. On respect. On small, seemingly irrelevant details like him handing her a rose or her coming to check on him when his friend died, glass of bourbon at the ready. 

Their love was built on friendship and open, honest discourse. On witty banter and laughter in the midst of crisis. On stubborn support and comfort in times of danger and anguish.

Sex is so far down the list in comparison to what fostered their love it’s almost ridiculous. It was simply the culmination of all these beautiful, painful, intimate pieces that drew them together as they continuously fought to stay apart. 

Stefan and Elena jumped into bed after ten damn episodes. Damon and Elena let the tension burn between them for three and a half seasons. 

Which is why losing Stefan was never going to be as visceral for Elena as losing Damon is. Because Delena’s connection was forged over time, through trial and error, through fights and tension, mistakes and forgiveness. Through contact and communication and attention. 

After all, it’s the people who are there, day in and day out, sticking by you through the thick and thin, the best and worst of everything that wreak the most havoc on you when they leave.

Because you never expected them too. You grew accustomed to their presence, to the comfort that came from the knowledge that if you called, they would be there. If you found yourself in peril, they would risk everything to save you. If you simply wanted to talk, they would listen.

That was Damon for Elena. That has been his role in her life from the moment they met on that road when she was sixteen. 

She needed to bounce her frustrations over her relationship with Matt off someone. Anyone who would listen and tell her the truth, holding nothing back. It doesn’t matter that it was a small, insignificant issue in comparison to those she would face down the road. It doesn’t matter that the conversation lasted little more than a minute.

That very first encounter is exactly why Elena needs Damon in her life. Why losing him is so utterly unacceptable and horrific for her.

He’s solid ground for her. Strength in her weakness, safety in her danger, comfort in her anguish. 

Always in her uncertainty. Promise in her impossibility. 

And he can’t be any of these things for her anymore because he isn’t there. So she created a magical facsimile of him straight from her own head, because seeing any version of him on a daily basis was better than trying to survive even a moment accepting he was really gone forever. 

That’s love. That’s the most raw, brutal, nearly unbearable type of love that could ever exist. A love so incredible and necessary, the very idea of living without him would destroy her from the inside out if she even entertained it. 

So she didn’t.  

“I tried to grieve him Caroline! Trust me, I know grief. I’ve got grieving down to a science at this point, and I tried. But every time I let it sink in that I’m never gonna see him again… I feel like I’m gonna die.”

“No I’m not done yet. And I want to thank you for giving me everything I always wanted. A love that consumed me. And passion. Adventure. There’s nothing more I could ever want other than for it last forever. But it can’t.”

Elena doesn’t love Damon as much as he loves her.

I believe this is pretty self explanatory. 

What was that about how Elena isn’t as invested in her relationship with Damon as he was? Still think he loves her way more than she could ever love him?

Think again. 

She absolutely loves him as much as he loves her. She is absolutely as committed to them and their future as he was. From the moment she broke up with Stefan and decided to indulge her overwhelming feelings for Damon, that was it. She was, as she said and confirmed in the season five finale, all in.

She gave into what had been brewing between her and Damon for years and never looked back. 

She didn’t rekindle a single romantic spark with Stefan. In fact, she let it burn out completely. 

As soon as she realized she was in love with Damon, every ounce of her devotion and attention and energy went into it. When she looked into the future, she saw him. When something threatened to tear them apart, she stood against it instead of letting it come between them. When even he gave up on them, she fought to preserve what they had.

Elena has been in this with him every step of the way since 4x07. And you’re not paying attention if you ever thought otherwise.

But for the naysayers, the writers used Damon’s death to their advantage, to prove what some of us already knew: Elena loves Damon AS MUCH as he loves her. With the same passion and intensity and commitment. At the same level of all-consuming madness and chaos.

They love each other equally, in a way no one else ever could.  

And we are finally being granted an opportunity to see how deep this goes for Elena. 

Until now, a large amount of the focus has been on Damon. How he fell in love with her, pined for her, waited for her, stood by her, and never wavered. His love has been running the show for so long and with such force, it has overshadowed everyone else’s feelings. Including Elena’s.

Which is why this episode is so jarring for the ignorant. They didn’t take notice of the little moments from the previous five seasons that show how Elena’s feelings for Damon are just as strong as his for her. Because his have always eclipsed everything else.

But he’s not around right now. His feelings are not the point here for the moment. Hers are. She is the one whose suffering, who just lost the love of her immortal life. Her love is the epicenter of everything now.

For those of us who’ve known all along that Elena loves Damon this much, none of her behavior following his death is shocking. We expected her to spiral. Anticipated it even. 

Because any other reaction just wouldn’t make any sense. This isn’t just any loss.

This is Damon. The man who lived and breathed for her, who waited 150 years to be with her and has openly admitted he would suffer through his entire life over again if it ended with him meeting her. 

No one prioritizes Elena like Damon does. No one could ever love her the way he does.

And now we know - now we have indisputable proof - that the same can be said in reverse.

No one could ever, ever, EVER love Damon the way Elena does. No one ever will. 

Which shouldn’t come as any surprise. Because just as they mirror each other in their every aspect, no matter how small, their love is no exception. The same way they’ve paralleled each other in behavior and personal journey, silently calling upon the commonalities of their shared soul, their love for one another is of the same all too rare caliber of intimacy and intensity. 

Their love is complementary, unable to exist without exact reciprocation.

It could’ve taken Elena any length of time to grow to feel the same way, but she would have. Nothing could’ve hindered that. She was always going to fall in love with him. 

Spending eternity together was just part of the deal. It was the expectation when the love was this powerful and life-affirming. 

If only eternity hadn’t been taken from them. 

“You know I wanna see you Damon. But it makes me reckless, I hurt people.”

Being with Damon has robbed Elena of her trademark compassion. 

Of any argument I’ve ever heard against Delena this is easily the most absurd and infuriating of them all. How blind must you be to actually believe that Elena is a completely different person, void of her notorious compassionate nature, just because she’s in love with Damon?

How do you not see that loving Damon has only enhanced that compassion far beyond anything she was capable of producing as a human.

Lack of compassion isn’t the issue. That isn’t the change people have seen in Elena since she transitioned.

It’s her survival instinct. Her desire to live. THAT is what has changed. That is how Damon has altered her so completely and beautifully.

He gave her back her will to live. Not just to survive, but to thrive. To seek out new opportunities and happiness in death. To embrace the possibilities that come with vampirism even though it wasn’t something she wanted.

He’s changed her for the better, giving her something Stefan was never able too: a life. The deep-seated need to fight for her right to live and love rather than be used and abused for the selfish whims of others.

It isn’t compassion she is lacking. It’s naivety. Submission. 

She’s not only grown up, she’s grown into a person who recognizes that her life is worth living. Worth fighting for. Especially when she found something worth living for. 

And she did. She found a purpose in her death, a reason to live.

Damon. 

Yet here she is, telling hallucination Damon that she can’t continue to see him because it makes her dangerous and impulsive, threatens the safety of everyone around her. 

This has been her only coping mechanism for months, the only thing that has kept her from completely suffocating in her grief, and she’s selflessly choosing to give it up for the sake of other people. Strangers. 

Elena has lost her compassion? Shut the fuck up. 

She’s as compassionate and selfless as she ever was. She’s opening the door to a meaningless eternity without even the imaginary crutch of the man she loves and lost to spare other people her reckless insanity. 

If she ever had the right to be selfish and indulge in her own darker impulses it would be now. And she’s choosing not too. She’s trying to shake her denial because she wants to protect everyone else. 

Even though not living in denial has the potential to kill her, to drive her back to that place of despondency that Damon took her out of. 

But he isn’t there now. So what does she have to live for this time?

“Oh my god, is this what you’ve been doing this whole time? Hallucinating your dead boyfriend?”

“I tried to grieve him Caroline! Trust me, I know grief. I’ve got grieving down to a science at this point, and I tried. But every time I let it sink in that I’m never gonna see him again… I feel like I’m gonna die.”

Does this sound like a woman whose just going to trudge through her grief, come to terms with her pain and move on with her life?

Hell no. 

She will never move on. Not of her own volition. She can’t. 

“I feel like I’m gonna die.”

When has she ever said this before following the loss of someone she loves? The worst loss she’d experienced before Damon was Jeremy. A loss that drove her to her knees in agony, that all but forced her to flip her switch, that pushed her to burn her house - and the last physical reminder of her human life - to the ground. 

No one really understands how symbolic that was. How it transitioned her permanently from childhood to adulthood. How she let go of the desire for the cure, of the desire for a human life, when she set her house on fire.

And she didn’t look back either. Even when she did turn her emotions back on, she didn’t lament the loss of her childhood home. Nor did she bemoan the loss of her second chance at being human again. 

Because she discovered something she deemed better. More worthy of her effort and energy. 

Damon. Loving him. Being with him. Forever.

That is what allowed Elena to accept her vampirism and everything that comes with it. To finally acknowledge the beautiful things that can come from living a heightened immortal existence.

Eternal love. The same reason Damon wanted to transition in 1864. To be with the one he loves forever and always.

It’s yet another reason Damon and Elena were always going to end up here, as vampires fighting against every obstacle to spend their eternity together. Because their love is so powerful and all encompassing and glorious it cannot be relegated to a mere fifty or sixty years of fulfillment.

They HAVE to be together forever. It’s the only option their love to conquer all other loves will accept. 

It’s what Elena predicated her happiness on as a vampire. It’s what convinced her to stop hunting down her own death and start living and embracing her life, even if that life wasn’t what she’d originally intended for herself.

That’s what makes Damon and Elena’s love so wonderful. It is mired in unpredictability, in the promise of the unexpected courtesy of the one you love. The one who snuck up on you, who wormed their way deep into your heart and soul when you weren’t looking.

It’s the simplest explanation of how they fell for each other. How they came to love each other so passionately it turned into the only absolute either of them had for their own future.

Because they’d spent so long assuming their lives were to be oriented around Stefan and Katherine, only to discover those relationships and those feelings were little more than stepping stones for them along their road to each other. 

And now that they’ve finally found what they’ve craved all their lives, they’ve been unjustly torn from each other, forced to contemplate the very real possibility of spending eternity apart.

Do you really blame her for living in denial. 

“But every time I let it sink in that I’m never gonna see him again… I feel like I’m gonna die.”

This is the loss that has broken her. A loss she can’t recover from. 

Because unlike her grief of the past, Damon isn’t there this time to catch her as she falls. 

This time it’s him she’s falling to pieces over. And there isn’t a living soul who can put her back together. No matter how long she lives, she will never be whole again. There will always, always be something missing. Not just in her heart or her life, but her soul.

Since it’s very obvious Damon took a chunk of it with him when he died. You can see it in her eyes.

She’s incomplete. Damaged beyond repair.

And people just expect her to get over it. To pretend part of her isn’t gone forever, buried below ground with her dead boyfriend. 

Heartbreaking and unfair as it is, the twisted tragedy of it all is just magnificent. The most worthy type of angst and pain. 

This isn’t just love my friends. It’s goes far beyond that. 

They love with a love that is more than love. 

“You can’t be here. You’re not even real. This is just my subconscious making me see what I want to see.”

“One call from my brother and you wanna throw all this away?”

“You know I wanna see you Damon. But it makes me reckless, I hurt people.”

“So why am I here? Do you wanna move on? Move on.”

“I never got to say thank you.”

“For what?”

“For saving Stefan, and bringing back Alaric and Tyler. Thank you.”

“Elena-“

“No I’m not done yet. I want to thank you for giving me everything I always wanted. A love that consumed me. And passion. Adventure. There’s nothing more I could ever want other than for it to last forever. But it can’t. This is the last time I’m gonna see you. This is goodbye Damon. I love you. I have to let you go.”

“You’re still holding on.”

“No I said goodbye Damon.”

“I don’t blame you. You know what’s waiting for you. How long before you go running back to Luke?”

“No I told you that was the last time Damon. I’m done.”

“An eternity of torment, agony, grief, and you’ll feel it all.”

“Stop it Damon, stop it, stop it, you’re getting in my head. Don’t do this, please.”

“And you’ll feel it forever.”

“No!”

This is the scene that really got me. 

In much the same way as their final scene together in 5x22, this particular interaction is everything that is so viciously, undeniably beautiful about Delena. 

There are volumes of relevance to draw from this. Not merely symbolic, it is unequivocal proof that nothing that has happened between Damon and Elena in the three years they’ve known each other was ever one sided.

As soul-shattering and life-changing as every exchange between them was for Damon, it had exactly the same effect on Elena.

Because she wouldn’t be suffering like this if it hadn’t. She wouldn’t be emulating Damon (in yet another example of their unbreakable bond as twin flames) if she didn’t FEEL for him and their relationship the same as he does.

We’ve known for seasons now that Elena is Damon’s life, the light in his darkness, the fire that mirrors his own.

But the same can be said for Elena. It could always be said for her. 

Damon is her life, the light in her darkness, the fire that mirrors her own. 

And he’s gone. That means her future is gone. Her world is gone.

Her life is gone. 

Yet she’s attempting to let him go anyway. 

Just not without saying goodbye. 

“I never got to say thank you.”

“For what?”

“For saving Stefan, and bringing back Alaric and Tyler. Thank you.”

“Elena-“

“No I’m not done yet. I want to thank you for giving me everything I always wanted. A love that consumed me. And passion. Adventure. There’s nothing more I could ever want other than for it to last forever. But it can’t. This is the last time I’m gonna see you. This is goodbye Damon. I love you. I have to let you go.”

I could pen a novel about this alone. 

I mean holy shit. This is a Damon-level love confession right here.

And much like three of the best romantic speeches he ever gave to Elena, the real Damon didn’t even hear it. 

Tragic. Enraging.

Necessary.

Because it’s not about whether the intended recipient hears it. It was never about that, from the first lost confession in 1x22 to Damon’s goodbye in the season five finale to this. It’s not about Damon or Elena hearing it. 

It’s about them saying it. It’s about the fact that they felt the need to say such sweet, wonderful things to each other knowing the other person couldn’t hear them. 

Damon knew Elena couldn’t hear his goodbye. But he had to say it anyway. For himself. To voice his love for her to the universe, to put even an ounce of his feelings for her, of his appreciation for her, into words. 

This is no different. Elena knows the real Damon can’t hear this. But she had to say it anyway. For herself. To voice her deep, unshakeable love and gratitude and respect for him to the universe. 

And that’s exactly what this is. It’s not just a thank you. Or a goodbye.

It’s an expression of genuine respect and admiration and grace for this man who turned her life upside down in the best possible way. Who gave her everything she’d ever wanted for herself, who brought back everyone she loved. 

Except himself. 

“I never got to say thank you.”

“For what?”

“For saving Stefan, and bringing back Alaric and Tyler. Thank you.”

Damon’s a fucking hero. And she knows it. 

The pride in her voice and her eyes is unmistakable. She couldn’t be more impressed that he lived up to everything she believed he could be. That he became that better man she always knew was lurking below the surface.

No one ever acknowledges how GOOD Damon is. Elena is the only one. 

“No I’m not done yet. I want to thank you for giving me everything I always wanted. A love that consumed me. And passion. Adventure. There’s nothing more I could ever want other than for it to last forever. But it can’t. This is the last time I’m gonna see you. This is goodbye Damon. I love you. I have to let you go.”

Let’s just pretend she didn’t make a blatant reference to their legendary first meeting. Because it’s almost too painful to think about. 

I mean she just gets it. After all of their bumps and rough patches, their every obstacle, she understands. Truly understands exactly what he did for her and what he brought to her life.

And she’s damn grateful for it. For him. For the way he loved her and sacrificed for her and gave to her without asking anything in return.

She knows it was unique to them, the kind of gift you only receive, if you’re very lucky, one time. 

He was EVERYTHING she wanted. Everything. 

Not some things. Not a few things. Not even most things.

Everything. 

And now he’s gone. So she has nothing. 

“You’re still holding on.”

“No I said goodbye Damon.”

“I don’t blame you. You know what’s waiting for you. How long before you go running back to Luke?”

“No I told you that was the last time Damon. I’m done.”

“An eternity of torment, agony, grief, and you’ll feel it all.”

“Stop it Damon, stop it, stop it, you’re getting in my head. Don’t do this, please.”

“And you’ll feel it forever.”

“No!”

For the love of all things holy, I demand Elena Gilbert be granted an eternal reprieve from pain when Damon returns. 

Because this is just cruel. 

How much misery is this girl expected to endure before she simply disintegrates into nothing? Or implodes from the onslaught? 

She deserves to be happy. She was happy. Until her happiness was taken from her.

Now all she has to cling to is the shadow of her lost forever, a hallucination of her dead boyfriend who places his hand on her shoulder in solace as she breaks down from just the notion of letting it all in. 

Think about what really happened here.

She tried to let go. She gave it her best effort, said goodbye, kissed him, the whole shebang.

And when she opened her eyes he was still standing there. 

Because it’s not that easy. Nothing between them ever has been.

Her love for him isn’t a switch she can just turn off. Her grief over his death isn’t a door she can just open without consequences.

It’s a part of her. A part she can’t hide away in some corner of her heart.

Hallucination Damon said it. She knew what was waiting for her if she really accepted that he was gone forever. She knew there was nothing but despair and torment in her future. 

And she was terrified to let that in. Because once she did there was no escaping it ever again. It wasn’t a door she could close once it was open.

Her own survival instinct wouldn’t let her let it in. The physical anguish would be too much for her. She’d never live through it without flipping her switch or taking off her daylight ring on a sunny day.

It’s an extreme only Damon’s death could push her too. 

She’s not exaggerating or overreacting. She can’t do this without him. She can’t BE without him. She needs him. 

Being a vampire, an immortal, even simply being Elena isn’t worth a damn without him. He is the missing piece of her.

And her soul will cry out for the rest of eternity, searching for its lost half. Nothing she could ever do and no one she could ever meet will fill the void left in Damon’s wake. She will forever be incomplete, a shell of herself.

Subconsciously, she recognizes that. And when confronted by it she finally shatters completely, tearing apart the crypt and sliding down the wall in the same desolation as she did months earlier, when Damon was telling her goodbye. 

Which is when I shattered a little myself. 

Because watching her cling to his hand and cry so hard she could barely breathe hit me in all the worst places.

It’s so unbelievably rare to love like this. To be granted the privilege of putting all of yourself into your bond with another person. To share so much with them that the lines start to blur between the two of you.

Not one without the other. 

And she isn’t. He took the best parts of her with him. 

The only thing that remains of her is her memories, and the pain that comes with them.

“Honestly Elena. I hate everything about being a vampire.”

“Me too. At least, you know, I did. Then one day I discovered the good part. You know the promise that love could be eternal? And I had that with Damon. Which means for the rest of eternity, I’m going to have a hole in my heart where he’s supposed to be.”

“Trust me it gets easier.”

“I know how death works Ric. Trust me I have done it. A lot. There’s no such thing as moving on. It’s a lie. So if I’m ever gonna be able to fall in love again and make eternity bearable I need you to do something.”

“What?”

“You were created by the original vampire spell which means you can compel other vampires. And since I can’t take away my vampirism, I want you to take away Damon. I want you to compel me to forget that I ever loved him.”

I’m certain I haven’t screamed this loud since Katherine took over Elena’s body.

I saw this coming, but I didn’t expect it so soon. It caught me off guard.

And I am ECSTATIC.

It’s the cherry on top of a world-class story line. 

“Me too. At least, you know, I did. Then one day I discovered the good part. You know the promise that love could be eternal? And I had that with Damon. Which means for the rest of eternity, I’m going to have a hole in my heart where he’s supposed to be.”

I can barely process that last sentence. 

This goes so far beyond love I can barely wrap my head around it. 

He’s so much a part of her that she can FEEL the loss of him. In her heart and soul. She is entirely in tune with the barren space inside her where Damon once resided. 

No wonder she can’t live without him. He LITERALLY took some of her with him to the great beyond. Not just mentally or emotionally, but physically. 

She isn’t Elena without Damon. Not anymore. 

Which is why I advocate this story line.

“You were created by the original vampire spell which means you can compel other vampires. And since I can’t take away my vampirism, I want you to take away Damon. I want you to compel me to forget that I ever loved him.”

This is so ingenious. Better than the drug use or feeding on random people, she is so incapable of even acknowledging life without Damon that she’d rather not remember him at all.

That’s how crippling this is for her. She can’t let it in. She also can’t continue to utilize the magical herbs and pretend Damon is still with her.

So she’s choosing to lock it all away. 

It’s horrible of course. We’d rather she not have to resort to something so serious and potentially irreversible.

But come on. How else is she expected to even survive long enough for Damon to return. 

She wouldn’t last that long. She has to pass the time (unknowingly) until he comes back without destroying herself. 

“And since I can’t take away my vampirism, I want you to take away Damon. I want you to compel me to forget that I ever loved him.”

The very idea of living without him is so beyond her comprehension she doesn’t even want to indulge it. She just wants to forget.

What she doesn’t know - what she couldn’t possibly know - is that trying to forget will be fraught with complications.

He’s IN her. In her heart, in her soul, in the hidden crevices of her brain. He’s imprinted on her permanently, and no amount of compulsion will ever erase that. 

Forgetting may ease some of her pain in the short term, but it won’t sate her soul. Deep down, she will always long for him. Memories or not, she can’t satisfy what she craves for herself and her life without Damon. She won’t find it with anyone else.

Ironically, she does know that, which is why she’s asking to be compelled. So long as she is in love with Damon, she will never move on. And she recognizes that.

She just doesn’t realize that not remembering him won’t stop her from loving him. Even if her brain doesn’t know, her heart can never forget.

She can never truly let go of him.

Because letting go was never part of the plan. 

Sherlock vs Star Wars - The Empty Menace

The title is not what you think. Although there hasn’t been any sign of this on my blog – I am actually a massive Star Wars fan. I love Star Wars even more than Sherlock, which is rather ironic when I don’t have an “overanalyzing Star Wars” blog.  

Given my background its rather hard for me to ignore the similarities between The Empty Hearse and the Phantom Menace, so for once this blog is going to stray into another fandom. Buckle your seat belts we are going into outer space.

I’m going to discuss how the Empty Hearse fell foul of the same pit Phantom Menace tumbled into and what went wrong with both of them.

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