i think my heart broke just then

This news just broke my heart like you guys don’t even know. I wasn’t a 70′s kid nor teen. In the late 90s, I was about 12 years of age, I saw the first episode of The Partridge Family because they were playing the show reruns. Now, let me tell you…once I saw David Cassidy…I feel in love right then and there. I would sing the theme song to the show, sing his songs…especially Cherish and I think I Love you, watch Behind the Music, and…yeah.

I am heartbroken that he passed away today and he was one THE stars back in the 70s. To my very young generation, from kids to adults in their early 20s, it is very important to know musicians from the past because they are the ones that set the blueprint for these artists that you are listening to this day. If you love music, TRULY love music, then know your history. Never get stuck only on the here and now music. Incorporate music you are listening to now with music from the past. It’s okay to love one genre of music, but give other genres of music a chance as well. Hell, my favorite genre of music is ambient music and my favorite musicians are Michael Jackson and Selena Quintanilla Perez, BUT I learn to appreciate other genre of music and musicians and love them as well.

This man has set the blueprint for artist like Justin Timberlake, Justin Bieber, and others. Get to know David Cassidy, his music, and his story.

RIP David Cassidy! You will be truly missed. Gone but never ever forgotten.

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Eddie: I pretty much knew the moment you walked up to me at Cecilia’s birthday party that I wanted to marry you. I want to cook breakfast for you in the morning, to walk Sammy with you, to care for you when you aren’t feeling your best or just need a break from life. I want to wake up next to you every day and grow old with you the way my parents never could. And yes, I definitely rehearsed this speech twenty times to get it just perfect for you, because you deserve the world.

Gemma laughs, her eyes starting to tear up. All she could think was “How did I get so lucky? I’m so glad I decided to open up do someone after Jerry broke my heart.”

Eddie: The main point here is that I love you to Sixam and back. Gemma would you do me the honor of saying yes and marrying me?

Gemma is crying profusely at this point and manages to crack a joke, even through her tears:

Gemma: Of course, you goofball! I love you. Plus, you got me a cat.

Eddie chuckles, relieved. They rush together, a tangle of happy tears and various body parts. Eddie would have a life partner, and Gemma, Gemma would just have someone that loves her for herself and not for what she can do. A perfect balance, if you will.

“Never imagined this,” Han had murmured, sitting up in their bed late at night, Ben’s tiny head resting in the crook of his father’s arm. “Having a kid. Even wanting a kid. But now he’s here, and—”
“And you’re a dad.” Leia had leaned closer, unable to resist the chance to tease her husband. “Just think, hotshot. Someday you might even be a granddad.”
Han’s chuckle had warmed her. “Speak for yourself, sweetheart. Me, I ain’t ever getting that old.”
― Claudia Gray, Bloodline


Finally I could finish my drawing I started over a year ago. Just loosely based it over this particular moment from the book. It just broke my heart into million pieces.

Please take a few minutes of your time to read this. I’m not asking for anything. I just think that this is something that isn’t said enough.

My mom is extremely homophobic and recently, she found out that I’m gay. I didn’t tell her. My brother was talking to my mom and let it slip. And if I was not ready to tell her, I was definitely not ready for the backlash of her knowing.
I was taking a nap when my mom found out. The moment my brother let it slip, he tried to take it back but it was too late. They started arguing and it woke me up. I couldn’t really hear what they were saying and looking back at it now, I’m glad I couldn’t. I later found out that my brother was trying to explain to my mom that nothing was wrong with me for liking girls. That my happiness was all that mattered. But my mom wouldn’t listen to a word he said. So my brother begged her not to say anything to me. Not until I told her myself. And she didn’t.

I could feel the tension during dinner but I didn’t bring it up until later that night. While I was getting ready to go to bed, my mom started asking me questions about boys. What kind of boys I like and stuff like that. Instead of answering the question, I changed the subject and asked about the argument. Her expression immediately changed from lighthearted to somber. In that instant, I knew I would regret asking. She looked me straight in the eye and asked me if I liked girls. The moment I registered what she was asking, I froze. I just stood there, staring at her. Tears began streaming down my face because I knew what was coming. And I wasn’t ready for it.

I never answered her question but my reaction was all she needed for confirmation. She became hysterical. She began saying things that I mostly blocked out because they hurt too much. I tried to tell her that it wasn’t a choice, that I didn’t choose to be gay and she told me that I needed to change my thought process because my father was going to be ashamed of me. My father died of brain cancer when I was four and I always feared what he would think of me if he was still alive today. Hearing my mom say that hurt like hell. I broke down and my brother tried to comfort me but I cried myself to sleep that night.

The next day, my mom acted like she didn’t just tear my heart out. She pretended like it didn’t happen and avoided making eye contact with me for a week. Now, we’re sort of back to normal but our relationship is strained. She’s in denial, always making passing remarks about homosexuals, and it will never go back to being the same after that.

Thank you for reading this. When I told my friends what happened, they told me that it was bound to happen eventually and that it was better my mom found out now. But they didn’t understand the feeling of having your mom tell you that she would rather die than have a gay child. Let me tell you, it was the worst feeling I have ever experienced in my 17 years of life.

If you know anyone who identifies on the lgbt+ spectrum, please don’t out them. Even if they stole your crayon when you were in Kindergarten and you haven’t liked them since, don’t out them. I had it better than most people. I know children who have been kicked out of their homes for being different. So don’t out anyone. Don’t bash anyone for being in the closet. You don’t know their situation. When they’re ready, they will work things out on their own.

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So….harry potter au???

Ok first of all I KNOW. The Smiths dont live in…europe. They are from usa and in a au where they are wizards theres not way they could ever get near hogwarts. Theres the american school for wizards called ilvermorny. BUT GUESS WHAT- i dont care.

In ilvermorny things are super different and i made this au thinking HOW FUNNY it could be to see the Smiths goin to Ollivanders for a new wand for Morty (Cuz…the last one got lost or broke idk) and Rick only goes with them just to make fun of how weak and shitty those wands are. Btw imagine Rick becoming Mortys teacher against the dark arts lmao. You know Rick hates Hogwarts with all his heart but he just wants to be with Morty and make his life miserable so yeah. I have so many ideas with this shitty au.  And yeah in my version of this… Jerry is a muggle, Rick a Slytherin, Morty Hufflepuff, Beth Revenclaw and Summer is Gryffindor (Btw Rick probably doesnt believe in all that bs and hates being labeled as a Slytherin but deep down he knows….)

ok so what about Keith admitting to Lance that he has feelings for someone (maybe they got stranded together and were awaiting rescue and one conversation led to another and Lance started pressing Keith about Allura again, maybe Keith said there’s nothing to worry about, maybe Lance says “good, she’s too good for you anyway” as a lighthearted jab, maybe Keith admits he has feelings for someone else). and since they’re killing time Lance starts teasing Keith about it, like is it one of the alien girls we’ve met? except wait you never really talked to any of the alien girls we meet. it’s not Pidge is it? I mean that’s fine but tbh I don’t think she’d be into you unless you were a robot. and Keith just shakes his head, “it’s not a girl.”

and Lance takes a second to process and he feels a weird thump in his chest. and he says, of course that’s cool too, it doesn’t have to be a girl obviously, just as long as it’s not Hunk, it’s not Hunk right? it’d be understandable if it was, how do you think he got his nickname after all, I’m just saying Hunk’s wellbeing is my responsibility and if you ever broke his heart then I would have to fight you.

and Keith just smiles and shakes his head. “relax it’s not Hunk.”

and they sort of drop it bc the conversation is getting awkward. but the silence kills Lance so he gives it another go. “It’s Coran, isn’t it?” and Keith laughs out loud at that. “I don’t blame you, I mean who can resist the accent.” and Keith is giggling now so Lance feels like his mission is accomplished (not that he had been planning to make it his mission to make Keith laugh, it’s just ever since Shiro disappeared Keith’s been even more morose than usual and Lance hates it when his friends are sad). and then it hits him: Shiro, of course it’s Shiro. and for some reason he feels sad that he figured it out, so he doesn’t say anything to Keith.

and maybe they get rescued and everything’s back to normal on the castle. except Shiro’s still gone and Lance feels like he understands Keith a little better now. like why Keith always pushes them so hard in training because he wants the team to be ready to rescue Shiro when they find him. and whenever someone reminisces about Shiro, Lance risks a glance at Keith and worries because it must be awful to lose someone you care about twice.

and maybe they finally get Shiro back and Lance finds Keith alone in the observatory room looking out at the stars. and Lance is trying to find something to say that’s supportive. “I’m happy for you.” and Keith raises an eyebrow in question so Lance continues, “that Shiro’s back.” and he pauses, because he doesn’t know if he should say it, because his chest feels tight just thinking about it, but he’s a supportive friend and he wants Keith to know that he’s there for him if he ever wants to talk so he says it. “It was Shiro you were talking about, right? That you have feelings for.”

and Keith furrows his brow, avoids Lance’s gaze, and takes a breath. and he says softly, “Shiro… Shiro’s the only family I have. He’s like a brother to me.” and then he looks Lance dead in the eyes and says, “Gross.”

and the tightness in Lance’s chest goes away and he doesn’t know why but he feels relieved. so he laughs, and he laughs. and he claps Keith on the shoulder. and when he settles down he says, “You’re wrong though, Shiro’s not your only family anymore.” and he smiles at Keith as bright as he can, “All of us on this castle, we’re all family now. Like it or not.”

and maybe Keith watches Lance’s expression a little more closely as Lance looks out at the stars, and maybe Lance doesn’t notice the way Keith is looking at him, or the way Keith’s heart jumped in his chest when Lance smiled but maybe that’s okay because it’s not important right now. Shiro’s back and their team– their family is whole again. it can wait.

angst prompt list
  • “who do you think you are?”
  • “i gave you everything.”
  • “I’m a fool for not seeing this earlier.”
  • “don’t you dare pin this on me!”
  • “i’ve been thinking it over and this… this was never going to work out.”
  • “you don’t get to say anything after what you did!”
  • “you broke my heart.”
  • “i trusted you.”
  • “i loved you.”
  • “i’m not blind, i can see the way you look at them.”
  • “did i do something wrong?”
  • “please, please, i’ll do anything just talk to me.”
  • “i can’t stand the silence between us.”
  • “there’s nothing you can say that can fix what you did.”
  • “what do you want me to say? do you want me to lie and say i love you?”
  • “you cheated on me! you don’t get another chance!”
  • “tell me what’s wrong.”
  • “i never meant to hurt you.”
  • “this wasn’t supposed to be this complicated.”
  • “wait. i didn’t mean that. please, come back.”
  • “how can i hate them, you’re the one that made the choice to cheat.”
  • “how long has this been going on?”
  • “if you know what’s good for you, don’t come around anymore.”
  • “i never want to see you again.”
  • “trust you? how can i trust you if you never gave me a reason to in the first place?”
  • “i believed you!”
  • “you lied to my face.”
  • “i never loved you.”
  • “don’t make me out to be the bad guy.”

just leaving this here

Well we got this pannel on the last chapter of kuroshitsuji (133). We see how happy Real!Ciel and Elizabeth are while playing around and stuff, and then we see Our!Ciel on the back, just looking at them.


And then I remembered I saw this before.


Hell yes, I knew I saw it before.

Kuroshitsuji chapter 120. Just a short flashback Our!Ciel had while celebrating Hallowen.


I must be honest, stuff like this just broke my heart. My poor lonely child wanted to be with them at all costs, but he felt they were leaving him behind, I think, almost all the time.

She shook her head. “Don’t say it. Please, don’t say it,” she begged him. Her heart was breaking and she knew what was coming.

“I love you, okay?” he exclaimed. “Somewhere along the way, I fell so deeply in love with you that I cannot find fresh air. I can’t breathe when I’m around you. You smile at me and, for just one second, I think you feel it, too. You laugh and my heart feels like it could burst at the sound. You hug me and I feel like you’re the perfect puzzle piece I’ve been missing all along. You got under my skin. How could you expect me to keep it to myself?”

Tears streamed down her cheeks. She loved him, she did. She wanted him to have the fairytale ending that he deserved, she just couldn’t be the one to give it to him. It broke her heart to hear him say all these words he could never take back, because she knew that once they were spoken, things could never be the same. He was her best friend. She was going to lose her best friend.

“I’m sorry,” she said quietly. “I’m so sorry, but I can’t.”

—  It shouldn’t be called friend-zoning when you end up losing your friend // excerpt #153

“and all I need is one last chance,

to prove I’m good enough for someone”

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Here’s Percy from the Lightning Thief Musical. Chris nailed his character, like the this is the best Percy adaptation ever. Here’s a few highlights from the premiere night:

- Percy basically flopping on the floor when he came home to Sally, really sad that he’s expelled.

- makes lightsaber noises with his sword

- LOVES HIS MOM VERY MUCH

- HIS FACIAL EXPRESSIONS WERE AMAZING??? Like it was all sassy and dramatic and the Percy we know?? Especially when Poseidon flirted with Sally, he looked so awkward and so done with life.

- signs Medusa’s head to Mt Olympus in a box and when Annabeth told him that the gods will think that they’re impertinent, he just smiles and says “We are impertinent.” He later gives the box to Sally and says that it’s a “do-it-yourself box” and screams “NOO ITS MEDUSA’S HEAD” when she wants to open it.

- “Good Kid” was so emotional like he ran around and his voice cracked at one point and my heart broke. A+++

- says “this is nuts” when Grover talks to the squirrel.”

- “Is that a fork?” when he’s claimed

- “its Tatarus” “you mean… thE FISH SAUCE??”

- After Annabeth’s like “sexist much?” he goes, “NO I LOVE GIRLS…. I mean…umm…. they’re really nice!”

- sits on a toilet during capture the flag. confused by his own powers

- basically the sassy dramatic dork that we know and love.

and sweetheart,
i promise you
one day
someone will look at you
and see past all of the things
you think make you unlovable
and they will treat you
the way you deserve to be treated
they will be the kind of friend
you’ve always longed to have
they will hold you
as if you are the most precious thing in the world
(and you are)
and they will love you
in spite of your past
i promise
one day
it will happen

but until that day comes
don’t worry so much
about someone else falling in love with you
and focus on falling in love
with the way your chest rises and falls with life
with the way sunlight travels hundreds of thousands of millions of miles just to bring warmth to your day
with the way listening to your favorite song makes you feel as though you’re hearing it for the first time
with the way the stars have aligned in such a way that has made it possible for your life to intertwine with someone else’s
with the way your infectious smile can bring so much joy to others

instead of worrying
about someone else falling in love with you
just remember that it will happen
and focus on falling in love
with yourself first
—  and i guarantee, you aren’t as unlovable as you think you are
(cc, 2017)

I did just fine (more or less) right up until Magnus’s epilogue and Griffin’s final question for him. I think I physically felt my heart drop into my stomach when it was asked, and the moment Travis’s voice broke while answering, I lost it. I knew exactly where it was going, and it didn’t matter. Tears all the way to the end.

Thank you, McElroys. Your journey, and this ending especially, was fiercely, relentlessly, unapologetically optimistic. In a culture that has come to increasingly champion cynicism, selfishness, and apathy, you’ve reminded us that it’s okay, even noble, to hope and love and care. To find joy in the little things. Not to mention the fact that, being gay, having so many queer couples at the forefront of a fantasy tale (to the point where they made up the majority of the romantic relationships in the cast), with a happy ending for all of them, means the absolute world to me and many others who are so used to seeing ourselves in fiction abused, killed, or outright ignored time and time again.

I feel so blessed to have made you lot a part of my life when I did, and that I was able to join this community in time for the finale. Your family has legitimately changed me in some small but vital way, and I’m so proud of you all.

(“Magnus rushes in.” How dare you, Griffin. How dare you.)

We said our final goodbyes and my heart broke in two. I would have waited for you for the rest of my life if all you needed was time but sadly, you showed me time and time again that I was always the one who cared more. You always fought me about that- claiming you care just as much but I think you forget actions speak louder than words and if you truly did care as much as me, we’d be together regardless of our circumstances. I’m sorry you couldn’t love me the way that I loved you because I would have given you the world.
—  Farewell, my dear. I will always wish you well.
To The Boy I Never Dated But Still Broke My Heart

Once upon a time you made me feel special. You gave me hope. For once I had self confidence. Just thinking someone as perfect as you would take time out of their day just to text me. I actually felt pretty for once. When you would tell me I looked cute or my outfit was cute I got butterflies. More than you could ever imagine. You, just being you, made me happy. I never thought of you just wanting me for my body, or anything like that. Mainly because of the way we talked. We talked like we were best friends that had known each forever. There was a few times where we had ran out of things to talk about but we always found something, even if it was the smallest thing. Like I said “once upon a time”. Well time always runs out eventually. When I noticed we were drifting I broke, I really did. I didn’t know I cared about you so much until you weren’t there as much. Whenever you started dating someone, I felt my heart break. I started crying, instead of making me happy you made me cry and break. I always act happy. I usually am. I just cared so much about you when you just kinda disappeared you took a piece of me with you.

My thoughts on SPN episode 13x02:

  • This fourth prince of hell is very “the south will rise again”
  • Oooooo a little Scooby Doo foreshadowing there.
  • Jack is precious.
  • Sam’s relationship with Jack is also precious.
  • Jack emulating Dean is the cutest shit I’ve ever seen.
  • Jack fucking knocked to get back into the room he just left. I fucking adore this kid. 
  • This random character we get back, but we have yet to resurrect Charlie or Rowena??? Seems legit. 
  • Dean seems to be bringing up Cas quite a bit, just sayin’…
  • Jack asking, “Is that why Dean hates me?” broke my frickIN’ HEART *sobs*
  • TRUST NO ONE SAM. PRINCE OF HELL IS A FRICKIN’ SHIFTER.
  • Sam is a national hero.
  • Dean’s angel blade throw was badass. 
  • I’m thinking Michael is hella mad at Lucifer. 
  • Dean needs to get on the Jack bandwagon because the rest of us are already there.
  • Really, Dean? REALLY!!??? *disappointed mom (aka Sam) face* 

In conclusion: Apparently, the only person more bitter than me about Cas not being in this ep is Dean.