i think ill really sleep now

k so Thought™ you know that body!swap trope where ppl swap minds for x amount of time in a way that’s actually just personality+memory swapping - i’m talking stargate, x files, freaky friday mind!swap into each other’s body kinda deals.

now, what if there was an actual mind!swap where the personality of one person was “downloaded’ into someone else’s mind but the chemical balances and synaptic connections etc etc were the same as the original personalities and they were mentally ill or neurodivergent 

so you have the personality of a mentally healthy person in a mentally ill mind so the personality has to deal w impulsive thoughts and stimming and blurred concentration and any other number of things and they have absolutely no clue how to manage any of these symptoms bc they’ve never been expose to them 

so the entire narrative is them trying to do things they used to do in the blink of an eye like get out of bed or not think of pink elephants or hold a conversation from beginning to end without losing their train of thought and and them being all fuck off this is total bullshit

and bc this character is a scientist of some shit that’s how they swapped in the first place when they get their original brain back they spend the rest of their life plotting out the physiological symptoms of mental illnesses and non-typical brain functions so that ppl can look at scans of a brain and be like, yo this bit is the wrong colour that means they’ve got x or this bit is smidged and this other bit is bleeped so that means y+u instead of this weird contextual diagnosis system plus trial and errors for medication system we’ve currently got

I still turn when i hear your name thinking that somehow ill see you

My hands have started to shake now that they dont have you to hold them between yours until it stops

The nightmares have returned now that your soothing voice doesnt talk me to sleep

I cant listen to the favorite songs we shared anymore its not the same now that youre not in the car singing with me

I stopped checking my phone for texts now that i know i shouldnt be expecting any from you, i could care less for the rest

See its not really you that i miss its the small comforting things you did as a friend not a lover because i sing with friends i tell friends about my dreams and fears and these things make me think of you, Of all the little things you do and I miss you. I miss the friend I had before the lover, but i know he’ll never be back.

—  S.M // When friends turn to lovers

ok guys the ask box is empty and I think I’m going to head out for the night…I’ll be back tomorrow (Maybe lingering a bit here and there tonight but I really want to catch up on some Bleach so there is no telling what flavor of the day will come tomorrow…) Anways have a good night guys or day, whatever time zone your in! 

jk im going to get stoned anyway, ive been really sleep deprived this week but really stressed so i still cant sleep and then it just makes me more stressed bc its like, great im so glad i laid in the dark for 6 hours because i kept thinking “surely ill fall asleep soon, i just need an hour or two” and tbh i think if i oriingally scheduled myself 6 hours for lseep it wouldve gone great or at least better. i mean not now!!! not now i cant write that fast lol. but i should defnitely take a nap if i can. 

Getting Back Together Masterlist

A Coincidence - pasteldanhowells

Summary: It’s been 15 years since Dan and Phil had broken up, and they’ve both moved on from each other and started new lives. Phil meets a young girl named Luna Howell, only to find that she’s the daughter of his ex-boyfriend who he happens to still be in love with.

Breakup And Makeups - pasteldanhowells

Summary: Phil broke up with Dan because he thinks Dan could do so much better than him. A few months afterwards, on their four year anniversary, Phil realizes what a big mistake he’s made and wants Dan back. They finally talk things out when Phil discovers Dan drinking.

‘Cause Right Now Could Last Forever (Just As Long As I’m With You) (ao3)

Summary: Dan and Phil break up but are still friends/living together. One night Dan feels really ill and asks if he can sleep in Phil’s bed because even though they arent together, Phil always made him feel better when he was sick. And they cuddle and end up back together and life is good again.

Free To Be You And Me - danisstillnotinteresting

Summary: Dan was just a confused eighteen year old having troubles admitting who he was. Fast forward five years, who would’ve thought that what was the best option at the time would be the thing he regretted most? Now, Phil’s only given him six months to make him love Dan again. Will it work, or will Dan have to walk out of Phil’s life forever?

Limbs Lost Like A Dead Weight State (ao3) - emblah01

Summary: In which Phil moves away for university and Dan is left alone.

Perfection - danisnotfuckingphil

Summary: Their relationship had been cut, and it had gotten to the point where the cut was too deep and they couldn’t fix it with a Band-Aid anymore. So they tore the Band-Aid off, and that time, they stitched it up. But you can’t have a stitch without a scar, and they showed the scar to everybody, on their fourth fingers of their left hands.

Simmer Down And Pucker Up - sin-n-city

Summary: Maybe it would have been better, if he just left things along. Because then he wouldn’t remember Phil’s laugh in such vivid detail, or how much his eyes light up when he gets excited over the smallest, almost meaningless things. After Dan is forced to pick between his family and Phil, he realizes he’s made the biggest mistake of his life; but he’s going to fix it.

Still The Same As 5 Years Ago - duckmcduckpants

Summary: Punk!Dan and Phil were boyfriends back in their high school days. Dan eventually corupted Phil (In a playful way of course). Phil even gave his virginity to Dan. Eventually they lost contact after high school though, but they ended things on a good note. Phil gets a job as a tattoo artist and Dan comes in one day to get a tattoo. Dan is just as flirty and attractive as Phil remembers him to be.

“It is one of the evils of rapid diffusion of news that the sorrows of all the world come to us every morning. I think each village was meant to feel pity for its own sick and poor whom it can help and I doubt if it is the duty of any private person to fix his mind on ills which he cannot help. (This may even become an escape from the words of charity we really can do to those we know).
“A great many people (not you) do now seem think that the mere state of being worried is in itself meritorious. I don’t think it is. We must, if it so happens, give our lives for others: but even while we’re doing it, I think we’re meant to enjoy Our Lord and, in Him, our friends, our food, our sleep, your jokes, and the birds song and the frosty sunrise.”


- C.S. Lewis,  a letter to Dom Bede Griffiths OSB, December 20th, 1946

Yeh josh has a long narrow big head, abit like kobys actually i never really thought about the fact genes could be influencing it…
He does have a bit of a flat spot though too i think. But his head shape makes it look worse than it is. So ill just keep doing everything I can too fix it.
Hes sleeping on his tummy right now because I let him (usually i would move him to his back becaud SIDS).. but im laying right next to him making sure hes breathing ☺

@mamabear-bliss23 the doctor didnt say anything at his last check up so ill ask my doctor when i go see her.

I really don’t think there’s enough love for what Anders achieved in his clinic.

Like don’t even try to tell me that Anders didn’t know pretty much all his patients by name. That he didn’t go to find them personally if they didn’t show up for a check up or that did his magic and sent them on their way. Many of these refugees would have lost loved ones trying to get to Kirkwall, Anders knows what it’s like to lose those close to you and to feel alone, so I really feel like Anders would have been a shoulder to cry on and someone to talk to on the rough days.

And I bet he has a draw filled with colourful drawings from children who would have died without him. Handkerchiefs and similar small tokens from women who were forced to turn to the brothel for work. When they go looking for a salve for that rash Anders wouldn’t judge them, if anything he’d be understanding and validation their choice. He’d make sure they knew they always had a safe zone in his clinic because above all else he wants to know they’re safe.

Like seriously other than the occasional job with Hawke, Anders has no income, he probably lives of donations from his patients. Honestly I think Anders was more than a healer to these people, he was a friend.

Yeah sorry, I’ve had 2 hours sleep and Anders is all I can think about…

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Day 7

SWAT!Alfred saving Hostage!Arthur’s ass! (sorry if there were typos. Ill go fix them later, if there are) 

Im sorry I merely didnt reached the deadline! But phew! Right on time again! This isn’t actually what i was planning to do for day 7 but then I can’t draw comics today and ended up with this instead >3<

I REALLY HAD FUN THIS WHOLE WEEK. And now, i  think i need a long sleep. xD

I know that DanandPhilCRAFTS is a huge joke, but to be honest, I think it’s kind of cute. We have yet another yearly tradition. We weren’t sure before if it was a one-time thing, but now that we know it’s going to be annual, we can all look forward to the next video. It’s ridiculous, but it’s kind of sweet, like how we all look forward to Phil Is Not On Fire. Now we have two traditions, and it’s starting to feel more and more like a family.

Holy shit I ordered churros sat 1am on a weekday and the guy gave me the box and just said “may I just ask why you wanted churro’s this late” and I was so thrown back and I just said “I needed” and I think he was so done with everything he just accepted it and said “fair enough”. Churro man was nice, He understood. They also gave me 14 churros instead of 10 I am risen once again.

“It is one of the evils of rapid diffusion of news that the sorrows of all the world come to us every morning. I think each village was meant to feel pity for it’s own sick and poor whom it can help and I doubt if it is the duty of any private person to fix his mind on ills which he cannot help. (This may even become an escape from the works of charity we really can do to those we know). A great many people do now seem think that the mere state of being worried is in itself meritorious. I don’t think it is. We must, if it so happens, give our lives for others: but even while we’re doing it, I think we’re meant to enjoy Our Lord and, in Him, our friends, our food, our sleep, your jokes, and the birds song and the frosty sunrise.”
— C.S. Lewis