i think i'm more excited for this!

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5, 11, 19, 24, 31, 33 for nessian bc these two destroy me on a daily basis as do your headcanons for them lmao

OMG NO-ONE EVER ASKS ME FOR NESSIAN STUFF THANK YOU. i love moriel and elucien i doooo but it’s exciting to shake things up, I hope you enjoy these OKAY LET’S GO. 

5. Who usually has nightmares?

Oooooh right off the mark with the angst/hurt/comfort. Hmm. I think Nesta’s are possibly more frequent? And they usually don’t wake her up, Cassian has to watch her thrashing in her sleep for a little while before he manages to rouse her. And if they do wake her up she never screams or bolts out of bed or really shows any sign of it outwardly? It’s all very very contained and kept within herself?

 But sometimes Cassian wakes up and she’s not there and he knows exactly what’s happened. He takes the blanket off of the bed and pads into the bathroom where he inevitably finds her curled up on the cold stone floor trying to calm herself down. He sits down beside her and wraps the blanket around her shoulders then he sits a little apart from her. He doesn’t touch her or speak or do anything to disturb her peace until she shuffles closer to him and puts her head on his shoulder. Then he wraps his wing around her and tucks her in close. 

Sometimes she cries. Sometimes she talks to him about it. Sometimes she asks him to talk to her. Sometimes she just sits in silence and lets him hold her and be with her and that helps. Cassian lets her dictate everything, he doesn’t try and push her into talking or touching him or any of it. He just sits and is there for her. When she’s ready she takes his hand and leads him back into the bedroom and they curl up to sleep together. Some nights she can’t face that and instead she takes his hand and leads him out onto the balcony. Then he scoops her up into his arms and they fly for a while until she falls asleep against him. 

Cassian’s nightmares are much less frequent but they’re far more violent and intense. Sometimes it’s his wings being shredded all over again. Sometimes it’s worse and it’s him being too slow, or not acting at all, and instead he’s watching Azriel die right in front of him while he does nothing. Sometimes it’s people he’s slaughtered on the battlefield - in some cases hundreds of years ago - that return to haunt him. But no matter what it is he lives every one of them. He feels every bit of them all over again as though he was there. 

Nesta hates them. She hates what they do to him, how sick they can make him, how much they hurt him and how that pain is one that she can’t easily take away. When he wakes up it usually takes him a moment to realise where he is and sometimes he tries to get away from Nesta when she tries to comfort him, still trapped in the dream. The times he does that ruin her even though she knows it’s not rational. But she helps him a lot. She’s very, very calm and very grounded, her voice is cool and soft and low and it helps to anchor him. 

She rubs his back and holds him and reminds him that he’s okay, he’s safe now, he’s here with her, those things are all in the past. They can’t hurt him anymore. She won’t let them. She says this so fiercely that it never fails to draw a little smile out of him and then he’s kissing her forehead and she’s pressing their brows together and he’s okay again. 

Some nights he needs to just get away. and get away now. That used to destroy her. When he would just lurch away from the bed with his head in his hands and launch himself into the air and away from his pain, from his past, from his memories…but also from her. She understands him more the longer they’re together and a lot of the time he takes her with him but…She knows when he needs space and she gives it to him. She makes sure she’s waiting for him when he comes home and she has a glass of water and a blanket ready for him and there’s a fire burning in the hearth so that he never has to come back to darkness. 

once he crawls back into bed with her she wraps her arms around him and cuddles him so tightly and doesn’t let him go. She watches over him all night and only once he’s been asleep peacefully for a long time does she let herself fall asleep again too. 

I HAVE A LOT OF THOUGHTS ABOUT NIGHTMARES I’M SORRY. 

11. Who likes horror movies/ Who likes romance movies?

Hmm…I kind of want to be Difficult and say that…neither of them really like either??? Nesta doesn’t like horror movies because…they’re predictable and dull for the most part and she doesn’t have any time for them. Cass doesn’t much like them because they make him jump. And then he has to spend a month insisting that it did not make me jump, Nes, you’re imagining things. Nesta just -_- over romance movies and Cass is too busy teasing her for her repeated huffing and eye rolling to actually watch the thing. 

Nesta is a total Nerd I think she likes sci-fi things and fantasy things but her favourites are documentaries. She’ll just curl up in one of Cassian’s oversized sweaters and sit and stare at them for hours and hours and hours. Cassian likes them too and they sit and snuggle and watch them together. Right i have no idea why like there is no justification to this but I can see Cass having a guilty pleasure thing for like old westerns as well as old black and white movies? He doesn’t let this known to many people and he doesn’t indulge in them very often but..he is fond. 

19. Who loves to call the other one cute names?

Ahem, “Nesta ‘Sweetheart’ Archeron” - Courtesy of Captain Pet Name himself. Cassian. The answer is Cassian. (I feel like if Nesta is calling you a ‘cute’ name…you have fucked up. Like big time. And you’re probably in public with her. and she needs a way to alert you to the fact that you have fucked up big time and that your death is fast approaching but in a way that is socially acceptable? And so she just like, ‘that’s nice, dear’ and Cassian just WELL I have somewhere very important to be. the other side of the country. actually no, no another country entirely, I have to put an ocean between myself and what’s coming to me) 

24. Who is the talker/ Who is the listener?

Oooooh interesting. I actually think this is pretty mutual when it comes to important stuff? If one of them has something they need to tell the other then they take on the appropriate role? Cassian is actually a really good listener like he’s a great person to tell your problems to he will just absorb them all and listen so intently and you know that he cares so much about whatever it is? Like he never makes a problem feel small or stupid or insignificant? If it’s important to Nesta then it’s important to him. Nesta is a very good listener too, she’s more intense than Cassian and sometimes people wonder how much she’s taking in because she doesn’t react that much? But the wheels are turning in her head and she’s already coming up with a half a dozen plans and suggestions and ideas for what to do. She just doesn’t emote as much as Cassian does when he listens? 

When it comes to just casual every day stuff though Cassian is definitely a prattler and Nesta is quieter? If they’re just doing stuff around the house Cassian will chatter away while Nesta nods absently. It always looks like she’s not actually listening to him and is absorbed in her work but…She’s taking in every word her mate says to her. 

31. Who is more affectionate?

Cassian is much more kind of ‘typically’ affectionate? In that he’s much more sort of emotionally/verbally/outwardly affectionate in that squishy loving kind of way? He gives her lots and lots of kisses and makes her beautiful breakfasts in bed and lavishes love and praise on her at all hours of the day and night and he will do anything in his power just to tease a little smile out of her (he lives for her smiles and her laughter is like the fountain of youth to him (I KNOW HE’S ALREADY IMMORTAL, SHUT IT AND ACCEPT MY CHEESY METAPHOR)) 

Nesta…It’s kind of like the talking/listening thing again? Nesta’s is..much quieter, much more reserved, much more subtle and much harder to see? It’s the way she always knows exactly what time he’s going to be home and makes sure there’s a cup of tea sitting waiting for him on the table beside his favourite armchair (even if she’s upstairs pretending that it’s not a big deal) And in the way she’ll lift his book off of him and carefully mark his page when he falls asleep reading because she knows it takes him forever to find his place again. Or the way she can see through his big smiles and false laughter if someone says something that’s upset him and how she’ll look after him afterwards - a soft touch, her hand slipping into his, a gentle squeeze, she’s there, she loves him, she understands. It’s little kisses in public that she uses to surprise him when she knows he needs them or how she’ll go out of her way to find information on this one incredibly obscure topic that’s important to him and then brush it off like it was easy. 

So I think they’re both..equally affectionate it just manifests itself in extremely different ways. But these two were made to love and be loved with every single piece of themselves. And they give and expect nothing less in their partner.

34. Who would wear “if lost return to…” t-shirt/ Who would wear “I am…” t-shirt?  

See you’d think because Nesta’s technically more serious and practical and put together that Cassian would be returned to her? But nope. Nesta gets the ‘if lost’ t-shirt and Cassian gets the ‘I am’ t-shirt because he is both the commander and the mother hen in this relationship (and Nesta has a tendency to wander - like she just vaguely starts ambling because oh look, a rare book stall…oh! they have interesting paints over there I should get some for Feyre, oh flower arrangements- wait where is Cassian? so she gets lost more and is therefore in need of returning) 

ask me for ship headcanons and I’ll answer!

I know people might look at me posting fics and think it’s not a big deal but honestly… it is. It is a huge deal for me to post anything online.

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Hey guys, I’m terribly sorry for the lack of updates lately! I’m moving out of my hometown and everything is a mess, so instead of new art have two old sketches that I posted on twitter and then forgot about lmao

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Whose bad end is this again?

aka thoughts that keep me up at 2am if we had his ROUTE

I think that when you fall in love with someone, every single day you spend with them you fall in love with them even more. It’s like you find something else to love about them everyday. The way they laugh, the way they sneeze, even the way they blink. I think that’s how relationships last. When things are exciting, everyday you spend with that person is like an adventure into their soul.
  • someone: it's february 14th, you know what that means!
  • me: two weeks until i get to listen to the re-recorded version of juno steel and the case of the murderous mask, the first episode of the penumbra podcast, by sophie kaner and kevin vibert, to whom i owe my life,
  • partner: I love you
  • me, thinking: I love you more than anything you're my whole world you've lived in both my heart and my thoughts ever since we first met and every day I think wow how lucky am I to love someone as wonderful and dazzling and amazing and beautiful as you you simply take my breath away whenever you walk into a room with me your presence is so comforting and I literally want to kiss you and hold your hand all the time and I'm so excited to spend forever with you
  • me: that's gay

Now I got you in my space, I won’t let go of you… [x]

I’ve been feeling really frustrated with the lack of pansexual categories in queer book lists, so I’m going to make my own list of books with pansexual characters to share with y'all, because I know I’m not the only frustrated one. I have a few so far, but if y'all know any, please let me know! any genre is fine!

I’m looking for books with

  • characters who are canonically pansexual, either stated in the book or by the author elsewhere. an example of this is basically when the word pansexual is actually used.
  • characters who are strongly hinted at being or implied to be pansexual. an example of this is when a character says that they just like people or gender doesn’t matter (in regard to their attraction), something along those lines.

I know there are books with pansexual characters, they’re out there, they exist. we just have to do a bit of digging to find them. and apparently no one else is willing to help out pansexual people looking for book rep, so I’m taking it upon myself to do the job (with, hopefully, a little bit of help from y'all).

okay, I’m gonna end this here before I start ranting about how shitty it is for someone to compile a list of “queer books” that only has lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender books, because there are so many other identities that are included in “queer”, and they were just not even mentioned a single time in the entire post, so, why specifically entitle a post as “queer”, when "lgbt" more accurately describes the post?

  • someone: are you excited for this night out??
  • me: more nervous than excited
  • someone: are you excited for college??
  • me: more nervous than excited
  • someone: are you excited for anything??
  • me: more nervous than exci

Tyler Scheid is too good for this world???
He went through and liked a TON of happy bday tweets yesterday which is rad anyway, then he reposted and @’d every artist who sent him stuff and like???????? Who DOES that??? That’s really cool?!

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Happy BFSN!!!! Is it just me or am I SUPER EXCITED for this episode???? (Bellamy better be okay….)

@sassybellamyblake @drelllassassinn @bellamyaugustus @eskimo-whispers @grumpybell @sucker-for-contrast @sherlockvowsontheriverstyx @xoxolaze

things i’m working on

i was tagged by the lovely @purgatoan like a week ago and i kept telling myself that i would get around to it and look at me now. a week later and i’m finally working on it (however it might not get posted until tomorrow. who knows. i don’t.)

rules: list all the things you’re currently working on in as much or little detail as you’d like, then tag some friends to see what they’re working on. this can be writing, art, vids, gifsets, whatever.

like there are a lot of things that i am planning on writing and these are only the things that are going to be long fics, not the short one shots that i have in the works because then this list would go on forever.

  • fiddle of gold: wincest; we’ve all heard about that fiddle that the devil bet on when he ran into johnny down in georgia. we tap our boots the the riff of the music, sing along, let the tune get stuck in our head and we don’t think much about it because it’s just a song. until it turns out that it’s not just a song but that fiddle was actually played by the devil and johnny cash never actually took it. so there was a fiddle of great power buried underneath the dirt and all is well until it turns up and suddenly people are dying.
  • i write sins, not tragedies: j2; jared is a rising journalist, hoping to make a name for himself out there in the world of investigative literature. jensen, on the other hand, lives a more alternative lifestyle, not that many people know it. durning the day he works in a small diner, making a decent amount of money and at night, he’s on the street corner, making a few more bucks. jared immediately writes him off one night when he came home from work. needless to say it was the first time that he was propositioned by someone but it turns out that jensen is something more than what meets the eye. and for whatever reason, jared can’t seem to get the green-eyed man out of his mind. and whenever jared can’t get something out of his mind, he writes about it.
  • hoodoo man: wincest; they’ve been there for years now. long enough for the locals to be weary of that house hidden deep in the bayou and make them scared enough to keep sending stupid tourist their way. honestly it’s a game. a simple game that spans over three days. you guess the right object every day and then on the third day you get whatever your heart wants and you get to leave however if you guess wrong, well the hoodoo man gets your soul.
  • black texas gold: j2; black gold, also known as oil has given jared’s family his wealth. his daddy got the oil rig from his grandaddy and well, it was only right for jared to take it over. from the moment that it was signed into his name, he became one of the richest, most eligible bachelor, cutthroat oil man in the state of texas. everyone wants a piece of him whether it be money or his heart but everyone is the same. that is until he is at the annual banquet dinner of the private school that he went to and he (literally) ran into the green eyed, flustered english teacher named jensen and for once, he meets someone that isn’t after his money. but while jared came from money, jensen works paycheck to paycheck and when his job is suddenly on the line, he’s not sure what to do. he’s not sure if he has it in him to prove that he’s like everyone else, only wanting jared’s money or following his heart despite the fact he’s not sure if the feelings are shared.
  • fucking groundhog day: wincest; basically this is a ‘mystery spot’ coda full of smut and angst and pain all the way around.
  • compulsion: non-related wincest; dean’s convinced that there’s monsters out there in the real world. in fact, he’s been hunting them his whole life but when his father dies on a hunt and dean ripped open and found half dead by some hikers, he’s committed to an insane hospital because he won’t stop saying that it was a werewolf that attacked them and if he doesn’t go out there, it’ll kill more people. in there, he meets sam wesson who seems like every other doctor in the place except he isn’t a doctor. in fact, he’s far from it.
  • smells like teen spirit: wincest; sam’s got this dirty little secret that he knows isn’t normal. it’s so far from normal and while sam knows that he’s fucked in the head, he can’t help it. dean is everything that he could ever want even though dean wouldn’t want him back. only thing is, dean has this habit of saying things that gives sam hope and well sam, he’ll do anything to be what his brothers wants (basically a high school, weecest, pining, angsty, undercommunication, oblivious brothers fic).
  • the 12 step job: wincest; people are winding up dead at a rehab center and it sounds like the kind of thing that the winchesters would investigate. they don’t take too kindly to visitors, something about keeping the patients focused on their journey to being the best them and not distracting them with outside influences. so they have to go undercover, sam as one of the counselors and dean, well dean pretends to be a patient but the longer they stay there, the more it feels like dean is actually a patient and not just pretending to be one.

there’s a lot of other things that i’m working on but you know, i can’t think of it right now. tagging: @wetsammywinchester, @masterlynovak, @clearlylostmymind, @justanothersaltandburn, @jaredpadacock, @pathossam, @oh-jesus-sammy, @doomedbrothers, @mybrothercomesfirst (if you’ve already done this than ignore it and if you want to do it, then do it. tag me in it. i wanna see what y’all are creating. i will be your hype-man.)

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THE WORLD OF WEEABOOS

No, you don’t understand. This scene basically interprets what almost EVERY weeaboo goes through.

You’ve got the TRASH who is obsessed with their interest, the FAMILY who’s used to the obsession, the MIDDLEMAN who knows the world but isn’t completely engrossed by it, and the OUTSIDER who has no clue and is overwhelmed with confusion; and who requires the assistance of the middleman.

I AM BASICALLY SEKITO, WHO IS DEFINITELY ONE OF MY SPIRIT ANIMALS.

re·al·i·za·tion

noun

The moment of sudden clarity when feelings are finally recognized, or are made aware for the first time.


It hit you one random afternoon in the studio, a soft beat filling the silence in the small, dimly lit room as you curled up even more snugly into Yoongi’s blanket on the black leather sofa. His back faced towards you, bits of his blueish black hair sticking out from beneath his black beanie, his head bobbing slightly to the beat as he clicked away on his mouse. From the side, you could see the black mask tucked under his chin with one strap behind each ear, his fair skin strikingly pale due to the contrast with his dark clothing and onyx eyes. He chewed on his bottom lip in concentration, mumbling softly to himself as his other hand fiddled around with the different controls on his sound board. He was in the zone, as per usual, and over the course of the past few months, you’d come to learn very quickly that he did not appreciate being bothered while he was in this state. Just like the very first time you’d met in your composition class.

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Hey so I don’t know much about the stories beyond what is presented in Moana, but I’m pretty sure that at least the character of Maui as depicted in the movie is nonbinary!!??!?!?!!!

In his introduction he keeps interrupting Moana to add on to the list of descriptors she’s using for him. First “Hero of men” then “Hero of men and women.” Then he clarifies “I mean everyone. It’s not just a guys and girls thing. Hero of all.”

Then during his song he says “I’m just an ordinary demi-guy.”

He outright SAYS that. 

So. 

That is great.

aggressively queer steve rogers thou

steve rogers getting in fights even before he knew what it meant when the other kids called him ‘queer’ and ‘fairy’ and getting in even more fights once he finds out.

steve stepping out with boys and girls and not giving a single flying fuck who knows it. steve hanging out with drag queens and trans women and strange fey artists in all the wrong parts of town.

steve kissing bucky like a challenge and bucky kissing him back like a victory.

bucky’s parents no longer speak to them and their apartment has more holes than walls but steve proudly introduces bucky as his fella and no one in their neighbourhood blinks because everyone’s always known about that rogers boy.

the priest gave up long ago.

steve rogers getting his face smashed in and his arm broken in a police raid and grinning at bucky through the blood. “I had them on the ropes”

steve rogers lying on his enlistment forms to hide his sickness and multiple applications but also to hide his arrest record. steve outing himself to everyone once they’ve given him the serum. philips is horrified and carter smirks and steve just sticks his chin out, stubborn as ever and really, what can they do about it now?

steve rogers kissing bucky in front of the howling commandos for the first time right before a mission “for luck”. the howlies teasing them mercilessly. bucky getting called “mrs. rogers” more than his actual name.

steve rogers waking up in the 21st century and being absolutely fucking furious that his queerness has been utterly erased from the history books. sees articles and think-pieces and documentaries and not a single one says steve rogers was queer. sees biographies discrediting the howlies accounts of steve and bucky’s relationship.

steve rogers growling all this out at the first press conference after the battle of new york, glaring at the reporters and the cameras and fury just puts his face in his hands because god, rogers was supposed to be the easy one. steve cussing out republicans and racists and homophobes. steve refusing to do official interviews but always answering random people on the street armed with nothing other than their camera phone and the guts to approach Captain America.

steve rogers embracing the word bisexual with pride. steve crying when he talks about bucky for the first time after the ice to a fifteen year old blogger in starbucks. steve rogers attending rallies and protests and die-ins and his arrest record has its first entry in seventy years.

aggressively queer steve rogers.