Since readmores don’t work on this blog, I apologize for the uh. Ramble down below, but it’s something i need to just. talk about.
you know, it might just be because it’s super late at night and i just wrote a huge ass philosophy paper that’s causing me to think but.
Do i really matter here ?
Not in this grand metaphysical sense and shit but… here in the roleplaying community.
I try to make friends. I try to be funny and relate-able but…. I don’t know. I want to interact with people, but even people i consider friends (i hope we’re friends anyways) just.
I don’t know. I always feel like they’re getting annoyed of me or that they always hated me, and that’s why the conversations stop, and that’s why it seems that our muses just. Never get that chance to interact.
I want to be active, I really do, but when I try to be active … well, i get sent zilch. Nada. Nothing. And it’s discouraging, you know ? Muse is hard to come by, and the things i am interested in …
it seems like no one else really is interested in me – save for the few times that people are that i actually don’t feel up to interactions.
Is there anything I could do to really fix this ? Or am I just overthinking it. Because this is something i’ve been feeling since … July maybe ?