i think i'll go to bed :i

Every single morning, I get up and think, “I won’t make it through today.” And every single night, I go to bed and think, “How did I make through today?” And I think that’s what makes humans special. We do things we thought were impossible without even noticing. And we just keep doing them.
—  Journal Entry; 1 April 2017
it’s almost 6 am and i didn’t sleep because i’m ill

Originally posted by yourreactiongifs

why i even posted this

I guess you’re just going to be that one. That one that I have to live with the fact that we will never happen. But, at the same time, I will never get over you. I’ll think of you when he proposes, on my wedding day, on my death bed, and every other day in between.
—  c.c.
Angsty OTP Prompts:
  • "Sorry I ruined your life. Maybe you shouldn't have married me."
  • "If I would've known he was going to die, you think I would've done it?"
  • "It's nothing against you...I just have to leave."
  • "I know you love me, but I'm sick of lying when I say it back."
  • "That's the problem. I love you so much, I'd be willing to die for you."
  • "I'm sorry I made you into who you are today."
  • "People change, and people grow. And I think we just grew apart."
  • "When I look at you, I see my world and that scares the sh*t out of me."
  • "I don't think I can spend another night in the same bed as the man/woman who ruined my life"
  • "I always told her to quit second guessing herself...and she never listened"
  • "I'd rather die than live in a world like this."
  • "Tell me what they did to you, please."
  • "Sorry just isn't going to work this time."
  • "Her parents always hated me, I guess they were right."
  • "The one you love most isn't always the one you spend your life with...and that sucks."
  • "I'll go home, but it's not home unless you're there..."

how do you silence the voice in your head that tells you you’re a talentless hack and everything you write is garbage asking for a friend

Fake Chats #179
  • Taehyung: I can't believe you talked me into this.
  • Jungkook: it was your idea.
  • Taehyung: he's gonna kill us. He's gonna rip out our guts and cut off our heads and then he's gonna go back to sleep like nothing happened.
  • Jungkook: we don't have to do it.
  • Taehyung: I can't believe you think this is a good idea.
  • Jungkook: I don't.
  • Taehyung: I can't take the fall for this. No way. I've been falling all week and my shins are all purple.
  • Jungkook: totally different definitions of fall.
  • Taehyung: and just think of how disappointed Jimin will be.
  • Jungkook: just think.
  • Taehyung: he might even get angry.
  • Jungkook: he might.
  • Taehyung: and it is kinda early to be doing this.
  • Jungkook: very early.
  • Taehyung: why are we doing this?
  • Jungkook: beats me. I think you threatened to steal something of mine and in my sleep-deprived state, I felt vaguely fearful and forgot that I could just tackle you and hold you prisoner.
  • Taehyung: maybe we should just abandon this plan.
  • Jungkook: what a novel idea.
  • Taehyung: c'mon, let's go back to bed.
  • Jungkook: this is my bed.
  • Taehyung: yeah, so get in it.
  • Jungkook: there's already a person in it.
  • Taehyung: I'll go on the inside and you can have the outside.
  • Jungkook: we'll crush Jimin.
  • Taehyung: please, he's too smol.
  • Jungkook: true.
  • Jimin: please tell me you didn't actually go through with your plan.
  • Taehyung: we didn't.
  • Jungkook: how did you know about it?
  • Jimin: I've been here all night, remember?
  • Jungkook: oh yeah. Wait, was Tae here all night, too?
  • Taehyung: yeah.
  • Jungkook: I don't understand how we all fit.
  • Taehyung: Jimin is smol.
  • Jungkook: true.
  • Jimin: shut up and go to sleep.
  • Mika: Yuu-chan, your friends can't come with us wherever we go
  • Yuu: why not?! They are our family, Mika! We should share every important moment together! Think of it as family vacation trip!
  • Mika: this is not a vacation trip. This is our honeymoon. And it's the second night we have to sleep on the couch because Shinoa and Mitsuba stole our bed.
  • Yuu: aw come on! At least we share a small space...together... y'know-
  • Narumi: don't you even think about it. I'm sleeping on the floor right beside you two. The moment I hear a weird sound I'll summon Genbushin
  • Yuu: *nervous laughter* well, we can always go to the bathroom
  • Mika: why did I marry you, again?
  • Yang: *Yang slammed open the door to her and Ruby's room with tears in her eyes.* Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! *yang shouted as she punched the wall repeatedly before slumping down against it onto the floor holding her hands to her face.*
  • Ruby: *Meanwhile Ruby rushed in from the bathroom in a panic.* What Happen!? I heard banging! *She then spotted her sister sitting shaking on against the wall and quickly rushed over.* Yang? Are you alright? What's wrong?
  • Yang: *Yang sniffled wiping the tears from her red eyes.* It's nothing Ruby. Just... Just go away.
  • Ruby: Yang. It's clearly not nothing. Please talk to me. I just want to help. *Ruby said moving closer to her sister placing her hand on her shoulder.*
  • Yang: *Yang was silent for a moment, trying to stop the tears from falling as her eyes slowly turn purple.* Fine... I was going to the cafe were Blake went too... I was going to go tell her how I feel about her because I just needed to get this off my chest, ya'know. *Yang sniffled wiping her eyes.* But when I got there I saw her with Sun.
  • Ruby: Okay so Blake was hanging out with Sun. That isn't out of- *Ruby started before shouted with more tears in her eyes.*
  • Yang: They were on a date Ruby!
  • Ruby: *At this Ruby looked dumbfounded with surprise.* W-what? No. they couldn't be. They are just good friend, Yang. I'm sure it was a misunderstanding.
  • Yang: *Ruby then watched as the anger in Yang's express was overwhelmed with sorrow before looking down at the ground.* That's what I was hope for, Ruby... Right up until They kissed.
  • Ruby: oh... Oh Yang. *Ruby whisper as she wrapped her arms around her sister who hugged her back burying her face into her shoulder.* I am so sorry.
  • Yang: What am I going to do Ruby? *sniffle* I love her so much. But I can never be with her. *sniffle. I can't even tell her now. *Yang cried, holding onto Ruby for dear life.*
  • Ruby: Shhhhh. It's alright. Let it all out. *Ruby whispered as she stroke Yangs head hugging her until she calmed down.* It'll be okay Yang. Why don't you go take a shower and get ready for bed. Maybe it will help you feel better.
  • Yang: *sniffle.* Yeah... Thank you Ruby.
  • Ruby: Anytime. We're sisters after all. We take care of each other. You'd do the same for me... And probably beat up the other person.
  • Yang: Hehe, Yeah I would.
  • ~Later~
  • Ruby: *Ruby walked down stair while Yang is in the shower when she hears the front door open and close.* Oh I guess Blake is back. *She thought to herself when she hear Weiss and Blake begin to talk.*
  • Weiss: Welcome back Blake.
  • Blake: Hey Weiss. Where's Yang and Ruby?
  • Weiss: Upstairs. Yang's in the shower and Ruby I think went to bed.
  • Blake: Ah I see. I'll put these left overs in the fridge then.
  • Weiss: So how did it go?
  • Blake: How did what go?
  • Weiss: Your date with Sun.
  • Blake: *Ruby then heard Blake groan as she heard her coat being thrown.* For the last time Weiss. It was not a date. We are just friends and I made that pretty clear to him as well.
  • Weiss: What do you mean?
  • Blake: Sigh, Sun kissed me.
  • Weiss: He kissed you!?
  • Blake: Yes. And then I slapped him.
  • Weiss: WHAT!? Why? I thought you liked him?
  • Blake: As. A. Friend. Honestly, If I knew he was asking me out on a date and not to hang out I would have told him no and that I only see him as a friend. Which He accepted and apologized for kissing me while I apologized for slapping him.
  • Weiss: But I don't understand! You talked you were in love with someone blonde that we know. Oh god don't tell me it's Jaune!
  • Blake: What?! No! God No!
  • Weiss: Then who? We don't know any other blonde guys and the only other person we both know who is blonde is Yang.
  • Blake: ...
  • Weiss: ... Wait.
  • Blake: Weiss. Don't.
  • Weiss: Oh. My god.
  • Blake: Weiss. I'm serious. Shut up.
  • Ruby: *It was then just as Weiss opened her mouth to speak Ruby stepped out from around the corner and nearly shouted.* YOU LOVE YANG!
  • Blake: R-RUBY!? *Blake jumped in surprise, nearly dropping the box of sweet as Weiss watched from the chair she sat in.* H-hey. Uh, I thought you were sleep. I, uh, got some sweetd from the cafe if you want any. *Blake then watched as Ruby zipped over infront of her slapping the box out of her hand to the floor, shocking both her and Weiss before Ruby took hold of her shoulder.*
  • Ruby: Yeah. Forget that. Is it true!? You Actually love my sister?!
  • Blake: I...
  • Weiss: Ruby what is wrong with-
  • Ruby: Not now Weiss! I'll example later! Blake! Do you or do you not love Yang!?
  • Blake: Well I mean... *Blake muttered shifting nervously at Ruby's gaze before finally cracking.* Okay Yes. I love Yang but you can't tell her, please.
  • Ruby: Oh thank you god!
  • Blake/Weiss: Eh?
  • Ruby: Blake You are going to go up stair to Yang right now and tell Yang how yu feel. Like right now!
  • Blake/Weiss: What? Why? *the two said together before looking at each other weirdly then back to Ruby.*
  • Ruby: Because Yang has been crying for the past hour thinks you and Sun are dating!
  • Blake: Why would Yang think that and why was she crying about it?
  • Ruby: Because she loves you and she saw Sun kissing you!
  • Blake: WHAT!? OH MY GOD! YANG!*Blake Shouted and quickly ran past Ruby and upstairs.*
  • Weiss: You think she remembers me saying Yang is in the shower? *Both Weiss and Ruby then looked as they heard a door slam open.*
  • Blake: YANG! IT WASN'T A DATE! I DON'T LOVE SUUUUWHOAMYGOD!
  • Yang: AAAAAAAAAAAH! BLAKE! WHAT THE HELL!?
  • Blake: I'M SORRY! I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE NAKED!
  • Yang: I JUST GOT OUT OF THE SHOWER! STOP PEAKING AND GET OUT OR AT LEAST GIVE MY A TOWEL!
  • Ruby: Yeah I'm going to go with nope. *Ruby then took a bite of a cookie from the box on the floor.*

i hope none of you ever have to spend your days with a pain so immensely unbearable that it crushes your soul. but if you do feel like your heart and soul are being crushed, this goes out to you. i’m sorry. i’m sorry you’re so sad that your body can’t function properly anymore. i know you can’t get out of bed to shower or eat or talk. and i don’t wanna be cliché by saying that you’ll be alright but i’m saying it anyway. you’ll be alright. all you need is time. time for your heart and soul and body to recover. eventually the weight on your shoulders will lift up. eventually you’ll be whole heartedly okay again. it’s okay if it takes you ages to get out of bed and all you can think about is wanting to go back. just don’t forget to breathe.

  • me, done with my food: ... shE WILL STILL INSPIRE ME, BE A PAAAAART OF EVERYTHING I DO
  • me, thinking of pasta: wastING IN MY LONELY TOWEEEEEER
  • me, under the shower: WAITing bY AN OPEN DOOOOOOR
  • me, breathing in: I'll fool myself she'll walk right in
  • me, going to bed: and be with me, FOR EVERMORE
  • me, for good measure: DAT GROWL OMG
TFC characters as messages i've sent pt. 2
  • Dan: i want four giant talking dogs
  • Kevin: im doin squat thrusts right outside of your room, join me
  • Andrew: if im not in bed and im not at cfa, i'll be home soon
  • Matt: let's be swolemates
  • Aaron: i feel like im when moms are going around screaming as they do things and you're like "how can i help mom?" and she yells I DONT NEED HELP and you're like "but you seem mad" IM NOT MAD WHY DO YOU THINK IM MAD?
  • Seth: kinky,,, tender (about machamp carrying you in pokemon sun/moon)
  • Allison: one day im going to meet a nice blind man and then FINALLY i will have no one to impress aesthetically in a relationship. he just wants me to smell nice and i usually do. solid. done.
  • Nicky: snapchat filter: changes the entire structure of my face // me: wow maybe i was beautiful all along
  • Renee: i'm so ready to go into battle wit u
  • Neil: if they lock me up please break me out and smuggle me out of the country with cfa and thin mints
  • Jean: at least you won't be shot in the woods
  • Jeremy: not to be that guy but that's gay
Guys. GUYS!!!!

So EverythingGeek have just had a podcast with Art and Doug, and someone created a summup on Berk’s Grapevine!!!

SPOILERS AHEAD. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!

First a couple of episode names:

Gruff Around the Edges - very comedic, focuses on Gruffnut (who is most likely the Tuffnut-lookalike from the trailer!)
Twintuition - the twins think they have developed psychic powers and start predicting the actions of the others
Dire Straits - introduces the Submaripper
Gold Rush - the dragon riders work to get back Berk’s gold
The Longest Day - takes place on the week of midnight sun, when the sun doesn’t set for an entire week, which means we get to see the riders very sleep-deprived; this is also the same episode where Hiccup and Toothless are stranded together on an island and cornered by a new dragon
Midnight Scrum - focuses on several different villains all trying to hunt Hiccup down
Shell Shocked - introduces the Shellfire (or Shell Fire?) dragon and sounds like it’s going to be a two-parter

And then they also talked about the Dragon Eye for a bit, and mentioned that the way the dragon riders find it again is going to be very unique.

Futher more:

-the dragon Hiccup and Toothless meet when they’re stranded on the island is huge, and carries other dragons on its wings
-we can look forward to “a first” with Hiccup and Astrid, taking place in an episode called Blindsided (I think that’s what they said, the connection was a bit choppy) that’s the third to last episode in the season and they say it’s well worth the wait
-new species called Fire Terrors that live on Defenders of the Wing island
-the Triple Stryke will be returning









-we can look forward to “a first” with Hiccup and Astrid, taking place in an episode called Blindsided (I think that’s what they said, the connection was a bit choppy) that’s the third to last episode in the season and they say it’s well worth the wait


it’s well worth the wait
IT’S WELL WORTH THE WAIT


AAAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!

HIIIIIICCSTRIIIIID CONFIIIIIIRRRRRMMMMMMMMEEEDD!!!!!!!!

Winter Starters
  • "It's SO COLD!"
  • "I'm not sure we're going to be able to go anywhere today."
  • "Would you like to build a snowman?"
  • "Whatever happened to global warming?"
  • "Everything's melting."
  • "I don't think there's enough snow."
  • "Looks like a green Christmas this year."
  • "Take these lights and cover the bushes."
  • "It's a winter wonderland!"
  • "I love the long nights."
  • "You need a pair of sunglasses today."
  • "Do we have any eggnog?"
  • "Looks like a night for alcohol."
  • "I need some soup."
  • "I made you some hot chocolate."
  • "Layers of blankets are needed here."
  • "I'm not getting out of bed today."
  • "I got a fire started."
  • "Look at all the snow!"
  • "What's the temperature outside?"
  • "It's raining again."
  • "I think I'll stay home."
  • "Tea is what's needed here."
  • "The holidays are overrated."
  • "Who wants to wassail?"
  • "Let's go shopping."
  • "Light the candles!"
  • "Is all this really necessary?"

So this is my writing situation atm

  • big project 1 - stuck
  • big project 2 - stuck
  • mini project 3 - stuck
  • mini coda 4 - stuck
  • potentially awesome thing - stuck
  • real life novel I could actually publish - too scared to go back there
  • insane ‘I’ll change the world’ project - yeah not you