i think i see zayn for sure

I’m Not a Kid: Part 2

I’m Not a Kid

Word count: 5.6k

Genre: smut, dirty talk

Another part was requested by anon (anon let me know if you like it.) I wasn’t sure if I was going to do it but then I couldn’t stop thinking about office sex with Jungkook. Anyway, I listened to TIO by Zayn while writhing this ;) 

part one


It had been a week since you’d seen Jungkook. You’d forgotten that his father had a business trip and wanted Jungkook to come with him so he see the ropes of the family business.

They were in Australia and wouldn’t be back until Monday. You’d gone all week and weekend thinking about Jungkook. It was Sunday night and here you were again, nervous and thinking about seeing him tomorrow. You were sitting in the living room with your roommate trying to focus on a movie while eating dinner but you couldn’t.

As soon as you got home Friday night you woke her up and told her what you had done. You were still on a high from Jungkook fucking you but you knew you were going to regret it in the morning, and boy did you, at first. You couldn’t believe that you had let the your boss’s 20 year old son fuck the shit out of you in a restroom at a nightclub, but as days went by with no sign of Jungkook, no flirting, no touches, no lingering looks, no singing of your name your thoughts became consumed of him.

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anonymous asked:

Have you ever seen Liam with man? And have you questioned if he can be gay? I am not a Ziam shipper. Its a question, sincerely. Why I'm asking this is that remember the twitter feud with the wanted? One called him gay. There is something doesnt make sense about Sophia and him like : He fucked with her so many times "I like girls with so much foundation that you cant see the face" or Niall's Sophia pictures. I dunno, have you ever seen him with Zayn or smth

Hello! Thank you for your message. I had to really have a think about whether or not I wanted to get into this, but seeing as Larry is basically a sure thing by now I can finally start to investigate this Ziam thing properly. 

The first time I saw Liam he was with a group of guys, like five guys, which is why I didn’t immediately recognise him. Also, I was listening to Midnight Memories so I just thought my mind was playing tricks on me, but alas, it was him. I’ve never seen him just with one guy one on one, he’s typically with a group. Which is also why I’ve never spoken to him - never really seems like the time or place, plus he looks like a wild scared animal when he’s outside. Legit, looks terrified to be outside which is why I just let him be. 

When I first heard about the Ziam thing I was like, ‘lol, okay. SURE.’ Because for me I saw Larry before I heard about them. I just legitimately assumed that they were out and together. My first reaction was, ‘Oh, that’s cute - two guys from 1D are together.’ Then after some YouTubing it was downhill from there and here I am. In Larrie trash hell writing more blog posts about them than I do about my own life - which is how I became quasi-J List celeb famous in England. True story. Google it.

Anyway, I opened a bottle of wine and watched a Ziam video a couple of months ago out of pure fascination and by the end of it I was like:

Because it seems so. Damn. Real. 

There were so many things that I completely missed or disregarded because there was something Larry happening beside it. Legitimately for every Larry moment there is an equal and, quite frankly, more open Ziam moment. 

So WHY then do we believe so firmly in Larry but, for the most part, completely dismiss Ziam?

Could it be that their management company actually learned from their colossal Larry mistakes? That aggressively shutting down a rumour by having Louis and Harry go from this:

 To this:

Was insane? 

Part of the problems faced by the media industry when One Direction was on the rise to becoming one of the biggest bands in history (forget of the time, because after five years it’s safe to say that like them or not they have left a huge mark on the music industry) is that social media management was not really a “thing” as it were in 2010. No one was prepared for the way in which every moment, every look, every touch would be documented on someone’s phone (or potato as it were in Wellington) and put on the internet for everyone to see. 

At the moment we are witnessing a previously unseen situation in which we literally have a case of seeing what goes on behind the smoke and mirrors. Whether it’s through anonymous stuffed animals or moments captured on someone’s phone that no one was meant to see, there is no way to effectively hide what is going on with Louis and Harry, no matter how many NDAs or shit articles you put out there.

That brings us back around to Zayn and Liam. You could argue that they weren’t censored because nothing was going on, or you could look at the fact that people see Zayn as the ‘bad boy’ and Liam as the ‘aggressively hetero one’ ever since he stepped out to go surfing with a six pack a couple of years back. They don’t LOOK gay, and unfortunately in this current day and age, that is still enough for people to ignore what is right in front of them.

These two:

Display very different mannerisms than these two:

They just do. Though all four have their flamboyant moments, people are looking for Larry moments, whereas an identical action from Ziam is just accepted as bros being bros because it would have been impossible to create a second massive divide in One Direction without making this entire dog and pony show implode.

Have a search through Tumblr for ‘ziam’ or ‘ziam is real’ and I guarantee you’ll find some very interesting information. 

Short story long: this whole band has been shady af since they came in third on the X Factor (you can read about that here: 5 Times One Direction’s Management Company And Record Label Were Shady AF)

Anyhow, I think that Ziam is as possible as Larry. Just better handled. 

And that’s what I have to say about that. 

anonymous asked:

Hi! I love your posts, I'm just not sure why you think a public reconciliation between ot5 necessarily means Zayn will rejoin the band? Could it be to clear the air so Zayn looks less like an ungrateful asshole (which he isn't) or to pave the way for Ziam being out? I'm sorry, I can see that they aren't free, I can see that the way he left was shady, and I can see that they are taking steps to reconcile. I love Zayn, I'm just not sure what evidence points to him rejoining the band. Thanks!

1) He was always supposed to rejoin the band.  There were aborted attempts as early as June 2015 and a big one in August 2015.  There’s a ton of evidence including several hints both Zayn and the other boys put out for the August one.  There’s also some indication that Zayn was always meant to be on MITAM and they rearranged the parts unevenly after he was taken off of it.

2) There was never an indication that Zayn himself wanted to leave the band, so there’s no real reason he wouldn’t be back with the band once he’s allowed to be.

3) RBB did several OT5 things which indicates that they definitely consider Zayn as part of the band.  Liam also added an extra part to his signature that looks like a 4 when he had to say “3 other bandmates” in his MITAM dedication.

4) You might not agree with this interpretation, but I’m 90% sure Golden is a song Zayn wrote about this time where he has to be apart from the band.  It’s about how their bond will remain strong and they’ll be together again.

5) All these mentions of Zayn returning to the band after 2 years aren’t random.  Around March 2015 Liam was extremely coy about Zayn returning to the band in the airport.  Just now Niall was questioned about whether the return after the hiatus would be OT4 or OT5.  Those things aren’t about a reconciliation.  They’re about a reunion.

6) Stalker Sarah was apparently talking about an OT5 return from hiatus this year.  Stalker Sarah is called a professional fan for a reason and she seems to serve a purpose in priming the fandom for certain things.  If she said it, there’s a pretty good chance she got the information from the boys’ team.

7) Caroline Watson posted something very suggestive on her Instagram about dressing hot boys for the red carpet in 2017 and proceeded to like comments about 1D and Zayn.

There are a heck of a lot of reasons to believe that this has always been and will always be an OT5 band.  People might not always be able to see it, but it’s there.

anonymous asked:

do you think there was some major beef/internal conflict in 1d (Niall, Louis, & Liam V.S. Harry)?? because I really get the impression that Harry was very separate from the other members of the band, always kind of off doing his own thing while the other boys seemed to be a band of their own... am I crazy or do you sort of see this divide as well??

Hi anon!

OK, so I truly never thought it was OT3/4 vs Harry, I really didn’t. I thought it was all tabloid fodder, made up by Dan and Simon, etc. And I would like to preface this whole post with “this is all image, we don’t really know what’s going on behind the scenes, this could be part of their solo pushes,” and so on and so forth.

But having said all of that, yeah, I’m starting to think that view has some truth behind it.

Keeping in mind that Liam tended to act as the spokesman for the band, and he’s doing active promo for the first time, let’s look at him…

There was this sort of weird tweet. I remember at the time, the fandom was like “that’s kind of weird.” But whatever, who knows who wrote the tweet, and he did say he’s proud of Harry.

But then we come to hear it was Harry who wanted the hiatus first (per Harry’s Rolling Stone article) and Liam says that Niall had the hardest time with it, and that Liam didn’t even know what a hiatus was (which sounds like bullshit, but that’s the story he’s pushing), and that’s just…something to note. OK.

Then we get the totally flat affect of Harry talking about Liam’s music on Grimmy’s show. And he said he didn’t know about Liam’s chains, which was weird.

We get the Harry Potter tweet about celebrity from Liam, and then Liam kept posting pictures of the chain all over the place, including with Niall.

Then we have Harry being rude to the fan who got Liam’s chevron tat, and claiming it had nothing to do with him (as if he wasn’t part of 1D?).

And the way that Liam talked about Harry and his music today was not positive, while he talked positively about Niall’s music and showed up at WangoTango and was photographed with him (and the chain).

Then we have the comments Liam made about how he wrote half the songs on MITAM (I think that was half of the songs that any of OT4 wrote for the album?) and how he wanted to tour it. Harry has been sold as being the one who “changed” 1D’s sound, but we know that Liam has done a ton of the writing. In fact, if you compare the writing credits, Liam wrote more songs for 1D (including on MITAM) and got production credit on things (often remixes).

Finally, we get these weird questions from Dan toward both Niall and Harry, where they both leave open the possibility of One Direction existing without Harry. And we have Liam including Zayn in his answers about what the band is doing for their solo music. And go bacik to the first link in the above paragraph, where he says, “It’s difficult to see how everyone’s gonna work out at the moment.”

Now, you asked about Louis, Liam, and Niall as a unit.

When I rewatch OTRA clips now, I wonder if the other men ever got annoyed with Harry being all over the stage and sort of taking over, especially while they were singing. A post crossed my dash today about stage Harry in OTRA and he was swinging around his hair, bounding across the stage, dancing with mics, etc–and in this clip, it wasn’t when he was singing. I’ve talked about how Harry’s stage presence on SNL was not what I expected, and in rewatching OTRA clips now, it’s clear often Harry was able to be stage!Harry because the other men were singing. I wonder how they felt about that? (I wonder. Truly wonder. I’m not making assumptions, I’m rethinking old assumptions.)

I think Niall will always try to be a neutral as possible. He’s like Switzerland. But even he left open the idea that 1D could come back without Harry. Which…?

I think there is clearly no love lost between Harry and Zayn, and I think that’s for real.

Louis seemed more in sync with the other men (Niall and Liam) in OTRA. We know Harry had his own stylist, etc. 

So. To answer your question, yeah, I see it. And I don’t know if it’s just for promo purposes or what. But I see it.

The first foray back into canon AU for ages and it’s not mega long but long enough to put some under the cut.  Ziam in New York.

xx

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Days pass by in a blur.  

Liam’s lost count of how many people he’s hugged, how being on a private plane once upon a time was an exciting novelty but at the risk of being a complete pop star about it, it’s like getting on the 63 back home in Wolverhampton these days.

He’s so excited, even with all that’s along with it and that he doesn’t like to dwell on, Paddy sometimes tries to draw him out on it, sees the signs and sometimes he’ll try to draw it out with humour, other times with an arm flung around Liam’s shoulder.

Liam plays along like it works sometimes, and he and Paddy both know the truth but Paddy will ruffle his hair or give him that grin that conflicts with the concern in his eyes but he leaves it be.

Liam steals time, private time, where he can even if it’s five minutes, even if it’s two, even if he can only just say, “Hi, I miss you,” and even if there’s only enough time before the wheels go up for the response to be “Never as much as I miss you, babe”

They send each other selfies when they first wake up, and just before, in Liam’s case at least and he suspects it’s the same for Zayn, half-hearted attempts to sleep.

And he counts down the days.  Each morning, he gets a text from Zayn with just a number on it, has done, every day since they last saw each other.

“I take it he sent you a zero this time,” Liam looks up and takes off his sunglasses and he can feel himself blushing, except he’s not embarrassed, not really and he shrugs at Paddy’s words, can’t stop the grin and Paddy returns it and this time there isn’t concern.

Liam’s vaguely aware of Charlie and Paddy ribbing him, but he doesn’t care, he just looks down at the phone screen and there’s never been a better sight. 

Correction. 

Liam shuts the door behind him, it’s late, and his head’s spinning with praise and plans for his future. 

He doesn’t care, he takes one more step, then another till he rounds a corner and there, right there, that’s what’s better than any zero. 

Zayn’s holding onto the remote control, kind of.  He’s got a pair of jogging bottoms on, and a hoodie, his hair’s still got the traces of green he promised he wouldn’t get rid of till he saw Liam again and the beard is growing again, his eyes are shut so just like all the times before, Liam’s distracted by the way each time he sees him, it’s like he’s grown a hundred more eyelashes, and his lips are slightly parted as he gently snores.

He almost doesn’t want to wake him, except that’s a total lie.

He strides across to the bed, and gently taps at Zayn’s feet and then folds his arms as Zayn murmurs and then shifts and then blinks his eyes open and looks up.

“Told you, you wouldn’t be able to stay awake,” Liam smiles as he says it and sits down on the bed, next to where Zayn shifts and spreads his arms out as he yawns then sleepily smiles and places his hands on Liam’s arm gently tugging him closer.

“No one likes a know it all you knob.” 

Liam grins, responds with his middle finger before he allows himself to relax and he falls into Zayn’s side, it’s not ideal because he can’t fully see Zayn’s face and the reason it’s not ideal? Well, he’s spent too long imagining not taking his eyes off Zayn

He can make out the rise and fall of Zayn’s chest instead though and the way he keeps attempting to stifle his yawns, his eyes crinkling before Zayn makes a tutting sound.

“Didn’t your mum tell you it’s rude to stare?”  As Zayn says it though, his eyes crinkle again, except this time it’s with a smile and Liam wants to see him fully now so he shifts once more, turns on his side, and rests his cheek on his palm and his elbow on the pillow and he does stare now.

Quietly he replies, “I think she’d get it, why I need to that is,”  it hits him then, the weight of how long they’ve been apart, all he’s had to face and his shoulders sag and his gaze drops away from Zayn, till he’s staring at nothing but then fingertips gently scratch at his chin.

“Eh Li, what did we say?” 

Liam could respond with what they’ve talked about, tried to talk about more like, he could talk about the times that conversations ended up with one of them hanging up, they could talk about planning what they’d do beyond all this, if there ever is a beyond all this because sometimes it’s hard to remember that there will be. 

It’s late though, and he’s done with that, this time is too fleeting to be wasted on what’s around them, rather than what they have that can never be shifted so he lifts his eyes till they meet Zayn’s and he chews at his bottom lip and Zayn nods.

“Oh yeah, we talked about that too, take off the chains first and you’ve got a deal.”

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anonymous asked:

Melly, I really miss seeing Zayn being all cute and happy with the other One Direction boys. Especially because his pap walks lately have all been so sad.

ME TOO. It’s not like I have any important real life work to do right now (I do but that’s not important right now)

Look at these tiny puppy children trying to act like they are bad ass. The only crime they’ve committed is STEALING MY HEART.


SEAMEN!* (see the joke i made there? get it?). These are the five smolest sailors you’ve ever seen, although high key i’m pretty sure if anyone ever let the five of them captain a watercraft it would result in one of the largest Maritime disasters in history. 

What an adorably hot mess. I can feel my ovaries turning to dust. 

LOOK AT THIS GOAT RODEO. I don’t even know what’s happening here. Niall’s playing the guitar, Harreh is sparkling like the diamond he is with some drumsticks, and I think Zayn is practicing his fencing stance with Liam while Louis looks in dismay. ITS A WIN.

I CAN’T WITH THIS RAG-TAG GROUP OF ADORABLE SCAMPS. Tineh Loueh is trying to shoot Harreh with darts filled with his love, Liam and Zayn have some sort of weird flirting/mating ritual happening that’s resulting in Liam delighting in spanking Zayn’s quiff with his giant trash can lid hands (that is not an innuendo), and Niall is very calmly and serenely wondering how he ended up fifth wheeling. 

And finally, because you weren’t in enough agony, LOOK AT HOW SMOL THEY ARE. THEY ARE PRACTICALLY NOT EVEN BIG ENOUGH TO RIDE IN A CAR WITHOUT A WEIGHT APPROPRIATE CAR SEAT

anonymous asked:

Uncles ziam attending Brooklyn's first ballet recital and being overly supportive. Zayn telling people "That's my godchild over there!" Bonus: if Brooklyn does something goofy on stage and they're like "Was that part of the routine?" And Caroline's like "Nope." And they all laugh fondly because that's so very Brooklyn.

I turned this into a stupid ficlet rather than a lovely drabble, sorry nonnie. Hope you enjoy.

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The hall that the ballet school’s performing in is old. High arched ceilings, a brick building that stands next to the church that’s been here for centuries.

Liam and Zayn have been here once before, to watch a Christmas show when Brooklyn was 3. 

Back then, the ballet school’s budget didn’t stretch to constructing sets or having anything other than a few smelly old heaters scattered around the hall, the smell of burning had meant they’d had to be turned off and everyone had sat in their winter coats shivering and clapping even more than they would have done normally just to keep warm.

Two years have passed.  Two years in which a cash injection from benefactors who wanted to remain anonymous transformed the ballet school and the hall.

The hall’s warm as toast now.

The school can now do what they planned to do all along and that’s invite children of parents on benefits, who couldn’t normally afford the cost of the lessons, never mind anything else, to be part of the lessons 

They can afford sets which transform any building.  Like this building.  As Liam and Zayn walk through the door, it’s like they’ve walked into a Winter Wonderland, there’s Christmas trees, there’s artificial snow, and then either side of where the seats are in front of the stage, it’s like they’re in an enchanted forest.

There’s snow, okay its artificial, but it still creates the effect, which falls as they walk forward and just as they reach the back row of the seats, there’s a stall with 2 women dishing out steaming hot mugs of mulled wine for the adults and hot chocolate and marshmallows for the children.

It’s not even halfway through December yet, but in Liam it stirs up that feeling of excitement that he always feels this time of year nevertheless.

They accept a mug each and there’s a flicker of recognition on one of the women’s faces and she goes to speak, but then thinks better of it and stays silent.

“Cheers babe,” Zayn presses his mug forward and clinks it into Liam’s as they step away from the stall. 

“Cheers to you too love,”Liam replies then they lift the mugs upwards, not taking their eyes off each other as they each take a sip.

Zayn immediately pulls it away, pulls his face and grumbles, “Tastes more like  Lemsip than bloody wine.”

Liam rolls his eyes, “Well,  give it here, then Mr Grinch and I’ll have yours too, and you can have a hot chocolate with marshmallows just like all the other kids in this place,” he finishes the words with a pinch of Zayn’s cheeks.

Zayn holds up the middle finger of his free hand as his response and he looks like he’s about to say something when they hear their names being called and Liam looks to his left towards the seats, and she’s there waving and then she’s not alone, she’s  got a lady stood next to her, about the same height as Caroline. 

Liam and Zayn glance at each other, shrug and Zayn continues to mumble discontentedly about the mulled wine as they walk towards Caroline and whoever the lady with her is.

Caroline and the woman meet them halfway just as Liam drains the contents of his own mug and places it on the tray of one of the caterers as they walk past.

Liam puts his hand out,  ready to shake the woman’s hand when Caroline takes hold of it instead and then jerks her thumb in the direction of the fire exit in the corner of the hall.

Zayn follows behind as Caroline drags Liam towards the fire exit and the woman falls into step with Caroline and Liam.

They reach the door and Liam expects Caroline to open it, but instead she drops her hand from Liam’s and then places it on the woman’s arm.

“Sorry for the dramatics boys, but Helen here has always wondered who her anonymous benefactors are, and I know we can trust her to keep it quiet, if you two want it to remain quiet that is.”

Helen blinks, her mouth falls open before she regains some composure long enough to say.

“You are joking, right?”

Liam and Zayn shake their heads in unison before Liam explains.

“We were sat over there in the corner for the Christmas 2016 show and Brooklyn was one of the Christmas angels, except she was an angel in a duffel coat, like all the other angels cause it was freezing, and we almost froze our peanuts off.”

Zayn picks up the story then, “Yeah, and we were driving home and had the heat on full blast and Caroline was saying that never mind, no heating, there’d be no ballet school come next Christmas if they didn’t have a miracle.”

“And you were our miracle,” Helen finishes with a watery smile,  “I don’t know what to say.”

She looks between Liam, Zayn and Caroline, who puts her hand on Helen’s forearm and then Helen takes a breath.

“I’d love to thank you publicly, and well, I know it easier for you now, and well no time like the pre-.”

Zayn shakes his head, glancing at Liam as he does who gives  a brief nod of agreement, before he says. 

“Caroline told us you told the kids that it was a present from Father Christmas, and well you can’t go back on that, let them believe that, let them believe in that till they get bored of ballet or are too old to care and are just so in love with doing  it that all they’ll be is grateful they were here, and we’ll be the coolest secret Father Christmasses the world’s seen for as long as you need.”

Caroline snorts out a laugh, “That was such a lovely speech Malik, and then you messed it up with coolest anything.”

Zayn narrows his eyes, then shrugs and says, “True.”  

Right at the same moment Liam does. 

Caroline opens her mouth, likely to complain about how predictable they are when a bell rings and Helen claps her hands together.

“That’s my cue, or the kids’ cue anyway,” she  glances between the three of them and then takes a step forward closer to Liam and Zayn and she tentatively places a hand on their arms 

“You probably think you know how much this means, but you don’t, you never will and now I’ll just have to make sure that I listen 120 more times than I normally would to your music, but even then that would never be enou  gh, please come and see us anytime.”

Liam smiles, places his hand on top of the one that’s resting on his arm and says.

“We will.”

She manages half a smile, the tears threatening again, and then she’s gone. 

They watch after as she disappears and then Caroline clears her throat and they turn to her, before she starts to walk in the direction of their seats, before she turns briefly.

“She’s right, you know, you two, you’re not that bad for a pair of soppy losers in love you know.”

Zayn and Liam grin at her, smug expressions threatening to break their faces.

“She loves us Liam.”

“She does Zed, she can’t help it.” 

As they reach the seats, she sweeps her hand in a  gesture that says,”After you,” and they feel the gentle nudge of a knee against their arses as they find their seats.

“Just be grateful it’s not a slap round the chops you cheeky sods, never too old for an arse kicking.”

They sit down then,  glance at each other, the three of them smiling before the sound of sleigh bells fills the air.

“Break a leg Brooklyn,” murmurs Zayn as the lights dim, and the spotlight finds the stage.

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anonymous asked:

do you think ot5 reunion is till the endgame? i have read all your Zayn leaving stunt master posts. most of your predictions have come true. And what do you think of Niall's reply in the latest radio interview? the one that he said he didn't know whether it's ot4 or ot5. i started thinking about this stunt because of you. thank you.

Yes, I think OT5 is the endgame after the hiatus.  I think we were looking at it heading that way in March last year and then things got delayed… yet again. However, we’ve started a new round of reconciliation stuff that looks very promising.  You can check my slow but sure reconciliation narrative tag to see everything.

I think the question to Niall was planned just like the question to Zayn during IDWLF promo was planned, having Louis talk about Pillowtalk during the Brits promo was planned, and having Zayn and Niall briefly interact at the AMAs was planned.  They’re laying the groundwork so that people get used to the idea again.  They’re easing people into it rather than having it be a massive shock.

Of course it doesn’t sound overwhelmingly positive to have Niall say “we’ll have to see, we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it”, but in a situation where they’ve pretended for 2 years that Zayn was on the outs with everyone, they’re not going to just dive back in and say “oh, yeah, it’ll be OT5″.  

In this type of situation where normally someone wouldn’t mention Zayn or OT5 at all, bringing it up is as good as saying “stay tuned for this next”.  It was brought up because they wanted it to be brought up. There’s a change coming in the narrative that they need to convey and it’s not “no, this can never happen”.  As long as the answer’s not outright “no”, it’s as good as “yes” in this case.  They’re getting people thinking about it again on purpose.

I’m really glad to hear that you started wondering about the stunt because of things I said.  I know that there are some fans that won’t ever think twice about it, but if anyone has an open mind to seeing that shady stuff is going down, that’s all for the better.

anonymous asked:

So I saw a headline for SGT and it mentions it being really raunchy but then I'm reading through some fans interpretations of it and it's almost funny to me how mainstream will take it as a "raunchy party video" while the fans try to see the deeper meaning to it and really try to connect it to Zayn and everything he's been through. Hope I don't sound like I'm nitpicking. What are your thoughts on it?

Anonymous said:

hi sasha, how are you? hope you’re having a good day! 😘 was just wondering what do you think of sgt mv?            


Hi nonnie(s). I’m well, thanks for asking. I do see the video as a meditation on Zayn’s experiences. The biggest hint would be shooting the video at the Zerrie stunt house. Videos are staged and so was everything we saw from that house. Fiction on top of fiction. Clever.

I find it a statement on fame. He’s in the middle of the action, but still feeling disconnected because you’re often surrounded by people who are enamored with your fame and wealth, but not you the person. The booze, sex and weed are for sure the trappings of stardom. I think at times Zayn has felt like a spectator in his own life, rather than an active participant.

Also the monkey and the alligator pinged as a shout out to the 1D days as well as the overall wild party theme. 1D’s done all of that. Except now the gator is real (maybe a metaphor for the perils of their journey) instead of inflatable, the party is a lot more adult and Zayn is a lot more jaded. 

Remember the days when there wasn’t even a hand of color in the “Night Changes” video? And remember how 1DHQ tripped over themselves lying about why (It was an assistant! It was Sophia!)?? Now we’ve got a video full of POC. Progress. I appreciate the little victories.

sami zayn { spiders }

   NOTE: So earlier, I posted this idea I had for a one shot. I got several different names and as a result, I’m writing a few different versions of the idea. This one is Sami Zayn’s and it resulted from me wanting to write a slightly more dominant Sami and lots of fluff. Because yasss. So this is the first one, it is Sami Z x reader. 

   TAGGING: @alexablss who is like.. my rad partner in crime. I enjoy talkin to you, girl! Also, since @believe-that-001 liked my last Sami Zayn thing, I tagged ya. Hope it’s okay? If anyone else wants to be tagged ( since I can’t / don’t take requests ) feel free to say something. – Love, Amber

  WARNINGS: Partial nudity, steamy makeout, Amber’s potty mouth ( because I have headcanons about Sami and Swearing…) and yahhh. That’s it basically.


Originally posted by msgem

I hate the eight legged, jillion eyed fuckers, okay? And normally, if I even think I see one, a panic attack of epic proportions occurs. I’m not really sure why, but anyway.. I’d just stepped out of the shower when I felt something crawling down my chest. When I looked down, I screamed bloody murder and swatted at the damn thing, sending it flying, but by then, I’d done it.

I’d woken up my sleeping room mate, Sami. And almost as soon as he stepped into the bathroom, sleepy eyed with his curly red hair sticking up every which way, yawning and staring at me as if I’d lost my damn mind, I felt infintely guilty for waking him because his flight had gotten in at 2, which mean he’d only gotten a solid 3 hours of sleep.
I didn’t feel guilty enough to not launch my nearly naked form against him, hiding my face in his chest as I shook like I’d just witnessed a fucking murder, but I did feel guilty.

“I’m sorry, I just.. Spider.. On my body..” I muttered into his skin, trying to calm down.  Sami groaned quietly and at the time, I honestly figured that it had more to do with me screaming him awake over a stupid spider than any affect I may or may not be having on him..

It hit me a few seconds later when I actually met his gaze… Normally, Sami is the kind of guy who flusters really, really easily.. I mean super easily. I’ve walked around in a t shirt and panties before, just to go grab something out of the dryer to put on and he spent the entirety of the next three hours apologizing because he’d seen me and stammering, or blushing when he’d look at me. This morning, that wasn’t the case. Maybe it was the lack of sleep the poor guy had gotten, maybe it was something else, but.. I felt his lips brush my forehead as his hands moved slowly up and down my bare back.. It hit me that we were both standing there shirtless and his skin felt… warm, comfortable against mine. I could feel the defined chest muscles, the steady and calming thump of his heart as it beat and I bit my lower lip.

“Did you see where it went?” he asked, his voice thicker and somehow, I swear to God, the Canadian accent even sounded more pronounced somehow. His eyes met mine and there was no… Like normally, he’d not be able to meet my eyes if he saw me in any state of undress and I’ve spent the better part of nearly six months since he moved in trying to figure out why, but he was holding my gaze now.

“I.. I don’t know.. I was kinda more worried about keeping it off my tatas.” I muttered the words quietly, stammering just a little as I felt the insides of my thighs getting slick. The way he was acting right now was really turning me on.. Then again, it seems like everything about him lately sort of turns me on. Even the little things…

To my surprise, rather than go red faced, he chuckled, muttered something that vaguely sounded like he’d said “Can’t have that happening.” before disappearing into  the bathroom, appearing in the hallway again a few minutes later with a  magazine, the spider smooshed neatly on top of it.

He threw it in the garbage and then his eyes met mine again. Sheepishly, I muttered an apology. I actually apologized pretty profusely and he shook his head, he shrugged it off.. I swallowed hard when I realized that naturally, we’d migrated closer to one another. His hand lingered at my hip and my hand lingered at his chest. When our hips really brushed, I couldn’t resist anymore and I moved even closer, closing the distance between our bodies so that there was no space left. My fingers played along his chest and I bit my lip as I looked up at him and after a few seconds, I managed to thank him.

“It’s not a big deal. The spider wasn’t even really that big.. I mean not that I blame you for being scared in the first place.” he trailed off, hints of that more awkward side peeking through again for a moment as he shook his head, muttered to himself about how he needed to shut the fuck up before he made things awkward.. But he had me curious, I wanted to know what he was wanting to say so badly.

“What?”
“I was going to say that I was glad I was the one who was here, who got to kill it? Instead of some other guy?” he bit his lip, his hand smoothed over the back of his head and he swore to himself quietly. It clicked for me then, just what he was hinting at and just why he got so easily flustered around me.

It also hit me why I continued to fluster him and flirt with him… I wanted him back.. I wanted him just as much, if not more.

“Me too.” I admitted, eyes locked on his lips, my own tingling for a taste of his kiss.. A taste that he obliged me a few seconds later when he picked me up, sat me down on the double vanity counter in the bathroom and I wrapped my legs around him, purely on instinct. He gasped against my lips as he rubbed against me, purely on accident, and I knew he had to feel it, I was soaked through. I was practically dripping wet.

“Fuck.” he captured my lip between his teeth, nipping at it, his tongue parting my lips seconds later as his fingers tangled in my hair and his hand went across the back of my neck, pulling my mouth into his even deeper. “Sami?” his name left my lips in the form of a question and it was enough to give him pause, make him look at me.

“Did you not want me to kiss you? Shit.. I’m..”
{ It’s so fucking cute how he does that.} I thought dumbly to myself before quickly shaking my head no, adding in a breathless tone that I’d wanted him to kiss me, but I honestly hadn’t thought he’d ever do it, or that he’d ever even want to kiss me. “Oh no, no.. Trust me.. I wanted you to do that.” I muttered the words against his lips as I slid my arms up, around his neck and played with the hair at the nape of his neck as I put everything into kissing him back.

His hands gripped me tighter, moving me even closer to him as he looked down at me and let out this low growl of approval, tongue slowly trailing over his lip. “I want..” he started, going silent.. He was trying to figure out the best way to say something, I could tell by the thoughtful look in his eyes.. I bit my lip and looked up at him, trying to get myself back under control.

“Yeah?” my lips were back against his again, the word left my mouth and it was swallowed by his when he nipped at my lips hungrily, hands gliding up and down my sides before the one drifted back to my hair and neck to pull me into the kiss deeper.

“I want to be the guy who kills the spiders.” he mumbled the words, breaking the kiss to look at me, almost as if he were waiting on me to answer. I nodded, trailing my fingertip down his chest. “I want to be the girl who flusters you so badly that you almost throw an entire root beer on the kitchen floor.” and he chuckled a little, leaning in. “You  already are.”

“Well then, Sami, you definitely already are.”

anonymous asked:

Melly you hate liam now? It's just that you didn't say anything about Liam's performance yesterday and so many people are calling you out of being a solo Zayn now cause you don't say nothing about Liam and you only talk about Zayn, not that I think that but people are talking ;-;

The short answer is 

And now here’s the long answer (i’m so sorry im such a windbag), because I’m going to address this once and then put it in the vault.

I was at a bachelorette weekend because one of my best friends is getting married, and wasn’t active on Tumblr for the last few days up until today because I had way more important things to do like blow up inflatable decorative dicks and source out male strippers (#friendship). More importantly though, the entitlement that people seem to think they have about policing fandom discourse on here is kind of off the charts? Genuinely who the fuck are people to tell me what I can and cannot talk about or how I can be a fan? 

 I’ve been a fan of Loammy since 2012, and got up the courage to put my best boobs forward and join the fandom last year and actively shit post/cry/gif my heart out. I had always kind of identified myself as a Zayn/Liam blog, someone who supported both of them (really all five dudes, but those were my two faves) and was excited for them, and after seeing the way that Liam’s promo has gone down over the last month and a half, I’ve occupied this weird space where I’m not quite sure what to do with myself. The thing is, Loammy is a grown man who’s making decisions for himself and living out what he thinks he needs to do for his career. I get that, I really do - its his life, his decisions, and ultimately what some hoe with a tiny tumblr thinks (that’s me if you were wondering) doesn’t matter. 

 I don’t at all think Liam has some nefarious intentions in his heart - I don’t believe that’s his nature and I never have. With that though, Liam’s comments about Zayn didn’t and don’t sit right with me (and people need to stop with the “narrative” shit and start assigning agency to these dudes’ adult decisions), his promo hasn’t sat right with me, and being part of that section of the fandom has been frankly nahhhht fun these last few weeks.

 When I was blogging about Liam, people were saying I wasn’t doing enough or talking in a way that folks thought was appropriate to their standards. I got attacked last week and accused of trying to sabotage him (lol as if my tiny blog is capable of that) over  a post where I literally didn’t say anything resembling that (and man was that an eye opening experience, when people have an opinion about something you wrote, but they didn’t actually read what you wrote, so instead it’s what they projected that you said ). Tumblr is supposed to be a fun space, and instead, over the last few weeks every time I thought about wanting to talk about Liam, I got told that (the same group) of people were talking shit, so what used to be something that made me happy, became something where I full body clenched and thought “am I gonna get shit for this?” - it actively removed the joy for me. 

 I know some folks love to throw down the words “fake” when you don’t agree with or like something your fave does. Wanting your fave to do better isn’t being a fake fan, and not agreeing with the things they do doesn’t negate the years of support or love you’ve shown.

anonymous asked:

Hi! Do you think that they could come back as a OT3 and maybe + Zayn. I seems that H for sure doesn't really want to come back, his solo career has been planned since Azoffs came along and good luck to him. Maybe H could join in 10 years time (I just don't see him being interested in band before that)?? Something like Robbie and Take That...

This is a little follow-up to this drabble +   This time in Zayn’s POV.

**

“We’re hopeless.”

As soon as Zayn says those words, he expects Liam to give him that soft smile the one that was just for him, and then he expects him to turn around and walk away. 

And maybe that would be for the best.

You see Liam’s addictive without being life threatening, except to Zayn’s soul, and he’s as much second nature to Zayn as breathing is, as opening up the cafe each morning, as lifting a cigarette from his pocket and then shaking his head at it because he’d promised himself he’d give up.

Liam looks how he’s always looked, a little bit thinner and the smudge of grey under his eyes speaks of how Liam’s probably struggled for sleep just like Zayn.

It’s hardly surprising when you share a bed with one other person for almost as long as you’ve been an adult.

Then it’s gone.  He’s gone and sometimes all you dream about is him missing from your life, and somewhere in that dream, there’s the touch of a hand on your skin, and then there’s the softness of Liam’s lips, and him above Zayn, smile brilliant as it always was for so long, and dream Zayn would lift his fingertips up to brush against the birthmark.

And just like he’d popped a balloon with a pin, the dream would end and he’d wake up and the nightmare would begin once more.

So Zayn expects it to be the same because this isn’t a dream, it’s here and it’s now and he lifts his head which he hadn’t realised he’d allowed to drop and he expects there to be no one there.

Half expects a hand to fall on his shoulder and Niall to spend the next year nd 3 days pulling him back from the edge again.

Except Liam’s there, and he’s closer than he was before, his head’s tilted to one side and there’s a look of concern on his face, his forehead creased with concern.

Then it’s gone and he starts to speak.

“But what if we’re not?”  

As soon as Liam says the words, he takes a step back, chews at his lips in the way he always did when he suggested something a little bit out of the blue, but Zayn’s more concerned with what he means, till he realises what his own words were and he knows the answer already.

Has known it from the morning after he walked away.  Has known it from each time he’d walk past New Scotland Yard then round the corner to the cafe Liam always got his poached egg on toast in every other morning. 

Except Liam had stopped going.  

So he’d given up looking, he stopped looking at the laptop and the 50 or so draft emails that stayed unsent and instead he’d done what they’d dreamt of, applied for planning permission for a rooftop terrace at the cafe. Liam’s idea.

He can’t even remember why he walked out that day, and yet he can think of a thousand reasons why he shouldn’t have. 

“Good question,” he says in response, and then he takes a step closer to Liam. 

There’s a flicker of a genuine smile on Liam’s face before it’s replaced with uncertainty, it reminds Zayn of seventeen-year-old Liam walking into college that first day, finding a space next to Zayn that was never empty again even when they were apart till 368 days ago. 

“Do you ever wonder if the reason we split up was just to show how we’d be without each other, to show that nothing else can better this?” Liam pauses and then he takes a step forward and Zayn looks down towards the ground as their feet are inches centimetres from touching and he does that thing he always did, he parts his own feet and Liam’s naturally adjust so they fill the space in between and Zayn can’t help it, he smiles. 

“I mean that sounds so stupid even to my own ears, but oh I dunno.”

As Zayn looks up, Liam’s running his fingers through his hair as he shakes his head and mutters to himself and it’s how he was an hour before he’d put in for the transfer to New Scotland Yard where he’d been full of doubt, and all it had taken was Zayn’s fingertips stopping Liam’s from worrying at his hair and a “You’ve got this,” and by 5pm that day they’d been in the pub celebrating Detective Constable Liam Payne. 

Except it’s their future, and it’s an admission of a mistake, and a realisation that they’ve wasted a year.

But what’s worse than wasting a year?  Wasting a single second more thinks Zayn. 

So he reaches out his hand, ignores the tremble as his fingers fall on top of Liam’s hand and gently pulls at it and that’s all that’s needed because then Liam’s fingers lock with Zayn’s till it’s like they were just on any other day in London, holding hands.

Now or never Zayn thinks.  

“I think us not talking is what’s more stupid, ignoring that what’s written on your face is what I know’s on mine, it’s if I failed to admit that whatever broke us isn’t enough to make me want to ever let you out of my sight again.”

Liam’s fingers squeeze Zayn’s and he replies with a quiet, “But what’s to stop it happening again?”

Zayn shrugs, looks into Liam’s eyes, lets his eyes travel lower to the birthmark and he lifts his other hand up and his forefinger ghosts over the birthmark before he shuts his eyes as he touches it and prays that it won’t be like all those dreams. 

He opens his eyes and Liam’s still there and he’s sure then.

“It won’t though, happen again I mean.”

Liam nods, and it’s quiet between them for a minute or two, and there’s this hope inside Zayn and he’d forgotten what it felt like and he doesn’t want to give it up but he’s not sure.

When Liam’s fingers leave his, and he looks down and the feet leave that space in between his, it’s like a kick to the stomach but he’s not ready to give up and he feels the tears sting his eyes and he’s about to let the words, though he’s not sure what words, spill from his mouth but then.

“Oi, are you coming or not?”

Zayn flicks his head upwards but Liam’s not two or three steps away from him, waving goodbye, no instead he’s two or three steps away from him, pointing in the direction of the cafe.

“Are you going to make me some poached egg on toast or not? And then are you going to take me upstairs to the new roof terrace I know got signed off for planning permission several months back but you’ve still not opened?”

Zayn fires back with, “Well, someone needs to fatten you up, you’ve been ailing without me.”

Liam grins, “Nah, done that thing that you always suggested I should do.”

“Fucks sake Liam, not in public.” Zayn pulls a face and Liam starts to laugh.

“No, not that thing you dirty bastard, needs two for that anyway, no the other thing, the New York marathon, and well play your cards right, I may enlist you for my cheer squad.”

Then he’s grinning as he turns away before he looks back one more time before he crosses the road and calls, “Well, are you coming or not?”

Is it really this easy?  To forget 368 days of life without each other?  Zayn doubts it, knows that what broke them, could threaten again. 

But, he knows that the alternative, to not try at all, that’s the equivalent of not living at all so as he hears his name called, and he nods, lifts his hand up to acknowledge Liam, and he breaks into a run and he can see Niall shaking Liam’s hand then drawing him into a hug and giving Zayn a thumbs up as he does. 

He owes it to himself, to both him and Liam, to try. 

anonymous asked:

Hi, what do you think of what Liam said in the last two interviews about Zayn? Do you still believe they're together? And will you support Liam's career if he continue talking this way about Zayn? I'm so sad about what he said so I'm not sure if I should buy his single or not and I just want to see things from a different pov. Thanks.

i have seen only snippets of what he said and will not give any attention to the bullshit of it all. Liam has a role to play as has been evident over the last three years. He is the one chosen to spew this because he’s good at convincing the uninformed of the narrative. I will support him as I do all of them. I’m not sure I will buy the single although I do know it puts money in his pockets but it puts even more money in the pockets of Simon/cronies. 

I am still not convinced of the so-called signing with record labels for all FIVE of them. Everything is so shady and I think they’ve learned their lesson in that fuck-up with “Pillow Talk.” Don’t you find it sus that they are releasing material at the same time? IMO this is a last effort money grab and you can’t tell me otherwise. The golden boy is getting all the promo befitting of a prince. (I do love Harry so this is not a dis to him) He’s got Stevie Nicks for goodness sake. This was their plan all along.

Lastly, YES I do think Zayn and Liam are still together!

anonymous asked:

Or maybe it was 'proof' that Zayn wasn't there. Don't forget, he was pap-walking in and out of Gogo's place the week before, conveniently disappeared, and then reappeared in NY a few days after Louis's performance. No one can convince me Zayn wasn't there, specially after fans claimed to see Z at Heathrow airport!

Or even both, nonnie. But yeah, I’ve thought about pushing the fake beef for Zouis, too. First of all I don’t even know why that was filmed. It’s nice that they were there to support him (and anyone that doesn’t buy into those 5yo fake spats would know it), but you have to wonder why record it and make it public.

Everything with 1D has this tendency of coincide with something else. So the question is: what’s the angle here? Remember how it was meant to be about Louis and not the boys being there? Well, that video certainly defeated the purpose. None of that was meant for our eyes.

I’m with you regarding Zayn. Even if we were to believe that fake beef, that’s the kind of thing that goes above any spat. Jay seemed like a great woman, too. Add that to Z’s ability to go MIA… you know where I’m going with this. ;)

Oh, and since we’re on this, I remember seeing a post with “20 most iconic feuds” (or something) this week. I’m not familiar with snapchat or instagram (nor do I know where it comes from), but three of those “feuds” listed involved Louis: vs. that guy from The Wanted, vs. Naughty Boy, and vs. Zayn.

If that article or whatever is from this week (and maybe from a big outlet), it’s sure helping bring attention to 1D/Louis/OT4 vs Zayn, don’t you think?

anonymous asked:

I hope this doesn't come across as rude or anything but what is 1DHQ rebranding Liam into? I'm weary if it's actually his choice, since none of them are really free yet. Or do you think it's a half Liam half 1DHQ?

I think the Instagramming hoe-ing and rap lyrics and the big ass gold chain along with tons of Gucci are a means of setting expectations for solo Liam. Solo Liam will not be 1D Liam. He’s clearly headed for R&B/hip-hop fusion territory and tptb obviously see these things as the trappings of that.

I suspect another case of “white people be like” as we saw with Zayn and the whole weed/booze/sex trope. The decision makers are fucking lowkey racist nerds that need to have a damn seat with all those stereotypes. But then again, they’re marketing him to, at least in part, a bunch of fucking lowkey racist nerds. LMAO! Anyway, that’s what I think they’re trying to get across to both existing fans and potential new fans (who will hear his single and then seek out his social media). The big takeaway is that this is not a re-tread of 1D. 

I think the music for the most part will be his choice. How he’s marketed to the public won’t be. This is why, like with Zayn and Harry, a lot of what we’re seeing is awkwardly unsubtle. That’s 1DHQ’s calling card for sure.

anonymous asked:

i'm always happy when i see zayn positive posts from blogs that i don't recognize, but in the last months it's often ex-larries (or still larries) who kind of "re-discover" him. so they start defending him against double standards & ztans reblog them on my dash... it feels horrible cause i know that those people still also think freddie is fake or H&L's girlfriends are beards. i know that most ztans find tinhat theories ridiculous but i guess they don't really care where those posts come from :/

Hi anon,

I’ve noticed the same thing. Anyone noticing the double standards that have been applied to Zayn and also perhaps becoming aware that they misunderstood the reasons around him leaving is a good thing.

My hope is that for some people this is part of a process of unravelling that a lot of their ideas about what went on were not correct. 

I understand how you feel though as I try and avoid reblogging from tinhats but with some of the Zayn posts I’m not always sure of the views of the OP. But not everyone feels the same way and I think with some zstans the not caring is a neutral thing if you see what I mean, they’re only interested in the sentiment of that particular post. It takes quite a bit of effort to check out the origin of everything you post and whether to do so or not is a decision you can only make for yourself. Sometimes my mutuals reblog things I don’t like or feel uncomfortable with but I just scroll past.

 Many zstans have separated themselves from the OT4/1D fandom and aren’t interested in the latest larrie theories.  Apart from ziams I’m sure nearly all zstans accept Freddie and Bear as the real children of Louis and LIam.

My hope is that one day people will start to recognise that the hate directed towards a lot of people has been unjustified so I’ll accept people changing their views on Zayn as a step in the right direction.

Thank you.