i think i need to stop blogging for a while

anonymous asked:

Hi, 7goodangel. I am here to ask you about PaperJam as a shy, smol and innocent being (mainly thegreatrouge made him be). There has been some conflicts regarding his trait. Some said his canonical personality is a jerk, like what you wrote in his bio / info and some said that is severely wrong and being shy, (which made him shipped with Fresh), is his canonical personality. What are your thoughts about this? I mean, it is your character and people are taking control of it. Don't you disagree?

Well… I have talked to people and seen public conversations and this has happened several times to me over months. I guess I’ve gotten a little numb to it now… or maybe it’s due to school that I haven’t given it the attention that it deserves. Probably due to school. 

I just can’t update constantly like others - even though some others in school were and are able to update constantly. I can’t keep going around and holding up my bio of PJ and police people. It’s exhausting to me… it really takes up the small bit of free time I have. 

I think after I get a solid job that I’ll be able to go around better… but anyway - back to your question. 

While I love seeing interpretations and do not want people to be limited by something and have their imaginations go forth… it’s proving that a huge con comes with that mentality - which you have pointed out. A lot of people swear that PJ is the cute, innocent interpretation that really, did get PJ popular in the first place. While I did have him as a jerk from the beginning - I kinda kept that info to my RP blog - so you could say it is my fault this is all happening and I do think that. I could of done something to make it not as bad as it is now… 

It’s just like the NSFW stuff… people just assume the first thing and run with it. And it really does make me feel like I really am not needed for my own character at points. 

It’s a struggle - I don’t want to have people stop interpreting PJ within AUs… but I also don’t want people to just see him as an innocent child to ship with Fresh. 

And I’m still trying to find the best solution to it. 

But… I feel like the damage is already done. It’s too late for me to talk to all of these people going around swearing on their life that PJ is canoncally like Rouge’s interpretation/AUs. It feels like an hopeless battle to me. 

And I guess I needed someone to ask me this question so then I can fully say my thoughts on this. 

So in short, while I love creativity and don’t want to snuff it out (considering some people would probably think I’m doing that already with saying “No Sin”), I still don’t like it. It irritates me, irks me, frustrates me, and I feel like even as the person who thought of PJ in the first place, my voice isn’t enough. Communities seem like they don’t care about artists unless they reach a ‘certain goal of popularity’ or seem like they have a more professional style of art. I know I do not reach either of those titles. 

People misspell my username all the time - I actually claimed ‘7goodangle’ on tumblr for that reason.

People still say “I’m too lazy to find who made PJ” when they clearly mentioned they looked at the bio on the wiki. 

People still go around arguing others on the canon ship of OmniPJ and swearing that FreshPaper is the true canon ship, when all people are pointing out is that they need to keep the canon ship in mind when going around with information.

Even just basic personality traits… and these things are happening on sites that I do not nor want an account for. 

I still want others to have fun - to be happy; but I don’t know… I guess I’m cutting out my own happiness to get everyone else happy? I want to eventually write a version of PJ within his own universe and story… and he is more like the version I created within the UT verse. Not exact - but close. Though who knows… I might shove PJ to the side and replace his role with another character. I’m still weighing options.

Cause PJ was the first character I ever put this much time and thought into… my first character that was balanced, well rounded…

And what happens?


You said it Anon. 

They took it - changed it (initially as an AU but now people think it’s canon) - and I can’t do much about it. Due to school and not much free-time… due to how many don’t know the true creator… and just back talking anyone who is just mentioning it to people who swear by it. 

As an artist and a character designer…

It makes me not want to show designs, characters, and stories ever again online.

Considering if this is how I was treated on the first one… why even take a chance at a second one? If it has brought me so much stress, frustration, and time… why even try it again?

I said I was only going to do fanart so if anyone stole it, it didn’t really matter. 
I think I should have stuck with that thought process. 

In conclusion, there are some major things to take away here. First – that yes, I do not like how it has skewed this far to the point of arguing over a fandom version with the canon. Canon is canon and I get the different AUs – this is too far. Way too far. I am emotionally drained from this – from this whole mess that I have been defending throughout majority of PJ’s lifespan. I will state this – Paper Jam is my character. He is my original character that I created more than a year ago. And the UT AU fandom took my character and warped him to something he is not and all of his original meaning is lost. I do not like to hurt others or make other sad – but I must put my foot fully down. This miscommunication needs to stop. I am tired of repeating things over and over and I have past my breaking point time and time again. I just want people to see PJ how he really is… and I wish that people could be focusing more on the reality of him instead of the alternate that they all claim as truth.

Final words: I still like Undertale – I still like creating characters and having fun – but the Undertale AU fandom is ridiculous now. The Amino UT community is insanity in an app, and there is a lot of stuff that has made many artists and creators to their breaking point and leaving the fandom entirely. Everyone in this fandom needs to take ten steps back and look at what they are doing. Go back to the game. Play it again – watch your favorite let’s player’s videos of it again. 

And just… food for thought… please don’t jump the gun on someone else’s OC’s personality and actions. 

I do not want anyone to experience what I had.

It Ethan. Behold the true @crankgameplays
He a good ice cream boi.
He totally doesnt have drugs anywhere. Look at that pure face. How could that face be anything but lawful.

  • fandom people: oh my god... i can think critically about what i ship... god... all you immature babies need to separate fiction from reality
  • 1 singular person on their own blog in the proper tags: hey guys i know we're having fun here but maybe we could take about this issue? it's been bothering me for a while since it very clearly parallels oppressive dynamics in real life and

I figured I should formally announce it.

Between the self-depreciation and lack of confidence I have decided to take a small step back on this blog.


But I think for the sake of my mental health I need to slow down. I need to stop comparing myself to others. I need to learn how to not tear myself apart.

There are so many stories I want and will tell, it’s just going to take me a bit to write them.

I hope you understand and will be patient with me while I find the right the balance.

I love you all, I hope you know that. And the support you have given me is something I never ever fucking imagined.

Super proud of moose face today. I rode like a potato but he was fabby. Finally feel like he’s really taking me to the fences (probably a bit too much now 😂 ). I love that he’s happy and excited. Jumped a couple of “bigger”fences, probably about 80/85cm, which is not so much a big deal for him as it is for me, but that’s my own anxiety/issues coming in. I feel like when I’m ready to step it up, he’ll respond. Actually I think a few bigger fences would be good for him, these aren’t really big enough for him to be making a proper effort… Had a few little spooks, but kept going through them which was a big improvement. Had one big baby moment where everything got a bit much (people walking, dogs running around, being alone in one field while the other horses were in the other one…) but after a minute to chill out and gather himself, we worked through it. He does currently have a tendency to use his hulking great shoulders against me if he doesn’t want to do something, which is something I need to stop him doing, but overall a positive day I think. 


So…we need to talk…

I don’t really know how to start this because it’s been awhile for me, but please bear with me.

I guess I should start by saying, I’m back.

For those of you that didn’t know, I took a very long break due to personal reasons (I’ll explain further down if anyone is interested) and haven’t actually been on Tumblr for the past few weeks.

Everything that was being posted from my account was part of my queue.

I’m sorry to anyone who messaged me or reached out to me in my time of absence (I’ve been gone almost 3 weeks I think) but, rest assured, I’m back now and will be replying to every single message I received while I was gone.

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anonymous asked:

hey there! I'm having a really rough night atm and I actually cried over stupid shit, so could I request my favourite edgelord Reapsy and some HC/imagined for comforting stupid little ole me haha. I basically got blocked for doing nothing at all to the person, and earlier my mum scolded me for my opinions online. I actually struggle with a lot of issues and tonight's shit actually gave me insomnia. I'll shout you out tomorrow on my OW imagines blog as a thanks for the imagine/HC :")

;-; sweetie! No need to fear, I am here, I’m quite queer, Let’s get Reinhardt for some beer, and try to have a nice rest of year- yeah okay I’ll stop, but I’m here for you and I hope you’ll feel better soon!



- If Reaper finds you in a state of sadness, he’ll try to figure out who the hell did this to his lover. He’ll be standing there, like, doing the Sherlock Holmes thing, thinking really fast, while you’re just looking up at him, looking really miserable.

- About 2 minutes later, he’s like “Shit, should I do something?” and stop thinking so much about who he’s going to torture. He’d gruffly clear his throat and asked if everything was alright.

- Which is dumb, he realises 2 seconds later, because you’re clearly not.

- So, if no one is around, he’d softly huff, take off his mask and just pull you into a one armed hug, his other hand lightly carressing your jaw as he tugs your chin up to look at him. Reaper’s face holds a lopsided frown and he gives you a gentle kiss on the nose.

-Then he’ll plonk you down on a couch or a chair or something

- Go to the goddamn kitchen and make you some comfort food.

- He gets so generous, he allows you to rest your face on his lovely t h i c k thighs. They’re really soft.

-If you want, he’ll lovingly fuck you. Not make love, he’s to edgy for that. And rough. But it’ll be slower and he’ll be trailing kisses all over your face.

-And then he goes to find the sick fuck who made you sad and destroys them.

-If something else made you sad, like a movie, he promises to kill the director of the movie.

- No, Hot Topic, No

-He honestly tries so hard to make sure you’re alright, he makes you food, you cuddle, you get to watch a n y t h i n g you want with him without his complaints, slow sex, hell, he’ll let you do his nails (only in black of course) if it makes you happy!

anonymous asked:

So, I'm only sending this ask to you because you're a big lazytown blog and this needs to be said. But Cokefather (Stefan's stepdaughter) has been getting asks where people tell her that they wanna fuck Stefan and it really needs to stop because thats really disrespectful and creepy. These are real human beings with feelings. Thanks.

I read her posts about it, and I think people like that are awful. While I am certainly glad that she’s taking this in stride, it’s still completely unacceptable to be sending messages of that nature to someone, especially a minor. I genuinely hope nobody who follows me here are responsible for sending her messages like these- and if you are, please do try to show some self-control in the future. If you love Stefán so much, then respect his family. Don’t be creepy!!

anonymous asked:

I meant cosplay kissing pictures. I saw the fontcest post thing and I thought it would be cute!

Ah! Cosplay pictures, we are thinking of doing some shoots like that.

But for more fontcesty type stuff we are actually thinking of opening another blog for more things like that. I know another blog, we need to stop, but we’ve been discussing this one for a while. We have talked about how we want to post images of fontcest and more ‘couple’ based images, but we want to try to keep this blog as PG-PG13 as possible and some of those images don’t ring well some people. So we are going to open a ‘nsfw’ blog for that stuff (course we say nsfw but it’s gonna be more like ‘Ooooooh skeletons kissing’ But YA know)

But for more gentle subjects we are thinking of posting some cutesy couple stuff here!

End of Hiatus!!

((Sorry for the rather long absent ;w; I was stressed and just everything was blargh and I needed a break… but I feel much better now! :D

Gonna find back to the fun in ask blogging and not feel bad if I don’t answer every other day. So I’m not gonna explode into activity and then feel bad when I can’t keep it up, but just post a bit at times~ (and I’m gonna stop feeling guilty when not posting for a while)

Some changes: Gonna start including cosplay in the answering and I’m also thinking of posting just random CC suff I’m drawing (and cosplaying) not just asks answers, just for the sake of variety and stuff XD (plus to stop me from the stress I’ve been feeling when I haven’t come up with an answer to an ask but still have wanting to draw/do something and juscjjhgdsasrty ;;w;;)

I’m also thinking of rebloging Caesar stuff here… not sure though?

And I also plan to find a good meme, mostly for the nsfw blog. You know like those 30 days challenges? And draw everything there XD again doing at my pace but I really wanna get better at drawing nsfw X3 Open for suggestions!

But anyway! CAESAR IS BACK!! ))

anonymous asked:

Hii!! Just found your blog and i just cant stop reading~~ may i request for a reaction of ikon while shopping for condom with their gf 😁 thank you in advance!!

(Hii!! Welcome ~ .Thank you for your request sweetheart!!!)

Jinhwan - *you grab the smallest size.*

Jinhwan: “You are hilarious, Y/N.”

Yunhyeong: “So,Y/N,normal condom or something different?”

Bobby: “How many do you think we will need, Y/N?”

B.I: -

You: Babe, that one is to big for you…

B.I: “What are you trying to say, Y/N?”

Donghyuk: -

You: “Babe, can we take condoms with flavour this time?”

Donghyuk: “Oh my…” *his brain is on fire and something else*

Junhoe: “This are all TO small for me.”

You: “Next thing you will want to buy a plastic bag, no?” *sarcastic*

Junhoe: …*embarrassed*

Chanwoo: “Honestly I am so confused…What should I choose, Y/N?”

(note: gifs are not mine.)

Okay so I am HERE for LGBTQ ppl who found any amount of comfort in Mor’s story like I did. And I’m here for them getting to say what they feel about it and not be attacked. But I am not cool with the whole “well SJM gave you some rep so now shut up” thing I sort of see from part of the fandom? Like just because some wlw enjoyed mor’s story doesn’t mean it’s perfect. Also please never use how I, as a wlw, feel about Mor as a way to say that SJM has good LGBTQ rep. Because while I’m happier post acowar than many, I also think that her rep is just messy. It’s good in some ways, but needs work. So idk just…let people like me be positive but also let us demand more from authors? Especially since acotar isn’t over and these characters get more books and room to grow. Like I am probably one of the most positive but critical blogs on here but it kills me to see the whole “you got your rep now stop complaining” posts because like….regardless of how I personally feel about Mor (happy) I believe that it is the right of every other wlw in the fandom to give their opinion. And it doesn’t have to be a positive opinion that aligns with mine. I want them to have to space to say it without being told to shut up! Especially by straight ppl who are used to seeing themselves repped everywhere and in every book!!!

Do you even know how much it would mean to me if we got to see a f/f main relationship in the next acotar books??? Do you know how much that would make me cry??? To see Mor and her gf together in my favorite series!!! I WOULD BE SO HAPPY.

anonymous asked:

Have you been a start of the Outlander fandom from the start? If so, what was it that made you get on the SamCait ship? I read recently that for most it was Comicon

No, I came to the fandom in July of 2015, right before SDCC. My coworker watched the show and told me to try it, and another coworker overheard and told me I needed to read the books. I watched the first episode, stopped and read the first book before continuing. In the meantime I was watching SDCC videos and anything I could find. While comments like “I would do anything for you” certainly got my ship going, I actually started shipping due to this video:

They are pretty awesome!” I mean, come on!!!

So I started an account here on Tumblr right around SDCC and lurked for a good long time. I think I was intimidated by the big bloggers, I don’t know, but finally started blogging after IFH and have been active ever since.

anonymous asked:

Can miss Cortese please stop posting pictures of Jared in that red plaid to suggest that the photoshopped event actually happened? It's sympathetically awkward and even though I'm not exactly a G hater, it's getting too annoying

Hello, dear anon!

Oh trust me, I know how you feel. I doubt many of us believers are particularly thrilled with what she posts on her instagram. Her attempts at fixing the photoshop fiascos are embarrassing and do nothing but confirm that there was indeed something hinky about the pictures.

Still, most often I just ignore whatever the beards post on the social media. My interest only perks whenever there’s a blatant inconsistency detectable. I suggest you try the same! Whenever we make a big deal of something terribly mundane they do, we’re helping to create a hype around them.

In a way I fear that might add to the reasons the J’s to keep to their closet - the more their wives are on display, the harder they might need to keep up the imagine. But on the other hand, it might also add to the independence of these women. I don’t know which one of the theories is closer to the truth, but I don’t want to take the risk of enabling their closeted state, so I would rather not shower the wives with any kind of attention (when I can avoid it).

I think nothing we say can stop the beards from being active on social media, just like there’s nothing the hets can say that would stop me from blogging. As annoying and pretentious as it is, we just have to deal with it and focus on the positive side - the women now carry the largest chunk of the bearding while the J’s only need to pose for a picture every now and then.

Anyway, sorry for straying from the subject. I’m afraid I used your ask to write down some thoughts I’ve had as of late. I hope I responded to your question even somewhat! Have a lovely week. :)

Originally posted by seraphyde666

Fanfic authors appriciation post

So this is late for me but hey it’s still the 21st somewhere in the world right?

So omg so many amazing authors i’ve come accross in my year and a half ob tumblr?? Like already? Im sad that i havent jotted down urls of more people i’ve read from because omg you guys are amazing !!!

So from a fellow fanfic author to y'all that write and pour yourselves in youe works you guys are amazing and your work is greatly appriciated❤❤

I can’t even contemplate the talent i’ve witnessed around here and I’m so thankfull for y'all’s hard work!! I hope that we all grow into even better writers even if some of y'all’s talent already baffles me and i would see your stories on shelves in book stores so here is my very short list of authors i can think of because I havent been reading mucj lately

@bangtanscript amzing mostly bts stories but damn the feels!!! And that Arkham Asylum Baekhyun fic? Amazing!! Fighting for the rest !! I can’t wait to read more

@jungblue it’s been a while… but amazing amazing AMAZING AUTHOR…. i haven’t checked your masterlist in a while … so I don’t know but THAT PURGE au!!!!!

@chokemejimin / @the95liner sana is amazing!!! Thise bad boy fics had me in feels girl !!!

@sexonextdoor so much hard work in keeping up your blog! You are such a doll and so sweet thank you so soo much for those mtls, head canons, ships and everything else !! Such a great writer !!

@suga-in-dream I don’t think i need to tell you how much i love your writing! I’m in love with it you shake me so much (pls stop hurting my man ??)

You all are so amazing!! Don’t forget: don’t rush yourself and stress out for a deadline you set for yourself but feel like you can’t meet! You are doing great talent takes time and y'all have so much of it

To those i haven’t mentionned and there are so much of you out there thank you so much for sharing such amazing work!!!

(Ps: mainly bts writers for an mostly mx blog hahaha i haven’t read much mx tbh and i’ve been following those authors since my first days on tumblr back when i was mizz-1army and i’ve stuck with them because their content is just too amazing to pass on. I may not follow bts as i used to but that won’t stop me from appriciating these small master pieces)

When I made my first blog 5 years ago, I started talking with a mutual and we became internet friends. We used to talk everyday and I remember that talking to her made me so happy and we had agree to meet in person someday. But after a while she stopped replying to my messages. I had a very bad feeling and now matter what I did, I couldn’t reach her. I thought I’d said something wrong and she didn’t want to talk me anymore. It was only 3 months later that I found out that she had killed herself. And after that, everything changed. Now everytime I talk to some of you guys I’m always worried that someday I’m gonna log in only to find out that something bad’s happened to you and only the thought of that terrifies me. 

That’s why I refuse to disable anonymous messages even though I get a lot of anon hate. When I say that my blog is a safe space for everyone, I mean it. You’re always welcome to message me, anon or not, if you need someone to talk to. You’re not alone. Please, I beg you, don’t hurt yourself. Everytime you feel like no one cares about you, just remember that a stupid girl who’s probably a thousand miles away, cares a lot about you. Stay safe and take care of yourself!

anonymous asked:

I'm sorry for this ask but I've recently read something familar on another imagine blog and I needed to ask it here ^^ How do you think the lords would react if they lose their hard on while doing the do with MC?

Nobunaga : “Shit… Malteser go up, go up!” (MC : “Uhh Nobu?”) “Just a second MC… Don’t do this to me Malteser, c’mon! Fuck you… MC would you mind helping me a bit here?”

Mitsuhide : “Mmnh MC…Ah… Wait what? Oh no. MC?…” (MC : “N-no why did you stop?”) “*kneels on the floor* MC I am sorry, for tonight I can’t continue.” (MC : “W-what?”) “MC… My light has shut down.”

Yukimura : *surprised face* *blushes* “MC… My sword is not in the state to continue… I shall take responsibility.”

Saizo : “Huh you like that, MC? You like my big thick- what? No… (MC : “Saizo what is it…?”) “My snake… has betrayed me.” 

Masamune : *realizes what has just happened* *eyes widen* *stands up* *teleports himself on Pluto* *stays in the blushing state forever*

Kojuro : *freezes* *internally screaming*

Inuchiyo : “W-what…? MC… I…” *joins Masamune on Pluto*

Hideyoshi : *blank face* “M-MC… (MC : “Mnhh Hideyoshi… Don’t stop… I want more.”) “Nevermind we’re back.”

-Admin Mia

anonymous asked:

Can fhpoc finally be cancelled? I've been legit dumbstruck by the utter incompetence of both the blog staff and its followers/ submitters for a while, but this one definitely takes the cake. First of all, anon sounds like every other idiotic white liberal who claims to be part of the so-called "Resistance" , then wishes death on anyone they think wasnt enthusiastic enough about their girl HRC losing the election *sigh* TFW for when people support fictional "representation" more than actual poc..

I’m honestly not a huge fan of “canceling” people.

FHPOC’s Mod M fucked up with that anon on the hurricanes and I know that others on the blog have messed up before on different topics (and have had to be called out by followers or even by other mods), but I’m just not comfortable announcing that “x is canceled” on my blog. 

I know I could’ve been “canceled” for comments/posts I’ve made in my past and I’m thankful that people have been able to be like “yeah, you need to check yourself because that’s wrong” to me over the years. I had people who refused to cut me off because they thought I should get a chance to do better and so “canceling” people/blogs (especially FHPOC as a whole) is not really my thing, sorry.

(You can cancel them for yourself, of course. I’m not trying to tell you what to do, but I’ve been in the position of running a discourse blog and being wrong so I can’t bring myself to cancel people because I could’ve been canceled a thousand times over. This is a Stitch thing. It doesn’t have to be your thing.)

Now I don’t think FHPOC as a blog is a bad idea. I like it and the other blogs in the similar vein focusing on racism in the Star Wars and MCU fandoms. Heck, I still follow FHPOC despite being so upset with that one mod for even entertaining that nonsense anon. But the hurt is real and I don’t blame any other person of color for being angry or annoyed with how some of the mods do mishandle topics (or approach them without any research into the topic). For many people (like you!) that anon was the last straw and I don’t blame them. It almost was my last straw.

I’m also tired of “discourse” blogs that center the wellbeing of fictional characters over that of real people (I’m waist deep in Voltron fandom nonsense where that’s basically how people handle discourse), but I don’t think that FHPOC is that kind of blog. Not on the regular, at least. But while I follow them, I’m not all up in their tumblr on the regular so maybe I’ve missed some stuff to that effect.

My main thing with FHPOC is that some of the mods definitely need to take a step back to do research before responding to some of their asks. They also need to decide that some asks simply don’t need to be published/don’t deserve a response. It’s better than being wrong and hurting people in the process. There are some messages that you just don’t post unless you’re going to mock them or showcase how clear it is that they’re wrong for coming to you with nonsense.

The hurricane anon was one of those messages. I get that they’re totally concerned about climate change, but answering a message that shows a fundamental lack of understanding of who hurricanes affect around the world in general was bad enough. Telling the anon that their reasoning was solid was just… not cool.

Mod M said that they answered the hurricane anon while at work, and believe me, I get being busy and trying to multitask, but I think that sensitive messages (like one about hurricanes while one lays waste to the Caribbean) need more effort put into them than like five minutes during your break. Heck, before answering any questions, do a brief research check and if you can’t find any information on the subject, either pass it off to someone that knows more than you do or drop the subject and delete the ask.

(And for the future, dear anon: please try and tone down the ableist language you use when messaging me. I’m working on unlearning the casual ableism society has ingrained in me and I’d appreciate it if you’d refrain from intelligence based insults like “idiotic” when we’re communicating.)