i think i might be losing it

hey like here’s a reality check from a bi woman-aligned person in a long-term relationship with a man: 

my relationship and my wellbeing arent threatened by lesbians. posts on the internet don’t make me feel unsafe in real life. the reality of being bi and being with a man is knowing that if i don’t stay with this guy, i lose safety. it’s knowing that this relationship is safer than one you might have with a woman…like…if you think erasure is a bigger problem than visibility you can choke i know the privilege is real cos i feel it every time im in public w my boyfriend. lesbians aren’t stopping me from dating a man homophobes are pressuring me to date a man. get real

Okay now that I’m a bit more free I’m thinking I should probably challenge myself to write at least a bit every day, maybe 500 words… I have the RBB and a couple other things to work on, but if you guys wanna send me some short prompts for whenever I get stuck or need to ‘warm up’ first, that’d be awesome :DDD

Would anyone be mad at me if I came back? I’m not trying to be an ass, I just don’t want anyone to be pissed if I leave and then return right away. I just had a mental breakdown the other day, because I was panicking due to losing my entire month supply of meds and whatnot. That might sound stupid, but it’s the truth.

I wasn’t being entirely untrue about the atmosphere of Tumblr upsetting me, but I think that it kinda upsets most people. Also, I need to work more on maintaining relationships myself. Just stop being so shy and avoidant, and then bitching when I am lonely.

I will still rp on Skype with those who wish to. I am just letting you all know that I am returning, finally.

anonymous asked:

Do you find the fidget cube easy to hold and/or not lose? ;o; I'm interested in getting one and I was wondering what others thought about it! :D My main concern is that I'll get uncomfortable playing with one side while feeling the other sides of the cube and wanting to play with those sides too.. c':

It’s honestly the perfect size for me, and I do lose it a lot when I’m at home but I never put it anywhere other than my pocket/on my belt loop when I’m out of the house out of fear of losing it. I really like being able to switch between the sides really easily and have no problems holding the other sides, but that’s me, I’d try holding one if you can before getting one to see if it’s right for you. If you think having all the sides is too much other stim toys might be better 🌱

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Deciding not to mention anything of her idea to Marzia she took the painting outside and carefully stowed it in her trunk. She took her phone out dialed the familiar number “Mom it’s me” she said when her mother said hello. “I need a favor,” she smiled as her Mom dropped her pretense at small talk. It wasn’t something they did and it was even less with her Dad. Divia learned early with both of them, get to the point early otherwise they’d lose interest. “Do you still have connections in the art world?” She smiled as her Mom gave her an affirmative yes “good can I have his number? I have a painting he might be interested in…” She rolled her eyes as her Mom tried to pry into her private life “yes Mom it’s for that friend and no I haven’t told Daddy yet.” She smiled at her Mom’s response “I’ll think about it and thanks for the number.”

She put her phone away thankful for once that her Mom was the way she was. No questions meant no fuss. She wasn’t ready yet to trust that her Dad was ready to find his only daughter was gay. She’ll have to tell him eventually but until then she was happy with the way things were. Right now she had other concerns like making sure Marzia didn’t hurt herself.

anonymous asked:

omg yes, you guys need to read the book, bc in there he is the one who has a car accident and lost his memories and she tried to do everything right and omg I love so much this book that i think I'm going to read again haha! I love all of the upcoming scenarios!

It must be such an amazing book! So great, we hope we can do something good too. And well, this might seen like shameless self promotion because it is, but we will say it just the same 🙈 we do have a scenario of Yoongi in which he has a car accident and loses his memories so Y/N does a lot of things to help him get them back. If you want to read we will leave the link here: Every Time We Touch 

anonymous asked:

Hi! I'm a Pieces and my bestfriend is a Libra and told me he couldn't talk to me until next year because he likes me and wants to get over me. It hurts that he wants to stop talking but he's hurting too by being friends because I don't think I like him back. It hurts him too to not talk but either way he's gonna be hurt but I don't want to lose him. I feel very attached and close to him and feel depressed when I can't talk to him. Idk if I'm over emotional or if I might like him back. Thoughts?

Hello !
Ahh, this is a hard situation. I mean i get that you don’t want to lose the friendship you have with him but at the same time it’s understandable that he doesn’t want to see you. I think he doesn’t want to ruin your friendship, so he will rather just take a step back and comes when he’s actually okay with talking to you. But wait you think you might like him back ?? Are you sure that you aren’t just missing talking to him ? Because i mean that would change the whole situation.
I’d say take some time to think, and if you really like him, i mean like like him, then go tell him !!

i went to bed thinking about how jaal tells us that his father    vanished from his life.  he went to work one day and didn’t come home.  ‘  and how that might as well be a big blinking sign to the implication that jaal’s father,  somewhere,  was exalted and made into a kett  ——  and i’m sure that jaal doesn’t  linger  on the thought too much;  but i’m sure he thought of it,  and i’m sure he thinks  about  it sometimes  —  that he considers the idea,  somewhere out there,  that he might have killed his own father,  or someone in his family did,  or someone in the resistance did.   i think the thought bothers him more than the actual idea that he  did  kill his father does;   jaal is emotionally open enough that i do think he’s processed the grief of losing his father forever ago  (  he lingers more on the fact that something that happened to him happens  still  to other people than he does on his own grief;  it’s more of a footnote in his explanation of the kett resistance,  a way to emphasize its horrors to ryder  )  but i’m sure that it  bothers  him,  all the same,  on some level  –  and it makes the  HORROR  of the reality of what kett  are  all the more  REAL  to jaal.   but anyway.  good morning.

Alright, let’s talk about the elephant in the room.

The preview for episode 11 of Yuri on Ice.

Or, specifically, this scene:

Let’s note the important things first - it’s snowing, and Maccachin is there.

It doesn’t snow in Barcelona + Maccachin didn’t go to Barcelona = this is a flashback.

But a flashback to when? To when Victor was waiting for Yuuri to return from the Rostelecom Cup. Maybe.

But that was in November and it shouldn’t be snowing in Kyushu in November, so let’s say that’s not it.

A flashback to the previous season when Victor was still in Russia? This sounds more likely to me.

My assumption on what this is? Victor losing motivation to skate and questioning whether there is even any point in his continuing his career and/or realizing how tired he is of being lonely all the time.

I think we might finally be learning more about Victor. I am looking forward to next week!

“I broke up with my girlfriend this morning. We’d been together for three years. But I’m Catholic, and she doesn’t know if she believes in God or not. I wanted to propose to her one day. I think she’d be a great mom and a great wife. But I feel like this might be something we can’t overcome. I want to get married in a Catholic church. I want to raise my children to be Catholic. It’s important to me and it’s something that we’d have to deal with eventually. So I didn’t think it would be a good idea to keep putting it off. But it really hurts to lose her. Both of us were bawling our eyes out. She was such a big part of my life. Every time something good happens, she is the first person I want to tell. And I do respect that she refuses to believe in something just because I do. But I don’t know what to do. I’m hoping God will give me an answer.”

Here Comes a Thought
Steven Universe
Here Comes a Thought

Composer: Rebecca Sugar

Arrangement: Aivi & Surasshu

Vocal Performance: AJ Michalka & Estelle

Strings Performance: Jeff Ball


Take a moment to think of just
Flexibility, love, and trust
Take a moment to think of just
Flexibility, love, and trust

Here comes a thought
That might alarm you
What someone said
And how it harmed you

Something you did
That failed to be charming
Things that you said are
Suddenly swarming

And oh, you’re losing sight
you’re losing touch
All these little things seem to matter so much
That they confuse you

That I might lose you
Take a moment, remind yourself to
Take a moment and find yourself
Take a moment to ask yourself

If this is how we fall apart
But it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not
It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay
You got nothing, got nothing, got nothing, got nothing to fear

I’m here, I’m here, I’m here

Here comes a thought
That might alarm me
What someone said
And how it harmed me

Something I did
That failed to be charming
Things that I said are
Suddenly swarming

And oh, I’m losing sight
I’m losing touch
All these little things seem to matter so much
That they confuse me

That I might lose me
Take a moment, remind yourself to
Take a moment and find yourself
Take a moment and ask yourself

If this is how we fall apart
But it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not, but it’s not
It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay
I’ve got nothing, got nothing, got nothing, got nothing to fear

I’m here, I’m here, I’m here

And it was just a thought, just a thought, just a thought, just a thought, just a thought
It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay
We can watch, we can watch, we can watch, we can watch them go by

From here, from here, from here
Take a moment to think of just
Flexibility, love, and trust
Take a moment to think of just

Flexibility, love, and trust

Can we talk for a sec about the way Alec said “What? Why would you think that?” after Magnus tells him he’s afraid he might lose him because he is thinking “holy hell how can you possibly conceive the idea of losing me I am crazy about you and I’m not going anywhere” because it haunts me tbh

I have a bad feeling...

I was thinking about how the Grand Prix Final might go/who might win and lose.

But then suddenly I was struck with horrific realisation that this might be some heavy foreshadowing:

We know that Yurio’s agape performance wasn’t as strong as it could have been, that he was visibly shaken by his Grandpa not turning up to see him skate. Then we get the reason, as stated above.

Yurio clearly adores his grandpa (exhibit A- look at that face!!! Awww) and has a very close relationship with him- as we saw as early on as episode 3…

And that honestly fills me with dread. Call me evil but I think something bad is going to happen  to Yurio’s grandpa- thus giving us a parallel to Yuri losing Vicchan and spiralling the year before. 

But not all hope is lost. There are two ways this could go.

First way:

1. Something bad happens to Grandpa (sickness gets worse, maybe even dies but I’m not sure the anime would go there).
2. Yurio is rocked to his core, already freaking out because the pressure is huge and let’s not forget he’s only 15! It’s a lot for him to take.
3. He completely flubs his skate routine.

Second way (which I think is more likely):

1. Something bad happens to Grandpa 
2. Again Yurio is freaking out.
3. BUT he goes out and skates like his life, like his Grandpa’s life, depended on it.
4. Yurio finally manages to perfect his Agape routine- leaving everyone in awe.
5. “This is for you…Grandpa”
6. Everyone drowns in their own tears.

HUMO: You’re a feminist, you have already said that several times. Many young women do not like being associated with feminism, because in their eyes it is a movement that forbids them to wear heels.

Evelyne Brochu: Feminists are the reason that I can vote, and my main concern is not whether I should wear heels or not, but that I might soon lose that acquired right as a woman. That Donald Trump is completely disturbed. The first thing he did as president, was to abolish subsidies for abortion clinics. And isn’t it scary what humiliating statements the most powerful man in the world can make about women? Everybody says: “They are just words.” But words set the motion more often than you think. A man thinks much faster now, “If the most powerful man can say that, it is okay if I say it too.” While women previously where not given the same room as men to be angry, or different, or crazy, a man is admired for those things, “Look how strong he is and what strong opinions he has.” A woman would be called hysterical.

Women are constantly belittled. We are told how we should behave if we want to be loved. That’s my biggest concern. I could care less about those heels.

This is a translation of Ebro’s interview with a Belgium magazine. For the full translated interview keep reading.

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  • Garrus: Shepard. So I guess this is--
  • Shepard: Just like old times?
  • Garrus: Hm. Might be the last chance we get to say that.
  • Shepard: Think we're going to lose?
  • Garrus: No. I think we're about to kick the reapers back into whatever black hole they crawled out of. Then, we're going to retire somewhere warm and tropical and live off the royalties from the vids. Maybe even find out what a Turian-Human baby looks like.
  • Shepard: I'm game. Though I think adoption's a better idea--biology may not cooperate.
  • Garrus: Hmm... I suppose there will be a lot of little Krogan around soon.
  • Shepard: We just have to beat the reapers first.
  • Garrus: James told me there's an old saying here on Earth. 'May you be in Heaven half an hour before the Devil knows you're dead.' Not sure if Turian heaven is the same as yours, but if this thing goes sideways and we both end up there, meet me at the bar. I'm buying.
  • Shepard: We're a team, Garrus. There's no Shepard without Vakarian. So you better remember to duck.
  • Garrus: Sorry, Turians don't know how. But I'll improvise. And Shepard... forgive the insubordination, but your boyfriend has an order for you...
  • Garrus: Come back alive. It'd be an awfully empty galaxy without you.

★ Karamel Appreciation Week ★

Day 6 favorite angsty moment

3/22 weigh in: 180.8 (-1.4lbs!!)

I’m very excited about this weigh in. I didn’t think I was going to lose over a pound at all. I thought I might even have a small gain!!

My eating was pretty good all week but my activity level has been really low. My knee is recovered from my fall, but I just haven’t gotten back into the habit of daily exercise and I feel really shitty about myself.

I’m going to go for a walk in a bit (I’m in 2 Fitbit challenges right now).

I’m determined to be out of the 180s by next weigh in 🤞🏻


So I finished the Assassin!Gabe ref guide thing… with the world’s laziest colouring might I add. All info is on the picture but I’ll retype it below too.

- Previously in The Assassin Order

- Still an Assassin, taking out The Templar Order from the inside

- Found a Piece of Eden that bound itself to him resulting in:

1. Allowing him to use wraith from (for a short period of time) but causes severe pain for a while as a side affect.

2. Losing his Eagle Vision.

- Gabe still has his hidden blade but doesn’t want to tarnish/sully it doing missions given by The Templars.

I think that covers all I could think of for now. I’ll expand on all this eventually…