i think i like this method better

Finish Your Antibiotics

I’m sorry, this isn’t Jojo at all but I think I’ve had it for today. As a pharmacy tech, I’m tired of hearing “Well, I started to feel better so I didn’t finish them.” I always knew this but now as a Molecular and Cellular Biology major, I not only know why but how. If you’re willing to heed my advice from the title, good; be on your way. If you need to know more, keep reading.

It’s widely known–to some extent–that not completing a regiment of antibiotics can result in resistant bacteria, or even super bacteria.

But in an infection, you already have resistant bacteria lurking. Not taking antibiotics doesn’t literally create resistant bacteria. So how, then, do the antibiotics take care of the resistant ones?

A lot of antibiotics aren’t bacterialcidal: They don’t actually kill them. Many inhibit growth by some mechanism depending if the bacteria is gram negative or gram positive. For example, penicillin inhibits growth by disrupting the formation of a peptidoglycan layer on gram positive bacteria. Others target the LPS layer on gram negative ones. This keeps the non resistant bacteria at bay. So what kills the resistant ones? Your immune system. Antibiotics buy time and energy for your immune system to recognize and destroy the resistant strains. Your immune system is intelligent in that sense and can form antibodies for new illnesses. It’s important to give your immune system this time because bacteria grow, mutate, and transfer genetic material at astonishing rates. If you wanted to look at a microcosm of the mechanics that go into evolution, you’ve got it with bacteria. 

There are three methods aside from binary fission in which they transfer genes (I won’t get into the minutia of the form of informational material): Transformation, transduction and conjugation.

In transformation, a bacteria can pickup lost genes from a ruptured and dead cell.

Transduction is a way to transfer information via a viral vector.

In conjugation, genes are transferred through something called a pilus: It’s a bridge between two cells that pipes a copy of the information from one cell to another receptive cell and is the only method that doesn’t involve killing either cells. Resistant bacteria like to give around that resistance information like they’re burning a CD for their friends.

So please finish your antibiotics if you’ve been given them. It doesn’t matter if you’ve started to feel better or even great. Finish them.

(Hey science people, If I’ve missed anything or even got something wrong, help me out. There’s obviously lengthy stuff I’ve left out but I think I got the basics).

Happy Birthday, Marilyn Monroe (June 1, 1926).


Georges Belmont: If I asked you what does it feel like being Marilyn Monroe, at this stage in your life, what would you answer?
Marilyn Monroe: Well, how does it feel being yourself?
GB: Sometimes I’m content with myself, at other times I’m dissatisfied.
MM: That’s exactly how I feel. And are you happy?
GB: I think so.
MM: Well, I am too, and since I’m only 34 and have a few years to go yet, I hope to have time to become better and happier, professionally and in my personal life. That’s my one ambition. Maybe I’ll need a long time, because I’m slow. I don’t want to say that it’s the best method, but it’s the only one I know and it gives me the feeling that, in spite of everything, life is not without hope.

anonymous asked:

I'm not one of those who blames Harry for what is happening rn, but man, I'm side eyeing the fuck out of Jeff. I dont know what restrictions Harry still has and all that, but this is some terrible shit tbh. Like, all these rumours about premiering his music before Dunkirk... that would be terrible!!! It would so undermine and overshadow his role in Dunkirk. Terrible business decision. And now the timing of this registration... it couldnt be worst tbh. I really hope Jeff knows what he's doing

I agree with you, and also, I’m going to go on a bit of a rant because I can’t not. I just honestly think everything related to Harry’s solo career is absurd right now. Harry has been almost entirely cut off from the fandom pretty much since hiatus began. I think that’s fine, and honestly, and I know we’ve all missed him, but I think Harry (possibly even more than the others) needed that time to himself. I think it gave him time to recover from such a tough schedule with One Direction, I think it gave him a break from the fan service and BS that really seemed to have burned him out, and it gave him time to focus on Dunkirk, which was obviously something outside of his comfort zone that required his full concentration. But Jesus Christ, man. This is beyond ridiculous at this point.

We’ve gotten countless media sources, celebrities, and others in the industry talking about his debut album. And because he’s not talking, all of these people and sources are talking FOR him - and we don’t even know which of the things they’re saying are correct and which are completely false. And blah blah blah yeah, obviously the media is gonna talk about solo Harry regardless, but you’re lying to yourself if you think that his team couldn’t have shut up some of the people who have run their mouths about solo Harry at this point. And if the media is going to always make claims about his future music, both true and false, why wouldn’t he just speak for himself? Why wouldn’t his team speak for him? Why have they allowed this to happen for so fucking long? And don’t even give me that bullshit about oh, they just want to keep anticipation up - because at this point, that tactic doesn’t even make sense. I honestly don’t even know how solo Harries are alive right now considering they get hyped up for his music every two days based on what so-and-so said to the media. It’s fucking EXHAUSTING and it eventually burns people out to be constantly disappointed when they’re promised that something is about to happen and then it doesn’t. I’ve seen a lot of burnout in this fandom in the last week alone on the solo Harry front, and that’s so sad to see because things could have been so different.

If they’re gonna have a dude from Columbia come out here and tell me that an album is nearly done, and then have Grimmy say he was about to hear the album, and then have a touring company registered like a tour is gonna be in the works sometime soon when they haven’t said jack shit about ANYTHING, that’s beyond frustrating to me. You don’t have to give every fucking detail but god, not even a confirmation that the album is coming? NOTHING. Nothing at all.

Louis kept up fan service pretty consistently last year and eventually dropped music. Liam posts updates about his album progress to his social media, and yeah, his album still isn’t out, but there also haven’t been fifty people saying to the press every four days that it’s almost done. Niall was active on social media and kept up fan service last year before dropping his single as a surprise. Harry has done none of that, and I’m not saying that Harry has to do it the way the other boys did, but this is….really yikes. I don’t understand what the fuck his team is playing at, I really don’t. I know that Harry is the most famous in the band and I know that his music is the most anticipated, but he is not some untouchable artist with a shitload of street cred where his album is guaranteed to top at number one. I know this fandom might want to think that’s the case, but it isn’t. He is not Beyonce with numerous successful albums and decades in the industry. He has never put out solo music, and not only that, but we don’t have even the vaguest clue as to what his solo music would SOUND like at this point because again, we’ve heard nothing from his team.

The way this is being executed screams lazy and arrogant to me, and Harry is neither of those things, so I want to know what the deal is. To have this buildup for over a year with everyone else talking about it except for the people whose voices count the most and just expecting fans to be there, still waiting and ready and foaming at the mouth whenever you choose to drop music even though you never bothered to say anything about it….that doesn’t rub me the right way at all, I’m sorry. And listen, knowing this fandom and how much solo Harries have stayed pumped, it might work for them, it, but god, that is just….I don’t understand how people can respect that method of doing things. Us, the fans, as future consumers of his music, as the people who ensured that Harry is in the position he’s in today, deserve better than this. I know that fandom entitlement is a thing and we don’t deserve a lot of things that we think we deserve, but are people really gonna try to act like having confirmation of an album from Harry or his team is asking too much? Wanting some respect, and some clarity, and some basic fucking facts (for example: Are you coming out with an album? When is it coming out?) for Harry’s FIRST SOLO ALBUM EVER after over a year of almost complete silence from him (and silence about his future plans long before that) is perfectly reasonable, especially considering how much we’ve been jerked around about Harry’s solo career for like five years now, and quite frankly, anyone trying to suggest otherwise is fooling themselves. Harry’s team may not be able to control everything the media or other artists do or say about solo Harry, but they can (or at least, you would think they would be able to) control their own behavior, and at least so far, it seems like they’re just letting everybody else do the work for them (and do it messily at that, considering how many lies and ridiculous speculation has been published and passed around over the past year or so).

I’m just really frustrated because I don’t understand why his team is doing this and why they’re giving this impression of not knowing what they’re doing (e.g. the Full Stop website) or just not caring (e.g. [the metric for success] “is just existing”). With a lot of the Louis bullshit, even without knowing the exact details of what’s going on, you can usually figure out quite quickly that a) they’re actively trying to fuck him over and b) why they’re actively trying to fuck him over. The involvement of the stunts tainting everything Louis does also makes the intentions of his team clear (though no less infuriating). But this stuff with Harry? I don’t understand it and can’t even begin to imagine why things are being done this way. I don’t think it’s fair to the fans and I think it’s doing a huge disservice to Harry, his music, and if the rumors about when he’s dropping the music are correct, his acting career. I just really, really hope that there’s a huge change soon because I’m really cringing at what I’m seeing so far. I wish I understood any of this, but I don’t and watching it all happen is exhausting.

Alright, some of my word vomit is out. If people disagree with me, that’s fine, but this is my opinion. And no, I don’t think negatively of Harry or anything like that, I’m just not pleased with how things are being handled by his team (just as I’m not pleased with how Louis’ team is doing things) and I need to voice that.

Liar, Liar: Part 1

(( OOC: Girl played by: @sirussly )) 

Remus: *quietly enters the werewolf “den”, setting his things aside*

Fenrir: *smiles pleasantly as he finishes binding a young woman’s hands to a chair* 

Girl: *whimpers* 

Fenrir: Hm… rough day?

Fenrir: *glances at the girl, contemplating* *leans forward and sniffs* 

Girl: *pulls against straps, trying to get away*

Fenrir: *grins* She smells like a muggle.

Remus: *licks lips nervously* Especially if there are more than one in the same goddam area. I can only do so much. 

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 We are all aware of the holy trinity…You know…
Captive Prince, All for the Game, and The Song of Achilles.
And you can’t forget the honorable mentions that include The Raven Cycle, Six of Crows, Aristotle and Dante, and all the other beautifully written works that keep you up at night and own your soul for weeks after the books end…

So, what is the holy trinity equivalent for wlw books?  
I need intense books full of angst and love and adventure and peril, and everything that makes the above listed books amazing.  Characters you just want to see happy and together but also overcoming their obstacles, becoming better people (or worse people, I don’t know your methods)…

I would like to nominate The Mermaids of Eriana Kwai, The Abyss Surrounds Us, and …I don’t even have a third one.

Don’t get me wrong, I love books like Annie on My Mind, Star-Crossed, Lumberjanes, and Tipping the Velvet.  But I NEED books that fit in with the mlm holy trinity.  Give me the monster-mermaids and the mermaid hunters.  Give me the pirates, give me the sea-monster trainers.  I NEED books that aren’t what you traditionally think of within the popular wlw books we see in the book community.  

i’ve been getting quite a bit of asks and messages about bullet journaling, so i figured that it would be better to make a helpful post about an intro to bullet journaling. i’ve compiled the basics + terminology around bullet journaling as well as some brief explanations and advice.

this got long, so i decided to put it under the cut! click “read more” to learn more about the basics of bullet journaling :)

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noonfter  asked:

whats ur like ????? process ?? esp w coloring like inhales idk y i cant color for shit but ur art is so wheezes jdgivbsn g o o d

my process lately goes like this:

1) semi transparent sketch (i dont do lineart most of the time bc my sketches r clean enough and making lineart look good is just a whole other struggle)

2) fill the form in with a neutral color….like, grey

3) put down some more saturated colors with a big soft airbrush

4) add more colors, blend, render

(something i realized is that it looks better if you keep the brush size for rendering around the same size at this point…dont go into details too early, or if you’re like me, at all)

6) refine the lines by painting cleanly over them, add definition

7) hike up the saturation slider LOL this is clearly optional

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Mar. 15, 2017// my super messy bujo

Haven’t updated in eternity (over a month); this is kinda what my bujo usually looks like (walls of text as I try to cram journal entries into those tiny spaces ;;) i think i used 1.5 cm of muji ink on that turquoise spread alone… (and yeah I guess I could do this way better but, as weird as it is, I’ve kinda grown on the “method”)

college advice part 4/7 : taking notes as a science student

→ these are just tips based on what i’ve learned at uni!!

laptop

  • you can type a lot faster than you write. i personally can’t write very fast. for biology first semester, i typed my notes since this was better for me. typing notes can be much easier if you have a professor who talks incredibly quickly and doesn’t write as they talk or have a powerpoint to go along with their lecture.
  • you have 24/7 access to all your notes. this is incredibly useful if you forget your laptop and need quick access to your notes during lecture, need to print something in lab for verification, or just want a quick reference when you’re out and about grabbing a coffee.
  • you can bring your notes with you everywhere. i know this might sound kind of repetitive, but you can bring your laptop with you wherever you go. carrying around textbooks and notebooks can get a little tedious and heavy. this is another reason to look into finding textbooks online!!

notebook

  • muscle memory. this is so important. when you write, you can remember what you wrote better if you physically write it. i personally prefer handwritten notes specifically for this reason!!
  • personally, i think it’s better for revision purposes. this is because it’s already written, and if you’re not super concerned with what you notes look like, you don’t need to rewrite anything in preparation for exams! not that you can’t do that, but i personally do no rewrite anything for exams; i usually just fill in the study guide and review my notes since they’re already organized how i prefer. 
  • discovering note-taking methods. when you use a laptop, the amount of methods of notes you can explore is numbered, but with a notebook, you can try out lots of different ways of note-taking. i personally use a modified Cornell method that i find difficult to organize on the computer.

sorry this is short but there’s not too much to cover; i think the pros and cons are pretty clear haha. i’ll do a masterpost on note-taking methods if you guys are interested!!

anonymous asked:

Is it alright if I ask about your sketching process for your portraits? Like guidlines and how to use them and such? I'm trying to learn realism, and I was wondering about it! If not, thats alright!

Hey Anon!
Of course! :D Happy to talk about it. I just say all this with a grain of salt- Everyone has different ways for constructing faces and starting a piece, and I don’t think there’s any one “right” way better than another. Just how I do it? I even have gotten frustrated with my construction methods in the past, and purposely ground-up re-taught myself a new technique. So it’s always fun to add more things to your repertoire!

I basically start with like a circle + middle vertical line, and then make the overall shape of the skull. Past that I add lines for where the eyes & nose will fall (middle, then middle of the bottom half respectively), and I often use vertical lines for “boundaries” on the sides of the face that double as cheekbones, because I have a tendency to Anime-out and make the face fill up too much of the skull for that realistic look. :B;;;

Here’s a breakdown of a Seb portrait I did where I used those guides to help build in the face, lightened my sketch and bumped up the important parts, then added shading and such.

Here’s the same kinda guidelines broken down really quickly in a profile sketch.

That’s basically what I do! I love starting with shapes: circle and especially boxes- because when it comes to complex angles, simple shapes with these guidelines can really help get all those bits in the right places where your eye can be tricked.

Thanks for the ask! I’m also tickled you find my art style to be realistic, gack, it’s all eye of the beholder! I’m always trying to improve my realism too. Best way to do that: reference! All the reference!! :D hahaha! But just keep drawing, you’ll get there! (and me too)

The Wonders of a Mindscape

This is the next lesson on Astral Travel! Enjoy~


What Is a Mindscape?

What I call a Mindscape also goes by many other names: Mindspace and Headspace are a few of the ones I’ve seen most often. A Mindscape is a protected space in the Astral reserved specifically for you. No other entities can enter the Mindscape unless they are A) attached to you in some way or B) have your explicit permission. Often, your mindscape already has many features that you have subconsciously introduced. Sometimes a Spirit Teacher/Guardian/Companion will chill there.

A Mindscape is a place that is influenced by you and your state of being. Let’s say you have a really Nature-y Mindscape. Forest sounds are playing almost all of the time, you can hear the distant waterfall, a gentle breeze is going. When you feel sad, sometimes your Mindscape will become sad right along with you. The Birds might stop singing, the waterfall in the distance might become silent, the air might become still. If rain is a “sad” thing for you, it might even start raining. Because your Mindscape is influenced by you, you can also consciously change it. You can change the landscape, or make flowers grow in a blink of your eye. You can zap a pretty little dress or an awesome leather jacket on yourself and build a castle on top of a shallow mountain. It’s the only place in the Astral where no rules apply.

In no other Astral Space can you do these things because the space will not be connected to you. You might be able to make flowers grow in the blink of an eye, but only if you have the talent, seeds, and energy to do it. If you zap on a piece of clothing, you’re taking that thing from somewhere else in the Astral. Remember this when you start to visit the Astral.

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I, like most people, had those years where you just don’t know what happened that caused you to suddenly lose your motivation to study and do work at all. You know, that moment where you wonder what happened to the student who always brought home straight A’s and the one teachers always liked and talked about, but then you realize that sometime in late elementary/middle school/puberty etc. something major happened that caused some serious procrastination. Here are some of my tips to prevent this and get back on your feet just in time for higher schooling platforms (if you’re still a youngin and/or college time)!

before it happens 

  • go over your current daily routines. what happened to me was glacial- some people will notice themselves slowly slipping, but others will see a subtle change until it’s too late. if you notice that you’re somehow sinking, going over your current daily routines will show you just how much order you have in your life 
  • go to your “mind palace” and map out a timeline. this is optional but “retracing your steps” can help with knowing what not to do and how to fix certain things
  • the “what if?” method. i’m going to call this the what if? method: getting ahead of yourself and thinking of what your life would be like in an x number of years (ex.: i was a freshman in high school and weirdly started stressing about college applications, dorms, scholarships, etc. even though i didn’t have to stress about those until junior year). you know when you think of conversations with people in your head and already think of snarky responses to what they would say if *this* happened? do that with studying. it’s better to be prepared and kind of the know the outcome than to be unprepared and throw you off

how to get your mojo back!

  • decide on what you want to do to achieve your goal. in my experience and personal kind of biased opinion, this is the only real motivation you have because you are the only one who decides what you want to do with your life. this in no way means to decide on your major in college or what job you want!!! consult the “what if?” method and think of those concept text post memes on tumblr and how you’d get there
  • find inspiration! personally, i got back on my feet (still trying) by looking at some studyblrs and starting my own. find something (or someone) that inspires you to get back on your feet and stand your ground when it comes to studying
  • start a routine you are comfortable with and stick to it. start thinking of your daily patterns and organize it. i started my routine by having a trial week with my new schedule just so i could edit it as i went along and then sticking to it
  • get a planner and/or a calendar. write down all your assignments and their due dates as you could forget and this helps with time management (consult your daily routine and decide on time blocks for your assignments) the planner doesn’t have to be fancy as it’s more for convenience than luxury and you could get some at WalMart for $10 or less. calendars would come in handy when you have events or long term projects etc. as calendars are (mostly) large and catch the eye easily
  • start all your work the day it is given to you. if the assignment isn’t due the next day, you don’t even have to finish it but it’s easier to finish a chunk of it just in case something comes up the following days and you can’t finish it without pulling out a red bull and an all nighter
  • turn! in! all! your! late! work! ASAP! if you had any late work, turn them in immediately. partial points is better than none, but if you’re okay with not turning them in because your grade is at a point you’re happy with or they don’t count as much as the teacher says, then that’s fine. although it’s better to have some more grades in the gradebook in case you flop a quiz or something, but even then, at least do the homework for practice
  • get the amount of sleep you know you are able to function properly with.  you don’t have to have 8+ hours of sleep daily but it’s preferable. if you know you can function properly and stay awake with just 5 hours of sleep, then that’s fine. figure out your sleeping pattern and catch up on sleep on the weekends if you need to. don’t always pull all nighters because you’d just be drained of all your energy
  • organize your study space. decluttering my room and adding some hella nice smelling candles definitely helped me center my energy and get me going so organize and tidy up your study space so you don’t have to spend 15 minutes looking for certain things and getting sidetracked
  • prepare yourself and your materials. know what you need to study beforehand and take out the materials you need before you start diving into your studying, even get some snacks and eat dinner beforehand so you don’t have to interrupt your study time. and before you head to bed, pack up your backpack, make your lunch, fill up your water bottle, plan your outfit, write in your planner, etc. so you’d be ready to go the next morning and not stress over having to rush to get to school
  • start to cut down on the social media. this was my biggest problem and it’s still a hard habit to try to stop, but start to be independent without your phone. keeping it on silent or shutting it off when you’re doing your work can help with your concentration and if deleting some apps helps you then go ahead. you don’t have to stop social media if you don’t want to because i know we all keep up with our friends and classmates through apps but lessen your time scrolling through instagram 

additional tips/reminders

  • your grades do not define you! know that you tried your hardest and that D you got on that one quiz will not affect your future as hard as you’d think
  • study smarter, not harder. spending 2 hours reading history notes that you don’t understand will not help you retain the information so find a way that helps you remember things and spend less time reading the same thing over and over again
  • if you want it, go get it. motivate yourself! your future is just as important as the next person’s and be confident in what ever you have to do to get to your goal (except if it’s illegal. keep it legal and sane)
  • life is hard and it doesn’t always turn out the way we want it to. sometimes our hardest is not enough but even then, it’s okay. as long as you are happy and enjoying your life, even though you didn’t get that degree you wanted, it’s alright and you did good. 

Wish these tips helped! some of these tips might not work out for some of you but that’s fine as this was my personal experience, but I still hope this could somehow help! feel free to drop by my inbox if you have any questions (or concerns)!

About SquigglyDigg

My name’s Hailey, but you can call me Squiggly: animator, illustrator, skeleton enthusiast, grown-ass woman with a kid’s interests.  In my spare time I like to eat, draw, sing, cosplay, and voice act!

(If you’re looking for info on my Toon Henry AU for Bendy and the Ink Machine, please refer to this post on my personal blog.)

-LINK TO MY PIXIV ACCOUNT-

FAQ:

“Why the name ‘SquigglyDigg?’”

I’ve told the story before, but basically the username “SquigglyDigg” comes from several years ago, when I went on a flight to visit some family and had a little mameshiba keychain on my backpack carry-on.  The flight attendant was charmed by it, and kept giving it silly little nicknames each time he passed by, batting at it, saying “hello” to it, and stuff like that.  When I got off the flight, he patted it affectionately and went “buh-bye, squigglydigg!”And the nonsense word just stuck out in my memory, so I adopted it. :V

“Where do you work?”

I’m currently working for Copernicus Studios as a 2D FX animator on Season 2 of Pickle & Peanut.

“What program do you use to draw/animate?”

I use Clip Studio Paint EX for both!

“Where did you attend college?”

I attended the University of Maryland, Baltimore County, and graduated with a BFA in Traditional Animation in December 2016.

“Do you have an online store?“

Yes indeedy!  My RedBubble store can be found over here:

http://www.redbubble.com/people/squigglydigg

“What about commissions?”

I do occasionally offer commissions, but unfortunately they are closed at the moment!  I’ll be making a page listing my prices as soon as I get the chance to re-open them.

“PLEASE DRAW  _____!”

The more you ask me to draw something, the less likely I am to do it.  Please – I don’t take requests.

“I drew/wrote something for you!  How can I show it to you?”

Any number of methods (thank you for thinking of me :D)!  If I’m online, a simple @squigglydigg or @squigglydigglydoo in a post might work, but since I’m not always online, that method of getting my attention is unreliable.  A better way of making sure I can see a post you make is to simply make sure that #squigglydigg or #squigglydigglydoo is in the first five tags of the post!  I track both of those tags, and unfortunately, the way Tumblr works, any given post will only appear in the first five tags applied to it.  If #squigglydigg is the sixth tag or later on your post, it won’t show up in the tag.

Unfortunately, I cannot see my tracked tags until I’m at home.  If you’d like to submit to me a link to the post (or simply the content you made, if you don’t want to make your own post) so that I see it sooner, please feel free to do so!

“Can I use your art for insert-thing-here?”

You must ask me for permission if you would like to use my art for anything at all, period.  No exceptions (this includes you, RP blogs–I do NOT like finding my work cropped and edited for somebody’s icons without my permission).  If I give you permission to use my work, you MUST source it back to me with a link to where it was originally posted, and you DO NOT have permission to edit it beyond cropping it unless I explicitly say so.

Trust me–you don’t want to test me here.  I know how to use the copyright complaint function on most websites.

“Is it okay to tag your art as ‘kin’ or anything related to otherkin or fictionkin?”

Please do not.  I’ve explained my stance before, and am a bit uninclined to get into it again, but long story short, it’s more than a little unsettling for me as an artist to have people I don’t even know claiming my art as, in any way, shape, or form, a representation of them.

Anybody who disrespects my wishes on this matter and decides to associate my work with anything related to “kin” will be blocked on sight.

This is not a bluff.  I am tired of asking every single person individually to respect my wishes.

“What computer do you have?”

I actually have a custom PC, specifically designed to run games and process-heavy software!  The specs can be found in this post right here.

“How tall are you?”

As baffled as I am that this is, in fact, a frequently-asked question, I stand at 5'2”.

“Sweet or savory food??”

I actually don’t like sweet food that much, so savory!

buying/making the stuff needed for my Bob Ross birthday painting party for like 10+ people I’m gonna throw next month. I’m surrounded by canvas and white oil paint and painting palettes I’ve cut out of scrap poster board. All I have to do now is choose exactly what painting we’re going to try to follow along with, so I can get my hands on the brushes and colors needed. c:

it’s going to be good times 😎🎨🖼

the use of diamonds in endless summer: a rant

as someone who’s played through endless summer without spending literally one (1) diamond—a lot of the enjoyment that comes from playing the game is saturated by the desire to spend diamonds in order to get a happy (or happier) ending. the book is no longer reliant on the player’s actions to produce an good outcome, but instead on how much money the player has rolling around in their bank account at the time. it’s… not good.

this got really long (WARNING: this is super fucking long (by super fucking long i mean +1,500 words long, so super fucking long), i was fueled by rage and pretty much nothing else), so i had to split it into parts. yeah.

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supergirl sentence meme: episode 7-9

  • the loss of your powers is undeniably traumatic. 
  • you are now subject to pain, sickness, and death. 
  • do not be afraid. 
  • until you have fully recovered, lean on those you trust. 
  • now you get to go out in the real world and see what it’s like to be human for a day.
  • i’m off to deal with an unruly guest.
  • i can’t trust him anymore. i know he’s hiding something.
  • you never get sick. that’s the best part about you.
  • it’s not getting any more impressive.
  • i will grind your loved ones to dust.
  • just lay low and enjoy your time off.
  • you’ve got to be really careful with that.
  • a warning would’ve been nice about how much that hurts.
  • sometimes it takes a shock to realise what really matters.
  • people are scared, they’re looking for information, and it is our duty to help them.
  • i have to know i’m leaving these people with someone i trust.
  • if i didn’t have an issue with personal space, i would give you a hug.
  • i have to say, i think what you’re doing today is wonderful.
  • don’t you think that people need a more positive message right now– hope instead of fear?
  • she fools us into thinking she’ll save us and renders us incapable of saving ourselves.
  • we don’t even know if he’s still alive.
  • mind lowering that weapon?
  • i need you to do what i say when i say it, because our situation just got a whole lot worse.
  • we can’t save him.
  • i don’t think relying on him is in our best interest.
  • i couldn’t save him.
  • you did everything that you could.i was starting to make a difference – i was helping people the way that i’ve always wanted.
  • i feel so helpless.
  • no hero can save everyone. but a real hero never stops trying.
  • you being killed is not gonna help anybody.
  • that’s not going to work on me.
  • you don’t want to hurt these people.
  • after all, it is human to be selfish.
  • i believe that we are better than this.
  • let’s show the world what we’re really made of.
  • you lied to me.
  • one way or another, this ends now.
  • that was good pizza.
  • let us see if you die with more honour than your fallen friends.
  • it will take more than that to kill me.
  • now, where the hell were you?
  • they’re starting to depend on you.
  • i know that you inspired them, because you inspired me.
  • afraid of a fair fight?
  • i don’t want to fight you.
  • go home. sleep. knock her on her ass another day.
  • i am sure this is all going to blow over. 
  • what planet are you from?
  • stories like this do not blow over. they blow up.
  • it’s not like you to fail to keep a promise.
  • if you die, she dies.
  • this is war. and to win a war, sometimes the enemy has to die. 
  • can you look me in the eye and tell me that you’re prepared to kill?
  • it isn’t safe here for me anymore.
  • they all smell blood in the water.
  • god, i’m enjoying corporate espionage like - a little too much.
  • i think you stared into miles of pitch black space until everything good inside of you died.
  • you’ve gone against everything our people hold dear.
  • i can’t let you hurt anyone.
  • i am begging you. please help me.
  • you would you make a different decision if you could go back?
  • i don’t know what i’m going to do after this. i don’t know if there is anything i can do.
  • she’s the kind of girl worth risking it all for.
  • another week, another crisis averted thanks to you.
  • if you’re not who i think you are, what does it matter?
  • let me begin by saying thank you for all the help that you’ve given me.
  • you’ve gonna wish i’d died with the rest of them!
  • this attack has been traumatic for all of us.
  • you two really did bury the hatchet, didn’t you?
  • it’s going to take more than a stern voice to scare me.
  • if you help me, maybe i can help you.
  • i ordered hi to spare you because blood bonds us all.
  • oh, this is going to be ugly.
  • i don’t have an attitude problem. you have a perception problem.
  • i’m very boring and really normal.
  • there are many topics that i find appropriate for humour: english cuisine, black lipstick… but i will never make a joke about a good story.
  • i know you forget to eat when you’re stressed.
  • i knew all of the answers to your insane questions!
  • you and i both fight for truth, justice, and the american way. it just so happens that my methods are better. and more fun.
  • i am a man of honour. and i take no pleasure in what comes next.
  • stop it! you’re hurting her!
  • we are better than this!
  • i don’t want to give him a chance to hurt her.
  • i’m sorry – you want– you want to break into the facility?
  • you’re real tough, hiding behind your muscle.
  • you think insulting my ego is going to get me to spill like some bond villain?
  • the truth is, i need you now more than i ever have.
  • i don’t want you getting upset!
  • i feel like i lost everything.
  • i have nothing left. 
  • i don’t know what to do anymore.
  • even when things look the bleakest, heroes find a way.
  • today, i got so upset, i couldn’t think. 
  • i just wanted to hurt someone.
  • i was afraid of losing everything that mattered to me.
  • i still have faith that there’s good in you. 
  • i am not worth your faith.
  • you take one more step and my men will put you down.
  • i want your people to see that we’re better than him, because maybe then we’ll find a way to end this war.
  • there will be no more battles today.
  • do not mistake my compassion for weakness.
  • i’m trying to make the world a safe place for everyone.
  • you guys could’ve told me. i can keep a secret.
  • i’m afraid i can’t stay long – there’re a lot of people out there who need help.
  • i almost did something today that i would’ve regretted for the rest of my life.

now to scream about The Queen’s Thief series by Megan Whalen Turner, mostly The King of Attolia

  • Notes about the books:
    - they are standalone-ish stories that share a cast and world
    - The Thief reads like a quaint middle grade novel that is tonally completely different from the rest of the series, which reads like classic YA fantasy with adult characters; the real action begins with The Queen of Attolia. Both books are much better on reread–the foreshadowing will likely fly by you the first time, and as these are more “setup” books, I think they can be difficult to appreciate on their own.
    - The King of Attolia, ho boy, I wasn’t expecting much from the summary and now here I am screaming; this is the one that goes on my all-time favorites.
    - EDIT: I HAVE NOW READ A Conspiracy of Kings AND AM CONSUMED BY EMOTION. MY SOVEREIGN BBS. Thick as Thieves releases in May!!
  • you must first understand: I have no interest in methodical political intrigue. This series is only methodical political intrigue and here I am.
  • it is subtle, unlike me, and every scene is so carefully crafted; concise, deliberate prose that knows exactly what it’s doing and revealing
  • or not revealing
  • VERY SMART PROTAGONISTS whose strength and cunning are balanced by having to make VERY DIFFICULT DECISIONS.
  • the QUEENS. Literal (multiple!) queens are at the forefront of the politics, with unquestioned strength and ferocity even when they may not have the most tenuous hold on their power. They come into the story seasoned rulers, not novices. One is a favorite anti-heroine, cold and cruel and YET.
  • I liked the titular character until The King of Attolia, now I LOVE HIM. All things in the world should star Eugenides.
  • the dash of romance in the series is so unique, so unexpectedly romantic; easily on my list of all-time fav couples
  • the stories build so much: many-layered cast with multiple PoVs, domestic and foreign politics, complicated relationships that have you constantly looking over the characters’ shoulders, a wry humor on top of that, and it is so satisfying to see it all weave together like an elaborate rug
  • a beautiful, elaborate rug that winks at you before pulling itself out from under your feet
if you’re reading this and i’m not here to explain everything to you, i would like for you to know a few things about why things don’t work out as planned. i don’t want you to think that you’re not worth every inch of your beating heart, you want to be loved and to feel wanted, in truth, i want the exact same thing, but it’s much less about someone else wanting me and more of wanting myself before anyone gets a try at trying to love someone that’s like me and i’ve been told a lot lately from a few different people that i should be careful about you and how you’ll hurt me if it comes down to it. i’m not worried about getting hurt because i’ve been too numb to even notice and that’s alright. i’ve hurt someone that’s very important to me and i can’t fix it, they say that i have to let things go and get over it– it’s been, fuck i don’t keep track of the days anymore. it’s just been a really long time and she still has bits of my heart and it’s really not your fault. maybe we met at the wrong time, maybe i shouldn’t have bought so many flowers. maybe i shouldn’t have kissed you, i promise i’m not trying to lead you on. i realized a week ago that when you looked me in the eyes and saw a whole future with me, it scared me. i don’t have much to offer, but poetry, books and my piano. i’m living in a modern day renaissance and i don’t know if i’m ready to fall in love anymore, i guess you’re right, i don’t know how to open up anymore. being happy comes up short most days, if i keep listening to these sad songs and see her face but not yours, these flaws are mine and mine only. acceptance is like a season that doesn’t fade, we ask the weather to be more than tempting and ask the wind to take us away. i am missing a few screws in my head and there’s moondust where hands used to pull me under, there’s sunlight where i’ve fallen for light love, how can i love myself if i keep trying to destroy my progress? my cousin says that you must love the struggle because if you’re at the top one day and you can’t see the grind to get to where you want to be, if you don’t respect the hustle and bustle of busy hearts trying to beat, if you can’t love yourself enough to let her go, if you’re wondering while you’re wandering– then dreams will stay as dreams and never will they enter your reality. you’ve heard this before, it’s not you, it’s me. another silly excuse for me to be distant. another reason the ocean drowns with the distance between islands of fire and seas of ice, sometimes i think it’d be nice to hold you just to have someone to hold, but what kind of person would i be if i didn’t show something genuine to you? these are the letters that you won’t read, these are the pieces of my tattered heart that you can see, and i’m so sorry about not visiting as much or talking as much or smiling as much or loving as much or anything related to telling you that we’re doing okay. i’m kinda lost right now and i can’t shake the feeling that a close friend of mine has died. i find more comfort with shadows than i do with your hugs and your smiling. i guess i really am messed up. i just don’t know how to love people like that anymore. do you love the idea of me or do you love me? a question that’ll haunt me until my last days. which parts of us do we truly understand? the universe is far too vast, we are but tiny specks of stardust inside a grain of sand trying to feel large. my life is an hourglass and i’ve been slowly falling for the reason as to why i shouldn’t stay, i don’t feel like i’m worth your time and that’s a big problem to me. i can’t love you if i’m in love with someone else. i can’t love you if i don’t love myself. you said that it’s not true. you can love people without being in love with yourself. it’s true. i’ve done it. i became a writer that way, but before i start using the word love carelessly– i want to treat my own body like it’s a sapling that’s not quite the tree that i’d sit under to read my favorite book. i want to make music with my veins pressed down into journals, so that even if i leave this place some day, at least i left my blood with my words and my lips with the meaning. i want to scratch my name into the stars and ask the sun to glow under my skin, which way is towards freedom of pain? or are we destined to be hurt? i want to love each parts of myself enough to carry my own name in silence because when you love people and you have nothing left for yourself and they leave– that’s where all the heartbroken artists live and still live even after they’ve healed. i’ve seen your response, i am living proof that you can love people even if you don’t love yourself. it has both made me a better person, but it has also broke a part of me that i can’t fix. they say that men shouldn’t cry because it’s weak. i used to be quite different. now, i think it’s okay to cry. sometimes when a good song comes on, i feel things that i can’t explain, i am a certain way that’s left to the unknown. i’ve been asking people a question. how do you know when you’re in love with someone? when you hear their name, your face lights up. when you’re having a bad day and all they have to do is be there for you to feel better. when you’re just absolutely sure that it is love and not an illusion. i don’t feel any of those things for anyone, but i’d like to have enough confidence to tell you that you are beautiful, i just can’t fix yet another broken person with my smile. my sister tells me that i attract broken people through my insane methods of empathy, i can be lethal if not taken in small doses. i think it’s like that for anyone who just needs to forget. are you trying to forget about someone too? i wanted you to feel pretty, so i bought my favorite flowers for you. i wanted to give attention, so i write to you. i wanted you to know that you’re too angry, i understand anger, so maybe that’s why we’re close. they say that passion is destructive by nature because if you want it bad enough, you’d do anything to make it happen. they say that if you want someone badly enough, there isn’t an excuse big enough out there that you’ll be able to say to not do it. i don’t have any excuses. no more promises. i don’t have a lie up my sleeve. i don’t have a smile for your bad days. i can’t be in your future if i’m uncertain about mine. i can’t be your lover if i am broken too. cracked hearts need clarity not romance. a pair of sad eyes need self-reflection not sex. a smile that’s fake enough to trick the sun into believing that it has shined there once upon a time, it needs someone that’s able to help you grow. i don’t think i’m that person. everyone has got problems and who doesn’t hate themselves on a really bad day? i guess i’m just a little tired of giving myself up for something that isn’t promised tomorrow. because when you’re alone and it’s just you, only you can fix your problems. no one else. just me, myself and i. maybe i’m selfish. maybe i’m full of shit. but if that’s what it takes to fix this heart of mine, i’ll give it all away just to feel another day. so if you find this some day and i’m no longer around–
it’s not your fault, i’m just trying to figure it all out.
—  read this when i’m not around

Kriffing stars, you two!” Bodhi exclaims.

Jyn and Cassian spring apart, so abruptly Jyn makes a sound like a startled animal and Cassian almost falls off the pilot’s seat, as if that would be good enough to erase what Bodhi had seen when he stormed into the cockpit.

“Can you guys save this for later? Like when you have a room?” Bodhi continues, fully aware of the red rising in Jyn’s cheeks, matching the angry looking marks on her neck. He loved teasing new couples. 

“Is everyone okay? I heard a lot of noise for a person delivering a status report to two peo- oh Jyn, your body temperature is rising rapidly,” Kay leans in the the doorway. 

“I’m fine, Kay,” Jyn snarls. 

“You don’t look fine.”

“She’s fine Kay. Bodhi, take Kay back with you.”

“You don’t look fine either, Cassian. Your heart rate is much higher than your normal resting rate, and your face is incredibly pale. Should I administer treatment for shock?” Kay continues. Bodhi couldn’t tell if Kay was doing it on purpose, but couldn’t help but chuckle. 

“Kay. We’re good. Go take Bodhi with you to check the inventory. We’re set for landing soon.” 

“Actually, Cassian, we still have approximately two standard hours bef-” 

Kay.” Cassian looks pained. 

“Let’s go,” Bodhi says, pulling Kay by the arm, failing to hide the smirk on his face. “He knows how to get Jyn back to normal, right Cass?” Jyn looks mortified.

“I don’t think his methods would be better than mine,” Kay replies and Bodhi doubles over with laughter. Cassian glares at Bodhi as he and the droid head back to the hold. 

New couples, man. Wait till Luke heard about this one. 

To everyone who

To everyone who thinks they aren’t good enough, I promise you are. I promise you are more than good enough. Stop thinking of all those times when people put you down. When people made you feel small. When they made you think you couldn’t do something. When they made you think your dreams and passions were stupid. Those people were wrong. Fuck what they said. Fuck how they made you feel. You are good enough. Think of how amazing you are. You’ve made it this far in life so you must have been doing something right. Everyone is special in their own way. Embrace the things that separate you from others. Be proud of who you are. You are more than good enough.

To everyone who thinks they will always be single and won’t find love, you will find it. Don’t pressure yourself into finding your person. Don’t think that because those other relationships didn’t work out that no relationship will. Don’t think because you aren’t in a relationship now that you never will be. Don’t think that because you see couples all around you and you’re still single that you’ll always be that way. We go through hurt in life but we find our person who takes all the pain away. Who makes us feel like we can do anything. Who makes us feel important. Who makes us feel like there isn’t such thing as bad luck because you are the luckiest human alive because you have them. You will find your person and you will be happier than ever. And you’ll think back to when you felt sad and lonely and you’ll realize you’ll never have to feel that way again because you have your person now.

To everyone who feels alone, you aren’t. It can be the scariest thing when you’re sitting in your room and you’re crying for whatever reason and it feels like you’re screaming at the top of your lungs for help and no one can hear you. You aren’t the only one who has felt this way. If you feel alone, pick up your phone and find the person who you can trust and talk to. Text them. Call them. Talk to them. You don’t even have to tell them about what’s going on in your head. You can talk about anything. Sometimes the best thing you can do is get your brain to stop thinking about things. Write out your feelings. Draw them out. Listen to music. Do what you can to calm yourself and feel better. If you can’t find that person in your phone, message me and I can be that person. You’ll always have someone here for you. I promise you aren’t alone.

To everyone who feels like their mental disorder is stopping them from being who they want to be, fight. Don’t let it win. Don’t be scared. Don’t let it defeat you. Fight it and fight hard. You can get through it. Find your best method of defense and fight. That could be exercise, music, art, writing, or even sleep. If you don’t have a method yet, try things until you find something. Do what you can but don’t let it hold you back. You can still accomplish everything you want in life. Be who you want to be. You can still achieve your dreams and you will. Don’t stop fighting.

To everyone who feels like they can’t be who they really are, it gets better. Dress how you want. Talk how you want. Dye your hair and get piercings and get the tattoos you want. Love who you want. If your friends don’t like that, they aren’t your real friends. If your family doesn’t like it, give them time to come around. Time heals lots of things. Don’t let fear stop you. You don’t have to hide anymore. You will find support all around you I promise. Be yourself.