i think i just suffered a bit

Batman vs Superman was over two hours of two men bickering over who has the biggest brooding cock-I mean, who has the better method of "saving" people and whether or not it's ok for Batman to beat and brand criminals without regarding the fact that not everyone's as wealthy and privileged as his morally upright ass and for Superman to ignore the fact that not everyone's as indestructible as him, meanwhile Wonder Woman over here...


Wonder Woman was vastly superior to bvs for two reasons.

-Wonder Woman is actually a likable lady and an idealistic believable super hero who doesn’t spend her entire moving thinking about how she COULD help people.

She charges in, headfirst, wanting to help people she doesn’t even KNOW because she wants to protect the people who’re dying.

-and Wonder Woman was just so much more subtle and less pretentious about its message.


Let’s talk.

Wonder Woman’s CHARACTER is not that she’s cold and heartless and…well, masculine.

She doesn’t EMULATE men.

She doesn’t need to act like a man to be strong.

She coos at a baby and kisses Chris Pine and doesn’t spend the entire movie ragging on women.

She dresses and acts feminine, and embodies kindness, grace, beauty, everything “feminine.”

And she’s also strong as fucking hell.

That is Wonder Woman.

She’s a good person.

She’s not some cold warrior goddess, an untouchable female shaped ideal.


She sees people suffering in the trenches and her first thought it, stop what we’re doing, we gotta help.

Chris pine and all of his men?

They’ve seen all of this.

They’ve hardened themselves to the horrors of war and accepted them as inevitable.

But Diana, new to the cruelty of the human world, is disgusted and she asks what’s wrong with you?

What is wrong with us?

We have accepted casualties. We have accepted pain.

We have excused suffering because we told ourselves long ago that we couldn’t do anything about it.

But Diana?

She does not accept that.

She fights, yes. She’s ferocious and she, unlike Batman, doesn’t have a compulsion against killing.

She was raised by warrior women, I mean come on.

But who does she fight for?

The women and children who did nothing wrong.

The injured, hopeless men fighting a war to end all wars.

The entire movie was lovely because all of Diana’s bewilderment at the way humans live was incredible.

She’s shocked at how dirty London is.

She’s not impressed by sex and she’s not impressed by war.

She thinks sexism is strange.

But she doesn’t like, rag on it, because Diana is literally so above it that she just wryly questions it at times.

Like I don’t care what all the whiny fanboys say.

There’s not an overt feminist message in this movie.

There’s no “men are so weak.”

There’s “men are corruptible” but as we see, Diana sees them as worth saving in the end, if only to fulfill her own ideals…

Which is feminist as fuck, I guess, because Diana doesn’t defend men because it’s her job.

She defends them because it’s her decision. Her morality. Her duty.

But the feminism in the movie comes from the fact that she’s so kind.

She breaks down when realizing that Ares isn’t behind it all, that MEN are the ones who are cruel to one another.

She sees the war and it’s only senseless violence to her.

All of the people she wants to help are the victims, and it’s clear cut, to her, who’s bad and who’s not.

But Chris Pine helps her realize that humans aren’t so clear cut.

And so even though she was disgusted by human actions, she still wanted to help the people in need.

I absolutely adore the scene where she’s charging across a battle field to pave the way to the town.

First off, it was so badass watching her knock aside artillery like it was nothing as the men cowered in the pits.


She didn’t do a Batman, where she looked at the risks vs the benefits vs the needs of the many and the few.

She just charged in and did what she could.

Chris Pine told her she couldn’t do anything except help him with his plan, in order to stop the war and save them indirectly.

But Diana is a true warrior with the heart of a lion, man.

She helped them directly, with no nonsense, no politicizing, no planning, just action.

At the end she says love will save humanity?

That’s the kind of feminism Wonder Woman was embodying.

Wonder Woman wasn’t this lone independent operator who sneers at men who try to involve themselves in her business.

She was helped and supported by men, but it was clear that she was the star, the true hero who brought them and their plans together but also gave them a new hope, a new heart.

They were jaded by helplessness and mortal frustration, forced to fight to stand stills and accept human deaths.

She came and showed them something miraculous and wonderful: her power.

But not used to beat someone’s head in with a fucking sink.

Used to do good.

To fight for her morals, which aren’t corrupted by the human world’s greyness, not yet.

I loved this movie.

I loved this movie so much.

DC finally did good and we can stop pretending suicide squad and Batman vs superman were good.

Wonder Woman is the good DC movie.

Don’t even try to tell me BVS was better than Wonder Woman because if you genuinely believe that, either out of pride and obstinacy from all your bickering with marvel fans or out of delusional worshipping of anything DC, then I think you just like watching people beat people in slow motion and uncomfortably lofty , corporate-cut and stylized plots as interesting as watching a landscape time lapse.

Suicide squad was cut to bits by its editors, BVS suffered from some severe Snyder wanking, and justice league, I don’t know, we’ll see.

But Wonder Woman?

Best DC movie since dark knight.

God bless Patty.

I knew we needed a woman in charge to get the job done.

Now direct all sexist comments and sneering remarks about feminazis destroying your precious super hero genre with their “love” themes to my inbox where they’ll be lovingly deleted.

anonymous asked:

i think one of the reasons why female shepard going through all of ME affects me more than male shepard is bc while men are expected to carry the weight of the world Stoically, women are expected to handle Everything- to handhold and take the blame onto ourselves and, when put in positions of power, act just as stoically. jane's story KILLS me because it's a completely plausible story- she suffers and she suffers and is told she's crazy and when everything's gone to hell she still has to fix it

i’m attached to femshep primarily BECAUSE i feel like her story is just a tad bit more powerful when you portray shepard as a woman. 

like i’ve seen men talk about mass effect and how disrespected the council made them feel. the council brushed shepard off, called them crazy, and then came crawling back when shit went awry. “why didn’t they just believe them in the first place?” they say, “the evidence was there, and they blew shepard off.” 

meanwhile EVERY single woman i’ve talked to about mass effect related to shepard. she was slandered, spit on, and told she was delusional. almost every woman has been called crazy for seeing a problem that ‘wasn’t there’, whether it was a family issue, a societal issue, or even a business issue. and then, in the end, shepard had to clean up the mess anyway. 

and while maleshep’s story rings a little bit cliche– man saves the galaxy through sheer force of will– it feels…. stronger, more original, more powerful as femshep. this woman was backhanded and gaslit so many times, and she still rose up and did the impossible anyway. 

bioware has a fuckton of problems, and i know there were issues with how they treated femsheps character, but overall? 

the mass effect trilogy, when headed by femshep, is honestly one of the most feminist stories i’ve ever seen. 

I’m healing, healing from the broken heart I never understood, from the jump my chest made at the mention of your name, the longing late night prose and grasping at the tiles of my bathroom floor. I’m healing, we spend our entire lives doing so. I’d never admit to loving you, maybe now I can. Maybe now I can read what you inspired without feeling the ‘almosts’ consume me. But my heart still hurts and my eyes still ache I don’t think that’s something you get over. I feel so much and I felt too much for you, you are a love packaged in with pain. Thank you, thank you for being a muse to my suffering and just that, thank you for being my suffering. I felt the depths of my heart and without that i’d be unaware of how far to leap so thank you for taking me to the edge. Now I know i’m able to do so without throwing myself off, that’s always the fear, I love heights a little bit too much. You were my cliff, my god I loved you. I jumped day after day until It broke down all I had left to catch me, still hoping one day it would be you
—  before–you-go 

I hope she dies right away. On second thought, I hope she suffers quite a bit before she dies. I just hope her pathetic screams can’t be heard from my room, because I was thinking about having a lie down, and I need peace and quiet. I was playing golf and I’m quite tired, the last thing I need is someone dying slowly and loudly.

THE LOBSTER (2015) dir. Yorgos Lanthimos

I absolutely HATE people using mental illness as adjectives. No you are not “a little bit OCD” because you like to sometimes straighten up your table settings. No your ex is not “bipolar” because she got mad at you for being an ass. No someone is not a “narcissist” just because they chose to set boundaries and protect themselves. And thinking because you get nervous once a month about public speaking means you have an anxiety disorder is also wrong. First of all, people with these illnesses suffer, A LOT. I have BPD and PTSD and recovering OCD. My OCD used to be so bad I thought people were trying to poison me 24/7. And I still get extreme paranoia every time I get sick. Mental illness is so hard to overcome. In some cases, people are stuck with it for life. When you casually use their illness as an insult or as an adjective for something small, people take it less seriously and don’t understand when someone actually says “I have OCD please don’t do that” and they mean it. Please be understanding that someone around you may be going through something awful. Just be empathetic. And don’t generalize either.

Blast from the Past: Cassandra Cain

Batgirl (2000) starring Cassandra Cain was the first run I became invested in when I started reading comics a few months ago. Having just finished Issue #36, I just need to gush about my favorite girl.

In #36, Batgirl is tracking down this guy known as Alpha, who has planted a nuclear bomb somewhere in Gotham that’s going to go off really soon. Fortunately, Cass finds him fast enough. Unfortunately, Alpha’s suffering from amnesia and doesn’t even remember that he’s an assassin.

Thinking he’s a secret agent on the side of Good, Alpha helps Batgirl as best he can to the location of the bomb. As they get closer, Alpha remembers a bit more…

And Cass tries to keep him away from the bomb.

She doesn’t want him to remember that he’s an assassin - at least, not immediately. Maybe if he spends enough time being good, he’ll choose to stay good after his memory returns.

Of course, she still needs his help with disarming the bomb, so he doesn’t get anymore time. They reach the bomb, Alpha remembers everything, and he pulls a gun on Batgirl. 

She still tries to get through to him.

She’s so dedicated to helping this one man help himself, she takes off her mask. Because if she - daughter of David Cain, trained weapon - can change, so can Alpha.

Look at that guy’s face.

Fortunately for everyone (including Gotham, because you know, this story features nuclear bomb), Alpha has a true change of heart and remote disarms the bomb as he makes his escape.

And when asked about Alpha…

Cassandra lies. To Batman’s face. Let’s be real, he knows she’s lying, she knows he knows she’s lying, but she still lies.

Cassandra believes whole-heartedly that people can change, that people can be better given the opportunity. Given evidence that a villain might reform, she’ll put her money where her mouth is, risking both her civilian ID and her mentor’s ire. She won’t risk other people’s lives (eg she brought him to the bomb knowing it would trigger his memory because nuclear bomb about to go off), but she’ll shoulder personal consequences for a stranger.

Cassandra is just…such a good person. She won’t hesitate to kick ass when necessary, but she still sees people in the villains she fights. It’s a hard worldview to hold onto as a Gotham vigilante, but damn if Cassandra isn’t holding on.

Also, in the issue before this, we get:

Cassandra Cain, Ace Detective

God, I love this girl.

Can’t Remember to Forget You | x

Summary: When you almost die in battle, a distraught Bucky - afraid of what will become of him if he loses you - decides to end things. But what happens when he loses his memory, only to end up falling in love with you all over again?

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Word Count: 2.4k

Warnings: Language

A/N: My baby has reached its end, and I could not be more proud and sad. Thank you to everyone who has stuck along for this journey - I know it was painful, but we’ve arrived. || crtfy masterlist

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Okay. I just want to say what i think about this. I’ve seeing a lot of people hating on hannah because she “ ruined clay’s and Alex, Zach, etc…lifes.”

Clay didn’t deserve to be on the tapes but he MUST be because as Hannah said was her story and if she was going to tell it Clay couldn’t stay outside.
Tony did not deserve the burden that Hannah left him but I also understand Hannah a lot and because she did the things she did. 
Also, we have only some of the reasons. Not all. For which Hannah killed herself, because the list said more.
Besides that, is true that Clay suffered a lot and if Hannah had been clearer with him surely she would have saved.
But Hannah was very hurted and got tired of asking for help from the wrong people and Clay really liked her so I understand why she felt afraid and was embarrassed to tell Clay what was wrong. (Removing the fact that she thought it was only going to ruin him, I think it went beyond that)
She didn’t want to lose him but she losed him anyway because he ended up going.

The point here is not Hannah.
Unfortunately, the point here is Clay. And Tony. And all who could do something but did not.
The point of the story is that, it makes everyone stand up and think ‘I should have listened, I should have said this, I should have insisted’
When Tony said he ignored the tapes until half an hour later because he thought Hannah was a bit dramatic. When Clay got scared and left the room because he did not know how to react. All those are things that they know were wrong. They could have changed everything from having been a bit braver or not to have judged.
So I’m not judging Hannah or thinking that she was wrong for put Clay in the tapes, Clay already suffered from panic and anxiety before the tapes.
This just hit him more and did all that because he suffered those things and Hannah didn’t knew but still, Clay needed to know the truth.
And Tony told to him this several times.
If Clay did not listen to the tapes, there would be no story.
Besides, was needed that clay to be brave to make everyone recognize their mistakes and do justice. If Hannah never made the tapes, what happened to her was going to keep happening.
And that’s what the show want to teach and that’s what Clay tries to prevent.

Yesterday I read that a girl put “I hate Hannah because of her Clay’s going to spend his whole life trying to save everyone”
I think not just Clay, everyone on the tapes are going to think twice before doing things and I think that’s not bad.
Sometimes the truth hurts. Sometimes people prefer to ignore things to do something because it’s very painful to face it or take justice. But sometimes ignoring it is worse. And that’s what Clay learns. That it is necessary to speak when one has to speak and do something, that one has to be courageous.
That’s why Clay also continues passing the tapes at the end to Porter because everyone needs to take responsibility for what they did. ( also that jessica asked him for do it) And if you can not live with it, you try to live to repair it. And If what you did has no way of being fixed you have to live with it in the way you can.
But you can’t live like nothing if you made someone kill himself.
No matter how few intentions you had or how little you did compared to others, you did it, and anyway, none of those who did Hannah things had good intentions.
Not even Zach.
Just Clay.
That’s why, although for clay it was very painful to listen to the tapes and this almost did killed himself ( i cried a lot in that part) I think he had to listen to them and it’s like Tony said “you’re not God, you can’t stop everything”
Clay only feels guilty because he couldn’t save Hannah but none of they could, they all failed even if Clay loved her.
Tony is very sensible about what he said to Clay, because he needed to know about the tapes but he also had to know that he should not be there, that he didn’t do anything wrong, and that he was the only reason Hannah could have had to stay.
But I think guilt sometimes causes people to react.
And even if to Alex made him kill himself, if the tapes did not exist they would all have continued to live their lives quiet while Hannah killed herself.
And Bryce and all those who fucked up his life would never stop hurting others.
What is being said behind the scenes “if Bryce or any of them don’t get a cost for what they did, they will keep doing it over and over again.”
So I think everything had to be in that way. If Clay wasn’t on the tapes, nothing would have happened and no one would have done justice. Jessica would have believed Justin just as long as who knows and when she knew, she would not have the courage to talk about it or face anyone. Justin would never have considered the things he did or would never have had to tell Jessica the truth or face Bryce and break their false friendship. Bryce would never have confessed and would continue raping girls because no one of who are in the tapes faced bryce. They just left it that way. They kept their mouths shut for their own protection.
The only one who did something is Clay. And Alex would have continued to do things to be part of the bryce group and the idiots. Alex would have continued to do lists or who knows other things.
Marcus would have continued to play girls whenever he felt like it.
(And although many believe that zach is innocent and what he did was minimal or not important, I do not think so) maybe what Zach did was minimal compared to others in the tapes. But it matters. In the end, everything matters.
As hannah said is a snowball that is getting bigger.
So Zach stole the only source of happiness that Hannah had at that time (besides he being very childish making this lmao) and not only that, Hannah wrote to him a letter telling him how much she was suffering and that she needed those compliments.
And Zach ignored the letter. Maybe he did not throw it. Maybe he saved it. A point for Zach.
But he ignored her. He did not do anything. And sometimes don’t do anything is worse than doing it. That’s what the series is all about.
Maybe Zach was scared but I refuse to have compassion on him and minimize what he did, because minimizing what Zach did would be minimize the pain of hannah, and I think we’ve all learned that’s a BIG mistake. Minimizing the pain of others is not good. Zach might have a good heart … or not.
I’ve seen the series already three times and I could not help think: why do y'all overlook the scenes where Zach is a bully? LITERALLY. Zach laughs and encourages Bryce to send the picture of hannah from Justin’s phone, Zach makes obscene gestures along with marcus and the others to Hannah in the hallways after Alex’s list, Zach pushes Clay down the hallway and mocks on him. Zach stoled clay’s bike with Alex and Justin. ZACH AS THE OTHERS KEEP SILENCE ON A RAPIST. Zach continued to be friends with this rapist. Was Zach scared to help Hannah? But not scared enough to bullied others?
Maybe Zach wanted to be a marine biologist and maybe he’s allergic to strawberries. But I’m not interested. Because Zach is no different from the rest. And if Clay had not scratched his car, and if he had not faced Zach, maybe Zach would have done worse things in the future, he would have never felt guilty at all.
If Hannah did not make the tapes or did not include Clay in them, maybe Mr. Porter would never know the truth and ignore other people asking for help or advised them wrong again, and Hannah’s story would be repeated.
Maybe Courtney would continue to pretend to be friends with everyone and use people to cover her homosexuality. And Tyler would continue to spy on people and stalking people through his windows and would continue to take photos and violating the privacy of others if Clay had not faced him and the tapes did not exist, because he would never understand what hannah felt if clay did not make him feels it too.
And Ryan would continue stealing things that do not belong to him and leaving others in ridicule for his own arrogance.
And Clay would never know that it is better to say things when you should and when you have the opportunity because you could save a life.
And nobody would know the importance of what they did and said. And sheri would continue to do bad things and leave them that way that could lead to the death of more people and not just Jeff. And there would be more than one Jeff.
The only one different on the tapes is Clay. So clay had to be in the tapes because otherwise, they would all have continued to live and who knows if the tapes had kept going, maybe Bryce would have burned them and no one would ever know the truth more than they. And maybe he would have even looked for Tony to get rid of the copies or who knows.
Because not even Tony was encouraged to do something when he knew the whole truth Even Tony did not know what to do, just Clay.  
Because it’s easy to stand up and say “Hannah is a bitch she ruined everyone’s life with the tapes”
But what about her life? Who would pay anything for ruined Hannah’s life?
Were all the others supposed to keep living peacefully because Hannah was dramatic and crazy according to them? No.
 Hannah and Clay are the ones who didn’t deserve so much pain throughout history. Then maybe a little bit Alex and Jessica.
But everyone else deserved to be on the tapes and deserved to take responsibility for what they did. And I think Hannah was not dramatic. That’s all. Thank you if you read this mess until the end.


Nurse. Healer. Surgeon.
Wife. Mother.
B. A. M. F.

Happy Birthday, Claire Elizabeth Beauchamp Randall Fraser!

“Do you know when I was born?” I asked, looking up. I knew my hair was wild and my eyes staring, and I didn’t care. “On the twentieth of October, in the Year of Our Lord nineteen hundred and eighteen. Do you hear me?” I demanded, for he was blinking at me unmoving, as though paying no attention to a word I said. “I said nineteen eighteen! Nearly two hundred years from now!” […]

He didn’t move for a second. But then he looked down and smiled faintly at me. “Happy Birthday, Sassenach,” he said.

It took me completely by surprise and I just stared stupidly at him for a moment. “What?” I managed at last.

“I said, ‘Happy Birthday.’ It’s the twentieth of October today.

~Outlander, chapter 25, “Though Shalt Not Suffer a Witch to Live”

“How did ye ken what I was doing? Taking stock, as ye say?”

I let him keep hold of the hand, but shifted to set my chin in the center of his chest, where a small depression seemed made for the purpose.

“I always do that, when I have a birthday – though I generally do it the night before. More looking back, I think, reflecting a bit on the year that’s just gone. But I do check things over; I think perhaps everyone does. Just to see if you’re the same person as the day before.”

~The Fiery Cross, chapter 58, “Happy Birthday to You”

Is that my lipstick?

You are downstairs, at the backyard, doing some yoga exercises, a daily routine you’ve gotten yourself used to. Since it is Saturday, you left the bedroom when Harry was still sleeping, but he should be awake by now. You roll your yoga mat and put it under your arm to carry it upstairs along with your bottle of water and a towel. When you get inside the bedroom you see Harry’s already awake, since the bed is empty and the bedsheets are a mess at the bottom of it. You smile to yourself, shaking your head at how he can be so antsy. You put the yoga mat in its place and leave the bottle of water on your bedside table, thinking you’ll bring it downstairs with you after, when you go to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. You turn around and see there’s light coming out of the bathroom and you notice the door isn’t fully closed. It must be Harry, maybe he’s gonna take a shower, you think, so why not join him? You need to shower too after your yoga session. You decide to take a look inside the room through the little gap between the door and the door frame before stepping in and, to your surprise, you find him leaning against the sink counter, looking at himself in the mirror and holding something between the fingers of his right hand, just in front of his face. You cover your mouth, trying to supress any noise as you blink twice, surprised by the image you’ve just seen. You think about your next move and decide you want to make him suffer a little, so you open the door fully and speak out loud as you step in, so he notices you.

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The Discourse of Altean!Lance

Okay so someone (not saying who cuz I’m not that kind of person and I respect people’s opinions) wrote a post about why they didn’t want Lance to be Altean because it would ruin the fact that he’s canon Cuban.

They went further by saying how making Lance Altean would take away or devalue his heritage and stuff.

Well let me just put this out there.

I’ve been a Latina for all my life (duh, that’s kind of how it works) and in ALL my life of watching/reading books and movies, I have never seen a Hispanic character have some cool ability or have some weird plot twist (like being part alien).

Latinx characters are usually comics relief or the dumb dense kid (which they do treat Lance like) or just there just to add a dark skinned person

Name one movie or book where the latinx kid finds a spaceship or gets bitten by a vampire or gets told there a millionaire or dose ANY MAIN CHARACTER THING!!! Dammit I just want us to have a great plottwist!

Latinx characters usually end up dead or shunned or turn evil and that’s the plot twist we get.

I just want a Latinx character to have a cool plot twist, one where there praises or excited for…

I just want Lance to discover something about himself that won’t make him suffer.

I want Lance to still think his family is his and accepted his new family and identity.

I want Lance to experience change and raw emotion and be the center of attention

I want the team to awe at him for a bit instead of shutting him down.

I want someone to be a bit jealous of the Latinx kid.

I want someone to say something like “it doesn’t change who you are”

I want Lance to represent Latinx culture in a positive way.

I want Lance to be himself.

I just want Lance to be happy.



I love the idea of Ritsuki (I call it that, I know no one else does, don’t judge me)! Sorry for not drawing anything really dramatic or emotional, but I think of this couple and what comes to mind is how much Ritsu would probably suffer with Teruki’s fashion sense, since Ritsu actually dresses like a human being in all the extra MP100 art, hahah.

But yeah, I like the idea that maybe they can bond on the basis of “I survived a scary experience with ???”

Teru is just super chill with Mob’s immense powers, but I like to think maybe he lowkey also fears them a bit, he just went through it at an age where he could reconcile Mob’s actual being with the danger his powers hold. Meanwhile Ritsu went through it after getting wounded and at a younger age and I do think his perception of Mob was warped by the time when it happened and the inability of the Kageyamas to properly communicate prior to the first Claw conflict. He’s begun to overcome it, but it’s probably not something he can brush off just like that, and I feel Teru could sympathize with him. So idk, there could be something there for sure, hahah (I’ll ship anything, judge away).

(Also for the longest time I misread your username as Queen of the Aces and I’m not sure why I just overlooked the “f” all this time I’m sorry hahah thanks for always reblogging my trash <3)

After rewatching the new Nygmobblepot meeting, I have some thoughts. I can’t help but think the whole “I’m going to let you live so you can suffer” thing is just a big ruse on Oswald’s part. You can see clearly in his eyes, when Ed agrees and begs not to be frozen, that he still cares. Despite everything, Edward, especially this soft, proto-Edward, is Oswald’s weakness. He’s still in love with the bastard. So what does he do? He places Ed under his protection again. Ed is no longer a threat. He’s actually kind of pathetic and I’ll bet my left nipple that he feels even a little bit of guilt (as he should). By declaring that Edward be “made” to live unfrozen, tortured by his own ailing mind, he’s really just making sure no one is allowed to kill him so Ed can serve out his “punishment.”

Oswald still has his “revenge” and he doesn’t look weak. As far as anyone else is concerned, that’s all it is. Cruel and petty revenge. And I certainly believe that may be part of it, even most of it. But I just can’t deny that this is incredibly convenient.

Has Oswald ever kept anyone alive for revenge before? No. He’s quick to kill. His punishments are lethal. This isn’t the first or even the second time he’s allowed Ed to live and walk away when literally anyone else would be a corpse for less.

It’s ridiculous how much he still loves him.

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*slams head on keyboard* I REALLY HOPE I DON’T LET YOU DOWN PAL

Thoughts from a Mini Thrones-A-Thon

So I just spent the better part of the last hour torturing myself by watching clip after clip of Sansa Stark being treated horribly in Game of Thrones, starting with Joffrey showing her Ned’s head and ending with The-Scene-That-Shall-Not-Be-Named that happened on a certain wedding night in season 5.  It was awful, but there’s a method to my madness, I swear.  I wanted to get a sense of how Sansa’s troubles have changed her and made her perceive and interact with Jon differently from how she may have done had they been reunited after many years in which nothing bad in particular had happened to her.  

Instead, I found myself focusing on the different ways the various men in Sansa’s life treat her, and I’m not just talking about the differences among rape, creepy groping, and sweet hugs and forehead kisses.  I noticed right away how different Jon’s body language and tone of voice are from those of the other men.  From Joffrey to Petyr to Ramsay, and even Tyrion to some extent, all of them step into her personal space and take charge, leaving her with little to no agency or choice.  Joffrey bullies her and has her beaten; Petyr gropes her and verbally strong-arms her; Ramsay, even before he starts raping her, uses his torture and domination of Theon to show Sansa that he, and not she, is the one in charge; and Tyrion, while he treats Sansa very decently, guides her around within the perimeter of the gilded cage in which his family has imprisoned her.  (Granted, she was very young at the time; had she been older, the dynamic between them may have been quite different.)

Jon, however, is the opposite.  From the moment they meet at Castle Black, he (literally) steps back and lets her have the agency she’s determined to recover.  He even lets her approach him when they first hug!  And during both of their disagreements later in the episode, he argues with her from a distance; he doesn’t touch her or step up in her face, so to speak.  She’s actually the one grabbing his hand at the breakfast table and insisting on taking action, rather than the other way around.  And throughout their journey around the North, he respects her and her boundaries, especially her physical boundaries.  Even when they argue, even when he raises his voice, even when he’s annoyed as heck with her, he never lifts a hand to her (not even to within a foot of her); he never grabs her arm; he never tries to force his own opinions on her “because I’m the man”; and he never pulls a Petyr by trying to gaslight or manipulate her.  The one time, as many other Tumblrs have pointed out, when he initiates physical contact with her, it’s to give her a very gentle, non-threatening kiss on the forehead - i.e., positive physical contact, which she hasn’t had with another man since she lost her father. (Just to be clear, I’m talking about positive physical contact in general, not in a sexual context.)  In short, he treats her with utter kindness, gentleness, and respect.

Which brings me to the last part of my theory.  I haven’t seen all of Season 6 yet, but I’ve watched most or all of Sansa’s scenes in it, and I’ve observed that she acts markedly different with Jon from the way she acts with other men.  She puts a mask on around them that she loses when she’s with Jon.  With other men, she’s the shrewd strategist (i.e., council scene with Davos and Tormund), the brittle, wronged ward (i.e., the Mole Town scene with Petyr Baelish - and notice how she shows almost no emotion when she first rides to the battlefield near Winterfell with Baelish and his army in “Battle of the Bastards”), or the commanding Lady of Winterfell (i.e., the disastrous attempts to get Houses Mormont and Glover to aid House Stark).  But with Jon, she loses the mask.  She lets herself do what I did a very long time ago, when my parents and I had left a destructive cult and the therapist they had me see advised them to give me free rein to express the anger I’d been bottling up for years, so I could get it out of my system.  Well, I let loose (verbally, not physically), and so does Sansa.  She yells at Jon; she questions his judgment; she disagrees with and once or twice even ridicules his decisions - because she feels safe enough to do it.  At some level, she understands that he won’t retaliate with violence or gaslighting or putting her back in her cage, as the other men would have done.  She probably has faith as well in his willingness to forgive her for it because he’s done so once already, back at Castle Black when he told her there was “nothing to forgive.”  Yes, she goes a bit overboard at times, but then so did I in my anger, and once I’d gotten it out of my system I began to stabilize again.  And I think we see signs of Sansa’s stabilizing in “The Winds of Winter.”  I don’t mean that she’s mentally unstable, just that she was suffering from the sort of emotional instability that could be expected of anybody who has gone through what she has.  And, unlike many of those people, she has a gentle, kind, loving person waiting for her on the other side.  When she apologizes to Jon (and it’s a true apology, not one such as the men before him have forced or manipulated out of her) and says he is a true Stark to her, I think she’s showing him true gratitude for sticking with her and being so incredibly kind to her.  I think that she values the gentleness and freedom and safety she gets with him far more than she’d value being named Queen of the North, and that’s why I don’t think she’d betray Jon in a million years.  It’s also why I think she’ll fall in love with him once they find out about his parentage and open herself up voluntarily to the vulnerability of sex and marriage.  I don’t think anything short of what Jon offers could ever make her do that again.

Sorry, way too long ramble.

TL;DR Sansa has suffered unbelievable cruelty, manipulation, and other forms of mistreatment throughout Game of Thrones at the hands of men who take away her agency and violate her boundaries.  Jon treats her with kindness and love and never infringes on her agency.  She won’t betray him.  She will eventually fall in love with and even voluntarily marry him. 

exiled-one  asked:

A bit of MORE angst - imagine in a Kuron scenario real Shiro coming back to the team just to learn that Keith sacrificed himself.

It’s too early in the morning for you to hurt me like this (I say as it’s like…noon). I want you to think about what you did and — oh who am I kidding, I love angst.

LISTEN. I’m like 100% sure that in a Kuron scenario where Shiro came back to learn that Keith sacrificed himself, Shiro would crumple in on himself and just — fuck, it would hurt him too much to bear.

I don’t think Shiro would play the blame game on others — he would totally understand why Keith did it and accept that this was Keith’s decision — though I do think there’s a chance he’d feel partially responsible for it. I see him as this long term thinker who absorbs things in this really extensive big picture way. Like he’d probably be thinking all the way back to the past where “If we hadn’t even gotten close, none of this would’ve happened.” BUT he would also recognize the fact that none of them would even be this far in their efforts of winning the war if it weren’t for Keith. I think he’d be really torn up between these two ideas, and more.

But I think ultimately, if he loved Keith romantically, this self-sacrificial aspect of who Keith IS is just one huge thing he knew he signed up for, one that makes him love Keith all the more. And heck, he probably loves that about Keith whether it’s romantic or not in canon. There’s a reason they’re such close friends and I’m sure it’s because they have this silent and mutual understanding of each other and what’s at stake for the universe and the greater good.

If Keith’s sacrificed had succeeded, I think Shiro would do all he can within his power to make sure it was not in vain. Maybe he’d think about Keith every time he looked at the sun, close his eyes, and remember a boy who was so devoted and intense, he burned too brightly for the rest of them to hold onto.

There was a little bit more to the panties ficlet that I got rid of because it was just??? exposition but I’ll let you guys have it:


“Pick whatever you want,” Viktoria said, waving her Black AmEx and smirking before she unleashes a wide-eyed Yuri on the petite section of Tsum’s. Viktoria has spent the last three days coming up behind Yuuri and murmuring, “Isn’t this cute?” while showing Yuri a picture of a Prada or Dolce and Gabbana or Gucci. Yuri keeps scrolling and seeing the four-figure price tag and every time she does, her eyes go unfocused in the middle distance like she’s having just a small crisis. 

Maybe she’ll adjust better to the three-figure price tags in the department store.

Viktoria follows Yuri at a distance, watching her pull dresses off the rack, bite her lip and put them back. After about half an hour of this, Viktoria wants to throttle her. Just a little.

“Birdie,” Viktoria coos, squeezing her from behind. She has already chosen three pairs of jeans and two dresses. Yuuri has a singular headband in her hand. They’ve been through three floors of the five-floor department store, and the top floor is furniture. Viktor plans to go there anyway, because their current sofa is nowhere near big enough for two full-grown women and a dog, but they won’t find any cute clothes for Yuri there. “Go ahead and choose something! Whatever it is, we can afford it. Believe me.” The number of zeros on the check from Viktoria’s last sponsorship was a bit alarming, and she would like nothing more than to spend at least half of those zeros on Yuri.

“Why don’t you just choose something?” Yuri mumbles into Viktoria’s arms, gripping at her hands. “I’m bad at this, and it’s obviously important to you.”

“Because I want you to feel good about yourself,” Viktoria murmurs. “Not because I judge you for your fashion choices. Well, maybe a little, but if you really enjoyed them, I’d suffer. But I don’t think you do.” She sucks a loud kiss onto Yuri’s neck. “Yuri! Let me make you pretty.”

Yuri laughs and says, “Then make me pretty! I’ll be your doll, Vika. Dress me up. I’ll tell you if I hate what you choose. Okay?”

“Really?” Viktoria mumbles, eyes going wide because suddenly her entire brain is inundated with visions of Yuri, smokey-eyed, fulfilling her great potential as the world’s most heartbreakingly gorgeous model. Yuri needs at least six floral A-Line dresses in soft shades of blue and green and grey, she needs three different bathing suits to correlate to how conservative the country they’re in is, she needs jeans that actually fit her, she needs blouses that accentuate her curves instead of hiding them because Viktoria is going to scream if she has to go one more day without seeing Yuuri’s waist, she needs crop tops.

There is a dress from this seasons’ Chanel spring collection that Viktoria needs to see her in or she will physically die.

“Really,” Yuri says, patting Viktoria’s hands. “So, bring me my choices.”

“Yes, yes, yes!” Viktoria scrambles.

Yuri sits on a plush chair in front of the changing rooms while Viktoria brings her outfit after outfit, regal like a queen being made offering, and Viktoria feels alive

As Viktoria is paying, Yuri wanders off to regions unseen and returns with a very, very small bag over her arm. Viktoria tries to see inside it, but Yuri slaps her hand away.

“I’ll show you later,” Yuri says, and slides the bag into her own purse. Viktoria, despite herself, forgets about it.