Today i felt like a thousand pounds were lifted off my shoulders. I finally had someone to talk to. No more bottling up my emotions. Lily wanted to know everything! She really wants us together! After i finished writting yesterday, i got up from the corner of the bathroom where i was sitting and walked to our dorm. Peter was asleep, i think James was too. But Sirius was sitting beside the small window, looking outside. He looked lost. Or confused, i couldn’t tell. Was it because of what he smelled in the potion? Did he regret smelling things that reminded him of me? I slowly walked to my bed, trying not to scare him, but failled. He lighlty jumped and said “Oh Merlin Re, you scared me.” I apologized and walked to my bed. I removed my trousers and shirt to put on my pyjama. I had just put on my soft pyjama bottoms and couldn’t find my shirt. I searched in my well placed bed sheets but couldn’t find it. I turned around and my eyes meet Sirius’ grey eyes. He was staring at my bare back. When he saw that i caught him he coughed and looked around. “Have you seen my white shirt?” I whispered to him. “Huh… no.. sorry..” he responded. His cheeks were red. Sirius Orion Black was blushing. Blushing! I couldn’t help but slowly giggle at how cute he looked. He then pointed underneath my bed and said “there it is!”. I bent down and grabbed it. I put it on and entered my warm bed sheets, putting my head on the soft pillow, facing Sirius. “Are you alright? You look sad?” I asked. “Yeah.. yeah i’m good.. i just have a lot on my mind..” Was I part of the things on his mind? “ You know.. you can talk to me.” I told him. “Thanks Moons.. but i’m alright i just needed to think a bit.” I told him goodnight and turned around. After only a few moment i was asleep. I had a dream where Sirius asked me to marry him. You can laugh all you want, but it was a good dream. He was looking at me with pure love in his eyes. When i woke up this morning, i dressed and went to find Lily who was sitting in the common room. I told her what i saw during potions class. “Remus that’s great! I’m sure he has feelings for you! Awee my two friends are in loveeee!” She was glowing. I told her to quiet down because she was talking really loudly.
Today was the last day of the week. Tommorow me and the boys are going to Hogsmeade with Lily, Mary and Marlene. I’m excited for this.
I’ll write later.
January 13th 1976