Friends or lovers?
Word count: 2815
Warning: this is pure fiction so, don’t ever do such a thing because of a guy!
You admit to Kai that you’re in love with him, but he rejects you so you try to hurt yourself
Your body has been laying on the cold, wet street, maybe for minutes, maybe for hours. Your eyes shot open, but somehow you were too weak to lift your head up, let alone lift your entire body and stand up. It felt like every bone in your body was broken, a loud ringing noise going through your ears and your vision blury but it cleared up as minutes passed. Somehow you finally managed to pull yourself up all the way, wiping your hands on your jeans that were already a bit stained with water on your side from the rain, but when you looked around,it was obvious that the rain didn’t fall in this place. It was sunny and there was no clouds covering the sky, the sun shinding down on you, the heat slightly burning your skin. You looked around a bit closer and the place looked familiar, like you had been there before. Not even minutes had passed and you realized it was Mystic Falls, but there was no one around. As if everyone else had died and you were the only person alive in there. You wrapped your arms around yourself, as if you were protecting yourself and as if you were trying to warm yourself up even though it was probably twenty-nine degrees outside. As you knew every street in Mystic Falls you haven’t been scared of getting lost and knew perfectly where you wanted to go. You walked to Salvatore’s house, letting yourself in. Only at that moment it hit you that Bonnie sent you away and mentioned something about prison worlds. You were just an ordinary witch and she decided to lock you in there for no good reason. You had no magic or any magical powers for that matter, scared od how long you would have to stay in that prison world. Also you were all alone and you weren’t that kinda person. You loved having company but that time it was different. You plopped yourself on the couch, pulling your legs up, bringing them closer to your body as you wrapped your arms around them. You exhaled heavily, feeling completely lost and not even knowing what day it was or to what time had Bonnie sent you. That is until you saw newspapers on the coffee table in front of you. You furrowed your brows and picked up the newspapers, a story about some family being massacred in Portland. You looked closely at the top left corner and read the date on it. May 10th 1994. 1994? She sent you to bloody 1994? You sighed in frustration and threw the papers across the room and ran your fingers roughly through your hair, not feeling worried anymore, but angry. What were you supposed to do in 1994 all alone in this hell hole called prison world? You went to check the rooms if they had any clean clothes for you to change into. A pair of black jeans and a plain white shirt had been placed on the bed as you immediately assumed they belonged to Elena, although you couldn’t understand how all the things were the same in prison world as they were out there in the real world.
Weeks had passed and you felt a bit better, learned to live on your own. Sometimes it was even kind of fun. You had the entire town to yourself, even the food in the store was free. Literally. No paying for it, so prison world had its perks. Even though it had been fun, you always had a feeling that someone has been following you everywhere you go. Like someone’s eyes were focused on you and everything you did everyday. Even when you were in the house, it felt like someone was right then and it was starting to be creepy, even a pinch of fear always went through your body and it made your heart beat slightly faster. Many times you tried to ignore it, but the sounds of something tumbling down weren’t helping.
You went to the store one day and took everything that you needed that day, bringing it home in two big plastic bags, struggling with them as they were really uncomfortable to carry. You opened the front doors and let yourself in, closing the doors with your foot and placed the groceries on a big table in the kitchen. You checked if you took everything that was on your list, making sure you hadn’t forgotten anything. You took out a bag with strawberries in it, but before you could have placed it in the place you wanted, a male voice spoke up, making you drop a bag with strawberries, scattering them all over the kitchen tiles.
‘You know, it’s really unfair how you always got the good stuff and just bring it here.’ He said and walked towards you, coming out of the dark. When he stepped into the kitchen, you saw his face clearly. He was very young, maybe around 20, maybe less. The first thing you noticed were his gorgeous blue eyes that stared into yours deeply, making you weak at the knees.
‘Who are you?’ you managed to spoke up, your voice trembling, which you hadn’t noticed until you finally said something. You bent down to pick up the strawberries, acting normal and as if nothing was happening around you, but fear somehow found it’s way into your body, making your hands shake.
'Manners, I’m Kai. Well, Malachai actually. You might have heard of me or read, whatever. See, everyone knew about me. It’s cool, huh?’ He muttered and picked up one strawberry off the floor, putting it under the water and washed it before placing it into his mouth, biting on it and throwing half of it away. You put the remaining strawberries into a bowl, Kai walking behind you and stopped only a few inches away from you. You swallowed a lump in your throat and sighed quietly, somehow unable to take your eyes off him.
'You mean, cool in a 'I killed half my family because I got bored?’ You muttered, not thinking of possible consequences.
'It wasn’t like that and as far as I know, you know nothing about me or what my life was like so why judge me?’ Kai asked and chuckled, clearly not caring about your opinion on him even though he acted like he did. He placed his hand on the kitchen table and trailed it with his finger, leaving a small mark on the table varnish.
'I’ve read enough to know that you’re a psychopath who deserves to be here.’ You said with a shaky voice and walked to the sink, pouring yourself a glass of fresh and cold water.
'Well then you’re no better than me since you’re also trapped in here and let me tell you, unless you’re a Bennett witch, we’re stuck here. Probably forever.’ He muttered, a huge grin on his face that was driving you insane. You felt attracted to him but at the same time you wanted to punch that grin off his face. You had mixed feelings and that had never happened before.
'Well I’m not a Bennet witch.’ You stated.
'Not a Bennett witch, but, you are a witch.’ He trailed off as you eyes went wide. How did he know that? You hadn’t told him or even showed him that you had magic. In fact, even if you did have magic, you weren’t able to feel it. It felt like it was gone.
'How do you know that?’ You asked him and took a step backwards, trying to get away from him.
'I can feel your magic. And now, you’re going to help me. Well, I’m actually going to help myself because I know you would never do that for me.’ He said abruptly and rushed towards you, grabbing onto your writst as red light started glowing right when his hand was gripping onto your arm, the pain getting stronger with each second.
'Stop! What are you doing?’ You cried out but he didn’t care. He kept going, your legs giving out on you, but a few moments after he finally stopped, making you drop down on the floor.
'What. The hell. Was that?’ You said through gritted teeth, making a pressure on your hand where Kai’s grip was.
'I just siphoned some of your magic.’ He squated down in front of you, moving a lock of hair from your face. 'Awesome, right? I know.’ He chuckled.
'What do you mean siphoned? What does that mean?’
'Well, I just showed you what it means. I absorbed it, ate it, however you want. Now I have magic again but after some time I lose it, but it’s pretty cool now. The feeling of- power. So, thanks for that.’ He booped your nose and smiled again.
'You know, it wouldn’t kill you if you asked nicely the next time, even though I’m not sure that there will be next time.’ You trailed off and got up, shoting a judging look in Kai’s direction, leaving him alone in the kitchen as you walked into your room and closed the doors behind you. Somehow you felt relieved that you weren’t the only person stuck in this prison world, but then again, you knew that you’re going to have to face him again and who knows what his next move would be.
After a year of being stuck in prison world with Kai, you grew to like each other. You got closer and learnt to be friends and to help each other instead of hurting each other. You had found that it had been easire that way and if in way someone accidentally appeared there and tried to hurt you, you would always be there for each other. You had been spending a lot of time together, teasing one another. It’s easy to say that you have found happiness even in an abandoned place like 1994 prison world. As months have passed, you were starting to like Kai more and more each day, finding everything he did amusing. Every time he locked his eyes with yours, your heart skipped a beat or every time he smiled at you or hugged you a bit stronger, your heart started beating faster. You have already admitted to yourself that you had officially fallen in love with Malachai Parker, but you were just afraid to admit your feelings to him.
'Ok, but seriously, we could totally travel all the way to Washington.’ Kai said and chuckled at the same time, making you laugh, as he took a bit of an apple.
'And what would you even do there?’ You asked, his idea sounding extremely hideous.
'Oh, you know, take pictures or something. Although I’m not sure with what. We only have this camera here.’ He stated and lifted the camera up, showing it to you and then placing it back on the kitchen table.
'Well, it’s not like we can post those pictures anywhere for other people to see and don’t forget the lack of internet here.’ You said and got up, brushing your hand accidentally against his arm. He looked down where your hands met for a split second, but quickly shook his head and looked at you again, showing you a big smile.
'Who said that anyone should even see those pictures. It’s just for fun.’ He said and then both of you went silent for some time. The only sound that was echoing through the kitchen was your and Kai’s breathing
'So, do you- have anyone out there?’ He asked you out of nowhere, your eyes quickly finding his as you couldn’t hold back your smile. 'What?’ He chuckled.
'Yeah, my family who’s, not too fond of me.’ You answered.
'No, I mean, like a.. boyfriend or something.’ He said as if he was too embarrassed to ask such a question.
'No. Although, I am in love with someone. I’ve been for a year actually.’ You blurted out and swallowed hard, your heart beating as if it would jump out of your chest any second, afraid of how Kai was goign to react to your words. He just nodded and went silent again, but then after a few seconds he looked back at you, his brows furrowed.
'Wait. Are you- is that me you’re talking about?’ Your hands started to shake and a lump in your throat appeared again, not allowing you to breathe properly. You couldn’t find the words to answer so you just nodded, a small smile shining across your face, but that smile quickly faded away when Kai jumped out of his seat and kicked the chair away from him, making your body jerk a little bit. 'It is. You’re- you’re in love with me?’ He asked you with a sharp voice, looking angrier than ever. That wasn’t the reaction you had always imagined.
'Y-yes.’ You stuttered.
'You can’t be in love with me. I don’t love you, ok?’ He said harshly, his words hurting you more than anything in your life. Not even Bonnie sending you to prison world hurt that much, or that time when Kai siphoned your magic when you and him met for the first time. 'I don’t have time for such a weak and pathetic witch who can’t take care of herself and just cries all the time. I mean, what’s with all the crying?’ He trailed off, by the time he was finished, tears were streaming down your cheeks and you couldn’t hold back your cries anymore. You got up of your chair and ran directly to your room, slamming the doors behind you. You dropped down on the floor on your knees, your face burried in your hands as you let your tears out to drop down on the floor every so often, repeating Kai’s words in your head. You have never imagined it going in that direction. You thought that he would say that he has been in love with you for as long as you have been with him, but none of that happened. It went in the worst possible way, breaking your heart into million pieces. After who knows how long, you somehow managed to pull your body off the floor and walked into the bathroom, opening the cabinets. A couple of bottles filled with pills flashed in front of your eyes as you took one of the shelf and opened the cap, throwing it down on the floor. Your cheeks were stained with tears and you didn’t want to be like that anymore. You wanted to forget everything even for a little bit. You had just lost the only person who was in your life and the only person you had truly loved. You sat down on the floor and kept staring at the pills in your hands.
Loud footsteps were approaching your room, making you turn your head and look into that direction, waiting for a second as Kai appeared in front of your eyes, quickly rushing to your side and knelt beside you, slapping the pills away from your hand.
'What do you think you’re doing? Are you crazy? You can’t do that to me.’ He said, panicking, fear splashing across his face, his voice shaky.
'Why? What do you care? You said I was a pathetic witch that can’t take care of herself.’ You cried out, Kai wiping your tears away with his thumb, his soft palm remained against your cheek.
'I didn’t mean it.’
'Then why did you say it if you didn’t mean it?’ You sounded desperate, looking for any kind of explanation.
’ Because I’m scared. I’ve never felt like this in my life and I’m afraid that- that you’ll leave me or hurt me and I can’t be without you. I just can’t.’ He admitted, his forehead leaned on yours, his hot breath caressing your face.
'I would never leave you, Kai. I love you too much.’ His hands cupped your face and kissed your lips for the first time. You felt as if someone had taken a heavy rock off your chest, finally letting you breathe properly as you pulled away and took a deep breath, feeling relaxed and happy at the same time.
'I love you, ok? I love you. I’ve never felt this before and it’s scaring me. It scares me more than anything out there, but somehow having you right beside me feels just right.’
You couldn’t help but smile at his words because you felt just the same as he did. You had the same feelings and you loved him so much it hurt, but in a good way. You couldn’t imagine your day without him and the only place where you wanted to be for the rest of your life was right beside him. Right beside Malachai Parker.