i think i don't even know anymore my bad

  • Steve: Get away from him, Tony, he isn't who you think he is!
  • Tony: What?
  • Steve: He's been lying to us this whole time -- Bruce Wayne is Batman.
  • Tony: *gasp*
  • Bruce: Tony...
  • Tony: *turns to Bruce* Is that true?
  • Bruce: Tony, I'm--
  • Tony: I TRUSTED you!
  • Bruce: It isn't what you think, let me explain!
  • Tony: Was ANYTHING you said to me even remotely true?
  • Bruce: I wasn't lying when I told you how I feel about you.
  • Tony: Were you ever going to tell me?
  • Bruce: You don't understand, my life--it's too dangerous, I only meant to protect you!
  • Tony: I don't even know who you are anymore.
  • Bruce: Please--
  • Tony: Just... *face crunches up*
  • Bruce: ...
  • Tony: *suddenly starts cackling like a hyena*
  • Bruce: *face-palms*
  • Tony: *gets himself under control* I'm sorry, I blew it. My bad.
  • Bruce: That wasn't even a minute. I'm so disappointed in you right now.
  • Bruce: How is that even--she's standing behind you!
  • Tony: Her face is reflected in the cabinet over there, I held on as long as I could.
  • Clint: What the hell.
  • Steve: You knew? This entire time?
  • Tony: Oh, yeah, he told me that he's Batman AGES ago.
  • Bruce: I did not tell you anything. I saved you from a mugging and you stuck your tongue down my throat.
  • Tony: To be honest, you can only nibble on somebody's jawline so many times before you recognize it anywhere.
  • Clint: WAY too much information, Shellhead.
  • Steve: I'm so done with all of you.

anonymous asked:

Do you also sometimes have a "block" with some ppl?Like all of sudden u just can't talk to 1 of your friends and it might be bc smth they did bc of u feell misstreated or some little tiny thing what changed your point of view on them that you just cannot bring yourself to talk to them? Bc it happens to me quite often and I have to PUSH myself SO hard to go through the block. But mostly I don't even want to but I feel like I have to bc they feel bad and it's i e 10years of friendship but Idc

Oh my god yes. I’m actually experiencing this with one of my friends right now. I just can’t enjoy her company anymore, and honestly, I don’t think I’m going to force myself to. Although she has her good traits, she isn’t right for me: she’s very selfish, she doesn’t think of others, she has a ton of negative energy, and I simply don’t feel she contributes to my growth anymore.

But yes, I know exactly what you mean. When someone hurts me or makes me feel bad in some way, I tend to retreat away from them for a bit, like a break, and then I return to them when I’m ready.

Anyone else?
(please respond in the replies on this post)

anonymous asked:

So I know a lot of autistics who are really proud to be autistic and I think that's great and I wish I could be like that but I just don't know how. I hate all my autistic traits. I hate that I'm bad at conversation, I hate that I take everything people say seriously, I hate that I never know the right thing to say. I talk about my special interests, which no one cares about, too much. I have barely any friends. Everyone I meet thinks I'm weird. I don't know what to do anymore.

I’m gonna let you in on a secret. Even I feel this way sometimes. There’s so many things I really kinda hate about being autistic, especially things like my poor concentration, audio processing issues, needing to be given instructions 2, 3, 4, 5 times before I even begin to be able to remember them. Slow reaction times, poor decision making, sensory integration issues. Having absolutely no idea how to help the people I care about when they need me. I could go on and on.

Now, the thing is, though, that even if I didn’t have any of these issues, even if I wasn’t autistic, I’d still find things to hate about myself. Maybe ‘cause I have depression, maybe ‘cause it’s ingrained in people from a very young age that you have to hate yourself otherwise you’ll never improve, or you’re too full of yourself, or you haven’t done anything to deserve to not hate yourself. And these things are ingrained in neurodivergent kids tenfold. That’s why radical self-love is so important to so many of us.

I can guarantee that every single autistic person, even those of us who are super proud of being autistic, has something they hate about themselves, that they wish they could change or get rid of. That’s the human experience. You could take away every single thing you hate about yourself, and all that would happen is you’d find something else to hate.

It sounds super pessimistic, I know. But you are what you are. You can’t change it. You’re stuck with it, no take-backs. What you can change is how accepting you are of yourself. How much you care about other’s perceptions of you versus how much you care about your own perceptions of yourself. What those perceptions of yourself are. That’s something you can change. But you’ve gotta want to.

-Brother Cat

Brother Cat’s right. Even though we’ll sometimes be proud of who we are, we also go through a lot of self-doubt. I’ve dealt with this more than I’d like in the past three years of being unemployed and feeling like either no one understands me or no one wants to hire autistic people like me. I’ve dealt with it all my life in all the bullying and other crap people have thrown at me all my life (even before I knew I was autistic). It sucks. But remember–it’s not your fault you’re autistic. It makes life incredibly difficult, yes, but that’s why you have to keep persisting.

I know this sounds cheesy and trite, but find those good things about yourself. Find the ways that being autistic can benefit you and the people around you, like (for example) thinking outside the box or catching details that others may have missed and making everyone’s lives that much better as a result. That’s what I do, at least.

- Auntie Cat

anonymous asked:

I haven't had wifi for months and my parents won't listen to me when I say I need it so I can watch and be parts of the community that make me feel safe and loved. My anxiety has been racing during all of this Anti stuff because I want to be a part of it so bad but I can't. Everyone else in my house is allowed the wifi password but I can't have it because 'it makes me think things.' My mental health had decreased so much without watching jack and I just don't know what to do anymore

I’m so sorry for what’s happening to you nonny, I don’t know how I can help you, but I know that even if you think you’re not part of the community because you can’t watch Jack, to me you still belong here.
You are one of us until you decide not to be anymore :)
I’m sending hugs your way nonny, and I hope your situation will get better soon - Mod Lily

anonymous asked:

I've been called a sin(ner) for supporting LGBTQ+ rights by my dad. None of my family knows I'm Bisexual due to my older sister thinking it was a phase when I told her. Only my lesbian friend and a trusted teacher at my school know what I am and I don't know what to do because home doesn't feel like home anymore. They're sending me mixed signals and my family is Christian and my grandparents are VERY religious. I want it all to end, really.... What do I do? I'm just a sinner, right?

for one, youre not a sinner. you being bi and a wlw isnt a bad thing nor is it sinful.

two, i know for a fact that you can make it through this. even if youre out to only two people, it wont be like this forever, and you’ll soon be able to be away from your house. you’ll be able to exist as yourself without stress and confusion. 

in the meantime, hang in there, anon

36K feels like 0 people nowadays

Tumblr used to be a really fun place for me to express myself and share my love for BTS. These days, I’ve been pretty inactive and a lot of reasons contribute to that. The main reason is just that a lot of the fandom has become so judging and mean in the last year or two. I’m not saying that growth isn’t good for the group. In terms of sharing opinions with others though, it’s not as easy anymore, and I always feel like I will be hated on for having a different or even negative opinion of something. I know things will never go back to the way they were during debut days (and I don’t want them to), but it’s kind of sad seeing all of these people send nasty messages to other bloggers, etc. Not saying that ARMYs are bad - just harder to filter out the good now that the fan base is a lot larger.

anonymous asked:

I just spent 10 minutes thinking of what to say to convey how much you and your blog are so wholesome and great but I can't so I hope you know that your blog and you are so amazing that I can't even put it into words and you deserve the world and to have a great day/night/week/month/year/forever and yeah I could go on but it'll be too long so <3 bye I lov u and ur blog :D

i considered not replying to keep this inside my inbox forever but you need to know that i re-read it like a dozen times and it made me smile every time!!!!! you deserve everything you said and more, i promise. i really don’t know how to thank you either??? you’re wonderful and this is so sweet and im not even that good to have someone as nice as you telling me all this but !!!! it made me feel so loved and i want you to know that you are too because i do love you with all my heart and i wish you all the good things in the world;;;

I could talk to you for hours and never get tired of hearing your voice or your laugh, never get tired of watching you smile. I really don’t think I could ever get tired of you. I don’t.
—  5:15pm thoughts// but could you get tired of me
I Don't Love You Anymore
Real Friends
I Don't Love You Anymore

I can’t believe you’ve got the nerve to say you love me
Then you left me for dead
I don’t love you anymore
I hope you’re happy since I don’t know you anymore
You were a part of me
And now you’re just nothing but a memory

No matter how bad I want you in my bed
I know that you found somebody else to be there for you
I’ll keep sleeping sideways in my empty bed
To fill up the lonely space
I’m just a kid with too much lonely space

Now I’m just like the pictures that you take
I’m nothing but something that once was
Like colors that fade away in the sunlight
They’re nothing special like they used to be
They’re gone and they’re never coming back
No, they’re never coming back
I’m gone and I’m never coming back

No matter how bad I want you in my bed
I know that you found somebody else to be there for you
I’ll keep sleeping sideways in my empty bed
To fill up the lonely space
I’m just a kid with too much lonely space

I woke up today and realized that what we had is dead
I’m just a pile of lifeless bones to you
I’ve spent too many years thinking about somebody
That doesn’t even think about me

Thinking about somebody that doesn’t even think about me
Thinking about somebody That doesn’t even think about…

No matter how bad I want you in my bed
I know that you found somebody else to be there for you
I’ll keep sleeping sideways in my empty bed
To fill up the lonely space
I’m just a kid with too much lonely space

I can feel myself getting bad again. Even the good days are hard, then the hard days are impossible. I just don’t know what to do anymore.

Any calories at all scare the life out of me. I know what an average female my age is suppose to be taking in, but I can’t do it. I hit 300 and I’m ashamed, then I hit 500 and I panic. All I can think about it my weight. I keep seeing images of photos I’ve been tagged in and I want to sob at how large I am.  

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  • harlow: okay, so i am kind of concerned about the hitlist
  • harlow: (not like i wouldn't have been so far)
  • harlow: i don't think i would be next
  • harlow: but is there really nothing that can be done about this?? like legal actions etc
  • harlow: i mean, there have been two - or three dead bodies so far?? i don't even know anymore
  • harlow: but yeah, i can't really sleep, i feel like i just can't close my eyes or something bad happens
My take on how Riley realizes her feelings for Farkle.
  • <p> <b><p></b> <b><p></b> <b><p></b> <b><p></b> <b><p></b> <b></b> It takes place after GM Goodbye.<p/><b>Location:</b> The Matthew's Living Room.<p/><b></b> Riley's family and friends are having a party to celebrate the good news. Everyone is dancing. Riley sits on the bench at the kitchen table. She doesn't look happy. She stares at the ground. Morgan goes to her.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Riley, why aren't you celebrating?<p/><b>Riley:</b> (looks up to Morgan) I just don't feel like celebrating at the moment.<p/><b></b> Morgan sits next to her.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Do you want to talk about it?<p/><b>Riley:</b> I don't want to even think about it, let alone talk about it.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> If you change your mind, I'll be over there. You can always talk to me.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Thank you, aunt Morgan.<p/><b></b> Riley gives her a hug. Morgan walks back to the rest of the group. Riley walks to her room. Farkle stops dancing with Smackle and follows Riley.<p/><b>Location:</b> Riley's bedroom.<p/><b></b> Riley is sitting at the bay window. Tears are falling on her cheeks. Farkle walks in.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Riley, are you ok?<p/><b></b> Riley wipes her face.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Yeah.<p/><b></b> Farkle walks to the bay window and sits next to Riley.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Why are you crying?<p/><b>Riley:</b> I'm just emotional.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> It's more than that. I know you Riley. We don't lie to each other. You can talk to me about anything.<p/><b></b> Farkle puts his arm around her. She rests her head on his shoulder.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I know. But I need to figure it out on my own.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> I'm always here for you. Now and forever.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Thank, Farkle. Same goes for me. But I need some time to think about things alone.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> Ok.<p/><b></b> They both stand up and hug each other.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I love you Farkle.<p/><b>Farkle:</b> And I love you.<p/><b></b> Farkle walks to the door. Riley sits down and stares at Farkle as he is leaving. Farkle looks back and smiles at Riley. Riley smiles back. Farkle leaves. Riley starts to have tears falling down. She hears a knock on her door. She wipes her face again.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Come in.<p/><b></b> Morgan walks in.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Farkle sent me to check on you. He's worried about you.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I told him I'm fine.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> But obviously you're not. I'm not leaving until you tell me what's wrong.<p/><b>Riley:</b> You're gonna think I'm a bad person.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> I would never think that about you. You don't have a bad bone in your body.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Well, I think I'm a bad person.<p/><b></b> Morgan hugs Riley.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Just tell me what's wrong.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I don't know where to start.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Just start talking.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Lately I've been confused alot. I've been confused for a while.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Confused about what?<p/><b>Riley:</b> My feelings for Lucas. My feelings for Farkle.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Ok.<p/><b>Riley:</b> When Lucas and I started to date, I was really happy. He's my first love. But it feels like something is missing. A spark or something. I can't explain it. I love him, I do. But there are times when I feel that he doesn't get me. In the past when I was going through things, he wouldn't even noticed or he'll be the last one to find out. I don't think he does it on purpose, but it hurts. Sometimes I feel we are better off as friends than a couple.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> How does Farkle fit in all of this?<p/><b></b> Riley starts walking back and forth.<p/><b>Riley:</b> That's what I'm confused about. Farkle has always been my best friend. He's always just been there. I knew him as the goofy kid who had a crush on me and Maya. He wanted to take over the world. He used to wear turtlenecks. I missed those turtlenecks. He promised me and Maya that he would love us equally. He kept his promise. But there are moments when I see him in a different way and it terrifies me.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Why does it terrify you?<p/><b>Riley:</b> Because I think I could be falling in love with him. I look back on all the memories that we have together and I don't know why I couldn't see it sooner. We have great talks. We can talk for hours. We read each other really well. He puts my happiness above his. We both can tell when the other is lying. Today is the perfect example. He knew I wasn't ok, when I told him I was. There are so many things I wished I seen sooner. If I knew how I felt sooner, I wouldn't be in this mess. I'm in a relationship with Lucas. Farkle's in a relationship with Smackle. I don't want to hurt Lucas or Smackle. Plus, Farkle doesn't feel the same way. I can't let anyone know. I have to keep it to myself.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Can't you tell Maya?<p/><b>Riley:</b> No. I was the one who started the whole triangle dilemma. If I told her about my feelings for Farkle, not only did I take Lucas from her, but also Farkle.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> That's not what happened and you know it. Maya's your best friend. She would understand that your feelings changed. Sometimes what you feel for one person can just change. It's nobody's fault. It just happens. It's how you handle it, that makes you the person you are.<p/><b>Riley:</b> But I'm supposed to stay with Lucas. He's my first love. My mom was my dad's first love and they're still together.<p/><b>Morgan:</b> Riley, I love you but you're acting stupid.<p/><b>Riley:</b> What?<p/><b>Morgan:</b> You're not your parents. Just because they fell in love at a young age, and stay together for the majority of their life, doesn't mean you have to do the same. You are your own person. You had feelings for Lucas since you were 12. You can't expect to have the same exact feelings three years later. I'm not saying he's not the one for you, only you can decide that. But it doesn't have to be now. You're only 15.<p/><b>Riley:</b> What should I do?<p/><b>Morgan:</b> In my opinion, I think you should break up with him, if you have feelings for another guy. It's not fair to him, you or even Farkle if you stay with him. You need to be honest with Lucas.<p/><b>Riley:</b> What if he doesn't want to be my friend anymore?<p/><b>Morgan:</b> It might be awkward at first, but I think eventually you two will go back to being friends. Just think about what I said. It's not right to stay with him when you love Farkle. You're not a bad person. I love you.<p/><b>Riley:</b> I love you too.<p/><b></b> Morgan hugs Riley and leaves. Riley sits at the bay window. Lucas walks in.<p/><b>Lucas:</b> There you are.<p/><b>Riley:</b> Hi, Lucas.<p/><b>Lucas:</b> Are you ok?<p/><b>Riley:</b> I don't know. But we need to talk.<p/><b></b> The end.<p/></p><p/></p><p/></p><p/></p><p/></p><p/></p>
1989 starter sentences
  • "Welcome to New York."
  • "Everybody here was someone else before."
  • "But you know you wouldn't change anything."
  • "I could show you incredible things."
  • "Oh my God, who is she?"
  • "I can make the bad guys good for a weekend."
  • "Darling, I'm a nightmare dressed as a daydream."
  • "You can tell me when it's over if the high was worth the pain."
  • "They'll tell you I'm insane."
  • "All you had to do was stay."
  • "You've got that James Dean daydream look in your eyes."
  • "I've heard you been out and about with some other girl."
  • "Are we in the clear yet?"
  • "I go on too many dates, but I can't make them stay."
  • "There's a fella over there with some hella good hair."
  • "I miss you too much to be mad anymore."
  • "I wish you were right here, right now."
  • "You always knew how to push my buttons."
  • "Say you'll see me again, even if it's just in your wildest dreams."
  • "He's so bad but he does it so well."
  • "No one has to know what we do."
  • "You know, it used to be mad love."
  • "We've got problems, and I don't think we can solve them."
  • "Band-Aids don't fix bullet holes."
  • "You said sorry just for show."
  • "I want you for worse or for better."
  • "That's how you get the girl."
  • "This love is bad."
  • "I never dreamed of this."
  • "They are the hunters, we are the foxes."
  • "I know places we won't be found."
  • "I think I'm finally clean."
  • "I punched a hole in the roof."
  • "10 months sober, I must admit."

anonymous asked:

I have a really big problem with people being convinced that I'm gay or bi or pan or whatever because of the way I dress and present myself (I have a pixie cut, I like to wear boyish type clothing, I don't shave my legs even though girls are "supposed to") even though I've always been straight and attracted to men. Is it bad to say it's degrading on me because so many peopple think I'm gay even though I'm straight I just don't know how to go about this anymore :(

I think 2 things here:

1) it’s bad that anyone is assuming anything about your identity without listening to you, given that it is your identity.

2) methinks there’s a smidge of internalized fear there, given how hard this is hitting you. That’s okay. It really is. Just try to be aware why this hurts you so much and work on it.

General rule for the world (tumblr you too I see u assuming things about Kristen Stewart all the goddamn time): if someone has not told you anything about their identity: sexuality, gender, etc., then assume nothing about it. People are more than their various identifiers, so get to know who they are and let them share the parts of themselves at their own pace.

It can be exhausting having people mis-identify you all the time.

  • what she says: I'm fine.
  • what she means: What does it even mean to be human anymore? What if I'm a robot that thinks it's human, or a dead body combined with a robot and then injected with my consciousness. I see my hands in front of me but so did Carl and he was not what he thought he was. So help me, could I have saved Amy or was it better to end her life there? I don't even know whose bad or good anymore. Is it ok to trust Catherine? Maybe she is just leading us both to our doom. What are these things chasing me and am I about to become one of them? Is this life even real or am I on the ark?

anonymous asked:

assalamualaikum, i feel like i have sinned very badly. I was talking to a boy in class over Skype and he convinced me to show my body to him. He is a non muslim so he thinks its okay but I have actually shown my body to him a lot of times over Skype. I haven't prayed in so long and now I feel like I can't even be muslim anymore because of this. please help me I'm only 16 i don't know where to start

Wa alykum as-salaam,

Please pray. Just repent. You made a mistake. A bad one, but it’s just a mistake. Learn from it, and realize that God loves you and that you’re not defined by this.

A sin doesn’t define you. What you do next, does.

Just remember this Hadith Qudsi, okay?

“God said: ‘Even if your sins reached up to the clouds in the sky, I would forgive you.’" [Sunan al-Tirmdhi ]

Please begin with prayer, repent, and make sure you never talk him again.

naminamuju  asked:

Mama, I need help, I don't like to bother you, but I really don't know what to do :c The thing is, approximately 3 or 4 years ago, my best friend and I got along pretty well and talked to each other almost everyday, etc. But last year he started talking less and less and now we don't talk anymore, and I haven't got over it, and I miss him a lot, and I sometimes think its my fault because I don't even say hi, but I don't know what to do, and can't seem to forget him. Any advice, mama? :(

Unfortunately sometimes that happens as awful as it is. Especially when you’re young you develop fast and often into different directions. That’s not bad, but it’s hurtful nonetheless. I’ve been through that too, in case that makes it better for you. Also please don’t think it’s your fault, because stuff like this happens. There’s not necessarily someone at fault. Unfortunately I don’t know what to do about it except for trying to work with it, find new friends and “get over it” (I hate that term but it would probably fit best here). I’m sorry that there’s not much more I can do. I hope you’ll be fine.