I Love You (Young Remus Lupin x reader-- SMUT)
A/N: okay i love this one sO MUCH like honestly i’m so happy with this one ahhhhhh
Requested by anon: Your Remus smut was sooooo good! I’ve read it like three times haha. Could you write one where the reader and Remus have sex for the first time together? Like maybe they’re not necessarily virgins (or they could be its up to you) but it’s their first time with someone they actually love?
word count: 1986 (shit man that’s rlly long)
warnings: SMUT, unprotected sex, swearing
You and Remus have been dating for quite a few months now. He’s your best friend. You can’t imagine life without him. He’s the greatest thing that’s ever happened to you. Yet, you haven’t found the courage to tell him that. Neither of you have actually said the words yet. You aren’t even sure why. You both know it’s true. You love each other. It’s that simple.
It’s mid-May. The weather has been so nice. The two of you have spent many an afternoon laying in the grass, reading, talking, just enjoying the atmosphere around you. He was lying in between your legs, the back of his head resting on your torso. You’re just looking at the sky, the clouds. “Y/N?” He breaks the comfortable silence you had been sharing. You look down at him and he looks up.
“Yes?” You smile, booping his nose with your index finger.
He chuckles. “I love that we do this type of thing. I love being around you. I love how we don’t need words.” He turns forward again, settling his head back on your stomach and turning his attention to the sky. “I just love you.”
You smirk, laying your head down too. “I love you too, Remus.” You bury your hands in his hair and continue your wonderful day.
Dinner time rolls along and you head inside, fingers interlocked. You both just have these goofy smiles on your faces. You just keep glancing at each other and bursting into grins and giggling all throughout the meal.
“Alright, you two are being more obnoxious than usual.” Sirius narrows his eyes at you.
James nods. “Yeah. What’s going on?”
You snicker, looking down at your food. It’s almost like you two have some sort of inside joke. “Nothing.” Remus shrugs as he places his hand on your upper thigh. You twitch slightly at the unforeseen contact. He goes to move his hand, thinking you’re uncomfortable, but you place yours on top of it. You kinda like it, honestly.
After you eat, you both go up to your dorm. Your lips were aching for his. You try not to, but you practically slam your door shut, immediately attaching your mouth to Remus’s, somewhat roughly. He pulls away, slightly shocked. “What’s that all about?” He chuckles.
“Want you.” You pout, burying your hands in his hair and leaning your forehead against his.
He gives you a bit of a concerned look. “Love, have you ever..?” He trails off awkwardly, but you know what he’s referring to.
You nod. “Once.” You pull away from him slightly, removing your fingers from his locks. “It was quite uneventful, though. Realized shortly after that I didn’t even like the guy very much. He was a bit of a wanker.” You bite your lip.
He laughs. “Okay. I- uh..” He seems flustered as he rubs the back of his neck.
You can’t help but frown. “Re, you’ve done- it- before, haven’t you?” You take his hand in your own.
“Of course I have.” He tucks a strand of hair behind your ear. “I just- I get a bit nervous. I don’t wanna hurt you, especially if you’re not very experienced. I wanna make it special a-and-”
You press your lips to his gently. “You’ll be perfect.” You assure him.
He cracks a small grin before nodding. “So, do you wanna- should I-” He cuts himself off. “I’m gonna take off my shirt now, and kiss you.” He says, quite blatantly, making you laugh.
“Sounds good to me.”
He undoes the buttons on his shirt and slips it off before attacking your lips with his own. He makes his way to your jawline, then down your neck slowly, searching for your sweet spot. You gasp slightly as he sucks on your skin. He smiles a bit, knowing he’s found it and makes sure to leave a bit of a mark. Now, the collar of your shirt has constricted all access to the rest of your torso. “Sweetheart, I- er- your shirt.” He babbles.
You nod, suddenly feeling a little self conscious. He’s gonna see you naked. You try to undo the buttons on your shirt. He watches you and how shaky your hands are. “C'mere.” He says quietly as he lays his hands on top of yours. “We don’t have to do this, Y/N.” He tells you, kissing your forehead gently.
You look up at him, peering back down at you. He’s so goddamn cute. “I want to. I do.” You reply. “I love you, Rem.” You lean up and kiss his cheek.
“I love you, too.” He brushes his thumb across the back of your hand a few times, just watching your face, searching for hesitation. “Let’s get this off for you, then.” He offers. You smile and move your hands, letting him undress you instead. Your shirt falls to the floor after a moment. Remus just stands there ogling at you.
“Are you gonna say something or just stand there?” You break the silence, almost ready to cross your arms over your chest.
He shakes his head slightly, snapping himself out of his daze. “Sorry.” He clears his throat. “You’re absolutely beautiful, Y/N.” His hand meets your waist. You can’t help but blush. He plants his lips to your collarbone, working his way down your body, between your breasts, then to your waistline. He glances up at you and you nod, causing him to slide your skirt down, leaving you in just your bra and knickers. He lightly runs his fingers over your clothed clit, causing you to jolt and bite your lip. He chuckles. “Feel good, my sweet girl?” He rubs a bit harder. “Getting so wet for me.”
“Re, p-please.” You stutter.
He smirks. “Alright, let’s get you on the bed, yeah? Want my love to be comfortable.”
Your knees are shaking as he leads you to your mattress. He lays you down on your back. He hovers over you, fingers now pushing past the fabric of your underwear, stroking you. You’re practically trembling underneath him. Your breath catches as he slides a finger between your soaking folds. He pumps into you a few times before adding a second digit. Your hands are caught up in your bedsheets. “F-fuck, Rem. Please.” You whimper, your mind going insane. You can’t seem to find the words. Your hips buck up into his hand.
“Faster? You want that?” He hums. You nod vigorously, feeling yourself get closer as his pace quickens. You bring one hand to the back of his head, pulling it down to yours to kiss him roughly. You pull away and let out a moan, indicating that you’ve finished. Remus watches you in content. “Was that good for you? D'you like that? Squeezing my fingers so tight, love.” He kisses your forehead as you nod, unable to find your voice.
As you come down from your high, Remus removes his hand from you and licks your remnants off it, with a grin. He lays down next to you, pulling you to his chest. You catch your breath, and rest your head on his chest. He shifts slightly and you feel his hard on from within his jeans. “I’m sorry,” You sit up slightly to look at him. “we’ll- we can-”
“What?” He looks up at you, confused.
“You. You’re still- I didn’t even-” You’re still trying to find breath, your voice still feels foreign in your throat, words are escaping you.
He takes your arm and gently pulls you back down into him. He kisses your forehead, once again. “It’s okay, darling. It’s fine.” He rubs circles into your back.
You pull away, though. “No, no. I’m not just gonna- No. Remus, you have to-” You’re a stuttering mess.
He chuckles slightly at your flustered state. “Okay. Just, give yourself a moment. Please.” He says in a low voice. You lay yourself back down. You can feel his chest vibrate beneath you.
After a minute or two, you deem yourself ready for him. You lift your head up to pout at him, reaching a hand down to graze his bulge.
“Alright.” He closes his eyes and nods once, sits up, then kneels above you. “You sure you’re good now?”
“Yes.” You prop yourself up and capture his lips with yours.
He pulls away. “Okay, then.” He smirks, biting your lip. “Let’s get rid of this.” He reaches behind you and unclasps your bra. “Lay back now, angel.” He coos, placing a hand on your chest and urging you back onto the mattress. He scatters kisses around your breasts, massaging them with his hands. You let out a quiet moan. He lets his tongue drag down your stomach, causing your back to arch like crazy, until he’s met with the familiar material of your panties, placing one last kiss on your covered heat.
“Stop teasing, Moony.” You growl. He snickers and peels off your underwear, exceedingly slowly, hoping to get a rise out of you. It does of course. “If you don’t cut it out-”
“Fine, I’m done.” He laughs and flings your undergarment on the floor along with the rest of your clothes. He undoes his pants, pulls them down hesitantly. “And you’re 100 percent sure you want to do this?” He gives you a look.
“Yes.” You confirm. “I want you to feel good.”
He sighs slightly, before unburdening himself of his boxers. You feel yourself tense up at the size of it. He notices your concern and positions himself over you. “Hey, s'alright, love. Easy. Can you relax for me?” He hums. You nod, swallowing the lump in your throat and urge your body to calm itself. He pushes into you, careful not to move too fast. It hurts, but not nearly as much as it did the first time you’d ever done it. He stops his motions. “See? That’s it. That’s all it is.” He says, brushing hair out of your face and kissing your nose. “You alright?” He cups your cheek.
“Mhmm.” You respond with a smile, slightly leaning into his hand.
His expression lightens. “Doing so good for me. So good, m'sweet girl. Mm, so tight.” He presses his lips to yours softly and just barely swipes his tongue across your lip. “We’ll start slow, yeah?” He murmurs.
He pulls out of you and goes back in, still causing a stinging pain to go through your abdomen. You wrap a fist around his bicep. “S'okay, love.” He practically whispers.
After a few easy thrusts, the pain starts fading into pleasure. You let out a moan and wrap your legs around his waist, allowing him to go deeper. “A little higher, there.” He adjusts himself in your vice. “There we are, my good girl. Love you, so much.” He dips down to kiss you again, before propelling back into you at a completely different angle.
You yelp in pleasure. “There! Right there!”
He grins and pounds you, hitting the spot again, and again, and again. “That good?” He grunts. “Mm, I’m close. Feels so- Fuck, Y/N!” He steadies his movements for a moment, his hand moving to your clit. You gasp, your fingernails digging into Remus’s back.
“One more!” You plead breathlessly.
And that’s it. That one last thrust sends both of you over the edge. You shut your eyes tightly. He collapses, a panting wreck. Your chest heaves beneath his. Both of you take a moment to regather yourselves before he pulls out of you.
He rolls off of you and you open your eyes to see him motioning you toward him. “C'mere.” His voice is just above a whisper. You clamber on top of him, now, a hand on your lower back, rising and falling with his chest as he regains his breath. He presses kisses to your shoulder. “Did so good for me. My sweet, sweet girl. Love you, so much.”