i swear i tried!

i fucking hate myself and how i smile or laugh at wrong fucking times

someone dies, i smile i cant physically help it

something shitty happens to me, i might smile or laugh

someone calls me out, i might smirk

i cant fucking help it physically or mentally no mi not happy no it isnt genuine it isnt helpable i am not fucking capable of controlling it i fucking hate my brain

someone just died and while telling my mom the bad news i swear to God i tried so fucking hard to crontorl it but i smield and she said whats so funny why are you smilng and i said nothing but i cant help it even my therapist said its okay nd itd normal but i hate myself for it and i wish i coudl fix it but i cant i fucking hate mself

so i’ve seen things here and there about other adults as campers and,,,,,, i have no self control

i didn’t do david and jasper for obvious reasons, and daniel bc he’s just a recolor (i did jen bc gwen didn’t have a camper design)

y'know what i was thinking, that the “leave the math to pidge” line makes a lot sense in the context of the episode bc few scenes before that pidge was talking all sciency and we see that keith immediately turned to lance for an explanation about what she had just said (and we know lance explains inside jokes and stuff like that to keith before he even asks now) but he was clueless as keith was. it almost felt like keith was saying “you and i both saw we’re not that good at math before, leave that to pidge and don’t worry”
which makes it even more friendly teasing than it was before to me