i still miss matt all the time


I have… left the TARDIS. It’s happened, I’ve filmed my last scenes. It was emotional. I think I’m in denial, I really don’t feel like I’ve left because I see Peter all the time, and I still see Matt all the time so I kind of believe I still have a key to the TARDIS. Which I might do have because I stole it. It’s been my life for the three-four years. 
                     It’s been really special

I kind of expected this, but hearing this just makes my heart break so much more… fuck.. I didn’t know Daniel well, nor do I know the Cyndago guys well in general, since I just started watching them, but Daniel was my favorite guy, and he always made me smile every time I watched him. This breaks my heart so much, and here I am, crying while I sketched this, shaking, and I still am shaking, and shit.. I can’t believe this is happening. I’m so so sorry for Mark, Matt, Ryan and his family and other friends that are now heartbroken over this, but he’s an angel. he made so many people smile, and that’s probably what his goal was. We all are going to miss him so much, I already do, and we all love him so damn much as well. I don’t know what else to say except rest in peace Daniel. You damn well deserve it.

Battle Born. It’s been 3 years. I can’t believe this. This album has a special place in my heart because it changed my life so much. I met wonderful people, I saw The Killers for the first time and met them few times during this tour. The songs helped me through some hard times (pointing at Be Still). 

We had freaking leather jacket, uncle pants, sold out star shirt, impossible to catch anywhere right now. We also had inclement weather, Dave missing the AMEX recording session, Mr. Brightside sequel, Lollapalooza Brasil sick concert, Matt, switch with Marty’s!, Bronnie moments, beautiful covers live, WEMBLEY FUCKING WEMBLEY, GARAGE GIG, Vince t-shirt, golden bolts, chorizo, idk, neon?, barrier walks, whip albums, I’m smiling because I’m happy, Brandon throwing his keyboard into space and STOP FUCKING FIGHTING.

I could say way more but all I want to really say is Thank you for this album. I love you.

Hello, old friend.

And here we are, you and me, on the last page. By the time you read these words, Rory and I will be long gone. So know that we lived well, and were very happy. And above all else, know that we will love you always.

Sometimes I do worry about you, though. I think once we’re gone, you won’t be coming back here for a while. And you might be alone, which you should never be. Don’t be alone, Doctor. And do one more thing for me?

There’s a little girl waiting in a garden. She’s going to wait a long while, so she’s going to need a lot of hope. Go to her. Tell her a story. Tell her that, if she’s patient, the days are coming that she’ll never forget.

Tell her she’ll go to sea and fight pirates. She’ll fall in love with a man who’ll wait two thousand years to keep her safe. Tell her she’ll give hope to the greatest painter who ever lived, and save a whale in outer space.

Tell her, this is the story of Amelia Pond.

And this is how it ends.


Afterword by Amelia WIlliams (a.k.a. Amy Pond’s final letter to The Doctor).

I still miss Amy and Rory as companions. I don’t mind Clara, but the Ponds were the companions when I started watching Doctor Who so when they left it was so sad for me.