i still dont think this is acceptable

foreveralone4200  asked:

I can't get over my ex and I've been trying I'm giving other people a chance its been almost 4 months now and I can't think of anyone else and I dont know what to do I miss her so but she's happier with her girlfriend and I dont know what to do I wish I could get her back

it’s been 5 months since my ex broke up with me and tbh i’m still not completely over it. and i probably never will be, i loved them with everything in me and that isn’t something you can just easily move on from, you know? i think accepting and acknowledging that they are always going to have a piece of your heart is important because pretending that they aren’’t or that you don’t care about them when you do just makes it harder on you. 

one of my best friends keeps telling me that this is a loss and that i am in mourning and that i have to let myself grieve. some days are going to be better than others and some days are going to be awful, but they keep reminding me that i am making progress whether i realize it or not. and i think that’s really admirable advice because it’s true. you just lost someone important to you, it’s not realistic to move on from that right away. you have to let yourself be sad and let yourself miss them and don’t worry too much about getting better because it will happen when you least expect it. seriously, i know it sounds like bull but one day i woke up and i realized that i hadn’t been sad over my ex in a while and it was just like /whoa/ because i truly did not think i was ever going to be okay.

tbh i still struggle and i’m not at peace with my breakup all of the time and i still love them, i always will i think, and i probably won’t ever one hundred percent be over them. and that’s okay. one day i won’t be hurting as badly as i am now and one day you won’t be either. but until that day comes, we both just need to mourn and grieve and feel. 

Okay so I’ve seen a lot of reincarnation hc’s for Les Amis, especially Grantaire. So let’s focus on himm for now. 

We have Grantaire the Cynic, who finally thinks he’s dont being reincarnated after being athelstan, and Louis XIV, and then Grantaire. He thinks he’s done because for once he died holdig hands with the person he loves. 

And then - And then he wakes up again and he is so frustrated, he’s i a place with weird technology, and everything is so different from what he was used to, everything is so advanced. And he is horrified; will it ever stop?! 

But then he notices how much more accepting people are. There’s still tons upon tons of problems, but: You can be more open, with way less judgement. In most countries you’re even allowed to marry someone of the same gender. People who aren’t the gender they were assigned to at birth have safer options to live the life that feels right for them.

They’re still scared of being open about who they are, but the world is so much more accepting now. And Grantaire find himself less cynical than he used to be.

He finds himselfgetting an art degree instead of giving up on everything. He stays away from alcohol, he finds himself not needing it to cope anymore. 

He finds himself joining a group of students who wish to make the world even better, and he finds himself wanting to help them achieve their goal. And there’s this person there who reminds him so much of the charming young man who Grantaire once loved, and he finds himself falling for this person. 

And this person has fallen for him too.

And they get together and they’re both so happy.

Little does Grantaire know that this man he has fallen for, fell for the former cynic because R reminded him so much of a happier version of the cynic this man once knew.

anonymous asked:

if jk and jm really were dating, could u give us ur opinion on how/when u think they romantically started getting involved?? I never really here people talking about their friendship before and the lead up

If jikook are really dating (key word: if!!), I have a few theories about them and when or how they got together. I think it’s one of those things I imagine a lot because of how much I ship them. But I’ll share my most realistic theories (once again stressing this post is for fun, not saying jikook are actually real). This is really long (it also took me hours bc tumblr crashed 2 times when making it smh). 

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Just saw the video that evoked the “Hurt Bae” hashtag on twitter and I’m so heartbroken. No good woman deserves that kind of treatment, no one at all does.

I know some have been through this, when a guy doesn’t appreciate you or see your worth, downplays you because he can’t control his wandering eyes etc. just wanted to say this, some people need to be reminded of these things:

1. Becareful of those who claim flirting is in ‘their nature’ their just childish and don’t want to grow up acting like thirsty Highschool kids.

2. If he disrespects other women, no matter how nice he may be treating you know, expect that nasty behavior to pop up when he’s with you.

3. Please do not date someone who emphasizes a lot on your looks, some use the cause of 'constructive criticism’ to cover their sick fetishes of wanting a woman with a certain body type (this is a prevalent point but I’ll still add it)

4. If he’s hung up over an ex, don’t waste your time.

5. If he does something you don’t like, say it, don’t keep it to yourself, from his reaction/response you’ll know if he’s worth it.

6. Know your worth, you have to accept that as much as you like him if you know damn well he is toxic, DONT THINK YOU CAN CHANGE HIM. This has happened too many times to people, so learn to accept if they can’t/won’t change.

7. If he has cheated once, he will do it again. #DontWasteYourTimeTryingToChangeADirtBag. And I don’t mean just cheating on you but if he has cheated on an ex, that’s a serious red flag.

You deserve better.

I’ve been tired for years,
I dont remember the last day I felt alive
I dont remember the last day I in braced

I wish I had killed myself three years ago when I had the time,
now I’m too busy holding my own hand,
now I’m too busy chugging heartbreak to feel full

I’m lost but I know exactly where I should be,
I’ve learned to accept that I need to wait,
I’ve learned to accept being loved will never be easy for me

I’ve been calling for help,
but I dont think I want it,
even if I get better I’ll still have to tell others all I’ve gone through,
and I’d rather waste away

—  I’m done lying//kayla
Samuel L Jackson criticises casting of black British actors in American films

ok i kiiiiinda see his point especially with african american historical figures… but the thing is all british actors are highly desirable in america because they are better trained. not saying americans don’t have drama schools but there is a difference between them and the big, prestigious drama schools in london, in fairness. british actors tend to be classically trained and highly versatile in both stage and screen. so they are in very high demand over there.

second point to say is that black british actors tend to go to america because there is not enough roles for them here, and that’s very sad. it is still extremely difficult for people like idris elba, john boyega and chiwetel ejiofor (who are amazing, we can all agree on that) to have longlasting careers in britain alone. so that’s something that definitely needs fixing over here. but i am hesitant to fully agree with SLJ since i rep our black british actors so hard and think they need recognition and opportunities to showcase their talent too. i don’t want them to be out of a job :(

what does everyone else think?

EDIT (IMPORTANT): i wrote the below post in response to one of the many comments taking issue with the idea that african american actors are ‘poorly trained’. i feel utterly mortified thinking that people think that’s what people thought i was saying here. having read many of the comments i now see that i came across as a right dick in my first post so please read below and comment if there is anything else in the post you take an issue with!!! not going to delete it though because i think sometimes on this website it’s good to show that you make mistakes and you have blind spots even when you think you are pretty aware of representation issues and so on, but that you can learn and develop your thinking by accepting your mistakes and taking on board what people FROM THAT COMMUNITY tell you. appreciate all the comments on this post and please keep them coming!!

“looking back at my first post i think it was both badly worded (the general thrust was meant to be about why americans might prefer british actors but i accept that it didn’t come across clearly) and also had a hefty dose of snootiness about british drama institutions that were both uncritical and unnecessary. i fully accept that and would like to apologise as i can’t in any sense claim deep knowledge of american versus british drama schools so really that was just quite silly and i regret that.

i hope that you can see though that this uncritical fawning of british drama education was in no way meant to be a put down of african american actors as being ‘poorly trained’, and somehow not deserving of the roles black british actors get. i can’t stress this enough because it could not be further from my thinking and i would hate if my original comments came across as a snide towards african american actors, or as me trying to pit the two against each other. that was not my intention at all.

i absolutely, 100% accept that many, many black actors in america are higly trained yet still not getting the recognition and roles they deserve. black british actors have the same problem and they both have to navigate through a racist industry. however i dont think black british actors need to get the slack for a racist film industry and not pursue roles in the biggest film industry in the world. american casting directors love the brits for whatever reason and i dont see why black british actors shouldn’t go for those roles if they can. that was my only point – in no way was it meant as a comment about ‘poorly trained’ african-american actors. i do not think at all, hell no.

if anything, my thinking stems primarily from a desire to fight the corner of black, working class actors like john boyega and idris elba who work fucking hard and are amazing and deserve every role they can get. this is in contrast to the utterly vile trend of extremely posh and privileged white, male actors like benedict fuckface making it big in america for literally no apparent reason, above actually talented actors like idris and john who are frustrated by lack of opportunities for people of colour in their home country. i hope this has clarified my viewpoint a bit as i would feel utterly mortified if what people took from my post was a put down of black american actors.”


That moment when u are about to sleep,so u close ur eyes slowly and sleep takes u away gently,then u wake up brutally thinking
Wtf this doesnt make sense at all ?!!
Its been 5 years and I still dont get it,what fucking logic is that?
Its just something I cant accept,Its so unfair !
Don’t you feel the same way too ?

anonymous asked:

I watched the Eat Jin vlive last night and I'm still wondering if Jungkook making the banana pop up was a boner joke

i think you know the answer deep down u just dont want to accept


#remember at some point Lex was genuinely Clark’s best friend #he was someone who Clark went to for advice #he was someone who Clark constantly defended despite his last name “Luthor” #they both saved each other multiple times #and fuck i’m seeing some parallels in Supergirl #they both start of as friends #Lena and Lex at some point just wanted their parents to love and accept them #they both betrayed their parents in the end #point is i think we’re all hoping Lena doesnt turn bad #and we’re probably thinking “eh, she betrayed CADMUS” #she’s good #but look at lex #he still ended up as superman’s arch nemesis #AND I SWEAR TO RAO IF THEY TURN LENA BAD #i’ll cry

this isn’t even necessarily about shipping ok?

vriska makes me sad. she genuinely wants to be a hero, and thats really sad, because arguably, she’s too far gone to ever be the normal and beloved hero she wants to be deep down. all she can really do at this point is salvage what’s left of her psyche and try to heal. i genuinely believe that behind all the mindfang and all the abuse that she has the soul of a true hero. and while that could be true about idk gamzee or whatever(who also has gone through a lot of corruption n shit) is that

vriska externally shows a desire to be good.

in an alternate reality that was frankly its own batch of unhealthy fixation, she actually was happy with herself. yes it was extremely conditional and a bit selfish, but the vriska we know can’t really even comprehend being at that point, that’s not for her.

maybe she can if she saves everyone and destroys the most powerful being in the universe. then she can think about being happy.

when at the end of the day, she’s going to keep creating these roadblocks for herself. there’s always going to be another lord english. another thing to devote herself wholly to with no relent.

she’s been raised so heavily on purpose, and on violence, all her life she’s existed needing to devote all her willpower to something or else she would die.

first it was killing to feed her lusus(yes, you are culled if you kill your lusus, starvation counts, at the very least i’d imagine her lusus had her believe she’d be culled if she didn’t feed her) then it was the game, climbing the levels becoming a god defeating the black king. then it was jack noir, and now its lord english,

she’s always had to struggle, fight, and kill for anything she’s ever gotten. or else she dies. and while she was on the right side of it this time, and ending up being exactly what everyone needed. she never learned how to exist without a goal, and how to accept life unconditionally. and i dont think she can ever truly be happy until she can accept that there’s no more final boss to beat. no more danger.

(vriska) was bad because she flipped from one extreme to another. there’s a certain responsibility one has being so powerful, or at least a responsibility when one possesses the only weapon capable of killing the most powerful and evil being in the universe, to do good with it, and (vriska) rejected that, and she never really even changed. she still lived conditionally, for only ONE thing, and that was meenah. maybe once (vriska) met up with terezi she helped her finally get to that point of accepting what she has without needing to devote herself to extremes. but as we’ve seen her, (vriska) is incredibly unhealthy and not the ideal end goal. different side of the same coin. 

it’s just sad. i want her to be able to live freely without danger, but i don’t know if she ever can.

this isn’t to excuse any of her actions by the way, i hate that i have to actually add this, because you’re all going to assume i mean “yeah vriska would have died if she didn’t kill those innocent people so its not a problem” when thats not at all what im saying. she has the heart of a good person and it makes me sad knowing that she may never actually be good. psychologically or morally.

i honestly cant think of carrie fisher in the past tense at all no matter how hard i try. i never say “she WAS so amazing” i always say “she IS so amazing” because i just havent accepted that carrie is GONE and i dont think i ever will. so i’m always gonna refer to her as if shes still alive and here with us, because its too hard to think otherwise

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i have recently just started accepting the fact that i may indeed be an ace. however until now, i feel like i dont have the right to declare it (just yet). because honestly i still fear the possibility that i will actually be sexually attracted to someone/anyone one day. and you know what problem it might cause? judgemental people talking behind my back because ‘supposedly’, sexuality is something that is permanent, not temporary. i fear the backstabs, the critical eyes, the possibility of being the center of a party anecdote. but you know what i’ve learned recently? screw what other people think! im only 18 for crying out loud and it’s alright that i still haven’t completely figured myself out. the mere fact that i am trying is more than enough! as a matter of fact, i should actually be proud of myself for finally embracing my sexuality. i know it’s still a lot of work but trust me, this little step already means a tad to me. i feel like im one step closer to finding my genuine self and not just the person or the facade that i wanted you all to see. and i dont know, there’s nothing more i could ask for.

So today I am 6 months on t!
I really cant believe its already been that long and I am so thankful for everybody who supported me and made this possible. Within the last 6 months I learned to accept my body. Sure I still have a lot of dysphoria, but I know that the changes are happening and will keep happening. I cant put into words what this means to me. I dont think I will really feel free within my body until I get topsurgery, but I do feel so much more comfortable right know than I did half a year ago.

Dear little one, we made it <3

anonymous asked:

In an infinite universe, us humans are finite right? If we compare something finite, no matter how "big" it seems to us, to infinite its almost nothing. So we can accept that in the universe humans existence percentage(that sounds weird I know) is 0%. We dont exist. We are nothing.

I think this is drifting out of the realm of math and into philosophy, but anyway… Three points: 

- Infinity isn’t a number, so saying something is a percentage of infinity doesn’t really make sense. 

- By that reasoning nothing exists, which is… fine, I guess, but kind of subverts our obvious experience of existing. 

- If the odds of winning the lottery are a million to 1, someone’s still going to win the lottery. So I could argue that if the odds of existing are [infinitely big] to 1, something still exists. (Yes, infinity is still a lot bigger than a million, but they’re equally hard for me to imagine.) 

Or at least that’s what I’m telling myself to avert an existential crisis.