i still don't believe it i'm trying to believe it


Would you trade this war to make it so? It is some kind of hell to be forced to choose one irreplaceable thing over another.

13luecloud  asked:

Hi! (LOL, I'm so awkward. 😂) I have a question: do you have tips on writing striking first (and last) sentences? Whenever I try to start writing I always stress a lot on the first sentences (and the last ones) because I believe readers remember them the most. Often I back down from writing because I don't believe the first sentence is good enough. I've been reading stories and books and observed how they do it to help myself to do better, but I still end up with the same problem.

Writing Striking First and Last Lines

Listen up, and listen well: the first sentence of your first draft is allowed to be terrible.  It is not a reflection on your skills as a writer, and certainly not any indication of how the rest of your draft will be. Beginnings are stressful as hell, but you shouldn’t let it get in your way. 

Some people have first sentence block, some people have first page block. They start writing, can’t think of anything good enough, and end up staring at a blank document for hours, waiting for inspiration to strike and a perfect first sentence to appear on the screen. My advice? Don’t wait for inspiration, you’ll never get anything done that way. 

Let’s look at the function of first and last lines. I’ll use examples from one of my favourite books, Uprooted by Naomi Novik.

First Line:

The first sentence needs to pose a “why” question to the reader. 

Our Dragon doesn’t eat the girls he takes, no matter what stories they tell outside our valley.” 

So, this tells me that the protagonist lives in a valley with a somewhat notorious Dragon. This Dragon takes girls away, but doesn’t eat them. 

I’m immediately left wondering, who is this Dragon and why doesn’t he eat girls? Why does he take girls if not to eat them? 

I’m left curious, but not confused. I want to know why, and so I’m going to read on. This is an excellent first sentence that does its job of hooking the reader. 

Last Line (!!Spoiler Warning!!)

The last sentence needs to answer that question, or if there is a sequel, hint at a new question. 

““Come and meet my mother,” I said. I reached out and took his arm.”

 These are the last two sentences, but they’re short and work well together. 

Throughout the novel, we’re presented with many questions. The initial “Who is the Dragon?” quickly develops to a “Who will Dragon become to our protagonist?” and this last line answers it. (Of course, there are questions of the “Will the world be saved?” variety in the middle).

This ending is also a reflection of the beginning. The story starts when the Dragon unexpectedly takes our seemingly unremarkable protagonist into his world. The story ends with our protagonist taking the Dragon into hers. We’ve come to full circle, and this last line gives us closure.

When we first start writing our story, we often only have a vague idea of the questions that we’ll be presenting to our readers. These questions become clearer as we write on.  

And remember, people often start their story in the wrong place. They start it too early, or maybe too late. They’re looking for a perfect first line in the wrong place. Imagine that, the first line that you spent days and days on being scrapped in revisions. 

The best advice I can give is this: if the first sentence/paragraph/page is holding you back, then start at the second. Put it aside, start writing your your story at a place you feel comfortable and confident, orient yourself and then come back later. The most important thing to do is write.

Don’t stress it, give it a go, and you may find that somewhere down the line, a perfect first line may come to you. 


What you are going through, how you are feeling, where you are currently at is all temporary. The only thing that can change your fortune is the qadr of Allah, and you have to believe in His timing, you have to have faith. I believe that everything will come together at the right time. I believe that if you do good, Allah will reward you with good. So I try my best to be sincere, to be helpful, to be kind and to be patient. I hope that in return I will be rewarded for my struggles. But still I can’t help but worry sometimes.

anonymous asked:

this might sound odd but s4 has just convinced my straight male friend that johnlock is real. he literally went from believing Sherlock loved Irene in asib to shouting, "the coffin is for john" in tfp. what a transformation! and he says he finally understood it all because of the subtext in tab and s4. also, he doesn't mind it that much. (and he wouldn't be the kind of person to watch a show openly advertised as gay.) so, i think maybe moftiss's softly, softly approach is the right one. :)

Hey Nonny!

Thanks for sharing your story! Yeah, like this is what I don’t understand… the subtext is SO BLATANT in the series that it’s MAKING CONVERTS OUT OF PEOPLE, to the point that even the nonsensical episode has people questioning “WTF? It should have been John???”.

And the Slowly Slowly approach ABSOLUTELY IS the right one…. If they actually would have followed through with it. I still have a bit of hope that there is a fourth episode to explain themselves, but when you give an episode an air of finality to it and never address the ONE THING YOU HAVE BEEN BUILDING FOR 12 EPISODES and instead create the OPPOSITE of what you were trying to do, then it’s absolutely the wrong thing to do.

anonymous asked:

First of all I'd like to state that I'm not trying to offend you and start something, I'm genuinely curious (and frustrated). Here's my question. Why do you believe in God? I was raised Catholic but eventually left the church. I tried to convince myself that God does not exist. But I couldn't. Still I have a little bit of faith in me. I don't know why. So why do you believe in God? What convinces you? What makes you think that God exists?

Hello there, 

That’s absolutely not offensive at all, don’t worry. I love talking about Jesus!

So, super long story short, I wasn’t born or raised a Christian. I thought, maybe there could be a God, but I didn’t bother to get to know Him or find our who He was. Then, when I was in high school, my mother became severely mentally ill. It was hell, both for us and for her. Being at home was the worst place to be. We didn’t see her for weeks because she would stay held up in her room, and when we did see her, it was only to so she could get her rage out. I had 2 younger siblings at the time who desperately needed a mother, but didn’t have one. 

So, I’m 15, trying to parent my two younger siblings. My Dad is in shambles, he does not know what to do. Mum tries to stab him one or twice. And life sucks. So, I decide to drown it out - my substance of choice? Alcohol. I start drinking any chance I get. I find a group of equally depressed and manic friends and we all just feed off each others negativity. I become a worthless sister, a worthless daughter, a worthless friend. I’m drinking all the time. I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate everything. I feel like I have absolutely nobody in the world. 

And somehow I end up at a conference, and Jesus meets me there and He absolutely showers me in love. He tells me that He will be there for me when my parents can’t be. That He cares for me and He loves me. He loves me just as I am. And He never asked me to change. He never said I had to be better before He could love me. He just loved me. Exactly as I was. And I gave my life to Him, because there was nobody else that could look after it and there was nothing more real in the world but Him. 

And if I look at my life now, my Mum is a fierce woman of God. She’s not ill anymore. She’s an absolute trooper. I love her so much. Now, I can’t even stand the taste of alcohol. I’m so far from who I used to be it’s insane. Now, I am surrounded by wonderful friends and I have a family I never had before. Now, I know who I am because of who He says I am and I don’t hate myself anymore. 

Jesus is so incredibly real, friend. This is only a taste of the things He has done in my life. This is only the tip of the iceberg of the things I’ve seen Him do. Things, otherwise impossible. Things that could only have been done through Him. Friend, I could give you reason after reason, and documentary after documentary that proves He exists. I could tell you a million stories about supernatural healing that proves He exists. I could tell you of so many people who have literally experienced the touch of God first hand in their lives that proves He exists. But for now I’ll tell you this, I don’t just think, I KNOW without a doubt that Jesus is real and alive because I am standing here today. And that would have otherwise been impossible.

He is so real. I am more convinced of Him than I am of anything else in this world. 

man can you believe oswald proposed to edward on live television

anonymous asked:

man, i can't believe they'd forget about the music in castlevania of all series?? a lot of people don't appreciate all the work that goes into soundtracks though so they were probably like 'who fucking cares'. you think they'd still at least... try or something though. i'm shook dude.

Yeah I know. I think people really do underestimate how much music does for a movie or game. Film is made up of two sensory experiences, sight and hearing. If what you’re hearing sucks the overall quality suffers a lot, some times literally by 50% as I believe it does here.

There was no effort put in by the composer at all. People are sticking up for Trevor Morris saying Konami probably didn’t let them use their music, that’s fine. But Michiru Yamane can’t use Castlevania music for Bloodstained and she’s done an incredible job. Sure, Yamane composed for Symphony of the Night so it’s unfair to compare him to her, but Ippo Yamada has never worked on a Castlevania game and his music for Bloodstained is spot on.

Mana from Moi Dix Mois and Malice Mizer doesn’t write videogame music and he could do a better job in his sleep. Not everyone is as talented as Michiru Yamane, etc, but when your work isn’t even to the fan standard on youtube, I don’t know what to say. Saying Morris has done even a passable job is disrespectful to fan composers on youtube who do a better job than he did for no pay at all. 

As someone that can actually write music (and writes about film music semi-professionally shameless plug), I’m going out on a limb here, but I would be really surprised if even Morris believes in this soundtrack. The soundtrack mostly relies on extremely sustained synth strings and an arpeggiated low synth pulse. What’s the great thing about that? Well if you have to get something done quickly, you can set the parameters on your arpeggiator, and with a key change here and there you can knock out cues for a 3 minute scene in no time. What you’re hearing is the audio equivalent of someone who did their homework the night before it was due. 

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Day 1: Favourite Episode: SAVE HENRY

anonymous asked:

I've confided in about 4 people I trust in telling them I'm almost 100% sure I'm ace and 2 of them don't think I really am and ask the typical dumb questions like "well how do you know if you've never had sex?" And the other 2 I think don't really believe it's real but still try to support me. So basically I don't really have anyone I know who I truly believe accept my asexuality and understands it as just how I am.

This is an old ask, but I’m really sorry that happened to you. You deserve better friends and the support you need.

anonymous asked:

Thoughts on Regina being able to TLK Henry in season 1. Not to say that Emma didn't have the right-to be honest I'm still eh about that, but eh. I think she could have- she wouldn't have believed she could have, but I think she could. You don't just turn feelings off, and she loves him sooooo much, and before he got the book he must have loved her to.

I think she didn’t believe in herself enough to try.  She was afraid of failure because she didn’t think he loved her and that failure would have destroyed her.

Remember she’d tried to True Love Kiss before and had it fail (not that it could have worked but the psychology is there).

anonymous asked:

It's been obvious from the beginning that they aren't targeting his old fan base with this solo launch and I understand that that is a hard pill to swallow for a lot of people. I'm still very uncertain if they'll manage to reach the intended target audience. I don't think H is interesting enough for them and his music is a bit too bland.

100% agree! I see a lot of people trying to justify Harry’s current behavior because they just don’t want to believe that the Harry they have imagined would do this.

But let’s face it, he is. He is knowingly, willingly and actively acting this way because he believes this is what’s needed to be a solo star. I personally think he’s been given some bad advice. It is not working so hopefully they change their approach for the album promo. I have many friends that are Harry fans and they are genuinely hurt. I certainly do not like to see that.

Also if his team thinks they’re going to attract a new audience just because everyone is calling him an icon they are mistaken. His work will need to speak for it self.

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The fight that broke the fandom
  • Scott: You killed Donovan?
  • Stiles: He was gonna kill my dad. What was I supposed to do? Just let him?
  • Scott: You weren't supposed to do this. None of us are.
  • Stiles: You think I had a choice?!
  • Scott: ...There's always a choice.
  • Stiles: Yeah? Well, I can't do what you can, Scott! I know you wouldn't have done it! You probably would've just figured something out, right?
  • Scott: I'd try.
  • Stiles: Yeah, because YOU'RE SCOTT MCCALL, YOU'RE THE TRUE ALPHA! Well, guess what, all of us can't be true alphas! Some of us have to make mistakes! Some of us have to get our hands a little bloody sometimes- SOME OF US ARE HUMAN.
  • Scott: So, you had to kill him?
  • Stiles: Scott, he was gonna kill my dad!
  • Scott: ... The way... that it happened. There's a point where it's not self defense anymore...
  • Stiles: What're you even talking about? I didn't have a choice, Scott! ...You don't even believe me, do you?
  • Scott: ... I want to.
  • Stiles: Okay, great, so, believe me, then. Scott, say you believe me. Say it. Say you believe me.
  • Scott: Stiles, we can't kill people that we're trying to save.
  • Stiles: Say you believe me.
  • Scott: We can't kill people! You believe that?
  • Stiles: What do I do about this? What do you want me to do, okay? Scott, just tell me how to fix this, alright? What do you want me to do?!
  • Scott: Don't worry about Malia, or Lydia. We'll find them. Maybe, uh... maybe you should talk to your dad.
Evanescence {Sentence Starters}
  • "You don't remember me, but I remember you."
  • "And in the end, I guess I had to fall."
  • "So, I don't know what's real and what's not!"
  • "I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone."
  • "Hello, hello, remember me?"
  • "Call my name and save me from the dark."
  • "Must be exhausting to lose your own game."
  • "Here in the darkness, I know myself."
  • "I can't go on living this way, and I can't go back the way I came."
  • "You don't have to lay your life down."
  • "Save me from the nothing I've become."
  • "I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you."
  • "Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself!"
  • "You never call me when you're sober."
  • "Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone."
  • "There's just too much that time cannot erase."
  • "I have to be with you to live, to breathe."
  • "Still can't find what keeps me here."
  • "Have you forgotten all I know and all we had?"
  • "I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears."
  • "Wanna see you try to take a swing at me."
  • "I've been believing in something so distant, as if I was human."
  • "Why are you trying to make fun of me?"
  • "Now that I know what I'm without, you can't just leave me!"
  • "You believed in me, but I'm broken."
  • "I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming."
  • "One day we won't feel this pain anymore."
  • "I wish that you would just leave!"
  • "All of my hate cannot be bound."
  • "I've been sleeping a thousand years, it seems."
  • "I'm just as scared as you!"
  • "But, I didn't mean to hurt you."
  • "Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams."
  • "I have nothing left, and all I feel is this cruel wanting."

anonymous asked:

You're handling that anon well and with dignity. I can't believe people still send anonymous playground bullying messages to people who don't deserve it to try and ... start something between two blogs? It's stupid. (I'm a different anon, it's probably a bit hypocritical but i don't want to make myself a target.)

Thank you 🙏🏻

I can’t believe it either. Whoever they are they could be doing something useful and fulfilling with their time, but instead they’re sending childish playground comments to someone they don’t know, either trying to stir up trouble with someone else that person doesn’t know or because they get kick out of it, whilst being too cowardly to identify themselves or to say what they wanted to say in the first place. It’s getting old now.