i still am doing that

donotdonuts  asked:

i need the full resolution pics of all your art please...I CANT wait to stare into them for all eternity

EYYYYYY LOOOK WHAT I AM TRYING TO COMPILE DUNNO IF SOMEONE’S INTERESTED BUT I’M PROBABLY GOING TO STILL DO IT FOR MYSELF

i’m excited. i want to ACTUALLY HOLD THEM IN MY HANDS HAHAHAHHA

Favorite Fics I’ve Written

I was tagged by @alocalband​ - yay, thanks for thinking of me, sis! - to list my top five favorite fics I’ve written.  (spoiler alert: I also cheated.)

[1] Apathy, Apathy, You’ll be the Death of Me [Stiles/Derek]

Everyone’s apathetic. Except Derek. Derek cares so much.

or

Boyd is a pragmatic posthumous reappropriater, Erica spends her free time impersonating Meursault and playing Fruit Ninja, Isaac would like everyone to settle down already, Stiles is bi, Scott’s actually holding it together pretty well for a week-old Alpha with a two pack problem, Jackson’s a lizard, Lydia accessorizes, Allison’s playing on a rival (semi-murderous) team and Derek just keeps showing up.

I’ve honestly never had more fun writing anything, because I’ve never been more laid back about writing anything.  I wrote the first scene with Erica and Scott with every intention of getting it down on paper to ultimately forget about it, but I was annoyed with that continuing pattern.  I ended up giving myself the weekend to finish it, letting myself summarize or cannibalize action scenes I didn’t want to write, leave dialogue untagged and whatever else I decided I wanted/didn’t want to do.  I’ve never gotten more enjoyment out of anything I’ve written or written anything more me than this.

[2] There’s Monsters at Home [Stiles/Derek]

“How did you get past the wards?” Derek had put them up, with Peter’s grudging assistance, after the Alpha pack had made themselves at home a few times too many.

The guy pulled a face. “You mean the wards a five-year-old girl with the mental ability of a goldfish could deconstruct?” He blinked wide eyes at Derek. “Gee, I don’t know. It’s bound to go down as one of life’s great mysteries.”

Derek despised him.

Of course.  The one I’m known for, the one I’m beyond proud of, and the one that is literally all my likes in a blender - emissary Stiles, tattooed Stiles, failwolf Derek, pack building, demon Derek, slow burn, etc.  There’s probably not a more perfect fic for me out in the world because I wrote exactly what I would want to find more than anything in this fandom.  The response to it has just been the cherry on top because I honestly wouldn’t have cared when it came to this one, it exists for me, it’s double-stuff full of all my favorite tropes, my favorite Sterek dynamic, my favorite pack incarnation, my favorite everything so it was already a win the second it was finished.

[3] Our Puddle is Deceptively Deep [Stiles/Derek]

They start out in a literal tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G.

I would swear I didn’t like this fic that much but I go back and reread it, like, a lot.  I don’t know why really.  It’s not even so much the plot of it as much as it is the beats, or the flow, or some indefinable something that keeps drawing me back to it.  I do know that the unromantic romanticism in it is exactly my relationship flavor.  I recently got the review (on a different story) that someone was disappointed the boys didn’t say I love you to each other and I just think that’s so… narrow-minded.  The entire 40k fic existed for no other reason than to show how perfect and well-matched and easy their relationship is and you’re not happy because they don’t say three words?  I’ll never get that.  Show, don’t tell and all that, especially as it seems a lot of authors can only do one or the other.  And in this one I actually had them both say the words (one of the very few I do) and Derek’s built them up in his head and thinks of it as this huge, altering thing and Stiles’ response is just: Duh, you say that every day, you say it when you cut out coupons for the cereal I like, you know?  Because to me those are the parts that stick out when two people love each other, what they do for each other, and this fic is a lot of that.

[4] (Rode Hard) Put Away Wet [Stiles/Derek] / Bite to Break Skin [Stiles/Derek]

As it turns out, the etiquette for joining a werewolf pack is a little bit more involved than saying, “Whatever, fine, I’m in.” There’s, like, stupid werewolf rules. Because someone put stupid werewolves in charge.


Then there was Derek. Without a home or a family or Twizzlers.

Stiles can’t just let that stand, not when he has nightmares, energy to burn and an overwhelming desire to do something good.

I know, that’s two.  But I like them for the exact same reason, so, together they go!  They both have the same canon-vibe to me and it really feels as though I plucked them right out of the show and set them on these new timelines and I like that a lot.

[5] These Woods are Lovely, Dark and Deep [Chris/Stiles, Derek & Stiles]

His real father was a hero who’d died in the line of fire, pun and all intended there. Chris was a hunter who had trouble sticking to a Code that could fit on the back of a matchbook.

I wrote this one for an exchange fest, and a more poorly matched pair I’ve probably never seen.  At the point of writing this fic, I had never written a pair aside from Sterek, though I offered Stiles/penis thinking I could finally get around to something new.  The sign-ups listed a minimum of ten pairings the other person might want - they were nice enough to provide me with fifteen.  Thirteen of them not only didn’t work, but I could barely stomach the thought of them.  Which left two, the only ones that included Stiles.  Then I got to the other person’s likes and, wow, their kink factor was basically off the charts (watersports, pegging, knotting, incest, etc.), while mine is lucky to not be in negative numbers.  On a good day.  Were the mods poking themselves in the eye when they paired us up?  Probably.  And I was pretty convinced I couldn’t write for this person; we had nothing in common.  I waffled for a long time over asking for a reassignment.  I didn’t want to make them have to shuffle again but I also couldn’t do this.  It wasn’t in my wheelhouse and, frankly, I didn’t want it to be either.  I showed the sign up to a friend of mine (who reads everything I write), @emeraldawn, before I made the decision to email the mods, crying, and she looked at it, made a lot of car-crash facial expressions and then said: They said their bulletproof kink is incest of any variety.  So do an AU timeline where Stiles is an orphan, have him adopted by the Argents and do a faux-incest Chris/Stiles story.  And I said: No, no–yes, you beautiful goober!  And it was hard and challenged me in ways fic-writing really never has to stay true to both myself and another person’s desires but I got the darkness and dubious consent into Chris and Stiles’ relationship that my exchange person wanted and appeased myself with one of my favorite Stiles/Derek relationships I’ve ever written.  Rewriting the first season’s canon in this new configuration and giving Derek an ally was really rewarding.  Because it was just so nice to not have Derek be so friggin’ alone, to let he and Stiles bounce ideas off each other and care about one another as they became actual friends.  The result is a fic I’m really proud of for a lot of different reasons.


I’ll tag @andavs, @callunavulgari, @drunktuesdays, @piratefalls, @asocialfauxpas, @livthelion, @cursedtruth and @tryslora, if you guys want to get in on this, otherwise consider this me frantically waving awkward hellos at you.

I love exploring new haunts in towns I want to move to. Especially when I walk into a new bar but I can still name 80% of the bartender’s soundtrack. They are clearly people after my heart.

Perhaps I *could* make a home here.

Wowee it’s been quite a while since I did one of these!! I’ve recently went over the hump of 300 followers! (I had been at 298 for like a year haha) So I thought I’d do this again! (do people still do these or am I just old?)

Mutuals:

@carry-on-darling @karino555 @pipiipek @cipher-universe-falls @pseudoami @nonablog @cielterre @thaddeyas @i-like-pink-lolzz @lifesanemotionalrollercoaster @goddessnicole @spacecoffeeandcartoons @magicalzombiegirl @100shadesofwtf @123456something @coolpepcat @cinnabun-frisk @kanae-von-rosevvald @deathbyquill @lostfae @heavenxearth @serenityxovo @zuk0sgirl @elementalist-kdj @k9lyn @madnesschase @somnivite @papabraus @snow-tempest @lostprincesslink @genjibeatrice @greymetalheart @i–am–error @legendofkorrafever @jeong-jeong @moon-crystall-power @firelordflameo @the-temple-oftime @rianyoufucker @littlemsluna @foxglove-prince @fullmetalbae @kyaato @theworldbeginswith-you @r0sequarts @rosequartzsmile @shark-desu @yalawala @iwasrightaboutthesun @hewasnumberwan @zorrocafe @purpledragoncaptor

Biggest Fans:

@liliththekiller @thebeatlesqueenisbythepolice @zee-ami @yalawala

My Tumblr Crushes:

@lapidotishot (4%) @yalawala (4%) @jaspersgirlfriend (4%) @blepis (3%) @kind-of-trash (3%) @cllaireredfield (3%) @l-a-l-o-u (3%) @i–am–error (2%) @lesbigems (2%)

Thank you!! ♥♥♥

anonymous asked:

Once upon a time I am here to tell you that you are still amazing and doing great. Thank you for being there.

Thank you too, you’re very kind.

PROTECT LYDIA BRANWELL & MAGNUS BANE & ALEC LIGHTWOOD 2017

People keep on saying OT3 pairing for LydiaxAlecxMagnus or how Lydia and Alec should have married and keep the institute and still be with Magnus and I am like WHY do YOU all HATE them so MUCH that you want them to live like that??


- Lydia DESERVES someone who loves ONLY HER, and if the wedding continue and she found that someone special, only to realize WAIT I AM TRAP IN A MARRIAGE!! Wouldnt you feel that GOD lydia has been through enough and now when she has a SECOND chance at LOVE, she’s stuck in a marriage with a GAY MAN who cannot love her how she deserves to BE LOVE

- Magnus, for some of you who do not know; HAS DEVOTED HIS ENTIRE LIFE TO HELP ALL THOSE WHO NEED IT. and suddenly he is REDUCE TO A MISTRESS STATUS LIKE WHAT THE HELL!! Call it what you like, an open relationship whatever, but ALL THE CLAVE WILL SEE is Alec Lightwood Banging his WARLOCK MISTRESS. And after ALL THE CRAP THE CLAVE has done to Magnus, he DOES NOT DESERVE THAT. ANDD why should Magnus be the one who ends up in that situation. Honestly if Alec and Lydia DID got married at that moment, I would have happily hang my MALEC BANNER and ROOT FOR A NEW LOVE INTEREST FOR MAGNUS.

- Alec Lightwood as Lydia says, is A MAN OF HONOUR. Meaning if he did get married to Lydia, he will NOT BETRAY his marriage vows. Of course some of you will say in time he will love Lydia. After all some gay men DO marry and LOVE their wife. BUT AT WHAT EXPENSE!! THE TEARS OF PAIN!! OF WHAT IF”S, OF KNOWING THAT YOU CANT BE WHO YOUR PARTNER DESERVES!! It will take Alec years before he can cultivate affection near to romance for Lydia and guess what!! During THAT period, he will keep thinking and punishing himself, that HE DID THE RIGHT THING!! WHILE WALLOWING IN MISERY KNOWING WHAT HE COULD HAVE. WHY DO U ALL WANT ALEC TO LIVE IN A CLOSET!! And dont say it is ok as long as Lydia knows that Alec is Gay, cause that is JUST Horrible. Do u guys know the amount of pain Gay Man and Married Woman go through, knowing that at the end, the LOVE the HAVE is still NOT the LOVE that they WANTED.

Please understand that Alec stopping the marriage and choosing himself shows that NOT ONLY IS HE RESPECTING LYDIA, BUT ALSO HE IS FREEING HIMSELF FROM A LIFE WHEREIN HE ALWAYS HAD TO HIDE IN A SOCIETY THAT THINKS WHAT HE FEELS FOR MAN IS WRONG!!

ALEC IS STARTING A MOVEMENT FOR NEW GENERATION OF SHADOWHUNTERS!! TO SHOW THEM THAT IT IS OK!! TO LOVE MAN , TO LOVE WOMEN!! IT IS OK!!

AND YET YOU ALL WANT HIM TO BE MARRIED TO LYDIA, and that baffles me….shame on you for wanting Alec to continue to hide himself and to let Lydia be his beard-for-life and to let Magnus be the OTHER-Person

When you can’t tell the difference between 10am and 8pm...

Gah, I wanna make proper posts, I really do, but I’m still jetlagged and am barely ever awake enough to even grasp to some clear thoughts… I wonder why this always happens when I come back from Japan, as opposed to when I go there. >_> 

I’ll try to fix my inner clock up soon, so I can be productive again. Sorry.

what am i supposed to do once you leave

what am i supposed to do with the emptiness you left me with

when you took all of your things that we once called ours

that i once called mine

what am i supposed to do when i’m still in love with you and

you don’t care?

—  i miss you but i can’t do anything about it

anonymous asked:

I only use mobile so i hope this is okay. I experience delusion with loss of reality, but when i hallucinate i can tell i am. Do you think people with psudo hallucinations still have a place in the psychotic community even if their (1/2)

Hallucinations are not removed from reality and are just like a photoshopped layer on top of reality? Does that make sense? (2/2)

If you can recognize that you are hallucinating, that is totally okay and valid. Sometimes thats just a part of growing with hallucinations and having them for extended periods of time. Its definitely valid imo just like people who can recognize their own delusions. 
-Mod Ryan