i stayed up way too late making this

tips for high school freshman:

1. i know, i know. this is terrifying. you’re going to be dealing with many huge changes. but change is good. remember that.

2. try not to blend in. i know its easier but you wanna make some friends, right? you probably want to make good relationships with teachers too. stand out. be remembered in the best ways possible.

3. work hard. strive to be the best. stay up late studying, take notes, ask questions, stay after class, do whatever you can to achieve you’re goals. prove to yourself and everyone around you that you are capable of amazing things.

4. participate. speak your thoughts in group discussions. join clubs. play sports. don’t be afraid. you deserve to be noticed and listened to.

5. stay organized. use planners, label everything, color code, make files on your laptop, don’t keep unnecessary tabs open, and make sure you’re not a mess too.

6. try and make friends. i know how difficult its going to be but you’ll need them. talk to the people on your cross country team, talk to the art kids in first period, talk to the weird kid sitting next to you in assembly. just try and make friends. you need people, no matter how much it seems like you don’t. you will not be able to survive this alone.

7. study. make flashcards, copy notes, use quizlet, i dont care just study. your phone can wait an hour or two.

8. make sure your bag is fully stocked. y’know like extra change, deodorant, hand cream, pads, chapstick, etc. you never know what could happen.

9. its okay if you don’t talk to your old friends anymore. you’ll be okay. so will they. but if you ever find yourself needing to talk to someone, don’t hesitate to text them. they will listen.

10. take a warm shower every night. wash your hair twice a week. drink a glass of milk every morning and a glass of water every night. have a cup of tea while studying/doing homework. reward yourself with an episode of your favorite show. self care is important.

11. make sure to read and write daily. prioritize it.

12. don’t be afraid to express yourself. if your school has a strong arts program, use it. paint, sculpt, draw. find inspiration and create.

13. stay focused and don’t stray from your expectations.

14. find ways to stay motivated. decorate your desk, buy cute notebooks, imagine how far you’ll go by doing well in school.

15. mentally make a daily schedule to follow. repetition is comforting. while everything around you is changing faster than you can blink, take comfort in the fact that your morning routine stays the same.

16. school comes first, but try to make time for your friends. both old and new. you deserve to have some fun. but don’t feel bad if you’d rather stay home with a tub of ice-cream and a season of some netflix series.

17. there will be bad days. days when it seems like you can’t get out of bed. days when it seems like stress is the only thing you’re feeling. days when you just want to give up. but you have to fight through it. have a cup of tea. read that old book you love. watch some netflix. take a break. it’ll all be okay.

18. they’ll also be days when you miss your old life with every bone in your body. on these days, text your old friends. maybe schedule to hang out. or maybe look at old pictures and videos and reminece on all the fun times you had together. don’t feel sad for too long. many more joyous memories will be created.

19. time heals everything. when days are gloomy and your heart is a lil heavy, remember that there is nothing that the passage of time cannot fix.

20. try to finish all your homework before dark. open the windows. welcome the fresh air and let the sunlight motivate you.

21. spend time with your family. you only have so much time left with them before college, don’t waste it. put down your phone, and just enjoy their presence. 

22. relativity is everything. i know it seems like one thing is the end of the world, but take a moment to zoom out. you’ll realize that some things are not big as they seem.

23. be fearless. take big steps. this is your time.

—  throughout my freshman year i wrote tips down to help myself. i hope this helps others as well.

you know what i love. i love platonic marichat. not even to drag romantic marichat just platonic marichat by itself is so good.

  • video games. chat’s claws make it hard to handle the controller. they wager cookies and marinette lets him win sometimes.
  • sometimes chat has bad days and sneaks out to see marinette at night because she always gives the best pep talks and lets him have sugary food too
  • the fashion??? he’s so interested in her designs and models half-finished clothes for her. they stay up way too late working on hats.
  • crushes. chat noir won’t shut the fuck up about ladybug until marinette starts talking about her crush on a boy in her class. he makes not a peep.
  • he has to see those photos of himself in her room too like cmon
  • “hey do you wanna play a video game”
    “yeah let me turn on the computer”
    “oh my god is that me”
    “what”
    “what”
  • jsut let me
  • have
Masterlist - Updated 30/4/17

Originally posted by sebastiansource

- read my masterlist here . Please come and let me know your favourites -

Series

Training With Bucky - A series of connected one shots of what’s like to train with Bucky Barnes based off these headcanons here - Part 1

Ficmas - A series of christmas drabbles - Masterlist

Daddy Drabbles - A series of drabbles which detail the adventures of our favourite characters as fathers - Masterlist

100 Kinks - 100 kinky drabbles to celebrate Bucky’s 100th birthday (smut)

Front Line Love - Reader a nurse during WW2 finds herself at the same camp as Bucky. - Part 1, Part 2 (smut)

Riding in cars with boys - A smutty drabble series featuring all our favourite Sebastian Stan characters in cars, so come along for the ride. - Part 1: Carter

Bucky x Reader- Prompt drabbles

“I’m tired of being your secret”/“Sometimes, there is nothing better than some good old-fashioned, no string attached fucking” (SMUT)

“Will you just tell me the truth?”

“You don’t need to protect me”/“Didn’t realise I needed your permission”

“I think you’ll be happy to know that I’m not wearing any underwear.”

“I remember practicing how to ask you out in the mirror..”

Bucky + knives + dirty talk (SMUT)

Under the table at black tie gala (SMUT")

“It’s Christmas, don’t be mad at me.”

“Welcome to fatherhood”

“Stop being so cute”

“How is my wife more badass than me?”

“I’m not buying IKEA furniture again.”

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You know,
I get drunk when it hurts
and sometimes it’s a blade to the skin.
When I’m angry I kick and scream,
I break things just for the hell of it,
just to see something as broken as I am.
Someone touched me too soon,
apparently blood isn’t thicker than water.
I was left before I breathed my first breath of life,
I never felt as though I was somebody’s daughter.
I only feel useful when I’m being used
and I crave to be hurt again,
sick right?
I stay up late at night
contemplating taking my life,
I count backwards,
then I find myself at zero again with the same dreadful feeling lingering over my head.
I don’t eat enough
or I eat too much,
either way I turn away from the mirror.
I push those closest to me away,
intimacy issues crawling out of my chest.
I will turn you into me,
I will make you ugly,
run while you can still leave.
—  I promise you don’t want to ‘get to know’ me.

I DID IT!!

stayed up way too late working on this but oh well. here you have it, the opening of Race to the Edge as if it was made like F.R.I.E.N.D.S. i hope you all like it!

EDIT: the size is fixed! plus, my older brother (who knows Adobe Premiere a lot better than I do) helped me make it so much better. also, thanks for the notes, you guys! I’m so happy you all love it!

for him. (after tronnor broke up)

We were runnin’ so fast
And we never looked back
And whatever I lacked, you made up
We made a really good team
Said I’m never gonna leave
We had this crazy chemistry
Between us

Jumped into your car anytime we were bored
Wearing anything and everything that you ever wore
Making new clichés on own little tour
Let’s ride

You never should’ve said I love you now I’ve left you blue
Remember all the shooting stars and all the silver moons?
Dirty, messy shades of purple out of red and blue
Bet you wish you didn’t know me, now you’re lonely
I’ll always miss you
I’ll always miss you, you

We were staying up late
On our private little dates
Staying over your place, how cheesy
And we took jokes way too far
Cause sometimes loving’s too hard
I think we might be better apart
We are, we are, we are

You never should’ve said I love you now I’ve left you blue
Remember all the shooting stars and all the silver moons?
Dirty, messy shades of purple out of red and blue
Bet you wish you didn’t know me, now you’re lonely
I’ll always miss you
I’ll always miss you, you

We weren’t a commercial for everyone else
We went out for coffee and kept to ourselves
We made little homes out of 3 star hotels
And I know what you’re feeling
Hope you’re healing as well

You never should’ve said I love you now I’ve left you blue
Remember all the shooting stars and all the silver moons?
Dirty, messy shades of purple out of red and blue
Bet you wish you didn’t know me, now you’re lonely
I’ll always miss you
I’ll always miss you, you

the talk

inspired by this post by the absolutely stunning @captofthesswolfstar


Lily: James… He’s home.

James: When will they realise?

Lily: Oh, they know already. They are just scared to ask because then they will have to have the talk.

James: Birds and bees?

Lily: *stares*

James: What? That’s what my dad called it.

Lily: *shakes her head* You are a 10 year old boy, I swear.

James: Whatever, he has been lying for months straight, when are they gonna man up?

Lily: Maybe today’s the day.

James: They were like bunnies before someone even had the chance to give them the talk, that’s why they are like this. Idiots.

Lily: Who gave them the talk?

James: *grinning* Minnie.

Lily: *laughing* Okay, it makes sense now.

James: This is going to be fun.

Lily: I mean, they are a bit late but you have to appreciate their effort Jamie.

James: A bit? They can’t stay away from each other. This is way too late to have this talk.

Lily: I know. Anyways, here we go. I wish it was Remus’ turn to change the diaper. Sirius will make a mess of this.

Sirius: “It’s…well, you know, there’s bees and they…with the birds and all…”

Lily: Oh for goodness’ sake. He says birds and bees, too. Sex Pads, it’s called sex.

James: *laughing* Look at his face.

Remus: “We, um… We didn’t even know you had a girlfriend, Harry.

Lily: That’s because he doesn’t have a girlfriend.

James: Come on Moony! If you can’t figure this out who will? Come on mate.

Sirius: you’re sixteen, it’s normal that you’d be dating, you don’t have to lie to us-

Lily: Sirius. I’m going to murder him. He is not lying for Merlin’s sake. He doesn’t have a girlfriend.

James: These two were two of the brightest people in our year. I just– This is amazing.

Remus: Sirius, you idiot, he doesn’t have a girlfriend.

James: *applauding sarcastically* Finally Moony. 

Lily: Sirius is just a mess today, he still hasn’t caught on. 

James: HE DOESN’T HAVE A GIRLFRIEND PADS!! LOOK AT REMUS WHAT IS HE TO YOU? COME THE FUCK ON MATE.

Harry: I’ve got a boyfriend. 

James: FINALLY. *smirking* Lils, wait until he finds out who. He is gonna freak out so bad.

Lily: Would he make Harry feel bad about it?

James: I don’t think so but when he finds out about it, he might go into a fit or something. Remus will tame him, don’t worry.

Lily: Of all the people around him, it had to be blondie.

James: Potter men like going for the hardest possible person. It’s a hobby. 

Harry: Draco Malfoy.

Lily: That went better than I expected it to go.

James: Well, we are lucky those two managed to get Harry that night.

Lily: I can’t imagine what would have happened if they didn’t.

James: *shrugs* Dumbledore would have given him to Petunia or something. 

Lily: Ugh, what a nightmare that would have been.

James: I don’t even want to imagine. Let’s go on with the birds and bees talk please, it’s so fun to watch. 

thebaehood  asked:

How would both Yuri and Beka be with kids- their own and other people's?

oh boy

  • Otabek loves kids, and they love him back. 
  • Otabek’s one of the eldest in his family, and was raised with lots of baby cousins so he’s always known how to treat babies and take care of younger kids. 
  • Otabek often got stuck on babysitter duty during family events, but he never minded at all. Extremely patient yet firm, he’s good at humouring and entertaining kids, but they also respect him and tend to do what he says.
  • His affection towards kids really only grew when his baby sister was born. He always asked his mother if he could hold her, and would stroke her fine baby hairs as she napped. 
  • The first time she gripped his finger, Otabek made a promise to protect her forever.
  • On the other hand, Yuri doesn’t like kids at all (but they always want to talk to him for reasons unbeknownst to him), and has absolutely no idea how to handle them.
  • Yuri never grew up with a lot of family and so the only kids he interacted with were those around him at skating practice - and he ignored them when he could.
  • Yuri never censors himself and does not have the patience to humour or baby talk children, which often gets him in trouble. He tends to be too blunt with them.
  • He may or may not have made a kid cry by telling them to piss off.
  • Yuri hates how many questions they ask and how they tend to want to touch everything, and he can’t count how many times he’s been kept awake on a flight because of some crying baby.
  • Things started to change when he first met Yuuri and Viktor’s child.
  • Though he scowled and cussed at Viktor and was practically chased from room to room, Yuri’s first experience with holding a baby was at the age of 20. Yuuri had sat him down on the couch and gently passed over his and Viktor’s napping newborn into Yuri’s arms, watching as Yuri’s expression of pure terror slowly eased.
  • Admittedly, Yuri was terrified. But the longer he held the baby, the more confident he grew. He watched the tiny thing for a long time, studying the serene expression and the small, chubby hands. It took Viktor about 15 minutes of coaxing before Yuri handed the baby over again.
  • By the time Yuri and Otabek have their first child, they are more than ready.
  • Though he has more experience with babies and children, Otabek is a nervous wreck about becoming a father. 
  • Yuri is nervous too, but his unyielding determination gives him the confidence that he and Beka will be wonderful parents.
  • They spend hours readying the nursery and baby proofing the house, and Otabek can only smile fondly as he watches Yuri pick out any article of baby clothing with cats on it.
  • All of Otabek’s nerves fade away when he sees Yura holding their child for the first time. He blinks away his tears and kisses his husband on the head, and then their lovely baby girl.
  • They’re wonderful parents. Though Yuri never managed to get over his disgust of dirty diapers, Otabek doesn’t mind picking up the slack. It’s all worth it to watch Yuri bathe their daughter, gently washing her hair and cooing to her fondly in Russian.
  • Yuri is totally the overprotective parent, freaking out whenever Otabek tosses their toddler into the air or runs around with her on his shoulders. Even at the age of six, he still has to brace himself when he sees her on the monkey bars.
  • Otabek is always the one to help the kids with their homework, and is great at offering advice when things are going badly in their friendship groups.
  • Yuri is the one they love to complain to when they reach their tweens, complaining about petty drama or annoying teachers at school. Yuri never fails to cheer them up, sympathising with them and letting them vent as they sneak in some ice cream before dinner (”Before äke catches us, okay?”)
  • Whether or not their kids get into skating, they are completely supportive parents 100%. Yuri is the embarrassing dad who is way too involved in their extra curricular events, cheering and clapping extra loudly. Otabek is the one who will stay up late sewing up a costume or rehearsing lines with the kiddo.
  • Anddddd this is super long already so I will cut it short but aHH long story short Otayuri would make great parents and their kids are the luckiest in the world bye <3 <3 <3
An Arranged Marriage Chapter 2

Dean Winchester x Reader

1800 Words

Story Summary: An AU of sorts. Where hunter’s have communities, and arrange marriages for their young. Y/N is from the Northwest region, arranged to marry Dean, from the midwest region.

Catch Up Here: Chapter 1

Dean’s POV

Sitting there, in the dark interior of the Impala, I couldn’t keep my eyes off the women curled into the corner of the back seat. She was still wearing her plain wedding dress, her fingers nervously picking at the hem as she stared out the window.

“Y/N, I know this marriage wasn’t of your choosing either. I just want you to know that I’m not going to expect a real marriage. I won’t force you into anything you don’t want. You can have your own room, and if, after a couple of days you still feel the need, you can leave. I won’t come after you, I won’t force you to stay. I want you to be happy, and if that includes staying with us, then you are more than welcome to.” I found myself saying, watching as her wide gaze landed on mine through the rear-view mirror. She hadn’t said much the entire day, and I didn’t blame her either.

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Owari no Seraph Chapter 57 TRANSLATED

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Translations by: @panadabro​ (Thank you for dying with me.)

Editing by: @lestkarrkingofeurope​ (It’s 2 AM I’m going to hate myself so much in the morning…)

(( I don’t have much to say except - HOLY HELL I WAS NOT EXPECTING FOR, OF ALL PEOPLE, SHIKAMA DOJI TO BE THE FIRST PROGENITOR??? AND NOW THE FANDOM IS ON FIRE AND PEOPLE ARE REVIVING BC OF THIS HUGE REVEAL AND I JUST??? HELLO WELCOME BACK EVERYONE PLEASE ENJOY YOUR ETERNAL STAY HERE IN THIS HELL AAAAAAAAAAA But also of course I still have to ask the age-old question… WHERE IS LEST KARR AAAAAAAA - Okay I’m done :DDD Please enjoy reading the chapter!!! ))


(( Okay normally I would make an effort to put a long note here, just to review what I think and stuff about the newest chapter - AND BOY DO I DO but goddamn I’ve already stayed up way too late, and I’m going to hate myself so much tomorrow so WHATEVER BLEGH LET’S BE QUICK!

TEXT WAS SOMEWHAT SMALL IN A FEW PARTS, AND DIALOGUE WAS HARD TO BREAK UP AND EDIT SO IF SOME STUFF DOESN’T MAKE SENSE OR IS HARD TO READ I AM SO SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!

DAMN SHINOA GOT THE BEST DEMON OUT OF EVERYONE HERE LOLOLOL BUT I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE HOW THE VAMPIRES WOULD REACT IF THEY SAW SHIKAMA this is mainly just an excuse for me to want to see Lest being angry or sad I don’t know just give me more of my son please AAAAAA

Alright I got more to say but whatever sleep calls for me so PLEASE ENJOY AND HAVE FUN READING! ))

Faithfully

Word Count: 2675

Pairing: RockStar!Dean x Reader

Warnings: None

A/N: Written for @deansdirtylittlesecretsblog RomCom fluff challenge. My prompt was “Don’t let anyone ever make you feel like you don’t deserve what you want.” from 10 Things I Hate About You. Also written for @like-a-bag-of-potatoes Birthday/Follower Celebration Challenge. My song was Faithfully by Journey. 

Special thanks to @mamapeterson for throwing out an idea that I then twisted around and used for this piece of hot garbage. 

Feedback and constructive criticism always appreciated 


“You look beautiful, baby.” Your father, Bobby, looked you over, tears glistening in his eyes. “Matt isn’t gonna know what hit him when you walk down that aisle.”

“Thank you, Daddy.” You smiled, though you were sure it didn’t quite reach your eyes.

“He’s right, you know.” Your stepmother, Ellen, moved forward and cupped your cheek. “You’re gorgeous, sweetheart.”

“Alright, that’s enough!” Charlie, your best friend and Maid of Honor started to usher everyone out, sensing you were starting to become overwhelmed by the attention. “Dad, be ready to walk her down the aisle, ok? We’ll tell you when she’s ready. Everyone who isn’t a bridesmaid, out, out, out!” She started to shove everyone out and you silently giggled to yourself at her forcefulness. She didn’t look intimidating at all, but she certainly was not someone you wanted to cross.

“Spill.” Charlie practically ordered. “You’re getting married and you look like…well I don’t know what you look like but it isn’t happy.” You casted your eyes to the floor then back up, glancing around at your bridesmaids, Jo, your stepsister, and then your friends, Jody and Donna, before making your way back to Charlie.

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Tips for High School Witches

Hey guys! I’ve been a witch for about a year now, and being a high schooler in a conservative state has made it quite interesting, to say the least. So here are some things I’ve discovered that have made being a young, jobless witch AMAZINGLY easy!

The Library- if you are in High school, you undoubtedly have easy access to a library. This will contain information on mythology, religion, weather, astronomy, history, and just about any subject. Almost all of this knowledge (certainly all that I just listed) can be used in your craft. These are FREE BOOKS WHENEVER YOU NEED THEM. Take advantage!

The Art Room- weather you are in an art class or not, there is usually at least one art teacher in the school who has plenty of strange junk and materials that can be used for witchcraft. For instance, my teacher’s closet includes: bones, wax, wire, clay, wood, soapstone, beads, and all kinds of other brilliant components. These are FREE MATERIALS!!! As long as you have the teachers permission, GET WHATEVER YOU CAN!! You wouldn’t believe how many witchy items I’ve made in third period that cost me exactly $0.00.

The Thrift Store- I’ve seen other witches beat this one to death, but I must stress what a good resource thrift stores are for witchcraft. I’ve purchased brass candle holders, carved wooden boxes, stone incense burners, and more for less than $5. You can also find altar cloths, candles, picture frames, and more. The thrift stores of good for more than retro fashion!

Now, I also want to suggest some of the most useful spells and tricks to a high school witch (in my experience, of course.)

Anti Suspicion- wether your parents know or not (mine certainly don’t) you definitely don’t want your whole school to know that you’re a witch. Trust me. A simple sigil or spell to avert suspicion and ill intent will go MILES! My altar is the first thing you see in my room, I hoard bottles and jars, I use all the candles, and my parents suspect nothing. I’ve come to school with sigils all over my arm and no one so much as blinks an eye. I’ve also been able to get away with not wearing my school ID for a semester and a half, which was a nice side effect. Moon water is also great for making you less visible/noticeable.

Focus/success- when you’re about halfway through a semester of homework and studying, you’re gonna want some help. Spells for focus, knowledge, brain power, and success at schoolwork should not be underestimated. I’ve also found that wearing carnelian and aventurine Jewellry does wonders. I also rub safely diluted Rosemary oil on the back of my hand, and smell it whenever I’m struggling on tests and quizzes, as it aids in memory.

Luck, Prosperity, & health- you are a high schooler. You probably stay up way too late, forget a ton of assignments, spill things constantly, trip, lose socks, lose your wallet, and run into all kinds of awkward, dumb situations. A blend of safely diluted orange, lemon, Rosemary, and lavender oil will provide health, prosperity, positivity, happiness, protection, and psychic power. Aventurine, citrine, and rise Quartz are also some good crystals to keep you focused, happy, and protected.

If you have any more questions for me, want to talk, or want to add to the list, feel free to do so! Love you guys, and good luck!!!

Broken Part One: http://imaginingbucky.tumblr.com/post/160710394889/broken-sign-on-the-dotted-line-and-everything

BROKEN PART TWO

Ten months later

The coffee shop that you normally went to every morning was closed for repairs. You had to go fifteen minutes out of your way to get your daily coffee fix.

It had been a regular morning. You woke up and made breakfast for the kids before sending them off to school. They only had a few weeks left before Christmas break. They were very excited about being out of school for the next three weeks.

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Some Girl, Special Girl - Part 2

Dick refuses to leave the hospital. He also won’t let his family into the room. You can hear Jason and Damian shouting at Dick. It got so heated at one point that the nurses threatened to call security and throw everyone out. The only person other than your family that Dick lets into the room is your best friend, Roy Harper.

“Y/N! Can I have your jello?”

You roll your eyes, “You seriously want to eat something from a hospital?!” You toss the small container of jello down to the end of the bed where Roy is sitting.

Roy caught it without even looking, “So, I heard Jay was a total dick to you”

“Yeah, you know I was a little disappointed! You always told me how cool he was, and then it turns out he’s a total asshole”

Dick chuckles from beside you, “I wasn’t expecting them to act like that, babe. They …” Dick sighed, “what they did was unforgivable, because of their actions you got hurt. I don’t know if I can ever forgive them for something like that”

“You can’t just abandon your family like that, Dickie. I know they were mean, but I don’t want to be the reason you stop talking to them.”

Dick’s lip curled in a sneer, “I can’t even look at them right now. I had security ban then from the hospital”

“Seriously? You managed to get the hospital to ban Bruce Wayne?”

Roy smirked, “More like we threatened them”

You roll your eyes. Soon after the first time you woke up in the hospital, you caught Dick sneaking back into the hospital room in his Nightwing costume. You had forced him to explain everything right then. When Roy came to visit, he told you that he was Arsenal, but they both refused to tell you who anyone else’s secret identity was.

“So Nightwing and Arsenal told security not to let any of them in?”

“Exactly! This jello tastes funny”

“It’s crappy hospital jello, of course it’s awful. When I finally get out of here, I’ll make you some jello”

Dick sighed, “You act like you are being held prisoner here”

“I am!” You carefully flop dramatically on Dick’s lap, “There’s nothing else they can do for me! All I can do is heal!”

“How about they make sure that your body doesn’t reject the implant? That’s kinda important!”

Roy rolls his eyes and shoots up, “Let’s stage a jailbreak! I bet I can get you out of here!”

“No way in hell am I leaving her in your care! Your version of ‘healing’ is one less hour of patrol!”

You chuckle, “Well, the doctor said that I could leave tomorrow morning, so we only have to survive one more night here and then we are home free!”

“No, I don’t need you to send a car, Bruce! The only reason I’m talking to you is because Y/N made me answer the phone!”

“Dick, please …”

Suddenly Jason’s voice is over the phone, “You banned us from the hospital, and now you aren’t letting us even send a car for her! How the hell are we supposed to apologize if you don’t give us the chance?!?”

“You don’t deserve a chance!!!” Dick roared, “I won’t ever let you near her again!”

Dick threw the phone across the room, making it shatter, “Dick!”

“No! I won’t let them near you! What if this time … what if this time you die?!?”

You let out a sigh and raise your good arm, reaching out to Dick. Immediately he wraps you in a tight hug, “The accident wasn’t their fault, you can’t blame them …”

“I can blame them” Dick snarls, pulling you closer, “If they hadn’t been such assholes to you then you wouldn’t have left, and you wouldn’t have been on the road at the time of the accident!!”

“Just give up, Y/N. He needs to get over this himself” Roy calls from across the room

Dick lets out a sharp breath, squeezes you one last time, and then pulls back. “Alright, let’s get the discharge papers signed, and get the hell out of here”

It’s been a month months since you were discharged from the hospital, and Dick is still refusing to speak to his family. “Please, Dick! At least talk to Alfred! He misses you! Your brothers miss you!”

“I said no!” He runs an agitated hand through his hair, “Look it was a long day at the station, and I just want to take a nap before I go on patrol” He ties to walk out of the room but you stop him

“Why are you still holding this grudge? This is the longest I have ever seen you angry with someone! This just isn’t like you!”

“It isn’t like me to hate people who almost took you away from me!?” Dick shouted, “It isn’t like me to want to protect the woman I love?!”

“It isn’t like you to constantly snap at me! To be so on edge that you can hardly sleep! It isn’t like you to abandon the people you love!” You take a deep heaving breath, “You’ve never abandoned your family, Dick.”

“I think you should go back to your apartment tonight, Y/N”

You flinch back, Dick had never asked you to leave. Ever since the accident he had hardly wanted to let you out of his sight. “Fine, but if I leave I’m not coming back, Dick. You need to sort out the issues with your family without me. It’s obvious you won’t listen to me”

You walk over to the door and pick up your keys. “Maybe my brothers were right, maybe you did take up too much of my time.” He levels cold blue eyes on you, “Maybe you aren’t worth any time at all”

Those words continue to loop through your head as you drive home. You aren’t worth Dicks time; you aren’t worth anyone’s time. His family hated you, and now you had driven him away too.

“I’m so damn stupid!” You punch the steering wheel, “It’s his family!”

By the time you drive across Gotham and get to your apartment, it’s already dark. You just want to sleep, but sleep isn’t going to come easy to you. Making a decision, you quickly get out of the car and head up to your apartment. Cracking open a bottle of vodka you reach for your phone.

“Hey, Y/N, what’s up?”

“Hey, Roytoy!! Whatcha doin’?”

“Nothing right now, watching Bridezilla”

You take another swing of alcohol and grimace as is goes down, “Dick kicked me out, said I wasn’t worth his time, so I’m at my apartment, drinking”

Roy’s voice was sharp when he answered, “Your drinking alone?! You know alcohol doesn’t mix well with your meds!”

“I still have to take those! Shit!” You quickly make your way to the bathroom and pull out your anti-anxiety, anti-depression, and pain meds, you still had them for your leg.

“Y/N! No! Don’t take anything! You can’t mix alcohol and medicine!” Roy shouted. There was the sound of things being knocked over and the sound of a door shutting, “I’m on my way! Don’t do anything stupid! Just stay in your apartment, Y/N!”

You giggle, “Too late! I’m going up to the roof, wanna see the stars” your words are slurring, it makes you sound funny, you giggle again.

“You can’t see any damn stars in Gotham!”

“Then I’ll look at the helicopters!”

“Damnit, Y/N!”

“Gotta go, Roytoy! Bye-Bye!”

“No!!”

You stumble up onto the roof, dropping your phone, “’m so far up!”

Making your way over to the edge, you brace your hands on the ledge. The wind feels so good against your heated skin.

Suddenly the world starts to spin, the lights blurring together to make a dizzying vortex of colors. You can feel yourself start to sway forward, your hands slipping against the rough concrete. For a moment terror rips through you when you feel nothing but air against you, and then cool acceptance. It isn’t like anyone will miss you anyway.