i stared at him for a good 5-10 seconds

Forbidden Love | Pt. 7

▷ Jimin Angst

❥ “I think about you a little more than I should..”

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9 | Part 10 | Part 11 | Part 12 | Epilogue

Originally posted by bangtannoonas


“I must say, your wife is pretty good in bed too, my dear friend.”

Frozen, you stared at your husband’s smirking face. Did he feel the same way when he found out that his wife and his best friend have a relationship they shouldn’t actually have?
Was he also disappointed in you like you were in him right now?

The second you felt Jimin lunging forward towards Taehyung, you wrapped your fingers around his wrist, turned him to yourself and whispered. “Don’t..”

Looking into his angry eyes, you tried to ignore what your husband was saying and focused on calming Jimin down by stroking his cheeks gently.

Taehyung, on the other hand, was enjoying the way he was irking Jimin with his stinging words. “What’s wrong, Jimin? Are you angry? You feel uncomfortable, right? Now imagine how I felt whenever I saw my own wife stepping into the hotel room with a smile plastered on her face! Imagine how I felt when I knew that my best friend’s hands were touching my wife’s body!”

Jimin started taking deep breaths and closed his eyes, trying to control his anger. You placed your hands on his ears and leaned your forehead on his. “Don’t listen to him.. Please, let’s just go from here..”

Hearing Taehyung’s voice again, you copied the way Jimin closed his eyes and tried to think about something else.

“Oh, and Y/N. My dear wife. Let me break it to you. I never loved you. Everything was fake, you know. I never wanted to marry you. But you see, money controls everything in this world. And marrying you just happened to be the perfect opportunity to get a hold of that money-”

Just before Taehyung could end his sentence, Jimin yanked your hands away and lunged forward to him, punching his face countlessly without taking a breath.

A loud shriek left your mouth and with that, you felt a sharp pain in your belly.
Bending forward a little bit, you placed your hand on the spot that hurt uncontrollably and gasped loudly when you felt something dripping down your thighs.

The moment you realized what it was, you started sobbing loudly. “J-Jimin!”

Not hearing your shaky voice, Jimin still punched your husband in the face. “J-Jimin, the baby! B-Blood!”

When Jimin heard your shrieking, he turned his head towards you and found you sitting on the ground, hands shaking uncontrollably.

Letting go of his best friend, he run towards you and looked at your bloody hands. “Y-Y/N what’s wrong?! Y/N?!”

Taehyung, on the other hand, stood there frozen with his bruised face, trying to understand what you were saying. “B-Baby? W-What do you mea- H-How?”

Jimin cupped your cheeks with his now bloody hands. “No! Y/N, open your eyes! No! Y/N, please, open your eyes!”

Turning his head to Taehyung, he yelled desperately at him. “Call the ambulance! Do something, damn it!”

Still shocked, Taehyung mumbled to himself. “This can’t be right, this can’t be right. The doctor said- H-How?!”

“Taehyung, stop mumbling and do something!”

“Damn it, Jimin! Y/N can’t get pregnant!”

Drunk Confessions Pt 1

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Part 5 / Part 6 / Part 7 / Part 8

Derek’s POV

Tonight there was going to be a party at Christian’s place. I wasn’t going to go until I found out y/n was going to be there. I don’t know why but there is just something about her that makes me feel different. She makes me feel wanted unlike everyone else. She’s lived here about 5 months. The only problem is she’s my best friends’ sister. He doesn’t know I like her and would probably kill me if he ever did.  Whenever I go over his house I see her and it can change my mood around completely. I can really be myself around her. My real self. She makes the good side come out of me. I’ve asked her out a couple times but she’s always rejected. It almost seems like when we’re about to get close she pushes me away. I’m not stopping until I get her though. She has slipped away too many times.

I arrived at the party. Several people came up to me to say hey, half of them I didn’t even know. I wasn’t really paying attention. I kept searching the room for y/n. While waiting I decided to get a couple drinks to start the night off. About an hour later I finally find her with her friends on the balcony. I walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder. I’m taken by surprise with a hug. “Hey Derek! What’s up I haven’t seen you in forever!” She said, clearly drunk. She was never good at holding liquor being she is so innocent. It was kind of cute. “Hey y/n how are you?” I asked her. “I’m great, how are you?” she said smiling. “I’m good. Would you like to get some drinks with me?” I offered her. Immediately after her whole image changed. Her smile dropped and she almost looked intimidated. “No thank you.” She replied and turned around to continue talking to her friends. I decide to leave her alone for a minute seeing how weird she reacted.

A couple hours and drinks later I realize people are starting to head home. If I didn’t talk to y/n now I’d never get the chance to. I find her again this time leaning on the counter by herself in the kitchen. “Hey y/n, I’m sorry about before. I was just trying to be nice.” I said leaning next to her. “It’s fine. I just really wanted to hang out with my friends” She smiled and then looked back down to the counter. “Well did you have fun?” I ask. This time she laughs “Yes I had a lot of fun thanks for asking.” Her eyes meet mine. I get lost in them for a minute. “You know you’re beautiful y/n.” I say. “Why because you’re drunk?” She responds before taking a sip of her drink. “I never said you only did tonight. I was talking about in general.” I turned myself towards her. She leans up and faces me. “Really?” she asks. Clearly not believing it. “Yes you always have, why do you think I can’t leave you alone.” I put my hand under her chin leaning her face to mine. Our eyes are pacing back and forth looking deep into our minds. I start to lean in and so does she. But right before our lips meet she pushes me back “I can’t” she says. “Why not?” I ask. She’s done this to me about 3 times now and I’m tired of being led on. “I just can’t” she said starting to walk away. I grab her arm and pull her back. “No I’m fed up with this constantly happening tell me what I’m doing wrong.” I say sternly. “Just let it go Derek.” She says pulling from my grip. “I won’t let it go not until you tell me why the fuck you keep leading me on.” This time I raised my voice. “Because I’m scared of you okay!? Now let me be!” she screams back walking away and out the front door.

I couldn’t help but let the words repeat in my head. ‘Scared of me?’ What have I done to her to scare her? How do I fix this? I call an Uber and go home. I lay in my bed and stare at the ceiling. So beyond confused I couldn’t sleep. Constantly tossing and turning. I’ve been with a ton of girls and none of them have made me feel like this. I feel so weak. She’s the only one who can make me like this and she’s scared of me for no reason. I need to figure this out.

Your POV

As soon as you receive this text you know you shouldn’t have gone to that party. You like Derek you really do but the drugs, alcohol, tour, sex, ect. all intimidated you. You were never into that stuff. You were afraid of him choosing that over yourself. You don’t want him to change for you though so you’ve been keeping it a secret. But maybe it’s time to stop that.

*Blow = Cocaine*

Your POV

Your heart starts racing. You can’t tell if you’re excited or afraid of what’s about to come. If you do date your brother Nate will literally murder you guys. Nate is only a year older then you but he still thinks he can control your whole life. You’ve seen on Twitter Derek’s ex friends trying to help him out with drugs and he just flips on them, tearing them apart. You won’t be able to handle something like that so you don’t know what to expect. You take a shower and do your hair and make-up. You put on a nice casual dress. You want to look good for him but not look like you’re trying too hard. The clock hits 2 and Nate leaves. Your stomach starts turning as your anxiety rises. You’re now going to be home alone with a 24 year old boy who is capable of having full control over you. You shake off the thought and go get a drink of water to help calm you down. You turn on the TV to the food channel because what’s more distracting then food? You hear the doorbell ring. You look down at your phone and it’s exactly 2:30. You open the door to see no one other than Derek. He stops and stares at you. Only about 10 seconds pass but it feels like 5 minutes.

“Hello?” You say breaking him out of his trans. “Oh, hey y/n. Sorry I just don’t think I’ve ever seen you in a dress before.” He says. “Yeah I don’t wear them often. I have trouble finding dresses that look good on me.” You respond playing with the bottom of the dress. “Well this one looks perfect” He smiled. “May I come in?” He points into the house. “Oh yeah of course, you know where everything is.” You say moving out of his way. He walks in and sits on the couch. You follow him. He’s texting someone on his phone and looks slightly pissed. He huffs and tosses his phone on the table. “Sorry I’m trying to get Chad to make sure Nate stays at the studio so we don’t have to worry about dying today.” He says breaking the awkward silence. You laugh at the fact you both understand Nate won’t appreciate this.

“Alright so just hear me out for a minute.” Derek starts “I’ve been thinking about this for a while. You have made me feel something I can’t explain. Something no one else has made me feel like. I am not the mushy lovey dovey person. But for some reason I am around you. I’m willing to do anything to be with you. I know you don’t want me to change but it’ll be for the positive. I know you’re so innocent and I’m the complete opposite but I want to give it a try. I need someone like you in my life. Please.” He moves closer to you on the couch now with his arm around your shoulder. You look down and play with your hands. He sounds so convincing but this whole thing is so risky. You’ve never done anything risky before so why not start now? Who knows it might be fun. Plus after Nate knows, if Derek ever tried to lash out on you he’d be there to protect you. “Okay let’s try this.” You say smiling nodding your head. You see his face light up. He leans in to kiss you but you put your hand in the way pushing him back. “Not so fast you haven’t heard what has to happen for this to work.” You raise your voice slightly. He nods and leans back “Go for it.” He says.

“One, my brother has to know. We can keep it quiet for two weeks to see if this even works out, and if it does he will be finding out-“ Derek cuts you off “Wait he’ll k-“ This time you cut him off “I don’t want to hear it. He’s the only family I have out here he’s going to know. Two, I don’t care if you smoke weed-“ You do care but you don’t want to cut everything out at once so you’ll work on that later “-I don’t care if you drink-“ That you really didn’t care about “-But the blow, pills all that serious shit needs to stop.” You say sternly. You can tell he thinks about it for a minute. Eventually he lets out a breath “Okay. Whatever you want.” “Also if I catch you doing any of this stuff the relationship ends immediately.” You continue. “Wait can’t you give me like a month to get over it?” he asks. “No. You stop now.” You add. “Okay I promise.” He says. Leaning in for a kiss again, this time you let him. A feeling both of you have been longing for, for a while. Your stomach turns at the excitement. Maybe he’ll really go through with this. He pulls back and you both smile at each other. You look at the clock and its now 3pm. Nate will be home in an hour. Derek decides to put a show on. “It’s only 30 minutes I swear.” He says seeing you getting nervous. You let him continue anyway.

Ten minutes pass and you hear a car door from outside. You get up and look out the front window to see your brother walking up to the door. “It’s Nate! Run!” you scream to Derek while locking the front door. You hear Derek curse under his breath as he runs out the back. You quickly go back to the couch. Nate unlocks the door and walks to the kitchen. “Hey y/n is Derek here?” he asks. Your heart starts pounding. How does he know!? “Who?” you try to play off. “My friend Derek. The older one with the long dark hair? Usually goofing off? His car is in the driveway but I don’t see him in it.” He continues. “I didn’t hear anyone ring the bell so I don’t know” You say. Nate walks to the front room looking out of the window. You quickly text Derek.

You hear the doorbell ring. “I’ll get it!” you hear Nate from upstairs. He comes down and answers the door. Confused you see Derek open the door. You couldn’t help but laugh. It was kind of cute. But now time to try and figure out how to tell Nate.

Derek’s POV

Today marks 5 months since I’ve started dating y/n. It’s been the best 5 months of my life. Not feeling pressured, not feeling like I have to show off, I also haven’t stressed over anything. Well besides the fact we still haven’t told Skate. It’s been tough. I hang around him almost every day and he doesn’t even think I know more than her name. It’s also been kind of hard staying away from the drugs. I can do it fine on my own but when I’m with my friends and they’re all doing it, it’s so tempting. A lot of the times I’ve left to go sneak to y/n’s house and left flowers or something at her door to get away from it. Making her happy was the best distraction. Skate will be out shooting a music video today so I’m going to go see y/n to talk to her about telling him. I really hope this doesn’t ruin our friendship. I can’t believe I’ve even kept it from him for this long. He’s become one of my closest friends out here. He really helped me out of a tough time, I can’t keep this secret from him any longer. I call y/n and tell her I’m coming over.

I arrive at her house and let myself in. “You know you really shouldn’t leave the door unlocked.” I say to y/n whose sitting at the kitchen table reading a book. She quickly jumps up and hugs me. “What are you doing here?” she said excitedly.  “I came to talk to you about something.” I say releasing her off of me. Her expression changed from excited to worry. “Don’t worry it’s not bad it’s just about your brother.” I laughed seeing she got nervous. “Oh thank god you made that sound so bad.” She said pointing to the table for me to sit. “Can I get you anything?” She asks. I loved how she was so willing to do things for me. I never wanted her to though, I want to be the one to spoil her. I grab her arm and pull her into the living room. I sit on the couch and pull her onto my lap facing me. We embrace in a kiss. I pull back but our foreheads are still touching. “Don’t feel like you have to do anything for me okay?” I whisper to her. She nodded and kissed me again before sitting next to me on the couch. “So what about Nate?” She asked me. “We need to tell him. I can’t keep this from him anymore. We’ve both been pushing this off for too long" I explain.

She nods in agreement. “I don’t know how we’re going to do this though. I’ve thought of some things but I don’t know how he’s going to take it.” She says. “What have you thought of?” I ask. “Well I’ve thought about me just bringing it up to him but then that would look bad on your part. I’ve also thought of you telling him but then that makes me look like an ass. So then I thought what if we both invite him out to a restaurant with us and we will both tell him together. It’ll work but if he gets mad and flips shit we have witnesses which is awkward. So I don’t know.” She continued. I liked the restaurant idea but she made a good point about him flipping shit. So we’d have to go somewhere more private but not too private where he could get away with beating the shit out of us. I started to think of places we could go. Our houses are too private, friends’ houses are too public, and mountains is too private. “What about the beach? We’ll go to a private one so there’s still people but it won’t be a lot?” I add. She lights up. “That’s perfect! Who could be mad at the beach? Now when are we going to do this?” she asks. “Well he’s pretty busy today so what about tomorrow morning 10am?” I say. “Sounds perfect.’ She says climbing back onto my lap, our lips meeting. We don’t get to see each other often so when we do we tend to enjoy each other’s touch. Our kiss starts getting a little more intimate as we haven’t seen each other since last week. Which only lasted 30 minutes. My stomach started to get butterflies as my hands start travelling up and down her body. Not in a sexual way. Just feeling and knowing she was there and she was mine.

“What the fuck!?”

I hear come from my right. Immediately our kiss is broken and my stomach drops. I know that voice. Skate. Before I can process anything y/n is already off of my lap walking up to her brother. He’s just standing there, jaw wide open. His eyes pacing back and forth between y/n and I. Y/n is talking but I can’t hear. My mind has so many thoughts it won’t focus.

Skate’s POV

I have to head home in the middle of filming to get something from my house for the shoot. I pull up in my driveway and see Derek’s car there. Again? He knows I’m not home so what’s up this time. I step into my house and for some reason the door in unlocked. I walk to the living room and see my sister on top of my best friend. Not only that but with their tongues down each other’s throats. Derek’s hands all over her, and hers slightly tugging at his hair.

“What the fuck!?” I scream. No other words able to come out of my mouth. They barley know each other and now they’re on top of each other? This doesn’t make sense. My sister is not like this. She’s too innocent for shit like this. Why Derek out of all people? I was purposely trying to keep her away from him and now, what even. I can’t contemplate what’s going on. It’s all so confusing. Y/n is now next to me trying to talk to me. I can only catch a couple words being my brain trying to comprehend so much at that moment. I see her start to cry. I hate seeing her upset. I need her in her room for a minute.

Derek’s POV

Is y/n going to hate me for this thinking I lied about him being busy? Is Skate going to drop me for making out with his sister in his own house? I see y/n start to cry. I get up and walk over to them. As soon as I get there “Y/n go to your room for a minute.” Skate tells her. “Nate please just listen to me we wer-“.  He cut her off “Go” he said more sternly pointing up the stairs. She obeyed and went upstairs. Skate then turns to me. “I’m going to get something to eat because this is obviously going to be a long conversation. Go sit at the table.” He says walking into the kitchen. This is going to be interesting.

Your POV

You run upstairs crying. You quickly grab your phone and text your best friend not knowing what to do.

You listen and lay down. Exhausted and stressed you drift off to sleep.

*YAY DRAMA. I’VE GOT SO MANY EXCITING THINGS IM THINKING OF FOR THIS STORY. I APPRECIATE YOUR SUPPORT AND LOVELY MESSAGES SO MUCH YOU GUYS ARE MAKING ME SO HAPPY. I’VE STRUGGLED WITH WRITING FOR SO LONG SO TO SEE SOME OF YOU REALLY ENJOYING IT REALLY MOTIVATES ME. THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!*

“Kiss me.”

Request from anon: hi could you do an imagine where it’s New Year’s Eve and its just about midnight and a random girl sneaks in and kisses Sammy at midnight so to make him jealous you kiss a different guy? sorry haha

Y/N’s POV

“But I can’t go.” I said for the 50th time. “Why not?” Sam started getting annoyed. “I always spend New Years with my family. I always end and start the new year with my family. It’s a tradition.” I stood there, hands on my hips. “Can’t you break tradition just this one year? Come on, it’ll be fun! Rupp is throwing a house party. The squad really wants you to come.” “Well, I do miss the guys..” “And there’s free drinks..” “Mhm?” He started walking closer to me. “And great music.” “I’m listening.” He grabs my waist and pulls me against him, “And I’ll be there,” “And?” “And we can have a midnight kiss…” He smirks at me, pecking my lips, then looking down at my face. “We’ll see..” I push him off, walking away, him chasing after me. 

Sammy’s POV

“Hey bro, where’s Y/N?” Rupp called out to me. “She might not be able to make it man, i’m sorry. She’s spending time with her family right now.” “Aw, it’s cool. We’ll see her this weekend.” He pats my back and we start talking with the boys. Since Y/N wasn’t there, I had to occupy myself. I met this girl that was hanging around. Talked to her, hung out with her, drank with her, danced with her. Only just to occupy myself. 

2 hours into the party, I was just talking to her against the wall with the guys behind me, talking to other girls. There was a roar of Heys when someone walked in. I turned my head, and a smile grew on my face. “Excuse me,” I put my hands on her waist, looking towards the entrance, “My girlfriend is here.” I swiftly move my hand off her waist, and made my way towards Y/N. She was saying hi to some people and she turned her head, seeing me coming her way. She excused her self from the people she was talking to, and made her way towards me. “Hi,” She kissed me lightly on my cheek. 

“Hey, what are you doing here?” I held her body in my arms. “Well, I hung out with my family and asked them if I could go out tonight with you. And because they like you so much,” She started fixing my collar, “They said it would be totally fine to be here with you.” She smiles big. “Your family loves me, score!” I yell loud, making her laugh. She grips my shirt and pulls me into a kiss. “HEEEEY Y/N!” The crew interrupts our kiss. She pulls apart fast, her face red, turning to them, smiling. I watch as she says hi to all of them. 

The night continues as Y/N and I celebrating with everyone the New Year we are about to enter together, as a family. Time went by fast that we were only 10 minutes away from midnight when Rupp announced it. We all decided to toast to the New Year so we started gathering champagne glasses and filling it up. 5 minutes before midnight. Everyone was getting ready, excited to start the new year and get drunk after we cheer. 3 minutes before midnight. I finally started looking around for Y/N so I can plant a big kiss on her lips. The way I want to end and start the year, with her in my arms. 

I was moving through the crowd, looking for her. 1 and a half minutes left before midnight. My eyes finally locked on her, and walked straight towards her. Until I bumped into someone, “Oh, I’m sorry. Hey, it’s you.” I pointed at the girl I was hanging out with at the beginning of the party. “Hey, happy new year.” I said to her kindly. “Yeah, you too. You still going to follow up with your promise before you left me earlier?” My eyes looking at Y/N, not paying attention to the girl or what she’s saying but just agreed. “Yeah, of course.” “Good.” She smiles at me.

Y/N’s POV

“There he is,” I spot Sammy, talking to a girl. “I should go to him. 30 seconds left till midnight.” I said joyously to Madison, toasting our glasses together, and started walking to where he was. “Yeah, of course.” I heard him say from distance. “Good,” The girl smiled at him. “10. 9. 8.” She quickly grabs his face in her hand, and directions his face to hers, as she kisses him. I stop and watch them kiss, right in front of my face. “7. 6. 5.” He hasn’t even pulled away. His eyes are wide open, staring at the girl that he’s kissing. “4. 3.” I felt my blood heat up. I quickly acted, grabbed the nearest guy, and kissed him. “2. 1. HAPPY NEW YEAR!” Everyone yelled, kissing each other, clanking their glasses together. Sammy kissing someone else other than his girlfriend. Me kissing someone else other than my boyfriend. After a few seconds, I pull apart from the guy, “Wow… Uhm, sorry about that. Happy New Year!” I smile at him, “No, thank you.” He says to me, winking. I turn to where Sammy was and he had steam coming out of his ears. 

I roll my eyes and start walking out the party. “Y/N, are you okay? Where are you going?” Madison calls after me but I ignore her. I walk out the house and onto the side walk, “Y/N! COME BACK HERE! Y/N!!!” I hear Sam yell after me. “What the hell was that?! Who was that guy?! Why did you kiss him?!” “What the hell was THAT?! Who was that GIRL?! Why did you kiss HER?!” “I did not kiss her, she kissed me!” “BUT YOU DIDN’T PUSH AWAY!” He pauses just looking at me. “YOU. DIDNT. PUSH. AWAY. Who was she Sam, tell me the truth.” “I met her earlier. I was hanging out with her before you came. To occupy myself.” “TO FUCKING OCCUPY YOURSELF? BECAUSE I WASN’T THERE?! And if I didn’t come at all, you probably would’ve kissed her still, huh? HUH?!” “NO! That was not my intent! I just needed someone to talk to!” “Nate? Dillon? John? Johnson? Gilinsky? Ben? Emily? Madison? Nash? Hayes? Tez? Annie? Mac? Derek? Delany? KDL? Mikey? You had A LOT of other options on someone else to talk to other than her!” I said angrily at him. 

“I didn’t know who that guy was I kissed. I was so mad I just grabbed him and kissed him! And. IT. WAS. NICE!” I said in his face, walking away. “Y/N. Y/N!” He jogs after me, grabbing my arm, but I snatch it back. “Kiss me.” “No!” I scolded, started walking again. “I said, kiss me, dammit” “I said,” He didn’t listen, and grabbed my face, pulling me into a long passionate kiss. I finally break the kiss, our foreheads leaning on each other’s, breathing heavy, “I bet he didn’t kiss you like that..” He huffs out, still caressing my face in his hands. “No.. No he didn’t.” “She definitely didn’t.” He kisses my forehead, “Happy New Years baby. I love you.” “I’m still mad,” I said to him. “I know.” He kisses my forehead again. 

Bts Highlight in Toronto Fan Acc

K so it actually went really well? Like really really well.
First of all, me and can-o-tuna-balism arrived around 10Am, a little bit before that. Keep in mind checkin was supposed to be at 10. The line was relatively long, and it only got longer. We were actually some of the first people, surprisingly. Now I didn’t expect check in to start at 10, I was expecting 11 or 12.
But of course, it didn’t start then either.
Around 3pm VIP and autograph people started being called in. 3pm. 5 hours late. GA people had to keep waiting. It was a relatively nice day out, and other than getting sunburned, which was honestly unavoidable, I was ok with. No one was brought in, but a separate VIP line was made. At 3Pm, a white bus drove by, and guess who was in it? BTS. J hopes face was pressed against the window to smile and wave at as all and Jimin was smiling at everyone. I actually got a video of them driving into the venue and exiting the van. They definitely looked tired, but it was understandable.

During the waiting time, before BTS showed up and while all of us had 0 idea of what was going on, a very nice woman with gorgeous eyes started walking up and down the lines. This happened a few times. TGM maybe, no. Just a fan. Fans and venue staff ended up organizing the whole thing. This woman made sure that if/when TGM arrived we would all behave and show how good Toronto was. She was also the one to give us updates. I also have a video of her speaking.

At 5:30, all VIP and autograph people were brought in. GA were sorted into 3 rows to get us off the street. The venue was good at letting those of us who had been lining up since early get in first. Everything was very organized and neat. I saw a security guard trying to calm down a girl who was having a panic attack, which I thought was very good.

At about 6-6:30, they started letting all GA in. We were told we’d get our shirts after the show and we were given our wrist bands. We all piled into the venue, me and can-o-tuna-balism sticking together along with our new found friends. The show started at 7 with Consio doing 4 or 5 songs. He got the crowed really hyped, and he was really good. When he left the stage everyone started chanting “BTS BTS BTS”. At one point we heard a cough in a mic and a small hi, I’m pretty sure it was j hope, but about 5 or 10 minutes after that BTS came on and preformed NO right away.

This was my least favourite part tbh. I mean not because of BTS or because of NO (which is my like one of my all time faves). No, it was because the fans were screaming too loud to actually hear anything. I was being tightly sandwiched between two people, one of which look like she had passed out. A girl got in between can-o-tuna-balism and I and we ended up being separated, me being pushed to the middle, and they were pushed to the far left. We were even separated from our new friends. I was dreaming out too much to even enjoy No.
However once the song was done I found my way to them and BTS started talking.
If I remember correctly, the line up was V, Suga, Jin, Rapmon, Jungkook, Jimin, and then J-Hope. They started talking about Toronto, and honestly people were screaming too loudly for me to hear. I know Kookie mentioned Lake Ontario, Rapmon mentioned the scenery and people I believe, Jhope did his “I’m your hope, I’m your Angel, I’m Jhope” thing and said after the concert he wanted to go and eat with all of us. Jimin said “shhh shhh” and put his finger up to his lips before speaking about going somewhere with us. I couldn’t hear Jin at all, he spoke really softly. Yoongi said “Niagara falls” and then did cute waterfall sounds. Taehyung I couldn’t really hear but I know he smiled really big and said hi!! Also Yoongi is super pale, and Jimin looks like an actual angel. Tae looks so sweet. Jin is so friggin handsome man. J hope was just a big ball of smiles. Rapmon was v cool. Jungkook was v cute.

Rapmon also promised that in their next tour they’d come to Toronto because he really likes it here.

After that they preformed Dope, then Boy in Luv, then I Need U. By this point the fans stopped screaming so loudly and started singing along with the boys. They looked so happy and energetic and they interacted with us a lot.
In Boy in Luv, Tae stopped singing his lines and made us all sing his lines. When he was satisfied he nodded his head and gave us a thumbs up. He seemed really happy and impressed. The others would also point the mic at us for a word or two to sing for them, but not as much as Tae’s entire line.
In I Need U Yoongi did the same thing as Tae and made us rap his line for him. He looked really smug and stuck his tongue out a little. He honestly looked like he was having a lot of fun.
Also while the boys were talking, Yoongi and I made eye contact for a good 5-10 seconds because I was constantly staring at him and waving at him. He ended up nodding his head at me and gave a small smile and I smiled really big. The perks of being up close.

In between I Need U and Boy in Luv the boys took a short break. The were sweating a lot. At that point everyone started chanting “cypher! Cypher! Cypher!”, and the boy behind me was changing “touch my body!” and “mini skirt!”.

After I Need U they all said thank you, and V was the last on the stage. He looked a little bit lost tbh, and I thought he would go the wrong way for a second. But he gave the fans his signature smile and waved with both hands while saying “bye!” Or “bye bye” (it was hard to hear).

Then a girl came out and said high touch would start soon. Ally and I got a bottle of water while waiting and started making our way to where the door of the high touch would be.
At one point we couldn’t move much further so we stayed put. That was when the girl in front of us started wobbling a lot and looked really out of it. Her friend was very worried. Ally helped sit the girl down and gave her their water since the girl was dehydrated. All these fans started fanning the girl and giving her space to cool her down. I had her propped up on my knees and I gave her an energy bar I had snuck in (oops). Another fan had gotten a security guard to help the girl.
Honestly I was so proud of all the armies and how we took care of each other. Like its like we were all friends. It was amazing.
After that was the hightouch. We were led through a small hallway and got into single file, and then out of no where BTS was standing all in a line, perfect as can be. I wasn’t ready. I had originally wanted to tell Yoongi that he was a huge inspiration for me but I honestly couldn’t. I drew a blank.

I can’t remember the exact order because I was very dazed, but I know it was Rapmon, Yoongi (I made eye contact with him again and he did his little head noddy thingy), then I think it was J hope and Jin (maybe Jungkook and Jin??) then u know it was V and then Jungkook (I think??) and Jimin was the last one. Jimin actually grabbed my hand and shook it. All I could say was thank you to everyone of them.
Now why was I so distracted? Only because when I got to Yoongi I made eye contact with V and he started smiling really brightly when he saw my hat. So I kept solid eye contact with him until I got to him and I said thank you and he smiled really hugely and gave me a slight nod. I think he said thank you as well. So when it was the next member I was still dazed but Jimin brought be out of my daze with his sunshiney smile and high voice. I forget what he said but I’m sure it was thank you. I had also tried looking Jin in the face before I got to V, but I couldn’t do it because he was just so handsome.

They all looked like pictures but also pictures don’t really do them any justice?? Like they are so handsome. And so nice too. Like they were all smiles and so so happy looking. They didn’t even look tired at all. They looked like they were having fun.

After that group photo people were led to the right and GA people were led to the left.

And that was the end of the concert. I’m still in so much shock. Thank you Taehyung for making my night, and Yoongi for making eye contact with me on stage, and Jhope for waving at me while on the bus.

I tagged the wrong person I’m bad at remembering URLs fuck.

Drunk Confessions (now in pt 1)

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4

Combined all parts, Use to be part 2 now in part 1

*Blow = Cocaine*

THANK YOU FOR ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT HERE IS PART 2

Your POV

Your heart starts racing. You can’t tell if you’re excited or afraid of what’s about to come. If you do date your brother Nate will literally murder you guys. Nate is only a year older then you but he still thinks he can control your whole life. You’ve seen on Twitter Derek’s ex friends trying to help him out with drugs and he just flips on them, tearing them apart. You won’t be able to handle something like that so you don’t know what to expect. You take a shower and do your hair and make-up. You put on a nice casual dress. You want to look good for him but not look like you’re trying too hard. The clock hits 2 and Nate leaves. Your stomach starts turning as your anxiety rises. You’re now going to be home alone with a 24 year old boy who is capable of having full control over you. You shake off the thought and go get a drink of water to help calm you down. You turn on the TV to the food channel because what’s more distracting then food? You hear the doorbell ring. You look down at your phone and it’s exactly 2:30. You open the door to see no one other than Derek. He stops and stares at you. Only about 10 seconds pass but it feels like 5 minutes.

“Hello?” You say breaking him out of his trans. “Oh, hey y/n. Sorry I just don’t think I’ve ever seen you in a dress before.” He says. “Yeah I don’t wear them often. I have trouble finding dresses that look good on me.” You respond playing with the bottom of the dress. “Well this one looks perfect” He smiled. “May I come in?” He points into the house. “Oh yeah of course, you know where everything is.” You say moving out of his way. He walks in and sits on the couch. You follow him. He’s texting someone on his phone and looks slightly pissed. He huffs and tosses his phone on the table. “Sorry I’m trying to get Chad to make sure Nate stays at the studio so we don’t have to worry about dying today.” He says breaking the awkward silence. You laugh at the fact you both understand Nate won’t appreciate this.

“Alright so just hear me out for a minute.” Derek starts “I’ve been thinking about this for a while. You have made me feel something I can’t explain. Something no one else has made me feel like. I am not the mushy lovey dovey person. But for some reason I am around you. I’m willing to do anything to be with you. I know you don’t want me to change but it’ll be for the positive. I know you’re so innocent and I’m the complete opposite but I want to give it a try. I need someone like you in my life. Please.” He moves closer to you on the couch now with his arm around your shoulder. You look down and play with your hands. He sounds so convincing but this whole thing is so risky. You’ve never done anything risky before so why not start now? Who knows it might be fun. Plus after Nate knows, if Derek ever tried to lash out on you he’d be there to protect you. “Okay let’s try this.” You say smiling nodding your head. You see his face light up. He leans in to kiss you but you put your hand in the way pushing him back. “Not so fast you haven’t heard what has to happen for this to work.” You raise your voice slightly. He nods and leans back “Go for it.” He says.

“One, my brother has to know. We can keep it quiet for two weeks to see if this even works out, and if it does he will be finding out-“ Derek cuts you off “Wait he’ll k-“ This time you cut him off “I don’t want to hear it. He’s the only family I have out here he’s going to know. Two, I don’t care if you smoke weed-“ You do care but you don’t want to cut everything out at once so you’ll work on that later “-I don’t care if you drink-“ That you really didn’t care about “-But the blow, pills all that serious shit needs to stop.” You say sternly. You can tell he thinks about it for a minute. Eventually he lets out a breath “Okay. Whatever you want.” “Also if I catch you doing any of this stuff the relationship ends immediately.” You continue. “Wait can’t you give me like a month to get over it?” he asks. “No. You stop now.” You add. “Okay I promise.” He says. Leaning in for a kiss again, this time you let him. A feeling both of you have been longing for, for a while. Your stomach turns at the excitement. Maybe he’ll really go through with this. He pulls back and you both smile at each other. You look at the clock and its now 3pm. Nate will be home in an hour. Derek decides to put a show on. “It’s only 30 minutes I swear.” He says seeing you getting nervous. You let him continue anyway.

Ten minutes pass and you hear a car door from outside. You get up and look out the front window to see your brother walking up to the door. “It’s Nate! Run!” you scream to Derek while locking the front door. You hear Derek curse under his breath as he runs out the back. You quickly go back to the couch. Nate unlocks the door and walks to the kitchen. “Hey y/n is Derek here?” he asks. Your heart starts pounding. How does he know!? “Who?” you try to play off. “My friend Derek. The older one with the long dark hair? Usually goofing off? His car is in the driveway but I don’t see him in it.” He continues. “I didn’t hear anyone ring the bell so I don’t know” You say. Nate walks to the front room looking out of the window. You quickly text Derek.

You hear the doorbell ring. “I’ll get it!” you hear Nate from upstairs. He comes down and answers the door. Confused you see Derek open the door. You couldn’t help but laugh. It was kind of cute. But now time to try and figure out how to tell Nate.

*YOU GUYS SHOWED ME SO MUCH SUPPORT WITH PART 1 AND I APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH. PLEASE DO THE SAME IF YOU WANT A PART 3. I HAVE A LOT PLANNED FOR THIS STORY BUT IF I DON’T HAVE MOTIVATION I CAN’T DO IT. I DON’T CARE IF YOU WANT TO BE ANON OR NOT JUST LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK AND REMEMBER IM OPEN FOR REQUESTS WHENEVER I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!*

Nino looked at me 7 times aka VS Arashi viewing report

I’ve recently hit the ballot to view the shooting of VS Arashi in Odaiba, Japan! I am in the fanclub since ‘10 and hit my first concert in ‘13, a movie premiere in ‘14, so I’ve been dying to hit one for a variety show to experience what that is like. After 4 years (not 6 b/c I wasn’t active in the first 2 years), I’ve FINALLY hit one and so I thought of sharing my experience! I don’t know when it will air (they said it was not decided) but I will try to not ruin anything as much as possible. One or two games will be mentioned because I can’t explain what I want to explain without mentioning it. Other than that, I will only talk about Arashi and not mention any names of the guests or the game result! After it airs on TV, I might come back here to add additional info. ALSO, it would mostly be just my personal experience. Not about their talk (since that will be aired someday). So, if you’re OK with all of the things above and the fact that it’s revolved around me, then please keep reading :) P.S. I know that technically there are strict rules to not share these materials, but since I’m not spilling out dark secrets or anything,  I made the call that it was safe to publish this. The safest thing I’ve done was not even put in when this took place although I’m not sure if that’ll do anything *shrugs* (And since Johnny san won’t check tumblr hopefully and there’s worse things to worry about like scam sites) 

Keep reading

A Complicated Love Part17 (Nash Grier)

PART 1  PART 2  PART 3  PART 4  PART 5  PART 6  PART 7  PART 8

PART 9  PART 10  PART 11  PART 12  PART 13  PART 14  PART 15  

PART 16

The time has come. The most nerve wrecking day of my life. The competition. It looked like the whole school was here. I knew Nash was here along with Sam and Matt. Lilly was here too. I sat in the front row with Luke, Ashton, Michael, and Calum to my left and Johnson and Gilisnky sat to my right. But then it was our turn to perform. I stood up as the second to last performers finished and walked back stage with the other boys. Everyone wished us luck. It didn’t take us long to get settled. I stood behind the curtain with Luke right by my side. “You ready?” He asked. “More than ready.” I said. We smiled at each other and walked back to Ashton and stood on the blocks we had set up by his drums. “And now for our last contestants in the Rising Star Competition… 5 Seconds Of Summer!” The lady yelled. The curtain rose and my heart skipped a beat. All the people in the audience. This wasn’t good. I looked at my brother and he nodded his head at me. I had to remember, we were singing Don’t Stop. Not my new song I’ve been writing. If I screwed up here… I’d never forgive myself. If it was just me, then I wouldn’t be to worried. But it was these four boys around me that was making me so nervous. Their dreams were depending on me. If I drag them down… I’d never be able to live my life without feeling guilt. Calum started playing and I listened as Luke sang. Then came my turn. My voice was almost masked as the others sang as well. Good. Because I’m sure if you listened close enough, you could hear my body shaking it was that bad.

Once we ended I stood there catching my breath with Luke beside me hearing the crowd clap. I looked out and saw my boys in a standing ovation clapping and cheering. I saw Johnson and I winked at him. I’m glad he was supporting us so much. I saw Nash clapping, but I didn’t pay any attention to him. He didn’t bother me right now. We walked off stage and sat down in our seats as they started announcing placements. It took about a good 10 minutes for those who didn’t place in the top spots to be placed. Then it came down to the top three. “Will The Young Rebels, Jack and Jack and 5 Seconds of Summer please come up on stage.” The lady announced. I stood up grabbing Luke and Ashton’s hands. We walked up and stood there. All I could do was stare down at the ground. “In third place is… Jack and Jack.” She announced. I looked over at the two of them who just hugged each other. They looked happy still. I clapped for them and I gave them each a hug before they went back off stage. That means it was down to us and the other band who were really good themselves. “Now I hold in my hand the winner of this competition. Remember the winner will be up for a record deal. So now I give you the results.” She said. I grabbed onto Luke and Ashton’s hand again and just looked down at the ground closing my eyes and hoping for us to win. “This years Rising Star first place winner is… The Young Rebels!” She yelled. My heart sunk and the boys let go of my hands. We started clapping and I faked a smile even though deep down inside… I was crying. The other band was screaming and jumping around. Me and the guys hugged and then walked backstage. “Hey, we did good and we had fun. That’s all that matters.” Calum said. “Ya at least we got second place!” Michael said. “I feel like we lost because of me.” I said under my breath. “Ally don’t be ridiculous! If anything you were the reason why we got in the top three in the first place!” Ashton said. “Ya Ally you wrote that song and you were also an awesome singer.” Luke said. I smiled at all of them as they tried to make me happy. “Hemmings!” I heard someone yell. A familiar voice. Oh no. Coach.

I turned around fear in my eyes as I came face to face with a furious Coach Parker. I skipped a basketball game for this. That’s the third one this season. Don’t forget that I’ve missed about half the practices trying to practice for this competition. “Coach… I can explain.” I said. “No Hemmings you’ve been focusing too much on the music. I gave you many warnings and you just kept missing practices and games.” He said. “But coach…” I stuttered. “I’m not going to fight with you Hemmings. You’re cut from the team for this season. You’ve missed too much and it’s not fair to your other teammates. I’m sorry but this was your own choice.” He said and then walked away. The tears started forming in my eyes. “Ally?” I heard Johnson’s voice. I turned around to see him and the others standing behind him. My eyes managed to find Nash’s as he stood there glaring at me. I couldn’t keep it together. I burst into tears and just ran out the doors. I didn’t want to talk. I just needed to be at home. In my room. Finishing my song. Now I could officially say my life was hell. First Nash and I broke up. I just lost Rising Star. And now… the only thing other than music keeping me happy was gone too. Basketball used to be my life. And I gave it all up, for this competition. And in a band that’s not even mine. It’s my brothers.

Eventually Luke made it outside too as I stood against the car looking up at the stars. “Ally? Do you want to talk?” He asked. “No. Let’s just go home.” I said getting in the car. The car ride was quiet and it felt long. I didn’t say a word to him. I couldn’t. Once he stopped the car in the driveway I got out and went straight to my room closing the door behind me. My bed. My guitar. My book. That’s all I needed. Finishing this song was the only thing I wanted right now. It was about Nash. But I knew once I’d give it to the boys… fans could relate to it. It’s slower. But with the way Luke can sing and the way the other boys can play, this song would be good.

 A/N—-Weren’t expecting them to loose huh? Lot has happened in this part I know I know. Tomorrow part will be amazing and I love it so be ready! Hope you enjoyed the double update today! Also don’t forget to stop by my ask box leave me anything you want and don’t forget to follow my twitter which is xxbabycashxx  Love you guys!

im so whipped for jimin that when i saw him in that video i legitimately started crying…. 4 tears…. and i got choked up…. i actually dont know how jimin does it… how does anyone deal with being THAT good looking…. does he walk past every reflective surface and stare for 5 minutes? does he only spend 10 seconds getting ready because he looks good as soon as he wakes up? is jimins camera roll full of selfies? how does he do it? a brave soul… no one should be that attractive… it physically hurt me… my heart is pounding a lil.. save me