i stabbed myself in the heart

you know what? and this is why even understood isak. he understood why isak was so hesitant to make the thing between them public, he understood homophobia and he saw how internalized it was for isak, because he went through something very, very similar. this is why when isak’s friend asks him where he forgot his snapback, even tells them in the cafeteria. this is why even never pressures him to come out, never gets upset with him for being timid. he doesn’t get upset when isak lies to eskild, and part of that is because what he has with isak is just so fucking great, and isak is worth waiting for.

this is why even is so patient. when isak goes in for a kiss in front of the cafe, and he backs off, even just laughs and smiles, because it’s okay. it’s okay that he isn’t ready for that, it’s okay that he’s still coming to terms with his sexuality and what it all means in the grand scheme of things (isak is one for the parallel universes, after all) and it’s okay because it’s them and they’re together and that’s all that really matters.

and when isak is ready, even is there to support him, to guide him through it, to squeeze his hand metaphorically and physically, because he knows that’s what isak needs (he’d wished someone like that had been there for him in the past, but it’s okay because seeing the expression on isak’s face reminds him that he was strong and now he can be strong for other people, too) and that’s what makes him such a great boyfriend, and why isak and even fit so perfectly together.

Dangerous Loyalty RP Starters
  • "It scares me what I'm willing to do for you."
  • "I don't care about anyone else, you're all that matters to me!"
  • "You know you can't refuse me anything I ask of you."
  • "You know I'd never refuse anything you asked of me."
  • "Say the word and I'm yours forever."
  • "If you love me as much as you say, then prove it."
  • "It's time that you proved your loyalty to me."
  • "I'll serve you forever if you'll allow me to do it."
  • "What will it take to make you go back on your oath of loyalty?"
  • "Will you trust me with the rest of your life?"
  • "My life is in your hands."
  • "You're going to take this gun, you're going to pull the trigger and you're going to shoot them. And do you know why? Because I told you to do it."
  • "I'd die if you asked me to."
  • "You would die if I asked you to."
  • "I could stab you in the heart and you would still come crawling back."
  • "You can do anything you want to me, I don't care!"
  • "I'll take the fall for you."
  • "I want you to take the fall for me."
  • "I could never act against you, not even to defend myself."
  • "My safety isn't important! You're what matters!"
  • "If hurting me is what makes you happy, then I'm only happy to indulge you."

I looked through our conversations when we used to be on cloud nine and in love, these were the times you told me how lucky you are to have a girl like me, how thankful you are because you never received such love I was giving to you and whatever happens, you will never let me go. The words you said mean everything to me and it stabs my heart, realizing that these words mean nothing anymore. I can’t help myself but to cry my heart out till the sun has set. The pain is too heavy to bear, the love I believed to be true and different was gone. We used to be over the moon, but the present tells the opposite. This is stupid of me to say but, I won’t deny the fact that I miss you so much. I love you, I still do. But somehow, I’ve come with the thought that I can’t do anything anymore, I need to let you go because it’s the right thing to do. I’ve decided to finally move on and this would be the last time I would cry over you because there was nothing left to hold on to and I can’t hold on to something that doesn’t want to be held.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry because I was the reason why you let things end. I’m sorry for the terrible mistake I made, I never blamed you for deciding to end this because you were hurt and I understand. I only have myself to blame. But, I was hoping you would’ve understood, that I did it for us. I always feared the day would come, the day you will finally won’t take back the words you’ve said. I’m sorry for the other things that have hurt you, for the things that made you cry, jealous and mad. 


Thank you. I’m thankful that I met you because you have given me a temporary bliss. I laughed and smiled because of you. Somehow, you made me feel loved and beautiful in a short period of time. Thank you for the good days: the days we felt unstoppable like we’re flying high, when holding your hand felt like home, leaning on your shoulders made me feel secure and hearing your voice sound like the angels are singing. It was worth it, being loved and loving you. Thank you for making me realize how capable I am to love someone. You proved forever within a number of days. You were the greatest and worst thing ever happen to me. 


Goodbye. This will be the last time that I will write you a message, I’ll accept the fact that some things are meant to end, even though I used to believe that you won’t let that happen. I did everything I could to make you stay, but I guess your life no longer includes me because, you’re happy now and I can see that clearly. You already found a love that’s all the things ours couldn’t be. I hope you find overwhelming joy by her side, I hope she won’t hurt you and make you cry. I hope for the best for the both of you. It hurts but I’ve accepted the painful truth that I am just a distant memory now. I don’t regret loving you, but what I regret is that I let myself believe that this would last.


I won’t forget you and the memories, I will always keep you alive in my heart. I’ll just get used to not having you in my life anymore. Deep within my heart knows getting over you won’t be simple. I need to stop loving you so I can start loving myself again. You were a painful blessing, but you were also a great lesson. I guess you’re just another chapter of my life needed to end. I still and will pray for your safety and happiness even though I’m in pain right now, I still believe you deserve the best. I hope you find everything in her that you couldn’t find in me. You will always be my greatest love.

—  S.L // unsent last message

anonymous asked:

harry looks better with short hair☕

harry with short hair? truly iconic, amazing, incredible, brilliant and life chANGING!!

but……

nothing will ever top the way harry’s hair looked on 16th sep 2014. phoenix harry was a religious experience, and i honestly don’t know what i did to deserve to see that with my own two eyes

his smile and his two front teeth??/?>?>

like… he just knows.. he knows he’s the king of the world (and my heart)

ummmmm,,,,,,,, stab me with a knife it’d hurt less!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

uh no i’m not crying that’s just some harry styles in my eyes hahaHAHA

:))))))))))))))))))))))))) (dats me screaming with my mouth closed)

i.. i don’t even know what to say anymore.. guess i’ll just throw myself off a fucking cliff??????

that’s it folks, it was nice knowing yall,, goodb ye cruel world

But look closely here…

I just realized his eyes were open!

Until that last moment when his lips completely close around hers, his eyes were open a crack and on her.

And when their lips lock, his lashes fall down, squeeze tight, and he gives in completely. 

He was watching her up until the last second, while her eyes were closed… exactly like their first kiss 

where he opened his eyes first and just memorized her face while she memorized the kiss, until that last second.

The fucking parallels between 3x01 and 4x01 - his eyes were open before and after. 

I’m not okay.

anonymous asked:

H-hi if it's not t-too much to ask can I have the RFA + saeran and v reacting to an MC crying and calling herself fat because she can't fit into her jeans anymore because of her huge belly bump? Cause ya know hormones? Thx bb ^^

I might add Saeran and V later to this but after writing the RFA I’m wiped out haha! I wasn’t quite sure what kind of belly bump you meant? Like pregnancy or period bloating or regular bloating or stress induced weight-gain idk any number of reasons our bodies do weird shit to absolutely ruin our days so I didn’t specify lol hope that’s alright!~


◉ Yoosung 

  • He’s super flustered at first because he doesn’t really know how to react???
  • Knee-jerk reaction is to run for advice from his mom or sister 
  • Has his phone in his hand ready to dial, but he also doesn’t want to leave you alone 
  • So he shoves it back in his pants pocket  
  • Brings you tissues and sits next to you 
  • Rubs your back 
  • He just stays really quiet but is there for you and lets you cry it out 
  • Pulls your head into his chest a bit 
  • If you call yourself fat his brows are knitting together in that classic Yoosung Angry Face™ and he will scold you immediately 
    • Stop it. Don’t talk about the person I love like that. Not only does it hurt you…but it hurts me, too. You’re perfect any way you are. And that’s that.” 

◉ Jumin 

  • He easily keeps a cool head as soon as you burst into tears
  • But he holds your hand
    • Shh, calm yourself… Stop crying and then explain to me what the problem is.”
  • Once you explain to him about your pants, a small smile creeps on to his face 
  • Although he thinks its absolutely ridiculous, it’s still cute that you’re worried about something so trivial 
    • “Is that all?”he gingerly sweeps the hair from your face with a light chuckle. “It’s just pants. If it means that much to you, I’ll have them re-tailored. I’ll buy you a whole closet full of brand new pants that fit you perfectly, if that’s what you want.”
    • “It’s…not about the pants, Jumin.”
  • He’s a bit confused until you explain to him how you feel about your weight 
  • He kisses the hand he is holding before making you look in his eyes 
    • I don’t see that at all,” he says seriously. “Your appearance doesn’t concern me. I love everything about you. Now, and forever.” 

◉ Zen 

  • When he stumbled upon you crying, his mouth dropped 
  • *makes that little ???? sound like his confused emoji in the chat room*
  • Tries to…distract himself…from the fact that your pants are just barely over your thighs 
  • Cups your face in his hands and kisses you 
  • That’s basically a cure for anything in Zens eyes 
    • “Why are you crying?” he asks quietly when he sits down on the bed next to you 
  • It makes sense once you explain it to him 
  • He works with actresses and actors who are constantly worried about their appearance and weight 
  • And even he has to keep an eye on himself 
  • But it hit a particularly painful part of him to see the person he cherishes most crying over something like that 
    • “Screw these pants, then!” 
  • Zen rips them off of you and throws them out of the room 
  • Gets down on a knee in front of you as you sit on the edge of the bed, placing a hand to either side of your hips 
    • “That pair of pants doesn’t mean a damn thing. I know. I could take you out to a store right now and you’d be a different ‘size’ in every designer. I see people all the time, killing themselves over a dumb number on a tag. I love everything about you, and it has nothing to do with you being able to button those jeans.”

◉ Jaehee 

  • She could kind of relate 
  • However, it was hard for her to form words enough to comfort you when she saw you crying 
  • For a minute or so she just kinds stood there in the doorway, stoically watching you stare at the jeans 
    • “Ugly.” she finally spoke 
    • “What?” you looked up with a sniffle 
    • “Those jeans. They’re hideous,” she said matter of factly 
  • The random outburst made you actually laugh a bit
    • “Brunt as usual,” you smiled 
    • “In fact,” she leaned against the door frame, “I was hoping in the next day or so that I could toss them in the trash while you were at work and maybe you wouldn’t notice”
  • You both began to giggle quietly, and she smiled as you wiped your tears 
  • Glad she could say anything to ease your discomfort and remind you how much she doesn’t care about your jeans or looks 
    • “Well, what are you just sitting there for? Let’s go get some new clothes that actually flatter your beautiful frame. I’ll drive.” 

◉ Saeyoung 

  • This was surprising
    • Wha-?! What happened?!” 
  • He was walking in the hallway eating chips when he heard muffled cries from the bedroom 
  • He immediately took to your side 
  • For a while he just let you cry while he sat close 
  • He wanted badly to pull you in to him but he didn’t think that it was the right time 
  • He nodded and listened to you between sobs 
  • But when you called yourself fat he felt a stab in his heart 
  • You noticed a somber look on his face 
    • “Honestly…I’ve been having the same problem with myself…” he said sadly 
    • “W-what? Really? But…” you wiped your eyes to look at him 
    • “Ya,” he admitted. “I never cared about how much honey buddha chips I ate, but when I couldn’t fit into my pants the other day, I…”
    • “Hey!” you grabbed his hand, “how could you…I love you! You’re so perfect and-”
  • Saeyoung looked up with a cheeky grin 
    • “Hah!” he poked your cheek. “See? You love me enough either way. Well, it’s the same for you. Do you see now?” 
  • You slapped his arm lightly for messing with you but you couldn’t help but smile at the realization 
    • “No matter how big, small, old or wrinkly we get,” he continued after giving you a quick innocent kiss, “we are stuck with each other, okay?” he smiled 

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✧ TEEN  WOLF  PROMPTS.

possible triggers, read/reblog with caution. nsfw metions. change pronouns as you seet fit!

  • SEASON ONE :

❛ You weren’t answering you’re phone! Why do you have a bat?! ❜
❛ I thought you were a predator! ❜
❛ We’re actually doing this? ❜
❛ You’re the one always bitching that nothing happens in this town! ❜
❛ I was trying to get a good nights sleep before practice tomorrow. ❜
❛ Everyone should have a dream, even a pathetically unrealistic one. ❜
❛ Just out of curiosity, which half of the body are we looking for? ❜
❛ Huh, I didn’t even think about that. ❜
❛ And, uh, what if whoever killed the body is still out here? ❜
❛ Also something I didn’t think about. ❜
❛ Okay, let’s see this thing. ❜
❛ It was too dark to see much, but I’m pretty sure it was a wolf. ❜
❛ A wolf bit you? ❜
❛ I heard a wolf howling. ❜
❛ What do you mean “No, I didn’t?” ❜
❛ How do you know what I heard? ❜
❛ Because California doesn’t have wolves, okay? ❜
❛ I’m a nerd by association. I’ve been Scarlet-Nerded by you. ❜
❛ It was like I had all the time in the world to catch the ball. ❜
❛ I can hear stuff I shouldn’t be able to hear. Smell things. ❜
❛ Smell things? Like what? ❜
❛ So, all this started with the bite? ❜
❛ What if it’s like, an infection? ❜
❛ Like my body flooding with adrenaline before I go into shock or something? ❜
❛ You know what? I actually think I’ve heard of this. ❜
❛ Hey, you’re the one who heard a wolf howling. ❜
❛ Hey, there could be something seriously wrong with me! ❜
❛ You’ve been given something that most people would kill for. ❜
❛ Where are you getting your juice? ❜
❛ So, you killed her? ❜
❛ Maybe it was my blood on the door? ❜
❛ I’ve never had a dream where I woke up like that before. ❜
❛ You know, maybe you caught a rabbit or something. ❜
❛ Maybe you should stop pretending to suck just for his benefit. ❜
❛ Trust me, I do plenty of sucking just for his benefit. ❜
❛ Do you wanna hang out, like us and them? ❜
❛ You know what else sounds fun? Stabbing myself in the face with this fork. ❜
❛ Once my heart starts beating again, yeah. ❜
❛ Start the car, or I’m gonna rip your throat out. With my teeth. ❜
❛ It was a different kind of bullet. ❜
❛ What am I supposed to do with him? ❜
❛ You faint at the sight of blood? ❜
❛ This house is like the frickin’ Wal-Mart of guns. ❜
❛ I don’t know whether to kill it or lick it. ❜
❛ You wanna do homework? Or you wanna not die? ❜
❛ We don’t go out in the middle of the night murdering people, do we? ❜

  • SEASON TWO :

❛ Please let him go, and I’ll do– I’ll do whatever you want! Okay? ❜
❛ I swear. I won’t- I won’t see him again. I promise, never again! ❜
❛ I’ve got a missing teenage girl, and our K-9 unit led us here. ❜
❛ I’m sorry, I - I didn’t see anything. ❜
❛ Trust me, if he saw a naked girl outside a computer screen, he’d remember. ❜
❛ School fight? ❜
❛ Oh, no, sorry. I was just remembering, I actually have a morning practice to get to. ❜
❛ Just one more question. You guys get many grave robberies here? ❜
❛ Usually, they just take stuff like jewelry. ❜
❛ Okay, nothing else? Seriously? ❜
❛ I just said it was missing. ❜
❛ And you know what? Even if she did, so what? ❜
❛ It’s the most nutritious part of the body. ❜
❛ You’re the test case for this, so we should be going over what happened to you. ❜
❛ I mean like what was going through your mind when you were turning, you know?  ❜
❛ Here’s a dollar. Go find another parking lot to die in.  ❜
❛ Now, I don’t want the same thing happening to some innocent girl. ❜
❛ So, police are organizing search parties for tonight. ❜
❛ Sign up, find the missing girl, you get an automatic A in my class. ❜
❛ Because we have a pretty good idea that she might be… you know, turning. ❜
❛ A unicorn. What do you think, dumbass? ❜
❛ What do you think she’s gonna do with a set of real claws? ❜
❛ Hey, you know, maybe they’re just here for the funeral? ❜
❛ I mean - what if they’re the non-hunting side of the family? ❜
❛ You wouldn’t be lying to me, would you, ______? ❜
❛ You wanna take this little conversation downstairs? No? ❜
❛ Tell you what, you do the dishes and clean up the kitchen, okay? ❜
❛ I have my responsibility as a parent. ❜
❛ You know I’m gonna have to find a way to punish you though. ❜
❛ Well, that was your fault. ❜
❛ Shut up! It’s a scratch! It’s hardly even… ❜
❛ I have beautiful everything. ❜
❛ You wanna just make out a little bit? Just to see how it feels? ❜
❛ This new-found heroism is making me very attracted to you. ❜
❛ What did you see in the mechanic garage? ❜
❛ Did you notice that I’m paralyzed from the neck down in 8 feet of water! ❜
❛ Can’t you just trust me this once? ❜
❛ I’m the one who keeps you alive, okay. Did you notice that? ❜
❛ Sounds like the beginning of a heartfelt story, but I’m gonna pass.. ❜
❛ I thought you were psychic, bitch? ❜
❛ Dude, everyone in here is a dude. I think we’re in a gay club. ❜
❛ Man, nothing gets past those keen werewolf senses? ❜
❛ One more question– just one. Are you okay? ❜
❛ We’re just a bunch of teenagers. We can’t handle this. ❜
❛ Sarcasm is my only defense. ❜
❛ I have to ground you. I am grounding you. You are grounded. ❜

  • SEASON THREE :

❛ I have to… I have to tell him.. ❜
❛ Do you have any other emergency werewolf contacts? ❜
❛ So, if you need to do that thing where we talk about me. ❜
❛ I don’t want a boyfriend. I want a distraction.. ❜
❛ And, seriously, an American werewolf in London? Like that’s not going to be a disaster. ❜
❛ Can we drive? Now, please? ❜
❛ All of them? How does that even work? ❜
❛ I have been looking for them the last four months. ❜
❛ Do you know what I want for my birthday? ❜
❛ Have you never done it before either? ❜
❛ We don’t like you. Now, shut up and help us. ❜
❛ So, I hope you’re comfortable saying whatever it is you were feeling straight to my face. ❜
❛ Okay, all right, now. Come on, no one died, alright? ❜
❛ Look, there may have been some maiming, okay? A little mangling, but no death! ❜
❛ I can’t take waiting around like this, you know? ❜
❛ My nerves are wracked, they’re severely wracked. Wracked. ❜
❛ What… like, why wouldn’t they chain them up in some underground lair or something? ❜
❛ They’re an Alpha pack, right? So, shouldn’t they have a lair? ❜
❛ Wait a sec, wait a sec– maybe they’re living there! ❜
❛ It’s not the first time you’ve gotten your hands dirty. ❜
❛ I could beat you unconscious and wake you when it’s over? ❜
❛ I just… I don’t understand the bank, though, okay? ❜
❛ I’m supposed to call you first when I find a dead body? ❜
❛ You called the police before you called me? ❜
❛ They’re too fast for us, for all of us. They’re too strong, too rabid. ❜
❛ And, just curious, is there a reason the gun is still pointed at me? ❜
❛ Well, there’s probably still some part of me that wants to shoot you… ❜
❛ Does anybody else want to rethink the plan where we just, uh, kill ‘em? ❜
❛ I just wanted to make sure you got in okay! ❜
❛ I know the inner workings of that force, alright? ❜
❛ You didn’t have to follow me home. ❜
❛ So, if these aren’t random killings, then what are they? ❜
❛ Come over to my place at nine. Plan on staying the night. I like to cuddle. ❜
❛ Am I the only one recognizing the lack of werewolfitude in these murders? ❜
❛ It means my lack of sexual experience is now literally a threat to my life, okay? ❜
❛ You know who else is a virgin? Me. I’m a virgin, okay? ❜
❛ I need to have sex. Like, right now. Someone needs to have sex with me, like, today. ❜
❛ What do you want? You want to kill me? ❜
❛ We shouldn’t have come. I knew it. We shouldn’t have come. ❜
❛ Are you just following the bus, or are you planning on mounting it at some point? ❜
❛ How do you know it’s not from the archery team? ❜
❛ Cut off the head of the snake, and the body dies. ❜
❛ Just once, can someone try to come up with something that doesn’t involve killing everyone? ❜
❛ I’m telling you this because they scare the hell out of me. ❜
❛ Somebody’s been doing their summer reading! ❜
❛ Well, maybe we could do what normal people do, and knock on the door. ❜

[LYRICS] 각성 (Awakening) by Rap Monster

Korean

내가 추락하는 그 순간
누가 내 손 잡아줄 건가
무대를 내려온 순간
그 누가 내 옆에 있을까
Just tell me that i can survive
In this cold world, just feel my vibe
I know one day at a time
The sun gon’ shine

I lost too many friends
You know that i did lost too many clans
Being a singer i lost too many bands
I couldn’t help but spit and spit keepin repeatin too many damns
Gotta let my eyes watch too many ends
Outside was a whole battlefield so i bring out the chopper
밤마다 내 안에 있는 나 스스로와 싸워
심장은 뛰고, 내 동료들은 내 뒷통수를 쳐
회사 가더니 병신 다 됐다며

Yeah fuck you I’m an idol, yeah yeah i’m an idol
한 땐 싫었지만 now I love to get that title
방송 나와서 끝끝내 부정하는 누구들관 다르게
이젠 온전히 날 인정하고 그저 나는 나를 해
아이돌인지 아티스트인진 사실 중요한 적 없었지
니들이 날 보는 시선. 그게 나일 뿐이었었지
타이틀에 연연하고 수식어에 목맸네
잘 들어봐 시간이 지나 조금은 더 똑똑해진 놈의 랩
이 말들은 아니야 wordplay, it just a warplay the world plays
우린 다시 병정처럼 싸울 뿐 errday
Yehh 난 제대로 걸어 비트 위에 목숨을 걸 땐
이 노랠 부르는 오늘이 나의 두 번째 birthday
My buddies the way you taught me, the confidence that you got me
was more than ‘rarri, lambo mercy, maserati you got me?
이제 그냥 come give me an XO. go bring your next soul
끝없는 냉소 but im 랭보 지옥에서 보낸 네 철
BOOM

내가 추락하는 그 순간
누가 내 손 잡아줄 건가
무대를 내려온 순간
그 누가 내 옆에 있을까
Just tell me that i can survive
In this cold world, just feel my vibe
I know one day at a time
The sun gon’ shine

내가 추락하는 그 순간
누가 내 손 잡아줄 건가
무대를 내려온 순간
그 누가 내 옆에 있을까
Just tell me that i can survive
In this cold world, just feel my vibe
I know one day at a time
The sun gon’ shine

English

The moment I begin to fall
Who’s going to hold my hand?
The moment that I step off the stage
Who’s going to be by my side?
Just tell me that I can survive
In this cold world, just feel my vibe
I know one day at a time
The sun gon’ shine

I lost too many friends
You know that I did lost too many clans
Being a singer I lost too many bands
I couldn’t help but spit and spit keepin repeatin too many damns
Gotta let my eyes watch too many ends
Outside was a whole battlefield so i bring out the chopper
Every night I fight with my inner self
My heart is beating, my co-workers stab me in the back
I hear you all became idiots after going to work at a company

Yeah fuck you I’m an idol, yeah yeah I’m an idol
Though I didn’t like it at one point, now I love to get that title
Unlike those people who come on air and are dishonest until the very end
Now I just fully acknowledge myself and just keep on doing me
Whether I was an idol or an artist was never really important
(Before), the way that you looked at me, that was all I was
I clung onto titles and hung myself on labels
Listen carefully now, to the rap of someone who’s gotten a bit smarter as time passed
These words are not wordplay, it just a warplay the world plays
We’re just fighting like soldiers errday
Yehh, I walk properly when I put my life on the line for the beat
Today, when I sing this song, is my second birthday
My buddies the way you taught me, the confidence that you got me
Was more than ‘rarri, lambo mercy, maserati you got me?
Now just come give me an XO, go bring your next soul
An endless cynical smile but I’m Rimbaud, your season in Hell*
BOOM

The moment I begin to fall
Who’s going to hold my hand?
The moment that I come off stage
Who’s going to be by my side?
Just tell me that I can survive
In this cold world, just feel my vibe
I know one day at a time
The sun gon’ shine

The moment I begin to fall
Who’s going to hold my hand?
The moment that I come off stage
Who’s going to be by my side?
Just tell me that I can survive
In this cold world, just feel my vibe
I know one day at a time
The sun gon’ shine

(T/N: * Referring to the French poet Arthur Rimbaud. This line uses wordplay
              on Rimbaud’s poem ‘Une Saison en Enfer/A Season In Hell’.)

Trans cr; Jessie / Spot checks by; Yein @ bts-trans
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anonymous asked:

"Namjoon is a genius and namjoon is in the top tier of kpop rappers." How so? I don't disagree, I just want to hear some Namjoon appreciation.

me: loves this ask

me: takes 8 years to respond

im sorry i took forEVER to respond pal! i wanted to do this justice and ive been hella busy

OKRR. SO THIS IS WHY JOONIE IS ONE OF THE GREATEST

1) lets look at the obvious first; the reception of various rappers and the general rap community

  • Warren G: “Even though I wasn’t able to understand his lyrics completely, I can say that it was really good. The flow, the style and his rhythm are all very good.” and “When listening to Rap Monster’s songs, it sounds a bit like me or Snoop Dogg rapping over the beats to what we’ve made.” AND “If I comment from an artist and a producer point of view, Rap Monster is one of the best rappers I know. The way he delivers his rap is outstanding.” (me: *chokes*)
  • Tiger JK: called namjoon “the industry junior who changed his preconceptions about idols.”
  • SPIN Review: “With smartly snagged instrumentals from Run the Jewels and Big K.R.I.T., a cameo from Tech N9ne sidekick Krizz Kaliko, and surprisingly sturdy hooks on the piano-bar blues “Life” and the hammering standout single “Do You,” Kim Namjoon actually stands a chance of making a dent in the States.”
  • XXL Mag: “Rap Monster rarely fails to live up to his name. The Ilsan, South Korea-raised rapper is one of the region’s most dexterous rappers, capable of switching flows effortlessly as he glides across an array of diverse instrumentals.”
  • DJ Booth (Lucas G): “I really like the balance between rapping in Korean and rapping in English. If the project was all in Korean, I’m not sure I could have connected with him but by mixing the two languages together he provides the listener with a brand new experience; I don’t feel like a passive listener. Shit even when he’s rapping in Korean, I can still feel his words. He’s got a hunger and an excitement that can be felt in any language.”
  • Tony Jones: “Rap Monster can outrap any rapper” (tbh not super relevant but i had to include it bc its so cute)
  • i highkey feel like there is more but rn im functioning on half my brain cells rip


2) lyrics; this is really important to me. lots of ppl pick rappers off of their beats and how lit they are.. THIS ISN’T RAPPING. if yall want lit beats tune into the producer or just listen to trap. that’s not what rap is about. 

lyrics are CRAZY important! and like, diss and bragging lyrics are such a sidebar. if you can only diss and brag I’m sorry but you aren’t worth shit lol.

here in my opinion are some of his best lyrics (READ THIS SHIT! YALL PLEASE)

  • “the thing that redeemed me too, the things that pushed into me - the distant precipice and everything, that’s all me - foolish humanity, you too can become gods - hold your head straight and try, a saint’s smile - Jesus’ footsteps, Allah’s prayers - even until Maria’s love, all of it is inside you - this is unconditional redemption and unconditional belief” (God Rap)
  • “I live to understand the world - But the world didn’t once understand me” (Always)
  • “these people who clamor for respect with their own mouths - even they don’t know the misjudgments of those words - freedom and self-indulgence, they’re obviously different” (Do You)
  • “if you look less at wits, there are a lot of things that change - you were born as a hero, why are you trying to become a slave? - “because it hurts, it’s youth” - that kind of definition is the biggest problem - in life a genre is a trap, just like music - because you become an idiot as soon as you’re tied down there - fuck that.” (Do You)
  • “every night inside me I quietly fight with myself - my heart pounds, my colleagues stab me in the back - while saying that I became a moron after joining a company- yeah fuck you I’m an idol, yeah yeah I’m an idol - at one time I hated it but now I love to get that title” (Awakening)
  • “I thought I could catch the mirage known as happiness - but the me in front of my desk wasn’t happy even for a moment - without my mom knowing, I put a sheet of white paper between the pages of my workbook - my identity that I wrote down matched to the drum and bass - a different, relaxed feeling compared to when I got my report card” (Voice)
  • “do you know the reality that there’s no shadow in the fire? - then will I become the fire or will I become the light, that’s my question - so if I become the light then in the daylight, then the darkness - closes his eyes when it’s bright and when others sleep, opens his eyes again - even though I felt suffering I thank you” (God Rap)
  • “life is more beautiful knowing that we’ve taken a loan on death - even light is treasured more when there’s darkness - the sunshine appears after we’ve passed through the storm” (Life)
  • “but the thing that we all learned at some point was how - to step on someone, to catch them, to erase them, to hate them - fuck all the peace and love, I know that that’s the natural enemy of success - that’s too obvious” (Life)
  • “everything can coexist, positive and negativity - the thing that guides me and this world is ultimately those two’s synergy - all wanderings related to existence, sometimes until they’re chaotic - even those moments now seem lovable - if you’re confused about what is right and what is wrong - what makes me want to live again, think about it” (I Believe)
  • OK SO LIKE THESE ARE DISS LYRICS BUT YALL BETTER KNOW THIS IS SOME OF THE MOST SAVAGE SHIT IVE EVER HEARD: “Even if you don’t like me, you know me - I like hate comments more than no comments - I DON’T KNOW YOU - BUT YOU KNOW MY NAME” (Cypher 4
  • credit to btstrans for lyrics


3) delivery…  every rapper has their own style and namjoon for sure has great fucking delivery omg (that voice tho). in terms of pure flow i have three fav songs…

Awakening: the song that made me a Rap Monster fan (way before I knew what kpop was). The intensity and emotion in his voice still gives me chills.

Joke: his vocal control, his phrase stylization, his ability to spit so flawlessly with like no air… Joke is ALL about flow

P.D.D.: so chill… but the way he raps still draws in the listener; this is partially due to the natural depth and beauty of his voice, but a lot of it is in the energy his delivery has, even when it’s relaxed as fuck. namjoon raps like he’s telling a story, and the rise and fall of his voice is perfectly responsive and sensitive to his lyrics.


4) live stages! his lives are great. i won’t say they’re perfect, but they are still awesome and he always gets hype as FUCK and gets the audience into it

What Am I To You: i literally get so fucking emotional. dont debate this with me, this is honestly his best live stage ever. fucking flawless.

Do You: you see me bopping to this shit in my home? im getting fucking hyped yall as i write this


OKAY BOO BOO HOPE YOU LIKED THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!! comment/reblog with what you think makes Namjoon an amazing rapper!!

as always, if you think im wrong, pls message me ;)

Slipping Away- Newt Scamander x Reader

Request: Your writing is my life. Can I request something hella angsty. i dont care what it is but i need angst. Also can it be a happy ending? thanks

A/n: I love writing angst, also sorry this is kind of late

Warnings: insecurities, implied emotional breakdowns, angsty themes everywhere, slight swearing

Enjoy!

You sat combing your wet hair in the bathroom as drops of water from the faucet still echoed throughout, breaking the eerie silence. You allowed the comb to weave and untangle the messy locks of your hair before you hung the towel back up on its rack. With a sigh, you turned back towards the mirror, which was now fogging slightly. Your eyes were tired and your face lacked its usual perky smile, for its existence had long been faded. The water drops ceased, leaving you in silence once more, a sound you were far too accustomed to in recent times.

Newt had been spending so much time away in his habitats recently, and it was beginning to have a negative effect on you. You knew in your heart that the beasts were important to him, they were important to you as well, but he had spent days working constantly on his book, and you longed for some sort of affection besides a brief hug or kiss every now and then. Even now he was hard at work inside of his case, probably watching the occamies again since they had just hatched.

All you wanted was some attention, a sign that he was still there. The two of you had been dating for about a year or so now, and you thought he still loved you. If he did, then he wasn’t showing it or even really making an attempt to. You felt a dull throbbing ache in your chest on a daily basis. It often worsened as you prepared breakfast by yourself in your empty kitchen with nothing but a light jazz record to accompany you, or when you would end up falling asleep in a cold bed, only to wake up the next morning in the same state. You just needed someone to love, someone to talk to. By now you were starting to wonder as to what would happen if you just disappeared, if you just vanished into thin air or ceased to exist. He didn’t really need you anyways. If anything you stood in his way, he could easily live without you.

You readjusted your sweater collar before unlocking the door and heading out into the main room, only to stop in your tracks at the sight before you.

Newt was standing in your shared bedroom doorway, holding what appeared to be a worn blue notebook.

‘Oh no,’ you thought as a wave of anxiety washed over your form. You wanted to shrink away into a darkened hole and never come back out.

Newt stood slightly hunched over as he flipped through the pages of the notebook. His eyebrows furrowed in confusion, shock, and hurt. What he didn’t know is that this notebook just so happened to be the one where his love wrote all of their deepest and darkest feelings. Tear stains and ink splotches dotted the page margins and creased lay darkened. His oceanic eyes scanned each word, stabbing his heart with a jagged knife. The entries all varied, but each had been written with a common theme.

October 2, 1925
Today I am feeling more lonely than usual, and the feeling itself is rather unsettling. I’m trying to occupy myself, but I still think that the pain would subside if Newt were here. However, I can’t interrupt is work, even though he’s been so busy with it. Sometimes I wish he would just take a break for once…

October 19, 1925
Another empty bed, and another sleepless night.


October 27, 1925
Newt and I got into a small disagreement today, and we haven’t spoken for a bit. I hope our relationship, or whatever is left of it, can survive. He’s been a bit more distant, and I know that he’s off working on his novel, but I really do miss him. Sometimes I wonder if he would be happier if I were gone, so that he could maybe be with someone else who isn’t as annoying or clingy or stupid. Maybe he can find another pretty and kind person to snuggle up to at night.
I wonder if he still cares or thinks about me. I prepared his favorite tea, hoping he would come back up for dinner, but he didn’t. I miss him, but I guess I can’t interrupt him.


He paused, and then looked at the most recent entry, which was dated to yesterday.

November 3, 1925
I don’t know how much more of this I can take. I know he doesn’t hate me, but I can’t take being alone anymore. Maybe he’s purposely avoiding me, and maybe that’s why he doesn’t talk or hug or kiss me as much as he used to. If I had been better or smarter, or perhaps more beautiful would he have stayed? Am I that annoying and hard to be around to the point where my own boyfriend may not love me anymore?



Newt wasn’t able to make it through the final passage. It stung his heart and eyes too much. Sobs were choked back as his hands began to shake violently out of anger, not really towards you, but towards himself. Just then, a thud brought him back out of his thoughts.

You had accidentally dropped the comb in your hand, causing it to create a sound causing Newt’s worries and concerned expression to face towards you. He closed the book softly as if it were fashioned out of glass and he moved towards you. Your heartrate and breathing raced in panic as the world swirled around you.

Newt was probably furious, angry and packed with rage that you thought or said things like that about him, and not even towards his face. You had been selfish, he was only trying to write his book, but oh no, you had to be a pathetic person and desire attention at all hours of the day. You wanted to rip your hair out and scream, as you felt slightly betrayed that he had found the book from its hidden space under your side of the bed and read it, scanning over each word with his own two crystal eyes. You feared his reaction. If your relationship wasn’t over yet, it soon would be for sure. His eyes and face were already turning red and you braced yourself for the worst. You prepared for him to scream and yell and spit words furiously at you. You expected a full blown fight like never before. Your heart shattered into smaller remains, stabbing you from the inside out and pricking your chest. Your lungs became filled with toxic smoke, and all you needed was oxygen, but its freedom was nowhere to be found. You feared for darkness. You feared for a dark storm cloud. You feared for hell itself as you shut your eyes and covered your waterfalls of flowing tears with your tingling and shaking hands.

The darkness never came, but was instead, replaced with a warm embrace. The icy atmosphere and tension were slowing thawing away, like winter into spring as daisies and daffodils began to sprout through the last frost.

Newt had started to cry, and not just a few tears, but audible bawling surrounded by pain and aches. His voice was strangled, like someone was clutching his throat, forbidding speech from escaping his lips. His freckles glistened from the rivers that passed over them. He held you as if trying to keep all of your pieces together before sinking to the ground with you still in his arms. By now, all of the emotions and tears that had been locked up in your caged heart for weeks began to escape through the cracks, and your body trembled. Newts hand held your head as the coolness of your damp hair splashed onto his hands and cheeks, mixing with his salty tears.

“Y/n, why in the name of bloody Merlin didn’t you tell me that y-you felt like t-this? Why m-my darling? W-why!?” he choked out loudly, as he was now cross with himself for making you revel in this much pain and suffering for so long. He wasn’t wearing his coat, but he was still warm, as opposed to your shivering and shaking body.

“I-I didn’t want to bother you. Besides Newt, w-we’re so distant now.”

“Darling we aren’t that distant though-,”

“Newt when was the last time we had any time together huh? When was the last time you said I love you like you genuinely meant it?”

Newt opened his mouth to speak, but words didn’t come out. Instead another round of tears followed as he still continued to hold you as if you were going to disappear away from him.

“I am the shittiest boyfriend to ever live. Y/n I’m so sorry that I’ve d-done this to you, you must hate me! I don’t deserve you, oh what have I done! I’ve broken you. I need to fix you, How can I fix you!?” he panicked, and all he wanted to do was capture your lips, but he knew he shouldn’t cross that line right now. Hell, he may not even be able to call himself your boyfriend after this.

Your sobbing mixed with the sound of his, and you didn’t mean to sound so angry or snappy. Carefully, you brought your thumb under his eye to wipe a tear stream away, the touch causing him to look up from where he had buried his face in your chest.

“N-Newt?” you asked in a silenced whisper and almost ghostlike.

“Yes m-my dar-, yes Y/n?” he responded, pausing before he could say the word ‘darling’ as he wasn’t sure if he deserved the allowance to do so.

“Do you still love me?”

Newt’s heart crashed and splintered, like glass thrown against a wall. This was all his fault. He made you feel this way, he made you feel unloved and undesirable. This was all his doing, and he had been so involved in his life and where it was going that he didn’t realize that he was harming himself in the process.

“Of c-course I do. I love you so much Y/n. a simple apology won’t m-m-make this go away, I know that. But love I am sorry, I am so sorry that I have put you through this hell. I understand if you don’t love me though, I wouldn’t love me either right n-now.”

The notebook was long discarded as you pulled yourself closer into Newt’s chest, which began to rise and fall irregularly from all of his painful sobs. He reacted by grabbing your waits and pulling you closer and shielding you, as if he needed to protect your from the world.

“I still love you Newt.”

“Y-you do?”

“Of course, I was just upset, and it was my fault anyway-,”

“Don’t even finish that sentence Y/n. This had nothing to do with you. I was the idiot who was too stupid and blind to see that my own darling was suffering alone. I love you my dear and I’ll do anything and everything to fix this, please. Please Y/n I can’t lose you. This is all my fault and I can only hope that you’ll forgive me.”

Your breathing had begun to fall back to a normal rate, and you wrapped your arms around him, pulling him into a gentle, yet still desired kiss. Newt hesitated to kiss back at first, not because he didn’t want to, but because he was scared of hurting you more. His lips smoothed over yours and sweetly massaged against yours, as the passion within him ignited. He held onto you still, afraid that you would break if he let you go. Your hand graced his stubble, and he brushed his hand through your wet hair, sending a shiver down both of your spines. He began to move his hands back down to your waist to scoop you up into his firm arms, and this movement made you break the kiss.

“Newt what are you doing?”

He kissed your lips again, shuffling the notebook away as it slid across the floor.

“I’m taking my love for some alone time.”

“B-But Newt…”

“No, this is long overdue, and I was an idiot. You deserve this, and I shouldn’t have made you hurt like I did. Now please, I need you in my arms right now, I need to show you how much I love you.”

You pressed your head against his chest and you nodded sleepily, as the emotional breakdown had worn you out a bit. Newt noticed and kissed you hair before proceeding to wrap you in a blanket from off of your shared couch. His heartbeat echoed in your ears, as it began to lull you into an aura of comfort once more.

The two of you may have hit a bumpy road, but the two of you were strong. He didn’t mean to hurt you, you understood that, and you knew that everything would be okay. You heard him mutter an ‘I love you’ as he carried and set you onto your shared bed before he curled up next to you. His arms wrapped around you after he kicked his boots off, and the two of you made up for lost cuddles as you each dozed off on the protection of each other.

Masterlist:

http://unscriptedtimetraveler.tumblr.com/post/156427727241/masterlist-thing

it gets harder, not easier. each goodbye is one more stab at the heart and I have to constantly repeat to myself “this is only temporary.” how many more goodbyes do we have to say before we can live at peace? how many more lonely nights do we have to sleep through to finally be able to fall asleep wrapped in each others arms? it’s difficult living in this constant fear that one day you will forget me, one day you might not return, and finally when you do return there can be a call any minute thay can once again separate us. but we are worth it. we are worth the wait. we are worth the daily struggle because our love is strong enough to conquer this. this is not permanent and eventually we will get our happy ending. the distance will not destroy us.

movedtosaint-tomo  asked:

do you have anything for a vampire and human? thank you! love seeing your blog on my dash! have a great day/night :)

-Vampire A Is all stoic and cool and Person B (when they find out) practically fANGIRLS over Person A. 

-”LOOK AT YOUR TEETH THEY”RE SO COOL” “That’s nice Person B” “SAY RAWR PLEEASE” “Why don’t I stab myself in the heart with a stake instead”

-Person A is emo/goth and Person B is all about flowers and pastel things. Nobody would ever suspect that is was Person B who was the vampire.

-Vampire A accidentally eats a piece of garlic. Person B flat out panics and carries Vampire A to the emergency room (all while Vampire A tries to explain through a swollen face that they’re not going to die they just need their epipen) 

-Since Vampire A can’t see themselves in the mirror, they go to see a painter in the hopes that they’ll finally get to see what they look like. After a while of modeling for the stunning Person B, they suddenly decide that they need at least 200 more paintings.

-Vampire A finally plucks up the courage to tell Person B that they’re a vampire. Instead of the expected response of betrayal, Person B begins researching everything there is to know about vampires in order to help Vampire A be more comfortable. They start carrying around SPF 100, cooking food other than italian (which is their specialty), making sure to verbally invite Vampire A into their home, finding ways to travel without crossing bridges, destroying every bit of silver they own, ETC.

-Vampire A wooing Person B with their VAST knowledge of history (and bat puns)

-Person B telling everyone that they bought a pet bat so that Vampire A can ride on their shoulder all day and sit in their jacket pocket

-Diva/pastel newly turned Vampire A is appalled at the idea of being a vampire. Do they really have to wear black?? This whole bat thing doesn’t fit with their flower crown aesthetic. Why can’t they check their sparkle lip gloss in the mirror??

-Person A taking Vampire B to a house of mirrors, just to laugh as Vampire B runs into everything

-Vampire A traveling with Person B to a new place because they know almost every language in the world and Person B has been too scared their whole life to try and cross the language barrier

-Tol Person A holding an umbrella for Smol vampire B to protect them from the sun

-Vampire A seeing Person B dance and being like “NONONO that’s not dancing! Let me show you how we did it in the 15th century! 

-Person A doesn’t understand why their partner Person B has been avoiding them lately.

-Person B wishes Person A would take their sTtUPID SILVER STERLING PIERCING OUT OF THEIR MOUTH SO THEY CAN KISS THEM 

-Person A insisting that Vampire B dress up as a vampire/dracula for halloween 

-”That’s really insulting you know” “Babe I’m just teasing you” *Vampire B grumps* “How we make blood lollipops?” “yES”

 (sorry that i took so long to finish this, I had to take a couple of mental health days) 

(got some help from @starry-eyedyouth on 1,2,3, and 9!) 

“I stabbed her all over her back, she turned around and I stabbed her on the side and the stomach once. As she turned around I could of stabbed her through the heart, but her breasts were there. Her breasts actually deflected me. I couldn’t see myself stabbing a young woman in her breasts. That’s embarrassing.”

- Serial killer Edmund Kemper on murdering Mary Ann Pesce.

I still remember the day you left, just like it was yesterday. Worst pain I’ve been through. I remember the tears streaming down my face, and that hole, oh my, the big empty hole in my chest.
When you first got here, I wasn’t looking for my other half, cause I’ve never considered myself as a half. But God, you made me feel complete.  
I said goodbye to you, hoping you’d be back some day, but those things you said to me stabbed my heart a thousand times. I knew I had to keep my distance, but baby, why hurt me so bad?
Yet I’m here, writting for you, hoping you won’t leave again, but prepared if you ever do.

anonymous asked:

Prompt: their first kiss once Jon closes the door

I received this prompt from an anon and I tried t write it, but nothing felt right and I realized it was because i didn’t imagine their first kiss occurred when he closed the door. I imagined it as the reason he came to her door.

See below for a brief fic of Jon and Dany’s first Kiss.

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The cold air stung her cheeks, but it’s what she needed to think clearly. The moon was full and hung low, the shadow of a dragon passing before it every so often. She watched her children from the deck of the ship until she couldn’t feel the tip of her nose and ears. As she turned to make her way back to her cabin, his form caught her attention. Jon Snow was standing there, watching her, an expressionless look on his face.

“You startled me,” She says softly.

“Forgive me, Your Grace.” He answers taking a step closer to her.

“How long have you been there?” Daenerys queries. Since they had boarded the ship to White Harbor a few days ago, she had seen his gazes growing bolder. He no longer looked away from her when her eyes caught his. It was unnerving and awoke something in her she thought long dead.

“I, I’m not sure.” He grins back and takes another step toward her. “Not long enough.”

His answer makes something pool deep in her belly. She knows what she’s feeling now and it scares her.

“Well, I was just about to head to my cabin.” She replies.

“Stay.” His request is breathy, a prayer more than a response. It catches her though, stops her in her tracks. She nods and turns back to the ocean, needing to steady herself. If she continues to look into his eyes, she may do something she’d regret.

He comes to stand next to her and she can feel his hypnotic gaze boring into the side of her face. So she does what she’s done with any man who’s looked at her with a lust she is afraid of, she asks him a question.

“You said Davos was exaggerating about taking a knife to your heart.” A slight inhale of air causes her to peek at him from the corner of her eye.

“Aye,” He nods. “I don’t like talking about what happened.”

“I don’t like not knowing.” She replies coolly. Her answer hangs between them for a moment before he rests his elbows on the bannister and looks at her with his hard Northern stare.

“When I was Lord Commander, I had learned about the Night King. I’d seen what he could do at Hard Home, the wildling outpost north of the wall. When I came back to Castle Black I told the Night Watch that we would be letting the wildlings through. That if we did not, we were condemning them to death and forcing them to be our enemies when we had a choice not to. That by combining our forces we stood better odds against the army of the dead.” He takes a breath.

“My Master-at-Arms Aliser Thorne had never taken kindly to me. Called me Lord Snow as a way to separate me from the others. He had fought me on every front. Resented me for being chosen by the Night’s Watch to lead. By allying with the freefolk, I condemned myself in his eyes.” He’s quiet for a moment and Daenerys looks at him. His face is somber but resolved.

“He summoned me from my quarters with a lie. Lured me into a trap. A sign read ‘Traitor’ and when I turned around, he stabbed me in my gut. The others around him each took their turn. Each stabbing me as they looked me in the eye. I crumpled to my knees and the last one stepped forward. A young boy named Olly. He was my squire. He was crying but he jammed his dagger right into my heart. I will never forget the look of hatred on his face. I was killed by my own brothers who I had sworn to protect.”

Daenerys didn’t realize it, but tears had begun streaming down her cheeks listening to him tell her of the betrayal he had faced. Her lip was trembling. He looked up and his eyes softened, he reached out to her, cupping her cheek. “Oh no, my Queen. Please don’t cry for me. I made my choice. I died for it. But I’m back. I’m here.”

Daenerys can’t help it, she steps into his arms, burying her face in his chest, the soft furs tickling her cheeks and forehead. His arms wrap around her. It’s the closest they’ve ever been and it feels good. She can’t help but feel safe in his arms, like this is the only place in the world she wants to be right now. Her gasps are muffled against him and he shushes her, his lips pressed against her ear.

She feels overwhelmed. Him telling her of his death mix with the emotions she felt when she saw Viserion die. It’s the first time it’s felt real. The death of her child. The smallest and sweetest of her dragons, gone forever. Grief floods through her and she cries harder. She wants to scream into his chest, but it’s stuck behind the lump in her throat.

His strong hands run from the top of her head to her lower back, comforting her. She doesn’t deserve it. Her child is dead because of her. Jon was almost killed again because of her. She doesn’t know how long they stand like that, it could be hours, but the moon hasn’t moved in the sky when her tears have finally abated and she turns her head to look back over the water. Her head is tucked under his chin, her fingers grip the furs at his chest and his hands hold her tight.

She pulls her head back to look up and into his eyes. “Jon, I-“ His expression stops the words from leaving her mouth. His gaze is so intense. He studies her as if trying to memorize every curve of her face. His eyes flit to her lips and she subconsciously licks them.

He dips his head, his eyes never leaving hers, seeking permission. Their lips are so close, she can feel his warm steady breathing. Her body feels hot and tingly. This is it. The point of no return for her. If she kisses him now, she knows she is lost. He is everything she ever wanted, loyal, honorable, good, just, dedicated. He’s handsome, she could see that the day he walked into Dragonstone. He’s small but agile. He’s hard to kill and stronger than he looks. But there’s something else she can see within his gaze, something she can’t put her finger on.

She closes her eyes and stretches the remaining distance. He gasps against her lips, as if he wasn’t expecting her to kiss him. His lips are so much softer than she imagined and in an instant her body begins to heat. His kiss breathes life back into her, something blooms deep in her heart. Her hands travel up his chest to the nape of his neck, her fingers gripping the soft dark curls. His hands grip her waist, pulling her body tight against his.

In a moment though, he deepens it, his lips separate and his tongue softly licks, begging permission to join with hers. She acquiesces and soon they are lost in the taste of one another. Their tongues dancing and lips pulling, a soft nip from him makes her gasp. She knows this is dangerous. Knows that these kind of things get in the way of duty and honor, but she doesn’t care. His lips are more intoxicating that any wine she’s ever drank.

She is snapped out of her trance as his lips finally break from hers. When she peeks up at him from under her lashes, she sees the same war brewing in his gaze as she feels. Love or Duty? Before they get lost on these seas, she pulls back, steps away.

“Good night, Jon.” Daenerys tries to keep her voice strong, but his name breaks her resolve. She turns and hastily retreats down to the lower level. Part of her hopes he will understand that they cannot do this, but a stronger part of her hopes that he will follow her anyway.

To the girl who loved him before I did, I searched my heart for the pain I believed you felt. I stabbed myself with your own words. I endured the papercuts from the letters you wrote him just to fill my head with your misery. Because of you, I’ve written stories and poems beyond count. Because of you, I wrote more beautifully than I could have ever done with my thoughts alone, so thank you. You loved him well. I hope you find what you thought you’d lost when you lost him, and I hope this time, it stays with you.