This idea has been eating away at my mind for days! A lot of stories do a great job of exploring Raven, BB, and Robin’s darker sides and I decided to explore Starfire’s with this drabble. Enjoy the babble :)
“Go away Mark. I don’t want to see you right now.”
Mark had been sitting with his back to your door entrance for over an hour now. You had ignored him for the first hour but after hearing his light breathing and deep sighs you knew he wouldn’t leave without talking to you.
“Please _________, hear me out.”
You heard him stand up and pat the door lightly.
This time it was your turn to lean against your door.
“I’ll give you two minutes.”
Mark began right away, apologizing profusely and explaining why he was in that situation when you entered his practice room.
“I was really shocked _______, I didn’t think she would randomly kiss me like that…really… I seriously have no feelings for her so-”
The scene played in your head again as you felt tears starting to blur your vision.
Just a few hours ago you were happily making your way to Mark’s practice room where you would be meeting him before the two of you would head off for a date. But when you opened the door in front of you, the scene was not a welcoming one.
You saw him standing still as a familiar trainee had her arms wrapped around him and tip-toed so she could plant a kiss on his lips. However, he saw you by the door and his eyes opened in shock as he pulled away from their kiss and called your name.
He was starting to explain how it wasn’t what it looked like but you couldn’t bring yourself to stay for his explanation. You turned around and ran down the long hall and out of the building, making your way to the nearest bus station.
Mark ran after you and followed you to the station, holding your arm back just as you got one foot on the bus.
You turned around with tears in your eyes and told him to let go and leave you alone. Mark was taken aback by your expression, shocked by the amount of tears running down your face and slowly let go of your arm.
You eventually made it home after enduring a lot of stares and whispers from the people who passed by you. An hour or two passed by and you had calmed down, having talked to your best friend about it, although you couldn’t get the image out of your head.
However, now that Mark was in front of you again, you could feel the hurt and pain from earlier seep back in. You couldn’t take it anymore and opened the door to face Mark.
“But the two of you still kissed didn’t you?”
Mark tried to hold onto your arm but you brushed him off.
Mark sighed and looked down at the floor.
“Are you sure that this kiss was out of nowhere? Seems like she likes you. Has she not made any advances at you before? Did you even notice…or did you enjoy it and pretend not to…”
By now angry tears were falling down your face and you turned to wipe them away as Mark’s constant apologies reached your ears.
You felt terrible for giving Mark a hard time, you knew he was sweet, but maybe a bit too nice. How could you be so sure it won’t happen again? You wanted so bad to be the chic girl that could say a kiss was no big deal but since this was the first relationship you were in, it was also the first time you were feeling this sort of pain. You didn’t think you could see Mark and pretend everything was okay when that scene would obviously be constantly replaying in your head.
“I’m sorry Mark…I think we need to take a break.”
By now, Mark was panicking. You could see that he was scared to lose you as he desperately held his tears back and apologized again and again. He held your arms firmly as you stared into his wide eyes. You’ve never seen him this way and the genuine expression on his face was almost enough to make you give in.
Before you could give in, you heard a familiar voice call out your name. You felt Mark’s grip loosen on your arms as you saw the tall figure belonging to your best friend steps away from the two of you.
You ran over to his side as Mark turned around, facing the two of you.
“Why are you here Johnny?”
“Came to check up on you. I could tell you weren’t feeling okay over the phone.”
You smiled gratefully at Johnny as he faced Mark.
Johnny had a stern expression on his face as he put one arm over your shoulder protectively.
“I would have never introduced her to you if I knew this would happen Mark. I’m disappointed.”
Mark stared at the figure of you two retreating as Johnny lead you away from your house leaving Mark alone at your door.
A moment later you felt your phone vibrate in your pocket. You pulled it out and saw a message from Mark.
“I’m sorry _________! I’m going to wait for you…I’ll wait until you’re ready to see me again.”
You knew Mark put his feelings into that message as you turned around and locked eyes with him. His expression brightened slightly as he saw you turn around…giving him a small nod. You believe that time will heal everything, and after a short break, the two of you would go back to how you were before.
You sat with your arms crossed on the chair opposite from Taeyong in his flat.
He was still seated on the couch, the same place where he was making out with that model you saw earlier.
He rubbed his red cheek before glancing in your direction.
“Come sit over here so we can talk.”
He patted the seat next to him as you smirked before glaring at him.
“Would you like me to slap your other cheek? I don’t want to sit on that dirty couch.”
He smiled sarcastically as he ran a hand through his hair.
“The only reason I’m still here is to tell you that we’re officially over. You can play around all you want, just stop contacting me.”
As you got up to leave, Taeyong spoke out.
“Really? ‘Cause that’s what you said last time. But you keep coming back, don’t you?”
You and Taeyong have had an on and off relationship since he was a trainee. You obviously knew he wasn’t the best choice but what he said was true, you couldn’t really find yourself able to stay away from him. It wasn’t about his handsome face, good fashion sense, or his way with words…for some reason, you just couldn’t find someone that understood you as well as he did. At first it was just kind of an ongoing fling for the two of you, but then you noticed that you always went back to him. You felt comfortable when you were with him, like you could just be yourself. But you knew better than that. You knew you had to get out of this relentless relationship, you were just hurting yourself by staying in it.
“I mean it this time, I really do.”
He scoffed before walking towards you.
“You know what you’re saying isn’t true. You can’t stay away. Why? Because you and I are the same. No matter how many flings we have it will always be you for me and me for you. ‘Cause we’re the only people who understand each other…don’t you get it.”
You leaned further against the wall you were lying on as he put his arm against the wall, staring at you intensely with his large eyes.
You pushed against his chest to keep him from leaning in more.
“You know what Taeyong, I used to be like you but not anymore. I can’t be cool with you having flings with models or idols anymore. I don’t want to walk into your flat, practice room or backstage at a concert to see you making out with some new face. If I didn’t walk in on you today, would you have just stopped there? I don’t think so. I deserve better than that.”
You saw the expression on Taeyong’s face soften as he let go of the wall and backed away from you.
“Could you have…actually…fallen for me?”
You paused when you felt a tear trickle down your cheek. You couldn’t believe it…you were actually crying. As much as you hated to admit it, there was no denying it anymore. You had fallen for Taeyong.
You quickly wiped your tears and bent down to grab your bag that had fallen on the floor.
“It doesn’t matter. This is it for us. Goodbye Taeyong, don’t contact me again.”
You exited Taeyong’s flat with your head held up high as he stayed there, dumbfounded by what just happened between the two of you. Your heart may be aching now, but you were proud of what you told him…it was right for you to make a better choice for yourself, there was no turning back now.
mikkeneko asked you: ok I have a prompt for a fic recs list for you… and I am kind of passing the buck here so don’t do it unless the idea appeals to you. Basically, one of my friends asked about “post-Avengers fics where Loki was never under any kind of mind control, but gets redeemed anyway!” I KNOW they exist (No Such Liberty much?) but my mind is just too scattered to build a list of them!
LOKI REDEMPTION is one of my favorite genres so BOY DO I HAVE RECS FOR YOU. I mean, I actually really enjoy the Tesseract/mind control theory, I think it has all kinds of potential in the right hands, I think there’s evidence for it in the canon if you want to make a case for it, but I don’t think it’s a get out of jail free card, so I tend to read more redemption fic that’s not mind control. Hopefully some pairings are okay! They’ll all be marked as best I can, of course. ♥
I will also include a few extra links in a separate post for ones that I cannot write recs for (or complete recs for) but should be in the same theme. I may not be able to vouch for them, but they’ll be ones to at least try! I’m not including No Such Liberty in this recs list for the simple reason that I wrote too much about it, tumblr wouldn’t let me post it in. But it’s an absolute must read, it’s hands down still my single most favorite fic in the fandom!
PART ONE OF TWO, because this wouldn’t fit into a single post!
They would become two sides of the same spinning coin. For neither one could exist without the other, but neither would they stand side by side. Touched but never touched, they would fight in desperation. Together but apart, they would long with love. Brothers, standing back to back, Thor pointed towards the light and Loki spun around to live on the dark side. It would have to be enough. The Chitauri and Thanos capture Thor to cause Loki the most unimaginable pain. Loki joins with the Avengers to get him back.
One big redemption arc later, Loki is no longer the enemy, but Thor is pretty much the only Avenger to trust or like him. When Odin requests the Avengers’ presence on Asgard he orders a very reluctant, resentful Loki to do it instead, since Loki has a very unique knowledge of the secret paths between the Nine Realms. Unfortunately, Loki generally takes the … scenic route between dimensions. So he has to guide six egotistical, volatile superheroes through the Nine Realms and all its otherworldly dangers, and somehow get them to Asgard alive. Thor is delighted - inter dimensional road trip! Magnificent quests! The perfect bonding experience for his BFFs and little brother! Everyone else … less so.
Loki is on Earth serving out his punishment, and he has to contend not only with a foreign planet, but being a hostile. He learns the meaning of love from the children he visits at the orphanage, the meaning of family from Thor, and how to be human from Steve. Somewhere along the way, he also learns how to be himself.
When Thor returns from Asgard to rejoin the Avengers, he brings Loki in tow–stripped of his magic and bound with a geas that allows him to speak only in response to direct questions. AKA, yet another “Loki lives with the Avengers; chaos ensues” story.
→ Truthfully by Salazarfalcon, thor & loki + steve & loki + tony & loki + other avengers, therapy fic, cracky initially + later seriousness, 129k
Loki had every intention of wreaking havoc upon Midgard the moment his suicide attempt had failed, it was just too bad that Midgard ended up being so distracting. Who knew that such a primitive society would have such a novel concept as therapy?
Frigga and Thor battle Loki to save him from himself. Words are Frigga’s weapons and love is her strength, and she will not surrender this fight.
→ Road to Nowhere by Lise, thor & loki + frigga + other thor characters, thor 2 spoilers, action fic, quest fic, 27.2k
When Loki turns up demanding Thor’s help on a quest to retrieve the All-Mother from Valhalla, Thor isn’t about to say no. But that doesn’t mean he’s forgotten anything, and what better time than a road trip through the backwaters of the universe for trying to talk things out?
Thor returns to Earth a month after the Chitauri invasion to keep his promises – to see Jane again, and take her to see Asgard, even if the rainbow bridge is still undergoing repairs. Not that Jane is complaining about watching the repairs. But she wasn’t expecting Loki to be haunting the palace library, even in psychiatric care; and Loki wasn’t expecting to make friends with Thor’s mortal girlfriend.
Loki is bound to deliver the Infinity Gauntlet to Thanos. But he knows as soon as Thanos has it he’ll destroy the Nine Realms and rule whatever’s left. It’s hard to be a king without a kingdom, so Loki has no intention of letting that happen. Thanos may be a titan, but Loki is still the God of Lies and Mischief…
“What do you want to do, Jem?” “I think I need some help, Kier.” “Okay. Let’s get you some help, then.”
I will fight to the death for Kieren and Jem. I am the biggest sucker on the planet for siblings struggling to be siblings, and Kieren and Jem have got all the right stuff to break my heart.
I can only imagine what their life was like before Kieren killed himself. We know that he knew her possibly better than anyone, that he was the one to draw her true self out when she was busy trying to tiptoe around without being noticed. He gave her that mixed CD of “hardcore” music and I will forever defend my headcanon that the music she was listening to the first time we meet her in her bedroom is music from the CD Kieren gave her. It’s the music she held onto when he disappeared from her life… he may not have left a letter, but he left her those notes.
I love thinking about how much Jem did or didn’t know about Kieren when they were young and alive. I like to think she knew about Rick, and that she covered for Kieren when he was out with Rick. I like to think that Kieren would tease her softly, the way he did when he found her on their doorstep (“I think he’s got a thing for you!”) and she would get higher-pitched and OMG KIEREN and he would just crack up at how she blushed.
I want to know if Kieren considered Jem when he decided to leave the world forever. I want to know if he sat with that knife in his hands, turning it over and over, weighing his options, looking at the inscription on the wall, and if it crossed his mind that he would be leaving Jem, or if he was just so wrecked by everything else happening to him and around him that she couldn’t measure up. I know that she was the one element of his life he was looking forward to seeing again when he came back.
And just… geezus. Watching Kieren’s face fall when she rejects him destroys me in so many beautiful ways. Watching the way she cannot handle him, and watching him bend in order to interact with her - apologizing, wearing his coverup, wearing his contacts, making every effort to be who she expects him to be instead of who he IS…
And to see her struggle with accepting him and not accepting him, getting lost along the way. The way he says “will you please just look at me” when he believes he is going to get carted off to Norfolk as a noncompliant, never to see her again… there is so little in this new life that is capable of breaking Kieren, and losing Jem a second time is one of them.
And then she doesn’t shoot him. She takes his word over Gary’s. And when he asks her, in the scene this cap is from, what she wants to do, and she says she thinks she needs help, he just accepts that. He agrees to help her to get help. He is her big brother and he loves her unconditionally, and she is finally learning everything that means, and how to return that to him- something Kieren desperately needed once upon a time, and I think that need never truly went away.
KIEREN AND JEM. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. CAN THEY PLEASE BE HAPPY SIBLINGS FOREVER NOW?? *sobs* I just need to see them sort themselves out and become this strong, unified duo of badass siblingry… Jem kicking ass and Kieren taking names. This is what must happen in Series 3.