Half-Sister, All Burden (Part 2)
Dean x Sam x Reader
Reader (Adam’s sister) living with Sam and Dean in the bunker. Dean hates the reader but she made the ultimate sacrifice for him.
Warning: self-abuse, angst
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Half-Sister, All Burden Part 2
I woke up, again. It was just like normal. Waking up in the cage, wishing I was dead. However, this time was a little different. I felt like somebody was holding me. I looked up and saw Sam. It was one of Lucifer’s tricks again. Sam was going to tell me that he did not love me and that I was a burden. I closed my eyes, not wanting to hear what fake Sam had to say.
“Baby, wake up! It’s Sammy here. Baby, I love you, please wake up!!” fake Sam said.
“Sammy?” I asked. This has never happened before. Weird. I debated whether or not to believe. I chose to believe, this time. I had nothing to lose, right?
“Yes, baby, it’s me. Please wake up!” fake Sam pleaded. I got up and looked around. There was Lucifer, as usual. Dean was also here, weird. Sam was holding me like a baby. I wondered what had happened for them to visit me here.
“The princess has awaken!” announced Lucifer.
“What is this? Is this some sick joke again? What is going to happen next, are you going to make them torture me because you won’t?” I asked. I was angry.
“No, baby. Listen to me, we are real. Dean and I are really here. We are here to get Lucifer’s help.” Sam said. He pulled me into his arms, holding me tight.
“Y/N, they are very much real.” Crowley said, outside the cage. I looked into Crowley’s eyes. There was no trace of lies. I looked up at Sam with tears in my eyes. I immediately latched onto him like a parasite. I hugged him with everything I got in me. After what seems like eternity, I pulled away and looked at Dean. He looked guilty.
“Well, let us all settle down while I catch Dean up shall we?” Lucifer said.
“Catch me up on what? There is nothing to catch up here. Rowena! Get Sam and I out of here!” Dean said. Dean was a little scared. I don’t think that it was about Lucifer who was standing right beside him. I think it was something else.
“Please! This is my cage, I decide who leaves and who stays.” Lucifer says. He was eyeing Dean. Dean was looking at me. His eyes filled with fear.
“Y/N, would you like to tell Dean what happened or do you want me to do it?” Sam asks me gently.
“She is not real Sam. This is Lucifer tricking us. Y/N is dead and it will stay that way!” Dean yells. I have never seen him so afraid.
“Beeep! That is a lie Dean Winchester. Tell Sam what Crowley told you a month after Y/N disappeared.” Lucifer said.
“You knew! You knew that Y/N was in the cage and you did not tell me! WHY?” Sam yells at Dean.
“Fine! I lied. I knew about Y/N being in the cage. You happy now?” Dean yells, his hands in the air. I felt my heart sink. He knew, all this time and made no attempt to help me.
“She did this to save you Dean! How can you not feel anything? She is our sister Dean!” Sam said.
“You think I did not feel bad Sam? Everyday, I wished that I could replace her in this cage. But you needed me Sam. I could not leave you. You come first Sam! You are family!” Dean says.
“So is she! If she stays, I stay!” Sam said calmly.
“Excuse me! I am the judge here! I WILL HAVE ORDER!” Lucifer said, banging his fist on the side of the cage. He then stood in between Sam and Dean.
“Sam, do you have anything else to say before I pass the judgement?” Lucifer asks.
“Yes, take me instead. I will take her place. Release Y/N!” Sam said. As much as I was touched by Sam’s love for me, I won’t allow him to take my place!
“No! I won’t allow it. Take me and release them!” Dean said.
“That is ridiculous guys! This is my destiny! I made the damn deal!” I said.
“Everyone shut up!” Lucifer yells. We all stopped yelling. This was it. Lucifer was about to take a pick on who stays and who goes.
“I have made my choice.” Lucifer said. “The one who stays is…”
Suddenly a white light enveloped us and the next thing I knew, we were transported into the bunker. All of us. In front of us stood a man. He wasn’t someone I knew. He didn’t wear pants and was having chinese take out food. He looked like a nerd.
“Father?” Lucifer asks. We all looked at Lucifer, then the stranger.
“God?” Dean asks.
“Does this mean that I don’t have to go back to the cage?” I asked. Chuck looked at me with sadness in his eyes. He walked over to me, cradled my face in his hands and kissed my forehead. Instantly I felt fresh. It was as if I was born again. I did not feel depressed anymore. There was hope in me. I could feel myself smiling. I felt joy for the first time in so many years.
“Oh sweetie, you will never hurt like that again. That is a promise.” Chuck said. Then he looked at Lucifer and snapped his fingers. Instantly, both of them disappeared. We looked around and realized we were alone. I looked at Sam and smiled. He pulled me into a bear hug and laughed out loud. I don’t remember him laughing that hard before.
After what seems like hours in Sam’s arms, I pulled away and slowly looked towards Dean. I did not expect what I saw. Dean had tears in his eyes. He stood there, blank, as if he did not know what to do. I have never seen him this lost. It was then when I decided that I should be the one to take the first step. I ran towards him and hugged him as tight as I could. After a split second, I felt Dean return the hug. He was crying.
“I am so sorry Y/N. I should have tried harder but I was scared. I am so so sorry.” Dean said, his voice breaking. I did not know what to say. I just hugged him harder. We stood like that for what seemed like eternity. Dean then pulled away but he still held me at arm length. He knelt down and looked up to me.
“Y/N, I have been such a terrible brother to you. There are no words that can describe how bad I treated you. I don’t care if you don’t want me as a brother anymore. I promise that for as long as I live, I will make it up to you. I can only hope that one day, you will find it in your heart to forgive me. Hell, I don’t deserve your forgiveness. I should have been the one in hell. Damn, I am so so sorry.” Dean said. He hugged me tight. I could hear him sobbing.
“Dean, I just want my big brother back. That was all I wanted, was for you to be my big brother. Can I have that? Please?” I asked. That was the truth. I only wanted my big brother back.
“Yes! Yes you can. You can have all of me. I will quit hunting just for you. I will do anything for you!” Dean answered. He gave his biggest grin to me. It was the first time Dean ever smiled at me. Being in the cage was worth it. I finally got Dean to love me.
The next few months was filled with happiness. Sam, Dean and I were inseparable. The only exception was when they had to hunt because other hunters were busy. During those times, I would stay back in the bunker and clean. They would rush back to me as soon as they were done. Other times, we would be in the bunker watching movies, playing games, cooking and reading up on the lore. We almost started a band but Sam couldn’t sing and Dean’s rhythm was atrocious.
Other than that, we were pretty much like one big happy family. There was only one problem. We were always together, the three of us. I was never alone with Dean.
I woke up screaming. It was the same nightmare. Dean telling me that I was a burden and he would kill me if he had the chance. I always woke up before he managed to “kill” me but this time, he did. I woke up screaming. I was panting hard. My hands were on my tummy where Dean had supposedly stabbed me. I checked myself, worried that it wasn’t a dream. Then I heard it. Dean’s footsteps coming towards my room.
I heard her the first time. It was the kind of scream that meant she was in trouble. I ran straight to her room with a knife in my hand. I lost her once, I will not lose her again. I would gladly kill whoever that is hurting her. I reached her room and flung open the door. There she was on the bed. I barged into her room looking for the intruder. When I saw that there was no one in her room, it hit me. She was having a nightmare.
Y/N’s eyes locked onto mine. I saw fear in her eyes. I realized I must have looked like an actual intruder with the knife in my hand. I dropped the knife immediately and put my hands in the air as a sign of surrender.
“Y/N, it is just me.” I said as I walked closer to the bed. Y/N started to edge her way into the wall. It was as though she was afraid of me.
“Whatever your nightmare was, it is not real. Trust me!” I said. I stopped moving so she would not be afraid. I thought of calling Sam but he was out helping another hunter. I knew I should have gone instead of Sam.
“You killed me Dean! You stabbed me! I trusted you!” Y/N yelled. She must think that she is still dreaming. I need to prove to her that I will never hurt her.
“I am sorry Y/N. Please, believe me. I would never hurt you.” I said, kneeling down. Maybe if I wasn’t so big, she would be less frightened. Then I had an idea.
“Y/N, come here. Hit me. Hit me with everything you’ve got. I will prove to you that no matter what, I will not hurt you.” I said. That was what she needed. No, I needed her to hurt me. That way, I would be able to make it up to her.
Y/N got out of the bed slowly. She walked up to me carefully. It was like a sheep approaching a dead tiger. I stayed as still as I could. Any sudden moves would definitely scare her. She stopped about four feet in front of me. She looked like she was waiting for something. After about ten seconds, I decided that if she did not want to hurt me, I could always do it for her.
I started slapping and punching myself. I did not hold back. I bit through the pain and continued punching myself on the face. I heard a gasp and looked up at Y/N. She was shocked.
“Stop.” she said softly. I did not stop. I continued punching myself. I could taste the blood in my mouth. My whole face was sore.
“Stop! Stop it Dean!” Y/N yelled. I did not stop even then. Then she did something that I did not expect. She launched herself at me and held me. I stopped hitting myself and surrendered to her. I was sobbing hard, not from the pain but from guilt. She held me there for a long time. She was the first to pull away. Tears were rolling down her face. I reached up with my thumb and wiped them.
“I am so sorry for everything Y/N. Please, tell me what you want me to do. I’ll do it. I’ll die if that would bring you peace.” I said. Y/N shook her head. Then, she knelt down and looked up at me.
“No, please stay. Don’t leave me. I need my big brother. I am scared Dean. Don’t leave me alone.” she said and hugged me tight. That was all I needed to do. She needs me to love and protect her. She needs me to be her big brother. I held her tight to myself.
“I won’t leave you Y/N, I promise. I will love and protect you as long as I live.” I said as I pulled away and looked at her. She nods and gives me a small smile.
“Call me sissy, like Sam does.” she says. She brought her hand to my face and gives me a pained expression.
“I look terrible, don’t I?” I asked with a small laugh.
“Don’t worry Dean, I’ll take care of you.” she said. With that, she left the room looking for the first aid kit.
After she patched me up, I got up to leave. We both needed to sleep after that whole fiasco. We were both tired, physically and mentally. As I walked out, Y/N pulled me back. I turned around and looked at her questioningly.
“Can you stay with me tonight? Just in case the nightmares come back. Please.” she gave me some serious puppy eyes. How could I say no?
“I thought you’d never ask.” I said. She smiled. I followed her to the bed. We both got in and settled down. I expected her to just sleep beside me, but she turned to me and placed her head on my chest. I smiled and put my hand around her and started playing with her hair.
“Goodnight Dean, I love you!” she said.
“I love you too sissy. Goodnight.” I replied.