I firmly believe that there was a tiny fn-2187 who went on survival training with the rest of his unit and spent way too much time wandering around in the woods and being happy about birds
(do you think he gives them all names? private, secret names, for the bird families he hears singing in the trees and also the squirrels and also whatever weird alien fauna lives in the forest. finn loves them all, they are his special friends.)
do you think there was a couple of grizzled lady freighter captains who crash-landed on the planet with their daughter and sort of………adopted this weird militaristic, regimented child who wandered out of the woods and occasionally leaves for days at a time only to slink back and eat all their food and listen to their stories and songs like he’s starving for them
one of them hugs him once, instinctively, and fn-2187 spends the whole cycle shaking, trying to forget the warmth and comfort and softness of that woman’s arms, trying to remind himself that the first order—
do you think he cries a little, when they manage to fix their thermo coupling, and the captain lays her heavy hand on his tiny shoulder and says, If you ever need us, okay? just call. we’ll come and get you, steal you away, just let us know, okay?
the first order comes for their unit seven days later, and finn tries very hard to forget, buries it in training and regimen and forgets, forgets, tries to forget.
(if you ever—)