i shouted it in confidence!


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I used to dread having my photo taken and I would spend hours trying to find a selfie I didn’t totally despise. Today I intended to take a picture of my new Tucker’s tee but ended up having a full on photoshoot… I’m starting to like this new-found confidence. Shout out to @scotty-the-poet for hooking me up!

The Unexpected (Part 3)

Part 1 // Part 2

Silence has never been this daunting.

Cal staggers back leeching all warmth from me.

This is it.

He’s leaving.

It’s not like anything was holding him here anyways, he’s a prince in a pack of rebels.

Tears threaten to fall over my lashes, I peak up and see a blurry Cal pacing.

He won’t meet my eyes but I see the fire dancing in his, darting back and forth. Trying to make sense of it all, a solider through and through.

I anxiously spin sparks through my fingers and back, if only to release the excess energy coursing through me.

“God, Cal say something!” My voice is tight and small, not at all my own.

Cal immediately turns facing me ablaze. “What do you want me to say Mare?” The shout wavers, and I don’t see the confident prince I once knew, in his place is a scared young boy.

I roll my eyes bitterly, but manage to keep the tears from falling. “Say anything!” I hoarsely shout, “I’m pregnant” the words stick in my throat, I swallow hard and continue, “and, and I don’t know what I want from you. I’m sorry okay? I’m sorry I’ve dragged you into this life of a war over blood and now this,” I gesture to my middle, tears flowing freely now. Hot and angry, streaking down my cheeks. “I’m sorry this isn’t the life you wanted or thought you’d have trust me I’m in the same boat.”

His amber orbs are tired and sad a single tear runs down his face.

And then silence.


Nothing to fill the void but our sins.

Our regrets.

Our losses.

I huff frustrated and emotionally exhausted. Turning abruptly I stomp of to the base, sparks crackling, I’m no longer able to hold them in, frying my hot tears.


I stop as his broken voice cuts through the cold air, my back still to him. I can’t face him.

“You’re right. This isn’t the life I thought I’d have. But any life with you is enough for me.” His warm hand grasps my arm gently turning me to face him. The abundance of tears distorts his face. “I imagined this moment a thousand times, a couple years in the future, your name is Mare Calore, and the only tears are happy ones” at this he carefully wipes away mine. “So we’re having a baby.” he says it so causally with a shrug and a smile.

A real genuine smile.

“You’re not the only one who can choose not to leave, your stuck with me. I love you and I love our baby.” His voice is soft as he drops his hands to rest around lower stomach.

It’s happy tears that fall now.

“We’re having a baby” I whisper back, giggling and grinning like an idiot. High off the ecstasy of the moment.

“We’re having a baby” Cal whispers back.

A/N Hi there I feel like this kinda sucks but I’ll let you guys be the judge of that, too much cheese? Don’t worry things will get hella serious soon. 

The thing about “Shout Out To My Ex” is that it is such an essential and empowering song. When I was going through my first real heartbreak and breakup, I had “Since You Been Gone”, and I don’t know if since then we’ve had a song about a breakup that is about how you come out of it stronger and better and how hard it is but how important it is to look back and see that you’ve grown.

Little Mix continue to be bastions of female empowerment through friendship and lifting each other up and I am so, so here for it.

Markings part 1 - kaitlyn x mc

Disclaimer: This is probably will be a two part I don’t know. If wanted to post it. Message me and tell me what you think. I am still really new at all of this. So, if it does stink please tell me what I did wrong. Shout out to @niasusanto for giving me some confidence to post fan fiction on here. She is has been great to message on here. Thanks for putting up with me. Anyways here is my story: 

In a world where soul marks formed somewhere on the body when you hit puberty. the soul marks say the first thing your soulmate says to you. So, when I hit puberty I got mine on my left ankle. That faithful day I was taking a bath when all of the sudden there was blood everywhere. Like the 13 year old I was I actually check my body for cuts and right there was my soul mark on my left ankle. My first thought I guess I am not wearing sandals again. I mean who wants to show off, “Hi, you must be the new roommate.”

My mom flipped out not because I was technically a woman no, she wanted to see my mark. I was reluctant to show my mom the mark. To me it should be a private thing but, she is my mom so, I show her. She hugged me and says I got some time. I was lucky to get something so personal. Really, I thought but I took my time to realized that it was a personal message and now fingers point to college. It is funny a little thought made me a better student and made to where I got accepted to my father’s alma mater Hartford University.

When the big day of starting college happened I was in my own little world walking to my dorm when all of the sudden I ran smack into a very cute guy. I didn’t say to such to him before a sorority girl was all over him. She pulled me over to the side and said, “He is mine.” I was like woah, he isn’t the one for me you can have him. She glared at me like we were in competition for the guy so, I slowly back away from the situation.

Gosh, I can’t believe that sorority girl spilled coffee on me because I just bumped into a guy she called dibs on. Sure, he and I could have fun but, that is all it would be. I always wanted something real and I was always taught how soulmates were better for you than anyone else could be.

I finally made it to my dorm. It was big I wonder how many people I shared it with while I started putting down my stuff in the common area. All of the sudden I heard someone come into the room and say the same words that were on my marking. It seemed like the world was slowly down and my marking felt strange. She was beautiful on the other side of the room. I had to shake my head to get me out of a gaze.

I was dumbfounded by what was happening. After I realized that she was waiting for me to talk and reply “I’m sorry. What were you saying?”

She started to rub back of her shoulders. I can see it on her face when she realized what exactly happened right there.

“My name is MC.”

“And I am Kaitlyn so, what do we do about the both of us.” She said pointing between me and her.

“I hope we can start off as friends. Is the okay with you?”

“Yeah, friends are good.”

Then we shook on it.

They Got Older

A/N: Okay, Yeah, couldn’t think of a better title. Sorry. ;-; Buuuuut, this is basically just a short story thing with Sodapop and Darry. It’s mainly about their relationship before and after they got older. :’D By the way: Italics/Bold means it’s in the past, and just the normal typing thing means it’s in the present :””D M’kay yeah enjoy I guess–

“And, Sodapop,” The teacher smiled softly at the ten year old and nodded, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

Soda’s brown eyes gleamed in happiness as he grinned, “I wanna be just like my older brother, Darry when I grow up!” He shouted confidently.

 Sodapop let out a soft sigh as he stood behind the register at the DX gas station. This was what he grew up to be. I mean, I guess you could say he was happy, but he really wasn’t. He looked ahead to the front doors of the gas station as the bell that signaled that another customer had walked inside started ringing.

 “Hey… Are you Darry Curtis’ little brother?” An older kid eyed Sodapop curiously and raised an eyebrow. Soda’s eyes widened as a huge smile appeared on his face and he nodded contently, “Yes! Yes I am!”

 As the customer went up to the register Soda stood at, he tilted his head slightly and looked at Sodapop’s nametag.

“… Sodapop? Huh, are you—uh—Darrel Curtis’ brother?”

The man looked at Soda and crossed his arms as the 16 year old merely nodded, “Y-Yeah, I’m his younger brother.” He shrugged.

 Sodapop’s big chocolate brown eyes stared up at his older brother in admiration as he poked Darry’s chest.

“Yeah, little buddy?” Darry laughed as he looked down at his younger brother. Soda looked at him with the happiest smile as he pulled his brother into a hug.

“You’re the greatest, bestest, amazingest older brother I could ever ask for!”

 Sodapop slowly looked up as Darry walked through the front door of the Curtis’ home, not giving his little brother so much as a second glance as he walked to his room to change. The 16 year old sighed and looked down again, playing around with his DX shirt for a bit.

 “D-Darry?” Soda mumbled as he walked up to the 13 year old with tears in his eyes. He sniffled as Darry looked down at him with worried eyes, pulling him into a soft hug, “What’s wrong little buddy?”

 Darry walked out of his bedroom and went right into the kitchen. Sodapop ran a hand through his golden blonde hair and bit his lip. “Darry?” He mumbled, looking into the seemingly empty kitchen. No response. He tried holding in his tears as he slowly walked into the kitchen. “D-Darry…?”

 Soda started to ramble, making it kind of hard for Darry to really catch what he was saying. The 13 year old sighed and started rubbing his younger brother’s back, trying to calm him down. “’s alright, kid… You’re gonna be okay.”

 The blonde felt his voice catch in his throat as his older brother slowly looked over at him, “What, Soda?”

Soda struggled to get any words out as his breathing began to waver around a bit. He remembered all the times he and Darry spent together as kids, which only made it harder for him to speak at all.

“Sodapop? What’s wrong?”

“Darry… I’m leaving…” Sodapop finally mustered out, trying real hard not to start crying right then and there.

“What the hell do you mean?” Darry frowned deeply and narrowed his eyes.

“… I got drafted today.”

Okie, I was going to give credit to @talk-greasy-to-me at the beginning of my A/N thing for the Sodapop getting drafted idea, but that would’ve spoiled the end part– so here! XD Thank chu Jess fer the amazingly sad idea! :’D


siwon407:  Wish i was there too. Thanks SHINee and Suho! #superjunior #shinee #exo
ryeong9 comment: @siwon407 why did you cut me ? Che ©
kimheenim comment:  waaah… You cropped ryeowook off.. I don’t know (what is going to happen) now… 
siwon407: this sort (of situation). Because i upload it urgently^^.. (Why is it Ryeowook though..). But while believing he will understand because we acknowledge each others differences. I’m shouting at Guangzhou. I’m confident ©
kimheenim comment:  It’s already late ^-^ huhuhuhuhu ©
kimheenim: Take this from the wise Heenim who uploaded with Donghae and Ryeowookie ^-^ Everyone too doesn’t like it when the photo gets cropped right? So let me introduce to you an app today^-^ it’s no other than #instasize. If you you use this app your photo won’t get cropped^-^ so my Instagram family use this from now on^-^
ryeong9: @siwon407​  Why did you cut mine~~ㅋㅋㅋ Come back safelyyy~~^^♡
eunhyukee44:  Hey stop playing and come back quickly


@siwon407: Wish i was there too. Thanks SHINee and Suho! #superjunior #shinee #exo

Heechul comment on Siwon IG: waaah… You cropped ryeowook off.. I don’t know (what is going to happen) now… (cr: worldwideelfs)

@ryeong9: why did you cut me ? Chet

@siwon407: Ah this. Because I uploaded it in a rush, correction^^ (why does it have to be Ryeowook..) But because we accepted each other’s differences, I believe he will understand. Shouts from Guangzhou. I’m confident.. (cr: Sup3rJunior)

Heechul comment on Siwon IG: It’s too late^-^ hahahaha 😀😀😀😀

@kimheenim: Take it from the wise Heenim who has uploaded with Donghae and Ryeowookie^-^ Everyone too doesn’t like it when the photo gets cropped right?? So let me introduce you to an app today ^-^ It’s no other than #instasize. If you use this app, your photos won’t get cropped ^-^ so to my Instagram family use this from now on too ^-^ (cr: heechulfacts)

@ryeong9: so why did you cut me off ~~ ㅋㅋㅋ Come back safely ~ ^^ ♡♡

Different Worlds Part Two

Different Worlds Series

I say goodbye to Angela before quickly walking to the poolside where the boys where.

“IT’S MY LIFE!” I hear someone scream, I frown and walk around the corner to see y/n screaming at her parents who were staring at her with disbelief. 

“Find somewhere to stay tonight y/n,” Her Dad says before leaving, her mum looks as her father walks away before walking closer to her.

“I know it’s your life, it’ll take your father sometime to get used to the fact that you don’t want to do what he wants to. Your brother will let you stay and if he doesn’t use the emergency bank card and stay in a hotel. Let him cool off,” She whispers.

“VIVIAN!” Her dad shouts before her mother jumps and walks away. I shift awkwardly in my spot before gaining the confidence to shout her.

“Y/n?” I ask, she turns around slowly and smiles.

“So we meet again,” She answers walking closer to me with a weak smile on her face.

“Are you okay?” I ask, she nods,

“Why wouldn’t I be?”

“I was walking around when I heard…”

“Oh, that. Yeah, I mean it’s not like it hasn’t happened before.”

“They always shout at you like that?” I ask.

“Just my dad… and why am I telling you this? We hardly know each other, you probably don’t even care,” She laughs awkwardly.

“No! I do care, I care,” I stutter, she laughs and fixes the bag on her shoulder.

“Do you want to- do you want to come hang out with me and my friends? They won’t mind, it’ll be good for them to hang around a girl,” I offer, she smiles.

“I don’t want to intrude.”

“You won’t intrude! I promise, come on! They’re in the pool, or by the pool.”

“But aren’t you celebrating your graduation?”

“You graduated too.”

“Right,” She laughs as she follows me towards the boys. When we get to the pool the boys are patiently waiting on their phones, when they look up they freeze.

“Girl,” Michael says, y/n laughs and points at him.

“Boy,” She says, he looks at her and smiles.

“I’m Michael,” He says.


“Calum!” Calum shouts standing up.



"Hi, y/n,” She smiles, Luke awkwardly smiles back as he pulls himself up.

“He’s a bit of an awkward penguin,” I tell her, she nods as we start to leave for Michael’s house.


“I can drive,” Y/n says hours late as I giggle and fall all over the place after drinking too much.

“No! I can’t let you do that, I’ll drive. I am the man.”

“Ash, if you drive you will crash. Let me drive,” She says. I sigh loudly before giving her my keys.

“Come on sunshine, into the car.” She says helping me walk.

“You’re tiny,” I say.

“You’re just too tall,” She counter argues, I smirk and hug her tightly.

“I should have stopped drinking after all the boys passed out.”

“Will they be okay? I don’t want them to be ill or anything.”

“They weren’t drunk! Just tired,” I tell her. She nods and helps me get into the driver’s seat.

“Where do you live?” She laughs, I turn on the SatNav and tell it to lead us home.

“Thank you,” I whisper looking at her concentrating on driving.

“It’s okay.”

“I’m sure you would have much rather spent it with your friends.”

“Nah, not really. Besides I did spend it with friends, your friends,” She smiles.

“I think they like you more than me.”

“It’s cause’ I’m a girl,” She jokes. I giggle loudly before relaxing back into my car seat.

“You can stay with me tonight.”

“Oh no, I don’t want to be any trouble.”

“You won’t be! I sleep on the floor when I’m drunk because I like to be leveled, you can sleep in my bed,” I tell her. She looks at me and smiles,

“Thank you Ashton.”

“I’d do anything for you,” I mumble before I fall asleep for the rest of the ride home.

Part Twoo, sorry it took so long :)