i shouldnt have made this because now i cant stop crying

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Inspired by the song Somebody That I Used To Know Tony and Bucky dated for a while and then Bucky gets in an accident where he loses his arm and he gets self-conscious and breaks up with Tony, he gets Steve to get his stuff from Tony's house and he completely removes him from his life without explaining anything to Tony, Tony is devastated and doesn't know what he did wrong and after 2 years he sees bucky again

“Bucky?” Tony ripped his sunglasses off and stared up at the man who had just plowed into him. “Buck? Uh, hey.”

“Hey. Heya, Tony.” Bucky ran his right hand through his hair awkwardly. “How are you? Been a long time.”

“Its been two years.” Tony corrected. “Not just a long time. Two years. Where the hell have you been? What have you been doing? Why did you–” Tony closed his mouth and backed up a step, folding his arms. “Hows it going?”

“Its good to see you Tony.” Bucky said quietly, letting his eyes trace over Tony’s heartbreakingly familiar face, the hair he had spent hours running his fingers through, the dark eyes he had fallen in love with. “You look good.”

“You look good too.” Tony nodded, glancing away and clearing his throat. “So. You’re back in town?”

“Visiting some friends. Um Steve is–”

“Steve. Right.” Tony unfolded then refolded his arms tensly. “Steve. How are you guys doing? Still together?”

“What? No.” Bucky shook his head. “Steve and I were never together.”

“What do you mean you were never together? What about when you–” Tony looked away again. “When you moved out. He helped you. I assumed…”

“Oh honey.” Bucky looked sad all the sudden. “No, no Tony. I didnt leave because I was with Steve.”

Then why the hell–” Tony started to raise his voice but he put his hands up peacefully. “Nevermind. You look good, Buck. Glad to see you well. Guess Ill see you around.”

Tony jammed his hands in his pockets and stepped around him, heading up the sidewalk again.

Bucky watched him go, wondering how it could still hurt this bad after two years.


“Tony wait!”

Tony turned around when Bucky grabbed his wrist. “What’s up Buck?” He looked tired, tired and just worn out and way too emotional to be having a conversation in the middle of the street.

“Tony, I didnt leave because I was with Steve, or because I didnt want you anymore.”

“I cant talk about this right now.” Tony tried to tug away.


“No, Bucky!” Tony snapped. “Its been two years! Just let it go!”

“No, no sweet thing, I wont.” Bucky whispered and this time tears made his blue eyes shine. “I left because—”

He held out his left hand, the robotic one and Tony blinked down at it and then up at him.

“I dont get it.”

“I felt like half a man, Tony. I was hurt, and you had to do everything for me. I couldnt even– couldnt even hold you the way I used to, the way you liked.”

“I didnt care about that.” Tony brushed a hand over his face, cramming his sunglasses over his eyes. “I didnt care about that.”

“I know. But I did. So I ran away.” Bucky held up his left hand, curling it carefully around Tonys other wrist. “And it was stupid and Ive missed you every day. But I figured you hated me enough for leaving that you wouldnt even give me the time of day, much less…” he motioned between them. “And then after I decided to get the prosthesis, I was worried Id hurt you while I was adjusting to it and–”

“You’re so stupid!” Tony burst out. “Do you really think so little of me that I would care–” his voice broke. “I didnt hate you, but I kind of do now. For thinking we werent strong enough to handle it.”

“I am stupid.” Bucky agreed, and tilted Tonys chin up carefully. “Can we– Can I take you to dinner? Or can I come over and cook you dinner? I still remember your favorite way to cook chicken and—”

“Im a vegetarian now.” Tony sniffed and Bucky smiled slowly, wiping a tear from Tonys face.

“No you arent.”

“Fine, Im not but— but—” Tony took his sunglasses off again and jabbed them at Buckys chest. “Bucky. It killed me when you left. I loved you and I was ready to work through anything wiht you and then you just up and fucking left me! Give me one good reason I shouldnt try to knock your ass out?”

“Ill hold you the way you like.” Bucky murmured, and leaned in close to nuzzle Tonys cheek, knowing Tony had already forgiven him, because the beautiful brunette hadnt stopped touching his left arm, hadnt stopped lacing and unlacing their fingers even as he was yelling. “I remember how to do that too.”

“You’re not as charming as you used to be.” Tony snapped and Bucky finally just wrapped both arms around him and held him tight.

“Ive missed you.”

“I still hate you.”

“Thats fine. I can work with that.”

“Im going to make things miserable for you.”

“Thats fine, doll, I wouldnt expect anything else.”

“You have two years to make up for. Two.”

“Ill make up for every second, and then some. Whatever you want, okay?”

Bucky closed his eyes and tried not to cry when Tony finally put his arms around him.

“The robot arm is a little hot.” Tony admitted, his voice muffled in Buckys jacket.

“There’s my tech genius.” Bucky pulled away only enough to steal a quick kiss. “My beautiful genius. Come on. Lets go start making up for all that lost time.

nct dream!kids au

youre their babysitter ok istg (theyre also like 4-8) (and theyre also all related)


-a literal mess omg!!

-tries his best but ends up failing somehow

-cant make a sandwich, ends up blowing up the kitchen

-needs your help for a lot of things but not before he accidentally screws it up himself when he tries to be a big boy!!!

-like one time, you went over to babysit

-and he was a precious angel! said hi and smiled and dragged you to his room to play!!

-everything was fine and dandy until you left the room for a sec and came back to mark upside down hanging from his bed with his toys scattered on the floor when it was in a neat pile before

-dont leave him alone for too long

-dont leave him alone at all omg, hold his hand and take him as your smol useless sidekick

-tries to help take care of the kids with you because he’s the hyung and he needs to have a responsibility! (never ends up doing what he’s supposed to do but you love him anyway)

-falls asleep really easily, is always disoriented when he wakes up from naps

-has his own bed but prefers to crawl in bed with his bff and best brother hae!!!

-doesnt have a teddy bear or any stuffie and falls asleep with nothing in his arms but ends up hugging anything he can grab in his sleep

-it can be hae, a pillow, their pet bunny that manages to escape bc chen forgot to lock it up, it doesnt matter (hae pretends to hate it but it makes him feel warm so he’s lowlowlowlowlowlowlowkey ok with it)


-what a sass master

-youngest sass master youve ever seen

-pickiest eater ever omg

-doesnt like ANYTHING you give him unless it has peanut butter on it

-he’ll make you put peanut butter on pizza

-he doesnt CARE he just wants peanut butter

-such a tsundere omg hates your jokes but loves your smiles (will never admit it)

-stubborn ass kid jesus

-but a cutie so you dont mind!!

-loves his hyung mark but will not hesitate to push him down the stairs for candy

-is always there to give mark bandaids for wounds HE caused

-has to always sit beside you or mark or jisung or jaemin during movies (will not sit still unless he’s with one of you)

-LOVES superheroes

-tried to fly once but just ended up scraping the palm of his hand

-he’s the bandaid guy so he has no one to put a bandaid on him :c

-BUT he has you!!! and mark to the rescue ofc

-mark puts the bandaid on backwards and it accidentally sticks to his hand instead

-haechan doesnt have the heart to tell him and neither do u

-you end up putting the bandaid on hae when mark isnt looking

-reminds you of how cute and perfect he is every 3 minutes hours


-the most talented child you have ever babysat

-will sing the kids to sleep if you asked him to

-will sing YOU to sleep if you asked him to

-sweetest smiles!!!

-total suck up, will do anything to make you happy/smile

-sings around the house, hops everywhere, refuses to stop singing even if jeno threatens to throw his pet bunny on the street


-takes his teddy bear everywhere

-has emotional detachment issues

-loves his parents but lowkey loves his teddy bear more

-highkey loves you more, probably has a cute lil kid crush on you


-buy him stuffed animals and he’ll love you forever

-reallyyyyyyyy likes strawberries

-more than usual

-likes feeding them to his bunny even tho they shouldnt really be eating them

-but it makes the bunny happy so chen is happy!!

-please love him all he wants is for everybody to be happy

-the type to tug on your clothes instead of calling for your name or tapping you to get your attention



-mysterious as heck

-you didnt even notice him the first time you babysat him

-like, their parents came back and thanked you and all the kids came to say goodbye

-and then you just saw renjun there but???

-”omg i didnt even notice you during this whole time im sorry why didnt you say anything?? where were you???”

-and he just responds with “i was in the shadows” right before you leave

-gave you nightmares but you were determined to make him loud and bubbly!!

-so the next time you babysit, you made SURE to find renjun

-took him with you everywhere, so now you have sidekick mark and sidekick renjun

-theyre both useless but in a cute way!!!!

-it takes time but he goes from a chocolate bar left in the freezer for 85 years to a bagel in water!!! (what is this omg)

-still kinda tough but soft and smol at the same time

-doesnt smile often but when he does it’s like a fireball!!! watch out nasa we have a new sun!!!

-small grins and smiles 24/7

-the kids always try to include him in everything bc he may be quiet but they know he’s just shy and can be absolutely insane (in a non ghost-kid creepy way)

-they love him and will do anything he asks bc he never asks for anything usually!!

-the least-needy kid ever


-sly ass lil kid

-probably learns how to flirt from tv shows and uses pickup lines on you

-a sweetheart deep down, cares for you a lot

-will 100000% fight chenle for your heart!!!!

-smile so sweet itll give you cavities but has a lowkey smirk to it so you have to stop him from watching too many tv shows

-follows you around asking you the most dumb questions

-”do you trap people in your phone and talk to them??”

-”jae omg no what the heck ofc not”

-”how do you talk to your friends then??”

-you worry about him a lot

-tries to act tough when he gets booboos

-doesnt like crying and usually doesnt cry when he gets hurt

-BUT when he gets hurt like real bad, he’ll crack

-one time he was running down the stairs chasing jeno

-and he accidentally fell and tumbled down the stairs

-he was ok, no big booboos but his knee got scraped pretty bad

-and *dootdootdoot trumpet sounds* haechan swoops in with bandaids!! (and a HALF hug, gotta keep that tsundere front)

-and as haechan puts like, 3 bandaids on jae’s 1 wound, his lips start quivering and his eyes are tearing up but he cant cry wont cry!! gotta look tough so mark can stop babying him!! so everyone can stop babying him!!

-but then mark hugs him to make up for hae’s half hug and min starts bawling

-chen feels bad too so he hugs jae while mark is still hugging him so it’s a hug-fest!!

-hae reluctantly joins in but only bc he’s hip and with the trends!!! not bc he wanted to hug him or something


-highkey likes learning lowkey likes messing with his brothers

-he likes learning how to make traps and how to successfully prank people

-the annoying smartass kid of the group but nobody minds!! (except haechan bc hes supposed to be annoying and smart!!)

-partners in crime with haechan

-pranks everybody BUT jisung

-everybody has a soft spot for jisung

-starts off with dumb things like whoopie cushions and hand buzzers

-still uses dumb things like whoopie cushions and hand buzzers

-colours pictures as a side job hobby

-quiet and behaved surprisingly when he isnt trying to make you sit on a whoopie cushion

-will eat anything you give him as long as it’s not like, kiwis or something

-hates kiwis with a passion

-will sass you if you try to feed him kiwis

-which makes you seperate him and hae from hanging out for too long

-it never works, they always find a way to navigate back to each other

-you end up just letting him become a sass master in training

-judges your food but compliments your appearance!!

-everything you do is pretty to him

-cleaning up chen’s spilled apple juice?? nO PROBLEM WHAT A CUTE THING YOU ARE

-just dont feed him kiwis, then youre not cute

-really hates kiwis

-like, really really

-will probably slap your hand

-will apologize and hug your hand afterwards

-*cue hae’s eye roll*

-eye smiles all day everyday!!!!


-an actual angel

-youngest and cutest!!

-leader of the cutie sqaud rEPRESENT!!!11!!11!

-probably religiously likes apples

-just imagine him nibbling on an apple

-chen probably really likes him (ONLY WHEN HE’S EATING AN APPLE) bc he reminds him of their pet bunny

-a bit of a crybaby but nobody minds because he doesnt cry on purpose!!

-hurts himself a lot too smh jisung r u having a competition with mark or smth

-but he has spongebob bandaids so “who cares if im bleeding?? i have spongebob!!”

-probably wants to be like, devious and not innocent but cant

-one time, hae and jeno tried to teach him how to prank one of his hyungs but ji just went “i dunno i dont really wanna anymore” all uncomfortable and smol and timidly bc he didnt wanna make hae and jeno upset

-but it was ok!! they took him to the living room to watch spongebob

-dancing machine omg

-like, everybody in the family likes dancing but bOY jisung has such a firey passion for it, it’s insanely cute

-likes candy a lot (but what kid doesnt)

-will most likely sell his soul for candy

-instead of walking around the house, he moonwalks

-nobody has the heart to tell him to stop

-chen almost did once but when jisung smiled real wide when chen called his name, he like stopped and just sputtered out “i have apples”

-the kid that literally does nothing wrong

-you used to be suspicious but not anymore he’s an angEL BEAN

-smol and precious, doesnt like trouble nor does he like loud noises

-yet he enjoys screaming??

-when anything wrong goes down he screams like a siren so everybody knows something is wrong

-he’s practically their fire alarm

nct dream (as a whole)

-puts on shows for you ALL the time

-you were going over to babysit them once but when you arrived you didnt expect a cupcake and a performance!! (their parents told them it was your birthday so they had to be nice to you)

-you didnt even get sassed!! a miracle!!!

-they felt bad that they didnt get you a present so they drew you something instead

-didnt let mark help in fear he’d accidentally set the paper on fire but he was ok with that bc he got to monitor and was on apple juice duty!!

-likes having pillow fights

-you arent about that life so you just sit back and monitor

-jisung doesnt join in but he screams while they fight!!

-he has lungs of steel

-he doesnt join in bc one time he was running around, spinning with a pillow and he accidentally got smacked in the face (dont tell anyone but it was probably mark) and he FLEW BACK


-the room grew quiet and everybody rushed over “omg r u ok???”

-he was ok but no longer particpates, traumatized but also vv thankful bc woah he flew (into a wall but he flew)

-they have pillow fights real often bc it makes renjun happy and he laughs and smiles a lot during them

-pillow fights are BRUTAL

-they have never EVER seen chen so hardcore

-he karate jumps and smacks people in the face

-mark screams and charges headfirst (with a pillow on his head ofc) at everybody

-hae pretends not to care but hits SO hard (as hard as he can with a pillow at least)

-jeno is so good at dodging, so swift it’s scary

-renjun is reallllll quiet so he sneak-attacks people really easly, giving them minor (or major, if youre like, mark) heart attacks

-jaemin pictures everybody as giant, walking kiwis so he screams “I HATE KIWIS” before he runs into the fight blindly, hitting everybody and anybody he can bc deFEAT THE EVIL KIWIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-chen doesnt even have a tactic as long as he gets to hit someone he’s ok

-there’s really no prize so idek why these losers are so competitive

-HOWEVER no matter how much they fight and no matter how competitive they are, they ALWAYS have each other’s back

-like this one time, hae was getting bullied and it all started like thiS *dramatic flashback*

-they all walk home together and instead of being loud like usual, hae was just really quiet and didnt join in the conversation

-so mark the responsible hyung!!! noticed and was like “what’s wrong hae??”

-and he didnt respond so ren, jae, and jeno answered for him

-”that kid in our class said he was loud and annoying”

-”WHERE DOES HE LIVE I’LL HURT HIM” -mark 0.1 seconds after hearing that

-the next day at school, the dream team (im calling them that from now on) confronted the kid and mark went iN


-like, jae and ji got a lil bit offended at the bowl cut comment but iT WAS FOR HAE SO THEY DIDNT CARE

-mark is a third grade SAVAGE

-made the kid cry

-all while hae was hiding behind jeno and jisung (jisung was too short to hide him but like w/e)

-the kid apologized with like snot and tears running down his face

-hae lowkey laughed really hard

-they all got in trouble after

-jisung for sneaking out of kindergarten

-mark for roasting yelling at the kid

-everybody else for being his sidekicks

-their parents couldnt even yell at them bc they were so touched

-do NOT bring these kids to the grocery store

-not altogether

-if you do, youll get kicked out of the grocery store in 0.3343 seconds

-jisung wants EVERYTHING in the store

-hae complains every 2 minutes

-they fight over who gets to sit in the cart

-jisung, mark, hae, and jeno share a room

-jae, chen, and ren share a room

-during nap time, they all end up in one room or another tho

-they kinda hate each other (bc that’s how siblings are!!) but if given the chance to be put in another family, none of them would even THINK about it

-theyre all a mess but that’s how the dream team works!

The other way around... THE END

Yup…. I’m sorry I havent updated for weeks. Busy with stuff and technical difficulties.

So Yeah! This is the last part of the other way around. After this, maybe I’ll write some one shots, just to unwind. Thanks for reading and staying with meh and sorry for the grammars and spellings.

Palette belongs to @angexci (I cant tag… y? :-(
Fell! Goth belongs to @nekophy

Third Person POV

Wait that’s it?? Fell! Goth thought to himself. He put the phone next to his bed and prevent himself for thinking any further, Why didnt he questioned if I was alright? Did he not care about me? Is he with someone else? Did he have plans… On leaving me? As (Fell!) Goth was thinking about that, he didnt realize tears were forming in his eyes(sockets) and was already falling down to his cheeks. Once he realized he was crying he keep wiping them but a new set of tears were falling down.

As much as (Fell!) Goth denied, he’s always emotional when getting sick, he wants someone to be with him, he was longing for attention, longing to be loved. Heh, that’s maybe the reason why he keeps on putting himself for Fell! Palette even though he knows he cant be more than his toys. (Fell!) Goth was getting sleepy, maybe he was tired thinking and crying or maybe his fever’s rising up, he didnt really care. He closed his eyes and slowly drifting himself to sleep.

Fell! Goth was standing, he didnt know where he was, it was black, he cant see a thing and when he blink the scenary was change, he was in the park, children was running, lauging, playing, couples were sitting on the bench iling at each other. In the park, he saw Palette, smiling at him, he didnt had second thought and start running his face didnt hide his emotion, he was smiling from ear to ear, he didnt know but happiness filled his heart when he saw him smiling. But in the corner of his eyes someone was running, it was him but not him, he stopped running, when he saw who it was, it was Palette’s childhood friend. When Goth was in front of Palette, they hold hands and smiling to each other and started walking. Suddenly (Fell!) Goth’s eyes betrayed him and started crying. He was running, trying to catch up with them, screaming “Palette! Palette!”, but the distance seems to grew larger every step he made. He tripped by his clothes, and fell down, he was crying, and saying “Pl-please *hic* d-dont le-le-leave *hic* m-me” between his sobs, he was grabbed by his chin, there he saw his childhood friend, smirking at him, “Aww~ looks like your boyfriend left you” he said with his creely smile. “HAHAHAHAHA” he suddenly laugh maniacally and said “no one will love you”

“NO!” (Fell!) Goth suddenly got up to his bed. It was just a dream, it was just a bad dream, he thought to himself. But he cant stop crying. Suddenly his door was opened forcefully, there he saw Palette panting, like he was running from a marathon. Palette saw Goth’s eyes, he was crying, he run into (Fell!) Goth and embrace him, caressing his head and saying “Shhh…. Shhh… It’s alright.. Shh… I’m here. I’ll never leave you” when (Fell!) Goth hear the last phrase, his emotion burst out and started crying loudly while Palette was comforting him.

The end

Once the drama is over, palette sit on (Fell!) Goth’s bed. “Why are you here?” Goth questioned Palette. “Hmm? Well, I was going to suprise you, and I came in your house finding you were asleep, thinking that I shouldnt bothered you, I was going outside your house, when I hear you screamed so I ran to your room and you know the rest.” Palette said smiling, (Fell!) Goth was embarassed when he remembered what happened, and then he felt dizzy. Palette saw the discomfort and gently push him down in the bed “w-wait! what a-are you d-doing?” Goth asked while blushing. “Hm? I’m laying you in the bed, so you can have some rest” Palette said, “A-ah ok” Goth said blushing even deeper, suddenly Palette’s hand was in (Fell!) Goth’s forehead, getting the other skeleton flinch. Palette put a cold and wet towel into Goth’s forehead to lessen the fever. “Well now let’s get some rest” Palette said while laying down and hugging Goth “W-wait! Are you not going home?” Goth turnedasked while again blushing. “Hm? No.” Palette answered lazily, “B-but why?” Goth asked him again and Palette opened his eyes and kiss (Fell!) Goth’s forehead and said “Because I love you” (Fell!) Goth blushed on what Palette said, “Not my fault if you get my fever” he said trying to be intimidate by pouting but it turns out to be cute. Palette chuckled and said “Alright, alright lets sleep” “Mmmkay” Goth said then slowly closed his eyes. The next day, Palette was in (Fell!) Goth’s bed coughing, while Goth was standing crossed arms, “I told you, you would get my fever!” Goth said to Palette “hehe *cough* *cough* no regrets” Palette managed to say while coughig. “Ughh, wait here I’ll go get some meds for you” Goth was walking, when Palette grab his hand and pull him to an embrace. “I love you” Palette said to Goth which caught him defendless, and said “I-I love you too, jerk” Goth said while blushing.

Today’s going to be a great day.



Hope you like it!!!! Till next time

Boyfriend! au - Wooseok

Ok so warning before I was told this has a different feel than my other aus but thats cuz wooseok is my bf & i have a different kind of love for him lol

Originally posted by yeo1

  • Ok just so yall know this is gonna be based off one of my dreams of wooseok and it was great so ur welcs
  • Now it might not sound great at first, but wooseok gonna be a fuckboy/troublemaker lol
  • Like i know wtf…..but just imagine his dark ass clothing…..& the fuckin lip ring
  • Yep that lip ring haunts me in my dreams cuz it was so hot lol
  • Ok so u & wooseok in college, u both work hard in ur majors, but in ur free time u guys are dipshits lol
  • One thing u guys like to do is prank ur friends (sorry pentagon lmao)
  • This is literally how u guys became friends lol
  • Like one night u guys both end up being at some boring lake house party
  • & u were inside for most of the night just relaxing & talking to people u know no biggie
  • But as soon people began moving inside to sleep or ;) u were like bye nasties
  • So u walked outside to see the mess of what was a party
  • …but then u see this super tall skinny guy, obviously drunk, trying to toss this other tall guy into the lake thats just laughing
  • & ur like oh shit trying to save the drunk guy from drowning lol so u grab a really large floatie, big enough for the drunk guy to lay on, and run over to them
  • & u didnt think the guy was sober enough to actually throw the other guy in the water, or realize what he was doing for that matter, but even if they both passed out right there they could drown
  • So despite u telling the super tall (& super attractive) guy he should just put him down he refuses and keeps mumbling “I…have to get…Yuto back for….putting teriyaki sauce in my drink..”
  • And ur like wtf is up with these children
  • But ur also not the type to give up a prank

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what im weak for this week

SOOOOO i haven’t done one of these in almost a month! i think it’s high-time to get back on track again! hopefully i can come out with the next one on the 11th instead of a month later.

this is long. like srsly long. like wow. it took me an hour. i could’ve written a whole fic.

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Can you do an Oli Sykes imagine where he get really mad at something y/n did and throws something at her and it nearly hits her, ending in lots of fluff and forgiveness on both their parts -Anonymous

You were with your boyfriend Oliver Sykes or who you like to call Oli. He was the best guy you could ask for. Well except when you guys got into arguments. They were heated and that wasnt because of you but because Oliver never stopped.

Yet you were currently having a nice day sitting on the couch cuddling. Today was Oliver’s day off and he decided to spend it with you. It seemed as if nothing can ruin it.

Just then your phone rang and you watched as Oliver picked it up for you. From the sound of it you had gotten a message.

”Y/N whats this babe?” Oliver asked you and you positioned yourself to sit up next to him. Oliver handed you your phone and you read the message on the screen.

It was a text from your best friend Kevin that you had known from middle school all the way through today. Everyone wondered why you two hadn’t fall in love. You just never seen eachother that way.

You read the text:

- Hey babe wat u doin? Cant wait to see u again!! Lmfao the other night was fun and wild… lol except your yelling was too much tho hahaha

You were laughing and looked back at Oliver who was looking back at you with the most angered face youve ever seen.

”What are you mad about? It’s just a text babe.” You said trying to touch Oliver but he got up.

You could see how that text could sound dirty but it was nothing like that at all.

All you did was go over to Kevin’s house and watch hella scary movies. That’s where the yelling part came in. You also ate snacks and drank beers talking about your relationships. 

He was dating your best girlfriend from middle school, Chelsea ,for 9 years now and you guys were talking about how to propose to her. You were so happy for them and hoped the same for you and Oli.

“I dont know maybe cause its a text involving a man fucking my girlfriend?!” Oliver exclaimed standing up raising his voice.

“Oli baby calm down. We’re just friends. Dont be so stupid.” You stated laughing a little at the way Oli thought. You began replying to the text. “You think this is funny?” Oliver asked and just then he took your phone and threw it against the wall.

“Oliver are you fucking crazy?!” You yelled going to retrieve your phone but Oliver stopped you.

“Dont you even dare. Sit back down. Now.” Oliver demanded and you did as you were told.

“Now how long have you been screwing eachother? Huh?” Oliver asked and you just rolled your eyes.

“No one is screwing anyone Oli. Me and Kevin are just friends and you fucking know that!” You said raising your voice at him.

“STOP FUCKING LYING TO ME DAMMIT!” Oli yelled in your face and you felt your blood boiling as you stood up.

“Oliver leave me alone about this. Youre being a complete asshole. Im not cheating and i never will!” You yelled back and it only made things worse.

“I don’t want you seeing him again:” Oli said quiet enough for you to hear and you felt the tears fill your eyes. Those were the words you never wanted to hear. Because those were the words that meant you and OIiver werent going to last forever.

Ever since you started dating you,Kevin, and Chelsea promised to break up with any Boyfriends or Girlfriends that tried to tare you guys apart.

“Well then I don’t want you to see Austin Carlile ever again.” You smirked which only made Oliver even more mad at you. You watched as he starred at you with a cold look. Just then he walked up to you quickly , so fast that it made you flinch when he reached you.

“This is not a game Y/N.” Oliver said to you through clenched teeth.He was pissed off at you and you have never seen him this way before.It was really intimidating.


“You dont know what i need!” Oliver yelled and just then you felt something barely touch your ear and  break against the wall. You saw that it was a lamp. You turned around to see a surprised Oliver and you broke down crying.

Did he really just try to hit you with a lamp? How could he do that? after all the things you guys had been through.

“Y/N im so sorry… I didn’t mean for it to get that close.” Oliver said getting close to you slowly as if you were a scared puppy. He came and pulled you into a hug.

“Oli im  sorry… i should’ve explained to you that Kevin had a girlfriend and we were only friends. I dont want to ever fight like this again.” You cried even more. It was the truth you had always wanted to be forever with Oliver.

“Yes i understand im just a jealous jerk. I shouldnt of went that far im so stupid. Its just the thought of loosing you hurts me all the time and gets me so frustrated. Please forgive me baby.” Oliver said in a calm voice that went so good with his gorgeous British accent.

“Yes of course babe… Now can we please go back to watching our movie? And also you’re buying me a new phone.” You said drying your tears and you and Oliver laughed.

“Of course babe anything for you.” He said kissing the top of your forehead. And thats how you spent your day with Oli watching movies and cuddling the whole day.


character(s): aoba, noiz, koujaku, mink

couple(s): kounoi, minkao

notes: im sorry im just so happy i managed to incorporate ruff rabbit into noiz’s handle

aobooty LOGGED IN

aobooty: noiz

aobooty: NOIZ


this_rabbit_likes_it_ruff: omfg what

aobooty: I TALKED TO HIM

this_rabbit_likes_it_ruff: who

this_rabbit_likes_it_ruff: wait

this_rabbit_likes_it_ruff: oh

this_rabbit_likes_it_ruff: OH

this_rabbit_likes_it_ruff: OHHHHHHH

this_rabbit_likes_it_ruff: SO HOW’D IT GO


this_rabbit_likes_it_ruff: on a level of 1 to me seeing koujakus dick how awkward

aobooty: I DONT KNOW??? 

aobooty: wait didn’t you give him a blowjob after

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i am a mentally ill teen with trauma, please help me save up towards leaving a toxic environment

hello my name is ns and i am 17 years old and genderqueer; i have various mental health issues (ask if you want details i guess), i had a nervous breakdown when i was 12 that forced me to leave school, i was neglected and emotionally abused as a child, and i need a place to recover from these things and begin to move on. the place i currently am is 100% not it. explicit (somewhat long-winded) details are at the end of the post but uh first things first

i cant have a paypal of my own but my boyfriend julian has very kindly given me use of his for this, it is breath.less@live.com and all he asks is that any money sent to it is noted as being for me (or i know how much it is exactly) so that he knows not to do anything with it. in case anyone wants to know: apart from being kind of poor there are reasons i wouldnt be able to save up money of my own right now long-term even if i had it, reasons included under the readmore, plus i really fucking resent asking for money for nothing but being in this environment that i am kills my drive for more or less everything and even if im not a bad writer commissions are honestly out of the question right now

sorry if this isnt written very well by the way i havent really done a post like this before and im winging it a little. but here we go

warning for #money, #gaslighting, #transphobia, #suicide, #alcohol, #unsanitary, #self-harm, #abandonment, #animal abuse, #trans fetishism, #abuse, #rape (has not happened to me, just discussion of it), #disordered eating + #weight talk, #school

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Luke Hemmings One Shot → Save Me

Pairing: Luke x Reader

Requested: -

A.N.: This contains bad language and abusing so dont read this if youre not into this kinda stuff.

I woke up from the sound of my phone ringing from across the room. I hastly stood up to make the noise stop, I surely didnt want to wake up my sleeping boyfriend. He could get really mad, one time I accidentally woke him up while I cleaned the room, he shoved me against the wall, held my wrist reaaly tight and yelled at me. I had bruises for days and I could barely move my hand. But I didnt blame him, he was just tired from work and probably just stressed out. 

I sneaked out of the room and unlocked my phone. It was a missed call from my best friend Luke. I sighed and called him back. He picked up after the third ring. “(Y/N)! why didnt you pick up the phone? Are you alright?” he asked and I could hear the worry in his voice. “Yeah everything is fine Luke. I just didnt hear the phone, I was still in bed.” I exclaimed. “Anyway, why are you calling?” I asked, walking downstairs to the kitchen to prepare some breakfast. “I just wanted to check on you and I wanted to ask if you got time for a movie or something later. I havent seen you in ages I miss you!" 

I sighed. Dan, my boyfriend, didnt want me to meet Luke or any of my friends. I’ve lost so many people since I started dating Dan, but Luke never left me. There was a long pause before I answered. "I can’t.” I wispered. “Why? Because of Dan? Screw him (Y/N). He can’t control you. I dont get why you didnt dump him already. He’s not good for you and you know it! You deserve so much better than this abusive little bastard!” he yelled. “Luke hes not…he isnt abusing me.” I lied, looking down to my feet. “Oh no? What are you callimg ‘shoving around’, 'hitting’, 'leaving bruises all over your body’ and 'touching you against your will’? I dont know about you, but to me that sounds a lot like abusing!” he angrily replied. I heard foosteps approaching and I panicked. Breakfast always has to be done in time Dan wakes up and I didnt even start yet. Shit! “Fine! I’m meeting you later. I’ll be at your place at four.” I hastly replied, completely ignoring his rant about Dan. I hung up and placed my phone on the kitchen counter. Before I could walk to the fridge to start preparing some breakfast Dan stormed through the door.

“Where the fuck is the breakfast?” he growled. “I-its not ready yet.” I said, my voice shaking. “God, you’re such a useless piece of shit.” he yelled and slapped me in the face. His fist hit me so hard I fell onto the ground, my nose slightly bleeding. “I’m s-sorry I will make you breakfast now.” I stuttered. “No I’m already late for work you bitch. I’m getting breakfast on the way. You’re gonna regret that later.” he mumbled and left the house.

I slowly got up and washed my blood away. I dont even cry anymore when Dan hits me, its a usual thing by now. Our relationship started so wonderful. He treated me like a princess but after about four month he started calling me names and he’d hit me occasionally but lately things got worse. He yelled at me for every little thing and if I did something wrong, he’d hit me. But I couldnt break up with him, I mean he is my boyfriend after all and I love him, but mostly I was just afraid of what he might do to me if I’d break up with him.

It was 3.30 p.m. now and I was on my way over to Lukes. It was a 20 minutes walk from my house to his. I couldnt take the car anymore because Dan always used it and according to him ’women shouldnt be allowed behind a wheel anyway.' 

I reached Lukes at exactly 3.56 p.m. I rang the doorbell and a few minutes later a tall blonde boy opened the door. His bright smile faded as he saw me. I had a black eye and a bruise on my shoulder and my wrists. “Oh (Y/N)” he just said and pulled me in for a hug. “Why are you letting him do this to you?” me mumbled into my shoulder. I didnt say anything and broke the hug, sneaking past Luke into the house and upstairs to his room. I nervously sat down on his bed, fiddling with my hair. I didnt want him to talk about Dan or my bruises.

“So uhm..what movie do you wanna watch?”

“How about we talk about your bruises instead?”

“How about we dont.”

“(Y/N)” he sighed. “You have to do something about this!”


“Why not?”

“Because I cant.”

“I dont get it (Y/N)! This guy is abusing you and you’re not doing anything to stop it! You let him control your life! You’re not meeting your friends and family anymore because he is telling you not to! This is ridiculous! You deserve so much better! You deserve someone who treats you right, someone who loves you for who you are, someone who tells you you’re beautiful on a daily basis,someone who holds you and makes you smiled whenever you’re feeling down, someone who is always there for you, someone who is not letting you down! You dont need him and I swear to god I will kill this son of a bitch if he touches you just one more time!” I was shocked at Lukes sudden outburst. He always said I should break up with Dan and that I deserved better but it was never like this.

Luke, my best friend since kindergarten, he was always there for me, always my protecor. As we got older I realized I had the biggest crush on him but I never said anything because I didnt want to ruin our friendship because I knew he didnt feel the same thing about me. When I met Dan I thought I was over Luke but when Dan started beating me and Luke came over, or when we talked on the phone and he cheered me up, made me feel less like crap I knew I wasnt over him at all. Once he cancelled a camping trip with his mate because Dan pushed me down the staires and left for a week without saying where he’d go and when he’d come back. I couldnt move properly so Luke stayed and helped me out. He is literally the best thing that ever happened to me. But I didnt want him to get hurt so I had to keep my distance from him.

“But why? Why do you even care so much? Why didn’t you leave me just like everyone else did? Why? I dont understand!” My lips were trembling and I could hold back my tears. “Because I love you!” he admitted. I blankely started at him. I couldnt wrap my mind about what just came out of my best friends mouth. He loved me?  "What?“ I wispered. "I love you! I do for a long time now and I cant watch you getting hurt like that ever again. I cant lose you. I dont care what I have to do to keep you save but I wont let him hurt you ever again!” he exclaimed ad pulled me close to him. “I’m going to save you.” he said before attaching his lips to mine. I could feel the butterflies in my belly exploding and my heart did a thousand cart wheels.  I broke the kiss as I fully realised what he just said.

“You cant do this.”

“Do what?” he asked with a confused expression on his face.

“You cant save me.” I cried

“Why not?”

“Because I dont want you to get hurt! Just stay way from me Luke.” I said and stormed out of the room. I was just about to leave throgh the front door when I felt someone holding me back. I turned around to see Luke standing behind me. “Please dont run away. Let me help you.”

“Luke I just said it, I dont want you to get hurt.”

“I dont care if I get hurt as long as you are okay.”

“But I care okay?! I care a lot  if you’d get hurt. Dan is going to kill you if he ever finds out what happened today.”

“I mean it (Y/N) I’m going to save you no matter what.”


Four days passed since Luke told me he loved me. He tried to call me a lot of times but I always ignored him. Dan cant find out about what happened or that I still have contact to Luke so I kept my distance from him. I didnt want him involed in this. But I knew that he was right. I had to do something I couldnt live my life in fear anymore. I lived like this long enough. Dan worked everyday for about 9 hours. In that time I decided to participate in a self defence class for women. A month has passed until i finally had the guts to face Dan. I felt ready. 

It was a sunday morning, Dan was still asleep, recovering from his  last nights drinking. I had my things packed and I was ready to leave. I sat in the living room, nervously waiting for Dan to wake up. I looked down to my phone and decided to text Luke, saying that I’d finally leave Dan. 

Message to: Luke Hemmings

You were right. It’s time that I cange my life. I’m gonna break up with Dan today. I’m so damn sorry I ignored you the past month. I didnt want you to be involved into my mess. I hope you can forgive me xx

About 10 minutes later I heared the doorell. I opened the door to find Luke stading in my doorframe. “Luke what the hell are you doing here? you need to leave!” I panicked. He cant be here. “Im here to protect you!” he said and walked inside. “I can protect myself. I took lessons I know how to fight! So please just leave!” I begged. “I wont leave! Why wont you understand? I’m not leaving you! I’m staying with you. Always.” Before I could say anything else Dan came down the staires. “What the fuck is going on here? What is this moron doing here?!” he hissed. Next thing I know is Luke walking over to Dan, hitting him in the face. “You got to be fucking kidding me kid.” Dan laughed and hit back. The two sarted a rough fight. I couldnt watch this so I got between them. Dan hit me right in the stomach, I fell onto the ground I could barely breathe. He shoved Luke away and turned to me, kicking me. “You bitch! I saw your luggage. You trying to leave me?” another kick. “Youre nothing without me!” he yelled and kicked me again. I tried to get up and hit him back but he shoved me back down. Seems like I wast ready to fight him after all. I curled up in a ball and recieved another kick from Dan. Suddenly I heard a loud thud. I looked up to see Luke with a baseball bat in his hands and Dan on the ground, not moving. “I’m gonna call the police.” he said panting.  Half an hour later the police arrived, they interroated me and Luke. I told them how Dan always abused me. They took him with them. This whole thing gone to court, Dan is not allowed to go near me again.

My nightmare was finally over all thanks to Luke, I never wouldve left Dan if it wasnt for him. He saved me. “Thank you, for everything” I told him after we walked out of the court house. “I told you I’d save you.” he smiled and put his arm around me. “So..what now?” he asked “What do you mean?” I replied confused. “I saved you from your terrible boyfirend. Does that mean I’m your hero now?” he laughed “You were always my hero Luke.” I smiled moving closer to him “I love you” I wispered and kissed him.

Hope you liked it! Feedback would be awesome :) xx


criticalum’s prompts

Originally posted by irwindependent

soooo these are some prompts that you can request and please give credit if you use these; just tell me the number and boy you want and ill try my best to write it  (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

1. “i can always tell who you are by just your eyes, but now all i see is a completely different person

2. “no one ever listens to me, so why do you?

3. “i may not be able to call you mine anymore, but i can miss you all i want

4. “you are not allowed to use me

5. “please don’t leave

6. “you can say sorry all you want, but you cant take back all the hurt and pain you caused

7. “i dont have hope anymore

8. “im not scared to love you, im scared to lose you

9. “ive told you so many times but you dont even listen

10. “i havent played a single note or uttered a single lyric ever since you left

11. “waking up to an empty bed hurts every morning and still i do nothing about it

12. “is that my fucking diary?!

13. “you dont know how to love me when youre sober

14. “maybe its time to call it quits

15. “please tell me that its fake

16. “do you not love me anymore?

17. “i will not date you, so stop asking me to

18. “i get that were not dating anymore but i kinda left my most favorite thing in the world in this apartment, and i need it back, like pronto

19. "it’s four am and youre probably sleeping but im sitting here crying

20. ”stop being cute im trying to be mad at you

21. “we’re like parallel lines, close but never together

22. “i wish i could believe you

23. “i was doing so well until you showed up

24. “i really shouldnt have read our old texts but i did and now i miss you a lot

25. “you never even told me why

26. “ive tried to move on from you but you always stop me from doing so

27. “i’m not tired because i need sleep im tired because of this relationship” 

28. “so i meant nothing to you?” 

29. “are you ashamed of me?” 

30. “tonight i will love you, but tomorrow you wont even care

31. “id rather you yell at me;the silence is worse

32. “um, this is a box of your stuff i had after we broke up and im returning it now because well its been a year and a half

33. “out of all of the people in the world, it had to be you, a limpet of a human, to be my soulmate

34. “if you keep straddling me like this i am not responsible for what im about to do to you“ 

35. “god, you annoy me” 

36. “youre so soft and warm and i could cuddle you all da—hey stop trying to leave me! baby stay with me some more” 

37. “is that all i am to you?” 

38. “hold my hand and never let go” 

39. “i never thought itd be you im having this conversation with” 

40. “i could totally beat you at a contest to see who can go the longest without kissing the other” 

41. “one day im gonna call you mine” 

42. “i feel empty without you” 

43. “can i do your makeup, baby?” 

44. “if you want to break up with me, dont be a wimp and just do it!” 

45. “it doesnt matter how much i drink, how many people i fuck, how often i get high, it’s always you on my mind and i hate that” 

46. “ive hated you since the day my eyes landed on your gremlin face so why do i have the sudden urge to kiss you?” 

47. “you have me but i dont have you” 

 48. “stop messing with my feelings” 

 49. “do you seriously love me or is this just your sarcasm again?” 

 50. “i miss having you in my arms” 

 51. “i refuse to be the little spoon, dont do this to me” 

 52. “im not saying i love you because im drunk i promise you i mean it” 

 53. “i never learned how to say goodbye because people often leave without saying it” 

 54. “i believe that we can be extraordinary together instead of ordinary apart” 

55. “i thought you were different” 

 56. “i never thought it would end like this

 57. “i dont care about your boyfriend/girlfriend! i care about you and i just wishes you cared about me the same way” 

 58. “youll regret breaking my heart” 

 59. “leaving you was the biggest mistake ive ever made” 

 60. “its either me or him/her—choose” 

 61. “did you just call me babe?” 

 62. “you make my heart ache and my head hurt but i still adore you

 63. “why wont you let me love you?” 

 64. “grab your keys because were going on a drive to clear our minds

65. “what do you mean you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?” 

66. “i havent seen you since our breakup but um wow you look very nice like really really nice” 

67. “can i kiss you or would that be weird?

68. “i didnt know you could sing!” 

69. “is that what i think it is?” 

70. “id rather you break my heart than any other guy/girl” 

71. “i wish you were here with me” 

72. “you’re physically here but not mentally and that kills me” 

73. “are you really that blind?” 

74. “i just need you to hold me” 

75. “i shouldve kept my mouth shut” 

76. “we never got closure” 

77. “i think you have the wrong number” 

78. “i can just sense the sexual tension“ 

79. ”are you trying to make me jealous?

80. “i could kiss you forever and i would never get tired of it

81. “i snapchatted you for nudes stop sending me selfies of you using the worst filters

82. “take your shirt off

83. “i dont get it, im literally throwing myself at you but you still dont acknowledge me

84. “im not playing hard to get im actually just really hard to get

85. “this is not the time for your terrible sex jokes, we are literally lost in the middle of nowhere

86. “did you just throw a ball at my head to get my attention?

87. “i cant date you; you’re my best friend’s brother/sister

88. “im not who you think i am

89. “youre my home

90. “i cant believe i gave you the power to destroy me

91. “why have you been avoiding me?

92. “stop quoting my songs or i am leaving you

93. “we are gonna look back at today and all we’ll feel is nostalgia

94. “i miss being yours

95. “i know we arent exclusive but it breaks my heart to see you with him/her

96. “im better than this. i deserve more than this half assed relationship

97. “do you ever miss me?

98. “do you really think you can sing to me to fix what you did wrong

99. “what do you mean that you hate my band?

100. “that was the worst pickup line ive ever heard

Bring him back- peter pan imagine

You caused pans death, he needed your heart as the thing he loved the most and you rejected him for the good of storybrooke, now theres hope to bring him back. You and felix are estatic and cant wait to tell emma but emma and co dont agree to your idea.

“Emma now…please”. She shot you a confused look before nodding “ok ill be one second”. You and felix walked into her office and calmed youself, you knew you shouldnt be hopeful but how couldnt you be. You felt like this small opportunity was the greatest thing to ever exist,you felt a part of you was missing now he was gone, every morning it was a few seconds before it hit you that he was dead and those were the best seconds of your day. But now this nightmare might be over, you could bring him back. Emma came in a few minutes later followed by hook, snow and charming. “Hey y/n do you want my parents and hook here too?”. “Yeah…i don’t mind i just need to ask or tell you an idea i had” you babbled. She nodded and shut the door “okay y/n whats up”. Unsure of where to start you went to the beginning “rumples alive”. “Yeah we got that, neal gave his life for his”. You sensed the tension in the air as she said that but carried on. “We thought rumple had died, we thought he and pan both died with no hope of return but now he’s back, he returned”. They all looked at you blankly so you carried on and bit the bullet “if rumple survived then that means pan might’ve, he might still be well and alive”. Their eyes flashed briefly with fear but your tone showed you were thrilled by the idea. “Y/n i know you…cared somewhat for him but we have no way of knowing that”. You frowned disgruntled but carried on “rumples the only proof i need, if he did it pan can, i know he can, and if he did i want to help, we want to find him”. David and hook shot you warning looks at that, snow looked at you with sympathy and emma looked uncomfortable. Felix stepped closer to you and met their stares. “Y/n if he’s alive he’s dangerous…” David started. “You don’t know that, the dagger might’ve effected him, taken away his magic, all i know is he might be alive and i could see him again”. Hook shook his head as snow tried again “y/n if he’s alive who’s to say he’s not just more angry at you all, he might not be changed, if he’s trapped that might be the safest thing for us and y..”. Snow stopped when emma gave her a look. “Were you going to say its be the safest thing for me?”. She shook her head but you ignored her “pan would never hurt us, even after what i did to stop him, if anything he would understand the sacrifice i made and by rescuing him that would just prove our loyalty further, to always do whats best for him”. “Your loyalty to him? Y/n you shouldn’t be loyal to him, neither of you should, not after what he made you do” hook said. “He didn’t make me do anything, it was always my own choice” felix spoke up and you nodded “he never laid a finger on felix or me”. “I don’t think thats something you should brag about” David hissed. “Im not proud but don’t blame peter its not his fault”. Hook chucked at that and felix turned to face him “what are you laughing for pirate?”. “Just the naive girl, who was it who told you to kidnap Henry? Who was it who told you to pretend to be sick so he’d trust you? on who’s orders did you kill half my crew? it was pan, it was all him and i know you think you love him but i promise you don’t and now he’d dead i say good riddance”. The room was filled with silence and tension. Felix responded by grabbing hook by the neck, drawing his dagger. Hook flinched and struggled with his grip but felix over powered him. “Take it back, take it back now pirate” felix was shouting. You stood transfixed as charming and emma tried to disentangle hook and felix who were now both fighting. They finally got felix off hook and pushed him backwards. You caught felix and steadied him, “felix stop”. Your voice broke and they all turned to look at you. “All of you stop it”. Snow and emma looked worried and David was staring at you, his eyes wide and sad. “You can sit here and tell me that i don’t or shouldn’t love him, hey maybe your right, in years to come i probably wont dream about him every night, relive his death in my brain constantly, think of him as soon as i wake up and last thing before i fall asleep, think about him whilst trying to live normally, bite my tongue when people insult him and hold back the tears when people cast his name into a conversation as if it were dirt, hide the pain i feel every day because it was me who killed him, it was me who did it, after all he did for me, its the deed that i will regret to my grave but you all celebrate as if i didn’t loose someone i cared for, as if he wasn’t a human too”. They all watched you and felix was crying softly “y/n why didn’t you come to me? Why didn’t you tell me how bad it was for you?” he asked. “How could i felix, i cant grieve because it was in my control to let him live and i chose to kill him, its all my fault”. Felix hugged you and you saw snow also looked close to tears, emma and charming looked touched and hook looked awkward. “I know we shouldn’t look for him, after all he’s done to you, but isn’t that what heroes do, the right thing, i know he caused you all pain, but i know he’s good, i know how i felt with him and all the kids he’d saved, he’s helped you all before and i know theres some good in him, he will never be a hero but he wont always be a villain, as theres a chance he’s alive, I’m going to look for him because your right, who says i truly love him? All i know is i cant go on without him”. The room was silent for a few seconds before snow broke it “okay we’ll look for him”. Hook and charming made a noise but charming nodded when snow shot him a look. “I apologise for what i said to the two of you” hook told you “i truly am sorry your grieving and you’ve lost someone you love, i know how horrible this is, but all i can say is I’m not sure about this”. Turning to emma he asked “what do you think love”. “I say we look for him” she said simply “y/n and felix believe they can make him listen and i believe them, he loved her thats why he needed her heart, if he loves her he’s bound to listen and if not…guys you’ll help us stop him if he tries anything, yes?” Emma asked turning to you. You and felix looked at each other before nodding “yes we will” felix told her. “Well in that case lets do it”.

“We think he’s in here” emma told the two of you, “belle thinks this is the place they were sent”. You nodded and you and felix lead the way. Pan wouldn’t attack the two of you. You spotted the grate and emma passed you the potion you had to lay on the vault. You did it and immediately forest green smoke erupted from the vault. Felix grabbed you pulling you out of the way, a firm grip on your arm to keep you close. The smoke engulfed you all and you and felix huddled together as it buffeted you. You heard the others shout things and emma yelled your name but you couldn’t move, you could barely stay up. Then suddenly the wind and smoke vanished. You and felix turned to the vault and there he was. Stood on the vault facing away from you. You both gasped and grabbed onto one another again. Pan heard the noise and turned around slowly. “Peter” you whispered and he looked at you both. He stared for a few seconds before his face erupted into a smile and you flew at him. He wrapped his arms around you as you clung to him, making sure he was real, he was back. “Y/n” he whispered burying his head in you hair. You pulled back and he kissed you. Slowly and lingering making up for all the lost time. “I thought id never see you two again” pan whispered before you stepped away so he could hug felix. “Did you actually think you could get away from us?” Felix joked. “No and i never ever want to” pan replied snaking an arm around you. “So you not mad?” You asked. He shook his head “in my last few seconds it all made sense, im glad you both stuck together, i realise now i was wrong”. “Well thats a bloody relief” hook called and pans eyes darkened. He pulled you and Felix behind him as he spotted the others. “Did they follow you? Stay back, Ive only just come back, don’t attack or ill make you sorry…”. “Pan no” you shouted grabbing his arm “they’re with us they helped us rescue you”. “They did?” He asked. “Yes” felix replied “they tracked down your vault after we asked them to help”. Pan looked unsure so you slipped your hand into him and nodded “its okay”. Pan stepped forward warily and walked up to the others “Thank you for saving me”. “Its okay peter” emma replied “you know as long as you leave my son alone and dont try to take my sons again”. Pan shook his head “im sorry for that, truly, and ive got all i need” he smiled looking at you and felix “and id never give them up for all the power in Neverland, there all i need”.


Before the concert my Uncle ( the manger and song producer ) suprised me with a signed EXO album.

I first headed off to the concert and entered the arena. I sat in L1 which is the middle area.


At  6:30 I got a call to go backstage and get toured by 2AM’s manager in an hour. When it was time, we went to the building behind the stage. We met 2AM’ manager and he gave us the passes to be able to be backstage. (this concert was a concert that anyone other then staff or artist can not enter) 

The manager told us to wait in front of the room and he went in to get 2AM ready. While we were waiting we heard a group of boys doing vocal warmups at the staircase next to us, we started to freak out. After hearing alot of footsteps B1A4 was walking past us. Surprisingly I was calm and actually said “annyeonghaseyo” and they replied, smiling, and even pat my little brother’s head. Every member made eye contact with me. I have this on video too (but Im not going to release it because i promised that I wouldnt) I was trying really hard to be the fan that doesnt disturb them with screaming. I was successful. hehe.

So when 2AM got out we took a picture with them.


After taking the picture we couldnt get a signature because they had to go do hair&makeup.

Due to the concert starting and the backstage being hectic we were told by 2AM’s manager that we couldnt visit anyone else. I was pretty bummed out but I was grateful to even be able to be backstage.

So we went back to the arena and watched the performance. My sister texted my uncle and told him about what we did. And after hearing that we only took a picture with 2AM ( not even all the members ) he got mad and told us he would call back. In less than 4 minutes he called saying that Dalshabet’s manager will take us around this time. So during intermission we went back. The first stage after intermission ended was EXO’s. I started hearing “WOLF” play outside and we were walking to go into the backstage building. I was sad because this was finally my chance to see EXO perform in front of my eyes and not on a TV. Dalshabet’s manager saw my face expression and asked if I liked EXO. I said yes and he was like do you want to atleast watch their performance? I said yes so we went into the room with the door to go on stage and watch from the big tv. While we were watching, a few celebrities walked past us including Insooni & Ali.  

Insooni also asked if we were Korean and said that we were pretty. ( LIKE TF )

After EXO’s performance was done Dalshabet’s manager told us to come with him. He was leading us to an elevator and we were waiting for it to open. When it opened we heard some staff telling us to wait and asked if they can use it first. guess who it was.

it was EXO.

I was internally freaking out. They were less then an arms reach from me. AND THEY WERE BEYOND ATTRACTIVE. They were ALL attractive. Like pictures dont do any of them justice.

They were sweating alot ( Xiumin was sweating the most… like alot ) and they barely made it into the elevator because they were trying to catch their breaths.This was when I was starting to get more worried rather than excited. When they went past me we made eye contact and they made an effort to smile at me despite their breathing condition. Xiumin & Chen went in first and Luhan & Kris quickly followed after. Xiumin and Chen were on the right side of the elevator so I couldnt see them again but Kris and Luhan was right in front of me. Kris was bent over with his hands on his knees and luhan infront of him squatting on the floor both trying to catch their breathes. They looked extremely tired. They realized that I was still standing there and tried to smile at me, I smiled back. They kept trying to breathe and Luhan kept looking at me trying to smile, at a point I couldnt take it anymore so I started shaking my head motioning him to stop and properly catch his breathe. He gave me a small smile and nodded. But keep in mind that this was kinda short. The staff in the elevator kept telling the outside people to hurry up. I turned to look at who they were talking to and it was Tao. He couldnt even walk and had to be helped by the other staff. Im thinking that he hurt his waist/back. He passed by me and we made eye contact and they went down the elevator. I was on the verge of crying. If they werent still in front of me I wouldve bawled. Seeing half of the boys I care for and love in front of me hurt because they try to show us a good stage… it really made me realize how hard they work. Even at the moment, since I was a fan I wasnt supposed to see this side of them, they still tried to act as if nothing was wrong when in fact something was clearly wrong. Luhan tried his best to smile I couldnt stand that. I have a video of this but like I said I promised I wouldnt release any videos. 

But anywasy instead of taking the elevator we went the stair route ( which wasnt bad it was like 10 steps. lol ) ( where B1A4 was going down doing their vocal warmups ) and when we were down EXO was walking out of the elevator. We let them go first and they went inside their rooms. We walked to the end of the hallway and Dalshabet’s manager told us to wait and he went into the room. B1A4 walked out and we got a picture.

They were all really nice and ATTRACTIVE VERY ATTRACTIVE. After the picture we greeted them and was lead to Dalshabet’s room and we went in and also took pictures with them.

They were freakin gorgeous and actually really nice. ( they werent fake ) We talked to them for awhile. When I tried to tell them that they were really pretty they said that we were first ( pfft ) We said bye and went to the main room again. The manager asked me if I really wanted to see EXO but I said no. It broke my heart but I still said no. They look like they were dying in the elevator, and I couldnt bring myself to disturb them. So we went back into the hallway and the manager was stopped by another manger and they were talking while we waited on the side. ( I cant say what they were talking about but it was intresting. ) While were waiting/listening EXO’s manager passed by and I immediately took a picture. (lol) 

 and the MC of the concert ( Jay Park ) knocked on one of the doors and Chnagmin & Jinoon opened and they were talking.

 We then exited backstage and went back to watching the concert. 

The sky turned darker and thats when everyone turned on their lights. It was beautiful. ( besides EXO’s performance, because I missed it ) B1A4”s performance was probably the best. Especially with the colorful ocean. Thats when I actually scream/sang along. They put on a good stage. They were never really my favorite but it was probably the best stage. 

Personally, this was a good and bad experience. I got to see what happens backstage and its not as pretty as it seems. I just cant say everything that I saw or heard.What I said was either the nicest I can say it or I never said what happened. EXO was in a worse situation then I stated. To the point that I couldnt bring myself to disturb them for a picture or a sign. I realized that just because we see them smiling in shows doesnt mean theyre fine anywhere else. They try to put on a better show for us each time. All idols do, we need to give them more credit and respect.

After the concert ended I was waiting in the car because Hollywood Bowl’s parking sucks I saw that there were pictures of them already in LAX. 


It kills me to see pictures of them. Just imagining them going through worse, then what I saw. Dont get me wrong Im sure not all the smiles are fake but there are alot made from effort. It hurts even more to see Luhan now. When he kept trying to make an effort to smile at me, you can see the look in his eyes that he was sorry that he couldnt stand up and say hi or do anything for me. What makes me even more pissed is that after shows like these fans have the nerve to stalk them and hurt them. They work hard, give them their privacy. They shouldnt even need to ask for it.

I came back home to a signed MRMR album.

Today I had dinner with my Uncle ( thats the manager, song producer ) and Inkigayos PD. We went to karaoke after because we’re asian  and he said that he’ll do everything for me if I go to Korea. ( Im korean and Ive never been to Korea like tf ) SO YEA, IM EXCITED.

And tomorrow Im getting my hair done from one of my close family friends. ( shes like my aunt ) and she’s a popular hair & makeup person for Idols. ( she was there at the concert doing hair & makeup too ) 

Letters to Friend - Calum Hood

They say time will heal all wounds. Writing does too.

A broken girl writes letters to nobody about the charming boy in English class.

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anonymous asked:

sjana i feel awful. i accidentally ate a casserol that had an animal in it last night and i have been wracked with guilt all day. i cant stop crying, i cannot believe i would support that murder. what can i do?

Now breathe again. And again.
It’s not the end of the world. The casserole was already there, whether you ate it or not the dish was already cooked! You’re not “supporting murder” by eating it.. You were just engaging in the normal/natural act of eating. Yumm:)

To be honest, i think one of the most unhealthy things at the moment, is the mind set that “eating meat is wrong”. So many people will preach you their vegan ways and make you feel insignificant or over powered or stupid even for eating meat and animal products.
I heard a joke today saying “how do you know when a vegan is in the room?”.. Answer: “they’ll tell you”.
Which is not far from the truth.. You’ll find that vegans will describe themself as being “vegan”. Introduce themself as a “vegan”. Become openly opinionated about the topic and preaching it to others.. (Just because they say “i’m not preaching it to you, i’m just saying..” Doesnt mean they aren’t trying to fool you into feeling cruel. It will more than likely be in their description or bio and it becomes something that DEFINES them if they do this. Theres nothing wrong with that. Good on them for being a vegan woo! But when those people then begin belittling and acting superior to others because of their meat free diet and making others feel like they are being “evil” or “wrong” for eating meat.. Like how you feel now!! Then i have a problem with that.. If the biggest problem for you is eating or not eating certain foods, then i’d really try to step back and reevaluate your thinking. Sure, you can eat or not eat meat. But do you really have to mess yourself about it if you eat it? Feel guilt and shame and self HATE because of it? There is so much more to life than what we do or dont eat! And seeing and hearing so many young people become so focused and obsessed with food and diets (“lifestyles” as some like to disguise it as) makes me so upset. Because we shouldnt be living to eat. We should be eating to live!!! I know of only one vegan who doesn’t preach it to the world. It isnt something that is written in her bio, she doesnt feel the need to explain in her food photos that there is no animal or animal products in it and she just is!! She has been a vagan since before i can even remember (primary school) and to her it is her lifestyle, literally. Not something she heard soneone else was doing and lost weight from so is trying it too. Not because her “idol” is vegan. Or because she thought it made her superior. But because she is truly a vegan. I support this soooi much! I do NOT support the kind of vegan phase that is now popular in our society.. Where people just “go vegan” overnight because they saw soneone else do it. Or because they want to cut out entire food groups from their diet in order to lose weight and vegan gives them the perfect excuse for that. Or because a girl at school just turned vegan and she is losing weight from it and you want to lose weight too. Or because you were told to watch a documentary about how chickens are killed and you were disgusted but not overtly grossed out enough to make a huge lifestyle change but someone you look upto seemed life changingly repulsed by it and made you feel like a bad person because you could still eat meat if you had to after watching it; so decided to try convince yourself and others that it was more traumatic for you than it really was.

My patience is running thin with people accusing others (including myself) of being bad people or “murderers” simply because we eat meat and drink milk..
It’s like if you want to not eat meat and animal products, good on you! But dont go making others feel bad for doing so. It’s so ironic that they do this and then go say “i accept all people, vegans and non vegans alike” then tell you to go watch a documentary about people who eat meat are cruel inhumane animal killers.. Its so contradictory it doesnt work..
I was a vegan when i was 15/16 yrs old. I had dieticians and psychologists helping me and i still had a psychological AND physical breakdown. I was getting fortnightly blood tests and doctors appointments and i still was majorly effected by the lack of nutrients.. Even though i was supposedly eating enough of alternative forms of it. My iron disappeared. As a female this is really dangerous! My seratonin levels significantly reduced. I was being forced to take horse sized vitamin tablets to get the essential nutrients and eventually my body and mind gave in. I had spent a year becoming withdrawn and anto social. My depression worsened. I became lethargic. I stopped exercising. Moody. Lacked concentration. And hostile.. I became so selfish and self proud and righteous that i pushed everyone away from me.. It was horrible; i was horrible! I convinced myself that they werent accepting me and my values because they were stubborn and/or jealous. I was in denial about my weakeing mental and physical state and would not even listen to others telling me I was changing.. Or even worse; convinced myself that change was GOOD. And now, seeing that happen to others. Is horrible! Sooo many people are going vegan for the wrong reasons, or in an unhealthy way.. Ie unsupervised by professionals, without the aid of a professional dietician (no, following someone elses vegan plan does not count! It needs to be personalised for YOU and your mineral/chemical/hormone/energy/vitamin levels and metabolism.) and if you are vegan you should be getting fortnightly to monthly blood tests to ensure you’re still getting enough nutrients. If you are doing vegan properly and healthily you shouldnt lose ANY weight.. Meaning this would probably deter half the people who want to go vegan anyway.
I just think that life is too short, i dont want to waste (or seeing others waste) their lives pretending to be something theyre not!
Call me a bad person for eating meat. And drinking milk. Do it. I dare you. Call me cruel. Or a murderer.
I know i’m not. I’m eating a balanced diet. What ever happened to just eating things in moderation? Why is it that suddenly you think health is only attainable if you are vegan. Only eat fruit. Or a mininum of a certain anount of calories. Or dont drink milk other than soy. Or wont eat more than 10g of fat etc.
do you not think its unhealthy that you are made to (irrationally) feel like a murderer because you took a bite of something that contained meat? That would have been in the meal whether or not you ate it?
I’m not saying you should eat it for breakfast lunch and dinner. I’m saying that it shouldnt make you feel like a bad person if you do. I don’t eat meat everyday.. My life doesnt revolve around consuming animal products. But it doesnt make me feel like a bad person when i do.. Rant over. X

anonymous asked:

okay so about the "you shouldnt be afraid to approach me" thing, i still kind of am because youre like, super popular and junk..! you really are a head of the class, type of things, that its like "Woah theyre so spectacular i could never compensate or bring much to the field compared to them" so you just kind of admire from a distance, type thing. heheh.. 'BI

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