I was going to come out to my family today. I had wrote it in my calendar and everything. I told myself that if Sherlock Holmes can be openly gay then so can I. I prepared myself to do it and then after watching that episode decided against it. For now I feel like I should be ashamed of who I am, that it doesn't matter, that I should repress it. This show gave me so much hope and now I feel like I have nothing.