Hi! Love your D:M work! I was wondering ... what was Kise like when his beloved Senpai suprised him with a visit and what was he like when Senpai had to inevitably leave?
The best times are when Kise is not expecting Kasamatsu to visit. Because then it’s a delight he didn’t know he was going to experience that day, and that’s always the best kind of joy.
The planned visits are good too because it gives him something to look forward to, but those have their own drawbacks. If he can count down the days, the hours, the seconds, it’s a way of keeping sane (unless the visits are too far apart, like when Kasamatsu has exams. Then the numbers just mock him and everything is horrible). If he can say, just five more days, just four more, just hang in there—then the bad days are not so bad because it’s just a matter of surviving until relief.
But if Kasamatsu is late—or worse, if something comes up and he has to cancel (something that happened once before, because his brother got sick, and Kise hated that unknown boy so much for taking away Kasamatsu’s attention—he’d never experienced such agonizing jealousy until that day) then it was so much worse than not expecting him to come at all. So there’s that draw back.
The surprise visits have their own disadvantages because he hasn’t prepared for them. If Kasamatsu suddenly walks into the room and Kise is busy watching a soap opera with Momoi, then Kasamatsu says he should continue watching the soap opera with Momoi and that he doesn’t mind joining them on the couch and that isn’t what Kise wants at all.
(“You’re being so greedy, Kichan!” Momoi had hissed at him once. “I’m not trying to steal Kasa-senpai from you! I just want a friend!”
“You have your internet friends, leave mine alone!” Kise wailed. He got so little time with Kasamatsu, and he wants it all to himself, and he hates Momoi and Kuroko and occasionally even Midorima for trying to take some of that time. At least Murasakibara, Aomine and Akashi leave well enough alone).
“I’m glad you came, Senpai,” Kise says when he gets the chance, because he wants Kasamatsu to know how much it means to him but he’s terrified of scaring him off. “You’ll still come next week, right?”
“Yeah, sure,” Kasamatsu says, and Kise wonders if he’s just agreeing to it or if he wants to or if he—
“Are—are you glad you came?”
“Yeah, I had fun,” Kasamatsu says. And he ruffles Kise’s hair like he might a younger brother (which is simultaneously frustrating and thrilling—he likes any contact with Kasamatsu but he really doesn’t want to be treated as a younger brother). “I like hanging out with you, even when you’re being a brat.”
“Senpai, I am always on my best behavior,” Kise pouts.
Kasamatsu just looks faintly amused when he says, “Yeah, I actually believe that. See you next week.”
And that’s the absolute worst part—watching Kasamatsu leave. It’s depressing because this moment marks the furthest time away from the next time he gets to see Kasamatsu, but it also always makes him wonder what Kasamatsu is thinking when he walks away.
Does he miss Kise, when he’s not around? Does he think about Kise at all? Or is this just an obligation, a box to check off as he moves on to the next responsibility.
“You know,” Youji says, “If you didn’t live on base you could probably see him more often. If you went to a high school, for example.”
“What would I do in a high school?” Kise demands, because that suggestion is just ridiculous.
Youji just shrugs. “Yukio plays basketball.”
It’s an absurd thing to think about, but maybe it’s the only possible solution, so that moments like this when he has to watch Kasamatsu walk away from him and not look back won’t exist.
A/N: Thanks, anon-friend! And thanks for the prompt! I am a big fan of poor pining!Kise =D (Who, of course, does end up happily in love with his senpai). Hope you enjoyed!