I don't know.
I’m so sensitive right now. I hate myself. I hate how I’m handling things in my life right now. I hate my life. Working so much & all this homework & trying to make time to spend with my boyfriend && friends. I just want to sleep. I don’t want to do anything. I’m slipping back into a slight depression & I fucking know it. Everyday drags on. It’s the same routine. No day is better than another. They all seem shitty to me. So much shit I have to do & I don’t seem to have enough time. I don’t want to fucking do anything. Nothing at all. I don’t want to try in school. I don’t want to try in my relationship. I don’t want to try at my job. I do it anyways because I know I should, but I don’t want to do anything. I’m tired. Mentally, physically & emotionally. I know I do this to myself. I shouldn’t have so much shit on my plate. But I do it anyways. Why. I just wanna get school over with. I take so many classes because I want to hurry up & get my career going. I work so much because I know I need to save up money for future things. Every little thing has been pissing me off lately. I’m out of control. I’m done with myself. I’m acting so fucking stupid. I hate myself. Whatever. I’ll get through all this… eventually… hopefully.