i screamed and i just didnt know which blog to put it on

on advice for those with mental illness

so inb4 i get slapped with “we cant all be neurotypical KAREN” ill preface this with the fact that i have severe depression, generalized anxiety disorder, moderate to severe OCD (more along the hoarder spectrum), and ADHD. all diagnosed. i deal with childhood sexual trauma as well. my experience is not universal, but it is not in the slightest neurotypical.

so learning how to grow and start healing fucking sucks. it really does. at a certain point it gets easier to just stay in your downward spiral. i get it, i totally do. ive been there for over 10 years (im 21 at the time im making this) and its taken me years of therapy and personal work to get to where i am now. i would consider myself stable at best, but its leagues better than where i used to be. part of that is just being lucky with recent life events, but much of it is me actively working on my mental illness.

cognitive behavioral therapy helps a fuckton. part of that is exposure therapy. it starts with little things. FORCE urself to go outside sometimes. FORCE urself to let something be “clean enough” or “good enough.” you dont have to personally handwash dishes you want to use to know theyre clean. let something be imperect, but start small. FORCE urself to look into someones eyes when u talk to them, or at least look at their mouth. a lot of the early work is about breaking out of your habits, your spiral. and it is work, absolutely. i know executive disfunction and lack of spoons/energy very well. starting small and succeeding tells your brain that you CAN do it.

i also have impulsive, intrusive thoughts. that sort of this is common but for me, its nearly every second of the day. when you start to understand that these thoughts ARENT yours, that obsessions have a cause you can point to, it starts to get easier. often i get thoughts of screaming nasty, racist, homophobic, transphobic things and it used to terrify me!! i used to think that those thoughts defined me or were some sort of “secret personality” of who i actually am. theyre not. theyre just shitty things that you hear and see from other people and your brain KNOWS you dont like them. but things that you KNOW are wrong are very often subjects of intrusive thoughts, especially for OCD. these thoughts arent who i am, and even tho i have to fight to not let that impulse take over, its much easier when you know WHY things happen.

ive been in therapy for years and i only recently told my psychiatrist about my ocd spectrum symptoms. that shit happens. it can be hard to trust someone until youve known them for YEARS. i never even told anyone about that facet of my mental illness until about a month before i told him during a session. my parents dont even know yet (unless they still check out my blog in which case HEY MOM i have ocd but im working on it real good also sorry about all the furries ily)

i have control issues. pretty bad ones. ones where i feel the need to control every aspect of my own life and those of people close to me. ive learned how to talk to people to get what i want from them. ive spent years working on not acting on them. i give people free reign to do what they need to do and offer to help when i can. i make a point to feel the mood of a room and go along with it. i make a point to involve other people in teaching me abt things that they like. being supportive and patient is hard for me, but it makes other ppl feel welcome around me. its probably for an ultimate selfish reason (i feel good that people like me and feel safe around me) but who cares!!! everything in life is selfish. being alive and continuing to live is a selfish act. but its not bad.

its been commonly said that your initial thoughts dont define who you are, but what your words/actions end up being (barring certain mental illnesses that prevent that ofc). the moment my therapist told me that theres things in my life that i cannot control, that there doesnt HAVE to be a reason for everything, it kickstarted the best, healthiest moment of my life. and im definitely not saying that you NEED a therapist/psych to start healing. honestly, that shit he told
me is really simple in basic. but you need to learn how to reach out and ask for help. ask anybody you feel comfortable with for help. getting help does not make me weak, it means i have the capacity for growth.

HEALTHY coping mechanisms will overcome unhealthy ones. youve probably been learning and using healthy ways to cope since you were young and just didnt realize it. think about the way you currently deal with your illness and be proud of it! good and bad! youve survived, and youre still surviving! youre not lazy, or difficult, or a bad person; you just have much more work and effort to put in to do the seemingly basic things that neurotypicals do. you and i work so hard to get to the bare minimum that its exhausting. you have to keep pushing your limits, and i dont mean you have to start yoga (fuck that my brain doesnt slow down enough for that) or run every week (im not there yet either) but just start working on one thing. even if that one, tiny thing takes a month, guess the fuck what!! you did it! you improved, you grew, you started HEALING. the words grow and heal might seem a little cliche and overused, but thats exactly what it feels like.

drink more water, being hydrated makes you feel better. try to eat healthier (mashed potatoes are suuuper easy to make btw u dont even need exact proportions to make delicious tates that YOU made. hmu if u wanna know what i do), youll feel less lethargic over time. stand up a few minutes every 1-3 hours, youll be surprised how much it helps. yes, these sound like neurotypical points of advice, but im there with you. these things DO help. they dont cure you, but they can help expand the base of things you fine yourself able to do.

TL;DR for other ADHD folks: growing as a person is hard. it takes work, actually difficult work. start small. you can do it. eat a potato. thank you.

With You By My Side - Ten (finale)

A/N: FINAL part you guys.. Thank you so much for sticking with me trough this series.  You are all amazing! And I’m sorry….. Shout out to my beta @thorne93.

Characters: Jensen x Reader

Warnings: ALL THE FUCKING ANGST. Character death. Entire part is Jensen’s POV

Worcount: 1660

*not my GIF*

Originally posted by the-tres-geckos

JENSEN’S POV.

It had been a week since we came home from the hospital. The first couple of days she had been fine, moving around in the house, watching movies with me on the couch, but on day four we had to move everything down to the guest room since she was no longer able to climb the stairs. Yesterday she didn’t manage to get out of bed at all, and the doctors are now talking hours, maybe a day.

As I sit by the breakfast table, alone, I call my mom to let her know what’s going on. We don’t talk for long because dad are already packing their bags. He had loaded them in the car before we hang up. My parents love (YN), they always have. I still remember the lecture my mom gave me after I brought (YN) to Dallas for the first time.

“She’s special to you, Jensen. I can tell by the way you look at her and how she looks at you. You should just tell her how you feel now so that you can start your lives together, I guarantee you’re going to regret it if you don’t.”

The all too familiar lump forms in my throat as I replay her words in my head. I know that my mind should be here, in the present, that I should savor every moment we have left, but it’s hard not to dwell on all the things we’ve missed out on in the past, and the things we will miss out on in the future. I shoot a quick text to Jared, telling him that she’s nearing the end of her life, letting him know that if they want to say goodbye they should probably come over soon.

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okay so. as someone who runs one of the very, very few ocpd-centric blogs on tumblr (not this one, i mean @thatocpdfeel ), its actually so upsetting how little people know abt ocpd, even here on tumblr amongst other mental health bloggers. not to say anything bad abt those bloggers!!! its just not spoken abt much. maybe thats because its not as common as, like, bpd or avpd, but its also because SO many ocpd symptoms are ENCOURAGED by society. i get so many tags on my posts saying “thats an ocpd thing???” or “thats not normal???” or “im not supposed to do that???” like so much of what is killing us from the inside are things parents, teachers, and guardians all think are positive attributes to have, but we internalize those things in such a twisted and intense way that we suffer and yet are idealized for our suffering.
ive had so many people with other illnesses, like depression, tell me how ocpd has its upsides because i can be productive and get stuff done when they cant even get out of bed. thats not how it works.
ocpd is not being perfect.
ocpd is NEEDING to be perfect because even the tiniest mistake means you are the scum of the earth and deserve to die.
ocpd is not double checking your work to make sure you got everyting right because you want a good score.
ocpd is perfecting the wording of a single sentence because if it doesnt imply the exact thought you are trying to get across then it means you have failed and even if it is still technically right and no points are taken off, inside you know that it was wrong and it COULD have been better and your personal standards are ten times higher than the official standards because you know that the goals you need to reach to be successful are leaps and bounds above what the average person needs, not because you are better than them but because you must strive to become better than them at all cost because second best is still a loser.
ocpd is not orangizing your work station before starting a new project.
ocpd is crying and screaming while you trash 42 different versions of the same attempted project and shoving everything off your desk and wanting to pull out your hair or bang your head on a wall because you messed it up so many times already and if you dont get it right this time you will never get it and you will be marked as a failure for the rest of your life, unable to accomplish literally anything and youre so terrified of that thought you take six hours to scrub at your desk and mop the floor and take a razor to that bit of wax thats been stuck on the leg of your chair for a week and half and meticulously organize everything into boxes, counting every ration you put in to make sure they all even out, and listing everything thats there and labeling the boxes then straight up leaving the work area and not thinking about the project for another month.
ocpd is not having a folder of all your important documents because you know you will need them some time.
ocpd is having six folders, each containing vastly different documents, some of which are important, some of which are just old receipts to mcdonalds, some are keepsakes from friends, some of which are just a scap of paper with scribbles that you dont remember what they mean but maybe one day you will, and the rest are just any paper youve ever come across in your life. theyre all just as important as everything else though because the thought of prioritising them is nearly incomprehensible because they are all important and you need them all for equally important things so when you need, like, that paper for your auto insurance you first must sift through six hundred pages of notes your friends passed back and forth in middle school over five years ago and you dont even talk to them anymore but you absolutely cannot get rid of them. its all so important.
ocpd is not being productive.
ocpd is waking up and remembering that you are an inherently flawed and imperfect being, but also that your worth in this world is defined by what you put into it, so even if you cant be perfect, if you make enough perfect stuff or do enough stuff perfectly, it will all give the illusion to others as well as yourself that you are perfect. so you push yourself to do whatever it is you do. regardless of your other illnesses, you work and and try to be as productive as you possibly can because thats your only chance. you go into work sick. you push yourself past your limits, past what you know you are physically/mentally able to do, and you suffer for breaching those limits but all that pain is WORTH it because you are temporarily overcome with a sense of accomplishement and SOMEONE is finally proud of you. you did something right FOR ONCE. so even if you go completely nonverbal, or lay in bed for the next week in pain, or end up in the ER, or seventeen other things didnt get done, there was the most brief sense of absolute euphoria even if its almost immidiately replaced by a sense of overwhelming anxiety about what you messed up, forgot, did wrong, or ignored to achieve that feeling and the cycle of fixing, fixing, fixing repeats itself.
ocpd is not being bossy, egotistical, or controlling.
ocpd is a deeply psychological understanding that even the most insignificant mistake will reflect back on you in the most exaggerated and horrendous way possible. its knowing that if you ask your friend to go get you a red pen, but they bring you a blue one, and you dont know they got blue instead, so if you write even the smallest mark in that blue ink, even if its technically okay to write in red or blue, you specified red, so the fact that its blue makes it wrong and unnacceptable so in your mind its better to drop what your doing and get the correct red pen yourself even if its right beside your friend and you are already focusing on something else. the concept of asking others to do something, not even something in a manner of helping you but just to divide up jobs evenly, its absolutely impossible. because if they do something wrong, it will reflect on you, then you did something wrong and we both know that doing something wrong is completely out of the question. you would rather multitask four things at once, but the sight of someone else just twiddling their thumbs while you bust your ass is so infuriating! why cant they do what you are doing? why cant they just read your mind and know exactly what you need, when you need it, and be helpful? thats what you would do if they were in your situation! if they were working like you, you would hand them everything. you would also probably go ahead and just put that back for them. well, you could also handle that too. and before you know it, their job is your job and there they are twiddling their thumbs and looking at you for a job to do. its the phrase “if you want something done right, do it yourself” taken to a whole other level.
ocpd is so much more than what people think. were more than just a “type a personality” or “perfectionists” and its not just “mild ocd” either. ocpd is painful. please remember that.

*clears throat*

*long post warning but read to save lives*

hello this is lara!!

jsjds okay ive never done this before bcs im an ass with anxiety but rappornster whos only a couple of months old hit a milestone that im very thankful of!! which is also unbelievable bcs i was am a lost kid who had no idea how tumblr works and tf i should do here?? so i wanna use it as an excuse to spread my love so let me shout this out:

thank you so much.

*notice how i didnt use caps bcs i dont want you to imagine me aggressively screaming in front of your faces but its more like,, me holding both of your hands in front of ur chest,, looking at u with teary eyes filled with warmth&affection*

idk how else to express it you all are the crabs to my nj!!! you all deserve to get free concert tickets for life and meet bangtan irl i hope you are happy and enjoying life to the fullest but idk tho u do what u wanna do

mostly, thanks for loving bangtan, especially namjoon! (im legit super happy meeting so many nj stans here jsjds) ik you follow this blog bcs you love and support him no shit so y’all better keep on doing it and lets keep on loving him together bcs he the sole reason apocalypse decided to postpone itself facts only

lastly, kim the apocalypse postponer namjoon once said: we want you, we thank you, we love you.

same. (except idk what he meant by we want you but ok)

THANK YOU. I LOVE YOU.

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Heart of Glass Part 2

A couple people asked for it so here it is!
Also on another note…. guys…. I’m hot on the road to 200 followers already and it’s been days. DAYS. Since I got to 100. I am weeping where did all of you come from?!? Why are you here of all blogs aghhhhh?!?


Part 2: Untitled

Part 1

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“It hurts too much to be around you.”

Bakugou’s words felt like a knife to the gut. You bit your lip. You refused to cry. Not now. 

“L-liar…” You mumbled. If only it was… “Katsuki…”

He gritted his teeth. The truth was out. There was no point in denying anything anymore. “We both know I’m not lying right now. It…” His hand tightened into a fist under the table. “It hurts to be around you right now. Thats all there is to it.” His nails dug into the palm of his hand as small explosions began to go off. Like hell it was that simple… it was so much more than just you. He wrapped his lie in an undeniable truth. Something wrenched deep in his gut, making him question if it would be any less painful to lie. 

Your tears began to overflow from your eyes. So this was how it is. 

“If it…” Your voice broke and you turned away from him as you roughly swiped your tears away and you cursed under your breath. “If it hurt so much then why? Why would you stay near me? What am I to you.” You spoke quietly, not daring to turn back around in fear of what his gaze would tell you. 

Bakugou opened his mouth then closed it. What am I supposed to say? “I love you?”, “You are the love of my life?” No. This was unfair beyond belief. If only you weren’t taken. Then it would be easier. In the end, he chose silence. 

You got up after sitting through a few minutes that seemed like hours in the cold dead quiet as the tension only got thicker. Without another word, you left with all of your stuff, leaving only the half empty lunch you had made, still sitting on Bakugou’s desk. Within the silence, no words were exchanged; however, it spoke for the both of you

“Get out of my life….”

“Please don’t leave me….”

Within the frenzy of emotions, Bakugou couldn’t identify with line was yours and which was his.

Bakugou had sat there in a dumbfounded state over what he had just done. All within mere minutes he had lost his best friend and the love of his life. All because he went and blabbed and said something he never should have. He couldnt bring himself to finish the lunch you had made. No matter how good your cooking was, he knew it would only leave a sour taste in his mouth now. He closed the box and put it in his bag. Anywhere out of his line of sight was fine. 

He needed to punch something. Bad. Much to his displeasure the bell signaling the end of lunch range before he could even fully process his desire. He sunk down in his chair as he dug his fists into his pockets. He let his head fall back as he stared blankly at the ceiling with glassy eyes. A single tear pooled from the corner of his eye and he sat up, swatting it away grumbling angrily at himself. Desperately, he tried to regain his composure before the rest of the class came filing back in. With all the rubbing he knew his eyes would be at least a little red, but he was not about to start crying in front of the whole class. 

As people began to slowly trickle back in in groups, he slouched back in his chair and stared at the ceiling. He had never noticed just how bright the lights were. He was always too blinded by you. He violently shook his head, gritting his teeth. It was over. He shouldn’t be thinking about you anymore. Not now. Not ever. 

“Hmmmm? Were you crying Bakugou? Your eyes are red.” Mineta teased as he passed. 

“Shut up shortstack. I dont have to explain anything to you. Die.” He didn’t yell, scream or shout. He said it in a straight deadpan. If he didn’t already know everything had been scrambled up within himself already, this would set him off.
The calm tone in his voice seemed to scare the other boy even more than usual, as he scrambled to his desk. 

Serves him right. I don’t want to talk to anyone. 

Except you….

He bit his lower lip. Why couldn’t he get you out of his head, now of all times?
He watched as the last few people arrived from the edges of his vision. Hagakure sat down in the table in front of him. Where you used to sit. He clenched his fist. He didnt need to ask. The message was clear. 

“Stay away.”

Halfway through the next class, you showed back up with puffy eyes and obvious little hiccups punctuating your breaths. You took a seat in the very back, where Hagakure used to sit. Bakugou heard whispers from Momo and even Todoroki asking if you were ok. 

“My parents just called and I got sentimental for whatever reason. I haven’t seen them much since the whole dorms situation started, you know?” He heard you whisper back. “Dont worry about me.”

His short nails dug into the palm of his hand. He knew he had made a mistake that he would definitely regret.

As class ended and the bell rang, Bakugou continued to glare out the window, not paying attention to anything happening around him

Idiot. You should go apologize to her

No way. She obviously wants distance. Maybe thats what you need

But if this is what I need why does it seem to hurt more. 

He groaned in frustration. He couldn’t shut down the noise in his head. 

Realizing that the rest of the classroom was empty he got up and began to walk back to the dorms. He bolted straight to his room and immediately punched the pillow on his bed. There had to be something wrong with him. He just couldn’t get you out of his head. Smothering his face in his pillow he let out a muffled yell. He rolled over and draped his arm over his eyes.

He was undoubtedly in agony and he couldn’t help but wonder if you were feeling the same as he was.

5

Yet again, I never said that you can’t draw sal in fem clothes. I have reiterated this FIFTY FUCKING TIMES. I just said to NOT CALL IT CROSSDRESSING BC CLOTHES DONT HAVE A GENDER YOU FUCKS. And as for “no evidence”? Lmao have you even LOOKED to see if I have evidence? Bc it’s ALL RIGHT HERE ON MY BLOG YALL.

I’m so ready for this discourse to be over. All I wanted to do was warn ppl about the nasty shit going on there and now I’m having words I never said put in my mouth and I’m being slandered. For standing up to transphobia. Smh.

And if ONE MORE PERSON says “they have a couple trans and genderfluid leaders that are okay with it so you’re wrong” I will scream. They do not speak for all of the community.

I have legit had people tell me that IM the one trying to speak for all trans people right after saying that shit??
I am speaking on behalf of the trans people that I know DO HATE THAT DEROGATORY TERM. And just because SOME trans people are okay with it doesn’t make OUR TRAUMA invalid. Ffs

And I asked you to stop talking or be blocked because I told you I didnt have the spoons for this at the time and you persisted, which is HARASSMENT. So yeah, I said I would block you if you kept it up. You’re lucky I didn’t anyway.

Rant over.

minyoongislaysme  asked:

Heyhey, i'm such a trash for mamamoo but i can't find many mamamoo blogs, do you maybe know some good mamamoo blogs? Thank youuu~ ^_^

Heck yeah I do

@mmmoofic - they post links to mamamoo fics on aff and ao3 (i think they’re still in the works tho)

@monommm - moomoo artist her fanart is really cute and amazing pls check her out im not even joking pls go and follow

@queerbyul - her gifs are so good and they’re mostly wheebyul (i scream)

@platumoon - mamamoo/moonsun artist semi-realistic-ish fanart which really makes me want to cry and how good it is

@pokoppang - another moomoo artist that makes fricken cute art that can save lives with how good it is tbh

@byul94world - her tags are funny and she’s really nice (even tho we’ve never talked lol i want to talk more with other moomoos)

@mamamooheadcanons - this place is like a gold mine constantly churning out fic ideas and some of the posts are really funny so pls follow them

@mmm-smukk18 - will save your life im serious they post very regularly about the girls fanvids and anything related to mamamoo and the content is always A+++

@hanahakis - just found out abt this recently its more like a collab blog for 2 amazing fanfic writers i love them they write so well (and there’s jeongmi which is as rare and hwasun)

@tgcxmmm - on hiatus but she’s done a lot for the fandom by helping to translate memos and we all respect her as senpai

@flowerization - moomoo artist and meme af. her art is super meme i love her a must-follow blog pls go and follow

@birbyonce - draws moonsun but not also draws for other fandoms like cosmic girls (wjsn) and they’re all so good

@captainhwasa - makes gifs and edits 10/10 recommend u to follow

@wheeinthisish - super funny sometimes i die laughing because of her gifs are amazing i cry

@ahyejin - her fanfics can heal your soul and she writes for all mmm ships and she’s a hwasa stan her positivity for the maknae is infectious pls follow her

@wheeimple - calls herself old and a granny but her sense of humour is so on point i wish my grandma was like her. makes gifs (amazing ones) and is a translator at @mamamoo-trans which u should also check out btw

@light-giver - moonsun trash always screaming in gay for mamamoo shes wonderful

@karoumamoo - legendary mamamoo fanfic author her stories were what inspired me to write along with every other moomoo writer here f o l l o w her

@mumoos - makes a lot of gifs and edits i dont even know where to start go and check her blog out

@velvetmoos - essential to follow. legit. this blog can save lives. extremely well-organised and just i have no words except follow them

@paperheart-amber - posts about other fandoms but is also 100% mamamoo trash her tags are proof of that

@sun-byul - always screaming in ghei for moonsun also her tags are entertaining to read they make my day

@nnnechu - hhhNNNNGGGS HER ART makes me speechLESS ok its good enough to be put next to the moan of lisa 100% quality content

@moonbyulismine - wise af and her tags save my cats from going extinct go follow her pls

im pretty sure there’s a lot more but im just tired from school and i need to rest cuz im sick too so maybe next time (i hope i didnt misgender anyone and if i did im so sorry) PEACE OUT 

With You By My Side - Bora Bora

A/N: This is a drabble that fits in with my “With you by my side” series. It was requested by the wonderful @melonshino ages ago, and now it’s finally done. I’ve had the worst writers block lately, so i’m sorry if this sucks. Also, thank you to my beautiful beta @thorne93.

 Request: WYBMS request: So we know a little bit of what happened the last night in Bora Bora but what other fun things did they get up to during the trip? (also, not a real request but MAYBE NOT BREAKING MY HEART OKAY IDA) 

 Characters: Jensen x Reader.

 Warnings: Fluff…

 Wordcount: 889 (I know… technically not a drabble….)

“I can’t believe you brought me to Bora Bora,” you breathed as you and Jensen made your way from the hotel reception and to your own private cabin. The crystal clear water reflected the color of the orange sky and it made it look all the more magical. “This place is amazing.”

Jensen led the way to your cabin, that stood on poles above the water. Inside was a bathroom, a bedroom, and a small kitchen which had a glass square in the floor so you could see the fish swimming in the ocean underneath. The rooms were modern, but still had a homey feel to them. Outside was a private pool, a seating area, another bed and a little staircase that lead down to a plateau with two loveseats and a couple of lanterns. It was by far the most beautiful place you had ever seen.

You stepped down the few steps, bending down to dip your hand in the water as you reached the edge, it was warm and inviting and you couldn’t wait for morning so you could go for a swim.

“You sure you like it?” Jensen asked as he wrapped his arms around you from behind.

 You leaned into him and let out a content sigh. “It’s perfect, I love it.”

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so i’m quitting tumblr, and i wanted to make one last follow forever as a way to show my love for the people who made this hellsite fun. here’s to the people who i’ve been following for literally ever, and to all my friends. thank u for being one of the few good things about my tumblr experience. i luv u all so so so much, u dont even kno. 

*i’d like to say that i went from following 200 people (most of which i was pretty friendly with and had at least one conversation with) to 100 in the last few months. a lot of people deleted, a lot of people changed urls (and as a result i didn’t know who they were so i unfollowed), or their blog content changed, or they stopped posting, etc. i have love for those people too, but i’m only including people who i’m currently following.

@alwaysfob: i’ve always admired you a lot, your edits are fantastic and fobcc was such a brilliant idea and i’m proud of how far it’s grown cuz i remember when you posted the very first one (and i entered and never submitted smth bc i was uninspired and i bothered me for months) so it’s cool to see all that creativity on my dash & know that you’re the cause :)

@anervousboyslife: oh god. i wanna bring up smth from the group chat but i forgot all our lil memes & inside jokes :( thank u for the sims btw. that made me so so happy for like a week & then guess what? my laptop took a shit like. immediately after & i havent been able to play on it since :( im tryna get it fixed but. eh. but it was extremely thoughtful & im still grateful lol. thank u for bein funny & nastay, we’ve had some good times

@angelboyfrnk ahah i just got distracted looking thru ur blog, it looks v nice, like the color scheme? i dig it. anyway idk we havent talked in a while but we were in that group chat right?? that was fun. good timezzz. anyways i hope ur havin a good day bb. i get 2 call u that cuz ur younger than me haha ahh

@arohurley omg angie…we hav been mutuals literally 5ever. i’ve always thought u were so kind & so talented & i look up to u a lot, idk, i lowkey used to consider my mutuals to be like. my family & u were kinda the too-cool big sis, idk? but regardless i got a lot of love & thank u for bein one of my longest mutuals, like i wouldve unfollowed me by now so ty <3

@blooshie omg hannah..ive always admired u for how genuinely nice u r, like u just come off as a pure person, ive always lowkey been jealous of that. ahahhh weren’t u the one who told me abt ducks & their corkscrew dicks. lmaoo jeez

@blowfob u never come on anymore, but i couldnt not include u. u were one of the first people i followed, & one of the ppl i admired most. u & kate & some other ppl. i remember, it was like june 2014 & u got hundreds of asks & i thought u were the coolest person ever. u were super super funny & i literally screamed when u followed me, like i wanted u to follow me for over a year so when u did i lowkey died bc that was like. my big dream when i got into bandom. i just wanted a follow from u. so ty lol. ur so talented (coder, app creator, musician??? list goes on, fuckin crazy) & amazing, i just. i got a lotta love. thank u for bein u i guess. god im sappy pshjs

@boyfriendstump oh my g o d. ur one of the nicest ppl i know, like srsly u’ve always been so kind to me?? also ur taller than me ;-; u fucken string bean. idk i have fond memories of u, thank u for always bein so rad & freakishly nice to me, u always put a smile on my face, real talk. thank u for that

@brandnews omg karlie!! my fav!! ur literally so wonderful, ur blog is fantastic (it’s just. so nice to look at? like it’s the perfect combo of things, it makes me happy), ur a funny and nice person & ur so cute, ur just rlly gr8 im gonna miss u on my dash & u in general aw

@bulletproofatbest did u kno ur the only 21p blog ive stuck with?? thats how gr8 u r. ur fantastic, oh god i cant gush enough. i dont think we’ve ever talked but i have nothing for respect for u, ur edits r gorgeous & ur such a kind human?? i just. i got a lotta luv |-/ :)

@bznedrine my san fran loving fav! ur so beautiful & so kind, aw. remember when u tried to hook me up w fob tickets?? i do. that was so nice of u. thx for always bein so gr8 chloe <3

@cabbagepatrick ive kinda come to the conclusion ur like a robot or smth bc u’ve literally never posted anything personal, in fact it used to alarm me & i almost considered unfollowing u a few times, but i just love u & ur enthusiastic tags way too much haha. ive been following u a long time & u just consistently put good posts on my dash & mix up the content & i just love u a lot for that. thnk u

@centurese i dont think uve logged on in a while but we’ve been mutuals & fanfic writing buddies for a pretty long time & i still admire u a lot, ur a fantastic writer & a rlly good person & ur rlly cute i hope ur doin ok <3

@cocoamocha omg im lovin ur new theme it’s so simple i luv it. ok so ur just rlly sweet & ur art is soooo good & i remember bein super duper psyched when u followed me bc ur such a wonderful artist & ive always looked up to the bandom artists & ya

@corktree i still cant believe u follow me. i still look up to u & think ur just as rad as i thought u were before, but since we’re mutuals now im less intimidated. but omg i used to think u were like otherworldly bc 1) ur super gorgeous i literally live for ur selfies 2) u’v been a fan for so long & ur still so passionate abt fob thats so admirable i lose interest in shit so quickly lol. but ya ur just. actual fob queen & i think ur amazing

@deathofabvchelor aw cami. ur bday’s sorta soon so first i wanna say happy early bday! uh idk i dont think we’ve talked much but u’ve been one of my fav blogs for a while & i loved havin u on my dash thx for bein so gr8

@donthurtyoself again i dont think we’ve talked much but ive always admired u ur rlly nice & i luv ur aesthetic & the stuff u post. thx for bein a mutual of mine :)

@falloutofvegas aye vegas buddies! ya we’ve never talked much but we’ve been mutuals for a long time & i always liked ur blog. thanks for stickin w me so long :)

@ginasfz aw i luv u & ur blog & the content u post & i dont have too much to say bc i didnt rlly know u but i always enjoyed u on my dash so thx for bein mutuals w me

@goldenstump i got two camis on this list & i luv em both!! gosh ur just rlly pretty & i luv luv luv ur fashion like ur selflies r what i think of when i see ur url & specifically how cute u r & how cute ur clothes always r & i hope ur doin well

@gothish we used to be mutuals but it’s ok, i still go a lotta respect for u & admire ur luv of andy & ya thanks for always bein so rad & nice to me in the few times we did talk

@holidaybassline we have been mutuals a long time, & u post a lot of sj stuff these days which normally i hate but i ended up sorta liking it, like u kept me up to date on discourse shit & it was surprisingly nice cuz i like bein informed so ty for that. & for u urself, i dont think we talked much but u always came across as nice & i always respected u so. ya.

@ilyena-rose uve been following me a long time (unfortunately if i remember right it was a while until i followed u back eh :c) but u always stood out in the sea of notifs & finally i followed back & im so glad i did, ur just awesome, i luv ur blog & i luv u, keep bein amazin ok?

@jerseypunk ur so freakishly pretty like it’s unnatural how beautiful u r not to mention ur an unbelievably nice person w a fantastic blog. we’ve had good times aw im nostalgic. stay rad & ilu <3

@lukeallvez ah i was so happy when u followed me omg ur such a fantastic artist (srsly so talented like how??) & ur just a rlly good person idk ur gr8 & i hope u kno it

@milkhealy imani ah im gonna cry. i cant even. put words to how much u mean to me. uve always went above & beyond for me & never failed to make me smile & im gettin a lil teary rn cuz it’s not often yanno that ppl care that much to do that for a person? ur just rlly special & this sounds corny but i legit cherish u. thank u so much for everything. ily.

@nofunclvb i was super duper psyched when u followed me, i admire u a lot & im so jealous of all the shows uve been to thats so impressive. idk ur so pretty like ur face is just. Rlly Good. and ur blog is Rlly Good too ur just amazing idk thank u for dealing w my nonsense on ur dash

@ohvegeta ok can i just say thank u?? so much, like the whole fic thing, im still so grateful for that, i love that damn fic sm & u were so incredibly nice w that whole situation (which im sure was annoying & a pain in the ass), and u continued to be ridiculously nice to my annoying lil self so? thank you for that.

@ouijafrnk i still look up to u & ill always admire u, ur so beautiful inside & out & i couldnt explain why but uve always been an inspiration, like just how u handle urself, idk, it’s 2am & im havin a hard time bc i love all these ppl sm but idk how to put that love into words lmao. idk ur just wonderful in every way i hope u kno that. 

@patty-strump again it’s 2am so mixing shit up out of exhaustion but im 70% sure u sent me a rlly sweet message when i said i was leaving & it was rlly nice, i dont think we talked too much but i loved ur blog a lot & ur a sweetheart

@payingnaivety bri uve been so nice & funny and like im not the kind of person who actively seeks out ppl to talk to so when u just started messaging me one day i was a lil offput but then i ended up loving ur stories & ur personality & idk im gonna miss u a lot thank u for bein so amazing 

@philsass phil sass or phils ass? the world will never kno. aw ur just rlly sweet thx for bein mutuals w me <3

@pstumph aw jaden ilu. ur so cute & so nice & ur blog is awesome, im gonna miss u a lot ur an awesome person & we haven’t talked recently but we used to & i always enjoyed our convos :)

@punkfob ur so pretty & ur blog is fantastic. when i think of ur blog ur selfies & ur lyric edits come to mind & both were always nice to look at haha hope u have a gr8 2k17 :)

@quicksilvcrr i have new found respect for ur url after an evan peters binge watchin fest back in october lmao. ofc assuming ur url is abt the xmen quicksilver. if not that’d b awks. anyway ur rad af k bye

@radicalrumps we’ve been thru a lot, mostly good times & a couple bad times, but u were always gr8 no matter what. ur funny, nice, beyond talented, & i loved hearin ur stories abt ur crazy life. thank u for sharing it w me. ily.

@rapunkzle ive been following u almost my entire time on here & never stopped loving ur blog for one minute, thx for bein gr8. btw i luv luv luv ur theme it’s so adorable omg

@ribbonwentz sarah u & i hav been thru. A Lot. i remember when u told me what cummies were .-. that was cruel. but idk ive always respected u a lot ur info-finding skills r beyond impressive (become a detective or smth legit ur good at it so get paid for it) & idk ty for fun talks & stuff

@saverockanroll that message u sent me was literally so sweet, thank u sm for that. ur a wonderful person, & ur literally so pretty, ur def goin places. i believe in u! ily thanks for bein amazing 

@sayyoprayers vegas jew buddies!! aw ur funny & memey & u come off as so chill & fun i hope u have a good 2017 & let’s hope maybe it snows here in satans ass usa??? thatd be nice psh

@semiwentz u kno of all the blogs im following ive been following u longest?? thats pretty impressive. i never even considered unfollowing, thats how rad u r. thx for bein a quality blog for 2+ yrs.

@sixteencandlez aw my lil hayley williams loving fav :) ur just rlly gr8 & ur blog is awesome idk ily a lot

@slimshadylamps oh god uve always been so, so nice to me im gonna miss u sm. thank u for always bein there for me & srsly so kind & fun i def appreciate all the times we talked ty for those convos.

@soulpunkboxes ur rlly sweet & super cute, ty for always bein a nice friend even if we didnt talk too much & good luck w ur vinyl collecting & ur music makin :)

@spaceboyfrnk i couldnt believe it when u followdd me & i still cant, like ur blog is so good, ur edis r fuckin rad, u deserve every single follower u have. ty for makin me feel cooler than i am every time i remembered u & i were mutuals lol.

@stillfeelthatrushinmyveins ur such a happy person, like idk u just give the impression that ur rlly optimistic & fun & i kinda like associate u w happy things like sunshine so like. idk thanks for bringin ur metaphorical sunshine & great content to my dash

@stumpelstiltskin ah man we’ve been friends for a long time & i hope ur not too upset abt me leaving. im sorry we havent talked that much this year but i always valued u as a friend & our skype calls were always fun. pet ur cats for me ok? ilu.

@swiftembers omg ur so nice & ur edits r legit incredible like i love the things u create & post & when u followed me i was psyched enough bc of ur original content but then i found out ur an incredibly nice person & i was like???? how dare u be so amazing??? keep up the good work.

@theballadofmonalisa ah another case where i dont think we talked much but i loved u a lot anyway?? u post #goodshit & ive always loved ur blog

@thexstyles idk we rarely talked but theres a couple of blogs that i would never unfollow even if they stopped posting yanno & ur one of them. i just rlly luv ur blog & u 

@throam i still cant believe u got that url. thats so impressive. we’ve been mutuals for a long, long, long time. like, im pretty sure ur one of the first ppl i was ever mutuals w. thx for that.

@ticksinbeat ur theme is so cute omg i luv it. hey ok i dont think we’ve ever talked but i luv ur blog a lot yahhh

@trohvocaine remember that time i misspelled ur url. lmao idk how that’s possible but i did it psh. ur just rlly fantastic, i remember when u followed me i was soo happy cuz i looked up to u sm, still do, ur rlly nice & ur selfies r always so good (ur so pretty!!) & ya thx for bein ur amazing self

@washingtonsqpark i look up to u sm, like ur snapchat is my actual favorite thing & the fact that ur like besties w bill beckett like??? i just have a lot of respect, ur a super kind person, ur rlly beautiful, & idk. thanks for talking to me all that time ago. keep bein amazing & chances r ur probably goin to a show soon so have fun lmao

@winterwentz aw fuck ilysm. ur just so wonderful, w havent talked too much recently but i used to love our conversations a lot. ur a gr8 person, i hope ur doin well ilu.

@xmasdallon aw tessa. ur a good way to end this. i luv u a lot. ur so cute & talented (pls keep makin music ur so good at it) like legit i live for ur a capella stuff, it’s so fantastic. idk ur an actual treasure ily

ily all, thank u<3

anonymous asked:

HOTCHNISS (Or Hotly whatever...) but yea!

who the fuck put the peeps in the microwave
THAT WOULD SO BE EMILY. Hotch tells her not to do it because they will fuckin explode, which only makes her want to do it more. SO, Prentiss shoves like 20 of them in the microwave and laughs uncontrollably as they blow the fuck up and Hotch is just sitting there shaking his head thinking jfc WHY IS THIS MY LIFE? EMILY U ARE A FUCKIN 6 YEAR OLD JACK IS MORE MATURE THAN THIS why the fuck…? BUT he’s smiling because even tho she’s an immature lil shit, she’s his immature lil shit!

who forgot to put the cat outside before sex
Em. She refuses to “imprision” her precious Sergie-pie and the cat often wanders into the bedroom at the wrong time. Prentiss doesn’t care, but Hotch is convinced the little black SATAN is out for his blood. Emily finds it hilarious that Aaron Hotchner, who is fearless when it comes to crazy ass psycho murderers, is afraid of a TINY LITTLE KITTY CAT. “Emily put the fucking demon away” “Hotch its a CAT what’s he possibly gonna do to you?” “Oh, i dunno, KILL ME IN MY SLEEP!” “Right.

who posts vines of the other doing embarrassing shit
Emily. You’d never guess it, but when Hotch gets drunk he gets FUCKING WILD. And giggles. Like a schoolgirl.

who breaks the most phones
They both break a fuck ton of phones because of their job (and the fact that both are super accident prone). Prentiss has even made a tally to try and keep track of the expenses (‘ALRIGHT Aaron u are at 5 this year already what the fuck?’ ‘Emily don’t even get started u broke so many phones last year’ ‘excuse you i was hiT BY A TRUCK MR.’ ‘BUT-’ ‘I ALSO KICKED SOME MAJOR UNSUB ASS FOR YOUR INFORMATION’ ‘EM, HI HELLO you haven’t broken any phones at work sweetie. You are literally just clumsy.’ ‘Well yea…’)

who dies first
ahahahaahAHAHAHA FUCK ME. Prentiss does (like for real this time tho, I mean the woman nearly dies every other episode getting in car accidents, shot, stabbed, held hostage and whatnot. One of those disasters is bound to kill her eventually). If Em really did die, you know Hotch would be devastated. AND he would probably become reckless and take huge risks because Emily dying doesn’t make sense. She was one of the best people he ever had the pleasure of knowing, and if there was a God, or shit, even just karma, Prentiss would not be dead. It’s just not fair. (HAHAHA NO NOBODY DIES WHAT? NO WHAT IS DEATH EVEN HEHEHE no.)

which one I could see as being lactose intollerant
Hotch (I mean how could Emily be, like i can picture her putting cheese on literally everything) AARON IS, but he doesn’t like to admit it which bugs Emily. “hon, you are allergic to tht DONT EAT IT” “NO IM NOT, ITS FINE EM. NEVER SHOW WEAKNESS. “JESUS CHrist Aaron, its a dairy allergy not a missing limb what the fuck”

who thinks they can do something really well even though they can’t
Emily thinks she is the fucking shit when it comes to sports. Don’t get me wrong, she is extremely fit and athletic due to being in the FBI, but playing Children’s level sports? Forget about it! Something about having the gracefulness of a drunk chicken really doesn’t mix well with that, but it doesn’t stop her from trying. Hotch thought it was adorable, until the FBI baseball game where the dork managed to hit Morgan in the balls with a baseball bat! Prentiss apologized (while laughing her ass off) and decided sports weren’t really her thing…

who is more likely to get kicked out of the bed
Hotch, although it’s not for reasons you’d think. When he’s not working, Aaron is actually super goofy and he and Em usually end up in prank wars. Sometimes those pranks involve putting huge fake spiders under the blanket to scare the living shit out of Prentiss (‘JESUS MOTHERFUCKING CHRIST WHAT THE FCUKISTHATKILL IT- oh my god AARON U FUCKING ASSHOLE’) It’s hard for her to stay mad, though, and she usually ends up joining him on the couch.

who uses the computer most
Em totally has a Tumblr (@imwearingagunbitch) She posts pictures of Sergio, and is responsible for a lot of strange/drunken nightblogging posts (‘What if lawnmowers are so loud because they cover the screams of grass being massacred?’ ‘Dude imagine if boobs were square’) Hotch thinks it’s cute that Em runs a blog, but also thinks that half the people on tht deranged website are probable unsubs.

anonymous asked:

So I'm easily startled by a lot of things, I get the spooks. So why not an MC is easily startled HC!! It could be anything really, touches, popping up out of nowhere, noises whatever. The RFA + unknown & V pls. Either they enjoy doing that to MC or they feel bad. Up to you. I'm so happy I found your blog btw. Another HC blog to follow!

 im super easily spooked, too! lolol

~headcanon requests are closed for now~

Yoosung

  • Yoosungs eyes flutter open 
  • he yawns and stretches
  • MC is right there beside him, they had been sleeping over at his dorm a lot lately
  • he squints at the wall clock
  • “oh, shit”
  • Yoosung shakes MC a little
  • “babe, wake up! we’re gonna be late for class”
  • MC and Yoosung scramble out of bed, rushing to get ready
  • Yoosung shoves some bread in the toaster while MC gets some coffee started for them
  • while they wait for the coffee to brew, Yoosung leaves the room to clip his hair up
  • suddenly he hears MC shouting
  • “JesUS CHRIST!!”
  • Yoosung runs into the kitchen area
  • “what?? what’s going on?? is there a bug?!”
  • MC was clutching their chest and breathing heavily
  • “your toast scared the shit out of me”
  • Yoosung looked at MC, then looked at the toaster, then looked at MC again
  • “MC, you have a fear of toast?”
  • he grabs the bread from the toaster and shoves it in their face
  • “no, you dork! i got spooked when the toast popped out”
  • they push Yoosung’s breakfast out of their face
  • “sorry, i promise i’ll respect your fear of toast from now on”
  • he puts the bread behind his back, hiding it from MC
  • they just roll their eyes at him
  • “lets just catch the bus, nerd”

Zen

  • Zen had been looking forward to friday night all week
  • cause friday night was movie night
  • he picked a spooky movie to watch with MC, knowing they’d cuddle up to him
  • they were about halfway through the movie
  • just like Zen had planned, MC was curled up in his arms
  • “don’t worry, babe. i’ll protect you”
  • he was tryna b all suave n shit
  • a particular spooky scene was playing when Zen decided to adjust his position on the couch
  • in doing so, he knocked over an empty plastic cup that was on the side table
  • the cup hit the floor with a clamor
  • MC squeezed Zen’s arm as tightly as possible
  • and let out a short scream
  • their reaction startled Zen, and he yelped as well
  • “sorry, Zen. the cup started me”
  • MC was back to normal, but Zen wasn’t over the shock of their literal SCREAM
  • “geez, MC! it was just the cup!”
  • “hey, i can’t help that i get scarred easily. and you’re the one who picked a spooky movie! i was already on edge cause of that!”
  • Zen picks the cup up from the floor
  • “i’m never using this cup again”
  • MC laughs
  • “Zen, dont be silly! the cup didnt-”
  • but before they could finish, Zen walked into the kitchen and threw the cup away
  • there. he will never make that mistake again.

Jaehee

  • Jaehee took MC shopping, needing a break from her work
  • they were browsing around in a clothing store
  • when Jaehee got an idea
  • “Jaehee, what do you think of this?”
  • MC help up a shirt they liked to show it to Jaehee, but she wasnt there
  • “Jaehee? where did you go?”
  • MC feels like a little kid who lost their mom in the store
  • “Jaehee?”
  • the peek around a rack of clothes
  • Jaehee suddenly appears from the other side of the rack
  • “hey MC! looking for me?”
  • without thinking, MC screams
  • “FUCK!”
  • they immediately cover their mouth and look around in horror
  • okay, several people in the recent vicinity definitely heard that
  • at first Jaehee’s mouth drops open in disbelief
  • “oh my god Jaehee im so sorry-”
  • Jaehee bursts into laughter, cutting MC’s apology short
  • her laugh makes MC smile, too
  • they’ve never seen Jaehee laugh this hard
  • she started to talk, gasping for breath
  • “MC, i had no idea you’d be so surprised”
  • they just shrug
  • “what can i say? i’m easily spooked”
  • Jaehee didnt even care that MC just screamed “fuck” in a public place
  • that was freakin hilarious

Jumin

  • Jumin was woken up by MC’s yelling
  • it was around 2 AM
  • “JUMIN WAKE UP THERES SOMEONE IN-”
  • he bolts upright to see Elizabeth 3rd push the door and walk into the room
  • “MC?! whats going on??”
  • they were super energetic when they woke him up, but now they’re looking down solemnly
  • “it was just the cat…”
  • Jumin tilts his head
  • what on earth were they talking about? why were they screaming a second ago?!
  • “i saw the door open and i thought it was an intruder so i woke you…”
  • Jumin looks at MC, then looks at Elizabeth who jumped on the bed a moment ago and now slept peacefully
  • he then looks at the door to their room which was now hanging open
  • he pulls MC into his arms and puts out a hand to Elly
  • “dont, worry, MC! i wont let her hurt you!”
  • wait wait, ok wait
  • Jumin is making a joke?
  • usually when Jumin tries so make a joke he laughs at himself before he can even finish
  • but now, he was keeping up the act pretty well
  • “oh, Jumin! please save me from this violent intruder!”
  • he lays back down, pulling MC even closer and squeezing them
  • he kisses their nose
  • “we’ll just have to sleep real close tonight so i can protect you”

707

  • poor MC’s tendency to get spooked was like Sevens playground
  • one morning MC was making some pancakes
  • so, as per usual, he decides to take advantage of the situation
  • he sneaks up to them until he’s standing right behind MC
  • and yells
  • “YOUR PANCAKES ARE BURNING”
  • he shouted almost right into their left ear, and when the whipped around he ran off to the right
  • “Seven, you asshole!”
  • with the spatula they were using to cook still in hand, MC chases after Seven
  • he runs into the hallway and opens the bathroom door, hiding behind it
  • he hears MC as they walk into the hallway
  • “i swear to god Seven, i’m going to quit cooking for you and then you’ll starve”
  • when MC is in range, he jumps out from behind the door
  • before Seven can even say “boo” MC yelps and uses their spatula to smack him square in the face
  • “gah! my beautiful face!”
  • Seven sinks to the ground
  • MC didnt mean to smack him, but they go along with it anyway
  • they stand over him menacingly
  • “you’ve scared me one too many times, now you have to pay the price”
  • Seven looks up at MC
  • “you look pretty scary with that spatula, MC. are you gonna hit me with it again?”
  • he winks playfully
  • MC was practically growling
  • “Seven, i swear to god”
  • he jumps up and runs away again

V

  • V took MC out to the zoo for a date
  • he loved watching them look at all the animals, they were so adorable
  • they went to the reptile house together
  • MC leaned down to look closer at a certain snake exhibit
  • V stands beside them, leaning down as well
  • “do you like this one?”
  • MC smiles and nods at him
  • “yea! when i was a kid-”
  • while MC was talking, the snake strikes at the glass
  • “ah!” 
  • MC yelps and grabs V’s arm
  • he was surprised by the way they yelled but doesnt show it
  • “i know that snake was pretty scary, but theres glass there for a reason”
  • he beams at MC, trying to cheep them up
  • “i know, i know. it just surprised me. i get spooked easily”
  • V blushes
  • he finds it so adorably endearing that MC is so innocent 
  • he wraps his arms around MC, hugging them
  • “well lets go see the polar bears. i think they move pretty slowly for the most part”
  • “okay, V!”

Saeran

  • Saeran lived for Halloween
  • he was ready to spook MC so hard, on the spookiest night of all
  • he even dressed like Jason, since MC is terrified of that movie
  • this is gonna be so funny
  • he lies in wait behind some bushes
  • MC returns from their shopping trip, grocery bags in hand
  • when they start walking up the driveway, Saeran pops out from the bushes and yells
  • MC lets out a blood curdling scream and drops their groceries
  • they even threw the milk the were carrying across the lawn
  • MC crumples to their feet
  • Saeran takes his mask off and sits next to MC
    “oh my god, i got you so good! you should have seen-”
  • …wait…
  • is MC crying??
  • shit.
  • “babe im so sorry. i thought you would think it was funny…”
  • MC wipes tears away from their face
  • “it’s okay, Saeran. you just really startled me”
  • he pulls MC into his lap and squeezes them in a hug
  • “i’m so sorry. please stop crying. please?”
  • “Saeran, i’m fine. you have to carry in the groceries, though”
  • “of course!”
  • MC could see that Saeran felt super guilty about making them cry
  • they’ll bring this up later when they want something out of him

THANKS FOR READING :3 HOPE YOU ENJOY~~!!

THANK U HOMESTUCK

i can’t believe homestuck is finally over!!! holy shit!! gosh it feels so so so strange to be able to say that for real… homestuck is over… homestuck is over. homestuck has ended. there was a time where i had begun to think i’d never see the day, and yet some part of me had secretly hoped i’d never have to. but all things must come to an end eventually. even homestuck.

and what can i say other than what a literally fucking life changing journey this has been.

i first got on board with homestuck in late 2009, a few months or so after it had begun. a good internet friend of mine, holly, had been reading it for a while and was desperate for people to talk about it with, so she started pestering me about it. i finally threw caution to the wind and jumped in when she showed me pics of WV and can town like “look at this amazing shit you’re missing out on”. she was right. i did look at this amazing shit i was missing out on and thought, “holy shit, this is some amazing shit im missing out on”. by the time i caught up, act 2 had only just ended, with only a small handful of pages of act 3 available. WV: Ascend is still one of my personal favourite [S] pages to this day. not only was it virtually the last thing i got to see before catching up and having to start waiting for upd8s, but its also the first time HS really pulls back the curtain and gives you a real glimpse of the true scale of this story thats only just beginning to unfold. it really sets the tone and makes you feel like you’re getting into something truly epic.

and SHIT boy, it just started getting better and better from there!! i even ended up managing to drag my sister into it as well, because just talking to one friend online about it wasnt cutting it anymore!! this shit was so good, and i needed more ppl to yell at. and well, to be perfectly honest, i really didnt have very many friends back then, in real life OR online. but ive always been really close w/ me sis so of course i was gonna drag her along for the ride.

like a year and a half later, in april 2011, my sis and i were going to attend our first con together, brisbane supanova. homestuck was right in the thick of act 5.2 by this point, and we were both HELLS of into it, so we were wondering if we’d see any homestuck cosplays there. we kinda doubted it tho, homestuck still felt like this weirdly niche internet thing back then, and on top of that we lived in australia, where basically nothing cool ever happens. yet to our surprise we did end up seeing a few homestucks about. not many, but a few. enough to be REALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT. there was even a john wearing the wise guy slime suit and they had a fear no anvil hammer!! and at one point we were even standing in line for food and we happened to see a really good Dave cosplay walk by, with a SORD and everything!! without a second thought, or even a first, we both ran straight out of the line to chase him down and get a photo. it wasnt until after the encounter that we realised… fuck… we lost our place in the queue lmao. it was worth it tho. totally worth it.

later on that very same day, i was waiting outside the bathrooms for my sis, and out of the ladies room came this adorable karkat cosplayer. i didnt talk to them, tho, and then my sis came out right after and i pointed like “look!! karkat!!” and she told me that yes, she already saw her in the bathroom, and even got a photo. lmao.

our first ever con was a lot of fun, the highlights definitely being the handful of homestucks we happened to see. i wasnt really even expecting to see one, let alone a handful… and apparently, neither were they!! after supanova weekend, i was checking out the MSPA forums (rip) and i stumbled upon a new thread somebody had made saying they were an aussie homestuck fan, brisbane local, and that they were surprised and excited to have seen a few homestucks at the supanova they just attended over the weekend, and wanted to know if there were anymore brisbane local homestucks lurking the MSPA board and if they wanted to organize some kinda fan meetup in the city sometime. enough excited responses started popping up and eventually the plans were settled.

i was definitely interested in going, tho i was really nervous about it. im a pretty shy person in general, and these were a bunch of complete strangers, not to mention that brisbane is like an hour train ride from where i live, and is also a city i was not familiar with. and i was gonna have to go all by myself, because sis was busy that weekend. i almost didnt go because it sounded so daunting, but i ultimately decided to bite the bullet and take the plunge because HOMESTUCK!!!

the plan was to meet by the wheel of brisbane, which was. easy enough to find, even for someone stupid like me who didnt know the city. the main thing i was worried about was actually finding the people because i didnt know what any of them looked like. we were all strangers!! luckily some of them had homestuck shirts so once i spotted a conspicuous crowd of Nerds standing around with a couple of HS shirts i was like. welp. there they are. my people. i swallowed my nervousness and went over and said hi.

it was a good day. no, a GREAT day!! there were about 12 of us at the meetup, and after introductions, breaking the ice was pretty easy since we all had the common interest of homestuck to spend literally all day as a group discussing and laughing about as we wandered the city. we even took a photo together of us all laying all sprawled out on a set of steps into the botanic gardens like we were all pieces of shit who failed to heed our bros warning of stairs. they told us, dog.

at one point we attempted to cross the road at a stoplight but half the group got stuck on the other side of the road. “haha, we’re roadstuck” somebody said. i dont remember who it was, but that became The Big Meme of the day, and went on to become the name of the facebook group that was set up later that night for us to all keep in touch and arrange future meetups and hangouts. over the following months, we met up more and more, word started spreading, and little by little more local brisbane homestucks began to hear about us and our group began to grow and grow.

it was amazing. i was having the time of my life. in such a short amount of time i had gone from having almost no irl friends, to having almost more friends than i knew what to do with!!! homestuck had helped brighten my life in ways i never expected. heck, i even ended up finding my first ever girlfriend through roadstuck. remember that karkat cosplayer i mentioned we saw at our first supanova?? that was her!! of course we didnt realize that until quite a bit later. she didnt make it to the first couple meetups, and once she did we didnt recognize her as the karkat either. it wasnt until she one day mentioned she cosplayed karkat once and showed us a pic that we put it together!! how… serendipitous!! ((btw we arent together that way anymore, not for a long time now, for reasons that are really neither here nor there, but we are still BEST FRIENDS FOREVER to this day, which is even better if u ask me!!))

during the heyday of roadstuck, we used to have huge group chats on facebook basically all the time, every night. with so many of us in the group, these were a blast, and it was always active at almost all hours of the day. there were enough of us that there was always SOMEONE online. oh, i should mention!! one particularly fateful night in the roadstuck group chat is where my nickname seab first came about!! typos of our names became quite a meme in the group, and a number of my friends still go by these nicknames today!!

ohh, lets not forget one of the most iconic moments in homestuck history. one that happened in late 2011. the night that the end of act 5 was released, aka the day homestuck destroyed the internet. [S] Cascade!!! what a night that was!! ahh!! it was my birthday too!! my birthday is 10/25, one of the homestuck magic numbers. getting to finally sit down together with my sister, and watch this 13 minute epic, on my bithday, after months of anticipation, during the very height of our homestuck craze, screaming and giggling together as we flipped our shit over stuff like the screen starting to get bigger as jack was charging the red miles, and the kids going god tier, and then logging onto facebook to scream about it all night with the roadstuck crew… it was truly special, and remains one of my most treasured birthday memories to this day.

it was also around this time in late 2011 that i started to get into using tumblr!! i had already made a blog earlier in the year, but i only made a single pointless post and then abandoned it forever. but once a bunch of ppl in the roadstuck gang started getting way into it, i decided to get in on the fun too. i didnt really know much about what the point of tumblr was for a while but it was pretty fun using it as another social platform for fun times w/ the pals. it also ended up being a pretty good place to start sharing my silly homestuck videos i had been making occasionally in my spare time!!

speaking of, remember my [S] ancestors: whats going on video i made in march 2012?? lmao!! that really shot me into The Big Time and got me my first really huge influx of followers on here. some people started calling me a BNF (“big name fan”) for a little while!! can you believe that video has almost a MILLION views now?? i sure cant!! thats still so crazy to me!! one time, at another supanova, a friend introduced me to their friend as “the person who made the ancestors whats going on video” and their friend was really ecstatic like OMG NO WAY. that was a surreal experience, having someone who didnt even know me excited by my presence, as if i was someone of legitimate importance, and not just some silly kid who cries a lot and has too much time on their hands.

anyway, roadstuck, as it was, doesnt exist anymore, because… of reasons… but the friends i made still do, and thats what counts, because it turns out the real homestuck was the friends i made along the way, and im thankful for them all each and everyday. 

in fact it was through meeting so many different kinds of people during our time in roadstuck, and the stuff i started to read about as i spent more and more time on tumblr, that i first started to learn about trans people and gender and sexuality and all that stuff, which really opened my eyes to the world and helped me begin to understand things about myself i had struggled with for years without realizing!! who knows if i ever would have learned about all this stuff if i never got into homestuck???

it is honestly no joke when i say homestuck literally changed my life. all the friends ive made these past 6 and a half years, my identity and sense of self, my entire livelihood, everything i care about, its all thanks to homestuck, and i genuinely have no idea where i would be, who i would be, or what my life would be like today if it werent for this silly webcomic. i owe literally everything i am today to it and i can’t thank andrew hussie enough for what the past 6 and a half years has meant to me.

the end of homestuck is not just the end of a long-running webcomic 7 years in the making, but the end of a huge, incredibly important chapter of my life, and sitting down with my sister one final time to watch [S] Act 7, and say farewell to all these characters, some of my most favourite fictional characters ever, who have been with me every step of the way all these years, and getting to see them all finally be safe, happy, and living their lives together freely and peacefully after everything they’ve been through… just… its indescribably moving and im beside myself with emotions.

thank you, homestuck. thank you all the artists and musicians for all your hard work taking me on this incredible journey. thank you my dear friend holly, for pestering me into reading it in the first place all those years ago.

thank you, andrew hussie. thank you for my life

you’re literally my hero, and i just started crying as i was typing this sentence so i think it’s time to wrap this up before my tears start making it too hard to type. bye homestuck!!! im gonna miss you so much!! keeping up with the updates and discussing theories and meeting new friends and learning new things about myself has been some of the most fun ive ever had in my life!! ill never forget you homestuck!! BYYYEE!! WAHHH!!!

okay

but imagine this concept

haruka nanase, aged 18

know how to user the computer!!!!!

mind-blowing

so

haru knows how to use the computer AND EVEN the internet. he can even type in the address. and write a blog. in fact he’s p popular on pixiv.

(altho he prefers drawr or tegaki because uploading pictures on pixiv is bothersome)

aaaaaaaaaand at first he was drawing only water and water stuff like oceans and waterfalls, and people LOVED THEM (and still do!!) because they were not only aesthetically beautiful but also had Soul, as if the artist was born in that place and knew everything about it. he’s kinda known as that wild dude who draws rad-ass water pics….. but is lazy as heck, as people realised when someone told him to release a book and he was like, ……..that would require me doing addional work. mmmmmgh

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yes its a sucky graphic but oh well ur lucky i didnt draw it in ms paint y’all know i just wanted to use boob kamui oKAY LETS START i was gonna have longer compliments but that fkin meme on twitter hecked my hand up so thats enough sweetness from me today its under the cut it still tags u rite or else ill kick my own ass NEVER MIND IM TYPING SOME SHIT if u dont read ur thing ur off the list, dot u’ll be the first to go uwu

also this tagging is being a bitch so like oops if nothing works

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ok so i planned to do this like a day or 2 ago when i hit 500 but today i hit 525 so happy 525 to me~ i know this image is bad but im tired and tired people dont give a fuck

♡ all sections are in alphabetical order
♡ you might be in more than one section– most people are!
♡ i only included mutuals, sorry!
♡ if you want to be removed let me know!!
♡ finally, i follow 300 people… its a lot of people!! so im sorry if i forgot anyone :(!!! 

bolded means youre one of my faaaves, even though i luv all of u equally i just enjoy the vibe of some blogs a lil more! 
on we go!!

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anonymous asked:

Maybe because they didn't acknowledge each other at all on stage? Like at all? The bits Ive seen on YT where they're in the same area of the stage are uncomfortable to watch because they act as if they'll burst into flames if they acknowledge the others existence. That feels like they're still under the same old orders and that they were told off for any interactions in Cardiff and London which is why some people feel the Big Gay war is still ongoing I guess.

They did interact.
- Louis and Harry even commented on something together. I donno on what bc I was on cloud 9. Wait for videos.
- H turned to Lou during Lil things deliberate lyric miss and looked at him.
- Lou let H ahead after they left the (You and I) mic stands,
- they were next to each other a ton on the big screens and
- when H didnt go to the catwalk after ot3, Louis turned back.

And you know what?? They were the first time in Vienna. Ever. Which means that the neighbor countries finally had a chance to be there. We were so damn loud and they were very impressed. They interacted with us a lot because it meant them a damn lot. They put up a goddamn amazing show and there WERE HL moments still. So no 1) I’m not letting you ruin this and say it all stopped while every concert report I read was agreeing with me while you 2) just continue to parrot blogs instead of looking into that goddamn gay war and see the screaming difference between THEN and NOW.

But all you do is complain and ignore the obvious. Please continue blatantly ignoring their happiness which was NOT VISIBLE in the past but still put the old patterns on them. In the past things were NOT ALLOWED because they knew exactly how the fandom would react. But now it’s allowed but only shutting down after three days?

And For God’s sake it took four days to find all interactions in Cardiff.

GDI this fandom! I’m sick of the uncalled negativity.

Cameron Dallas Imagine (Part Two)

Part One

After about 1 minute or so, Cam came back onto FaceTime.

“I’m back. You know, it was nice of your little sister to give me your number instead of hers.” Cam says.

"Yeah, thats a reason to love her.” you said while widening your eyes.

“You know you’re really pretty? What your name gorgeous??” He said smiling into the camera. You blush a little and then say “Y/N”

“Well, y/n , i’d like to meet you one day.” He said smirking.

“I’d love to meet you too.” you say blushing.

“well, im still in New Jersey. Lets go to the beach, near my hotel. How about tonight at 7?” he said

“Yeah! That’s perfect! See you tonight!” you said with a smile plastered on your face.

“Alright see you tonight! Bye!” he said before hanging up the phone.

It was 5:30, so you hopped into the shower. When you got out and dried yourself, it was 5:50.

You went to your closet with your towel wrapped around your body. You put on a white tank and threw a white hang off the shoulder sweater and a pair of shorts.

You walked over to your makeup table and began to just put on some mascara, eyeliner, and some gloss. you go over to our bathroom and began to curl your hair into beach wave curl with a loose waterfall braid on top.

when you finished your hair it was 6:30, so you took one last look in the mirror and walked out of your room. you grabbed your bag and put on your vans. you grabbed your car keys and walked out of your front door and locked it behind you. you get into your car, sit there, and then text cam.

“hey cam, im on my way to the beach. can’t wait to see you(:” you texted him. You hook your phone up to your stereo in your car and blast the song ‘She Looks So Perfect’ by 5sos.

By the time you reach the parking lot of the beach, it was 6:55. You got out of your car and took of your vans once you got on the sand. You sat on a log that was near the shore. You set your vans on the sand next to you.

After about 3 mintutes, you can hear some girl screaming behind you, you looked behind you to see a group of girls circling someone. Instantly you knew it was Cam. You didn’t even get up, you simply turned your body around to face the group of girls. Through some of the spaces that would open up sometimes, you could see cam. some girls left once hey got what they wanted, which meant, you could see in between people. you stared in between two girls to look at Cameron.

You looked at your phone and it was 7:05. You looked back up and you saw Cam look in between two girls and his eyes met yours. You felt butterflies and you could feel yourself blushing. You waved and he waved back.

Another 7 minutes passed, and honestly, you didnt feel like waiting anymore. not because you were impatient, but because you felt like Cam was rushing his fans through pics and autographs. So you slipped your vans back onto our feet and stuffed your phone in your bag. You got up from the log and walked passed the group of girls and Cam.

You were about to unlock your car door but then you heard someone call your name.

“Y/N! Wait up!” It was Cam. You spun yourself around , waved , and smiled. “Hey Cam.” You said. “Why are you leaving already?” Cam asked as he walked towards you. “You were with fans, and it looked like you were rushing their time with you so that you can hang out with me. and i don’t want them to remember the time they met Cameron Dallas and it was only 15 seconds.” you said pushing some hair behind your ears. "Y/n, i want to hang out with you, if i don’t rush my time with the fans…will you hang out with me?” he asked rubbing his neck.

You didn’t say anything, mostly because you were admiring how Cam was really close to you now. You examined the ground. And you could feel Cam staring at you for an answer, which forced you to look up at him. Your eyes met and the butterflies came back.

— Okay, sorry for the little cliff hanger kind of shit thing at the end, but come back to my blog tomorrow to see what happens nextttt. alright goodnight loves, im tired. —

150710 // trb in sydney

SO i just got home from trb and im aching and tired but i wanted to get this gay bts feelings dump out of the way before i forget everything bc even now im feeling a little fuzzy and disorientated so you dont even have to read this bc its mostly for myself so i can remember this so yeah!! this actually ended up super super long so ill be honestly shocked if anyone reads this whole thing haha

for some bg info this was not only my 1st kpop concert ever but my first CONCERT ever in general so it was a Pretty Wild Time

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Concert/Loft 89 Experience (6/13)

So basically this past Saturday was the best night of my life and I’ve gotten a lot of questions and people asking how it happened and stuff so this will hopefully explain it all! The day of the concert I arrived about 4 hours before the gates opened at Lincoln Field (honestly other than maybe being with friends there really isn’t much of a need to get there early). Anyways, I had written Taylor a letter and had it in an envelope with two drawings and a sticker for her that I was going to give to Katelyn (@buttonsoncoats) because she already knew she was gonna meet Tay. So like about an hour before gates opened we got in line at the entrance for floor tickets and i saw Katelyn and gave her the letter. So they let us inside and stuff at 5:00 and by the time I got to the TN booth there was already a super long line and I wasn’t there with any friends so i decided it wasn’t worth the wait (although i did take a picture of Kevin oops). My seats were on the bottom left section of the floor and I was the outside aisle seat. The concert started and I was screaming my head off and dancing like a complete nut it was so amazing. Around the 6-7th song I think it was I turned my head and saw Andrea standing at the end of the aisle next to me looking around at the crowd. I was the first one to notice her and i just automatically jumped into her arms and started sobbing on her shoulder. She kept her arm around me and smiled and asked me if I had ever met Taylor, which by this point i was so hysterical but I attempted to say no and she told the TN person to give me a Loft 89 pass and they put a bracelet on my wrist also. The rest of the concert was so amazing Taylor puts on such an incredible show and Rachel Platten was so great ugh my honey. So after the show we went to the section the thing told us and Kevin scanned us with the metal detector thingy and they told us we could take pics but no videos and no phones once Tay was in the room. I ran up to Katelyn once we were in there and hugged her and also to see if she still had my letter (she did) so i could give it to Tay myself. Andrea came down and asked if Taylor was there yet and we told her no and she said she would go find her. Me and Kaileen (@areweintheclearyets) were standing right like in front of the door and trying not to die waiting for Taylor. When Taylor finally came in she like turned the corner into the room with a giant “HEY GUYS” like the fucking secret sessions or some shit and we all screamed and cheered for her.She hugged every single person and was such a sweetheart. When she came to me I gave her a huge hug and then she hugged my brother and my parents too. I think I was trying to like cling to her though cause after she hugged me I like didn’t want to let go and started to like grab her hand ?? idk. Anyways I then told her that she folllows me on tumblr so she asked my user and I told her it was Oldscarfswift and she was like “ohh I know your blog” and I started crying more. I handed her the envelope and i tried to explain what was in it and stuff but I just ended up being like “Here…..letter….you”  and and  looked at the way I had written her name and told me my handwriting was pretty. I think I hugged her again after that I’m not really sure?? And then my mom said something about how much this means to me and Taylor looked at me and was like “I LOVE YOU” and I hugged her (I think) and said I love you too. She told us that her police escort was leaving in five minutes and so we had to take a picture quick (she was so nice about it and told us of course it wasnt our fault but that we just had to be quick and stuff) and so I gave the TN girl my phone to take the picture and I just automatically went to hug Tay for the picture and she saw I was wrapping my arms around her so she did the same to me and like hugged me in towards her. Then after we took that one she was like Lets get a family pic so we took one with my brother and my parents too. This is how I was able to get two photos with her because she asked for a second one.  Then she asked what I wanted her to sign and I gave her my Loft 89 pass. She asked if my name is spelled with an A or an E and i told her A and she wrote out I heart Lindsay and signed her name. She also signed my brother’s ticket. After that she had to go so I gave her one last hug and then stood there crying while she talked to Kaileen. Also i forgot that before Taylor came around to me I got to meet Rachel Platten and she was so so nice and I took a picture with her as well. I also took a picture with Andrea and hugged her and cried some more. Anyways then Taylor waved goodbye and they all left. 

I want to thank Taylor and Andrea so so much for this night and this opportunity. Andrea was so so kind to me and I am so grateful that she chose me for Loft 89. Taylor was just the most angelic person ever and I have waited so long to finally tell her I love her it was the absolute best moment of my life. She is so sweet and was totally ok with me sobbing over her and she just told me she loved me and honestly that was all I ever needed to hear in life. She just makes you feel so loved I am so so glad that I had that moment with her and I just want to say thanks to her for everything and for helping me through so much of my life. I love you Taylor.