i say as i shake and cry

Listen. Harry James Potter was an accident. 

You cannot convince me otherwise. Lily and James were 19 when they got pregnant. There’s no way that was on purpose. 

Please picture it. 

Lily tells James they’re pregnant. James panics, leaves, finds the other Marauders and demands a lads night, you know, no reason, just some drunken shenanigans for no reason at all with friends! Remus notices something seems a bit off and keeps an eye on his friend, but no one says anything. It’s only several hours later, when James is drunkenly crying and wailing on the floor, “He’s going to be so small! How can I protect him? SO SMALL!” that they realize what’s going on. They ask him if he is going to be alright. He sobs, tears and snot running down his face, and nods furiously. “This is the happiest I have ever been!” The others look at each other, shake their heads, and pull him to his feet. Sirius marches him back home to Lily, who has been waiting, scared, alone, and more than a little pissed off at her boyfriend for the better part of the night. She softens when she sees James drunkenly leaning on Sirius, Sirius shrugging in apology, because James is a mess but at least he’s home now. James falls to his knees in front of her and says, “I’m so sorry I ran off. I got scared. I’m still scared. But I’m happy too.” Lily can’t help but smile. “It’s alright, James, we’ll figure–” But James loudly shushes her and points at her stomach. “Wait. I’m talking to my son.” Lily glares at him and reminds him that it could be a daughter. Sirius adds, “Could be twins! Or quintuplets!” Lily glares more and tries not to laugh while James murmurs into her belly, “’M gonna ask your mum to marry me, but keep it secret ‘cause I have to buy a ring first. And a broom. Not for the wedding. For you. Do you like quidditch? You probably don’t know what that is yet. Don’t worry. I’ll teach you. I’ll teach you everything.”

The Signs Hold a Crying Baby

Aries: WHAT DO I DO WHAT DO I DO WILL IT STOP IF I SHAKE IT MAKE IT STOP WHERE IS THE MOTHER

Taurus: Keep your tears inside your eyes where they belong, you pathetic excuse for life

Gemini: Continues the one sided conversation, “so I said to Tom, I said Tomas, that’s MY fucking sandwich- wait, is it okay to cuss in front of a -what am I saying, you don’t understand words yet- anyway I said to him…”

Cancer: *is the Crying Baby* 

Leo: Worry not, I will calm you with my talent for, uh, singing, “rock-a-bye baby in the -” baby: *screams louder* leo: okay well, fuck you too

Virgo: Gross pls tell me this thing didn’t poop OH MY GOD IT POOPED GET IT OFF GET IT OFF

Libra: Smiles and patiently calms the child, artfully hiding their discomfort and disgust, thinking “why the fuck do people keep making these things I hate them I hate them I fucking hate them ughh”

Scorpio: *glares* shut the fuck

Sagittarius: Tbh if you were my kid, I’d probably “forget” you in a shopping cart at the grocery store… shit, where is your mother? Don’t tell me she-  HEY LADY, YEAH YOU, COME GET YOUR KID

Capricorn: Calmly sets the child down and walks away forever

Aquarius: According to some scientific studies, crying indicates that in later life, the infant will adapt qualities of…

Pisces: Me too, kid. Me too.  By the way, it only gets worse from here…

The Signs Hold a Crying Baby

Aries: WHAT DO I DO WHAT DO I DO WILL IT STOP IF I SHAKE IT MAKE IT STOP WHERE IS THE MOTHER

Taurus: Keep your tears inside your eyes where they belong, you pathetic excuse for life

Gemini: Continues the one sided conversation, “so I said to Tom, I said Tomas, that’s MY fucking sandwich- wait, is it okay to cuss in front of a -what am I saying, you don’t understand words yet- anyway I said to him…”

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For the first time, the words aren’t where I need
them to be. This is to say: my hands aren’t shaking
and your name isn’t a spinning top on my tongue.
You see, there’s this blue thread that hangs from
my wrist and I know it’s attached to the last piece
of you. So I spent the night pulling it out until the
pain became unbearable and I couldn’t see straight.
My morning was wasted cleaning the stain out of 
the carpet. But there it is, clean, finally. I know
they’re talking about rain tomorrow, and for once
I don’t think it has anything to do with us. I think 
the universe is always fighting for our collision,
but sometimes even fate gets it wrong. It might
always come down to poor timing, and maybe
four years from now my heart won’t be so restless
and you won’t be so indecisive and I’ll never have
to write another poem about birds not being able
to survive storms. But for right now, I’ve got steady
hands and when somebody has given you a million
reasons to leave, you stop listening for the reason to
stay.
—  WEATHER FORECAST, angelea l.
  • What she says: I'm fine.
  • What she means: SETH AND ROMAN TEAMED UP AGAINST DEAN AND SETH AND DEAN FOUGHT AND THEN DEAN GOT ELIMINATED BUT THE HE CAME OUT TO FIGHT AJ AND THEN POWERBOMBED HIM WITH HIS FORMER BROTHERS AND IM CRYING RN I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY THE SHIELD REUNITED EVEN IF IT WAS FOR A FEW MINUTES BUT THIS MADE MY LIFE AND IM NOT OKAY

So imagine this: either Dean or Cas nearly not surviving a hunt, and they both end up being okay but it was a close call, which leads to Cas getting emotional and truly crying in front of Dean for the very first time.

And Dean being heartbroken when he notices it because that is just not right, thus gently brushing Cas’ tears away, his thumbs tracing both Cas’ cheek bones as he softly says “Hey, Cas hey, I’m here… Please don’t cry, I’d rather see my sunshine without a side or rain. Just saying…”

Then Cas smiling a watery smile because of that sappy remark before Dean takes him into his arms with a relieved sigh, and holds him there until Cas stops shaking.

Yeah, imagine that. 

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Boyfriend’s priceless and precious reaction to their first win :)

I hope my daughter never has to feel the way I feel right now. Oh so incredibly alone. 
I hope my daughter will never have to shake on the bathroom floor, trying, and failing, to muffle her throat tearing sobs. I hope I never make her feel that way. 
I hope I never say anything to her that will break her. Break her even more than she already might be. 
I hope I’ll never be the reason she’s starving herself and crying while hugging the toilet, willing to make her fingers go down her throat when they just won’t. 
I hope she never has to reach the stage where she’s afraid to even speak to me, because of what I could reply to her. 
I hope she never has to learn to love the pain. 
I hope my daughter never feels this worthless, this alone, this forsaken.

And if you ever will, I’ll let you read these, these messed up poems I wrote when I was just sixteen, I’ll let you know you’re not alone, I’ll let you know I’ve been through heartbreak too, I’ll let you know I love you and I’m so incredibly sorry.
—  I hope I never hurt you like she hurt me.

patiience
She's Not Okay

I knew she wasn’t okay
 I saw it, heard it, felt it
She wasn’t and isn’t okay
 And I know it 

I knew she wasn’t okay
When she started spurting lies
Saying she already ate
Saying she wasn’t tired
Saying she was just cold
Saying she was okay 

 I knew she wasn’t okay 
When her body went weak
She would shake under weight 
She would get sick after half a meal 
She would lose breath when people stared 
She would “accidently” hurt herself 

I knew she wasn’t okay
When her eyes lost their shine
Her eyes caught things that weren’t there
Her eyes had bags from nights of no sleep
Her eyes began to flicker in fear
Her eyes would always be full of tears 

 I knew she wasn’t okay
When she lost her control
She’d scream and cry in frustration
She’d punch her body till she bruised
She’d squeeze her wrists when the pain grew
She’d starve herself when the scale grew 

I know she isn’t okay
Because I know her
But more so
Because I am her

he says
“its okay I like sad girls” and
i think about telling him about the breakdown I had in French class but I don’t because
it wasn’t pretty.
it was me sitting on the floor with my head in my hands quietly crying and
everyone pretending they couldn’t hear me.
it was curious looks in the hallway when the bell rang and
me ruining a maybe relationship before it ever started.
unstableness isn’t art it’s just constantly shaking underneath your skin it’s not speaking a word during lunch its paranoia it’s paranoia it’s paranoia.

so tell me again how
you like sad girls.
tell me again how you can fix me.

—  SHE SAYS “SORRY YOU’RE SO UNGRATEFUL” I SAY “I’M JUST TRYING NOT TO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE”– lily rain
Do you love me? Pt.1//Alec Lightwood Imagine

One minute,you were looking at Alec saying that you were like his sister and the other minute you found yourself tearing up on Isabelle’s bed.Everyone besides Alec knew you had a major crush on him.They were telling you to tell Alec about your feelings but you were so aware of the fact that he saw you as a sister.But hearing him saying it out loud destroyed you to pieces.You ran to Isabelle’s room after faking a smile to him.And now,you were a mess.

‘’Are you okay?’’Isabelle sat next to you in her bad and touched your shoulder.

‘’He sees me as a sister Izzy.6 years,and i’m nothing but his sister.’’You said with a shaking voice.

6 years of thinking about him every night.6 years of trying to make him happy when he’s sad.6 years of trying to keep him happy.

‘’Honey.’’She said,holding your hand.’’I hate my own brother for making you cry like this.’’

‘’I feel like an idiot.A fucking idiot.I spent my 6 years on someone who doesn’t see me more than a sister.And i don’t regret it.I want to stop talking to him Izzy.I want to be mad at him for not noticing how i feel.But i can’t.No matter how hard i try,i can’t hate Alec.’’

You really couldn’t.You always found yourself trying to hate Alec for making you feel like this.You tried to be mad at him for ignoring your feelings.You wanted to scream him how you feel.But whenever you see the way he smiled like an angel,every bits of anger would disappear and you would be filled with love for him.

 You said with hiccups and tears streaming down your face.

‘’He doesn’t know how you feel.Let him know Y/N.Let him know.’’

‘’How can i when he sees me as a sister.The person i’ve been in love with for 6 years,sees me like a sister.Nothing more than that.This is riddicilous.I would do anything to be the person who makes him smile and he sees himself as my brother.A fucking brother.’’The volume of your voice started to go high as you talk.

‘’I know how much you love him.You don’t deserve feeling like this.Tell him or i will.’’She said making you look at her.

‘’I love him more than anything.He’s not going to know,because it’s clear that he doesn’t feel the same.I gotta go,see you in dinner.’’You said standing up and swiping your tears away.You opened the door of the room and bumped into tall body.When you lift your head to see who that person was you mouth automatically opened.

‘’Alec.’’You whispered.

‘’Is that true?Do you love me?’’He asked.

In all honesty I’m scared that I’ll never love anyone else as much as I love you. You aren’t good for me, I know that. You make me scream and cry and shake and smile and feel like I’m spinning constantly. I need to move on from you but I can’t, I just can’t. They say you can never love two people in the same way and perhaps that’s a blessing; I don’t want my heart to be controlled fully and completely by another human in the way you’re able to control mine.The problem is you have my whole heart and I don’t even have a tiny piece of yours.
—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write, 17
Shit APH Australia Does #45

Set his world meetings in the weirdest named and most inconvenient places whenever it’s his turn to host them

begin again | jungkook

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pairing: jungkook x reader 

genre: fluff

word count: 1.6k

warning: contains swearing

description: after a bad break up you were a bit dubious to meet the boy in the coffee shop

“I’m not going,” you say aloud as your friends sat around you doing various activities. One was filing her nails, the other trying to tune a ukulele, another two watching a video and trying not to cry at how cute it was.

“Yes you are,” Dakota says looking up from the phone that was helping her tune the instrument.

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To all my followers who are literally sick over this election...

please do not skip this post.

I have read countless posts tonight about people suffering from panic/anxiety attacks. About not eating dinner or who are seriously thinking about ending their lives.

I want you to try to keep your mind off the election. If you can’t then imagine your favorite character there with you.

Imagine them squeezing your hand and saying to you over and over that they will protect you no matter the outcome.

Imagine them making you something to eat (or at least trying to) and begging you to take a bite.

Picture them holding you in their arms as you are shaking/gasping/crying and telling you to let it all out. That you are not alone.


As a Hispanic, neurodivergent woman I am terrified for the outcome of this election so I know how hard waiting for the results can be.

If you need someone to talk to my askbox and messages are 100℅ open and my anon is on. If you need someone to vent to, be distracted by, or just hug I am here OK? Admittedly I need someone to talk to too…

NCT Dream Reacting to Their Girlfriend’s Brother Being Savage

Anonymous: could you too nct dream’s reaction when they meet their gf’s little brother and he’s lowkey savage and roasts the if this makes any sense haha


Mark:

Is completely outwitted by your brother and just stares at him as he keeps on roasting him. “Y/N please tell him to stop I’ll start crying.” But keeps on smiling.

Originally posted by monoka

Haechan:

“UH EXCUSE-MOI!” Your brother obviously isn’t aware of who the real sass queen is and gets roasted in an attempt to outwit Haechan. He wiggled his eyebrows at you then, proud of himself.

Originally posted by donghyukslee

Jaemin:

“Yah, stop,” he says to your brother while laughing and trying to play it off by acting cool. He would be on the verge of just leaving but you being there keeps him cemented.

Originally posted by catweeen

Jeno:

Just shakes his head and tries to ignore your little brother. He later turns around, “would you mind if I hit him?” he would say while smiling brightly at you.

Originally posted by jaepricot

Chenle:

Oh no you didn’t, this child literally grabs your brother and gets him out of the room. “Well that’s better isn’t it,” he smiled sitting next to you.

Originally posted by exovixxnct

Renjun:

Just looks at him confused and judges your brother the whole time and gets really quiet until you notice it. “Please be quiet y/b/n,” you say and he then pokes his tongue at your brother cuz he obviously won.

Originally posted by tybeoji

Jisung:

Just leaves the room until you have to get him back. “Get him out of there,” he would say and roll his eyes at your brother the whole time he was there.

Originally posted by taeiloves

IM FEELING THINGS AND I DONT LIKE IT

OKAY SO IM SHAKING AND CRYING AND FUCK, I started the episode screaming with joy because omgod it’s back and I’ve waited so long and then at the end I just kept saying no over and over and then John and fucking Christ why, why do the things I love hurt me.

I’m pretty sure Mycroft said Sheringford and Sherlock went to the therapist and John doesn’t want to see him and I’m a bit confused cuz wtf and Mary, o sweet Mary why did you have to go and fuck

I’m hysterical, my family is concerned. I need a hug, can I have a virtual hug because I just cant.

DAY 1 OF I.O.I 'TIMESLIP' CONCERT (PART 2)

•They have a box filled with cards written with their wishes
•They’re thanking the fans for the rookie awards yesterday
“IOI members to work hard and meet at year end awards next year. When that time comes, we’ll cheer for everyone”
•The wish Sejeong picked out is for I.O.I members to meet every year at the awards concert
•Yeonjung’s saying that it really doesn’t feel like the 1st day of the last concert
•They’re taking photo with fans
•They said that they cry when they lie on their beds too
•Somi was dancing to ciara??? Yoojung dance popping
•they’re wearing animal clothes
•Dancing to gangnam style in kigurumi (animal onesies)
•They are giving out signed neck ties that they wore and polaroids
•Yoojung asking the one who got chosen to shake the ice cream
•Oh god I think they all recorded a small interview segment for this concert to play as vcr
•Saying their messages to each other
•The girls cried after watching the video
•They’re teasing the fans, saying how they screamed for the girls not to cry but are like sobbing while doing the fanchants
•Doyeon is giving her ments, now, sounds like she’s tearing her up while she’s speaking…
•Doyeon: “Thank you for the support for the past 1 year! Let’s stay happy together and I love you~”
•They’re showing Chrysalis posters in the vcr, and there’s a msg?
•Omg the fans are sobbing already
•VIDEOS FROM THE PARENTS OMG
•"Even though IOI has ended, I hope that all the members can still be close like sisters" - Yoojung’s mom ):
•PRISTIN recorded a video for IOI too. Telling them that they’ve worked hard, asked them not to cry. They ended with, “IOI is the best”
•Somi’s friends and family said the msg in English 😭
•Chungha’s mum’s message :( Her first words were ‘It’s hard right?‘She’s taking her time to say the message, I’m guessing she’s trying to hold back tears while saying her message for the VCR
•The fans are chanting “don’t cry” again, and then it’s another ment session
•Chungha said that her mum doesn’t usually say those kinds of words and she’s crying while saying that…
•Yoojung said that she still can’t believe that it’s happening & that she loves her parents
•Okay Somi received messages from her family members from Canada, and then she broke down too 😭😭😭
•It’s Sohye’s turn and she’s barely getting her words out, awww girlie :(
•Sohye: “I’m sorry I didn’t perform well for the dance performance just now 😭”
I.O.I: “No, you did well!”
•Chungha’s saying that if she has 3 friends in life, she’d have succeeded but she’s met 10 amazing friends and dongsaengs :(
•Sejeong is just crying into the mic already 😭😭😭😭
•Sejeong: “We really have not much time left… We’ve worked hard and I love you girls” *Sejeong is crying really hard 😭* Cre: Twitter

9/26/16

She tells me that I’ve changed. I ask her to define change. I ask her like the way wind rustles leaves, I’m in her bones at this point. She’s shaking. I drive away with the last bits of summer. I’m shaking. I’m angry. I have her attention, but she doesn’t have mine. Did I break her heart? She says, she speaks– my train of thought runs all over me. Bits of who I believe myself to be exposed to daylight– we’re unfamiliar. We’re strangers. We don’t talk like we mean it. I’m hollow, I’m empty, I’m cracked, I’m ripped. I mindlessly do things. I smile because I want people to relax, not because it’s real. I make people laugh because there’s too much crying when we’re alone and no one truly cares too much to pay any real attention. The burning ashes from my lit cigarette thins itself on my knees. I can’t seem to love people anymore. Real life interactions carve me open, but I don’t pay attention to myself. I call myself selfish, but in a way I’m just too selfless. I’ve given too much away, I don’t recognize myself in the rearview add to that… this is the longest 30 minute car ride ever. She gets out. I drive away. If I screamed, I wonder if she could hear it through our silence. She says how come you never write about me, darling, I can barely write about me. I’m a stranger to my strangers. I’m a stranger to me.

– the truth