i saw this picture and thought this

Let me explain : if you saw my Snapchat story you would understand but then again most of you won’t. I look at the big picture of it all. Nowadays it’s acceptable to have open relationships & be promiscuous or focus on looks/money and everything glamour? Right… that’s how I see it. When I was a few years younger coming out …I thought it was cool to be free, wild, and do all the things everyone else was doing all because I wanted to fit in… drugs, sex, focus on appearance and materials… are any of those things important ? No. We live in a world where we are accepting these things as norms which in my sincere opinion shouldn’t be. Giving those barely coming out & those who are still young and showing them that’s it’s okay to do all those things because it’s fun. I’m all for expressing and being proud of who we want to be in life … but expressing the right thing and being proud of having self respect for ourselves. I’m not here to have everyone agree with me but I’m here to share my voice and what I believe in to help whoever wants to hear. I can’t have a decent conversation with a normal guy without them sending dick-ass pictures/talking sexual/ or just feeding me what they think I want to hear. To my sad reality it’s come to this where I don’t give the time anymore because I’ve read it all and can see through the bull shit. That’s only one of the reasons. I been through my fair share of experience and I know for a fact all the cards being dealt with. I’m not easy nor do I want to be I need someone who will be patient and will wait as long as necessary to win over my affection … in regards to my snaps… clearly the guy is a complete moron who obviously plays into those cards of only wanting one thing only. I never thought in a million years that being kind, humble, worth waiting, self respected, and honest would be rare traits for one to have in my eyes. The way i see love is that strong affection you just don’t give away easily because it’s not that easy to give away. Love isn’t just sex. It’s the connection between two people who devour each other to the fullest. Sex can be just sex but when love is involved that’s another thing. Some people don’t know the difference or the meaning. When you just give yourself for the heat of the moment … it takes a part of you every time… till your glass becomes empty and alone. When you can have sex and not attach any feelings to it you become alone and the only thing you become addicted to is sex but the sad thing is you won’t ever experience love because the feelings will never be there because it has no meaning when you connect the dots. Make what you want of this but just know that good guys are out there … and it’s worth the wait.


So, Mags @theystudyrainbows tagged me in the screenshot thing and I took it as the perfect chance to procrastinate cooking. Yay me!
My lockscreen is The Hug. It’s been the same ever since the morning of 1st November 2015, when a sleep-deprived Cate in a random Starbucks still couldn’t believe what she had witnessed the night before and thought that a constant reminder could help. It didn’t. I still can’t believe I was there.
My home screen is one of my favourite pictures of Louis: crinkly-eyed and happy. (Don’t look at the number of emails. I KNOW.)
The song I was listening to when I saw the mention is 2-4-6-8 Motorway by Tom Robinson Band. After today’s article about Harry’s sigle I’ve decided I need a 70s rock culture, so that’s what I wrote on spotify and that’s what I got. I quite like it, to be honest, even if my knowledge of this genre is almost non-existent. If anyone wants to help my 70s rock education by suggesting songs/bands/playlists I’ll be very happy.
Last but not least, the selfie. My hair looks pretty nice even if yesterday I was late and wasn’t able to blow-dry them as usual. I actually ran out of my house with wet hair, thank you spring!!!!
Ok. That’s it. I’m tagging whoever wants to do it. Love you all!

The Appearance

Karl ‘Shakur’ Ndieli
Kansas, USA

There’s something so unpredictable and exhilarating about the wild that keeps me coming back for more. I was up in the Yosemite back country a couple of weeks ago on a solo one night trip. I thought I was awake because it felt too vivid to be a dream. I appeared to be staring up at the stars for about an eternity before I decided to whip out my camera and take some pictures. 

My initial plan was to pose on this rock with my flashlight pointing towards the stars. I was sitting still focusing and preparing when the most magical thing happened to me. A grazing Stag wondered up onto the same rock my lens was pointed at. I instinctively held unto my shutter, for dear life as we both stared into each other’s souls this for what conveniently felt like an forever. As if to say “shhh, you saw nothing” he jumped off the rock and majestically cantered into the distance.

I had to wake up and replicate what I thought had happened. I can only hope that one day I’ll experience something as intimate and magical as that.

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So happy to see that BTS are enjoying Chicago in peace!!! I’ve been upset for a few weeks because I couldn’t afford tickets to see BTS in Chicago this year, but today I went downtown to the art institute to gather info for a research paper for school and I almost physically ran into V in the doorway next to “A Sunday Afternoon on the Island of La Grande Jatte” I apologized quickly and he glanced at me and tilted his head, i saw Rapmon too (: They seemed to really enjoy the art and i saw them taking a couple of pictures on their phones. Hope they get to come to Chicago more often (: *note: i did not approach or follow them after this because i didn’t want to invade their privacy* *note pt. 2: thEY ARE SO MUCH TALLER IN PERSON THAN I THOUGHT THEY WOULD BE HOLY LORD*

I just pictured Tessa Gray seeing Alec Lightwood sitting with Magnus Bane and for a split second she thought she saw her husband laughing with his old friend and Jem asks why she’s crying but then he sees it to and he smiled softly and wipes away Tessa’s tears and I just died a little

I was at the Walmart in my po-dunk Tennessee town, and I just happened to stumble across this:

And I was like, hey, cool, cause ya know, Sherlock.  Then I flip it over and

this beautiful bastard.  So, yeah I spent US $13.99 and bought it (I would have spent $20 tbh)  But I didn’t crack it open until I got home and

March 8.  Hmmm, I thought.  Let me get my tin foil hat out.  

20/20= 40?  maybe I’m reaching…But then

Um 27?  These numbers seem unnecessary to these sentences or am I

seeing things things that aren’t there…  [pictured above: ACD posing for “spirit photography” in 1922]  

Then an article about ACD and his unlikely friendship with Houdini.  They met when Doyle read his book, then went and saw him perform in New York where he made an ELEPHANT disappear, and ESCAPED FROM CHAINS UNDERWATER.

*cough cough* Mark and Darren Brown *cough cough*

So anyway, I may just have a blue car and then am seeing blue cars everywhere, or this magazine (which the earliest date I can see where it hit the stands was feb 8, 2017).  New key? BONUS:

meta meta meta meta meta canon that ACD was King of All Meta.  This magazine has condensed so much SH fun facts (a whole  big piece about about ACD killing off SH) and it makes me happy to have more info I can obsess about.

I’ll tag some tjlc blogs that I fangirl over:


nothing hurt more than when I saw a picture of you and her. You barely ever took photos with me, let alone post them. And here you were posting pictures with this girl you barely knew, and I tried not to hate her, I tried not to hate you. But my insides felt like they were ripping apart at the sight of  you. And I knew this was going to happen eventually, I guess I was just hoping it wouldn’t.  
and its just so fucking pathetic, while I’ve spent all this time missing you.. you spent it with her. You never even thought of me once.
And all I can fucking do is imagine the way that you talk to her, its probably the same way I talked to you., like you were made out of the sun or something.
And I just don’t fucking understand how one person can leave such a huge mark on you when you can’t even leave a fucking scratch on them. Because you left me and I still see you every fucking where, and I never made you feel a damn thing. you never even cared for me.
I just want it to stop, I want it all to stop. I want to stop feeling every burning fire for you. I want to stop thinking of every word you said to me, I want to stop analyzing every little part of our relationship in trying to figure out where the fuck we went wrong because I get it now. I understand..
a relationship is always doomed to end in heartbreak when there is one person who loves more and in our case, I was always the one who loved more, and now it just hurts so bad because you love her. You love her even though I wanted you to love me.. even though I gave you every fucking piece of me. You chose her.
It will never be me and you. I was never enough, and the thought of that alone breaks me into a million pieces, so how the fuck am I supposed to feel when I realize why I wasn’t enough. When I see the face of the girl who was enough..
—  I don’t think I’ll ever get over you
20 Ways to annoy Kim Namjoon

1. Steal the book he’s reading. 

2. When he asks about the book, say you saw Taehyung eat it. 

3. When he looks at you weirdly, make a face. 

4. Say, ‘you don’t get it? It’s a concept. Aish Namjoon, I thought you were smarter than that’. 

5. Ask him if he cheated on his MENSA test. 

6. Blow into his open mouth whilst he’s sleeping. 

7. When he freaks out and wakes up, take a picture.

8. Post it on SNS. 

9. When he’s doing a shoot, imitate his facial expressions by gawning out your own lips. 

8. Chant “LOOK AT MA LIPS. MA LIPS. MY LUSCIOUS LIPPY LIPS” whilst he makes his signature poses. 

9. When he’s trying to ask the girl he likes out, play expensive girl in the background. 

10. After he gets over his mortification and shoots you a death glare, come up and say ‘hi, there, I’m Y/N- wing girl extrodinaire, and I can help you take it off now-” 

 11. Say you’re sorry for messing up his chance and you thought expensive girl would capture the mood perfectly. 

12. Call him up at 2am and don’t stop until he answers. Tell him you just called to let him know how blue hair doesn’t suit him. 

13. Tell him Jin dances better.

14. When he tells you he’s busy in his studio, use speakers to alert the whole building that Namjoon is busy in his studio. Yell “ATTENTION ATTENTION. NAMJOON IS CURRENTLY IN THE MIDST OF A BUSY session in his studio so please do not disturb him. WE SHALL EXPECT EXPENSIVE GIRL PT 2 SOON.”

15. Hide a stash of his porn under Jin’s pillow labelled “Can we try this?”.

16. Ask Jin if he got the gift Namjoon made you send him. 

17. Over dinner with Bang PD, ask why he left the studio computer tab open to “Manager kink scenario fanfic.” really casually. 

18. Cry in public faking that he broke your hand. 

19. Photobomb his #KimDaily shoots. 

20. Tell him he dances really well. Yell “SIIIIKE” after. 

AN: I had this idea whilst I was eating breakfast and started laughing to myself like the maniac I am. 

Originally posted by hohbi