Let me explain : if you saw my Snapchat story you would understand but then again most of you won’t. I look at the big picture of it all. Nowadays it’s acceptable to have open relationships & be promiscuous or focus on looks/money and everything glamour? Right… that’s how I see it. When I was a few years younger coming out …I thought it was cool to be free, wild, and do all the things everyone else was doing all because I wanted to fit in… drugs, sex, focus on appearance and materials… are any of those things important ? No. We live in a world where we are accepting these things as norms which in my sincere opinion shouldn’t be. Giving those barely coming out & those who are still young and showing them that’s it’s okay to do all those things because it’s fun. I’m all for expressing and being proud of who we want to be in life … but expressing the right thing and being proud of having self respect for ourselves. I’m not here to have everyone agree with me but I’m here to share my voice and what I believe in to help whoever wants to hear. I can’t have a decent conversation with a normal guy without them sending dick-ass pictures/talking sexual/ or just feeding me what they think I want to hear. To my sad reality it’s come to this where I don’t give the time anymore because I’ve read it all and can see through the bull shit. That’s only one of the reasons. I been through my fair share of experience and I know for a fact all the cards being dealt with. I’m not easy nor do I want to be I need someone who will be patient and will wait as long as necessary to win over my affection … in regards to my snaps… clearly the guy is a complete moron who obviously plays into those cards of only wanting one thing only. I never thought in a million years that being kind, humble, worth waiting, self respected, and honest would be rare traits for one to have in my eyes. The way i see love is that strong affection you just don’t give away easily because it’s not that easy to give away. Love isn’t just sex. It’s the connection between two people who devour each other to the fullest. Sex can be just sex but when love is involved that’s another thing. Some people don’t know the difference or the meaning. When you just give yourself for the heat of the moment … it takes a part of you every time… till your glass becomes empty and alone. When you can have sex and not attach any feelings to it you become alone and the only thing you become addicted to is sex but the sad thing is you won’t ever experience love because the feelings will never be there because it has no meaning when you connect the dots. Make what you want of this but just know that good guys are out there … and it’s worth the wait.