i saw this in my other blog and i cant help omg


i can’t believe homestuck is finally over!!! holy shit!! gosh it feels so so so strange to be able to say that for real… homestuck is over… homestuck is over. homestuck has ended. there was a time where i had begun to think i’d never see the day, and yet some part of me had secretly hoped i’d never have to. but all things must come to an end eventually. even homestuck.

and what can i say other than what a literally fucking life changing journey this has been.

i first got on board with homestuck in late 2009, a few months or so after it had begun. a good internet friend of mine, holly, had been reading it for a while and was desperate for people to talk about it with, so she started pestering me about it. i finally threw caution to the wind and jumped in when she showed me pics of WV and can town like “look at this amazing shit you’re missing out on”. she was right. i did look at this amazing shit i was missing out on and thought, “holy shit, this is some amazing shit im missing out on”. by the time i caught up, act 2 had only just ended, with only a small handful of pages of act 3 available. WV: Ascend is still one of my personal favourite [S] pages to this day. not only was it virtually the last thing i got to see before catching up and having to start waiting for upd8s, but its also the first time HS really pulls back the curtain and gives you a real glimpse of the true scale of this story thats only just beginning to unfold. it really sets the tone and makes you feel like you’re getting into something truly epic.

and SHIT boy, it just started getting better and better from there!! i even ended up managing to drag my sister into it as well, because just talking to one friend online about it wasnt cutting it anymore!! this shit was so good, and i needed more ppl to yell at. and well, to be perfectly honest, i really didnt have very many friends back then, in real life OR online. but ive always been really close w/ me sis so of course i was gonna drag her along for the ride.

like a year and a half later, in april 2011, my sis and i were going to attend our first con together, brisbane supanova. homestuck was right in the thick of act 5.2 by this point, and we were both HELLS of into it, so we were wondering if we’d see any homestuck cosplays there. we kinda doubted it tho, homestuck still felt like this weirdly niche internet thing back then, and on top of that we lived in australia, where basically nothing cool ever happens. yet to our surprise we did end up seeing a few homestucks about. not many, but a few. enough to be REALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT. there was even a john wearing the wise guy slime suit and they had a fear no anvil hammer!! and at one point we were even standing in line for food and we happened to see a really good Dave cosplay walk by, with a SORD and everything!! without a second thought, or even a first, we both ran straight out of the line to chase him down and get a photo. it wasnt until after the encounter that we realised… fuck… we lost our place in the queue lmao. it was worth it tho. totally worth it.

later on that very same day, i was waiting outside the bathrooms for my sis, and out of the ladies room came this adorable karkat cosplayer. i didnt talk to them, tho, and then my sis came out right after and i pointed like “look!! karkat!!” and she told me that yes, she already saw her in the bathroom, and even got a photo. lmao.

our first ever con was a lot of fun, the highlights definitely being the handful of homestucks we happened to see. i wasnt really even expecting to see one, let alone a handful… and apparently, neither were they!! after supanova weekend, i was checking out the MSPA forums (rip) and i stumbled upon a new thread somebody had made saying they were an aussie homestuck fan, brisbane local, and that they were surprised and excited to have seen a few homestucks at the supanova they just attended over the weekend, and wanted to know if there were anymore brisbane local homestucks lurking the MSPA board and if they wanted to organize some kinda fan meetup in the city sometime. enough excited responses started popping up and eventually the plans were settled.

i was definitely interested in going, tho i was really nervous about it. im a pretty shy person in general, and these were a bunch of complete strangers, not to mention that brisbane is like an hour train ride from where i live, and is also a city i was not familiar with. and i was gonna have to go all by myself, because sis was busy that weekend. i almost didnt go because it sounded so daunting, but i ultimately decided to bite the bullet and take the plunge because HOMESTUCK!!!

the plan was to meet by the wheel of brisbane, which was. easy enough to find, even for someone stupid like me who didnt know the city. the main thing i was worried about was actually finding the people because i didnt know what any of them looked like. we were all strangers!! luckily some of them had homestuck shirts so once i spotted a conspicuous crowd of Nerds standing around with a couple of HS shirts i was like. welp. there they are. my people. i swallowed my nervousness and went over and said hi.

it was a good day. no, a GREAT day!! there were about 12 of us at the meetup, and after introductions, breaking the ice was pretty easy since we all had the common interest of homestuck to spend literally all day as a group discussing and laughing about as we wandered the city. we even took a photo together of us all laying all sprawled out on a set of steps into the botanic gardens like we were all pieces of shit who failed to heed our bros warning of stairs. they told us, dog.

at one point we attempted to cross the road at a stoplight but half the group got stuck on the other side of the road. “haha, we’re roadstuck” somebody said. i dont remember who it was, but that became The Big Meme of the day, and went on to become the name of the facebook group that was set up later that night for us to all keep in touch and arrange future meetups and hangouts. over the following months, we met up more and more, word started spreading, and little by little more local brisbane homestucks began to hear about us and our group began to grow and grow.

it was amazing. i was having the time of my life. in such a short amount of time i had gone from having almost no irl friends, to having almost more friends than i knew what to do with!!! homestuck had helped brighten my life in ways i never expected. heck, i even ended up finding my first ever girlfriend through roadstuck. remember that karkat cosplayer i mentioned we saw at our first supanova?? that was her!! of course we didnt realize that until quite a bit later. she didnt make it to the first couple meetups, and once she did we didnt recognize her as the karkat either. it wasnt until she one day mentioned she cosplayed karkat once and showed us a pic that we put it together!! how… serendipitous!! ((btw we arent together that way anymore, not for a long time now, for reasons that are really neither here nor there, but we are still BEST FRIENDS FOREVER to this day, which is even better if u ask me!!))

during the heyday of roadstuck, we used to have huge group chats on facebook basically all the time, every night. with so many of us in the group, these were a blast, and it was always active at almost all hours of the day. there were enough of us that there was always SOMEONE online. oh, i should mention!! one particularly fateful night in the roadstuck group chat is where my nickname seab first came about!! typos of our names became quite a meme in the group, and a number of my friends still go by these nicknames today!!

ohh, lets not forget one of the most iconic moments in homestuck history. one that happened in late 2011. the night that the end of act 5 was released, aka the day homestuck destroyed the internet. [S] Cascade!!! what a night that was!! ahh!! it was my birthday too!! my birthday is 10/25, one of the homestuck magic numbers. getting to finally sit down together with my sister, and watch this 13 minute epic, on my bithday, after months of anticipation, during the very height of our homestuck craze, screaming and giggling together as we flipped our shit over stuff like the screen starting to get bigger as jack was charging the red miles, and the kids going god tier, and then logging onto facebook to scream about it all night with the roadstuck crew… it was truly special, and remains one of my most treasured birthday memories to this day.

it was also around this time in late 2011 that i started to get into using tumblr!! i had already made a blog earlier in the year, but i only made a single pointless post and then abandoned it forever. but once a bunch of ppl in the roadstuck gang started getting way into it, i decided to get in on the fun too. i didnt really know much about what the point of tumblr was for a while but it was pretty fun using it as another social platform for fun times w/ the pals. it also ended up being a pretty good place to start sharing my silly homestuck videos i had been making occasionally in my spare time!!

speaking of, remember my [S] ancestors: whats going on video i made in march 2012?? lmao!! that really shot me into The Big Time and got me my first really huge influx of followers on here. some people started calling me a BNF (“big name fan”) for a little while!! can you believe that video has almost a MILLION views now?? i sure cant!! thats still so crazy to me!! one time, at another supanova, a friend introduced me to their friend as “the person who made the ancestors whats going on video” and their friend was really ecstatic like OMG NO WAY. that was a surreal experience, having someone who didnt even know me excited by my presence, as if i was someone of legitimate importance, and not just some silly kid who cries a lot and has too much time on their hands.

anyway, roadstuck, as it was, doesnt exist anymore, because… of reasons… but the friends i made still do, and thats what counts, because it turns out the real homestuck was the friends i made along the way, and im thankful for them all each and everyday. 

in fact it was through meeting so many different kinds of people during our time in roadstuck, and the stuff i started to read about as i spent more and more time on tumblr, that i first started to learn about trans people and gender and sexuality and all that stuff, which really opened my eyes to the world and helped me begin to understand things about myself i had struggled with for years without realizing!! who knows if i ever would have learned about all this stuff if i never got into homestuck???

it is honestly no joke when i say homestuck literally changed my life. all the friends ive made these past 6 and a half years, my identity and sense of self, my entire livelihood, everything i care about, its all thanks to homestuck, and i genuinely have no idea where i would be, who i would be, or what my life would be like today if it werent for this silly webcomic. i owe literally everything i am today to it and i can’t thank andrew hussie enough for what the past 6 and a half years has meant to me.

the end of homestuck is not just the end of a long-running webcomic 7 years in the making, but the end of a huge, incredibly important chapter of my life, and sitting down with my sister one final time to watch [S] Act 7, and say farewell to all these characters, some of my most favourite fictional characters ever, who have been with me every step of the way all these years, and getting to see them all finally be safe, happy, and living their lives together freely and peacefully after everything they’ve been through… just… its indescribably moving and im beside myself with emotions.

thank you, homestuck. thank you all the artists and musicians for all your hard work taking me on this incredible journey. thank you my dear friend holly, for pestering me into reading it in the first place all those years ago.

thank you, andrew hussie. thank you for my life

you’re literally my hero, and i just started crying as i was typing this sentence so i think it’s time to wrap this up before my tears start making it too hard to type. bye homestuck!!! im gonna miss you so much!! keeping up with the updates and discussing theories and meeting new friends and learning new things about myself has been some of the most fun ive ever had in my life!! ill never forget you homestuck!! BYYYEE!! WAHHH!!!

You Don’t Believe Me (p. 4)

PART FOUR – You Don’t Believe Me

Request: Yes

  • I feel like michael actually cares about her, who she is is. Michael can take care of her, and make her feel special. Luke saying those thing, you cant never look at someone the same way. He called her a liar, and said horrible things. I just feel like her and Michael are meant for each other and belong together. Btw im obsessed with your blog 
  • Part 4 please OMG I’m a true mikey girl and you gotta stay with mikey they perfect because Luke is a dick so team mikey all the way hahaha 
  • okay but part 4 of you don’t believe me please and thank you lovely 
  • PART FOUR PART FOUR PART FOUR LIKE HOLY COW IT IS SO GOOD. I CAN’T WAIT TO READ MORE! Take your time, but for real, I’m hooked. 😁 
  • Please do You Don’t Believe Me: Part 4! 
  • Can yoiu do a You don’t believe me part 3 please! 💜👍 I really love it!
  • Can you do a part three to the Luke’s Girlfriend Hates you imagine because I really need that in my life rn😂
  • I’m gonna ask this like a civilized person. PART 4 PLEASE IM GONNA FUCKING DIE I LOVE MICHAEL BUT IT H A S TO BE LUKE
  • you need to do a part four!! if you don’t I will die literally! please do a part four?!
  • Tbh I’m praying that Michael ends up getting the girl because he’s a sweet adorable hot dog and they seem like a really cute couple and uGH FEELS. And like stfu Lulu I don’t give a rats ass about your dumb as shit girlfriend so you can go shove a spatula down your throat:) Love the story so far!
  • Part 4! I hope i can read 4 before I go to sleep. It’s already midnight… Lol
  • Is there gonna be ‘You don’t believe me part 4’ anytime soon? Other parts were so freakin’ awesome! I hope you have a good day <3

Plot Line: After the dinner Luke comes to a realisation but he might be just a tad too late.

Smut: Implied more so than actual smut

I hope you enjoy this! Don’t forget to request for more parts of this, or even for a future imagine/series ect! My requests are open! And I look forward to seeing what you guys come up with.

Part One // Part Two // Part Three

Luke’s POV

The morning leaked through the curtain as a loud sigh which turned into a groan sounded from me as I rolled on my side to see Callie’s body wasn’t there. Last night hadn’t exactly gone the way I’d planned. Reaching out to the made side of the bed where a body used to lie I shook my head before rolling onto my stomach and burying my head into the pillow.

“I’m such a dick” I groaned into the pillow.

After a few minutes had passed I rolled over to my front and sat up staring around the half tidy half messy room that I had created last night in my moment of madness. What had come over me last night?

Callie sat opposite me as she chatted about the new clothes she’d brought, as she always did. I was watching nodding along as if I was actually interested. In fact I think I spent most of my time pretending to be interested in a conversation with Callie; there was never a real connection there. That’s why any time Y/N would come around my eyes would light up at the sight of her– happy to know there would be someone who got me, someone who could keep me entertained. I sat at the table listening when I heard a laugh; her laugh. My eyes snapped up and when they landed on her I couldn’t help but feel my breath lodge in my throat. Fuck. I’d never seen Y/N look like that in her entire life. In that moment I wanted to tell her how beautiful she was, but I couldn’t. I saw who was sat opposite her and it made me feel sick.

Looking between the two of them I hadn’t realised Callie had stopped talking and followed my gaze to the  beautiful girl, and my best friend.

“Could you for once pay attention to me when she’s around” Callie spoke quietly and exasperatedly.

“W-What?” I asked as my head snapped back to my girl friend, Callie was beautiful with long white blonde hair with hints of ash. Callie’s skin was always tinted brown and she was flawless when it came to her looks. But her personality? For me there were too many flaws too count. Not that I’d ever tell her that…but it made me sick to think she’d tell Y/N that.

Today was mine and Callie’s anniversary and as much as I was supposed to be celebrating with her, all my mind could focus on and think about was Y/N across the room. I just wanted to push her up against a wall and tell her I loved her.

After the incident with Y/N outside the bathroom I’d sulked my way back to dinner only to be created with blazing eyes from Callie. I’m guessing from that look she’d seen mine and Y/N’s reaction because I saw her lip tremble. Most guys would have been comforting their girl friend. But I didn’t want too because I’d be lying if I said I didn’t love Y/N. Because I truly fucking did, and I know I sound like a dick that it took me until now to realise, especially when she’s seeing Michael but I couldn’t believe that she could move on that quick, not when I was now feeling partially something she must have been feeling for six years. Before I could even stop myself the words fell out of my mouth.

“Callie this isn’t working for me any more” I said with no emotion as I eyed my hardly touched dinner plate. I could feel the burning gaze on me, as I peeked a look.

“L-Luke it’s our anniversary, are you seriously breaking up with me In the middle of our anniversary meal?” Callie asked, I could tell she was sad but it was coming out angry; and when Callie was angry it kind of scared me a little. I just gulped and nodded.

“It’s because of Y/N isn’t it?” Callie barked, earning a looking from the table next to us.

“I could lie to you and say no, I could lie to you…but I won’t do that. I think you deserve better than that.”

“I deserve better than you Luke, fuck, Jesus I should have know. I always knew! I just pretended that I didn’t notice because I actually liked you. I might be a little shallow but I deserve better than fucking this.” Callie exclaimed picking up the napkin as she dapped at the corner of her lips. Throwing it down on her plate hastily she pushed her chair away from the table grabbing her purse.

“I’m heading to the bathroom, and then I’m leaving. Have a nice meal Luke” Callie stated loud enough for even more people to hear; I was glad Y/N hadn’t returned to her seat yet as I raised my hand asking for the check.

It took a good twenty minutes for the waiter to get around to me, and by the time he had Callie had left and I could see a seemingly drunk Michael and Y/N walking hand in hand giggling together making my stomach drop even more. I was single and the girl I loved was not. I had just broken up with my girl friend on our anniversary and now I was alone, and my best friend currently hated me and my heart was breaking. Fuck. I had fucked up big time, well done buddy.

That’s when it hit me like a ton of bricks, I needed to go and see Y/N right now because I had to tell her everything, If I didn’t I’d fall apart and I didn’t want to back out because I had to win her heart. Y/N had managed to captivate mine I just hadn’t realised it till now, I’d been in love with her since the day I met her outside of her house those six long amazing years ago.

Fumbling and falling out of bed I yelped at the coldness finding my shirt and skinny jeans that were strewn on the floor. I didn’t even bother fixing my hair as I chucked a beanie over the flat mess and ran to the bathroom to clean my teeth.

In about five minutes I was running across my front yard over to her; I couldn’t waste any more time. I needed to make sure Y/N knew everything, because If I lost her to Michael I don’t know what I’d do.

Y/N and I had a habit of just going in the house, as I twisted the door it opened; one step closer. A grin spread across my face even though I was extremely nervous. I ran to the stairs taking two at a time– I knew her mother was away for a while meaning we wouldn’t get interrupted mid conversation.

It didn’t even register in my mind that noises were coming from her room, as I pushed it open. I’d seen Y/N naked a few times– we’d grown up together and she’d shown me her boobs to ask if they were too big one time when we were fourteen– I almost died over over-enjoyment and a boner.

I stood there feeling completely sick as I saw Y/N straddling Michael as she called out in his name in a moment of passion. Y/N was moving on top of him at a fast speed, and their moans were in sync. I couldn’t look away at how beautiful she looked. She wasn’t a virgin any more.. she’d always said she wanted to wait till she was in love. Was she in love with Michael? I let out a gasp and saw their heads snap towards me. Michael yanked a blanket up over her body as Y/N covered her face in embarrassment.

“I-Oh fuck” I said unsure how to put my words together as I walked out of there fast. I could here Y/N calling my name and scrambling so I stopped at the top of the stairs and turned when I heard her approach wrapped in her bed comforter. Y/N had sex hair, smudged make up and she still looked breath taking.

“What are you doing here Luke?” Y/N asked sweetly though I could see the red flush of embarrassment on her cheeks.

“I came to talk..I broke up with Callie” I whispered, wondering if now I’d be alone for a while seeing as both the girls I’d had in my life were gone. I saw her eyes go wide as she looked over her shoulder to the door where her and Michael only a few moments ago had been doing what looked like Making Love.


“I realised I loved you more than I could ever love her” I breathed out the last bit, I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry so badly but I needed to be strong, and I needed to keep myself together; if not for myself, then for Y/N.

“Oh god, this is one big mess..” Y/N said and I could tell the broken tone in her voice meant she was torn. I was no longer torn, I knew who I wanted. Y/N was now in the position I had been in and I could see it was already eating her alive.

“When did you lose your virginity…I thought you would have told me” I asked, we usually told each other this stuff. I needed to know, because I had this nagging feeling in my head that I wanted to go away.

“L-Last night”  Y/N whispered and the nagging feeling in my head was confirmed as I placed a hand over my mouth to stop the sob that was bubbling at the back of my throat. I shook my head as the tears sprang free and I turned my back to her.

“He got the thing that I wanted.” I said a little too loudly as I heard Michael grunt from down the hall and resisted the urge to roll my eyes. I don’t even think me and Michael are friends any more. I know I  won’t be able to look at him properly knowing he stole Y/N’s virginity.

“It’s too late Luke, it’s done. And I need to get back to Michael.” Y/N took a step back from me and I just nodded still not looking at her. I took the first step before stealing one last beautiful glance of her– wishing this would be how she’d wake up next to me.

“I’ll see you at school?” I whispered with hopeful eyes.

“Yeah..I guess” Y/N mumbled, and the way she said it made my heart drop. I don’t even remember much after that before I’d bolted out of the house and back into my own.

The tears started, and they never stopped.

Later That Evening

I hadn’t stopped crying and even when Ashton had called me and I had cried down the phone to him repeatedly, Ashton had insisted he came over. So now that Ashton was sat beside me shaking his head and running frustrated hands through his hair I just wanted him to go so I could cry in peace.

“It makes no sense Luke!” Ashton exclaimed for the third time in the last three minutes, I didn’t even know what the fuck he was talking about.

“What doesn’t?!” I exclaimed.

“Y/N & Michael. They weren’t anything at all and then bam one day they are all over each other. I-I just… it makes no fucking sense Luke.” Ashton groaned as he stood up and began pacing.

“It’s not their fault eiher way Ashton, I was the dick here” I complained in a whiny voice.

“Yeah I know.” Ashton agreed, causing me to raise my head,

“HEY! You are supposed to comfort me” I groaned and dropped my head back onto the pillow.

“Shut up a second. I am going to help you figure out how and what exactly happened for Michael and Y/N to get together”

“Why?” I asked annoyed.

“Because last week Michael was like always talking about this other girl, and then the next minute it’s Y/N? I don’t know something doesn’t feel right to me.” Ashton was yelling causing me to roll my eyes.

“Fine. What ever” I gave up and just listened to him rant for the rest of the night.