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Jealousy || Stiles Stilinski Imagine

Originally posted by elizabethccoper

Request: Do you do one shots too or only imagines? If you do, I was thinking maybe an teen wolf x Riverdale crossover. Like the reader goes to Riverdale for the summer to hang out with her cousin that just moved there (Veronica) and she meets jughead and he reminds her of stiles the guy she’s been in love with since forever and she starts getting close to jug and Stiles finds out and gets jealous bc he’s lowkey in love with her too and he goes to Riverdale to get her and maybe there’s some angst and smut

A/n: I haven’t posted anything in months (probably 6 months? Idk) and I’m really sorry about that. I had zero motivation to write anything and if I did nothing would come to me, so I’m really sorry. But now I’m back with school almost being over, I have a lot of time now. So enjoy this imagine that I wrote and sorry if it isn’t perfect and sorry if there’s any grammar error. Love you guys x

“Do you have to go?” A sad looking Stiles asked from across the room. You sighed, nodding your head as you packed some clothes in your suitcase. Stiles let out a puff and got up from the chair he was sitting in and walked over to your bed. “I don’t want you to.”

 “Stiles, it’s just the summer. It would go by pretty fast.” You told the brown haired boy and gave him a smile. He gave you a forced smile and you threw the shirt you had in your hands at him. Stiles let out a loud squeak, making you burst out laughing. 

 “That was so not cool.” Stiles claimed, glaring at you. You stuck your tongue out at him and giggled a bit. “Tell me again why are you leaving?”

 “I haven’t seen my cousin, Veronica, in a really long time and she always lived on the other side of the states and now that she’s 5 hour away I can finally go and visit her.” You exclaimed, getting excited about the fact that you’re going to see your beloved cousin after so, so long.

 “What if a monster invades the town?” He asked and you stopped folding your clothes to look at him, raising your eyebrows at him.

 “Stiles, if anyone invades the town there’s always Scott, Malia, Lydia…” you started to say, your face feeling hot before finishing your sentence, “and they have you. If anyone can stop those monsters, it’s you..”

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Relapse- Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun

Request-  I was wondering if you could do an imagine where you’re friends with Tyler and Josh and you have a depression relapse?

Okay seriously if you don’t do well with reading about suicide and depression, don’t read. Happy imagine coming later.

Today was your last day you had to deal with your issues. Today was the last day to face the world. Today was the day you were saying goodbye. You were ready for the pain to end. You were tired of the sleepless nights and the long days. You’ve dealt with it long enough. 2 months of the darkest days and cuts that lined your arms, you reached your end.

“Hey Y/N what’s up?” Tyler asked when you called him that afternoon.

“Nothing much, just wanted to see you today.” you told him, trying to not sound depressed.

“Then why don’t you come over and hang with me and Josh. We can watch movies tonight, like we use to. We tried calling you once we got back from Australia a few days ago, but you never answered our texts or calls.” you could hear the concern in his voice.

Josh and Tyler have been your best friends for the past 5 years. You had met them at one of their small shows and you got the chance of talking to Tyler. He gave you his number and told you if you ever needed anything to call him. You called him the next night and he helped you calm down from a major panic attack you were having. They were both strangers at the time, but you trusted them so much. They were so genuinely caring and now 5 years later you were headed to say goodbye. They deserved that goodbye for being such wonderful people. For dealing with you for so long, when you knew they probably just felt bad for you.

Pulling up to Tyler’s house you saw that Josh was already there. You knew there was no chance of you crying, you were too numb for that. You put on a smile and walked up to the door.

Knocking on the door you were met with a smiling Josh.

“Hey Y/N, it’s been so long. I’ve missed my best friend.” he said pulling you into a hug. You hugged him back accepting the fact that this was most likely one of the lasts from him.

“There she is. Best friends reunited.” Tyler said joining in on the hug.

After a while of hearing about their tour the attention was put on you.

“Are you okay? You’ve been very quiet.” Josh said.

“Yeah I’m fine, this is just me. You lied and tried your best to put on a smile.

“Bulllshit.” Tyler said moving closer to you. “Y/N that’s not you. I’ve been watching you all night. You didn’t even laugh at Josh’s dumb jokes that you always laugh at.”

“You can tell us what’s wrong.” Josh said a lot nicer than Tyler was talking.

You stared down to the ground.

“I have to go. I’m sorry.” you said standing from the couch. Tyler stood and stood in front of you. He took your hand in his hand and lifted your sleeve. Josh stood when he saw the markings that lined your arms.

“Y/N, why didn’t you tell us?” Josh said and you heard cracking in his voice.

“Tell you what? These are old.” you said pushing your sleeve back down and pushing between the boys making your way to the door.

“Why are you lying to us. Were your best friends. We’re here for you Y/N, just talk to us.” Tyler said following you, his tone now more sympathetic.

“I’m not lying, I swear. I’m just tired today. I’m going to head home.” you said and the boys exchanged a look of total concern.

“Y/N, please call us. For anything, please.” Josh said bringing you in for another hug.

“I will.” you said enjoying the last few moments with them.

You gave Tyler a hug and said goodbye.

You got in your car and started your drive home. You started remembering all the bad things that has happened in your past. All the heartache and all the unfairness of life was about to end for you. You were so concentrated in your thoughts you missed your exit to your house. It was okay with you though because you were enjoying the breeze as you drove down the vacant highway.

Once arriving home you walking in and dropped your purse, jacket and shoes at the door and went to your bathroom. You were so out of it you didn’t even realized the 2 people sitting in your kitchen.

You start the bath and grabbed a razor blade from your medicine cabinet. Placing the small piece of metal on the side of the tube you got undressed and got in. the warm water made you cold body shiver.

You sat back and stared at the ceiling. You slowly slide down under the water and stayed under denying your body’s scream for air.

When your lungs started to burn you came up and tears pricked your eyes. ‘This is it, I’m so close to being free’ you say aloud to yourself.

You grab the cold metal in your fingers and stare it’s sharp edge. Placing it against your skin you drag it from one side of your wrist to the other. You watched blood trickle from the cut into the water. You brought the blade back to your wrist this time pointing it to go upward. You winced at the pain when you pressed it into your skin. Before you could move it up your arm, there was a knock t the door. You jumped and dropped the blade and let out a cry.

Before you could grab for the blade again you were pulled from the bath and held tightly to someone’s chest.

“NO. Please just let me go.” you cried out.

Tyler kneeled down infront of you confirming that you were in Josh’s arms.

“Y/N why. You could have talked you us.” Tyler said in tears. He held your wrist upward and you looked down to see the damage you caused.

There was a lot of blood and your vision started to blurry. Your tears slowed and you could feel yourself starting to slip away.

“I’m sorry. I love you guys.” you weakly said, closing your eyes.

You heard more footstep enter the bathroom and Tyler stood. Josh handed you off to someone else.

This wasn’t the ending you wanted, but this is happening.

“Stay with us Y/N. please.” you heard Josh say once in the ambulance. The vehicle started to move and you heard on of the medics talking, but you could barely keep yourself awake.

“Okay, now’s your time. Start fighting, we’re almost there Y/N.” said the medic.

The last thing you remember was Josh taking your hand in his and kissing you knuckles. Then the world went black.

Josh’s P.O.V.

When Y/N left Tyler’s house I knew something was right. I felt it all night and it killed me seeing her so numb. She always had this light in her eyes, but when I saw her is was as if someone blew it out.

As soon as she pulled away we jumped in Tyler’s car and drove to her apartment. I was a nervous wreck when she wasn’t there. We sat in her kitchen for a half hour before she came home and headed straight to the bathroom.

We both called after her, but she didn’t hear. As creepy as it sounds I stood outside the bathroom door, something didn’t feel right.

When I heard her let out a cry I didn’t care about privacy anymore. She’s my best friend and I could let anything bad happen to her.

Seeing her bleeding into the tub, I didn’t know what to do beside call for Tyler to get help and gold her.

She was crying asking to leave and I couldn’t control my tears. I was shaking and when the medic took Y/N from me Tyler offered to drive me, but I had to stay with her.

Once at the hospital they took her away from me. They said it was up to her now for her to fight. Tyler came in and helped me calm down. Tyler somehow kept calm the whole time but seeing Y/N like this scared me.

“How is she?” he asked me walking me to take a seat.

“They said it’s up to her now to fight for her life. Ty, I’m scared. What if-” Tyler cut me off before I could go any farther.

“Josh, you can’t think like that. She’s a fighter she always has been. She’ll make it through.” his words gave me hope and when the doctor came out my heart was pounding.

“She’s sleeping right now. She hit a vein which made her bleed too much and when she got back there she was gone. We have her stable now and you can go back and see her now.” he lead us back and both Tyler and I stood at the end of the bed.

Tyler’s P.O.V.

I never thought she would actually do this. She was always so happy and she was a fighter. When touring I realized how she stopped calling so often to check in, I figured she was busy.

Josh and I went to her house before she got there and waited for her. Josh was a lot more nervous than I was. Thank god he was by the bathroom, otherwise we might not be standing in this hospital room right now.

I took a seat on her left side while Josh was on her right.

She woke up after a few hours and I knew neither one of us had plans on leaving her alone.

Y/N’S P.O.V.

You woke up in the hospital with your wrist wrapped in white bandages. You were so close to making it out, but the reasons you stayed were to the left and right of me. 

“Hey there.” Tyler said softly.

You looked at him and smiled the best you could. You were so tired and weak feeling.

You had just seen death and it wasn’t as good as you fantasied. You realized how much you wanted to stay here, on Earth with your two best friends. 

“That smile, god I love it.” Josh said kissing your knuckles again.

“I’m sorry I never said anything.” you said not being able to look at either on of them. this was going to probably scar them for life.

“Hey, don’t be. We don’t have to talk about it right now, if you don’t want to.” Tyler said pushing your hair out of your face.

“Thank you. Thank you for being there and thank you fro saving my life.” you said and the last part had more meaning to it then they would ever know. Not only did they call for help and stop you, but they were the reason you fought so hard earlier to stay alive. “I love you guys.”

“We love you too Y/N. So much, you would never believe how much you mean to us. You’re like out little sister and we would do anything to help you.” Josh said.

You were so lucky to have these two as your friends. They were always there for you even when you didn’t want it. They always just knew that right times when to either leave you alone or when to cancel all their plans to make sure your okay.

“We’re not letting you go Y/N, you’re like Josh said, you’re basically our sister and well fight anyone and all your demons for you.” Tyler said.

“Yeah, now get some rest, okay?” Josh added noticing how tired you were feeling.

With that you laid back in the bed and closed your eyes. You knew they would be there for you when you woke up. They would be there for you everyday you woke up from now on. This was the first time in a while that you actually felt wanted and loved. 


A/N: Just so you know, if I ever post a really depressing piece like this one I’ll post a happier one later just because I feel bad.

ainahsatsuki  asked:

RFA (including Saeran and V) reacting to MC who loves Yaoi? :)

Oh my God I´m just so excited to write this o(^▽^)o

_Yoosung_

° Yoosung was at your house to help you get your things for the sleepover at his parent´s

° he knew you were sort of an otaku, so he wasn´t suprised to find a bookshelf filled with mangas over mangas

° he himself only read some including his favourite LOLOL characters

° (I guess some sort of doujinshii)¯\_(ツ)_/¯

° “Hey MC, can I borrow a manga from your shelf?”

° “Sure go ahead. But don´t make a mess.”

° as every good fujoshi you kept your most precious copys in the very back of said shelf

° it was a habit Yoosung also hold ¯\_ʘᗜʘ_/¯

°  NOT good….

° “Hey MC what is this about?”

° you looked around and to your suprise he was showing you the cover of Ten Count No.5 (it´s the latest one available in my coutry XD)

° your emergency-yaoi-bells rang and you tried to take it away from him

° “Give that back you won´t like it, trust me!”

° but he held it out of your reach when did this brat get so damn tall?

° “Why do you want to hide it that badly MC?”

° “Because of reasons!” (;¬_¬)

° he then did the unavoidable and opend the book

° of course it was not a page with Shirotani and Kurose talking

° and of course it wasn´t one with Kurose in his childhood either

° it was one of those pages

°  if you want to know to what I´m reffering to please check out Ten Count chapter 27/28  o((*^▽^*))o

° with a bam he dropped the book on the grounf, now red as a certain character involved in the manga

° “M-MC, what is that? Don´t tell me all of theese contain such….. acts??”

° he was the definition of embarassment becoming alive at this point

° “No they´re not! You just had to pick one from the back, hadn´t you?”

° if you say it like that it sounds as if he´s at fault here…

° “I´m so sorry I won´t ever take one from the back again.”

° this poor boy is now shocked for live ヽ(*>∇<)ノ

° but hey MC can like what she wants anyway XD

° sometimes you have to learn the hard way Yoosung….


_Jaehee_

° Finalyyyy~ your long awaited package arrived~

° you said good bye to the postman and now held a big box full of new Yaoi-Mangas in your hands

° BEST.DAY.EVER!!

° as you opend the box the one copy you´ve waited for forever to be realeased in korea happen to be on top

° so why wait when you can enjoy it now  o(≧∇≦o)

° it was called The right way to write Love

° (personally I really enjoyed reading it)

° after your precious box was carefully put away under the bed of course you settled down on the couch and began reading

° when you finished the first story you were almost crying from all the sweetness    ⊂(♡⌂♡)⊃

° but the following one…. dear god forgive me for I have sinned for reading that

° let´s just say the focus was set on interhuman interactions and by interaction I mean in a physical way

° to summarise: it wasn´t something you would want your parents to see             。(*^▽^*)ゞ

° unfortunate she´s Mommy-Jaehee

° since it felt quiet alone in the house you turned on the TV to have some noises

° because of these noises you didn´t hear the door opening and Jaehee calling out for you

° your faced away from the door so you didn´t see her entering the living either

° “Hello, what are you reading MC.”

° because you´re a real fujoshi and your entire focus was on reading physical-gay-interaction (if you know what I mean) it was like she´s talking to a wall

° so she decided to just take a look at what captured your attention so much that you didnt notice her

° bad mistake….( ≧Д≦)

° “My gosh MC what are you reading? What are they even doing??!!”

° to say it was the shock of her life was an understatement XD

° you screamed. she screamen. the girl on TV screamed

° as quick as you could you closed the page and hid the book behind you

° blood was running from her nose and it resembled the colour of her cheeks

° “Let´s just not talk about this again. Ever!”

° a nod was all you could manage to do while going to your room and laughing like a mad man  。(*^▽^*)ゞ


_Zen_

° as always Zen was out off the house to practice his new play

° for you this meant you´ve got some special freetime which you always dedicate to your secret Yaoi-obsession

° this means: singing openings, watching anime, reading manga and fanfiction and of course and liking tons of fanart

° as your anime of the day you selected the masterpiece Junjou Romantica, season one

° while watching (let´s just assume MC is such a big fan she understands japanese) you also read the mangas because why the heck not ? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

° you  know how the second episode ends? Misaki quitting Virgin-Cub

° the same Thing happend in the manga, just a BIT more detailed

° you started hearing the intro-song for the 3rd time this day and couldn´t resist singing along

° while singing you kept the page you were currently reading open, to continue anytime

° but while singing and constantly turning the volume up the arrival of a certain actor remained unnoticed

° he always thought it was simply impossible to not notice him, but there you were, singing some catchy tune and reading some book

° his abnormal bid ego just couldn´t bear that….(҂⌣̀_⌣́)

° it was logical to him to pay you back for that

° standing behind you he coverd your eyes and took a look at the page infront of him

° remember what I said about the manga having more detail?

° you tried to struggle free and hide everything but it was to late

° “MC, what is happening there?”

° fuck, he saw

° “Eh…. you know, when two peoplelove each other they do interactions on a physical level..”

° “I know that! But These are dudes MC, dudes!”

° “Do you want me to become gay?”

° “What? No, of course not Zen.”

° is it to much to expect people to accept your likings? Yes? ok then I said nothing

° you had to explain a LOT to him but in the end he kind of accepted you liking this genre?

° still a bit disgusted tho

° but to distract you from this stuff he walks around shirtless a lot more than he did before, and to show you that he looks a dozen times better than those men    ( ° ʖ °)


_Jumin_

° you had to be careful, very careful…

° because every package that arrived was controlled by one of the security members

° that meant you couldn´t just order Yaoi-Merch online like you used to as a single

° the consequence was that you had to buy all of this stuff either at a shop or ask one of your friends to order it for you

° today you went out shopping and to your luck you were able to do that without any guards following you

° this was the perfect opportunity to stock up on mangas o(≧∇≦o)

° you returned to the penthouse with a bag full of precious new babys for your collection

°  back home, Elisabeth joined you on the big couch where all of the copys layed in a big mess

° she just purred like she didn´t care XD

° 1 houre later you already finished the first 2 volumes of Sekaii ichi Hatsokoi and started with the 3rd

° (if you wonder it´s the case of Onodera Ritsu No. 5)

° you looked at the clock and to your relief there was still an hour left till Jumin will come back

° so you cleaned up the mess you created, planning to continue reading after you´ve finished

° unfortunately you left the book on the couch with Elisabeth

° what was even more unfortunate, Jumin´s last meeting was canceled and to suprise you he didn´t send a text to warn you

° as you put the last bok away in the shelf you heard a scream, Jumin´s scream

° “ MC what is this Piece of junk doing here!?”

° no need to say it like that…¯\_(⌣̯̀⌣́)_/¯  

° “Jumin don´t shout like that you´ll scare Elisabeth.”

° rushing to the living room the worst case scenario already has happend

° he was reading the damn book, right on the page where you left of

° Takano forcing himself on Ritsu once again

° “Jumin, give me back my book, please.”

° to your suprise rather than angry or disgusted he looked more confused

° Thank God!

° “MC why would you read something like that? Do I not satisfy you enough?”

° great now he looked hurt.. but still this is way better than angry

° “What are you talking about? This has nothing to do with you Jumin I just enjoy reading it.”

° he looked like a little confused kid and than did the last thing you´ve expected

° “Jumin! What are you doing put me down this instant!!”

° “No.”

° apparently he had to make sure he still satisfied you for the rest of the day

° so it wasn´t even that bad that he foudn out about your no longer secret hobby


_Saeyoung/Seven_

° I saved the most strange one for him XD

° when he did the background-check on you he also took a look at your online orders

° and there he thought he already was the biggest Fujoshi Queen King…           (╬ Ò ‸ Ó)

° this being a critical hit on his ego he made up his mind to pay you back one day

° after you moved in with Seven and Saeran you stopped ordering online and bought every book your heart desired in the local bookstore

° because you just knew Seven would tease you nonstop if he found out about that obsession of yours

° little did you know Special-Agent 707 already had his masterplan ready…

° when you came back he wasn´t on his Computer, which was very unusual
° instead he sat infront of the TV and it looked like he was waiting for you to return

° “Hey Seven what´re you doing here?”

° “Good you´re back I was waiting for you to come back and watch some anime with me.”

° you didn´t exactly know why but you already had a bad Feeling about this

° “Everytime we watch something it´s either disgusting or disturbing.”

° I´m only dropping the words Euphoria and Corpse Party here

° “But MC~ I know you´ll enjoy it this time.”

° Oh God this sounds so wrong

° you gave your okay to watch whatever it was with him

° but when you heard the first tune of the opening theme, you instantly knew what was going on

° but since you watched every freaking Yaoi, even if it was very strange/disturbing you were prepared

° personally, Ai no Kusabi disturbed me XD

° you somehow had the idea he already knew about you passion, so why not do the worst Thing to a Fujoshi? Spoiler

° “Did you know that they´ll cut Ricky´s dick off?”

° “WHAT??”

° he was shocked, and let me tell you to shock him is an Action worth a nobelprice

° MC used Spoiler, it was super-effective

° as if faced Medusa he was now turned to stone

° this means it was MC´s victuuriory

° he stayed like this until Saeran did the ice-bucket challenge to him XD


_V_

° he´s blind so I thought why not write about Drama CDs

° V had an appointment at the doctors to look after his eyes

° you stayed home because Jumin wanted to accompany him very desperately

° being a goog girlfriend you of course let him do that

° for you it meant that you could listen to your new CD over the sound system and without headphones

° said CD was called Kuroneko Kareshi no Nakasekata ( it means something like black cat´s boyfriend to cry for I think..) 

° because of V´s eyesight-situation he decided to focus on his other senses a lot more and invested in one of the best sound systems

° this was to your joy once again o(*≧□≦)o

° you didn´t understand much, but it didn´t matter to you since you were reading the translations at the same time

° did I mention it was really loud and you didn´t notice anything else? Good, Keep that in mind for now

°  one of the things that remained unnoticed was V entering the house

° the first thing he heardwas some strange, male moaning

° he thought you would be cheating an was on the edge of tears

° poor V(︶︹︺)

° but then there was another moaning, also from a male person and this seemed very strange to him

° he entered the livingroom, still unnoticed by you

° you then noticed him because he closed the door a LITTLE to loud which caused you to turn around in shock

° as quick as you could you turnd the sound system off to stop those noises

° “Oh, hey V. Is your appointment finished already? I used the System..”

° you were more than just relived that he didn´t bring Jumin with him in the flat

° “Listen, we won´t talk about that but if this is yout hobby than I won´t say anything. Just don´t let me hear it again OK?” 

° you gave your ok and hurried into the kitchen do prepare the dinner

° by this time V´s head and yours were as red as the tomatoes you were currently cutting


_Saeran_

° his brother dragged him away to do some fishing to “deepen their brotherly-bond”¯\_(ツ)_/¯

° that meant you had finally time to play the game you purchased last week

° after getting comfortable on the couch and putting on some headphones for better sound you hit the start button of Dramatical Murder

° you started right away with Noize’s route

° and of course aimed for the best ending possible

° as you played or red to be more precisely, the hours flew by

° I played Amnesia (the otome-game) and it really took some time to finish a route

° so after you played for like 6 hours straight it finally payed off

° that meant the good parts came, and they weren’t the only thing that did

° if you know what I mean

° you already saw some of the CGs online but damn

° unlocking them yourself and hearing the voice actors while seeing it was way more satisfying (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

° so satisfying that you, however that is possible, didn’t hear Seven screaming that they’re back

° when Saeran couldn’t hear an answer from you he immediately thought the worst

° you finaly leaving him because of how fucked up he is  .( ˃﹏˂̵ )

° don’t think that my poor, precious baby I love you ( ≧Д≦)

° so he was more than happy to see you sitting on the Couch with some headphones on

° “So that´s why she didn´t hear us…”

° of course it was unacceptable that you ignored him

° he had to pay you back for that, that was a sure thing

° so he wanted to see what was more important to you than him at the Moment

° as quiet as he could, he walked behind you to take a look at your Screen

° he didn´t like what he saw….

° the next things happend in only a few moments

° he placed your headphones somwhere els and turned off the handheld-consol you were playing on

° after that you remembered laying on your bed with Saeran ontop of you and already pulling at your shirt

° “MC you were a bad Girl for playing These naughty games. So for that you must be punished.”

° and he did. the whole night.


This was so fun writing I had the fun of my life o(*>ω<*)o Although I lost the document 2 times

I hope you like it and enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing o(^▽^)o

Are You Happy? (Jay Park x Reader)

P.S This was requested by an anon. I am so sorry I didn’t write it earlier,I could lie to you but I prefer if we keep it real here, I had a bit of a meltdown yesterday so my emotions got in the way, I apologize again.Enjoy!

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When you met Jay you had just moved to this foreign country, everything was new to you, even though you had prepared yourself, you knew th language, you knew how to ‘proper’ and respectfull, it was still alot to take in. You were alone, you didn’t have anyone here, no one could guarantee that you would make it, that was your biggest fear.

Jay saw you crying in your car, you had pulled over when you heard weird noises from the enginge. You were lost at night, you couldn’t call for help cause you didn’t know where you were, you just leaned to the steering wheel and cried your eyes out. He saw your car and pulled over, he walked to you and realised you were crying and he knocked on your window, startling you. You wiped away the tears and rolled down the window

“You need help?”

You smiled. Someone finally spoke english, you opened the door and got off your car, fixing your shorts.

“Yes. My car started making weird noises and i’m lost”

You sniffled. He thought you looked adorable, your nose was red, your cheeks were puffy and your big eyes sparkled because of the tears, you looked like a helpless puppy.

“Oh okay, where do you want to go”

You told him the street you were living. It was close to where he was living, it was easy to get lost especially if you are new here.  He understood how you felt, it was definetely not easy to make a living here.

“Honestly I don’t know alot about cars, so how about I call a friend and he can help you?”

“That would be great, thank you so much”

He smiled. You looked so relieved and happy after he said that, it was pure emotions, just how happy can someone be because of a simple thing.

“I’m Jay”

“(Y/N), nice to meet you)”

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Guilt was eating him alive. You were a good woman, a great person, you didn’t deserve to be treated this way, he had feelings for you he really did, but she was something else. He had lust for her, he craved her body, her lustfull touch. You offered him a shoulder to cry on, a hug, comforting words, sweet feelings, she was different, she was sexy, she was his nasty night, she was not ashamed to initiate that. He felt like it was the right thing to do, he couldn’t tip toe around the truth anymore, he could see that you knew something was wrong. He had to put you out of your misery.

He sat you down and took a deep breath. You knew he was ending it, you could feel it, the way he looked at you was not the same. You swallowed the lump in your throat- along with your hurt- and looked at him.

“I met someone else”

That hurted more than anything. It was another thing if he ended it because of work or something else, but there was another woman envolved, you could feel your stomach hurting.

“I’m so sorry, you don’t deserve to be treated like this. I have to let you go, I hope you can forgive me”

You bit your lip, as you attempted to stop the tears from falling, you hated crying infront of others.

“I understand. I can’t forgive you. I should leave now”

You got up and walked to the door to put your shoes on.

“(Y/N) just so-”

“Save it. You’ve said and done enough”

You hissed. He cheated, you were right, you had smelled the perfume, the texts at night, sneaky calls, it was her. You put your shoes on and walked out of his house- and his life-

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It was hard for you to bounce back. Jay had been there for you, he walked with you through everything, you couldn’t hate him. You mamanged to erase the bad things and to keep the sweet moments, keep only the good, you smiled when you remembered him. He helped you stand on your feet, how could you hate him, maybe it was meant to be like this.

You had moved on, you were happily dating a good man. He was different than Jay, Jay was a bit of a bad boy, the flirty type, Chul was a calm man, he wanted to settle down and love someone,  you felt different for him. You loved him, it was a comfortable love, you felt like you were perfect for him, you didn’t feel like you had to compete with other girls, he was for you and you were for him.

It was your one year anniversary. You decided to take a long walk in the streets and enjoy the good weather, tomorrow you were leaving for 5 days in the wonderfull Jeju island. You decided to stop and grab a slushie- childish but it was cold and tasty- to cool off. That’s when you saw him, he looked straight at you, you haven’t seen him since the break up, of course you saw him on tv and on the radio but not in person. You froze for a second, Chul turned to you concerned

“Darling are you okay?”

“Yeah i’m fine, I just got buffeled from the air conditioner”

He smiled at you, kissing your forehead. He held your hand the whole time, he ordered for you, he paid, he was a complete gentleman.

Jay was watching from a distance. Your genuine smile, how you leaned on him, your sweet pecks you shared. You had lost weight, you looked more tonned, you were even more beautiful than he remembered. You had never left his mind, he regretted the choice he mad every day, the woman he chose could not compare, she was appropriate for the night, you loved him all hours of the day, she left him, he left you, now he was living with the guilt. Oh how he missed your hugs, the sweet nothings when he was feeling stressed, the happy smile you got to every little thing he did for you. Now you were smilling to another man, he couldn’t stand it. He saw you walk out holding hands, while you laughed at something he said to you. He wished that was him

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The island was beautiful, it had this calm vibe, no one was stressed here. You could relax and have fun with your boyfriend. He was in the shower when your phone rang, you picked it up thinking nothing of it.

“hello”

“(Y/N)”

You froze. You knew this voice very well, it was him, why was he calling you?

“why are you calling me?”

You weren’t mad. You were genuinely curious, why was he calling you after a whole year? While you are enjoying quality time with Chul?

“I saw you at the coffee shop”

“I know”

“I missed you”

His words left you unfazed. You had moved on, you were happy now and you had any thoughts of leaving him.

“Jay-”

“I was wrong. I am so sorry (y/n) I shouldn’t have left you, you were everything I could have asked”

He sounded desperate. You felt sad for him, you know he was in pain, you know how it feels cause you’ve been there, you knew he was going to be okay.

“Jay i’m not getting back with you, if it didn’t work out then it won’t work out now. I accept your apology if it makes you feel better, I am not mad at you, I don’t hate you. You helped me stand on my own two feet, but I don’t love you like that, I moved on, you will move on too. I know it hurts, i’ve been there but I know you will be fine, you will find a good woman, i’m not that woman”

It was weird, you were giving him advice to get over the pain. He felt like he was not worthy of your kind words, there was no hate in your heart, it was amazing.

“Are you happy?”

“Yes, you will be happy too. I promise you that Jay”

He nodded his head even thought you couldn’t see him. It didn’t hurt really, it was more of a closure to him and to you, it was the last step you had to take to let go, let go off the grudges, off the guilt, the pain, everything

“Tell him he is a lucky man”

“I will. See ya Jay”

“bye”

You put the phone down and  walked to the window. You felt better, you were happy and you had a beautiful man by your side. You felt Chul’s arms wrap themselfs around your waist, he kissed you on your cheek, making you smile.

“Who was on the phone?”

“Someone who told me to inform you that you are a lucky man”

You said. You turned around to face his beautiful face, he smiled and kissed your lips

“I already know that”

Originally posted by huckleberryb

Labor || Jack Gilinsky ||

This was requested, I hope you enjoy it!

     "Jack you need to come home now!“ I shouted into a the phone "Why baby im just at the studio ill be home later.” Jack said brushing it off “Im 9 months pregnant Jack! I could go into labor at any second!” I yelled in dis belief of his arrogance “Your not going to go into labor tonight god Y/N you need to calm down I think your hormones are getting to you.” He said obviously not caring about our daughter that we were about to have. “Jack your unbelievable.” I scoffed into the phone “Im unbelievable? Y/N I think that you need to calm down and just go to sleep or something because your being crazy right now.” Jack said “FUCK YOU JACK!” I scrame into the phone and then I hung up on him.

     I sat down and grabbed my stomach I could feel our daughter getting rowdy in my stomach she always did this when I yelled or I was getting pissed off. But right now I couldnt believe Jack how could he be so arrogant to the current situation? I mean I was 9 fucking months pregnant and I could have our child at any second but no he didnt care he just wanted to be with the boys. 

     It pissed me off and I was so mad but I didnt have enough time to think about my anger before our daughter Asia kicked me in the ribs. “Oww shit sorry I wont be mad at your dad anymore.” I said to my stomach, I knew that if I kept focusing on being mad at Jack that Asia would get pissed off and then kick me in the ribs which was not a good feeling so I called my sister Jaclynn and told her to come over to chill and talk about everything that was going on. 

      It didnt take her long to get to my house in no less than 5 minutes she burst trough my door screaming that she had food, “I got all your favorite shit.” She said putting it on the coffee table infront of me “shit thanks” I said looking at all of the food.

     Jaclynn sat down right next to me but quickly jumped up “What the fuck? Did you piss yourself?” She asked me, I looked down at my lap and saw a puddle around me “Fuck no I didnt piss myself you idiot, my fucking water broke.” I said starting to panic “Oh shit what do we do?” She asked me panicking to “Uh well im going to go change and call Jack but get the bag by the door put it in your car and wait for me and well go to the hospital.” I said rushing into the bathroom to change I called Jack and put him on speaker phone as I hurried to put my clothes on but he sent me to voice mail. 

      I was pissed off but tried to control my anger so I called him again but I was sent to voice mail once again. He probubly thought I was calling to nag at him, what a dick. But I was dressed so I wabled out to Jaclynn’s car and got in “Okay lets go to the hospital, so you can have a baby.” She said nervously but I wasnt paying attention to her I needed to get Jack to this hospital NOW.

     I decided to call Johnson he answered quickly “Y/N whats up?” He asked “I need to talk to Jack.” I said he stayed quiet probably talking to Jack “Uhh hes not here right now.” He said lying through his teeth “JOHNSON THIS IS NOT TIME TO PLAY AROUND IM GOING INTO LABOR AND IM IN A SHIT TON OF PAIN AND I NEED TO TALK TO JACK RIGHT NOW! SO TAKE YOUR LITTLE HANDS AND GIVE THE PHONE TO JACK RIGHT NOW!” I yelled, I have no clue where It came from it just kind of came out.

     Almost immediately Jack was on the phone “What did you just say? your in labor? Oh shit where are you?” He asked panicking “Okay fuck face calm down im with jaclynn and shes taking me to the hospital right now, and if you would like to witness Asia’s birth I would suggest that you leave the studio now.” I said bitcheness laced through each of my words, this kid made me some type of bitch.

     "Ill be there dont worry.“ He promised me ”Mhmm Ill believe it when I see it.“ But I wasnt able to make it through my sentence when my first contraction hit me I cried out in pain "Baby are you okay?” Jack asked me panicking “No im doing fucking awesome just leave the studio please.” I said practically begging him now “Okay im leaving right now I love you so much and Ill see you at the hospital.” He said but I hung up on him and clutched my stomach in pain. 

     Jaclynn got me to the hospital 15 minutes later She got my bag and rushed to help me out of the car “Thank you.” I said as we walked into the hospital “You know ill be here for you and im glad that I was here it was good bonding time” She said a cheesy smile plastered on her face, I couldnt help but laugh at her. 

     Once we got a room and I had changed into a hospital gown, I finally could relax and tell Jaclynn about everything that was going on. “So then I called him and he was being a total dick to me.” I was telling her then Jack ran through the door breathing hard “DID I MISS IT DID YOU HAVE HER ALREADY? WHERE IS SHE!?” He said acting like a spaz “Jack you need to calm down I didnt have her yet im not even like 2 centimeters dilated.” I said calming him down.

     “Im going to leave, it was nice to see you Jack.” Jaclynn said to Jack and I. Jack brought a chair up to my bedside and grabbed my hand “I know I was being a dick to you and I know that im still a dick, but I just want you to know that I love you and Asia so much I cant even express it to you through words. But I also want you to know that I feel so incredibly lucky and blessed that you are going to be the mother of my child and I am so happy that you and I will have a family in like a matter of hours.” Jack said to me “Thats not getting you off the hook but we need to forget about it for right now we can deal with this when we get home and our daughter is sleeping in her little crib.” I said thinking about my daughter making me smile.

     “I know and I cant wait for her to get here.” He said putting a hand on my stomach protectively “Its really happening im going to be a dad.” He said the realization starting to settle in “Yeah are you ready for all this, our whole lives are going to change?” I asked him not entirely sure myself “Yeah I guess so are you?” He asked me “Yeah im going to be a mom.” I said smiling and putting my hand over Jacks, ready to start my family with Jack.

You think he likes your twin more part2

Carter:

“Carter?” I say quietly,walking into his room
“What” he says not looking up from his phone
“Can you help me,i have some homework,and i dont get it”
“No im waiting for y/t/n,go away” he says
“Oh” i sigh, i walk out of his room and go back to my own

I hate this,he always does this,he never has time for me anymore,
Its always y/t/n this or y/t/n that,im getting sick of it,its always been the
Same,hes always loved her more,he completely ignores me,

Should i just leave? Leave this house,nobody would know because mom and dad
Are on business trips, so its just me carter and y/t/n,yeah i could just
Leave, i dont know where im going, i might go to camerons.
Im closer too him than i am carter.

I get up and throw my stuff down on my desk, i get a backpack
And start filling it up with stuff i need.i zip it up and fling it over my
Shoulder, i sigh loudly,and open my bedroom door
I run downstairs into the kitchen,
I grab some food, and walk out past the living room
I hear carter and y/t/n laughing, i sigh and walk to the front door,
Carter must’ve heard me sigh,because he shot around the corner
“Where are you going?” He askes
“Not asif you’d give a shit” i say back
“Why do you have a backpack?” He askes again
“Because i do,now move out of my way before i kick you”
He moves out of my way and i run out of the door,running to camerons

Everything carter has ever said to me,was running back through my head
“Nobody wants you” “just go away” “i dont love you” “i hate you”
“Your such a slut” and many more things, i broke down crying
When i finally reached camerons ,i had a feeling i looked like a panda,
I knocked on his door and he answered almost instantly

He looked at my face and his expression turned from happy to
Sad,
“Whats the matter” he asked
I didnt answer i just ran into him hugging him and crying into his shoulder
“Can i please stay here?” I asked sniffling
“Sure” he said.

Jack gilinsky:

Today was your and y/t/n birthday,
You were turning 15,you were actually really happy,
And you were almost never happy,
Everyone you knew was invited,including some others that you didnt know,
So it was gonna be a big party,it started ad 7:00 and it was 6:02
So you had an hour to get ready, your sister walked into your room
Looking beautiful as ever,you got jealous sometimes of how perfect she was
She had a pretty face,slim waist and an amazing personality

Whereas you saw yourself as the complete opposite,and you were'nt the only one that reminded yourself how horrible you looked or how stupid you were,you older brother jack always told you aswell

Your sister smiled at you,
“You look lovely” you smiled at her
“Thanks” she smiled back
“Can you help me zip this up?” You asked her
“Turn around” she smiled
After she zipped it up she left you to do your own thing
You sat infront of your dresser and started doing your make up
Then your hair,
Once you finished, yoy glanced at the clock, it was
6:57,wow

You got up and put your shoes on,looking at your self once more in the mirror,
You actually felt good for once
You walked downstairs to the ‘party’ your house was quiet big so if you stood
On the hallway you could see everyone, your eyes scanned over people
Then your eyes locked with jacks, he rolled his eyes and you put your head down, tears started welling up,no stop,he wasnt going to ruin your night,
The time flew by,before you knew it it was about 11:56, and
It was time to open your presents your sister went first
“This is from me” jack said handing her a present
She opened it and it was a tiffany bracelet with about 5 charms
She smiled up at him,
Then you opened yours, you got to the end and expected jack to give you his presant
But he didnt ,he just stared at you.
You smiled at him
“What about Y/n” your mom said
“I forgot” he says simply
You thanked everyone and took your presents upstairs,
You sat on your bedroom floor,and cried fir about 30 minutes, you wiped your
Eyes and got on your bed,
You sat there staring at the roof,
You couldnt believe be just did that,
He got her something and not you
About 5 minutes later you heard a knock on your door
You got up too answer it,there stood jack
“What do you want”
“Can i come in”
“No,what do you want” you say emotionless
“Im sorry”
“Sorry isnt gonna cut it,your horrible,you got her something and not me,
Im sick of it jack her constantly being your favourite,yanno what jack,
Dont talk to me,i try and i try to be nice too you,but you just shove it back in my face,
So go away, i want nothing more to do with you untill you realise that picking favourites is wrong,
You make me feel like nothing,yet you still expect me to like you and talk to yo-”
“Please just let me explain” he cuts you off
“Go the fuck away jack” you say and slam the door in his face

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I only did these too for today, ill do the rest later:)

Preference #21 Settle Down - The 1975

Ashton:
A soft sound.
To the way she wears her hair down covering up her face. Oh what a let down.
I don’t seem to be having any effect now falling all over the place.

His P.O.V: I could hear her soft sobs almost echo through the room, but there was nothing I could do to make her feel better, I had already done enough and didn’t want to cause any more damage to her innocent soul. She hated it when I came home drunk, especially now since it’s our anniversary. Her hair was covering up her face as she refused to show it.
“Y/N” I slurred. She didn’t even look at me. “I’m fucking sorry, don’t you fucking see that?” I blurted out, I never swore infront of her, but my drunken self seemed to have changed that. She tilted her head up and reaveald a pair of bloodshot eyes as a thin layer of tears covered her cheeks.
“Did I do that?” I whispered and fell to my knees.
“Who else would’ve, Ashton?” She cried looking into my eyes, hoping I’d understand. I stood up again, but had to catch myself as I fell against a cabinet. The wall felt cold as I slid down it. Footsteps replaced her sobs, she had stopped crying and went to our bedroom.
“You’re sleeping on the couch tonight” she said and closed the door, leaving me whimpering against the wall.
“I’m sorry”.

Calum:
But you’re losing you words. We’re speaking in bodies, avoiding me and talking ‘bout you. But you’re losing your turn, I guess I’ll never learn ‘cause I stay another hour or two.

His P.O.V: “Yeah, so I was just thinking…” She begun and looked in to my eyes, but shortly after shook her head and mumbled “Nothing, It’s nothing”. She placed a strand of hair behind her ear and sat up straight on the couch. “No, what is it?” I asked her and placed my hand on top of hers. “I want to know”. A pair of arms fell around my chest as she let her head rest on my shoulder. A long breath was taken, “You’re just a really good friend, Cal” and after that she began talking about herself, her boyfriend drama, her family drama, her friend drama - her life problems. It was starting to almost suck the life out of me. I figured I should’ve learned my lesson by now that she’ll never look at me the way I look at her, but I haven’t as I end up staying for two more hours.

Luke:
For crying out loud, settle down! You know I can’t be found with you. We get back to my house, your hands, my mouth. Now I just stop myself around you.

Your P.O.V: “Why on earth can’t you stick to just one girl?!” You shouted at him over the loud music. You and Luke have had a bit of a friends with benefits thing going on for a few months, but you guess this was the last time as you had found out he had been with another girl. “I know what kind of guy you are Luke, I should’ve figured it was going to end this way!” you admitted looking at him. “Oh, what kind of guy am I Y/N? Show me” and by saying that sentence, you ended up in your flat ripping each others clothes off. His big hands were placed firmly on your hips as you kissed his neck, leaving some lovebites, but realization came to your mind and you remembered you weren’t the only one he was messing with. “I can’t do this..” you whispered and started to push yourself away from him. “What?” he mumbled in the crook of your neck whilist breathing heavily. “Let go” you commanded and pushed yourself away from him. You couldn’t share him.

Michael:
A small town, dictating all the people we get around. What a familiar face, do you get what I mean now? I’m so fixated with the girl with the soft sound and hair all over the place.

His P.O.V: This town was boring me to death. I’ve dreamt about getting out of this shit-hole. It was a small town a couple of hours away from Sydney. Calum sighed as he observed the people walking by us. “I know everyones faces so well” he mumbled. “If I had to chose one face to watch all day it would be hers” I admitted and looked at the girl across the street, she was the most beautiful girl I had ever laid eyes on. “That girl from school?” Calum wondered and scanned the girl from head to toe. “What’s so special about her?” He questioned. “I don’t know, man. It’s somethig about her laugh, it’s really fucking cute, and something with her hair” I confessed. “Someone has a crush” Calum laughed and started to pick on me about it - as guys do, but I didn’t give a crap as I observed her every move. I was absolutely mesmerized by her.

A/N: This is really crappy but I figured as we haven’t posted any preferences in a couple of months I think you guys deserved one. :-)

Begin Again - Chapter 4

Selena’s POV:

“Demi I have a problem.” I said into the phone.

“Selena, you just got back—how can you have a problem already?”

“Well after you all left yesterday, Justin showed up.” I began.

“You mean Justin actually came?”

“Yep. He asked me to lunch, since he didn’t make it to my welcome back party you guys threw for me.”

“And what did you say?”

“Well at first I was hesitant, but he said he wasn’t going to take no for an answer so I said yes. He got excited and picked me up and began spinning me around.” I said smiling at the thought of what happened yesterday.

“What’s the problem about that?” Demi asked confused.

“Well—Kaylie walked in. And she called me ‘mommy’.” I said and Demi gasped.

“Does he know its—“

“No, he doesn’t know it’s his. I didn’t tell him all that info. I basically kicked him out the house.”

“Are you still meeting him for lunch?”

“Yeah—and get this. I have to take Kaylie.”

“Why do you have to take Kaylie?”

“She basically forced me. She said how come she has met all my other friends, except Justin. And I know Kaylie—if she is anything like Justin and I—she will not take no for an answer.” I chuckled slightly.

“Yeah, she is all you and Justin alright.” Demi chuckled. “So are you still meeting him for lunch?”

“Yeah, I can’t just bail.” I sighed. “Then he’ll diffidently be asking me questions. Maybe he won’t ask me questions if Kaylie is next to me.”

“MOMMY!” I heard Kaylie yell.

“Speaking of the devil, she’s yelling for me.” I laughed. “I’ll talk to you later Dems.”

“Okay Sel. Have fun!” Demi said then hung up.

“What Kaylie?” I yelled back.

She soon walked into my room and crawled on my bed. “What time do we go met your friend?” Kaylie asked.

“One o’clock.” I smiled. She looked at the clock beside my bed and read 10:37a.m.

“Ugh, we still got a long time before we go meet him.” Kaylie huffed and I smiled.

“Well I’m glad you’re excited to meet my friend.”

And scared.

“Selly!” Gracie said coming into my room.

“What Grace?” I asked as she and Jazzy stood in my door way.

“Are you going anywhere?”

“Yeah, Kaylie and I are meeting Justin for lunch.” I said.

“Oh does Justin know—“Gracie began but I began shaking my head and she stopped talking.

“Why you ask?” I asked her.

“Because I was gonna ask if you could drop Jazzy and I off to our friend Nia’s house?” Gracie said. “We haven’t seen her since school ended for summer break, and she asked if we wanted to hang out at her house with the other girls. And since mom and dad are at work, I was gonna see if you didn’t mind.”

“Sure. Are you girls already ready?” I asked.

Both nodded their heads.

“Okay, just give me time to get Kaylie and myself ready and then we can head out.” I smiled.

“This may take hours.” Gracie said and Jazzy chuckled then walked out of my room, causing me to roll my eyes at their behavior.

“Okay Kaylie, how about you go pick out an outfit while I get ready, and then I’ll help you get ready?” I said to Kaylie.

“Okay mommy. I’ll just go play with my toys and wait.” She said then hopped off my bed and walked down the hall to her room.

I got up from my bed and walked into my bathroom that was attached to my room. I did my business, then washed my hands and brushed my teeth before turning the shower on making sure the water was warm enough and I stepped in letting the warm water massage my skin.

I stayed in for about another thirty minutes before getting out and I wrapped my body in a towel and walked into my room, shutting my door and locking it.

I walked over to my dresser pulling out an outfit. I decided on wearing my black tall MOTO Joni Jeans from Topshop, a peach color crop top, and matched it with some black pumps. For jewelry I just went with a bracelet that Mason had gotten me for our four month anniversary—a bracelet that said love on it.

I walked back into my bathroom plugging in my blow-dryer and began blow drying my hair. I looked at my phone’s clock seeing it was 11:55 a.m.

I walked out my bathroom as soon as I was done blow-drying my hair and went to my door unlocking it.

“GRACIE!” I yelled. Soon Gracie came a few feet from my door. “Can you give Kaylie a bath and start getting her ready?” I asked.

“She’s already done.” Gracie said.

“What?” I asked shocked. I walked out my room and followed Gracie down to her room, where Jazzy and Kaylie were sitting watching ‘Frozen’ on the TV screen.

“Kaylie, did you get dressed by yourself?” I asked my daughter.

“Yes. Well, Jazzy and Gracie helped me with my bath, but I got dressed by myself! I just want you to curl my hair.” She smiled.

I scanned over Kaylie’s outfit, seeing she was wearing black skinny jeans, a pink tie-die shirt she had done in daycare, and her black flats.

My daughter has such good fashion taste I smiled to myself.

“Okay, I’ll do your hair as soon as I’m done.” I smiled and walked back down to my room to finish my hair.

While my curling iron heated up, I did my make-up, not over doing it. Just putting some slightly on; my black eyeliner, and mascara, and I put on my nude colored lip-gloss so it looked like I didn’t have any on really.  

I began curling my hair, making it look like beach waves then ran my fingers combing it through a little.

“KAYLIE!” I yelled. I heard footsteps coming and soon my daughter sat on the toilet smiling wide. I began curling her hair like mine and soon I was done. Luckily for her hair it only took about 10 minutes, while my hair took twice that.

I looked at my phone once again seeing it was 12:45 p.m.

Time sure does fly by fast.

“Go tell Gracie and Jazzy I’m ready.” I smiled and Kaylie nodded her head and walked off. I grabbed my black Chanel vintage purse that felt like quilt and put my money in there, and my phone inside. I grabbed my keys and walked down the stairs seeing all three girls already waiting in the foyer.

“Let’s go.” I smiled.

I am so glad my parents are letting me drive the BMW. They said I could have it since I didn’t have a car. In New York I never drove. Neither did Layne. We always took a cab, or walked to our destinations.

After a short 15 minute drive, I pulled up infront of Nia’s house and said goodbye to Jazzy and Gracie.

“Wait—who’s picking ya’ll up?” I asked rolling down the window.

“I’ll ask Nia’s mom if she can bring us home.” Gracie said and I nodded my head.

I drove the next 5 minutes to Panera, where Justin was waiting. I looked on the car’s dashboard clock, seeing it was 1:10 p.m.

Hopefully Justin doesn’t think I bailed. I would call or text him, but I never got his number.

I finally pulled up in front of Panera Bread, and luckily it wasn’t that crowded.

“C’mon Kaylie.” I smiled. Kaylie smiled wide and got out the car and grabbed my hand and I walked us into the restaurant.

“Hello, how can I help you?” The waitress asked.

“I’m actually here meeting a friend.” I said.

“Are you Ms. Gomez?” She asked me and I nodded my head and she ushered me to follow her. I held onto Kaylie’s hand, while the lady took me to a back booth, where I saw Justin was waiting reading a menu. He looked up, and when his gaze met mine he smiled so big, it looked like his cheeks could fall off. Then he looked down to my side seeing Kaylie and he smiled half—heartily.

“Hi Justin.” I smiled politely. I let go of Kaylie’s hand and helped her into the booth first and then I slid in next to her.

“Can I get ya’ll anything to drink?” The waitress asked, whose name was Amber, once I saw her name tag.

“I would like an Iced Tea and just give my daughter a strawberry smoothie.” I smiled. Amber nodded her head and said she’ll be right back after handing me a menu.

“Hi Selena.” Justin smiled, and then turned to Kaylie. “Hi cutie, I don’t think we’ve met. I’m Justin.” He smiled, “What’s your name?” He asked.

I always knew Justin was good with kids—I saw it with Gracie and Jazzy.

“I’m Kaylie.” Kaylie said with confidence. Another thing, Kaylie was never shy when it came to meeting new people—she gets that from me. “Are you and my mommy friends?” She asked. Mommy. I saw Justin look at me then he nodded his head.

“Yeah, me and your mommy are friends.” Justin smiled.

The waitress came back bringing mine and Kaylie’s drinks then took our orders. I ordered Kaylie the Kids Grilled Cheese sandwich, and I got the BBQ Chicken Salad, and Justin ordered himself a Smokehouse Turkey Panini. The waitress wrote down our orders, taking our menus back.

“Since when did Selena Marie Gomez eat salads? I never knew you to eat healthy.” Justin chuckled.

“Well once you have a kid it’s not easy to loose baby fat like it looks.” I laughed.

“It doesn’t even look like you had a kid. Your body looks great Sel.” Justin said—causing me to blush. He actually made me blush!

“So what do you do now?” I asked trying to change the subject taking a sip from my tea.

“I own my own company. Pencils Of Promise. I help raise money to build schools around the world, and help kids with their education. Sometimes I even visit the different countries myself and help out.” Justin smiled. 

“That’s good to hear.” I smiled. I always knew Justin wanted his own business too and he got that. Hearing this, a side of me is glad I never told Justin Kaylie was his. Because if I did, he probably would have never went to St. Louis, and he probably wouldn’t be owning his own business.

“What about you?” Justin asked.

“Well, since I had Kaylie I really couldn’t do anything.” I said. It felt weird telling Justin about Kaylie, since he now knows I have a daughter. “I just worked at a coffee shop around the corner from where I was staying.”

“And where were you staying?”

“With a friend of my mom’s. Her name was Layne, she was really nice and she helped me raise the little scamp.” I chuckled turning to face Kaylie who now had my phone in her hand playing fruit ninja.

I remember when I was obsessed with that game.

“At least you weren’t staying in some dorm room—or alone. I’m glad you were taking care of.” Justin smiled and I smiled. “So—umm—did you date or anything?” He asked nervously.

“Not really. Just around.” I began. “Once they found out I had a daughter they always bailed. Only one stayed. We became close friends after I spilled coffee on him, then we dated for about 2 years.” I said. Then I actually started missing Mason a little.

My thoughts were interrupted when Amber—our waitress brought our food.

Justin’s POV:

“Thank you so much for lunch Justin. How much do I owe you?” Selena asked.

“It’s nothing Selena. This was all on me.” I said. The waitress came over and I paid for the lunch telling her to keep the extra $10 as a tip and her eyes and smile widened telling me thank you.

“Well thank you.” Selena smiled. “For lunch.”

“Thank you Justin!” Kaylie—Selena’s daughter smiled towards me. It was weird calling her Selena’s daughter—because it was still hard to process but I guess I will have to get used to it since it’ll never go away.

“You’re welcome Kaylie.” I smiled.

“Mommy do we have to go home? I want to spend more time with my new friend.” Kaylie whined.

“Sweetie Justin has to go back to work.” Selena said turning to her daughter and it looked like Kaylie was going to begin to cry.

“But I’m off tomorrow.” I said quickly—which wasn’t a lie. But why I said that—I have no clue. Kaylie’s eyes lit up and Selena turned to face me.

“Really?” Selena asked and I nodded my head. “Well do you mind if I just drop her off with you? I’m trying to look for some jobs and tagging her along won’t be a good thing.” Selena chuckled.

“Sure that’s fine.” I smiled.

“Oh my gosh I get to hang with Justin tomorrow?” Kaylie asked surprised.

“You sure do sweetie.” Selena chuckled.

“Yay.” Kaylie clapped.

We all got out of the booth and Kaylie came over to me and wrapped her tiny arms around my legs. I laughed and picked her up, setting her on my hip.

We all walked out to the parking lot, and just to my luck, Selena actually parked next to me.

“Ha, you parked next to me.” I chuckled.

“Really?” Selena laughed.

“Yep.” I smiled as we reached her car.

“Aright missy, we gotta go, so Justin can get back to work.” Selena said.

“Bye Justin, I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?” Kaylie said so cutely.

“Okay, I’ll see you tomorrow bud.” I chuckled and she hugged me and I hugged her back before handing her to Selena. Selena put her in her car seat in the back seat and shut the door.

“Thank you for taking Kaylie tomorrow.” Selena smiled. “You know you really didn’t have to.”

“It’s no problem. It looks like she has grown on me.” I chuckled and Selena smiled.

“So I’ll drop her off around 10 in the morning tomorrow.” Selena said.

“Okay, see ya’ll tomorrow.” I smiled and I walked up to Selena giving her a quick hug, and to my surprise she hugged back.

Selena let go and smiled then got into her car.

I stepped away from her car and she backed out and I waved, and both girls waved, and Selena drove off.

I got into my truck, and drove back to the office which was a 15 minute drive.

Since I’m hanging with Kaylie tomorrow maybe I can ask her who her father is.

+

“Hi Mr. Bieber.”

“Hello.” I said to the woman at the front desk. I always forget her name, I just know she always tries to flirt with me, and when Sasha catches her, let’s just say it’s not a pretty sight.

I went up to my office and saw Sasha sitting in my chair with her feet up on my desk.

“What are you doing here?” I asked her.

“Thought I’d pay a visit to my wonderful boyfriend.” She smiled and got up wrapping her arms around my neck. But she pulled away.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

“Why do you smell like another girl?” Sasha snapped.

“Oh, it must be from Kaylie.” I said.

“Kaylie?” Sasha hissed. “And who is this Kaylie?”

“Um, a little girl?” I chuckled. “It was Selena’s daughter.” I said.

“Oh.” Sasha said feeling embarrassed. “Sorry.”

“It’s okay Sasha.” I chuckled. “Oh and by the way I’m kinda-sort of baby sitting Kaylie tomorrow.” I said.

“Why?” Sasha asked confused.

“Because Selena is going out looking for jobs tomorrow, and doesn’t want to lug around Kaylie. And plus when we were about to leave lunch, Kaylie nearly cried when she found out I was leaving. So Kaylie and I are gonna have a new friendship day tomorrow.” I said. “And plus it’ll be a good chance for me to ask her who her father is.” I said.

“And why you wanna know that?”

“Just curious.” I said. “All I know is that, Selena told me, every time a guy found out she had a daughter, they would bail. Only one stayed and they dated for about two years.” I said.

“Um Justin—“Sasha began.

“Yeah?” I asked raising a brow.

“Never mind.” Sasha said shaking her head. “Anyways can I use your credit card. Me and the girls are going shopping and I saw some shoes I was dying to get!” Sasha said excitedly.

“But babe, didn’t you buy some shoes you were dying to get like 3 days ago? Oh and did I mention they cost me $300!” I said.

“Please.” Sasha begged.

“Sasha,” I said her name sternly.

“I guess you don’t love me.” Sasha sighed.

“Babe, were did you get that non-sense? Of course I love you!” I said. Sasha put her head down looking at the ground and I groaned. I pulled out my wallet from my back pocket and took out my card. “Here” I said.

“Yay,” Sasha cheered, “Thank you babe.” She smiled, kissed me on the cheek, and then sped walk out of my office.

Why do I fall for that all the time?

I shook my head and walked over to my desk and sat down in my chair and pulled out my phone deciding to call Ryan because I knew he would be on break too.

“Hello?”

“Hey Ryan, what’s up?”

“Nothing man. Just on my way to get some lunch. Speaking of lunch how was yours with Selena?”

“How did you know—“

“Remember, Selena and Demi are bestfriends, Demi and I date.” Ryan chuckled.

“Oh yeah.” I laughed. “But it was good. I’m actually babysitting Selena’s daughter, Kaylie tomorrow.”

“Wait, you’re babysitting Kaylie? How did this happen?”

“Well right when we were about to leave lunch, Kaylie almost started crying saying she wanted to hang out with me more, so I told Selena I was off tomorrow, and just my luck Selena was going out job hunting and didn’t want to take Kaylie, so now I’m babysitting.” I said.

“Well have fun with that.” Ryan laughed.

“Oh I will. I’m gonna ask Kaylie some questions.” I said and Ryan stopped laughing.

“Like what?”

“Mainly who her father is.”

“Oh. But what if she doesn’t know?”

“I think Selena wouldn’t keep Kaylie’s father a secret from her.” I chuckled.

+

“Sasha I’m home!” I yelled through the house.

But she didn’t come running down the stairs.

I walked up to our room with my two shopping bags in hand and opened our door seeing our bed with nothing but boxes of shoes and shopping bags piled on each other.

“What the—“I began but looked up seeing Sasha in the room wearing a brand new gold dress that was cut off mid thigh.

“Oh hey Justin.” Sasha smiled.

I put my shopping bags down and stood there staring at her. “What is all this Sasha?” I asked.

“Oh I went shopping! You said I could go shopping with the girls.” She chuckled.

“Yeah, I thought you only need one pair of shoes Sasha! Not the entire damn store!” I snapped. “How much did this all cost? And why do you need a new dress?”

“Oh I was going out with the girls tonight.” She smirked.

I walked over to her and looked at the price tag that was still hanging from the dress.

“NINE HUNDRED DOLLARS!” I yelled breathless. I looked at her speechless. “ARE YOU SERIOUS?”

I went over to her bags and looked through seeing ten new dresses, some jeans, shorts, shirts, new bathing suits, at least twelve new pair of shoes, bottom line, the total price for all this was $8,500.00.

“EIGHT GRAND ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!” I yelled.

“Relax Justin, its just money.”

“Eight thousand I have to PAY BACK!” I snapped. “IT’S A CREDIT CARD NOT A DEBIT CARD!”

“Ooh, so are you saying I could have gotten the matching bag to this dress?” She asked and I groaned.

“Take all this shit back!” I snapped.

“This stuff is not shit!” She snapped back.

“Apparently since it cost me an arm and a leg!” I said sarcastically.

“Why are you freaking out over non-sense?” Sasha said and she ripped the tag off the dress she was wearing and began applying some lipstick.

“NON-SENSE? SASHA YOU SPENT OVER EIGHT THOUSAND DOLLARS!” I yelled trying to make my point. Spending three hundred dollars is no where compared to eight thousand dollars.

Sasha rolled her eyes and ignored me. “And what did you buy?” She snickered.

I was confused but she pointed to the two bags I had put down when I entered.

“They’re toys I bought for Kaylie so she wouldn’t be bored here tomorrow.” I said. “They didn’t cost me no damn eight thousand dollars!” I said.

“Yeah, but you bought toys for another woman’s daughter! Actually your ex’s daughter.” She snapped. 

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Sasha you are just one bitter gold digging bitch who needs to get over the fact Selena got Justin’s dick before you did ^.^ 

Tbh is Justin stupid, like seriously…Kaylie…Justin…….Wouldn’t you see the resemblance? 

Ya’ll be lucky to get chapter 5 before Friday, because now it’s getting harder and harder to make these damn chapters longer for some reason ugh. I need to go into writing mode asap. 

Inbox me your opinions lovely (: and there’s a difference between telling me your opinion and telling me exactly what to write/hating on my writing skills. Think before you inbox. Anyways thank you all for the nice messages telling me you love the story so far, there’s a smile on my face that won’t go away now. Seriously my readers are the best 38+ notes in less than 2 hours? Naaaah. Lmao Kay love you all xo

Oh and sorry if I get Kaylie’s or Gracie’s name mixed up. Like it’s actually hard and confusing to remember Kaylie is the baby here, not Gracie. 

10

(Requested) Can I have a dirty Calum imagine please?

My imagination. Wow..That’s all I can say. x

•The crowd whistled and chanted your name as you spun around the pole, coming down into a split. Giggling to yourself, a man with a long neared slammed his beer onto the stage-inching you closer with his finger. Having a feeling of distaste inside, you pushed your feelings aside and mischievously crawled over to him.

“W-why don’t y-you come a-nd sit on papas lap?” He slurred obviously equally hammered as his howling friends. Swiping your hair to one side of your neck, you stood up and jumped on his lap. People tossing money everywhere with pleasure. Bringing your hand up to squeeze his jaw, you growled-feeling money being tucked into your lingerie.

“You like that huh?-” you teased, slowly bucking your hips on his lap. He nodded as you pulled his head back and kissed his neck before taking the wad of money out his pocket, standing up. But the smirk was quickly wiped off your face when you looked up at the entrance-seeing Calum and his friends.

After a year of dating, your feelings for him were real. And somehow you always managed to avoid the question of your occupation. Laughing it off, or reverting his attention to something else…Calum wouldn’t press you on it-but you could tell it was bothering him lately. And you had planned on telling him soon. Soon turned into now.
Calum had ordered a drink and you just stared at him in shock, before his eyes found you in the crowded room. Hurt and shock running through them. He clenched his jaw and suddenly turned around to leave.

Panicking, you ran off the stage after him. People whining and calling you back, but you had more important issues right now.

“Calum! Cal! Wait.” You called, running outside. You caught up with him, with watery eyes.
“Please just hear me out.”

“There’s nothing for you to fucking say Y/N! Why wouldn’t you tell me that you were a stripper?!”

“Because I didn’t want you to look at me..like you are now. If I told you that I take my clothes off for people, would you accept that as a noble job Cal? No.” You tried to explain the revealing situation.

“Bullshit Y/N and you know it! All the times I asked you what your job was and you ignored that fact. I would t love you any less. And what’s worse-I had to find out like this!? You grinding on other men.” He snapped with disgust on his chiseled features.

You but your quivering lip shaking your head.
“What about you Cal? A strip club?..” You raised an eyebrow in question, hugging your arms over your exposed chest. Sighing before nearing towards you, he lifted your chin. Connecting in a long kiss. You pulled away, resting your head against his.

“Come on.” You whispered, sliding your hand down to hold his. Calum looked at you as if you were crazy for wanting to go back inside, after the argument you just had.
“I’m still on the clock, and tonight you’re my customer.” You confirmed in his ear before walking back into the club.

Music blasted as colorful lights flickered. Michael, Luke, and Ashton caught sight of the two of you. Looking at you with surprised reactions. You simply winked at them, leading Calum up the stairs to the VIP sections. Pushing the pink drapery aside, you let go of his hand to secure them shut.

Your heels clicked against the floors before coming up to straddle his waist. Sitting on the big couch, Calum licked his lips and squeezed your waist.

“You look undeniably sexy in that outfit.” He spoke, kissing your ear down to your neck. Closing your eyes you let out a shaky breath. His cold fingers unclasped your lace braw, your nipples hard against the touch of air.

“And I’m all yours.” You confirmed, fisting his black hair. Whispering your name his lips slid to your chest, sucking on your nipples.

“God..” You moaned. Carefully lifting up his black-ripped shirt, you tossed it aside and kissed him again. This time with a territorial battle of lust. He turned you over onto your back. Your hair fanning out onto the red sofa. The colorful strobe lights added to the fuel of Calum’s desire, as he pulled your panties down. Kissing down your legs. You giggled and flexed your black pumps, him lifting your legs to settle over his shoulders.

“Y/N…” He cooed, slapping your thigh.
“Make sure they know that only I get to have this beautiful body of yours…” He said. His voice scratchy with security. His lips enclosed around your dampness, licking a thin stripe up to your belly button.

“Shit..” You stammered, squeezing your legs shut around his head.
“Cal!” You moaned as he ate you out rapidly flicking his tongue up and down your clit. Knowing that it’d make you squirm. He pinned your hips down, groaning against you.

Moaning out loud, you pulled at the ends of his hair focusing on the amazing feeling.

“I-I’m gonna-”

“Cum for me.” Calum cut you off, sucking before pulling away with a loud ‘pop.’ You screamed when he slammed two fingers inside you, curling them up to tickle your gspot.

“CALUM!! You gasped pressing your heels into his back, shaking as you released into his mouth. Sweat rolled down your chest as you lovingly admired the view of his tattoos, pulling him back up. Clasping your fingers into his, you giggled.

"What?” He chuckled biting your lip.

“I never realized that you were finger fucking me with your moms name on your hand.” You grinned. Giving you a naughty wink, he sat up and brushed himself against your entrance.

“What my mother doesn’t know, won’t hurt her…” He growled before thrusting into you all the way. Not having time to adjust properly, you clawed at his back with a moan. Arching your back, your chest meeting his as he kissed your neck with a moan.

“F-faster Cal…” You purred, biting his shoulder to keep from moaning too loudly. Gripping onto the arm of the chair, he went faster and deeper. Every thrust making you wetter and weaker.

“Y/N…you feel fucking amazing. Fuck!” He let out a horny laugh, gasping as your legs hugged him closer. The angle allowing him to press into you deeper. The sound of his wet skin against yours turned both of you on without a doubt. The club lights flickering with exotic colors of red and black.

“HARDER!” You screamed out, clawing at his smooth skin. Letting a scolding string of foul language admit from his plump lips, he lowered his head into the crook of your neck. Thrusting even faster at an uncontainable pace. You clenched and unclenched around his pulsating member, both of you cumming with an unexpected scream of eachothers name.

“AH! Damn.” You took a deep breath, falling back into the soft cushion with a smile. Calum kissed you passionately, holding your face in his hands. You made out as he left a few more sloppy thrust inside you, before pulling out. His erection still rock hard as he continued to cum, he bit his lip.

“Don’t worry babe. That desert is all Mine.” You winked, patting his thigh. Sitting up and throwing your legs to the side of the couch, your heels coming in contact with the floor again. You dropped to your knees Infront of Calum-his dark eyes locking on yours. Making sure to keep his gaze, you held his hand. Guiding his fingers up to fist your hair and keep it out of your face.

“Fuck. Suck me already princess. I wanna feel your lips around me…” He slurred, showing anxiousness and need. Blushing at his subtle compliment, you licked thin stripes up his shaft. Using one hand to pump in a steady rhythm, enjoying the up tempo music being blasted.

“You like that Cal?” You cooed innocently, his chest rose and fell with desire. His eyes showing fire of lustful wishes.

“Fuck yes!” He groaned with gritted teeth when you finally enclosed your lips around his length. Slowly deep throating all of him. Coming up for air, you panted before massaging his balls-him twitching in your hand. You could tell he was close to another climax by the way he started to tremble in your hand.

Knowing that dirty talk was Calum’s kink, and it’d always send him over the edge-you sucked harder. Squeezing his inner thigh.

“Mmm…I love you Cal. I want you to release everything into my mouth. Punish me for being a dirty little slut tonight.” You said before pumping faster. And sucking more as he pushed your head down with approval. Wanting more, he tossed his head back and mumbled something in a different language. Chinese. You giggled going faster;

“SHIT! Y-you’re such a whore babe-god!” He whined trailing off before closing his eyes. When his member hit the back of your throat, you moaned around him making him orgasm.

“YES Y/N YESSSS-” he panted, running his fingers through his mangled hair. Brushing the hair from your face, you sat on his lap and kissed him again. Savoring the flavor he produced, capturing every detail of his tongue against yours.

“But I’m your whore.” You confirmed, lazily grinding against his member. It was as if it had a heartbeat of it’s own, him still a fixated mess after your activities.

“I love you..” He said, extending his neck to peck your lips when you stood up. Smiling sweetly back at him you started getting dressed.

“Consider that session on the house.” You playfully winked, as he squeezed your bum. Enjoying his lingering view, he kept touching you as you walked back downstairs. Wiping the lipstick from his lips, your hair was a mess. Calum’s locks sticking up in every direction.

You locked your finger in the loop of his jeans, walking over to Ashton, Luke, and Michael. They looked at the two of you with wavering questions and confusion. You laughed and kissed Calum’s cheek.

“Sorry guys, I was given an offer I couldn’t refuse…” He wiggled his eyebrows, looking you up then down. Rolling your eyes and looking at the time; you still had an hour before your shift ended…

“Do we even want to know?” Ashton inquired.

You shook your head, grabbing the olive from his cocktail. Pulling it off the toothpick inbetween your teeth, you patted their backs.

“I still have some time left before I get off…Enjoy the show boys.” You waved as you walked back towards the stage, to finish what you started.

Will I See You Again? (Part 8)

This is a continuation of Will I See You Again? which you can find HERE. 

Will I See You Again? (Part 2) is HERE

Will I See You Again? (Part 3) is HERE

Will I See You Again? (Part 4) is HERE

Will I See You Again? (Part 5) is HERE

Will I See You Again? (Part 6) is HERE

Will I See You Again (Part 7) is HERE

Will I See You Again was originally just a one shot but I’ve made it into a long fic ;3

Hope you like it, jwalkerz ~

This is a short update, I’m sorrrrrry :c

I also am really sorry about the wait for this one!

-Admin Kitty

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 It had been a day since you’d spoke to him, but it felt like forever. Your heart felt heavy everytime you checked your phone and you didn’t have a message. It was stupid, because you knew it was your choice to distance yourselves from eachother. You picked up the phone once or twice as the evening went on, but everytime you did you had to remind yourself about the fact he didn’t love you. He didn’t love you, and that’s why it couldn’t work…It could never work. Your phone buzzed loudly and the screen lit up as you sat infront of the television eating noodles. You lunged for it, only finding a message from your network saying you should upgrade. You threw your phone onto the other side of the sofa, sighing. Once or twice, you actually picked up the phone, about to call. But before you even got as far as finding his number in your contacts, you remembered why you couldn’t call. And how there was nothing really to say. ————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————— “What’s up with you?” Brooke poked your arm as you ate tea at the table in the little kitchen in your apartment, that evening. Your head snapped up, “I’m fine.”
She eyed you, “Are you sure? You’ve barely smiled since I came through the door.” You smiled, “No, I’m fine…Really.” “Really?” “Yes! I’m fine, okay?” You rolled your eyes and she laughed, seeming to accept it. But you weren’t fine. Jay would be boarding a plane to Europe tomorrow morning and you wondered if he was even going to come and say goodbye. You scolded yourself mentally - you had asked for this. You had asked for a break, you had asked for space and he had given you it. But somehow, you only felt more and more hurt and annoyed. Did he not care enough to try and see you? You wanted him to fight for you, to call you up and say he didn’t want a break, that he loved you, that he needed you. But he didn’t do any of that and as the hours passed by and the clock turned to 11pm, you fell into bed feeling hopeless. You’d lost him. You’d really lost him. You cried and listened to sad music and watched trash tv you didn’t care about until you couldn’t keep yourself upright any longer. Your eyelids drooped and you fell asleep, your eyes sore from crying and your heart hurting.  ————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————— You drove to his apartment in the rain, frantically searching for the place. When you got there, you leaped out only to hear voices coming out of the house. You ran around the side of the road and hid behind a bush in your hurry. Peering out, your breath coming out in fog, you watched two silhouetted figures descend down the drive way. They were stood closely and as they fell more and more into your view, you realized one of them was Jay. He looked good. Wife beater and denim jeans and styled hair. Your heart stopped when you realized the other was a girl. She had a beautiful figure, curvy in all the right places. She pressed right up against him and he leaned into her. Your heart faltered and then set off in a blindingly fast rage. He had cheated on me. “________?” Your name was called by a familiar voice. You whirled around and that’s when the whole scenery changed and you found yourself in the tiny glow of your night light in the corner of your room, lay in bed. It had been a dream. Wait…then why had I heard Jay’s voice? You thought to yourself. “Wha…” You murmured as your eyes came to focus on a figure stood in the doorway of your room. “________, it’s me.” A soft voice said. The figure wore jeans, familiar ones and a thin black shirt with rolled up sleeves. His hair was unstyled as if he’d been running his fingers through them repeatedly. You wished you could touch it, it looked so soft. Your eyes fell on his face and your heart stopped. “J-Jay?” You squeaked, sitting up. He rubbed his jaw, “Yeah, hey."  You hadn’t heard his voice in a couple days and you have forgot how beautiful it sounded. It made you want to just leap up and kiss him, but you stopped yourself. You couldn’t do that anymore, you were supposed to be giving eachother space. In the glow from your night light, you saw him give you a small, almost embarrassed smile. "What are you doing here?” You rubbed your eyes and looked at the clock, “It’s 2:30am!” But what you really wanted to say was, stay. But you couldn’t. You had chose to take a break, and you had made the right choice. He was probably just coming over to pick up things he had left at yours, you thought to yourself sadly. He let out a weird laugh, “Yeah, I know…” “How did you….Wha…” You trailed off, trying to understand why he was stood in the middle of your room in the middle of the night. If you were being honest with yourself, you were just glad he was hear. You didn’t want to ask these questions, you just wanted him to get into bed and cuddle you. But you knew too well he wouldn’t. He scratched his hair, “You always leave your key under the mat…” “Why…” You stared at him, still dumbfounded. His eyes fell on you and his brow furrowed, “I had to talk to you.” “Could this not wait until morning? You could have just called me tomorrow when you were on the plane.” You tried to avoid looking into his eyes for too long or looking at his lips because it made you want to throw your arms around him and tell him everything was fine. But it wasn’t and you wouldn’t lie to him. He shook his head, “No, I wouldn’t ever do this over the phone.” Your heart set off in a panic…Do what? Was he going to break up with you? Before he went away for a week doing gigs? So he could meet someone else? A pit fell in your stomach as you realized it could be true. “Do what?” You stuttered over your words, wrapping your duvet around yourself tighter. He sighed, “Just, come here, will you?” He knelt down at the end of your bed so you were eye height and patted the spot on the edge of the bed infront of him. Without saying anything, you carefully disentangled yourself from your covers and sat down on top of them. “Come here.” He said a little softer, taking your ankles and pulling you towards him slowly, letting you go when your legs hung off the bed and dangled on either side of his hips. Without looking at you, he reached out and took your left hand, and then your right, bringing them infront of you on the bedsheets and cradling them in his own much bigger ones. He ran his fingers over your knuckles slowly, making your hands tingle in happiness at his touch you had missed so much.  Your voice caught as you said, “What did you want to say?” And you bit back tears at the idea this might be the last time you ever saw him. He took a moment to reply and then he said, “Baby…” He was trying to let you down softly, and it was breaking you inside, but you tried not to show it. “Will you just tell me?” He continued fiddling with your fingers, “______….” He wasn’t looking at you so you gained enough confidence to reach out and tuck a finger under his chin, slowly lifting his face up so he would have to look at you. You instantly regretted it as soon as you saw his eyes. What you found was his soft eyes and you couldn’t help but imagine the way they crinkled up when he laughed. The way they changed serious before he kissed you and the way they grew even softer when he would comfort you. But, his eyes had something you’d never seen in them before. Something more curious than you couldn’t put your finger on. He was serious, yes, but there was no confidence to the way they wavered from looking into your eyes. He looked almost…shy.  “Jay?” You prompted him with a whisper, letting your hand hesitantly rest on his cheek just to make sure he didn’t look away again. “______, I…” He sounded quieter than ever. You couldn’t bare it, you wish he’d just get it over with. If he was going to break up with you, you wish he’d just do it, instead of letting your heart shatter piece by piece like this. He took a deep breath and looked you dead on in the eyes, “…I love you.” Your breath caught in your throat and you croaked, “What?” He blushed deeply, to your surprise, and you tried not to smile, you had to know if he meant it. You didn’t want to get your hopes up. And then, he gave you this big smile and whispered, “I love you.” “Really?” He nodded slowly, his smile deepening, “Really.” You put your hands over your mouth, trying to hide your goofy smile as your vision blurred slightly and tears started to escape your eyes. His grin widened, taking your hands away from your face and holding them in his again, “Why are you crying?” He let go of your hand and caught a tear, chuckling, “You’re meant to be happy.” You let out an embarrassed laugh at the fact you were now crying as hepulled you against his chest and you let him. You let your hand run over the smooth material of his shirt and clutch a little bit of it, smiling into his shoulder. When he pulled away slightly, he looked at you, still grinning widely. And then you couldn’t help it. You pulled him to you quickly and slammed your lips against his as you both felt eachother smile against eachother’s lips. When the kiss finished, you pulled him down onto the bed so you could wrap your arms around his shoulders. He shifted his weight onto his elbows on either side of you so he wouldn’t crush you and he could look at you properly. You eyed his curiously as he interlaced your fingers on your right hand with his, “Why didn’t you just tell me this before?” He sighed, “I-I’ve said it before and not really meant it and I didn’t want it to be like that with you.” His face turned a light shade of pink, “I wanted it to be special.” You let a smile escape your lips, “It was.” He beamed and kissed your lips, “I’m glad.” Then his smile stopped in his tracks as he said, “But I am sorry I woke you up at half 2.” You whispered, “I can’t say I minded…” Then you giggled, “Jay, you blushed.” He looked at you shocked, “Y-you noticed..that?” You teased him, the biggest grin on your face, “Oh how the tables have turned, Jay!” He reached down with his free hand to poke you softly in the stomach as he muttered, “Shutup…” You laughed more and then kissed his nose, “It was cute.” Then you frowned, “You’re going to have to leave soon to go home and pack aren’t you?” He was leaving at 5am for the airport so you knew he probably did have to leave. He sighed, frowning, but then his frown turned into a cheeky smile, “I could stay, if you want?” “You can do that?” He nodded, “If you want…I mean, if we can’t see eachother for the whole week we could atleast see eachother now.” It was a bitter sweet feeling, he was yours, but he was leaving, “Okay.” He grinned and dropped back ontop of you, winding his arms around your waist so he could cuddle up to you. It wasn’t long before you both fell asleep.