i said i was dreaming big

Get to Know You Tag

Tagged by: @bear-a-soul  Thank you!! :-D

How old are you?: 30

Dream job: No idea. I stay at home and do house/errand stuff, and I like that.

What are you talented at? My husband just said “ordering people around,” when I asked. It’s true. I guess I’d say writing. How I feel about that changes from day to day though!

What is a big goal you are working towards (or have already achieved)? My biggest goal was to go to/graduate college, since none of my family had. I did do that already!

What’s your aesthetic? Ummmmmmmm, depends on the day!

Do you collect anything? Nightmare Before Christmas merch, Dragon Age merch, bears (me too @bear-a-soul!), candles (unintentionally on the candles)

What’s a topic you’re always up to talk about? My characters, Sims in general, Dragon Age, Dan Smith/Bastille, hot dudes in general probably.

What’s a pet peeve of yours? People not using headphones and watching videos/listening to music in restaurants.

Good advice to give? This is SO cliché, but really, be you. Don’t change yourself for others when there’s nothing wrong with you… especially when it’s something like your sexuality, gender identity, culture, etc.

Recommend 3 songs: 

Bastille - Warmth (Live At Capitol Studios)

X Ambassadors – Feather

Animal – Badflower

Brutally honest hour.

A. If I’m in love

B. Last person I talked on the phone with

C. How long has it been since I’ve kissed?

D. If I have a preference for boys or girls?

E. How many piercings?

F. Give me any options like “hot or cold”

G. Last person said “I love you” to

H. Last person I hugged

I. Last time I felt jealous and why

J. Are you insecure? What about?

K. My full name

L. Siblings?

M. If I forgive betrayal?

N. Favorite animal?

O. Where I’d like to travel?

P. Music I like

Q. Favorite flower

R. Is cheating ever okay?

S. 2 hobbies

T. 3 things you love unconditionally

U. Favorite time of the year and why?
V. Big dreams?

W. If I’ve done something I regret very much

X. 3 turn ons

Y. 3 turn offs

Z. Ask any question you want

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“There’s a somebody I’m longing to see…”

BRUTALLY HONEST HOUR

A. If I’m in love

B. Last person I talked on the phone with

C. How long has it been since I’ve kissed?

D. If I have a preference for boys or girls?

E. How many piercings?

F. Give me any options like “hot or cold”

G. Last person said “I love you” to

H. Last person I hugged

I. Last time I felt jealous and why

J. Are you insecure? What about?

K. My full name

L. Siblings?

M. If I forgive betrayal?

N. Favorite animal?

O. Where I’d like to travel?

P. Music I like

Q. Favorite flower

R. Is cheating ever okay?

S. 2 hobbies

T. 3 things you love unconditionally

U. Favorite time of the year and why?

V. Big dreams?

W. If I’ve done something I regret very much

X. 3 turn ons

Y. 3 turn offs

Z. Ask any question you want

“It’s only you,” whispered Orphan Girl. She was holding his hand crouched down next to him. “Why do you hate you?”
Ronan thought about it.
The albino night horror swept in, talons opening.
Ronan stood up, stretching out his arm like he would to Chainsaw.
“I don’t,” he said.
And he woke up.

I’m reading The Raven Cycle this summer and falling in love with it. This was my favorite scene in The Dream Thieves. Like. an actual thrill shot through my heart when I read it.

Creating a Curly-Haired Community with Nia Pettitt

What inspires you to feel #PerfectlyMe? Use the hashtag to share your story.

Londoner Nia Pettitt (@frogirlginny) is building a curly-haired global community. “I have been able to connect with thousands of people over something as simple as hair,” says the 19-year-old student who organizes “FroDay” meetups around the world, encouraging others to embrace their natural curls. “I specialize in cutting curly hair and restoring love to it. I only do it part-time, but my dream is to eventually pursue this passion.” Nia said goodbye to straighteners in her early teens and let her hair blossom. “I want people to feel like they are beautiful regardless of their ‘flaws,’” says Nia. “The thing that makes me #PerfectlyMe is my soul because it is vibrant. I am like a sunflower. I project light to others. I stand out because of my big curly hair and I am strong.”

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Speaking of dreams come true….. :D

So! After visa problems, busy days, long flight i managed to go to Adelaide and meet Benedict Cumberbatch!

The photo session was crowded and very fast i was unprepared. No props allowed so i will keep my clay for Sydney. Hope they will let me take a picture with it next time.

So i stood there waiting for my turn, he looked very very beautiful in person! Gosh! Then…my turn! He said how are you, i answered hello (duh!!) he put his (big) hand on my shoulder and i put my hand on his…hip! :P I thanked him and that’s it. Thank God the pic was ok! :D

The autograph session also very crowded but that was my chance to show him my work. I brought a collage of my favorite cupcake picture and asked him to sign it.

On default he signed it but then he stopped, checked my pic and then i told him i made all the muffins. He said wow then looked at me, shook my hands and asked whether we’ve met before ( i think he was referring to Aki in Cabin Pressure recording lol) i answered no then we chatted a bit about where i come from then he said you deserved this and he wrote the message:

You are brilliant and have amused the world with your creations

He looked at his own “beautiful” handwriting and said i read it out loud for you lol. Then I thanked him, walked away shaking omg! Love how he spend more time talking to me. Thanks again B, you are too lovely.

Then the panel! I sat on the second row great view great Q&A too. Funny comments about the bug inside his wine. But i was so distracted when he touched his thigh all the time and he massaged his mineral water bottle. Suddenly I want to be the bottle :D hmmm..

Overall it has been a greaaattt experience, love meeting lots of new fellow cumbercollective too. B, wait until you see the clay in Sydney hope u like it, see you again!!

I just took a nap after work and had a weird dream where Jasper was hired by the hospital I am working at just to push these huge food trolleys and bring them to their destinations but instead of pushing it she just BENCHED THEM UP AND CARRIED 1 ON EACH ARM while wearing jeans with suspenders. The director told her she was a really big help and she said: “That’s part of my redemption.” You go Jasper, good work

What happens when you fail your first year at Uni?

The short answer: Nothing really. The long answer: A whole lot happens. Its like mourning the death of something you love. Entering university you get this idea that you are going to pursue something that you are so passionate about. And how can you really fail at something you are passionate about? Something that you love, and something that you spend 3 years of high school fighting to get, and something that had always been your dream. 

Now entering medical school I really thought that this was going to be easy, I know that is ridiculous to think, however, as said, something that I loved so much seemed to me as being something really easy to overcome. However it wasn’t. 

I could already from the start sense that this was not going to be as I had imagined. It was a lot more difficult. And it really was a big, big difference from high school. And so failing, was not an enjoyable thing that happened to me. Especially when everyone around you passed. 

So ofcourse the feeling of disappointment started to occur, the feeling of being dumb came alive and the thought that maybe I was not cut out for university started to be a daily question. Yet, I did what I could. I started studying again, this time aware of the mistakes that I did before. Mistakes like, not really focusing correctly, and just being in love with the thought of being in university. Mistakes like skipping chapters because “whatever I will come back to it” - which never happened. 

Now was there any benefit to failing then? Yes, there were many! Here are a few of them: 

  1. Learning more. I know it sounds like such a cliche “I failed, but now I know so much more” but you truly do. Getting to read the material once again, however focusing on your weakness and using your strength to build that up is actually really helpful and it makes you understand the topics so much more. 
  2. You discover your ideal study methods. I did study ALOT before the exam which I failed, however I believe that being new to university I still had not uncovered my ideal study method. Yes I did do well in high school with the study methods that I used, however studying at university and high school is not the same. And that is a very challenging fact to face, but going through the whole process of figuring out how you learn the best way possible is a very long process however it will sculp you and prepare you for the rest of your time at university. 
  3. Prepare yourself for everything. Failing from the beginning already gives you the idea that everything is possible. As someone who had straight A’s like the common medical student, you often find yourself thinking that failure is not possible. So when it becomes a reality, it helps you get prepared for most of the struggles that you will face for the rest of your life. Failure is a very natural part of being a human, and this actually helps you get that. 
  4. Discipline. Last but not least you learn how to set up a schedule and be more focused. It might be the push you needed. It was for me. 

Now last but not least, dont beat yourself down over failure. You will get past it, and you will come out stronger than ever. 

Belive in yourself, and never give up, 

Love, 

Dunia 

They tell me that living is like this: bills, three square meals a day, a hobby, and more bills. Sleeping in a bed with someone every night for 50+ years. Never dreaming too big.

There is a beast in me that hungers for more, more meaning, more depth, more ocean. Something colorful and loud.

They tell me that living is like this: going on proper dates with proper people, waiting to say I love you, waiting to feel.

Give me the most violent love I can take. Give me God’s angry fire. I can’t survive on air. The words I never said will strangle me in my sleep. I refuse to die in such a quiet way.

—  Flowers that grow in the dark, Scarlette La Vaillante
Big Black Cat
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  • Jamie Brown
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A love song from Carmilla to Laura!

Can I take you waltzing, like its 1695,

Never met someone like you in all of my 9 lives.

I’m feeling strange, only done this once before.

Here I am in love with the uptight girl on my university floor.

I know my major is philosophy

But all I can think of is you and me,

I know you’re having all these weird dreams,

And I act like a nightmare but I’m not all that I seem.

How ironic, you’ve sunk your claws into my skin,

Broke down all my doors and somehow let yourself in,

I guess it’s true opposites do attract,

You’ve took my damaged heart and so far kept it intact.

You’ve took the damaged heart of this big old black cat.

You’d think that after hundreds of years walking this world,

I wouldn’t be so phased by an nineteen year old girl,

Mother was so wrong when she said I’d never love again,

Cause I can’t stop clinging on to this yellow pillow that belongs in her bed.

How ironic, you’ve sunk your claws into my skin,

Broke down all my doors and somehow let yourself in,

I guess it’s true opposites do attract,

You’ve took my damaged heart and so far kept it intact.

I can’t believe you’ve done it, no one’s ever done that,

You’ve took the damaged heart of this big black cat.

Sun x Moon Life Mottos, part 2/3
  • Aries Sun, Aquarius Moon: "I won't let you close enough to hurt me."
  • Taurus Sun, Virgo Moon: "The very things that hold you down are going to lift you up."
  • Gemini Sun, Aquarius Moon: "I already know I'm going to hell. At this point it's either go big or go home."
  • Cancer Sun, Scorpio Moon: "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
  • Leo Sun, Aquarius Moon: "I'm almost never serious, and am always too serious. Too deep, too shallow. Too sensitive, too cold hearted. I am like a collection of paradoxes."
  • Virgo Sun, Pisces Moon: "Don't just dream it, be it."
  • Libra Sun, Virgo Moon: "So you plant your garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers."
  • Scorpio Sun, Pisces Moon: "Some people just can't fit into your life, no matter how much you want them to."
  • Capricorn Sun, Aries Moon: "Stay close to anything that makes you glad you're alive."
  • Aquarius Sun, Gemini Moon: "You were born an original, don't die a copy."
  • Pisces Sun, Pisces Moon: "So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."

I had told my mom that I had paid off her mortgage. That was something when I first started working and I was making money, I was speaking with a business manager and they said, ‘you should invest your money. What do you want to do with it?’ And I said, first thing is I want to pay off my mom’s mortgage. They said it was going to be a long time before I could afford to do that, but that’s what we worked towards. Every couple of months I’d check in, 'do we have enough yet?’ And then eventually he was like, you can afford to pay your mom’s mortgage. We did all the paperwork and stuff and it was a big secret to be sitting on for so long. But yeah, it was definitely one of the best moments of my life. It’s like, what any kid dreams of being able to do for your parent and I feel very lucky that I actually had the opportunity to do that.

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Big Bang has lots of talents? No. We are people who strive hard for our dreams. Before our debut, people said we were going to be the idols who sing ‘Hip-Hop,’ we are the ones who have loads of talents… However, I think that we are not only these, we are the ones who try to exceed our own limits with our hard work and let them blossom into beautiful flowers. People said I do all the parts for the albums since I compose songs, write lyrics and arrange them. Do you think it is true? I don’t. We all work so hard to show our own colours via the songs. We don’t know what means by ‘enough, that’s okay already,’ when we are in the studio. We will only stop until we find our own colors in the songs. - G-Dragon, “Shout Out to the World”

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GOOD MORNING WORLD!!!!!!!
This is it! Make it count and kick ass! :)
T.D. Remy

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“I can’t say enough about Natalie. She’s very intelligent, as a person, but she didn’t let her intelligence stand in the way of embodying this lively, complex woman. We asked her to step up to the plate, and she stepped up to the plate big-time. She was hurt by a couple of negative notices at the end of season one, I think, when she was dismissed as being a bit of fluff, as just playing your typically manipulative, scheming bitch, and that was all she was capable of portraying. She came to us and said, ‘Would you throw everything at me this season? I want to show them that that’s not true, that I can do it.’ Well, over the course of the season, either directly or indirectly or in dreams, she’s drowned, stabbed, burned and beheaded; she loses two children; she loses her life at a very young age; she loses Henry; she realizes that her father has abused and manipulated her. She has to go through many, many things, and Natalie did it. She really did it.
“Natalie, I hope, I trust, has a great career ahead of her.”


~ Michael Hirst about Natalie 

The video follows people of different backgrounds passing an envelope to each other, the contents of which aren’t revealed until the end.

“The way it weaved through people’s lives, we’re all interconnected,” Rivera told BuzzFeed. “We wanted to make it fluid and beautiful.”

She said the story mattered to her personally. “Aside from being a Latina, my family immigrated from Puerto Rico and Yugoslavia so I know all about that,” she said. “I wouldn’t be able to do what I do today if they didn’t come to America. Everybody has an immigration story.”

Rivera was interested in making a stylized video, complete with 360 degree shots, that took take place in New York City. “I felt like for this story it just made sense,” she said. “New York is such a melting pot, it’s a place where dreams are made.”

Rivera said the political side of the immigration debate can sometimes take away from the big picture. “Immigration shows how beautiful America is as a country, how diverse it is,” she said. “It’s what you get when you have different cultures in one place. If everybody thought that way [immigration] would be more of a no-brainer.” x

i never want to stop rereading what sorachi said about why he created gintama the way it was.. that his hero didn’t need a great big shounen dream because people don’t need big dreams to live through life and how he proved that he can make an amazing series without a main character that ‘’followed their dreams’’ like those other shounen heroes. he made a series filled with characters that live through their lives day by day without knowing exactly what their goal is and saying that’s ok and thats just how life can be like…thank you for giving us characters that we could relate to and a series that brings us never-ending joy and inspiring quotes about how to live life beautifully 

thank you sorachi 

Second Glance

Summary: You were ready to finally confess to the boy of your dream, Baekhyun. But maybe he isn’t the right one for you.
Members: Sehun x Reader (featuring Baekhyun)
Type: Angst/Fluff
Length: 2,253 Words

I really hope you guys like this scenario. Remember, sometimes the person you are meant to be with is not the first person you talk to. <3

-Admin Kat

Originally posted by luderella

“I just… I don’t really… feel that way about you…” Baekhyun said quietly. You stared up at him with big eyes and could feel the tears building up at the back of your eyes. You kept the smile on your face. Your arms were sore from holding up the bento box you had made especially for him. You nodded your head. The silence of the room seemed to stretch out longer than you thought possible. You had asked him to meet you in homeroom during lunch. You thought it would be romantic that way, like in all the animes. Make him a bento box with a cute heart sticky-note that confessed your feelings for him.

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“What do you want?” He said as he frustratedly ran his fingers through his hair, almost like he was tired of the conversation.

“I want love,” she replied venomously.
“I want that great big beautiful kind of love. I want conversations where we talk about our dreams at 2am and whether or not we think the stars hold our destiny. I want to be able to tell you about my favourite books or songs without you dismissing me. I want to be able to tell you anything without judgement, I don’t want to be scared of saying certain things because perhaps I say the wrong thing and you make me feel like I’m fucking nothing to you. I want to be loved. I want that hopeless romantic love that everyone swears doesn’t exist but we exceed in proving them wrong because we are so god damn in love with each other that nothing else matters as long as we’re together. I want to not give a crap about my future as long as I end up with you. I want that.
I want you to care, but you don’t.”

—  Beautiful eyes with careless hearts / excerpt of a book I’ll never write