i remember being in love with this fandom like 4 years ago!!

Hey look at you, kid! Now in a fandom that has a confirmed, canon, aro ace character.

I bet you are ready to jump into that trash pile of a TV show now! Wait, the writers are queer baiting both the bi, ace, and aromantic community? Well, 2017 is a series of unfortunate events, isn’t it?

You might not know me, I pre-date “THE DISCOURSE” and I know all too well both who keeps certain fandoms alive and who tries to come in to bully binary breakers. If you (luckily) missed out Dragon Age bull shit because you were happily reading comics, I’m here to help.

To prevent assholes from pissing on your enjoyment I suggest the following. Aphobes know what they are doing. This isn’t years ago, where you kindly explain their bigotry, or aggressively point out all the -isms they are doing. They’ve doxed people, they’ve suicide baited, they’ve stalked, so on, and so on. This is 2017. It’s nazi punching season, don’t go into anything thinking you can convince them off their bigoted rock.

If you want to engage, do so. But please mind the emotional wear. If you were using the comics or the show as escapism, don’t pick this battle with them. There are so many battles to be had. I’m not here to demand anything, but I am here to tell you how to avoid the thing you love being painfully and forcefully ruined on you.  

Step 1: No platform the assholes
Don’t engage. They want your attention. They like seeing people hurt. They are in the ace positivity tags because they want to attack you.

Step 2: Block the assholes
Here’s a list. I’m normally the last to block people, but those who uphold oppressive systems attack from all sides. You don’t owe your attention to anyone. It’s far too easy to see 50 shades of bullshit by breakfast.

Step 3: Block nasty anons
If they came into your ask box, they are asking directly for your attention. Deny them it. Tumblr lets you block anons. Do so.

Step 4: Remember that Jughead is canonically aro ace.
They are the ones with the theories. They are the ones without confirmation. They are the ones ripping labels off queer characters to apply their own. Fuck what they say, this character is yours. This isn’t to embolden you, this is a reminder not to fight those who have no power in this situation. If you are in a fighting mood, attack systems, not their people.

Stay safe, I’m rooting for you.

My hero- A Jasper Hale Imagine

A/N: I hope you don’t mind but instead of a oneshot I turned it into an imagine with (Y/N) instead of Bella’s name. I took five requests in hopes for a longer more detailed imagine. Thank you all so much for your patience, I know you are all going to really like this. 

Originally posted by cute-guysxx

Request #1: Jasper x Bella oneshot, Bella meets Jasper as a kid post in the park and he helps her get home over the years he appears in her life comforting her and being nice , she thinks he’s an imaginary friend . She moves to forks Washington and sees him in school and she thinks she’s going crazy . But when she’s almost hit by Tyler’s truck he saves her and she realizes he’s real and it’s basically the first chapter of twilight rewritten with Jasper. Please

Request #2: Ok so I’m 15 and I still sometimes get really paranoid abt things being under my bed or something (ok it’s super embarrassing) but could u do an imagine abt like jasper coming to put his human mate to sleep and finding her really scared Bc she thinks there is a monster under her bed and then he checks and comforts her and tells her stories of his past life until she falls asleep? Thanks. Love ur blog g😍

Request #3: I’m so happy you’re still active. Do you still take requests? If so, could you write one where jasper saves the reader from a group of men? Kind of like when Bella was about to be attached in the second book. Maybe some angst, then some jasper fluff?

Request #4:Could you write a Jasper x reader imagine where it’s like super fluffy and sweet? I can’t seem to find a huge amount of love for my precious baby in the fandom and I need some! Please and thank you 😊

Request #5:Could you write something with jasper where he’s you’re mate, and you’re human, and he’s super protective over you, especially with men. 

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Now this person answered this under this post and I’m curious about what they meant to be perfectly honest because I feel like they don’t understand the situation as we see it - as we’ve been seeing it since, haha, forever actually. Visibly they don’t understand why we, Jin Stans, are complaining about the lack of attention Jin gets (don’t hesitate to correct me if I’m wrong, really I’m curious about how these guys think).

Well let me tell you guys how I think about all of this. Seokjin is a beautiful, hard working, talented human being. He’s the visual of the group and has a very beautiful voice - he made me cry a lot with Awake, Eomma and I Love You. Yet he’s being slept on so fucking bad??? In almost every single song he has like, barely 3 lines. I could understand that back in the days when they were singing true, hard hip hop because his voice wasn’t really made for this type of songs but now? He could get so much more than what he has.

And now what do we see in Not Today? Well, haha, nothing actually. The boy has 1 second of screen time (best 1 second of my life) and he’s supposed to be their freaking visual remember? He also sings for 4 second in a 4 minute long song which is, hahaha, a ridiculously short amount of time??

And now the worst thing is : no one reacts? Literally last week the entire fandom imploded because Hobi got no lines in Spring Days (friendly reminders that the entire album is about him with the Outro, the Interlude, his gorgeous solo and BS&T so they don’t really get the right to complain) but when Jin’s left out “It’s okay guys, it’s just Jin so no one gives a shit” how in Hell is that fair? We see this situation negatively and we have the right to do so because Jin is a member of BTS, not a fucking back-up singer/dancer!

You see, this kind of person is the reason why the situation hasn’t changed over the past few years. These guys refuse to acknowledge how unfair bighit is to Jin, how talented this beautiful boy is, so nothing changes. And I’m pissed, and salty, and bitter about it because I’d like to see my bias more in MVs and I’d like to listen to his voice too! Because he worked his ass off to have such a pure and stable voice, so he deserves to be heard!

So there you have it. I could go like that for days but you probably stopped reading this a while ago, so I’ll shut up now and go reblog for the 100th time these 4 very short gifs we have of him from the Not Today MV. Have a good one.

TBBT: The Gyroscopic Collapse (10x23)

If you haven’t watched, SPOILERS ahead!!!

Omg!!! 😲😲😲 Mayor episode for Shamy lovers here and a wonderful episode all around. It has lingered in my mind ALL day and threw me into total fangirl mode! 🚑 In my top 3 now, for sure!!! Some random thoughts will follow but mostly in-depth discussion of Pasadena's favorite power couple. Be forewarned, it will probably be like Sheldon’s list of Comic-Con guests. 😂 I will start with a short summary and then dive into it. If you just want the Shamy goodness, jump to 4.

1. Celebration around the kitchen island in 4A:

The episode starts with the gang all reunited in good spirits. Happiness was bubbling out as the guy’s boasted of their accomplishments, except for left out Raj. I couldn’t help feeling nostalgic at the view seeing that our favorite cast is close to being off the air during their usual summer hiatus and knowing there is one episode left this season. 😢 And while I’m looking forward to the next episode, I’m also drafting the hiatus. Also, I felt a bit sad that Raj can’t celebrate any accomplishment lately. I’ve said it before and will say it again, they need to do some justice to this character. Crossing fingers for the next 2 seasons for Raj. 

2. Next scenes:

While the girls spend time with Raj, the guys head to work. They are met with the disillusion that their project has been taken away from them after all the hard work. (That really does suck 😠). Seeing the guys return with their spirits deflated after having been so happy moments ago was crushing. Nothing ever goes quite right for our guys. 

In the meantime, we have learned that Raj is moving out and Amy has been offered the internship in Princeton. The guys return to share their bummer and after hearing Sheldon say he feels betrayed, Amy understandably clams up her news about the internship. (Her face throughout this whole scene says she was struggling with how to share this with Sheldon.) I am so glad for once no one let the secret out before she was ready to talk to Sheldon one on one.  

Raj’s news is shared and we learn that he will be moving into Bert’s garage. Not sure how I feel about this. Don’t get me wrong, I like Bert. But we have seen him various times in season 10 and in the meantime, I’m missing more action with Stuart and would love to see some of our other favorites guests. Where the hell are Wil and Kripke for example? I don’t know, mixed feeling. It could bring comedic value but I don’t think it will do much to develop Raj’s character more.

BONUS: Leonard’s line after entering the wrong apartment: She might disappear but she’s definitely not cleaning. LMAO!!!

3. Howardette, clingy and adorable:

Howie vents to his wife who tried to console him with Neil Diamond. He refuses thinking it will get Bernie “sexed up”. 😂 Bernadette's face reads more like “yeah, right”. The rest of the episode we get clingy Howard who wants to snuggle his wife to death and a Bernadette that cringes to his every effort.

It’s funny but oh-so-cute! 😍 I love all the shows couples and enjoy when the writers explore these real dynamics in a realistic but positive way because I believe that conflict can also be growth opportunities. (Which is why I’ve had too many issues to discuss here with the way they are writing Lenny this season. I’m surprised (and grateful) they didn’t have them argue this episode again.

Bernie decides to have an honest conversation with her hubby about it and discovers in the process that she is more similar to her husband than she initially thought and has dealt thru similar circumstances in not the healthiest ways either. 😒 Funny how in relationships we are quick to notice when our partner is somehow walking a slippery slope but can’t see it in ourselves.

BONUS: Bernadette shares with the girls how Howard wanted to get a mammogram at the same time as her like if it was a couple’s massage. Lol. Really creepy but so damn hilarious. 😂😂😂

4. The cat is out of the bag:

Amy’s making Sheldon breakfast in their apartment. Sheldon is still visibly down regarding the quantum gyroscope. She doesn’t have the heart to break the news to him although she certainly was preparing everything to have that conversation. 

Mayim’s acting out of this scene is as real as it can get. While the script kept it light it also needed to portray her struggle. She managed both effectively with her facial expressions, her voice and her timing which were all perfect. 

Sheldon is able to appreciate Amy’s care in her gesture of not only making him oatmeal but making his favorite kind, plain. There is significance there. Plain because he feels comfort in familiarity. She is his secure “spot”. Keep this in mind with what’s about to develop. He’s hit with the realization of just how important she is to his life. Now, we the fandom knew this. But this was, I feel, an a-ha moment for Sheldon where he compliments her with these 4 lines:

You are so kind. (She’s the sweetest cinnamon roll to pure for this world)
I don’t know how I ever got by without you. (She’s the dryer sheets of his heart)
I’ve come to realize, I’m completely dependent on you. (Awww, he needs her)
To wake up every morning and know you are there is a great comfort to me. (She’s his oatmeal)

How do you do it? (I feel he meant all of the above and not just the oatmeal.)

Those are some heavy love declarations!!! Write that on a postcard and you have the most romantic letter ever. 😉 Each of these lines is delivered with raw honesty by Jim. They are subtle, intentional and sweet. By now I’m not only watching this to be entertained, my feels begin to act out and I’m praying this won’t turn into another cruel Molaro joke because Amy has deserved this for a long time. Poor girl is trying to comfort Sheldon and humbly downplays each compliment, afraid of his reaction and knowing this will be hard for him. 

Amy could’ve gotten away with this if it had been the Sheldon of years ago. But this Sheldon is in love with Amy. 😏 And he still can’t read social clues well with other people but with Amy is different. He knows something is off as soon as she doesn’t show enthusiasm for their own experiment.

Has something changed? Is there something you are not telling?

And she finally breaks the news after a perfectly timed pause.

And now it’s him with a perfectly timed pause. His face, omg!!! 😢

You could read it all in 2 seconds and my heart broke for him. 💔 Thank goodness for good writing, I cried but giggled in the same breath.

BONUS: “You have to go. This is important… So are you….” 🚑🚑🚑

5. Sheldon has the Blues (in an apartment as empty as his heart):

Raj and Leonard find a harmonica playing Sheldon with the blues because “my baby done left me”. BTW, love that Texan cowboy accent anytime. 🔥 Hoo! The guys are sweet and try to help until Raj accidentally suggests Sheldon can go back to his old room leading to a hilarious moment. Leonard asked to speak to him in the hallway and slammed the door in his face, LMAO!!! 😂😂😂 Mean but effective.

I really appreciated in this scene Leonard and Sheldon sitting on the floor and having a “man to man” talk. We get to remember that in spite of their differences, these 2 really bond and love each other like true brothers. 😊 Leonard was compassionate and showed concern. Sheldon was so sad! Still being Sheldon, he took Leonard to mean he needed to trick Amy into staying though. 😆 So glad he didn’t go that route.

6.  Loving and Supportive Boyfriend:

Sheldon enters the apartment with a good quality luggage presenting it as a peace offering of sorts. 

We all know he hates gift giving which made my heart flutter thinking he left the empty apartment with harmonica in his pocket, went to a store and told an employee how his girlfriend had to leave and he wanted the best luggage they had for her.This is exactly what happened - That’s why he said the salesman at the store had told him the luggage could survive a crash. 

Then he carried down the street with all eyes on him and up the stairs thinking every step of the way of what he would say to be supportive and how much he wanted to make love to her because he would miss her. 😢😢😢 Let THAT sink in. 😭😭😭 

He opens by explaining to Amy Leonard had pointed out how he wasn’t always loving and supportive. (Take you own advice, Leonard. Sheldon has come a long way.) He then lets her know “It’s a wonderful opportunity and you need to take it”. He knows this is important for her and unselfishly decides to let her go freely, earning him a sincere kiss from Amy which he gently returned stroking her arms. tears, tears, tears…..

What followed was the moment the fandom has been waiting for… Sheldon wants to make love to her and IT’S NOT HER BIRTHDAY. Coitus just because he wants to be intimate and wants to please her and be pleasured. He needs her and wants to, using his words, “make love”! Can you hear that??? The sound of fangirls yelling simultaneously near a heart attack! 🚑🚑🚑 HE FREAKING LED HER TO THE BEDROOM!!! 😲 BY THE HAND!!! 😲 INSERT OVARIES EXPLODING HERE… 💣💣💣💥💥💥 

If that wasn’t enough, their frenzied lovemaking turned out to be a moment we all wanted. Loud enough for Raj, Lenny and us to hear. It may be weird but I so wanted that because we are all Penny. By what we heard, they were having fun and getting freaky! (Btw, the naughty vixen totally rode that cowboy! 😉 Sorry. 🙊🙈🙉) 

BONUS: I’m just warning you, if you find yourself 3000 miles away craving a hit of this, I can’t Skype it to you. 😂😂😂 

7. It’s so hard to say goodbye: 

Sweet Shelley, being the southern gentleman he is, walks Amy down the stairs. He takes that opportunity to go over what he needs from her to make this separation more bearable. He wants her to: 

  • Text when she’s at the airport 
  • Text when she’s at the gate 
  • Text if she find GOT actors
  • Skype when she gets there Skype every morning
  • Remember he’s proud of her and supports her
  •  And of course, if she runs into another version of him but with Thor hair… step away and call him asap 

What he’s really saying is you haven’t left yet and I already miss you. 😍

In summary, a perfect episode with funny moments, great cast interactions, some sarcastic zingers we love, but also lots of character development and some fluffy scenes. I’m also so happy it was finally about Amy and in a good way. Thank you writers! 👐 

Plus, being the Sheldon lover I am, gym parsons body will kill me. His butt when he walks aways from Amy at breakfast, his arms and chest when he is kissing her, his hands caressing her arms and back, and of course, his sexy face and eyes when he says “or, we can fold them”!!! Hot Damn, he is fine AF!!!

Things for the writers to think about going forward are: how will Raj do with his upcoming living arrangement and will they finally address the development of his character? Will Lenny continue in a good place? How will Shamy do with the long distance thing? Will this be another revelation for Sheldon once he misses her enough or will this be another disaster waiting to happen - (I think they can get through this)? What will happen with the guys’ project? What will Howard do now that his money making idea is no longer his thing? Aaaaand, where the hell is Stuart, lol? 

DM if you need me and please, no spoilers in the comments of this review. A very special thanks to my lovely friend @platypus-quacks-too for some of the gifs. Timing wasn’t on our side for our usual collab but I’m grateful for the talented @tbbt-faves - whom I’m collaborating with for the first time and allowed me to use her gifs in this review. I have been a fan and follower and I’m thankful for her work and to have her blessing in using most of the gifs in this review. Go follow these talented people.

Bye fandom!! I will once again go into hiding/ninja mode until the finale. Read you all after that. Love you all!! 

Right in Front of Your Eyes - Part 2

Originally posted by thealextheshipper

Pairing: Peter Parker x Reader
Warnings: Angst, Fluff, all the feelings
Summary: After your parents were murdered mysteriously, you move in with your godfather Tony Stark, along the way your normal life will be turned upside down, due to a Mr Parker and being hit by a bus. It will all make sense eventually.
A/N: Basically, you are Jessica Drew but with your name and a slight twist. BTW you’re British, you’re welcome 😉
Word Count: 1800+

Intro | Part 1 |

I hate hospitals. Well, not the idea of saving people’s lives, but mainly the smells and people. The smell of antiseptic, death and misery is not something you can get used to, not being able to move from the waist down sucks, even more, I cried two days straight after I found out. Thanks to that bus I’m now paralysed from the waist down, but according to the doctors, Tony made it just in time with the news that he may have a solution. By that I mean, secretly he’s been trying to replicate Peter’s Spider-Man abilities to form some type of serum, yes, I know Spider Man’s identity, I sort of put two and two together, makes me feel slightly giddy that Peter’s girlfriend only thinks he’s working with Tony for a grant, and that I know more about Peter than she ever has done; what a shock that will be. Peter has been at the hospital with me from the start, I don’t know why, he says that we should ‘bond’ and now that I can’t walk, he knows I won’t run away. It’s funny really, he apologised straight after saying that, but I was in hysterics. Anyway, back to the serum; Tony asked me if it was okay to inject me with it, I said yes straight away before he could even tell me side effects, or even what would happen. I mean what else can I lose? (I really shouldn’t jinx myself, I mean I’m a disabled orphan for Christ’s sake). So, plans were made, which brings us to now. Looking at the clock I have 10 minutes until my life is going to change – again – For better or for worst.

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No Regrets - One Last Time

Not a request but a few of you ( @remybosslika @percywinchester27 @atc74 ) asked about their wedding so I have decided to make a few planning drabbles before actually writing the wedding drabble.

Pairing: Jensen x Reader

Warnings: Implied smut

Word Count: 629

A/N: This is a drabble complication. All drabbles fit into the universe I created for my Jensen x Reader series Living with Regrets. Most can be read as stand alone, but will also very much be part of the series.

This takes place a few months after part 9 of Living with Regrets. Jensen has asked Y/N to marry him and she has accepted. Finding out how and where the wedding is gonna be will be the next step.



“Mmmm,” you leaned back into Jensen as you felt his arms close around your waist. You had barely seen him all day. You shooting schedule was not syncing up too well these days, but at least that meant one of you was home with Becca at all time. Still you missed your fiancee.

“You smell so good,” Jensen hummed grazing his lips over your neck, making you shiver. “You taste amazing too.” You giggled as you felt him smirk against your skin, before finally remembering your plan.

Today was one month away from your wedding exactly and you had wanted to bring this up to him for a few weeks now, you had just lost your guts every time, but tonight, if you wanted it to happen, you had too.

You closed your eyes, enjoying his lips on your skin for a few seconds longer before you pulled away from him. Jensen looked at you with a confused, questioning look on his face and you bit your lip to keep yourself from laughing. It wasn’t like you to refuse him. You loved being with him as much as he loved being with you and the next month was going to be equally torturous for both of you. If he agreed to it that was.

You took a deep breath, taking his hand leading him to sit down on the bed besides you. “There’s something I want to talk to you about,” you started making Jensen frown slightly.

“Okay that sounds serious?” Jensen gave your hand a small squeeze and you smiled.

“No it’s nothing bad. It’s just… we are getting married in a month today and I kinda was our wedding night to be special,” you tried but Jensen looked as confused as he did when you stopped his ministrations a few moments ago.

“It will be sweetheart,” he tried to assure you before you shook your head, determent to make him understand you.

“No I… I want us to wait until we are married,” you bit your lip nervously looking at him as your intentions slowly dawned on him.

“Wait as in… Sweetheart we kinda already rung that bell. I mean we got a 4 year old in the other room to prove it,” Jensen teased you, making you grab a pillow and fling it at his face.

“Okay forget it,” you sulked throwing yourself down on the bed with your back against him, feeling like a complete idiot for bringing this up in the first place.

You instantly felt Jensen lying down behind you, wrapping his arm around your middle and pulling you flush against his. He pressed his lips against your hair, muttering quietly against it, “sorry Y/N/N. I didn’t mean too… I mean I don’t love the idea but if you want us to stop having sex until we are married then I won’t push you. I love you.”

You turned around in his arms looking into his green worried eyes. You smiled, once again realizing there was nothing he wouldn’t do for you and how much he hated seeing you upset.

“I want you to agree with me and if you don’t then we won’t,” you spoke softly, “it is not a punishment. I love you too, Jay. More than you know.”

Jensen smiled leaning into the hand you placed against his cheek, “how about a compromise then? One last night and then we wait?”

You nodded and smiled when you saw the light in Jensen’s eyes as he rolled you beneath him.

“Oh I am gonna savor this honey,” Jensen promised, kissing his way up your neck, gently biting your ear, making you giggle and wrap your arms around him. One month even with tonight was not going to be easy on either of you….

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anonymous asked:

Hi there jessica! Do you see a reunion of olicity before the season ends?


…Were you looking for a bit more? ;)

Ok, but I’m going to add a couple of other asks to this because they’re very similar and no point writing out the same reply 5 different ways (2 have been in my inbox for too long, oops):

“Hello; read your posts, really liked your explanations but I’m worrying. I don’t see how Olicity could reunite by ep20! Won’t they need more time?! They’ve already taken so long. Since they’re following S3, they could sleep together, especially if they go on the run together. Saw a theory that they go Lian Yu? That would be interesting. Would fit with them running. What do you think’s going to happen?”

“Hi! There have been a lot of theories about Olicity this season. Do you really think season 5 is paralleling season 3?”

“Hey Jessica! So what do you think about the Olicity love scene being a flashback?”

“What about Oliver’s dark spiral? SA said he’s going to be resigned to his fate; won’t that affect a possible reunion?”

Wow! I see: it’s THAT time of year! (I’ll do my best!)

Here’s the meat of it: since they broke up, I have been 100% certain that Olicity would get back together but I wasn’t always certain of when until last October (2016). I figured they’d be sending the wrong kind of message to have them take 2 or 3 seasons to reunite; as if they were the type of couple who couldn’t work through their differences and that ONLY time apart could heal them.

Time apart – factually – would kill them.

It’s part of the reason why she stayed with him in episode 4.23.

But until last year, I was the type of reviewer that didn’t think or consider the content of the shows I watch. I should have done because I missed so many clues. I took Psychology (a lifetime ago and am rusty as heck so don’t expect any profiling, you’ll be disappointed ;)) and I loved English literature; I know what a thematic analysis is etc, so… shouldn’t I have known better?

I have my own life but Arrow – this fandom – is where I go to replenish, so to speak. It’s where my brain switches off. To escape for a while. But it became more than that during season 4. Suddenly it was this hopeful symbol; the idea, however naïve, that love prevails and that trust can be earned, that even when things look so very bad, they can always get better. Naïve, right?

Because then Oliver and Felicity broke up and my mind just kind of went… ‘what’?

Too much heart. Not enough brain :)

I was too involved in what I was watching and sometimes you need to take several steps back and actually connect some dots: I used to be so good at that. But it had been years and I’d forgotten how. But then I found @louiseblue1 and her insights; these on top of @jbuffyangel reviews and her fabulous way of understanding narrative flows, Cali’s knack for hitting the head of every nail out there and @dust2dust34 @so-caffeinated natural understanding of Oliver Queen, gave me a kind of swift subconscious kick to the head that I needed to pull back a bit and really look at the show the way it needed to be looked at.

(I will fully admit that I’ve needed Bre and @callistawolf to bring me back from a major huff and puff once or twice this year too;))

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I say this because I want you to understand that I’m just going off what I now see. I may not be right. But until proven otherwise, I’m sticking to the near-invisible threads we’ve been watching so far this season.

Do I think they’ll reunite by season end? Yes. Absolutely. Since Diggle asked Oliver that question in episode 1, about whether his life would personally involve Felicity Smoak in future (OF COURSE IT WILL), to which he answered ‘I don’t know’.

Since then.

There are other reasons why I do but as the above questions don’t ask for them, I’m going to save you the many pages I’d write about them ;)

Okay! *rubs hands together* episode 20…

Why are people assuming they WILL reunite episode 20?

Has there been a spoiler saying they will?

I’d LOVE it but I think we’ve learned pretty damn well that expecting anything to happen will only end in disappointment.

Just because its episode 20, it doesn’t mean they’re following season 3 to the letter. I’ve had a few asks that have made it very clear to me that people are expecting a LITERAL – not just a figurative – 3.20 parallel for episode 5.20.

Please don’t.

Season 5’s parallels to season 3 are absolutely present and we should pay attention to them but they also haven’t been quite so obvious thus far as to copy season 3’s progression.

The obvious parallel is that Felicity is – in a different kind of slide into darkness – sort of doing a ‘season 3 Oliver Queen’. But mostly, it’s been in the little things. And the symbolic things.

For instance, I highly doubt O + F are going to go away together to someplace in episode 20, have some life affirming sex (I’D LOVE IT THOUGH), say I love you and have Oliver leave her to face her horrible fate… just like a 3.20 parallel. Like a copy and paste, just switching character placements.

I don’t think I like that idea. It feels cheap. This deserves to be handled properly; no rushing.

For one thing, from the spoilers, I think they’re trapped – not necessarily running - and the team needs to save them (remember that pick of Echo propelling down that shaft?). I think they’ll be alone together.

As I theorized in my post (an hour or a day), I think they’re going to air everything out in this episode. Big time. They’ll have no choice because they’re trapped but to face each other. They’ll have no choice because with out it, moving forwards will be impossible for them. And though I have no idea what would come of it I do know that by itself is supremely different to what happened with them 3.20. That was an ‘I love you’ and a ‘goodbye’. A physical representation of repressed feelings coming to the surface.

Oliver and Felicity have always been magical at communicating without words, which was why sex was the obvious conclusion in 3.20.

But THIS time? They NEED to flipping talk.

Originally posted by gothsmoak

And sometimes? Talking is an intimacy – and an openness - unto itself that even sex cannot reach.

I think they need to reach that final level with each other; the level where two people meet in the center and understand each other completely. They’re going to connect. Really connect, one soul to another (cheesy I know), or that’s what I hope for. I mean, there really is no other choice for these two.

They’ve ruined each other for anyone else.

Felicity found a boyfriend in Billy, because it wasn’t a chance to take (she wasn’t risking her heart, she was defending it); he was an escape option and a shield. It was her saying ‘look how fine I am’? ‘I’m absolutely over Oliver Queen’. ‘He can do whatever he likes too’. ‘No I don’t think about him every second of the day’…

It’s human. And it’s painful. And it’s sad. It’s natural. It tells us just how much she isn’t passed it all.

Oliver found Snoozan who, like Billy, doesn’t quite fit the title of girlfriend.

Neither Oliver or Felicity – or ANY other character – has really been able to refer to Billy/Snoozan as their boyfriend/girlfriend respectively which delights me.

Oliver has been routine in his belief that he isn’t good enough for Felicity since season 3 (a bit of 2 as well), so he settled for whatever life threw at him this year (HIS WORDS IN EPSIDOE 5). Life threw Snoozan at him and he went along for the ride.


Originally posted by thedis4design

Both Felicity and Oliver developed feelings for these two but I promise you now, those feelings aren’t lasting. Nor are they romantic love.

They’re both these tools for O + F to try with.

These attempts failed horrifically.

Billy was killed by Oliver, a deliberate attempt of Adrian’s to prove him the monster he keeps inferring he is and Snoozan and Oliver broke because of secrets he refused to share hoping she’d just believe in him anyway.

Which she didn’t.

(Funny, we all thought Oliver would tell her his secret etc but he didn’t even come close and he CHOOSE that; it’s why he questions what he was even thinking getting involved with her. I’ll tell you Oliver; you were lonely and desperate for someone to see a man instead of the monster you think you are. Poor guy.)

Because, when you spend enough time with someone you develop feelings for them. It’s only natural. But it also makes me feel sorry for Billy and Snoozan (not really) because neither Oliver nor Felicity chose them because they were attracted to them, or because they were tempted, or because they even liked them.

Felicity was hiding. Oliver was settling. Both were looking for comfort.

How flattering.

Which ultimately makes both these relationships utterly unimportant.

AND it explains how stiff Oliver was after sleeping with Snoozan and the feeling that Felicity wasn’t completely present with Billy after they’d done the same.

Now timing has been ridiculous on this show; sometimes the pacing makes sense, sometimes it doesn’t. Maybe the flashback will explain more as to the why’s of their behaviour. But, really, one episode is all they need. OF COURSE THERE’S TIME.

Olicity has spent the season decidedly NOT talking. And it HAS to be for a reason. They used to always talk. Now they don’t. Why did they make that choice? A choice that has obviously hurt them both.

Just as the flashback sex HAS to be for a reason. As great as it is that they will show this, they wouldn’t do it without a reason. I’m guessing that whatever happened between them between S4 and 5, explains their behaviour this season. There’s been a ‘we’re completely fine’ air about them both that feels off (we know SA and EBR are fab actors so this is deliberate). Eventually ‘fine’ won’t cut it for either of them.

They’re already coming close to their attempt at pretending that they’re fine, shattering into little pieces.


Originally posted by firelordasami

We’re already seeing the signs in episodes 15 and 16.

Notice Felicity’s physical and verbal responses to him? They’re a bit softer. There’s a lack of defensiveness about her person that made me grin. His focus on her in episode 16 broke through a wall and it surprised her. I think she’s building up to a conclusion.

And Oliver? He’s started concentrating on her again, directing his thoughts to her – I MEAN SNOOZAN WAS TAKEN AND HE WAS ALL ‘NO THAT DOESN’T MATTER; I’M WORRIED ABOUT YOU’ - like he can’t help himself. But his path – because of Adrian – is about to get ten times darker.

Like I said in my post, I think he’ll break. I also think there is a chance Felicity might too for a different reason and in a very different way. But in this regard I also think that, in this respect, she’s stronger than Oliver. Maybe she knows more than we think she does about Helix.

But him breaking will test EVERYONE, including the team. (Maybe that’s why episode 18 is called disbanded *shrugs*)

The sex scene being a flashback isn’t a problem for me.

But when I first discovered it, I will admit to thinking DAMN! WHY NOT IN THE PRESENT? LET THEM VENT IT OUT! BRING ON THE SEX; ALL THE SEX!!

But… at this stage, without really connecting again, wouldn’t that kind of physical explosion just hurt them? It wouldn’t be an answer. Maybe AFTER they talked.

Plus, flashback sex proves neither could keep their hands off each other during the summer. How gratifying.

But I’ve also heard some people saying that their perception of the sex being a flashback is Arrow’s way of telling the fandom that Olicity really are a thing of the past. Dear God, why waste ANY sex scene on them if they were saying goodbye to them.

Why trap them together?

Why claim it’s a big Olicity episode?

Why would the climax of the season be anything but that: a CLIMAX. Something we’ve been waiting for.

Look at season 1: Oliver and Laurel, after spending most of the season apart (seriously, their scenes were few and far between and absent of romantic emotions) suddenly (because it was abrupt, no lead up or anything other than Laurel throwing herself at Oliver right after he lies and tells her what she wants to hear), have sex. Episode 21.

It’s VERY possible. Probable even. There’s no way they’re saying goodbye to Olicity. James Bamford even confirmed (last year) @jbuffyangel theory about them relearning each other. How better to know someone than to walk in their footsteps?

MG asked us to be patient.

WM said that there were some storyline they could only do if they were apart and they were obligated to do them, even if we didn’t like them.

Other than that, we don’t really have enough info to say for sure about what, when, where, how… and I expect to be proven wrong at some point.

Whether they go to Lian Yu or not, I’m also clueless.

But I want to point out something.

True love, fun and bedroom antics…

These are Stephen’s words about the nature of Oliver and Felicity’s season 4 relationship and they make so many things clear in where they may be heading. He didn’t need to clarify that: he offered it. We’ve learned a fundamental truth about our Captain this year:

Everything Stephen says is deliberate. EVERYTHING he says is honest (sometimes you just have to dig or filter or read between the lines):

He brought up the Russian Vodka sex, which I’m sure, was meant to be a joke (I thought it was) but we know has been confirmed thanks to JB for the flash back sequence. And notice how he behaved when he said it – the slight ‘it’s important but I’m going to coolly play off’ shrug thing and slight smile – and the way Emily looked at him, like she was dying not to laugh.

He brought up killing Billy BEFORE episode 1 even aired. Yes, it was another joke, but he referenced it at least 2 more times afterwards. And Oliver did kill Billy.

Bu that quote made it clear that their relationship in season 4 was fundamentally lacking something. The words are great but a relationship doesn’t last from embracing only the good things.

They learned how to fight in season 3.

In season 4 they learned how to live together.

In season 5 maybe they’ll finally learn how to UNDERSTAND each other.

It gives them room to grow as a couple too. It suggests that once they achieve this, then that will be it. When they get back together, maybe they’ll never break again (*fingers crossed*).

He also stressed that Oliver KNOWS he’s at fault for their breakup (to all the people hating MG’s interview recently where he said that Felicity’s lack of understanding is was broke them up, please be aware we only received a partial interview and that he was talking technically – Felicity DID break them up but the reason why they broke up was Oliver’s, that was the point).

Now, why would Stephen do that? Why would he also say that she was right to break up with him, that it was only choice for her to make? She needed to learn something this year and I think she is. I think they’re going to focus on this. Soon. Because they have too; they can’t leave this hanging in the air.

Stephen also said that we shouldn’t stop hoping for them.

AND he has said that there’s a reason for the way Oliver’s been acting this year…

So I looked back at how he’s been acting. He’s content in a way, but not happy. More brutal. Tougher. A better manipulator, lonelier, more understanding and ethically confused. Tired. Like a constant cognitive dissonance. Felicity told him that he was in a schism. He still is in one.

Season 3 had him choose between the Arrow and Oliver Queen. He chose the former. Season 4 had him discovering how to be Oliver. Season 5 has had him try to merge these two identity’s but he can’t because he has a third. The monster. Where every other aspect of himself is defeated by this creature of violence and death and destruction. The man we’ve been seeing in the Bratva flashbacks. The thing created from placing a man in hostile environments for years and having him claw his way out. Only, he never really did.

He never left.

Originally posted by olivergifs

I think that’s what Adrian is trying to reveal to Oliver; that his true self is this monster. Stephen added that Oliver will be resigned to his fate after episode 17. I think Prometheus is going to somehow convince him – manipulate and mind screw with him – that he can’t change his fate: a fate to be a monster who lives alone.

(Can’t wait to discover this secret he wants Oliver to reveal to him!)

This season NEEDS Oliver to find a way to merge his identities. To see the light again and I don’t think that’s possible without Felicity Smoak.

Originally posted by felicityssoliver

So yes, I feel very good about a reunion. Due to how the season has run, I don’t expect one until episode 23 but I do feel that episode 20 will be one for the books!

I know I ranted. It’s a problem. But I cannot WAIT for this episode (well I can but it’s very difficult) because WHATEVER happens - BAD OR GOOD - will be a culmination of the events leading up to it – with Oliver a broken and Felicity making morally ambiguous choices - and I for one am super excited to see how it plays out!

The Contest-Part 17

To celebrate Supernatural’s 15th season, the producers have decided to hold a contest to cast an unknown in a recurring role as Sam’s rumored love interest.  They are doing open casting calls all over the country.  Your best friend Nikki wants to go and she drags you along.

A/N: My inspiration for Nikki is the one and only red, @oriona75.  So I am actually telling two stories here, Jared and Readers, and Sam and Gemini’s.  It flips back and forth, so try and keep up! :)

Characters: Jared Padalecki, Reader, Best friend Nikki(OC) Jensen Ackles, Misha Collins, Mark Sheppard, PA Emily (OC) Cliff, Other Supernatural cast and crew

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Part 1 (all parts are linked)

Jared, Jensen and I flew back to Vancouver the night before shooting resumed for the second half of the season.  I was still reeling from my conversation with Nikki.  

She had texted me while we were in the airport.  

I’m back.  I’m at Misha’s.  Come find me.

As soon as the three of us got in we tossed our stuff in Jared’s apartment and headed over to Misha’s.  I knocked on the door impatiently.  When Nikki opened it, I launched myself at her.  “What the hell Nikki!  Are you trying to kill me?”

“Believe me, we are just as surprised as you.” She assured me.

“I am still trying to wrap my head around the idea of an even smaller version of you.” Jensen said as he gave her a hug.

When Misha came out of the kitchen I grinned at him.  “The idea of a person who is half you and half Nikki terrifies me frankly.”

“I hope it’s a redhead.” Misha said.

“Does your Mom know?” I asked Nikki.

“She is over the goddamn moon! It was all I could do to stop her from coming out here immediately.” Nik said with a groan.

“Oh before I forget, Y/N, I got an email from Andrew Dabb.  He and Bob want to meet with you at 1 PM tomorrow.” 

“Maybe they are going to finally tell me how Gemini exits in a blaze of glory?” I joked.

“Probably saving Sam’s sorry ass!” Jensen commented as Jared punched him.

“Hey, I’m Sam-fucking Winchester! I don’t need saving!” Jared said indignantly.

I smiled sadly at Nikki.  “I guess it’s the beginning of the end.”

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I’m sorry for my late replies as always. Thank you for being patient and bearing with me.


Hi anon! Again, I hate saying the same thing over and over again but I still have to do it. I’m sorry anon, I really have memory of a goldfish. Like whenever I see things I remember like the overall idea of it in my head, but the details are always nowhere to be found. So I’m really sorry that I’m not that capable… However, I did try to find it in my shitty mind and only remembered one scene.

At ~1:15 when Jungkook’s hand was about to go over or touch Jimin’s hand the scene got cut.

2 other cuts found by other shippers that are:

At 5:03 when Jungkook looked back at Jimin lying on the ground the scene got cut (people suspected Jimin’s hand was on Jungkook’s butt but I have no comment on this, I don’t have eagle eyes so…)

I also heard that there was cut in I Need U or Run M/V Making but I really have no idea about it…

But I guess I should’ve worded myself better. Besides from scenes being cut, we also notice these days they’re kinda separated (in fansigns they rarely sat next to each other anymore, they don’t do things together without a 3rd person or sth of that sort), but again I’m not really into this matter, it just passed my mind and then went away.

Also in this video at ~4:05-4:09 it seems like Jimin was holding Jungkook’s hand but somehow it’s not vivid in the frame…

Yeah, again, I’m sorry, that’s the best I can do in relation to this matter… Perhaps you can try asking other shippers, maybe they know much better. I’m so sorry, anon TT_TT. And welcome to our fandom, I hope you have a nice time here and stay here for a long long time with us 🐥🐰🍀


Hello there~~~, thank you for reminding me of this. Like at some point I wanna talk about it  but thanks to my absentmindedness, I never got to. Ha, I’m such a goldfish 🐠🐠 (I can’t find goldfish icon anywhere TT_TT).

Okay back to our main topic, I don’t have much thoughts tbh, but one very important thing which affects me the most is that Jungkook didn’t deny it. Sure he said Jimin said weird things etc., but he didn’t say it wasn’t true. The Jungkook now would probably say things like “Aniya~ (No)” with a smile/smirk on his face which no one believes tbh (When Jungkook says sth confidently he’s lying by Jimin), but Jungkook back then was shy. I’m not an expert in reading facial expressions and gestures, so I can’t confirm this, but I’ve seen people saying Jungkook touches/scratches his nose when he’s nervous, which he did after Jimin was about to be done speaking. If you think in that direction then he was probably uneasy hearing Jimin exposing him. And our Jimin has always been a tease, he’s been exposing his baby since then. You’re probably right, Jimin sure enjoys it whenever Jungkook shows his affection towards Jimin (even tho he tries not to be so obvious about it sometimes).

Also, thank youuuu, you make a point there! I mean, like someone asked me about Jungkook cuddling with Taehyung while sleeping in Bon Voyage, and in that car I think we saw Hobi cuddled with Jungkook to sleep too? So there’s really nothing weird with them hugging each other to sleep and stuff, why did Jungkook say that Jimin said weird things? Unless it was weird because the other was Jimin… And he kinda splutter (?) there when he said Jimin was weird too. And that awkward Ha ha ha clearly didn’t help either. However, I don’t wanna look into too much detail because it could be that the truth ain’t that deep, perhaps he hadn’t been exposed hugging his hyungs to sleep before, so he was embarrassed when Jimin said it out loud in front of Armys. Overanalyzation can also be a problem…

But how Jungkook reacted was kinda weird, for real.

Ah, that reminds me of this moment I mentioned before, when the radio host asked about Jimin’s love for Jungkook and Taehyung said he thought Jimin liked guys/men, and Jimin didn’t deny this either. This was around INU era too…

I’m good, I’m fine…

In short, I guess we can conclude it as, Jimin said Jungkook hugged him to sleep, and Jungkook didn’t deny it => Jungkook did hug Jimin to sleep back then (~2 years ago). Who knows what they do now, who knows… 😶😶🙈🙈

What we know is that Jungkook is not a shy baby around Jimin anymore with those constant butt slap butt grab chest touch etc. etc.

Originally posted by cookimiki

Thank you so much for sending me this interesting ask, anon. Please feel free to come back and discuss about Jikook/Kookmin with me. I hope you’re somehow satisfied with this answer. Love ♥


MOM HOLY FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!Please excuse the fact that the thing above looks like it was made in 2 minutes (because it was) I’m still pretty flustered about this all jfdks

Anyway, lordy jesus, its been nearly two years since this blog has been up??? Time flies. I can remember when I first decided to dive headfirst into the Indie scene with this blog and with Riku as a character in general. NGL I was legit a nervous wreck, because I’ve always just been apart of fandoms specifically and I didn’t???? Know what to do lol. But slowly, I branched out. Gained lots of amazing friends, lost some, saw some amazing characters that still hold themselves near and dear to my heart. I as well as Ri have experienced many things, many feelings, and none of which is regretted. 

I hope you continue to follow my progression with this nerd child and make you totes not regret having her on your dash jkds;

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Title: Óhræddr 

Fandom: Vikings

Characters: Ragnarssons and Njæla

Pairing: Named OC Njæla x Ubbe Ragnarsson

Warnings: Mentions of rape, abuse, torture, blood, violence, sex and cursing.

Rating: NSFW [some chapters]

Summary: Njæla is the daughter of Rollo and Siggy, since her father’s betrayal and him abandoning her, she being cast out by the society of Kattegat. With an abused soul and wounded pride she leaves to live alone in the mountains far away from the memories of a family she once had. When the news comes of the destroyed settlement in England, the Ragnarssons convince her to return to her once home. With Ragnar’s returns to Kattgat, Njæla gets pulled in a game of politics, betrayal and revenge. 

Words: 1350

Note: I do not own the GIF nor the characters of History Vikings. The timeline of the episodes can be slightly changed

                                        Vikings season 4 episode 10

                           Since the day of my birth, my death began its walk.                                                      It is walking toward me, without hurrying. 

The strong spring wind still had the bitter undertone of winter in it. Harsh waves of cold wind hit Njæla’s face as she sat on top of one of the mossed stones that was still damp of the morning dawn. Her legs were cold and her muscles were clenched tight to her body, if someone attacked her now she would have no chance. Her fingers were strapped tight around her bow and she breathed out slowly, watching the damp clouds of her warmth fade away.

Njæla did not mind the waiting, she had built a patience in the past years that even the Sun envied. She only regretted the cold, nothing burns like the cold.

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The Appeal of Sherlock Holmes

So a couple of days ago @materialofonebeing messaged me, saying that we shared the same 6 months anniversary in the Holmes fandom and asked the excellent question as to what might have been so appealing about it that we’d both fallen so quickly in love with it all.

I don’t have an answer, but I thought it was an awesome question to extend to all of you as I’d love to hear your thoughts.

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Hetalia Fandom Hub March Interview: @aph-belarusia!

An award-winning writer who, let’s face it, is probably the actual APH Romania answers our questions!

Hiya! Can you quickly introduce yourself for everyone?

Hello everyone! My name is Sayu, I’m 24 years old and I’m in college studying Languages and Literatures.

I’m a fanfic writer and perhaps some of you may know me from my long and detailed historical/eerie fics featuring rare pairings.

How long have you been in the fandom and how did you get into it?

10 years I think?

I found a doodle made by Himaruya with the Axis and the Allies and I instantly got curious.

I’ve always loved history so I thought it would be a perfect chance of seeing all the world nations represented along with their history and traditions.

I knew that the anime would have its premiere in a month or so and as such, I waited impatiently for that day.

I distinctly remember watching the first episode on the day it aired on a strange Chinese website that I magically found. Raw and everything.

I could have waited for the subtitled version but no I had to watch it immediately.

Unbeknownst to me, I probably signed a contract with Himaruya on that day, promising to him my soul and complete devotion to his creation and after all these years later I’m still here.

You’ve been in the fandom a long time! What has been your proudest moment over the years?

The first moment was when I overcame my fear of showing my works to the public and it was all because of this fandom. Only four years ago I decided to share a fanfic for everyone to see and up until that moment no one had ever seen my writing.

It was a moment on which I felt extremely proud of myself, I had nothing to fear, my words had value.

The second moment was the whole Hetalia Fandom Awards hosted by this blog. 

I’m the first person to admit that I am tremendously insecure about my writing. I push myself to the limit until it reaches perfection but I never think that it is enough. And since I don’t think it is enough I assume that others will think the same.

When the awards started I was not even aware of it but @missbelgium was the first person to nominate me for writer of the year and suddenly other people started to nominate and vote for me. 

I was in awe. In all honesty I never thought I could win but I was already so happy that so many people supported me and understood my hard work and appreciated it that I felt like a winner already. 

Then I won. I cried actually. Not because of my victory but because I saw my growth as an author from four years ago until now. 

My hard work had been worth it, I managed to reach people with my words.

What is your favourite thing about Hetalia?

Probably how mutable the time plot and each character personality can be, plus how creative I can be with that premise.

As a literature student I always pay attention not only the works that I read but also to the period they were written and what characteristics can be found on the author’s writing that cause them to be so unique.

I guess I always bring that sort of mentality with me when dealing with this fandom.

It is true that the characters do have their basic traits and dynamic personalities and I’m always very careful when dealing with those, as I want to be sure that I’m not butchering their individuality but as history is always in a constant change then, in my point of view, so will the characters and their attitudes and points of view.

I always like to give them depth and not merely just stick with the basic portrayal.

As for the characters that have little to none development by Himaruya I consider them as a blank canvas on which I can start building them as I please after I make the proper researches on the countries’ history, folklore, costumes and everything.

It’s really amusing for me to portray all the different mindsets of each character and make them interact with each other.

What kind of research do you recommend for people who want to build upon Himaruya’s less-developed characters as well?

This question is very subjective, I have my methods while other people will certainly have theirs and it also depends on what the artist/writer is more interested in developing but I’m more than happy to give some tips.

The first thing I do when I want to develop a less developed is to check if there’s any entry on Kitawiki about them even if it is only basic information. That way I can avoid mischaracterizing the said character and it also serves me a guide line for their construction. 

I personally spend an enormous amount of time researching about the country’s history. I dare say that I spend more time researching than actually writing on my fic. 

That being said, Encyclopaedia Britannica has to be one of my elite websites for my researches. I find it to be way more reliable than Wikipedia and it covers several topics with an extremely detailed accuracy. I highly recommend it.

Google Scholar is also a precious help if you want to explore some topics even further. There’s plenty of thesis and books available for consulting that can be quite useful.

Finally, libraries are an excellent source of information, read and re-read those books, take notes, compare material, think in what way you can apply that knowledge on your work.

What do you enjoy most about writing?

As I’m answering this question I can think of several of reasons about why I enjoy writing but if it was on a day on which I was feeling frustrated about my work and/or with a huge author’s block I would say that I absolutely despise it.

Of course that I would be lying, I love writing it’s part of who I am but these sudden changes of feelings are precisely the reason why I adore it.

Writing, at its best, is as temperamental as its author.

I use writing a lot as a coping method, many times to ease my anxiety. On those times I usually take the opportunity to drain my worries and afflictions to the paper and the characters end up being vessels of my troubles but also my soothing balm.

It is impressive how writing 3 or 4 lines make me feel better instantly.

And in the end, if a person comes to me and says that they felt my words as if the character itself was actually saying them or that I dragged them to the middle of the scenery with my descriptions, I can’t help but smile because in the middle of my chaotic state I managed to create something beautiful.

Finally, is there anyone in the fandom you look up to?

I look up to so many people it’s impossible to name them all but there are 3 people that are essential to me in this website, without them I would have not had the courage to keep writing.

Their constant support means the world to me, so a thousand thanks to @dislittle-sparklederp, @vixenofthemist and @shes-beauty-shes-gray.

Apart from them, I have to give a shout out to those who create content for their rare ships and new artists/writers.

For your efforts and willingness to offer this fandom your creativity in order to enrich it even though sometimes your art/fic is ignored and yet you keep insisting and being passionate about it… I already look up to you all.

A big thank you to @aph-belarusia for being our interviewee! Everyone, please show this creator your love!

Till I See You Again (part 3)


Summary: Jace Wayland was 4 years old when he first fell in love. When he was 9 years old he lost the little girl he loved and he’s been blaming himself ever since. Seventeen years later a mundane girl with an identifying necklace walks into his life and changes him forever.

Jace Wayland X Reader

Words: 2000+

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Author’s notes: Guys this one is so long! Sorry it’s a bit of a doozy. Thanks so much for reading! I appreciate all the positive feedback. It really makes my day.

Originally posted by claraschinman

The noise of chattering woke me up. My mind woke up first, so I keep my eyes closed as I try to analyze my surroundings. I’m lying down on a bed and there are people close by, talking in whispers. The pain on my hands and my neck is gone, but there is a warm burn on my left forearm, it feels like someone put a hot cup of tea against my skin. A large whooshing sound forces my eyes open and I jump out of bed, ready to defend myself from the strangers around me. I trip over a pair of legs but strong arms grab me before I fall on the floor. I look up to see the same people from the shipyard looking at me with curiosity and the man that sits on my bed smiles. He is of Asian descent but his eyes were yellow, like a cat, and blue fog is coming out of his fingertips. He must have noticed my gawking because he laughed and shook his head towards me.

“If those big eyes become any bigger, I swear they will swallow us all. My name is Mangus Bane, I’m here to help you remember your past. Now sit, before you trip and hurt yourself again.” The man extends his hands and I take them willingly, his eyes seem trustworthy enough.

“Where am I?” I ask as I look down at myself, I’m wearing new clothes and they certainly aren’t mine, I don’t wear this much black. My attention is drawn to the burning sensation on my forearm and I look at it, someone had tattooed my forearm without my consent.

“What the hell?” I yell angrily while trying to rub the mark off my skin. “You tattooed me? Is this some kind of cult?”

“Relax biscuit. This is…sort of a cult, but a very interesting one.” The man smirks and winks at me as he traces his index finger along my forearm. I feel a tingling sensation in my blood and my veins start to glow white. Then everything happened at once.

I was suddenly standing in the middle of a flower field, there was a young woman in front of me, holding a baby and rocking it back and forth as she hums a lullaby. I recognize the song as being Lavender Blue, my fathers used to sing it to me when I was little. I am then pulled backwards and I am now standing in the same field, but this time a little boy with blonde hair was carrying a toddler on his back, they were running through the flower fields. The scene changes again, the two children were a bit older now, and they were sitting under a tree. The boy was holding a long-chained necklace and was placing around the girls’ neck. I recognize the necklace instantly, the amber was unmistakable, it’s my necklace, the one currently in my purse. I fell back on the bed and stared at the mark on my forearm.

“Are you alright?” The girl with long black hair looks at me.

“Ever since I was a child I’ve been seeing strange things. People with other faces, flying creatures. My parents took me to see a psychologist and they diagnosed me of a delusional disorder when I was 8 years old. All my life I’ve been thinking I was crazy.”

“You’re not crazy. You just have the sight. You’re one of us.”

“I….This is all too much.Take me home please. I want to go home.”

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The end of 2015 is near and I decided to rec my favourite fics of the year (which doesn’t necessarily mean that they were written in 2015 but that I’ve read them in this year). They’re 12, one for each month, I hope you’ll like them as much as I did.

- The Summit of Kings by ManaMadeleine
Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Details: 57k, 14 chapters, Merlin/Arthur
Summary: When Arthur is invited by the openly magical kingdom of Harmatia to form an alliance, the King is forced to reexamine his outlook on magic. But whilst an alliance could change the course of history, among the shadows a vengeful enemy plots to turn the two great kingdoms against each other and plunge Camelot into a devastating war. If only Merlin wasn’t having to deal with his growing feelings for Arthur at the same time…Merthur.
Comments:  Great OC characters, thrilling magic reveal and one of the best descriptions of battle I’ve ever read. And oh, the cliffhangers! (Thank you robintomybatman for the advice!)

- Time Forward by kianspo
Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Details: 23k, one-shot, AU, Merlin/Arthur, Arthur/Gwen
Summary: While still at uni, Arthur Pendragon meets two people who become his best friends. He falls in love with one of them… but marries the other. This isn’t his story to tell; it’s Merlin’s. And Merlin will always remember that he met Arthur first.
Comments: I still have the chills. I wasted a whole night of sleep to read it. Is it enough to make you read it?

- A Heavy Heart to Carry by Thursday_Next
Rating: Mature
Details: 12k, one-shot, Merlin/Arthur
Summary: When Merlin is captured and injured, Arthur must face up to his own feelings for his manservant as well as the many secrets he discovers are being kept from him.
Comments: Arthur trying to wrap his head around the idea of Merlin being a sorcerer and realising that no, Merlin is not simply a friend.

- Damsel in a Phone Booth by Blackwidina
Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Details: 3k, one-shot, AU, Merlin/Arthur
Summary: I was on Tumblr and found this AU prompt:
“it’s the middle of the night and i’m walking home alone in the dark and there’s this guy following me and he’s starting to gain on me and i found this phone booth with a lock on the door and i tried to call my best friend but my hands were shaking so badly i accidentally dialed the wrong number and i don’t even know you but help me” au And this was born. Enjoy!
Comments: Short, funny (even though there’s stalking involved) and absolutely worthy of your time.

- Falls the Shadow by Cookie
Details: 47k, 4 chapters, Merlin/Arthur
Summary: The King is dead. Long Live the King. Camelot is Arthur’s now, and Merlin had believed they would achieve their destiny together. But when Arthur pulls away and betrays Merlin utterly, he goes to find the one person who understands his hurt the most.
Comments: Probably one of my favourites EVER. The first chapter simply destroyed me (I love angsty fics, sorry), in the second one I was so happy I could cry, it’s a rollercoaster of emotions. Highly recommended!

-This Silly Ol’ Dance is Perfect for Two
by SlantedKnitting
Rating: Explicit
Details: 80k, 4 chapters, AU, Merlin/Arthur
Summary: Arthur is young, gorgeous, talented, and captain of one of the best football teams in England; his life should be perfect. But he can’t keep a girlfriend for more than a few months, and it’s not just because he isn’t ready to settle down. When his most recent girlfriend dumps him, he has a rough night at the pub and has to be dragged home by his neighbour, Merlin. Merlin is an archivist, a Ph.D student, and he hates football almost as much as he hates Arthur. They both have their own reasons for not wanting to spend time with each other, but after that disastrous night, remaining silent neighbors doesn’t seem like much of an option anymore.
Comments: I wasn’t a fan of football!AUs, then I read this fic. Now, read this one and give me more football!AUs!!!

- Looking at you looking at me (sometimes it lasted love, but sometimes it hurts instead) by lunchee
Teen and Up Audiences
Details: 7k, one-shot, AU, Merlin/Arthur
Summary: Arthur can’t let go. Merlin forgets.
Comments: If I had to choose my favourite, I’d probably pick this one. It’s just that I cant stop thinking about it, it completely broke my heart. (I told you that I love angsty fics!). But seriously, don’t read it if you’re sad/depressed, DON’T.

- Pining for the Moon
by EachPeachPearPlum
Rating: Mature
Details: 13k, one-shot, Merlin/Arthur
Summary: First, there is the rage, like nothing Arthur has ever known. It’s hot, hotter than anything, hotter than the kitchen ovens and the blacksmith’s forge and dragon’s breath. It fills him to the brim and carries on, washing over him in waves that scald, and, as Arthur looks around him at the carnage, the man at its centre, he has no idea how he is ever meant to let go of it.
“I can explain,” Merlin says, his eyes still blazing as he kneels there, charred by the fires he lit, blood on his hands. So much blood. “Arthur, sire, please, I can explain.”
First, there is the rage, and then there is a knife at Merlin’s throat.
Comments: It’s a…strange fic. I don’t know how to define it, but I liked it very much. It got me at “there is a knife at Merlin’s throat”.

- Fathom Me Out by supercalvin
Teen and Up Audiences
Details: 21k, one-shot, Merlin/Arthur
Summary: After ten years, Arthur thinks he has Merlin all figured out. But as he watches Merlin, he finds out that he has more questions than answers. The longer he thinks about it, the more uneasy he feels. So he pushes it aside. Except, he can no longer ignore the questions he has about Merlin.
Not your everyday reveal!fic.
Comments: I think that everyone in this fandom knows this fic, but well, I didn’t, so it’s in this year’s rec. The author said it, not your everyday reveal!fic.

by b92morgan for Lunaris Dies
Details: 145k, 28 chapters, Alpha-Omega!AU, Arthur/Merlin
Summary: Arthur Pendragon is what the dictionary defines as the perfect Alpha, except for one small detail: he hates Omegas. He does not intend to mate with one. Merlin Emrys is an Omega, different from the others: he hates Alphas. He does not consider even remotely bending his existence to the will of the dominant race.
Comments: I actually read it in italian because the author is italian, but, by the number of kudos and comments it has on AO3, I suppose that the translation is well made. If you love Alpha/Omega dynamics that’s the fic you should choose!


- We All Write Our Own Endings
by nu_breed
Details: 23k, one-shot, Bradley James/Colin Morgan
Summary: Five years ago after Merlin ended, Bradley headed for LA and success. Homesick and dissatisfied, he returns to the UK and a challenging film project, but he hadn’t banked on having to work with the last person he wanted to see: Colin.
Comments: The hottest sex scene ever. Bradley’s POV is exactly how I imagined it and I’ve lost the count of how many times I’ve read it

- The Art Of Sleeping With by nu_breed
Details: 6k, one-shot, Bradley James/Colin Morgan
Summary: Bradley isn’t gay. He’s just unnaturally obsessed with Colin’s sex life, is all. (contains Bradley/other, Colin/others)
Comments: Same author as before, in case you didn’t understand how much I love their works. And again, I’d give an award to them for the sex scenes.

Every fic is available on AO3. I hope the links work, in case they don’t send me a message.
Happy new year to you all!

How I found this place...

just going to repost my long post to you…

Hi Jess (jamesandclairefraser), I just wanted to write you some lines. I finally managed to get my own tumblr account (Iwillloveyouforeverandaday —> I just couldn´t come up with something else *lol* I was thinking quite a while how I´m gonna name my blog something that relates to S/C and their love.) Anyways I´m the anon that told you the other day that I promised myself to get a tumblr account IF you ever come back here (german83 anon). Well here I am. :-)

I´m also the anon with the “4th of Jan. theory” the other day…there is actually so much more to my theory but since the “ask” frame only allows limited words I couldn´t write a novel then…well let me explain some more why I think Sam was in LA….first of all Cait had this specific interview, was it Jan. 5 (Thursday)? Sometime around that day when she was asked, if Sam is coming to the GG and she answered “Maybe….I don´t know….” and she laughs it off….so why would she even say something LIKE THAT if she knew exactly that he is NOT in the STATES and definitely NOT attending??? Because he was THERE in LA! There´s no other logical reason to it IMO! Also the anon sighting saying Cait was with a ginger…..and also Cait saying in one interview “we were…” and then cuts off…..So they probably thought about them both attending and maybe outing them right there. Sometime around that time they must have met with their bosses or someone “in charge” and discuss something regarding their relationship and putting a stop to let me call it “faking a sh** show”. I also think their “bosses” or whoever agreed and let them “free” to live their lives on their terms. I also think they thought it through that attending the GG together what cause too much attention so they agreed on a slow reveal and he flies back on Friday or something when he twittered he wants a snack #peanuts  and to be honest, that is something you usually get on a plane. I would bet money on it, he actually was a HAPPY af guy to fly back knowing from now on they are free…a day later we got the twitter fest and him staying up all night for his love of his life. I mean be honest. Would you stay up all night for just a co-worker going all crazy and loved up on your twitter after you just came back from a 14 hours flight??? Usually the answer should be no, unless you LOVE them more than anything!  They wanted to be free and live their lives without hiding and I truly believe that if you hide a relationship for years and can´t be real, it can also break you cos you have to be careful what to say, what to do and that is just not fun at all. It puts too much pressure on people faking to be someone they are not. Just look at the BAFTA´s, that just tells you everything you need to know, I´m still asking myself WHY? Why would someone be so cruel and put strings on such lovely people like Sam and Cait are. I just don´t understand it. If there was some kind of punishment for something, then that person putting strings on them, belongs behind bars. One thing I def. believe that they were forced into this. Cos between their christmas video 2015 and Jan. 2016 there was a 180° change . That would also explain why Sam became so shy and reserved at interviews from last year….he was not allowed to tell the truth and probably he is also not so good in lying or faking something. That´s when a person usually becomes quiet and let other people talk. It would also answer why he answered the question “what is the best thing that happened to you in 2016?” in Leanne Aguilera´s interview from beginning of December in the way he did. Cait answered that she went on a long vacation, you could hear him thinking “oh shit what am I gonna say? I loved that vacation as well…can´t give the same answer….people think we´re only friends…..hmm….shit….what am I gonna say now….arrrghhhhh….????” and there it goes….Sam what was your best thing in 2016? and when it was his turn he´s mumbling something about work and looks at Cait telling her with his eyes….“Babe what am I suppose to say? Can´t give the same answer” I think that´s why she makes fun of his answer, her best thing was away from work and his at work…..lol…..I get why Cait said this to him….probably because she´s sneaky thinking “Babe we had so much fun on our vacation and you answer work?! ö_Ö ??? But don´t worry honey, I know you can´t answer this ;-) ”

So that for now on this “topic”

So let me tell you in a shortcut something about me, I´m Sim (33) from Germany (Eastern Part of Germany) the part that tore down walls 27 years ago because they were sick of feeling imprisoned and spied on and wanted to be free.

Anyways I found Outlander in May 2015 that was the first time they advertised Outlander on VOX being aired in June. From the first time I saw the little trailer I was hooked and so fascinated. So after watching season 1 I was in AWWWW and couldn´t wait for the DVD´s to get out, so after these came out I binged watched the whole season again in 2 days…Since I knew it would still be a long time until season 2 comes out I watched probably every single video of Sam and Cait on youtube. Then season 2 came out in April which I watched online the day it aired in the US, from that day on I started reading the books. Read book 1-4, must say I never read such a thick book of 1.200 pages ever before not even to speak of 4 books….well I read book 3 in 2 weeks, which is a miracle speed in my words, reading pretty much day and night….I loved it so much, I probably read the printshop scene 10 times or more….I just loved it so much. So between Jamie/Claire and googling Sam/Cait I was going back and forth….I was just so amazed by their love that they have for each other it´s hard to miss it. I still can´t believe how people can miss it…..THAT is what you call LOVE, their glances at each other, touches, smiles, their locked eyes. Very rare to find in this world and you are lucky if you find someone who looks at you like that and you feel the same way about them. Like Cait used to say “sometimes the stars align”.

So end of last summer I found  your blog and some others (yellowfeather84, queencaitriona, balfeheughlywed, sablelab, mamatumblz, sassynach, wanderingsummerbreeze, cb4tb, samcait4ever, nopromissessassenach, trixen, etc.) which I LOVE reading and enjoy so much….

There is so much positivity here and I love how I found a good place to be informed about my two favorite people Sam & Cait. I´m also amazed how many good people are on here and celebrate the love between these two. Still can´t think of reasons why some higher powers try to take this part of the fandom apart. Just doesn´t get into my head. For me it´s like we are celebrating their love and support them in everything they do, that´s all we do and I find nothing bad about it! When you deleted your blog last November, I was pretty down and mad coz to me you did nothing wrong. You didn´t harass anyone or put shit out there, all you did was trying to put out positivity and love. That´s why I loved reading your blog otherwise I wouldn´t be here coz I hate reading negativity and hatred. That always makes me sick to my stomach and my heart sink. I just remember Ellen Degeneres once said “if you have nothing nice to say, don´t say anything at all and be quiet”. It´s been years she said it on her show and it sticks with me since then…

well another thing that weirdly connects me to Cait and Outlander is that I have been to Scotland once and the day I put my foot on Scottish ground was September 11, 2013 at Glasgow airport. It gives me kinda chills that I found out that this day is her castaversary. I have no idea if she landed in Glasgow on that day as well or just got the job on that day but for me it will be always special that I was there on THAT particular day which started the journey that I´m all into now. I did a 6 day round trip through Scotland and the highlands with my best friend cause I loved Scotland so much and always wanted to go. At that time I didn´t know about Diana Gabaldon´s books and all that. And for the last two years all the pieces fall into place and start making sense and my love of Scotland just grews bigger and bigger.

so that for now. :-) Just want to tell you, you are a great person, it truly shines through, don´t let anyone tell you something else. Sending you lots of love! ´til later!  💖

In Defense of CallieRoxy

Everyone is entitled to their own opinions and if you don’t like the ship that’s alright. But I’ve seen people genuinely pissed off about Callie being shipped romantically with anyone in canon, and I would like to add a few things on the matter.

First of all, some have been talking about Callie being too young for Roxy, since she’s ‘11′ in canon. What these people dismiss is that she’s 11 Units old. With Units being an unknown Cherub way of counting time. Like Troll Sweeps which are a 6-13 relation, it is very likely that this 11 is on a 11-15/16 relation, as Hussie kinda did the whole 3-year trip to equalise everyone’s age. So chances are Callie is the same age as everyone else, lifespan-wise. Maybe even older, considering she has spent time in the Furthest Ring as a Soul.

Another argument against this has been Aranea saying Cherubs can only perceive Romance in a black sense. So if you take her word, yeah, she’s right, this couldn’t happen and make sense in canon… Except Aranea is talking by the book and not actually describing any specific case.

When Aranea mentions Cherub stuff, she quickly starts to talk about their mating habits too, as well as the whole Leprechaun stuff. It is likely this perception of “Black Romance” comes from a Concupiscent point of view, and she’s talking how Cherub REPRODUCTION happens because black feelings are the trigger of the Snake transformation stuff.

But let’s consider she wasn’t just talking about hot giant snake bloody egg-laying sex. Let’s imagine there’s a book on the subject that says that Cherubs’ only quadrant is Black, for romance as well. Specially because Callie (and maybe Caliborn?) mentions something about not being able to feel Red. There’s a LOT of contradictions with this.

Callie has always been a deviant from her species. Not predominating, but brought back. Enjoying herself as a Troll more than a Cherub. She’s also a bit of a theorist with all her talk about Classpects and trying to decipher Rose’s book, and Caliborn is an asshole, so any statement from the two of them on the issue should be taken with a grain of salt. Callie has always seemed not too comfortable with her Cherub heritage to say the least, and she’s shown to be caring and loving and sociable even when they’re supposedly lonesome creatures by nature.

The biggest flaw of this argument, however, comes from other inter-specific relationships however. The Disciple and The Signless had a relationship that ‘Trascended Quadrants’. Hussie mentions about the much more complex and rich Troll Romance system, and it is said in various points Humans don’t quite understand it- Yet John is capable of, without even realise, black-flirt with Terezi in a rather successful manner, and let’s be honest, everyone in the Fandom absolutely understands these as anything very Human-like. One could argue too that Dave and Karkat having settled together and the whole confusion about their Quadrant could be a comment on how Karkat, much like the Signless, is kinda going past Quadrants and went for a more Human Relationship.

What I’m trying to say is it’s been shown again and again that Romantic Feelings of all kinds blossom between characters in ways they’re supposedly not being able to be felt. Aranea’s talks are very textbook-like. Like she read the stuff and memorised the facts. Her plan, too, was very experimental based on what she knew of her powers. She’d go to the Session, get rid of everyone, then use her Light powers to turn it into the Alpha. She’s very theoretical, but when it comes to practice, she gets her neck snapped and thrown into the fire. So whether it is yet another Hussie Jape about everyone being able of various kinds of relationships, or Callie herself being a different kind of Cherub, it is a possibility.

I’m getting a bit ahead with the explanations though, let me get back to one of the conversations that’s sparked the most controversy about the CallieRoxy ship as far as I’ve seen.

Here we see Roxy 1- Not interested in Callie, and 2- Callie saying she can’t feel Red. 

As I’ve said, Callie is a bit of a deviant Cherub. She’s fascinated about Red relationships, she’s very social, she likes her friends a lot, but feels, because she’s a Cherub, that she can’t love. This was over 4 years ago from Callie’s perspective, though. Getting in a group with people, growing to be happy on Earth C, feeling the care of those around her, if not finding out she CAN feel red for people, would it be so crazy to think Callie might actually be interested in TRYING at least? Trying to see what a Human Date is, fascinated about what goes on. This could also tie in with Callie being so nonchalant about inviting Jane over as well, naivety about the situation, further interest in how things would go with more people… Either way, there’s a lot of reasons why Calliope COULD be in a relationship with Roxy, or trying at the very least, and returning the affection in some way.

Now, the Roxy thing. Most people are saying about Callie not being able to like Roxy, but a few have also said about Roxy not being attracted to Callie. And… I mean. Come on. In that same conversation, Roxy says that she hardly knows anything about Callie, not even her name.

Callie was a good friend, she was cute, cheery, made lovely art, and I’m sure she helped Roxy through a lot! But at the same time, she was reclusive. The rules made with Caliborn, their game, omission of things to avoid temporal spoilers, they left her shrouded in a mysterious aura. Roxy say about how people around her are hot, but when it comes to relationship stuff she’s more careful. So of course she wouldn’t want to come across as loving Calliope when she didn’t even know her name and get her hopes up.

Now, this good friend she has had dies because of her abusive asshole ‘brother’. He starts harassing everyone, and they try to call out for Callie. Roxy manages to meet her in her dreams and becomes determined to find and rescue her. She manages to find her and bring her back from the dead, with her help they get the Matriorb to let the Troll Species live on. Callie feels comfort and physical affection for the first time. The scene with Roxy and Callie on Jade’s Land. The hug post-battle. Living as Queens of the Carapacian Kingdom, presumably together, for 4 years.

I mean that sounds like a very likely set of events for Rox to want to love Callie with all she’s got.

Either way, all of this isn’t trying to say that, “THEY ARE A COUPLE SHUT UP”, but rather try to get people who are being mean that it could happen and there’s no need to get up in arms about it, jeez. Just be nice to each other and enjoy your ships. All of them are canon after all remember?

;) *wonk*

Tomarry Mini Fic Rec 2!

Hey guys, sorry for the inactivity in regards to Tomarry recently, I know I promised to do this a millennia ago but here it is! 

1.  Your Name on My Heart - whitedandelions   


Bearing the Dark Lord’s soul mark on his chest certainly isn’t easy when his family is firmly on the Light Side. HarryxVoldemort SLASH. Set in the Past. (This fic is still a WIP but it’s being updated fairly regularly and is kind of the new kid on the block in terms of Tomarry fics considering it was first published to AO3 at the start of the year, it’s a good read nonetheless so check it out!)

2.  The Rise of a Dark Lord - LittleMissXanda


Dumbledore was sure he had made the right choice. Ten years later Harry shows him just how wrong he was. With little regard for most, Harry makes a name for himself at Hogwarts, and shows everyone that he is far more than just the BWL. In doing that he attracts the attention of the Dark Lord, making Voldemort believe that the Boy-Who-Lived could be far more than an enemy. (I’m pretty shocked this one hasn’t made it onto my list before, I remember reading some of it a while ago and loving it, another WIP but if you like Dark!Harry fics where Harry grows up dark as a result of his upbringing, you’ll love this! Dumbledore type bashing but I figure with this ship that’s to be expected)

3. In Wonderland - hyugahime


Harry, after being saved by a mysterious stranger, is flung fifty years into the past, where he resolves to save the future by killing a 10-year-old Tom Riddle. He ends up raising him, instead. But when young Tom develops an unhealthy fixation on his new guardian, things quickly spiral out of control, and Harry finds himself entangled in a deadly game. Will history repeat itself? (This fic uses a similar concept to 47 days to change but in a truly unique way, as with most in the fandom, this is a WIP, sorry guys!)

4. Love’s Loathing - The_Fictionist


Lord Voldemort is head of Magical Britain. Harry Potter is a rebel leader in charge of the last scraps of resistance against his regime. Things would be difficult enough even if they hadn’t once been engaged. (I know everyone is probably sick to death of me mentioning The Fictionist buttttt she recently completed this fic and it’s so great I couldn’t not mention it. An AU which eventually links in with cannon, check it out guys!)

Previous fic recs: 




anonymous asked:

As a newbie to the fandom, are there any fics that are considered must reads? There are so many on ao3 and I'm not sure where to begin.

*updated January 2017*

We’ve put together a few posts for new readers before here and here. Everything in our personal faves post is beloved by at least one of us. 

I’m not gonna say any of them are must reads, since you shouldn’t read a fic you don’t like for the sake of me so these are the ones that I see both highly acclaimed and widely discussed in the fandom:

4 Minute Window (E) Speranza WC:24127

“Look, if they catch me,” Bucky muttered, “they’re either going to kill me or they’re going to put me in a box with a little window and—Steve, I can’t.”

5 Times Steve Got Arrested and 1 Time They All Did (T) heartsdesire456  Words:5K

What it says, 5 times Steve Rogers ended up in jail (with and without Bucky) + 1 time all of the Avengers got arrested with him.

Ain’t No Grave (M) spitandvinegar WC:86k+ (WIP)

It’s six in the morning, and Steve is heading out on a run when he nearly trips over a bouquet of sunflowers on the front steps of his brownstone.

For a second paranoia takes over, and he kicks the flowers a little, waiting for them to explode. They don’t. They also came with a card, which he picks up. The front of the card has a tasteful picture of the Brooklyn bridge at sunset. It’s very nice and sedate, like the kind of card you would buy to give to your boss. On the inside someone has written a short message in big, shaky block letters.


Steve sits down hard on the steps.

but hey, you’re all right (M) beardsley Words: 5K

‘This is not my fault,’ Tony lies. ‘It was supposed to be a joke! Christ.’

‘Thanks to your joke,’ says Coulson, ‘we now have a code three-four-delta, with the variable being a Russian immigrant. We’re checking his background right now, but it might take a while. Meanwhile, I suggest you civilian-proof the Tower. If any SHIELD intelligence is compromised, I will hurt you.’

Yes, this is the story where the Winter Soldier is a Russian mail-order bride. Everything goes about as well as you’d expect.

cross this river to the other side (T) defcontwo Words: 

Here is the truth about Captain America and the Howling Commandos that every World War II historian must come to accept at one point or another: we will never know everything. We won’t even come close.

So much was lost with the untimely death of Captain America. While the man beneath the uniform sunk to the bottom of the North Atlantic, the myth lived on, only to grow bigger and more unwieldy as the years went by. Now, it is near impossible to tell fact from fiction, to separate out truth from propaganda.

In 1943, the Howling Commandos wrote goodbye letters to be given to their loved ones in the event of their deaths.

In 2014, Sharon Carter finds those letters in a tin can in an abandoned HYDRA base.

Gravitation (E) Odsbodkins Words:10K

“He couldn’t remember when he first started feeling the pull. Perhaps it was too long ago, or perhaps it had been gradual, something that crept up on him. But by the time he was sixteen, Bucky knew that the axis of his world spun around Steve Rogers in the worst possible way.”

Inspired by finding out that in the prequel comics for Captain America: The First Avenger, Steve and Bucky are in art class when the news breaks about Pearl Harbor.

Hands of Clay (T) Mhalachai WC:200k+ (WIP)

James Barnes leads a busy life as a single working father in New York. But when his childhood best friend Steve Rogers falls back into his life, James will have to re-learn what love, friendship and and family are really all about.

it’s a strange courage (E) mambo Words:27K

“The question the entertainment world is asking themselves today is… Who is Steve? Hollywood superstar Bucky Barnes was spotted at a wrap-party last night, serenading someone named Steve onstage. Not only was Barnes more than a little tipsy, but he also sang a song from the Disney Channel Original Movie that started his career–a bold move, considering the fact that he always dodges questions about it. But who is Steve? Why did Bucky leave the club alone? What does this mean about the rumors of a relationship between Barnes and his co-star Natasha Romanoff? And is everyone’s favorite poster boy gay? All this and more after a quick message from our sponsors!”

I’ve Been Careless With a Delicate Man (M) Paraxdisepink Words:9K

Steve lets SHIELD think he and Bucky were boyfriends so they’ll let him see the Winter Soldier in medical.

The man on the bridge (M) boopboop Words:107556 

Steve Rogers turning up at Tony’s door in the middle of the night might be a bit out of character, but it’s not completely out of the realm of possibility. Stranger things have happened.
Steve Rogers turning up at Tony’s door with an amnesiac assassin - who may or may not have some of Tony’s personally designed hardware attached where his arm should be - well that’s just far too interesting to turn away, even if Tony is trying to avoid all things S.H.I.E.L.D these days.

Mistake on the Part of Nature (T) Words:1K by idiopathicsmile

Steve takes in Bucky’s betrayed look and Sam’s confusion, follows Sam’s gaze to the pile of mangled fruit in the trash can. Sudden comprehension fills his face.

“Oh,” he says. “Bucky found out about bananas.”

In which an American icon is mourned. But probably not the one you’re thinking of.

Not Easily Conquered-series (M) dropdeaddream, WhatAreFears WC:71225

In 1945, Steve Rogers jumps from a nosediving plane and swims through miles of Arctic Ocean to a frozen shore.
In 1947, Steve Rogers marries Peggy Carter.
In 1966, the New York Times finds the lost letters of Sergeant James Buchanan Barnes.

perfectly right wrong number (T) melonbutterfly Words: 31K

It all starts because Steve is too dumb to handle his smartphone.

A wrong number AU in which Bucky Barnes doesn’t enter Steve’s life (meaning: Bucky wasn’t born until the eighties, but Steve is still Captain America) until Steve accidentally dials the wrong number. Wherein there is a lot of texting, some advice via Natasha and Darcy, a bit of pining, and a first date in an amusement park. Oh, and on top of being a disabled veteran, Bucky is a professional catwalker. Literally.

Only Good Things (G) Jain Words:2K

All of their neighbors think that Steve and Bucky are dating.

Our Golden Age (E) augustbird WC:147825

Wherein Bucky is the crown prince and Steve still becomes a hero.

Schrödinger’s Romance (M) InTheMiddleOfNowhere WC:19K (underage, rape/noncon)

“It could be a relationship, it could not be. You can assume either until you see for sure the results.”

We all know those moments. Those moments when your family all gathers around you and asks “So, do you have a boyfriend yet?”. Bucky knows these moments all too well and, quite frankly, he’s sick to death of them. Unfortunately, being a 21 year old college student makes it harder for him to come up with excuses, and with Christmas coming up he needs to think of a way out fast. A chance encounter with a stranger through an old library textbook could just be the kind of miracle he needs to make it through the holidays with his last shreds of sanity intact.

Sing Me the Alphabet (T) thesardine Words:78K

There wasn’t anything left to salvage. That’s what Fury believed. It would have been a kindness to put him down.

When SHIELD finally releases Bucky from custody, he is not the man anyone expects him to be. The ruthlessness of the Winter Soldier is gone, replaced with a seemingly child-like wariness as he struggles to communicate his warped understanding of who he is and what was done to him. But with Hydra scrambling to regroup, SHIELD takes dangerous measures to secure Zola’s algorithm to use against them, and Steve is dragged back into battle, forced to weigh what’s best for Bucky against what’s best for the fate of the free world.

Then Bucky is abducted.

Steve races to recover his friend before the man who was Bucky is gone forever, but the rescue stalls, he starts to crumble under the weight of everything he has lost and everything the war has taken from him.

Meanwhile, Bucky confronts a terrible piece of ex-SHIELD tech that was in development long before Project Insight, but in order to survive, he must decide who he is going to be: the vulnerable Bucky Barnes or the indomitable Winter Soldier? It turns out there might not be as big a difference as everyone seems to think.

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“What do I do?” Steve appealed into the phone. “I’m freaking out.”

There was silence on the other end of the line. It lasted so long that Steve pulled the receiver away from his ear and frowned at it. Pay phones were old. Maybe this one wasn’t working despite the obvious dial tone when he picked up.

“Ok,” a stranger’s voice said over the phone. “First acknowledge the fact that you dialed the wrong number, but be quick about it because my cab is a few blocks away from my own plans and I’m about to drop some truth bombs on you.”

Steve Rogers at 100: Celebrating Captain America on Film (gen) eleveninches, Febricant, hellotailor, M_Leigh, neenya, tigrrmilk WC:10228

“Heil Hydra,” the enemy agent shouts.
“Heil this, motherfucker,” says Captain America, shooting off a rocket.
Steve and Bucky find out Hollywood has been busy since they went away. A historical survey, including but not limited to: one set of exploded genitals, a brief interlude in France, Mel Gibson and other masterworks of casting, eight Academy awards, several dinosaurs, and something Tony Stark has ominously dubbed “the masterpiece.” Art included.

Steve Rogers’ Dad Face and Other Common Hazards (T)  AggressiveWhenStartled  Words:5K

Today, Peter was honest-to-god going to see Captain America himself up close, in person, and not from a rooftop or tiny crevice like a creepy stalker fanboy.

Even better, he was going to watch Steve Rogers make history by soldiering his beleaguered way through the most intensely awkward and honestly ridiculous press conference in the history of ever– jaw thrust out and spine ramrod straight. Trying hard to be polite and respectful in the face of adversity.

While a bunch of assholes with cameras and microphones shouted at him about Iron Man’s adolescent dick.

Things SHIELD Never Told Captain America (T) tolieawake Words:3K

The thing is, Tony quickly realised, there are certain things that SHIELD never told Captain America. Sometimes small things, sometimes big things. But things, nonetheless, that they thought he wasn’t quite ready to know.

When Steve finds out about one of those things during an interview - his reaction isn’t anything like anyone was expecting (except maybe Natasha, because she’s scary like that).

OR, how the world found out about Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes.

This, You Protect (T) owlet WC:64326

The mission resets abruptly, from objective: kill to objective: protect

To be Vulnerable is Needed Most of All (M) perfect_plan WC:118362

Steve is a shy comic book artist and meets his new neighbour, Bucky Barnes.
In which there are awkward longings, meddling best friends, comic conventions, heartache, lemons, video games, dorkiness, dancing and two cute boys.

this city bleeds its aching heart (E) Renne Words: 34K

The one where Steve and Bucky pose as a happily married couple while on a mission for SHIELD, to catch an international arms dealer hiding in a suburban neighbourhood.

United States v. Barnes, 617 F. Supp. 2d 143 (D.D.C. 2015) (T) fallingvoices, radialarch WC:20605

The Associated Press @AP
Winter Soldier set to stand trial for Washington D.C. massacre and treason apne.ws/1og6SWE

When I Put Away Childish Things (M) hansbekhart WC:14367

Bucky gets on a Manhattan bound train around 2:30, heading to 8th St. He watches the Lady far off on Liberty Island as they roll over the East River. The train is crowded and people smile at him, pleased to see a handsome young man in uniform. He smiles back, pleased with the world and everything in it. He wonders where Steve might want to go for lunch. What he’d say if Bucky asked him if he’d ever thought about treating this thing between them as real.
He comes out of the subway a little before 3 o'clock, and the world has changed.