had noticed. I noticed how he hoped to find that piece of paper in his
compliment bag hanging on the wall next to the rest. Hoping to find that
someone had written something that made him feel a little better, he didn’t
lose hope that someday that bag would have something inside, he didn’t care how
long it took.
had stopped looking in my bag a long time ago; it wasn’t like I couldn’t use
some nice words even though they came from an anonymous source that I would
probably never know who it was. I had stopped looking inside because I never
got any notes, so I decided to stop wasting my time and to stop feeling bad
every time I looked inside.
I was surprised that someone like Zach Dempsey didn’t get a hundred of notes,
after all he was the star player in the basketball team, he was friends with
the popular people of the school, he was always in all the parties and I knew
girls liked him, still he didn’t get any compliments in his bag.
couldn’t help to feel bad for him, so I gather my things very slowly to be the last
one in the class and I wrote a note for him, which I left in his compliment bag
so the next day he would have something.
didn’t write a love letter or something like that, it was something pretty
simple, something that would make him feel better for the rest of the day; we
all deserve to receive compliments from time to time.
few days passed since the first note I wrote him and I had to admit that I
loved how he reacted so I decided to write him a couple more for the next
weeks, but I didn’t make it a daily thing.
day while I was running to class, considering that I was late to first period.
I was looking in my bag for my book and being the clumsy person that I am I ran
into someone, luckily for me I didn’t fall backwards, that would had been even
god, I’m so sorry, I wasn’t looking” I said as fast as I could while I bend
down to get the book that I made that person drop.
saw it was the biology book, the same one that I was looking for in my bag and
when I looked to the owner I saw it was Zach and I thanked that it was him and
not one of his stupid friends, because even though he hanged out with them Zach
was so much nicer than all of them together.
worry, are you ok?” he asked grabbing his book and smiling for some reason.
I’m fine, I’m just really bad at walking without running into people” I joked
putting my bag on my shoulder “I was looking for my bio book but it seems that
I forgot it at home” I sighed “but it doesn’t matter, see you in class” I added
walking to the classroom, I didn’t want to get even more late.
he exclaimed making me turn in his direction with a surprised expression on my
face “we can walk together and if you want you can sit with me and I’ll share
my book with you” I couldn’t help the frown on my forehead. Zach was definitely
kind, but not to this level, he was socializing voluntary with me, someone who
wasn’t even close to his little world or the people in that world, it was odd.
thank you” I answered trying to sound convinced. He reached me and we started
walking to class together “how it is that you’re late to bio? You’re always the
first one there” I added realizing he was late to his favourite class.
I didn’t get any answer I looked in his direction and I saw him smiling again,
this time even wider. We got to class so I wasn’t going to get any response to
class went by as usually, this was one of the few classes I liked, I liked to
consider myself a person of letters, but I was good at everything in general,
even though I hated all the subjects related to science or maths, that’s why it
was something unusual that I liked this one in particular and that was the
reason why I was always dazed in the teacher’s explanations, but not this time.
I couldn0t stop looking to Zach and see how he took notes of everything and how
he knew all the answers to the teacher’s questions, even though he just
answered them in his notebook and not out loud. I guess that being good at
something not related to sports wasn’t “cool”.
for me Zach caught me staring and I tried to hide my smile, but it was
impossible, I just looked in the teacher’s direction and started to take notes.
better at this than I thought” I whispered while I was writing the things that
I saw in the blackboard.
means you knew I was already good at this” he answered looking at me all the
answer was as odd as the rest of things that were happening with him this
we have this class in common, why wouldn’t I know you’re good at it?” I asked
looking at him again.
an observation” there it was again, that smile, the third time I got that
bell was close to rang when Mr. Porter came into the classroom and I knew he
was there for me, I just had to wait to hear my name and see how everyone
looked at me.
he did it I looked at Zach, who was looking at me with something like surprise
and concern. I just grabbed my things and followed Mr. Porter to his office.
know why you have called me here” I said before he could even start “and I just
have to say that everything is ok, I’m fine” I added with my usual tone.
parents don’t think the same, they seem really concern”
they are parents, when you have kids you’re life turns into an endless hole of
worries, but I’m fine, I don’t know what they’ve told you, but I know exactly
how I feel, can I go now?” the bell rang, great I was going to be late for
second period too.
do you feel? I’d like to know it so that way I can help you”
do you want to talk about it? To make me feel bad? I’ve said I know how I feel,
it doesn’t mean I want to talk about it”
you don’t talk about it you won’t be able to solve it”
is a waste of time” I said standing and taking my bag. I was in a good mood
this morning, but not anymore, thanks to this stupid “try to talk about your
wait” Mr. Porter stood like he was going to follow me, but he didn’t, I walked
out of his office without looking behind and I let a big sigh leave my chest.
started walking to communication class when I heard a certain voice calling me;
I turned in his direction with surprise in face again.
everything ok?” Zach asked coming to me.
what are you doing here?” I needed to know the answer to that question, because
we weren’t friends, we just had a few classes together and now all of the
sudden he’s worried about me.
just wanted to make sure everything was fine” when I heard how sincere he
sounded I felt something I had never felt before, it was like something inside
me was completed and I just smiled widely.
really nice of you” I mumble “Thank you”
remained silence, I didn’t know what else to say and he looked like he wanted
to continue talking, like there was something he wanted to tell me and just when
I was about to turn in the opposite direction he talked.
you like to go to Monet’s some time?” he sounded almost nervous. Like if he was
exposed to a terrible danger.
looked at him, confusion all over my face, I was trying to make sense to the
fact that he wanted to go out with me, I didn’t want to think he was playing
with me, like it was some kind of bet with his friends, that would be really
I don’t want you to misunderstand this, but… why?” his expression didn’t
don’t know, you seem interesting and I’d like to get to know you better” now I
was totally amazed.
this some kind of bet you want to win? Because if it is-“
he said stopping me “no, no bets” I think he realized then why I have my doubts
“I promise you it’s nothing like that”
why are you interested suddenly? We’ve been in the same classes since freshman
year and we have never had a real conversation, we’re from different worlds and
I know you’re nothing like your friends, because if you were I wouldn’t even be
talking to you, but when you’re with them… I don’t know, you’re not like this,
get it, I have a reputation, but give me a chance to prove you that I’m not
like that, and you won’t regret it”
accept if you tell me the real reason behind this interest”
stopped for a second, maybe thinking if he wanted to talk about it or not.
know you are the one who has left notes in my compliment bag” I opened my mouth
to say something, but words didn’t come to me, I was speechless, I didn’t know
if I should deny it or tell the truth “You’re not the only one who notice
things, you know? I’ve notice how much you enjoy when we are in literature, how
you are in your own world when you are bored, how much you like animals” I was
blushing by the second “you like bio even though science is not your favourite
area and how you laugh even when the jokes aren’t funny at all”
couldn’t believe how much he noticed me, I always thought no one looked in my
direction and that was why I felt so comfortable doing my things.
how do you know the notes were mine?” I whispered, trying to recover myself
form the things he had said to me.
I know you’re the only one who knows how much I like bio” he answered giggling
“and in your first note you wrote how cute I look when I’m paying attention in
bio and that you think I looked happier there than playing basketball”
could be anyone…”
what I thought at first, but you have confirmed my doubts today” he said
laughing at my recently shyness “Thank you for the notes by the way”
are necessary” I said trying to change the subject.
what do you say, do you want to go to Monet’s some day?” I wasn’t entirely sure
about this, I really wanted to believe him, but I couldn’t stop thinking that
maybe this was just a game and I think he knew how insecure I felt “I get you
have doubts, I just ask for one chance”
“Ok, I’ll go out with you”
I said almost cutting him, if I thought about it more I’ll change my mind and I
wouldn’t give him a change to prove he had good intentions.
expression change suddenly, he smiled brightly and I tried to hide mine but it
was impossible, I looked in other direction so he couldn’t see it, but I think
my attempt was useless.
promise you won’t regret it” he said thrilled “do you want to go to the
library? We are already really late to class anyways”
and you can help me with something I don’t understand in bio” I said walking by
his side to the library.
anonymous requested: Can you do a coach negan fan fiction where he looks out for one of his students because they’re getting bullied or somet thanks x
Character(s): Negan and Reader (pre-apocalypse) Summary: Coach Negan takes a liking to you and after he witnesses the bullying that you endure, he shows you just exactly how special you are. Word Count: 3,448 Warning: SMUT!!! Author’s Note: Thank you to the anon who sent this request in! I was so excited to write this story. I mean, a Coach Negan fic? Yes, please. So, I hope whoever sent this in, enjoys this one-shot! I figured I’d add some smut because I just couldn’t help myself lmao. Enjoy! :-)
so i think you guys already know how this is gonna work lol but anyways this is my first follow forever i’m posting on this blog! as you know i’ve remade and i can’t believe i’ve already hit 1k on here in such a short amount of time!! for those that don’t know i was changkyuh/hyu-k/busanie before i had remade. thank you to all who’ve helped me reach this milestone and i can’t wait to hit many more. anyways i never really explained so much as to why i remade and the reasons behind them. mainly it’s to really start over and make things more fresh i suppose. with that blog i had a lot of followers but to me it didn’t feel like it. it was also quite messy in general as i’ve had it for so many years. also with that blog i felt a little pressured to reblog groups i wasn’t particularly into as much as i was before so having a new blog allowed me to really reblog what i really wanted. i know these are not all the blogs i used to follow but there are some new mutuals that i had made with this new blog and it’s great! i’ve felt more free to reblog what i really wanted on here and it’s making this experience much more fun ~
hello everyone!! i recently hit my first big goal so i decided it’s a good reason to make my first follow forever!! i wanted to show appreciation for my lovely mutuals, you really make this place so fun!! thank you for making my dash look so beautiful ♡
sorry if i excluded anyone, some people changed urls and i couldn’t find them… and if you’re following me from a sideblog i could forget to check it ;;
special shout out to @leejinks for teaching me pretty much everything photoshop related, i’m sorry i’m so dumb but you can’t escape me, ily too
to @jimissi aka my bro. my lovely dude. thank you for loving and accepting me as i am, i know that even that pineapple discourse can’t tear us apart
anyway here’s a list of some really wonderful people, thank you sososo much for following me!!
A/N: This was requested by @flufy07! I hope you all love this! Feedback is welcomed and appreciated! I love you all so much <3 <3
It was a lovely winter day and you were walking to get a cup of cocoa. You were fortunate to live in walking distance of a small, but pleasant cafe. It sat on the corner of the street, only ten minutes from your house. They knew you well at the cafe. You became a regular a few years back.
As you held the hot cocoa in your hands, you smiled to yourself. It was times like this, that you learned to enjoy the simple things in life. Everything seemed so perfect. You looked around, smiling at the cars that passed you on the residential streets. You sipped on your hot chocolate, humming in satisfaction.
You jogged up to your door, unlocking it and stepping inside. You set your cup down on the small table on the other side of the door. You slid your coat off of your shoulders, putting it on the coat rack beside the door. You threw your keys into the wooden bowl, grabbing your hot cocoa.
A/N: Hellooooo, I’m back with more of the Chris Evans Mini-Series Spin-off (I really need to find a title for it 😂) Chapter 3 is called ‘She Said Yes’ and this is Part 1. Oh my Lord, so much fluff. ❤️ Prepare your hearts. You can read the related mini-series and the previous parts here: (Mini-series - Masterlist; Mini-series Spin-off: ‘Unexpected Reader’ and 'Little Ways Away’ - Masterlist.)
It was needless to say that after getting engaged to Chris at 4:54AM, sleep was not had. You 'celebrated’ passionately and tenderly, waiting for the sun to rise and for the clock to tick to a more reasonable time so you could call your friends and family to announce the engagement they were all waiting for. 6:39AM was a reasonable time, right? You thought so, making the decision to call your best friend first as you knew she must have been worried about you and the state of your relationship. Chris had told you about his stop at your apartment first, and you suffered so much guilt you wanted to call her as soon as you’d heard. But Chris stopped and assured you Ava was much more relaxed when he left, telling him to get some sleep and she was going to do the same. Which brought his next rational point forward-
“I really don’t think you should call her, Y/N. She was up till two, the poor girl’s probably still asleep.” Chris took his eye off the bacon cooking on the stove to glance back at you, turning and wincing when the oil spit on his hand. “Why don’t we call those in Boston first,” he suggested. “They’re ahead so they’re definitely awake at this ungodly hour.”
“But it’s ringing already.” You told him with a cute pout and he chuckled with a shake of his head. “It’s fine, she’ll only be mad for a little while. Once she sees this,” you held up your left hand and waited for Chris to glance back at you to wiggle your occupied ring finger; he smiled. “She’ll be so happy for me that she won’t even care about her sleep deprivation.”
“I think she’d also appreciate being the first to know out of everyone,” he nodded in agreement. “But don’t blame me if she yells at you,” he pointed the spatula at you and you chuckled, sticking your tongue out at him. “Oh God,” he chuckled, trying not to smile. “I’m engaged to a kid.”
“Shut the fuck up.” You laughed and tossed a dishcloth at him, which he swiftly caught and draped over his shoulder while bellowing with laughter. “If anyone’s the kid here, it’s-” Ava picked up your FaceTime call before you could finish your sentence. “Ava!” You gasped excitedly when you saw her face pop up on your screen; you hid your left hand under the counter. “I’m so sorry I woke you up, but I have-”
“Shut up,” she cut you off. You pressed your lips together and tried not to throw something else at Chris, who was quietly laughing behind the iPad. “I don’t care about sleep, I care about you. Are you okay?” She asked and you nodded, smiling. “Did Chris find you?” Chris smiled at the thoughtfulness of your best friend and pulled the pan off the stove so he could join the conversation. “He’s here in Los Angeles, like- he came back for you, risked his job and- Chris!” She gasped when she saw him hug you from behind. “Oh, thank God.” She let out a sigh of relief. “You guys are okay then?”
“We’re better than okay,” you nodded, absentmindedly placing your left hand on his cheek as you leaned back into him. “We’re perfect.” You’d completely forgotten about your ring, until Ava jumped out of bed screaming. You and Chris both flinched, narrowing your eyes at her excitement until your left hand reached to pick Chris’ iPad out of the stand and you remembered your ring.
“You’re engaged!” Ava screamed, causing you and Chris to both wince then laugh. “Oh my God,” she pressed her face so closely to the camera, one would think she was trying to squeeze through to your side. “That is-” she let out a breathless chuckle. “I am so happy for the both of you. This is fucking amazing! Am I the first one? Does Tina know yet? Does Lisa- Oh my God, you are going to make the most beautiful bride and I am going to be the best maid of honor in the whole-” She cut herself off when she saw yours and Chris’ expressions; you were both trying to suppress laughter. “I’m rambling, aren’t I?” You both nodded. “Gahhh! I’m just so excited!”
“Clearly,” you teased, “you just assigned yourself the role of 'Maid of Honor’.” You both chuckled as her eyes widened in utter horror. “Relax, babe.” You laughed. “Of course you’re going to be my maid of honor, there is no one else I’d rather have by my side.” She smiled, blowing you a quick kiss through the camera. “But the wedding’s not going to be for a while, we agreed to have a bit of a long engagement. We’re both-” you glanced at Chris, giving him a curious smile when you saw that he was smiling at you; you didn’t realize he was smiling because you had transformed from an 'I’ to a 'We’. “We’re both busy and we think it’s best if we wait a while.”
“That is very sensible,” Ava nodded. “I just hope it’s not too long, 'cause I’d love to see the both of you get married and have adorable babies. Oh my God, Y/N. Your story is coming to life. Jack and Lola are going to come to life!” She squealed again, making you and Chris laugh. But it was exciting and you were both incredibly excited; to get married, to have kids, to live out the life you wrote, and he read about, together. “I can’t breathe right now, you know that right?”
“We can tell,” you chuckled. “Okay, I’m going to hang up now.” Chris gave Ava a quick wave over your shoulder as he pulled away from you to return to making breakfast. “I’ll be home after I drop Chris off at the airport,” you told her and she nodded with a smirk. “What’s that smirk for?” You asked, but you already knew which was why you were laughing. “Get your head out of the gutter,” you bit playfully, which earned you an even more mischievous smirk. “Goodbye, Ava,” you laughed and ended the call.
“She’s not wrong,” Chris commented, smirking at you when you looked up at him; you chuckled with a shake of your head. “I’m not going to see you for a while, might as well make full use of the time I have with you now. Plus it’s my birthday on Tuesday, and we’re not going to be together for my birthday 'cause you don’t want to miss school.”
“Are you trying to guilt trip me?” You scoffed with a smile and Chris bit back his. “I think you’re forgetting that I’m planning to surprise you two weeks after. You’ll have me for the weekend and we’ll do whatever you want 'cause my visit will be your belated birthday celebration with me.” You reminded him, bringing him back to the conversation you had about how you had the money to get that last minute ticket to Atlanta. He was going to replace the ticket for you, which you had no problem with now that you’d decided to depend on him a little more- per his request as your fiancé.
“But birthday sex is different from 'I’m-leaving-on-a-plane’ sex,” he began suggestively and you laughed. “I suggest we fuel up,” he said as he plated breakfast for the both of you; bacon, eggs, and pancakes. He walked around to you, pulling out the bar stool next to you. “'Cause we’re definitely going to need the energy.” He winked, placing your plate down in front of you.
“I think you’re talking about yourself, old man,” you teased him and he laughed. “'Cause this kid,” you picked a slice of bacon off your plate. “She can do this all day,” you winked as you took a bite.
(Events happen a few months after TVD 8.16 and right after TO 4.02 … Kai and Reader are having fun at the Mystic Grill when some old friends of Reader show up. Kai gets jealous and … - keep reading to find out :P )
It was around 7PM , Kai and Y/N were at the (surprisingly empty) Mystic Grill sitting at the bar drinking and laughing. Y/N had challenged Kai to do tequilla shots. He always told her she doesn’t want to see him on tequilla which only made her want to see it more. Downside was as vampires their alchohol tollerance was higher than the ones human have , so they kept drinking. So far Kai was winning. Y/N looked at him , smiling. Kai grinned back and put his hand on her waist leaning in to whisper in her ear “You will loooose.” before kissing her neck. “Even when I lose , I still win..” she had replied to him. Suddenly Y/N felt someone’s presense close by. At first she thought it was the alchohol getting to her but then … “Hey there , Trouble.” Y/N heard a familiar voice with an accent and froze in place completely stunned. There was only one person who called her that. Kai looked at her and then at the surprise visitor. Slowly she turned around and when Y/N saw who it was , a wide smile spread on her face. “Kol ?” she leaped from her seat and wrapped her hands around the new comer. Kai finished his drink , he wasn’t happy they had been interrupted but tried to hide it. “Oh my God ! How are you back ? I thought I’d never see you again after the Other Side disappeared…“ Y/N said excitedly. “Mother dearest pulled me and my brother Finn back before it collapsed. Of course ,you know how my family is - she came back from the dead and tried to kill us again. …"Kol trailed off. Y/N’s eyes widened. Kai cleared his throat and both Y/N and Kol turned towards him. Y/N took a step closer to Kai and he wrapped his hands around her , the look on his face clearly stating ‘Hands off. She belongs with me.’ “Sorry.” Y/N apologised to Kai , kissing his cheek. “Kai , this is my very good friend -” “Best friend.” Kol interrupted. Y/N smiled , “My BEST friend Kol Mikaelson. He is an Original vampire.” Kol smiled and nodded at Kai who pulled Y/N even closer to him. “Kol , this is Kai Parker … my boyfriend.” Kai outstretched his hand , Kol doing the same and they shook hands , a few moments longer than normal. Y/N took a deep breath… The situation was getting more and more awkward by the moment. Her eyes darted between Kai and Kol , there was a tension building in the air and she had to think fast before any of them did something stupid but before she had had the chance to speak … “So , Kai … ” Kol started saying as he took the seat on the other side of Y/N “I hope you are treating Y/N with respect…” he said trailing off. “Because if you aren’t - ” Clearly Kol’s time away hadn’t changed him at all. He had always acted like Y/N was his little sister , ready to protect her from whatever or whoever would ever want to hurt her. "Don’t be mean Kol.” said a female voice. Behind him had walked in another old friend of Y/N… well , more like frenemy. "I am sure if he had tried to hurt her in any way, Damon would’ve ripped his head off. You know how protective the vampires here are over their human friends.“ Rebekah said reaching behind the bar to grab a bottle with bourbon. Y/N and Kai exchanged looks. "Hello Y/N … Y/N’s boyfriend.” Rebekah said nodding towards Kai who gave her a small smile in response. Y/N tensed. "Rebekah … long time.“ she said pausing for a second. "What are you doing here ? Looking for Matt ?” “Not exactly but it would be nice to see him. Where is he ?” “You might wanna try the police station.Ask for sheriff Donovan.” Y/N said shifting uncomfortably. Kai whispered in Y/N’s ear “You OK?” Y/N only nodded turning her attention back to the Mikaelsons. Clearly Y/N wasn’t OK. The girl , Rebekah made her feel uncomfortable for some reason. “Any particular reason you both decided to drop by ? Kol being here - I like … You ? Not so much.” Y/N said , her voice slightly trembling. Rebekah visibly got angry by the remark and reached for Y/N’s neck but Kol pulled her back as Kai quickly pushed Y/N behind him. “Sister .. calm down. You don’t want to cause a scene , do you Bex ?” Kol said calmly.
A/N: This was requested by an Anon! I hope you all love this! Feedback is welcomed an appreciated! I love you all so much! <3 <3
Ever since the day you died, Sam never saw house fires the same way. He didn’t see the fire that engulfed the structure. He saw you; the girl he couldn’t save. Even though it happened ten years ago, he remembered it as if it had happened just yesterday.
“How sweet,” Lucifer teased. “You’re still thinking about [Y/N] aren’t you?” Lucifer and Sam were stuck in the cage with Michael and Adam, but Lucifer focused on making Sam’s hell the worst. He wanted to trudge up the worst of his memories of Sam’s life. It was the best method of torture Lucifer could think of.
“Don’t you say her name,” Sam growled. “[Y/N] was a friend.”
“You weren’t a good friend then, Sam Winchester,” Lucifer mused. “After all, you did let [Y/N] die.”
Hey, good afternoon! I hope you’re having a happy Tuesday. I thought I would just leave a quick helpful tip here: it’s getting nice and much warmer outside, but some of us still like to wear an extra layer. Dan does, I do, many of us do. We all have our reasons, from having internal heating issues to not wanting to have our arms bare or liking the protection of an extra layer. We know what temperature it is and how we feel. Don’t ask someone why they’re wearing all jacket or a cardigan or whatever. I get this every spring/summer and I’m sure Dan does too so let’s just not! (Loosely this plays into that I’d really like people to stop calling the way he dresses “homeless” but that’s a post for another time.) Have a fantastic Tuesday lovelies!
If we met 5 minutes ago or 5 months ago, this is a little information about me, as an Artist, Christian, Person… So it would help to share, so I can see all of my old friends, meet new ones, or if you just enjoy my art, so here we go, a little about me:
My name is Tony, I am a Christian, (I will talk about that more later) I am a mix of Navajo, White, and Mexican… Strange combo I know ^u^
I am 6′4″ (roughly 193cm - 194cm) wear mostly dark clothes because I think they look nice and yes, my hair is just like how I draw it, I get many many comments on it XD, it is very fluffy. And takes lot’s and lot’s of hairspray heheh
In summary, I grew up in a rough neighborhood as a child. Gang violence, and well… just not a place for someone who wants to Love God haha… My entire family was inclined to artistic ability, creating patterns, creating pictures so realistic, they looked like grey-scaled filters on photographs.
The best artists were my Two oldest brothers… They were Tall, Strong, Very popular, very kind, loving… and their art… their art was incredible… Drawing mech’s at 12, and perfect self portraits at 20… they were inspiring.
In short, my family was destroyed at the loss… of both of them. One died a Hero, Giving His life to protect a friend, the other killed standing up for what’s right.
My family destroyed, distraught, and me caught in the middle. In this time, My Father, my little brothers and I became Homeless… living in a car, living in a homeless shelter and other places… But there was my Dad… praying everyday, with a smile on His face… I was confused… in pain.
But… I couldn’t feel a thing… People saw me smile, saw me laugh, but it was just a show, with everything I had gone through I was a child with a broken spirit. I was putting on a show to pretend… I forgot how to feel, how to care, how to… Love.
But God did a good work… He saved us from where we were… we did not go hungry. I should be dead… that is the truth, but God chose to hold us, protect us… My Dad, never doubted… that’s why He would smile… He wasn’t just asking God to save us, He was thanking God because He KNEW God would.
“So you trusted God since then right? That was such an amazing thing He had done, so you lived for Him then on right?” …No… Sadly.
It took me a very, very, very long time to see the light that shined in my life…Even after going through all of this, I still just saw God as the one my dad believed in… and the truth is… and it breaks my heart to say this but…
I didn’t learn how to truly care for people, love people, and know people, know my emotions… until just a few months ago. Which is a reason I left… Don’t get me wrong, I knew how to say the right words, how to make people feel nice, loved, cared for… but in my Heart it was not real.
But I am only now truly, caring for people, with my whole heart… not a mask… not a trick… I care about people, and love them… in a real way… and I never want to stop.
Now with my Family in ruins, The artistic lights in my life Gone, the greatest artists I’ve ever known, the brothers who raised me… gone… I lost any ambition I could have had… ~~~~~~~
I wanted to try, at least a little… I picked up a DSI, and doodled, not good art, but that’s where… That’s where I found my inspiration.
My inspiration, showing me that there was hope, and good things that can be done with art, if something so amazing could stick around me, even though I had no skills…Even if my brothers are gone, in me, How much more could I create? That’s when I really gave it a shot, and went from stick figures to realistic art in around a year… my inspiration came and went, showing me what I could do, if I believed my art had purpose.
My inspiration was important, but… if the inspiration was just for me, and had nothing to do with God, I couldn’t keep it… That’s the truth, because God has great plans for me and my life. With Him, I became a Counselor, a youth teacher and a Church leader in short time…
Not long ago, my inspiration led me to tumblr, and I loved it, even if I disagree with, certain views people hold… I want to be a friend, and care nonetheless… I grew closer and closer to my inspiration, growing my skills, my heart… and yet also growing my weakness as I learned…
Then… I lost my inspiration, no matter how much I hurt, tried and called out… my inspiration was lost. As I felt lost as well… That’s when it happened…
God showed me, He took away a gift I wasn’t ready for. This inspiration was His blessing, and I didn’t work with it right… I was selfish…
That’s when I realized, I needed to be real, who God wanted me to be, and when I realized that, when I stopped trying to fight God and get MY way… He gave me, and those around me so much more than I could imagine…
He gave me life, hope, and finally, after years, and years, of waiting and wondering… He showed me what caring about people really was, really caring, really loving, not selfishly. So that’s why I am back. Because I want to be the friend, the… Tony I should have been…
Did I get my inspiration back? Well, no not really… my inspiration is out there, and I call to it everyday, but… I am not worried anymore, I know when the time is right, this time… I will be ready, and I will be the best I can be!
So that’s my story so far, at least in summary, there is many things I left out, but hey one day maybe heheh, Thanks for reading!
I would like to give a special shout out to people who have inspired me here, and were a huge reason I came back:
You’re hurt and Kai freaks out because he loves you
After all these
years of rivalry and not being so close to each other, Liv and you decided to
end it once and for all. Even though he was nothing more than a friend, Kai was
there for you and knew you could beat Liv because your magic was strong, or as
he said ‘stronger than Liv’s magic and you’re ready to kick her ass’. You loved
how he was always there for you and how you were there for him too.
'You don’t have to do this, you know?’ He said and
placed his hands on your arms and rubbed them gently.
'What, you want me to back out now?’ You asked.
'No, it’s just- you really don’t have to do this.
I could do it for you, there’s no need to get yourself into danger because my
little sissy has some anger issues and thinks she’s better than everyone out there.’
Kai said, making you sigh deeply. You rolled your eyes at him just for fun,
finding it funny how he wanted to fight Liv instead of you.
'I’ll be fine, trust me. Plus, you said it yourself,
I’m stronger than her and I have better hair than her.’ You trailed off, Kai
letting out a short laugh before his face expression went serious again.
'Just be careful, ok?’
'Always am. Now, I really have to go. See you in a
bit.’ You said as you walked through the doors into the school, hallways empty
and barely lightened up, one light constantly flickering, making the school
look a lot more creepier. You walked really slowly and kept looking back to
make sure Liv wasn’t behind you because knowing her, she would definitely
attack you from behind.
You placed your hand on the large, for what it
seemed, door knob and pushed it down as you opened the doors that led inaide
'I thought you’d never show up.’ Liv spoke up,
making you jump a little bit as you finally caught a glimpse of her, sitting on
one of the tables with her legs crossed.
'I’m not a quiter so I don’t see the point of not
'Good, but then again, you should’ve thought this
through. You know, have more time with your family and friends oh and my
brother.’ She said while getting up from the chair, moving it back a little
bit, her long legs reaching the spot where she stood a few inches away from
you, face to face.
'And why is that?’ You asked.
'Because this night will be your last.’ She
enunciated as she reached out her arm and muttered a simple spell that sent you
flying back and making your back hit the cold hard door and drop down on the
'I don’t think so.’ You muttered and quickly got up,
sending her flying into the vending machine before Liv could make a move. You
reached out your hand again, her breath short as you were holding her body
against the vending machine.
'You think you’re stronger than me?’ She muttered,
her voice barely audible.
'I don’t think, I know I’m stronger than you. I
would gladly accept your surrender.’ You replied but instead of fear on her
face, a slight smile appeared on her face as she lifted her hand and broke your
leg, making you drop down on the floor. She shook her head and kept looking at
you, a smile never leaving her face.
'You always thought that you were better than
everyone else. Stronger. Smarter, but here’s the thing, it’s not always about
the strenght, it’s about finding the weak spot of your enemy and finding the
right moment to attack.’ She trailed off and grabbed you by your shoulder, flipping
you onto your back as your body laid down on the cold floor, a tear streaming
down your face.
'You’re not gonna beat me. Not today!’ You screamed
out and tackled her down on the floor with your magic, a few feet away from
you. You managed to stood up by holding onto the table that was near you,
giving yourself some support as you managed to do the exact same thing she did
to you. She screamed out in pain as bones snapped in her right our, making her
squirm on the floor in pain.
'Nice move.’ She
muttered and quickly got up, holding her broken arm close to her body. 'But you
really shouldn’t have done this.’
'You really think
I’m afraid of you? I’m not, Liv. This could have gone in a totally different
direction, but no, for some reason you decided it would be the best if you kill
'You wanna know why
I want to kill you?’ She said and started walking towards you, pain visible on
'Because of Kai.’
'What are you
talking about?’ You replied as she walked around you, your mind completely
befuddled as you didn’t understand what she meant by that.
'Don’t act so
surprised. You know my brother likes you. Loves you, to be more exact.’
'I hate to break it
to you, but we’re just friends.’
'Yeah, no. See, he
took away my friend, my brother, the only person who understood me, so, I’m
gonna do the same to him. Take away the person he loves the most. You.’
'I may be, but one
thing I know is, tonight, I win this fight.’ She stated and the last thing you
know, you were flying across the room and hit the wall. Your weak body dropped
down on the floor, a piece of glass piercing the skin on your arm. She slowly
started walking toward you, a huge smile never leaving her face. She kneeled
down beside you and look at you from head to toe before her eyes met yours
'Too bad, we
could’ve been friends.’ She muttered and then soved a piece of wood in your
abdomen, making you scream out loud.
'Kai? What are you
d-’ she didn’t even finish her sentence. She passed out on the floor not far
away from you while Kai ran to your side.
'Is this what you
meant by being careful?’ You stuttered, your eyes locked with Kai’s.
'You’re crazy and I
hate you for making me feel this way.’ He trailed off and bit his wrist,
bringing it close to her mouth, his warm blood trickling down your throat as
you felt the wounds on your body completely healing.
'Why did you come
'Because I- the
thought of you getting hurt was eating me alive and I couldn’t let anything
happen to you because of…’
'Because of what,
'Because of this.’ He
said quietly and cupped your face. He looked deeply into your eyes, your faces
only a few inches apart. He was looking at you like he was asking for
permission to kiss you and then not even a few seconds later, he finally kissed
you, his soft lips finally met yours.
'What was that for?’
You let out a deep breath, his face still close to yours.
'I love you. I knew
this the entire time but I guess I was afraid to say anything because I didn’t
want to ruin our friendship.’ He said what he wanted to but you kept quiet and
Kai started thinking you didn’t feel the same about him.
'You don’t have to
say anything. It’s ok.’ He showed you a weak smile but when he looked away,
that smile was gone.
'Kai look at me.’ He
turned his head and at that moment you pulled yourself up and sat on his lap,
your legs on the each side of his body, your faces so close you could feel each
'I’m crazy about you
and nothing can change that.’ You trailed off and kissed his lips again, his
arms wrapping around your body. After everything you’ve been through, this was
exactly what you needed and where you wanted to be.
*(I think something similar to this was already written, but I hope you like it)*
I just want to post this again. Tyler Hoechlins ass is amazing. Look at it! It’s perfect. As well as those back muscles. Those calves aren’t too bad either. God bless us for Everybody Wants Some. Tyler’s short shorts, crop top, and this underwear scene is one of my favorite reasons for loving him and the movie. Those underwear almost look see through!! 😱😱😱like you can maybe see the skin tone through them. Plus you can totally see the indentation of his crack. Wow… I’ve really got to get my mind out of the gutter lmao. Yay Hoechlin!!! I hope he does more things like this in the future. Or perhaps shed all the clothes. It better be a damn good role for him to shed clothes. I don’t want him to have like one line then get naked. He’s too good for that. Let it be a leading man role that gets him lots of spotlight time. Then he can get naked. That’s fine by me. And the gif is not mine. So credit to whoever did it.
Pack not trusting you but Liam doesn’t care
I could see Liam walking towards me and I didn’t know if I
should feel excited or nervous. I like Liam but we would never work out because
the Pack for some reason doesn’t trust me just because Theo is my brother.
“Hey Y/N, I was just
wondering if maybe… you would like to go out some time?” Liam scratched the
back of his neck. I didn’t know if he was put up to this or if he genuinely liked
“Um, like on
a date?” I asked while shifting my weight.
really like you and I want to get to know you,” Liam seemed to gain some more
would love to but it seems like you pack doesn’t like me,” I couldn’t look him
in the eyes because then he would have control over me.
I don’t care what they say, it doesn’t mean shit,” Liam lifted my chin up so I
would look at him. I smiled at his words.
I would love to go on a date with you,” Liam’s face lit up with happiness and
he flashed a smile at me.
can I hold your hand to show I mean it?” I couldn’t stop smiling as we walked
down the halls, ignoring the confused stares from Liam’s pack.
A/N This is kind of short, but I felt like if i dragged it on it wouldn’t be as good. Hope you enjoy!
Y/D/N: Your Dog’s Name
Summary: Reader is Barry’s new girlfriend and invites the team/family over for a BBQ, only for them to be shocked that you have three large dogs.
Warnings: I don’t think anything lol
Barry didn’t take you as a dog person, especially not one who would have three larger dogs as a part of your family.
He didn’t mind, of course, but when he and the team were invited to your BBQ they were shocked to see your three pets. When he walked into your house, even his super speed wasn’t quick enough to stop the Doberman from pouncing on him. Barry made a noise of surprise as he thought he was going to be attacked, preparing himself for any biting that would come his way.
Only he never received any. Instead, he was attacked by your dogs large, slobbery tongue. You groaned, attempting to pull your dog off,“Y/D/N, get down!” Cisco knelt down to pet your pit bull, who oddly enough looked as if she was smiling, while Joe and Iris couldn’t contain their laughter.
Your Dalmatian came walking toward the group with a toy in her mouth, and you grinned at your friends and boyfriend,“Well, the food is almost ready if you guys want to come out back.” They all nodded and followed you out to your backyard, dogs in tow.
“You know, I really didn’t take you as a dog person.” Barry spoke, walking up behind you as you pulled the last of the hot dogs off of the grill, kissing you on the cheek. You smiled up at him,“Why’s that?” Barry shrugged, taking the plate and walking it over to the table you had set up,“I don’t know, actually. For some reason you’ve just always seemed like a cat person, maybe it’s because you can be sassy like them.”
You laughed,“Hey! Dogs can be sassy, too! Just wait till you get to know mine, they’re hilarious.” He just grinned back at you, watching you hand out paper plates and cups to everyone around the table.
As everyone began to pile food onto their plates and fill their cups up with lemonade, Barry couldn’t contain his smile. He watched in happiness as you talked and laughed with the people he held so close to his heart, and he laughed along as your pit bull snuck up and grabbed your hotdog out of your hand, making you throw your hands up in annoyance but give the other dogs hotdogs too (because it wasn’t fair that only he got one).
Barry wrapped an arm around your waist, feeling your Dalmatian stick her head in between the two of you, causing you to wink at Barry,“Sorry, babe, you’re gonna have to share me with them.”
He had no complaints, having a feeling he’d become quite fond of the dogs you called your family.
I want to talk about this for a quick second, because this is one of the purest things that Lukas has ever done for Philip.
Philip is such a giving person, he puts all he has into his relationship with Lukas and we have seen time and time again that he will put himself through hell to help make Lukas more comfortable. And while Lukas clearly cares for Philip, he doesn’t know how to show it and deal with his feelings and ends up taking more than he gives a lot of the time.
But this, Lukas was so ready to have some wet, wild fun with Philip and is clearly disappointed when Philip won’t get into the water, but instead of guilting him or trying to manipulate him into going swimming, he simply goes and sits next to Philip.
What really makes this moment beautiful to me is that Lukas doesn’t question Philip or press him about his reasons for not wanting to go into the water. Lukas has to be curious (I know we all are), but he can tell that Philip feels seriously about it so he simply accepts it.