i really want it to be an equality thing

One of the things I actually really love about Royai is the fact that there’s so much we don’t know about their past and what happens post promised day. Of course I’d love to hear what Arakawa thought happened, but because we don’t, there are endless possibilities. There are so many amazing headcanons and story ideas that have come out of this scenario and it’s brought out so much creativity in the fandom. I honestly kind of don’t want to know what Arakawa thinks about Royai, because I’ve read so many different and equally equally engaging and compelling versions of their past and their future, and I’m still up for hearing more.

zero to hero: HELP I CAN’T/DON’T WANNA START STUDYING
  • five minute strategy. this is something that has really worked out for me: when i can’t bring myself to start, i force myself to do something just for five minutes. then once i’m in, i go on a roll of 20-minute periods of studying, rewarding myself every time i am successful in accomplishing that 20-minute period. the rewards i’ve given myself range from tea/coffee, small 5 minute breaks, to hanging out with my friends or buying things i’ve always wanted to buy.
  • be curious. don’t get me wrong: not every subject is equally appealing and sometimes i do struggle with boredom. but since i enjoy quite a lot the process of studying and learning more about medicine, during the first month of the semester i force ahem, give myself every day about 5-8h to be curious on the subjects i’m studying. so if, say, i’m studying cardiology and i want to learn more about valvular problems, i’ll read from textbooks and borrowed notes even if it’s not something our professors have talked/might be talking soon about, because it’s something i want to know more about today.
  • go study somewhere that is relaxing to you: yes, even if it’s an hour-long drive from where you live. Always better to lose an hour or two than an entire day or week.
  • make it fun: …and now as last resort (or maybe not) try to blend in at least one of your hobbies into your way of studying. if you’re into drawing, include sketches or doodles in your study notes to help you remember facts, lists, etc. coming up with crazy games, small challenges or milestones can also help. be inventive! think of a way to make it fun so you can actually bring yourself to start.

the trick is to reduce the total amount of time you spend procrastinating, or thinking about doing it; doesn’t matter how you start, so long as you do start. Trust me, you’ll be better off starting at 20% of productivity (then slowly walk your way up) than not starting at all. Your future self will thank you for that.

  • now i know this is not our ideal goal, but sometimes it’s always better to face that exam having learnt a 50% of the subject instead of just a 2% because you thought it was too late to make a difference, or decided that you were done trying to find ways to make your studying more enjoyable/fun, because you felt that by doing that, you weren’t being productive enough. (And i’ve seen that happen a LOT.)
If there is one thing I’ve learned about you it’s that you are equally as self destructive as I am.
You didn’t want to fall in love with me, infact I’m positive you didn’t want to fall in love at all. Between the two of us we managed to sabotage something beautiful and now your name burns in my throat like a shot of cheap vodka. Leaving a taste so vile I can’t help but spit you out. We really were just two shitty people trying to destroy each other before we destroyed ourselves.
—  You’re just another poem.
Female-driven stories are part of TV in a way that they used to be part of movies. Even before it was respectable, a great film actress could make a home in TV and get much more to work with — especially after a certain age. But having a female be the lead of an action series threw some people. That has definitely changed. What women are able to do in front of the camera has improved a great deal. There’s more options, more stories being told, more truth. Behind the camera? It’s not going as well. Equal pay? [Long maniacal laugh.] With Buffy, I obviously wanted to make a feminist show, but I wasn’t really interested in talking about politics. I wanted to see something that I felt I needed to see. I felt this girl wasn’t being represented. I wanted see a woman taking charge and men who were comfortable with that. That’s my thing. That’s my kink. At the same time, I was making a horror show.

anonymous asked:

Hi! This blog looks so great I'm really excited by it. In a story I'm writing (it's fantasy), there are elves, and as well as being off folklore/mythological elves, they're also based off autistic people but I'm struggling to figure out what an only autistic society would be like, do you have any ideas?

First of all, having a whole, non-human race be autistic can be quite problematic in terms of representation. See Mod Aira’s thoughts on non-human autistic characters here.

Since elves look a lot like humans, and are usually positively described as a race equal or superior to humans, that might not be that much of a problem, but you should still give this issue some thought and make sure this is really something you want to do. This is not a decision I can make for you.

As for the specifics of an autistic-only society, this is where things get fun !

Here are some ideas in no particular order. Of course I can’t cover everything and other autistic peeps are encouraged to pitch in as always!

  • Everyone is stimming freely and openly. This is seen as a completely normal thing. I don’t know how modern your universe is, but people are allowed to stim in school or in their workplace. Shops have whole “stim toys” aisles. There are sensory rooms available throughout cities for everyone who might get overwhelmed.
  • Social norms are completely different. Making eye contact is seen as rude, people are expected to explain their jokes and sarcasm. Actually, communities might write down and edit regularly their social rules so they are explicit and available to all.
  • Kids are taught in schools strategies to cope with sensory overload or to get stuff done with executive dysfunction. They are encouraged to work on their special interests and it is used as a medium to teach them other things. There is highly individualized teaching and varied teaching styles since all kids have different needs. They would also be taught (either by caretakers or educators) many life skills, such as self-care, taking care of a home, taxes… more explicitely.
  • In our society, there are things that are seen as “basic needs” that everyone shares such as be well-fed, warm enough, not be in pain, have enough time to sleep… In a workplace or school for example, those needs are supposed to be met. The other needs, the ones not everyone has, are seen as “accomodations” when they are met, and are often more begrudgingly met. In an all-autistic society, meeting needs such as sensory needs or break time when you are overloaded wouldn’t be considered as making accomodations, but as meeting basic needs and as a normal thing.
  • Autistic people are very diverse and sometimes our needs are conflicting. For example, some might be hurt by loud noises, while some may need to stim and regulate themselves by making/ listening to loud noises. So it is probable that people with similar needs would gather in communities.
  • Since a lot of autistics are nonverbal at least some of the time, I think all verbal people would also know a nonverbal language such as a sign language they could use to communicate with nonverbal individuals or when they go nonverbal themselves. Communicating via AAC wouldn’t be seen as unusual or surprising.
  • Art and culture would probably be very different. Autistic people are often creative, but they create different things from what allistics create.
  • I feel like emergencies such as fires would be handled differently. I don’t think loud alarms and blinking lights would be the most efficient. I don’t have ideas for an alternative system though.
  • Lots of autistic people have trouble driving and I feel like it would have an impact on the most commonly used means of transportation. Either, for a more primitive setting, horse riding would be a huge thing - since horses are sentient they can take care of some of the “looking around to make sure we don’t run over someone or collide into something” - or, for a modern setting, automatized transportation means would have been developed sooner than in our world.
  • There would be more focus than in our society on precise planning and available information. Navigating administrations wouldn’t be so chaotic, or else no one could deal with it. There would be early on a need to get stuff organized in a very clear, explicit way.


That’s all I can think of for now. I hope this helps!

-Mod Cat

There are some great ideas here and I can think of a million more, but I will restrain myself! I just want to add a couple of things as food for thought:

  • Sign language isn’t speaking, but it is still verbal (the brain still processes it more or less the same as any other language), so many people (including me) are not able to sign when nonverbal despite being fluent in a sign language. However, many autistic people find signing more comfortable than speaking, so I definitely agree that more people would know how to sign, and it would likely be a second language requirement.
  • I have to be honest here… Although I have many autistic friends online, I don’t have many that I see regularly face to face. I think there is a reason that autistic people make up a minority of the human race, rather than the majority. For all our advantages, we often have conflicting needs, and we are not at all specialized for living in large groups the way allistic people are. Even though I like my autistic friends a lot, I don’t like spending a lot of time with them in person because they… get on my nerves. I mean in specific ways - for example, we have completely unrelated special interests, and they infodump about theirs for ages, and I have no interest whatsoever but don’t want to interrupt and seem rude (since I hate it when people do that to me). Or they stim and it bothers me. I’m extremely hypersensitive, including to movement, so if someone (besides me) is rocking back and forth or doing another repetitive motion near me, I can’t even open my eyes or I get overloaded. I love my autistic friends and I love the fact that I’m autistic, but I would not want to live in a completely autistic society - I’d have to hide away from other people and I’d become socially isolated even more than I am in this world. Note that this is my personal point of view and NOT true for all autistic people. But there WOULD be people like me who couldn’t deal with being around other people’s stimming, and we might not all get along as well as you might think.
  • On the positive side: all the things that are considered “disabilities” in this world with regards to autism would be seen as the norm. Not being able to speak some or all of the time would be considered a normal personality trait, like being good or bad at sports or drawing. Suddenly getting up and leaving a conversation due to overstimulation would be perfectly normal. It would be a given that normal respect for other people includes maintaining a quiet and calm environment as much as possible.
  • Another issue regards public spaces. There is something called “selective attention” which allows people to block out background sensory information and focus only on what is relevant to them at the moment (for example, listening to what one person is saying when there are other conversations happening nearby). In autistic people, this is usually very weak or completely nonexistent. It’s not possible for me to filter out background noise. If I need to meet someone for a conversation or work meeting, it MUST be in a quiet place. I am incapable of following a conversation when more than one person in the room is talking. I literally can’t unscramble their words from the words of other people and it just becomes a jumbled mess of gibberish that rapidly becomes painful. So how would things like restaurants work? Cafes? Parties? Assuming many or most people can’t hear what someone is saying when ANYONE else in the room is talking, how could you have spaces like that? Would they exist at all? Would their be some kind of magic (in a fantasy world) or tech (sci-fi) that can block out all sounds outside of the group you’re in? 

Not trying to poke holes, but trying to point out possible issues that you should think about when creating your society. And as Cat mentioned, be very careful about painting a non-human race as “like humans but autistic”. Being autistic is not an inhuman state, and it can be very damaging to describe it as such, even if your intentions are good. I would be much more comfortable with a human all-autistic society than a non-human one. Maybe consider making the humans all autistic and code the elves as allistic. :P

If you keep all this in mind, I’d be interested to see what kind of society you might come up with. Good luck!

-Mod Aira

Women I know keep asking and saying things like “why march for such small things? (i.e. tampons) when women in other countries have it so much worse. I can vote, own land, etc.. *then proceeds to point out things that are either half true or probably still happen in America just like in the other countries before mentioned* ”

You want to know why?

Because they marched for our right to vote and to own land and all that other stuff. Just to be treated, legally, as equals.

You see, little things add up. They always seem small until you put them together. If we don’t fight for the “little” things then why bother with fighting at all.

You know what’s great about women empowerment? It’s infectious. Who’s to say that the Women’s March wouldn’t effect people in those other countries to stand up for their own rights.

I’m thinking about how brilliant the game motif is. In act one the games played are chess and gambling (as referenced by Whizzer). In act two it’s baseball and racquetball. 

Marvin and Jason are both chess players as they over-analyze things and revel in their own intelligence. Jason, however, likes to play chess alone, he doesn’t want an intellectual equal and winning doesn’t really matter to him. It’s the activity that counts. For Marvin he needs a partner but a partner he can beat. He wants to be in control. And getting into the mindset of gender roles and Marvin’s own internalized misogyny the whole game revolves around the king, which in a sense is what Marvin wants to be of his family. Marvin can’t stand the idea of making any move that isn’t calculated and of being beaten or giving up any power. 

Meanwhile, Whizzer is a gambler. He describes this in “The Games I Play.” He is careless and doesn’t think too much. His life is based on passion and impulse. He hopes things will work out right but if they don’t, so be it. (This certainly foreshadows “Gotta Die Sometime”). This is what destroys Whizzer and Marvin’s relationship, Marvin is obsessed with control and Whizzer with letting go.

 In act two Jason is a baseball player and baseball is the running motif not chess. Whizzer and Marvin reconnect and the baseball game. Baseball is a team sport. The only team sport ever played in the whole show in fact. It’s about supporting each other and working together. In addition the way baseball is set up is that no one can move until one player makes a single move. Their movements are interconnected. This shows how all of the character have come together and need each other in act two. In addition Marvin asks Whizzer out after he has helped Jason with his swinging. Whizzer is becoming less nonchalant and more focused on helping while Marvin is recognizing that Whizzer can have dominance over him in some areas. 

The second game played in act two is racquetball. This is not a team sport but it is very simple and about a sort of back and forth. It sort of mirrors the dynamic of Whizzer and Marvin, always going back and forth between them. 

In the first game Whizzer wins and keeps the power on his end. Marvin however, doesn’t care, he says that all he wants is Whizzer and he doesn’t care if he wins or not. The second game Marvin wins. Marvin is regaining his power over Whizzer as Whizzer loses strength. However, this isn’t because Marvin is doing anything different it is because Whizzer has become sick. In his sickness Whizzer indirectly gives Marvin back the power he had always wanted. But Marvin doesn’t want it anymore and thus the games stop. 

The final game played is one more game of chess between Whizzer and Jason. This is the first time we see Jason actually face an adversary in a game (we do not see the other team at the baseball game) and the only time he plays chess with a partner. Jason offers to let Whizzer win but Whizzer (who had initially desired to be allowed to win during the chess game in act 1) tells him not to. He doesn’t want to be given special treatment. He wants to get the power back on his own. Jason, however, knows somehow that Whizzer isn’t strong enough for this and still insists that he will let him win no matter what. Jason has developed as a character as well at this point as we see he wants to play chess not just for the intellectual gain but to help Whizzer feel better. He wants a partner. 

In “You Gotta Die Sometime” the gambling motif comes back. This is Whizzer’s fate and he’s accepting it no matter how sad and angry and scared he is. The game is up and he knows this. He bet on the wrong horse so to speak and unlike any other character he has given into that fact. He gives the power over to death and fate. (Interestingly personified as Marvin in the song).

However, in the last seconds of the show Jason keeps the game going. He places the white king on Whizzer’s grave. He’s letting him win. In addition, Jews put stones on graves as they don’t die with time like flowers, so essentially he is letting Whizzer win forever. Whizzer will always have the power. It’s almost like Jason feels as if he makes Whizzer win he can bring him back.

TLDR this isn’t very well articulated but the games are such a good motif about power and the growth of Marvin, Whizzer, and Jason.

Chess as a symbol in falsettos

Chess is talked about A LOT in falsettos, so it’s clear it’s an important symbol. I saw a few posts about what it could mean and I want to give my input. To me chess has always been the equivalent of masculinity.

Especially in The Chess Game, winning at chess equals being more masculine. Marvin beats Whizzer over and over again until Marvin let’s Whizzer win, and when he does, he instantly regrets it. Marvin storms off but Whizzer stays and says “Whizzer’s supposed to make the dinner, be a patsy, lose at chess”. Lose at chess is really restating be a patsy, or make the dinner, both feminine things Whizzer has to do since he got together with Marvin. Marvin breaks up with Whizzer not directly for beating him at chess, but because Whizzer has rebelled against the housewife role Marvin gave to him. Marvin’s internalized homophobia hates that Whizzer chooses to do the masculine thing, and they break up.

Later in Days Like This, Jason brings a chess board to Whizzer’s hospital room and says “I’ll let you win Whizzer”. Whizzer responds “Don’t let me win”. In a way, Jason is trying to make Whizzer feel stronger in a health sense, which can be translated to masculinity. However, Whizzer acknowledges the fact that if a child has to let him win, it’s just as bad as losing.

Additionally, 

None of the female characters are shown playing chess, or wanting to play

In act one, Jason likes playing chess alone, where he can’t lose. He feels demasculinized because he doesn’t know if he will be queer via genetics yet so he wants to prove he is masculine.

At the very end of the revival, Jason places a king chess piece on Whizzer’s grave. This could simply be Jason calling Whizzer a king or him saying that Whizzer, in a way, won life itself, showing Jason’s infinite respect and love for his friend. 

tl;dr let’s start a discussion of what chess means in falsettos

You’re just a bunch of children tbh. You did not dislike the episode because it has “plot holes” you disliked it because you didn’t get johnlock canon the way you wanted.
Breaking news, Sherlock calling John family, coming back to the apartment with him and taking care of Rosie is more than canon (probably the most canon thing they could’ve done) and calling it “the worst episode of all times” just because you didn’t get to see them snogging is childish as fuck.
Did you really think that Sherlock and John were going to have some sort of romantic moment? Like, actually romantic? I don’t even know what to say, I’m just speechless, this fandom is just a flock of children thinking they are fighting for queer rights and equality but you’re just stomping and sulking like fucking Eurus

:: psa.

roleplays are not one-sided
roleplays are not one-sided 
roleplays are not one-sided 
ROLEPLAYS ARE N O T ONE-SIDED. 

please – if you ever have any INTENT on writing with me – don’t expect me to do all the work, or don’t say you want to write with me and not ask me what I think about something. generally, I’m okay with MOST things, but if you’re just going to be creating all the ideas, it doesn’t seem really fair. don’t go into a roleplay with me expecting to just satisfy YOUR needs before clarifying that. it is an EQUAL thing, and all roleplayers must be treated with an equal amount of respect.

Free Stuff for Poor Witches/Vultures

I’m actually not joking.

So you all know that I love doing giveaways, and if I could afford to I’d probably do one every week. I’ve decided to start a voluntary list of “in-need” witches. It wouldn’t be posted online, just kept by me, and people who feel that they do not have the monetary ability to purchase things that they really need (or want) can message me to be added to this list.

Every time someone makes a purchase from my store, 10% of that price will go to a fund. Whenever that fund reaches $25, I’ll randomly draw a person from the list to receive a free item(s) from my store equaling $25. This could be bones, grimoire/journal pages, jewelry, carvings, etc.

So for every $10 someone spends on my stuff, $1 is going to help someone get the supplies that they otherwise wouldn’t be able to afford. It’s my way of being able to contribute to those people who help spread word of my store and items.

For those that would like to join the list: message me with your name and main blog name.

For those that would like to contribute: my store is RoadkillRescue on etsy, or you can ask me on Tumblr what I have available. I don’t always keep an updated etsy shop, and I’m working on a new shop website currently.

anonymous asked:

I really hope that Lance gets to have a few episodes (or a whole arc) about his bisexuality and coming to terms with it (alongside his feelings for a certain mullet), and the one who helps him is Shiro because i really want to see their relationship to develop to being equals.

SAME OH MY GOD I REALLY HOPE SO

could you imagine! how important that would be for young bisexuals!!! being so certain that you are just attracted to one gender even though it doesn’t feel quite right is something that many of us can relate to and it can be a pretty scary thing. hopefully if the show does do a bisexuality arc for Lance, it will be handled well. 

(plus if Shiro does end up being the one to support Lance first throughout this arc, i’ll be so happy. Lance’s hero, his role model, being a supportive dad and giving Lance the validation he needs is something i desperately want to see)

Dating Draco Malfoy Would Include:

Originally posted by thetimelordsofbaskerville

  • Constant touching
  • Getting lost in his eyes
  • Reassuring him that he is not his dad
  • “You are the best thing that has ever happened to me”
  • Bickering
  • “You are an asshole, and I love you”
  • Him always playing with your hair
  • Listening to him vent
  • Him protecting you from his parents
  • You and his mom getting along really well
  • “Well if you like that Weasley so much, why don’t you go marry him!”
  • Jealous
  • You being equally as jealous
  • Never wanting to loose each other
  • “Don’t do this Draco”
  • Finding a way to stay together through it all
  • Sneaking into each others dorm
  • Him hexing anyone who teases you
  • “I’ll kill that…”
  • “Draco calm down it’s alright”
  • Neck kisses
  • Words whispered in the night
  • “I’m so in love with you”

Requests Open

If you could be more aware of the vibrational state of being that is responsible for the reality that is manifested and put your emphasis on the vibrational part rather than the manifested-physical part, you will gain huge control back. Many humans never catch up to that vibrational place as long as they are in a body, because a very strange thing happens, when you really know what you don’t want, you send forth an equal equivalent request for what it is you do want. But so often you say things like “I really want that, I really want this”, but then you go right back to observing your now-reality as far as it is manifested which holds the absence of what you want, and you just tune yourself back into what you’ve got and therefore away from what you want. What you want is already done. It’s PRESENT TENSE as far as we are concerned. Consider it done, and stop looking on the UNFINISHED PART OF IT, which only holds you vibrationally out of sync with it’s doneness.
—  Abraham-Hicks
When “breaking gender stereotypes” goes too far

I’m all for equality but when girls’ toys are being taken away and pink is being replaced with grey due to “breaking gender stereotypes”, you’ve probably taken things too far. Sure, it’s a win for feminists and social justice warriors, but who it’s really hurting are young girls who just want to play with toys that they like.

I agree that parents should expose their kids to a wide range of toys and play activities, and of course they should teach them to be accepting of kids who enjoy gender non-conforming toys. But the fact remains that not many boys want doll houses and not many girls want dump trucks.

Children are not gender neutral and if these young feminists fresh out of their gender study classrooms believe otherwise, that’s probably because most of them have not yet had kids and really have no idea what children want.

Consider what Lego discovered after four years of investigating and interviewing thousands of children to figure out what it would take to get girls to buy construction blocks. 

In one experiment, boys and girls were asked to build a castle. Now for the boys, the castle was just the hastily constructed scene in the background. For girls, the castle was central, and they wanted to know what was going on inside. Unlike the boys, the girls wanted detailed and personalized characters so that they could imagine them as friends. 

After all this research and all their efforts to gender neutralize their toys, they unsurprisingly concluded that boys want ships and battle themed lego sets and girls want friendship and princess lego sets. And guess what? Girls and their parents, they rewarded Lego for figuring out what they wanted and millions of these sets were purchased, much to the disapproval of gender-neutralists.

Elizabeth Sweet, feminist sociologist and presenter at the White House summit, told the Wall Street Journal that, “Pinkified building sets send a clear message that girls are fundamentally less capable than boys when it comes to building.”

Major protests ensued, including a large online petition accusing Lego of “selling out girls”. But who are really selling out girls here? The toy company who are giving children what years of research prove that they love to play with or feminists taking them all away and telling these children they’re incapable of playing with a pink toy without it destroying their lives? 

Chicago Lab School kindergarten teacher, Vivian Gussin Paley, wrote of her observations in her classrooms. She learned that girls are just as interested in domination as boys. Their play is full of conflict and imaginary power struggles. Their fantasies are just as complex and inventive as the boys’, though manifestly different and it’s these differences that feminists have to stop pretending don’t exist. 

And as Paley says, “No amount of adult subterfuge or propaganda deflects the five-year-old’s passion for segregation by sex." 

Paley grasped a simple truth that many feminists today are forgetting: ignoring genuine differences between boys and girls is just as damaging as creating them where none exist. We should be celebrating our differences and using them to compliment each other, not teaching our children to deny and repel the very existence of their own gender.

And a final point: Lego did test-market a play set featuring female scientists. Wonderful, right? Wrong. The activists were still not satisfied: "Why are they wearing lipstick!!??” they asked…

I think that women’s rights is very prominent in politics right now, as it should be. A lot of women everywhere are speaking out and are really fighting for change and equality. I hope that our show has even a little bit to do with that, even if it’s just influencing the younger generation to realize that, when they’re older, they can have all the things that they want and they are strong enough. We should all be on an equal playing field. I learned a lot about that, from being around Lynda Carter. I do think that, in any circumstance, until it’s not a conversation anymore and it’s just a given that there are more female characters leading their own shows, every show counts. It does make for change. Lynda was one of the pioneers of that, and she was doing it on her own. She was the only female superhero, at that time, and it’s pretty impressive, what she did and what she went through.

so a big part of gilmore girls is obviously the battling of social classes. lorelai in working class and her parents in the upper class— which leaves rory somewhere in between. there has always been an issue between lorelai and her parents about where rory really belongs. in season 5/6, this comes to a climax that, according to the fans, is pretty much the worst thing to happen in this show. rory steals a boats and then quits school and lives with her grandparents.

but here’s the thing: it’s not out of character.

even though everyone likes to paint rory as being level headed and frequently use the pro/cons list as an example of this, that is not always the case. rory has a history of making impulse decisions based on her feelings. past examples of this are:

  • running away & shoplifting after dean kisses her
  • yelling at the class once she is late for her AP test
  • making a speech in the s1 finale based on her feelings for dean
  • goes to new york in 2.21 to see jess
  • kissing jess at sookie’s wedding bc she likes him even though she’s with dean
  • sleeping with dean

yes, she makes pro/con lists. but you know why she probably does that? because she recognizes that a lot of her past mistakes are done on impulse decisions. of course she’s afraid of making the wrong decision she does it all of the time. 

right before she steals the boat, she is told by one of her journalistic heroes that she doesn’t have what it takes to be a journalist. her dream job. she is, understandably, upset. of course she doubts herself and her abilities. i am not surprised that she stole the boat and im not surprised that she quit school.

bad decision? yes. out of character? no.

Things Non-Diabetics Say part 5

“So which is worse?”

You want an answer. I know. But there isn’t one. Being low and being high are equally as bad. You don’t really understand what you’re asking so you keep asking; not liking my answer. Not satisfied.

You’re not asking if I’d rather be high or low.
You’re asking:
Shaking or thirst?
Numbness or pin pricks?
Seizures or losing limbs?
Can’t make a fist because you don’t have the energy or can’t make a fist because its painful?
Cold or stiff?
Not being able to write because I can’t focus on my own thoughts or because holding the pen physically hurts me?
Death or death?

I’m dying either way.
I can’t function either way.
Either way I don’t want to get out of bed.

So why does it matter which is worse? Which feels worse?

headcanons I have about the Hamilton college au

Alex: political science/ English double major, never stops working, has to go, has to get the job done

Burr: law major, really frickin hates Alex bc he gets away with everything and passes all his classes with almost straight A’s

Eliza: social sciences major, really wants to work with kids in like therapy or social services, total cinnamon roll

Angelica: women’s studies major, probably started an equality club, wants to double major in political science

Peggy: photography major, hella artsy, the definition of aesthetic

John: biology major, favorite thing to study is animals, has thought about changing his major to veterinary

Lafayette: hella undecided, can’t figure out what to do with his life, poor bean is a ball of stress bc he feels like he doesn’t have a plan for the future (but he’ll be ok)

Herc: design major, makes hot pants™

Dad™Washington: political science professor, really wants to strangle Alex and Thomas bc they’re always about to strangle each other, needs a vacation

Jefferson: political science major, is definitely the guy who has crazy parties on the weekends and gets completely hammered, probably stoned 24/7 but still somehow manages to pass all his classes

Madison: political science major, but only bc he felt pressured into it, follows Thomas around all the time bc he was the first person who talked to him when he transferred from a different university

Phillip: English major, really loves writing, def has all the ladies bc he’s the cliché sensitive one™

Maria: business major, is way smarter than anyone gives her credit for bc they just see her as a pretty face (but she could totally destroy you)