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Things I Think About

- Murdoc has a doctorate.
- Murdoc can speak Spanish, German, and French.
- Murdoc built a cyborg.
- Murdoc painted a giant pile of trash bright pink.
- Murdoc built the Plastic Beach HQ building.
- Murdoc wrote all the songs on Plastic Beach.
- Murdoc sacrificed himself for his band.
- Murdoc is rotting.
- Murdoc cares so much.
- Murdoc talked a kid out of committing suicide.
- Murdoc was raped when he was nine.
- Murdoc has a lot of pain.
- Murdoc is extremely driven.
- Murdoc has a great sense of humour.
- Murdoc is not as bad as some people make him out to be.

Retrogade Planets

People born with natal retrodgrade planets can spend more time in self reflection, ensuring that the qualities of the sign have been satisfied on a deeper, more spiritual way. Retrograde planets take a backward step and spend longer in the sign and house. As the Earth passes the planet in orbit it appears to go backward. From the point of view of the horoscope, it does move backwards. Psychologically, this means the planet is going to reverse direction and go back over area it has just crossed. 

Mercury retrograde:

  • Is this information valid?
  • Do my thoughts match up with my inner values?
  • Is this the right occasion to share my thoughts?
  • Do I need to be alone to figure this out?
  • Do I need to gather more information?

Venus retrograde:

  • - Does this person reflect my value systems?
  • Did I react appropriately to the social situation?
  • Do my actions really reflect my morals?
  • Was how I acted fair?
  • Did I treat that person correctly?

Mars Retrograde:

  • - Was that the right outlet for my energy? 
  • What am I really desiring?
  • Why was I/am I so self destructive?
  • Why is that fear holding me back?
  • Why did I feel the need to be defensive on that occasion? 

Jupiter Retrograde:

  • - What are my spiritual desires?
  • How do I develop self control?/why do I deny myself pleasures?
  • What was the meaning behind that?
  • What is the universe trying to tell me?

C.

Low Genetic Diversity Confuses Aliens

Hear me out… So amongst our fellow animals we have very low diversity due to a bottle necking of our population like 70,000 years ago. Genetically speaking, humans are literally almost identical to one another and the outside identifiable features really aren’t that radical a concept when location/ exposure to radiation from the sun is taken into account… and our insides basically identical. Seriously, humans aren’t all that different from each other when compared to the genetic diversity found in other animals.

So just picture aliens coming only to find us all being basically identical to one another… Yeah, there are some color/height differences and some other things here and there but overall pretty similar. Same basic structure and really the colors are on the same color spectrum so really not all that different. What if they couldn’t see colors the way we can? What if their sight is based on parts of the light spectrum we can’t see making our visual color markers meaningless? What do we have left on a purely visual scale? 

So, maybe they somehow test our genetics? Well, we’re still basically the same and they have to look. Remember, first contact and they don’t really know anything about us. Maybe our DNA system is different to their genetic system, idk. But still, the point stands, we’re still pretty much the same. So that’s an out for them figuring us apart. 

My point is, to aliens humans can basically be a hive of clones and they wouldn’t be all that wrong. I’m just picturing them confusing us with one another like someone who confuses a pair of nearly identical twins they don’t know that well… Just you know, on a larger scale.


“Human Ariel, I need some help with this. Can you spare a moment?” I asked confident I was speaking to the right human. Human Ariel and I are nearly friends, I know her general height, coloring, and even her radiation range! I can pick her out of crowd easily.

I wait a moment for Human Ariel to respond. When she does’t I try again.

“Human Ariel… Human Ariel!” This startles a response from her.

“Ugh… Were you talking to me?” She looks confused.

“Yes, Human Ariel, could you help me carry this down to the bay?” I ask confident.

“Oh… Sorry bro, I’m not Ariel. My name’s John, but sure I’ll help you.” He smiles and offers a hand. 

I don’t understand. All the basic markers are the same. Brown hair that’s short compared to some others, about 1.7 meters tall, same basic anatomical structure and proportions, some light radiation markers. I just don’t know where I went wrong.

After Human John helped me down to the bay I realized personality wise Human John and Human Ariel were nothing alike. However, I was still not convinced there was any outward difference between the two.

Self Care

It’s Mental Health Month. May 1st. The beginning of it. I just want to post some tips on what I find useful when I feel anxious, depressed or lonely. Some tips on how to care for yourself mixed in here too. I know what it’s like to feel like nothing is going to work out and you feel like there is no point anymore. I still get sad from time to time but here is what I try to do to lower those horrible feelings. 


  1. Music 
    When I feel down I put on my chill playlist and listen to the songs. Not just recognize that the song is playing. I listen to every word, every beat, every instrument that makes a sound. I listen so hard that I forget everything else around me and forget everything that is going on in my head for a while. This actually really helps and especially if it’s a slow song, something that matches my mood. 
  2. Reading 
    Reading is one of my favourite things to do. I’m in love with words. And getting deep into one of my favourite books helps me forget for a while. Grab something to drink and maybe a snack, find a quiet and comfy place to relax and let yourself fall into a book. 
  3. Eat 
    When I feel depressed my appetite can go away pretty quickly. But if you don’t eat, you’ll feel even more tired and low. And that’s not good. So eat. Not junk food. Maybe a treat every now and again but make sure to eat healthy too. Fruit or vegetables. Maybe make some type of sandwhich or maybe eat a bowl of porridge. Whatever you want to make. But remember, not always junk food. And drink lot’s and lot’s of water. 
  4. Shower or bath 
    If you feel all ugh, and ew take a long warm shower or a bath full of bubbles. Taking a shower or bath might help you feel more relaxed and feel more taken care of. And keeping yourself fresh and clean will help help boost your system. 
  5. Fresh air 
    When I’m down, I get lazy. So the whole ‘take a long walk’ thing doesn’t go with me. What I like to do instead is open a window and stand there or take a chair and sit near there. I’m getting fresh air into my lungs which is good and I don’t need to get up and go outside to do it. Now getting exercise is a good thing to do too because it’ll boost your system also. But when you really can’t get up and walk far, just go to a window and read or listen to music.
  6. Cry 
    Yes crying is on this list. When you really need to let those tears out, just do it. If you’re in a place you feel comfortable enough to do it. Let it all out, for however long you need to. Crying doesn’t make you weak or a loser or whatever you think it makes you. It helps you. Instead of holding all those feelings in, you can let them out by crying. So just do it because a cry every now and again, will make you feel a little better. Hopefully. 
  7. Decorate and change it up
    This may be an odd one but it helps me. When I’m sad I’ll look up some quotes that I really like, write them on some paper and decorate the paper and stick it on my wall. Or sometimes I sift things around. If I think something in my room would look better in a different position then I’ll move it. I’ll maybe take some things down and hang something new up instead. Tidy my room too if it needs it. This helps because I’m focusing on other things. Where will this go? Does this look good on this wall? Things like that. Try it and see. 
  8.  Breathe 
    When I feel like I can’t breathe, I remember that I just need to take a minute. Look at my surroundings. What’s the colour of the walls? Breathe. What’s in the room? Breathe. What’s the weather like outside? Breathe. What’s my favourite food? Breathe. Do I have any plans this week? Breathe. Ask yourself some questions. Answer them and breathe. Breathe, breathe and breathe. Don’t let you make yourself small. Think bigger than what that stupid annoying voice in your head is telling you. Breathe. Because you’re worth it.

I hope these tips helped. I really do. And please, please REMEMBER… you are beautiful. You are so amazing and this world needs you in it. Maybe you feel like no one cares. But I guarantee you there is somebody out there who thinks the world of you. You are somebody’s moon. You’re that person who lights up the darkness for them. Don’t let your light go out. Stay strong and remember to love yourself and take care of yourself. You guys are more than welcome to ask me something if you need any advice or have any questions. The door is open and you are welcome. 

So You Think You’re Not Racist

Alternate title: “Levels of Racism: Why White Fans and Creators Have a Responsibility to Confront Our Biases”

So here’s a thing I’ve been thinking about for a while. I’m pretty sure it’s nothing new and if anyone knows of resources written by Black people that address this, please send me the info because I definitely want to read them. 

(Also if I’ve misstepped or misspoken in any way, please let me know. Criticism is welcome.)

Part of the difficulty of discussing racism, particularly with other white people, is that we don’t actually think about the same thing when we talk about racism. The way I see it, there are three levels:

  1. Individual beliefs and actions that are rooted in racial prejudice
  2. Subconscious racial bias that comes from socialization
  3. Systemic racism enshrined in institutions of power

There are probably more in between, and obviously these aren’t strict black and white categories; there’s a lot of overlap and blurred lines involved. I don’t know if any particular level is worse than the others, and I don’t think I’m qualified to speak on that. But I think these work well as large bucket categories.

The problem is that often people are talking about different levels without actually realizing it. When I try to get my parents to understand why level 2 might lead them to judge Colin Kaepernick’s method of protest unfairly, they respond as if I’ve accused them of level 1 racism. When I tell my coworker that I don’t like the Bruins because the crowd booed PK Subban every time he had the puck, I can tell he’s desperately trying to come up with a reason other than race because he doesn’t want to accuse an entire stadium of people of being level 1 racists, when really the problem is probably a mix of 1 & 2.

And obviously, they’re all bad. They’re all racism and we should fight against all of them. But I think we have to fight against the different levels in different ways, which is why people get frustrated with these conversations.

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When you see a Black Hole 10000 times larger than our Sun and leave the spaceship to take a picture ✔✔💯👀📷🎥📹


When you accidentally fall into a Black Hole from your spaceship, but are okay with your inevitable death 😨😱😆😂


When the pilot sees you get incinerated at the event horizon, due to “Hawking’s Radiation”, and only your ashes are left. 💀💀👀😭👎👎


When you realize you didn’t instantly die because you passed through the event horizon unarmed, due to Einstein’s Theory of General Relativity, and the gravitational pull of this huge black hole isn’t strong enough to spaghettify you, so you end up experiencing “Einstein’s Happiest Thought” bc you’re peacefully floating forward in time unharmed (until you eventually die at the singularity). 

When you existing in two places at the same time defy the law of Physics, stating information cannot be cloned.

When you remember because of Quantum Physics, information cannot be lost, therefore; all traces of your existence has to be left outside the black hole (ashes) even though you are alive and well inside the black hole.

When it turns out you aren’t violating this law of Physics because only one of you exists in both you and the pilot’s reality, and there is no one around to prove the existence of two of you.

When the copilot, still in shock, doesn’t want to believe you’re dead, so they try to look inside the black hole themselves, from safe distance, utilizing Quantum mechanics rather than relativity.

When the copilot has something up their sleeve called “Spooky action-at-a-distance” which allows them to collect samples of your ashes, to see what info its entangled with, in order to determine if you’re alive or if all your remains are across Hawking’s Radiation.

When you know no matter the answer, it will either break General Relativity or defy the laws of Quantum Mechanics.  

When science and technology isn’t fast enough or advanced enough to decode the entangled information, so no one will ever know if you’re really dead or alive bc the Black Hole will be long gone by then.

This is gonna be cheesy but

In a way, I think this is insanely appropriate.

We’ve had to survive delays, we’ve had to survive the fandom, we’ve had to survive the manga. We’ve had to go through some really though times, there are some who left us, some who gave up, some who didn’t make it; but we’ve pulled through, we’ve all kept fighting until today. Just like Eren and the Survey Corps, always outnumbered, always outgunned, faced with bigger and bigger obstacles. And then, in chapter 50, all hope seemed lost. Everyone was dying. Everyone was failing. Everyone had given up, because it was the corps greatest challenge yet, or, as Erwin and Jean put it, it was truly hell. 

Is this not the same for us? After all those delays and whatnot, we’re mere days from season 2 and…BOMBSHELL, only twelve episodes. It’s unfair, it’s bullshit, it’s depressing as hell. But out there on those fields, even though all hope was lost and he was powerless against the one enemy he had wanted to defeat all this time, Eren gained the strength to get up, Eren didn’t give up, which resulted in a flawless victory for the Survey Corps. So how about it? Let us pull through this cour drama, and lets focus on whats ahead of us! An insanely anticipated, gorgeously animated arc full of feels, failures, victories, and awesomeness. 

Let’s not lose hope in the final moments before we can achieve victory. The night is darkest just before dawn, and dawn is coming. As long as we keep fighting, we haven’t lost. 

Lets win this one, for us