i really need to clean the bathroom

I want Hallmark to make a card that says:
“I’m sorry for how ashamed of me you must be; I really only want to be someone you could admire.”

I want them to make cards for the friends who don’t hold your hair back when you vomit, but only because you cut your hair so short;

The ones who clean you up and put you to bed after you’ve had too much to drink, and give you two blankets instead of just one.

I need a proper Thank You card for the sort of friends that are few and far between, because a lot of people would just let you fall asleep on the bathroom floor, you know.

A lot of people wouldn’t offer you a cigarette without you having to ask,

And a lot of people would just leave and stay gone after all that shit you tend to drag them into.

You could have spent that night alone;

You could have spent a lot more time bleeding and crying on the street.

You could have said Thank You with your voice and not a Hallmark card because honestly this is getting to be A Little Ridiculous,

But it’s so hard, you know, to say this all out loud, because then you’ll hear it just like it’s happening again, and you think if you let them down one more time that you will just drown and fall to the bottom of Lake Michigan.

And a Thank You card is neater and cleaner and prettier and easier to fit in a mailbox.

As we approach the new semester, I thought I’d share some tips to help you get off to a good start!

Before the Semester starts

Routine - Try to stick to a morning and evening routine. If possible, set out your clothes, pack your backpack, and pack your lunch the night before. If you’re not someone who does things the night before, develop a system for making things run smoothly in the morning.

I personally don’t pack my backpack the night before. I make a checklist of everything that needs to go into my bag on the Iphone reminders app. Every morning, just check or uncheck everything that’s on your list. This is a quick way to make sure you don’t forget anything.

Organize - I don’t just mean tidy up, but really organize! Take the time to get your desk, bookshelves, room, and bathroom just how you want it. Declutter by getting rid of the things you don’t need. Dust all your surfaces and clean your sheets. If you have time, go through your computer and delete unnecessary files that are slowing it down. Once the new semester starts you will have a clean working and living space and you can stress a little less!

Find a study space that works for you - Experiment with a few different combinations to find what works for you. Desk or floor? snacks and drinks? Candles or incense? Music or no music? Windows open? Having the perfect study spot can make all the difference.

Get all your supplies together - Pick out pens, pencils, notebooks, and a bag that’s functional for you. Invest in a good thermos, water bottle, and lunch containers. (Discount stores and dollar stores are a great spot to shop for these things on a budget!) I try to wait until the first day of my class before buying textbooks so I can see which ones I actually need and the cheapest option for obtaining them.

Once the semester starts

Syllabus - The first few days of school when you don’t really have any homework, go through your syllabi! I don’t just mean read through them once and call it good! Take notes on your syllabi like you would with any other important subject and put the notes at the beginning of your notebook/folder for that class.

Textbooks – Once you find out which books you really need look for downloadable pdfs or people in your class who have the pdf, chances are they don’t mind sharing. Professors also sometimes have a pdf of the book that they will give you if they’re on the nicer side haha.

Make friends in your class - This will save your ass!!! Having a couple people to text if you’re absent or wondering which chapters are going to be on the test is super helpful! You usually end up making friends with the people who sit right next to you so if you want on the first day of class (go ahead and be a little judging a book by its cover) sit by people you think you’d like to be friends with if you saw them outside of school. This helps make it easier to strike up conversations and become study buddies, share notes, phone numbers, etc.

Find your spot - It’s important to have a spot on campus where you feel comfortable studying. It doesn’t have to be the library, take some time to explore areas of your campus you didn’t even know existed!

Study every day - Even if it’s just for five minutes try to study every day! Make your own study guides by writing down vocab words and key points that you can add to as you go.

PREREADING- Chapter pre-reading is your best friend! Make a reading schedule to make sure you have covered each topic before the lecture about it. I know this can be tedious, it’s what I struggle with the most, but it will help you tremendously when you face a difficult topic.

Try to keep your focus during lecture – Some lectures are almost impossible to sit through and your grades can easily reflect that. Take notes to keep yourself busy and try to keep good posture. ALWAYS KEEP HEALTHY SNACKS AND WATER WITH YOU! Snacking is the best way to keep you awake in class. If your teacher doesn’t allow snacking you can drink water whenever you feel yourself falling asleep.

“Befriend your professor”- I’m not saying be a kiss ass, but speak up in class and ask your professor questions! The more chill you are with your professor, the more likely they are to warn you about a slipping grade and give you opportunities to bring it up. Also, you’re going to need some professors to write your letter of recommendations and they always sound better if your professor actually remembers having you in the class. The best part of befriending you professor is that some of them have a literal library of books and pdfs that they’d be willing to share with you if you show interest. This tip is most important with professors who are teaching classes from your major!

Join a club - You have time to be in a club!!! Clubs are a great way to gain leadership experience, get active on your campus, and make friends! I was skeptical at first, but joining a club has seriously been the best decision of my college life!

Bujo/Planner

Don’t overwhelm yourself with your bullet journal! – Remember, it’s only effective if it’s functional for you. Try starting with a minimal layout and adding things as you need them. As soon as you come home from school open your bujo or planner and take a look at what you need to do. You don’t have to start your tasks right away but it’s good to have them in your mind. Leave your bujo open on your desk so that you’re reminded to actually do the things you wrote down!

Start your bullet journal’s weekly spread with Sunday, not Monday - This is totally a personal preference but I’ve found it helps me be more productive through the whole week. When Sunday is at the end of my week I have a habit of not writing in my bujo for it and waiting until Monday to take care of my responsibilities.

Set up an assignment tracker - Write down every assignment you do in each class and the grade you received. This will help you see how you’re doing in each class as well as help you calculate your grade towards the end of the semester. It’s frustrating to rely on the professor to upload your assignment grades online so do it yourself!

Self-Care

Build a morning exercise routine – Find something that works for you whether it’s a 10 minute yoga session or an hour long workout. Exercising in the morning can help wake you up and you should see a positive difference if you add meditation into this routine.

Take Breaks - If you find yourself overwhelmed by studying, take a break! This can sometimes be a slippery slope so set a timer on your phone for when your break is over! It’s best to do something productive during your break because it helps you to stay in an active state of mind. Howevr, there’s nothing wrong with scrolling through tumblr for a while as long as you can switch back to your studies.

READ - Not just for school but books that really interest you. If you’re not a big reader it might be because you’ve yet to find something you really like so keep exploring! If reading is a problem for you try some audiobooks! Reading helps you build your vocabulary and writing skills and it’s a never ending source of knowledge and imagination. Seek out books that will help you gain knowledge for your future career path!

Sleep - The most important and most overlooked thing in any college students schedule! I don’t try to go to bed at the same time every day but I do plan my bedtimes based on what time I have to leave in the morning. Look at what time you need to wake up and go to bed eight hours before that. You might have a different bedtime for every day of the week but stick to that on a week to week basis!

Get 2 hobbies! - One that helps your mind and one that helps your body! For your body try skating, bike riding, running, sports with your friends, yoga, hiking, etc. For your mind try writing, drawing, knitting/crocheting, embroidery, painting, gardening, ceramics, etc.

Hope this helped (:

Stitches

Originally posted by justjensenanddean

Summary: Dean having the Mark has taken a toll on your relationship with him, but not everything is as it seems.  [Majority told from Dean’s POV]

Pairing: Dean x Reader

Warnings: canon divergence, so much angst, character death, moc!Dean

A/N: So I was listening to Stitches by Shawn Mendes and this just.. happened? Actually really like how it turned out. Feedback is wanted and loved!


Dean’s POV

‘I thought that I’ve been hurt before
But no one’s ever left me quite this sore
Your words cut deeper than a knife
Now I need someone to breathe me back to life,  

“Dean-”

“Don’t,” I warned, giving my brother a short look as we walked through the doors of the bunker and ascended the stairs. I took a short breath before dropping the duffel bag of weapons to the ground and abruptly making my way to the bathroom, in desperate need of a shower to clean of the dirt and grime of the latest hunt.

I stood silently under the spray of water for ages, my mind absentmindedly running over the memory of your features, your laughter, the way you knew exactly how to break my walls and figure out exactly what was going on in my head, the way your lips and your skin felt so perfect against mine. I never thought I’d fall so hard and fast for someone until I met you.

And then you left. With no last word or warning, just some note lying on our bed that said “sorry.”

My mind had been going crazy over the possibilities of why you’d left, of what I’d done wrong. Quickly coming to the conclusion that the Mark was a valid reason, despite the fact you’d promised that you’d stick by me, through everything. Maybe it was the lie that hurt more than the fact you left, I mean, even the thought of what the Mark was doing to me scared myself.

But I need you.

The one good thing I had made through this crazy life had left me, and that fact pretty much broke me.

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Ideas for a Coffee Shop AU I’m working on

Shiro

  • Owner of coffee shop
  • Opened it so teenagers can have a safe and healthy environment to hang out after school
  • Will always let employees have time off to study because “education comes first”
  • Treats all of the employees like his children
  • Hates Starbucks with a burning passion

Hunk

  • Started working there because Lance made him
  • Actually loves it a lot and is really good at his job 
  • Makes really good drinks and innovates new recipes
  • Really sweet to costumers
  • Prides himself on always making the bathrooms super clean
  • “The shop needs to be a safe place to poop, Lance” “Literally no one notices the ‘shine quality’ of the mirror” “I do”
  • All of the old ladies tell him how handsome he is

Pidge 

  • Frazzled college prodigy student
  • Regular at the coffee shop
  • Basically lives there
  • Lance is pretty sure there is no plasma in their blood. Just coffee.
  • Complains about being poor all the time but constantly refuses Shiros job offers
  • Has the most frilly drink order possible
  • Is the taste tester for Hunks newest concoctions always

Allura

  • Very successful CEO of the fashion company “Altea”
  • Somehow totally oblivious to the fact that Shiro is in love with her
  • Orders something different every day
  • Is So Over Lances flirting
  • Always offers to help Pidge with homework even though Pidge doesn’t need it
  • Helped Shiro design the interior of the shop and the uniforms
  • Is a major social rights activist and always manages to get Pidge to come to rallies with her

Coran

  • Allura’s doting assistant
  • Hardcore Shallura shipper
  • Everyone loves him
  • Hunk has named a latte after him

Lance

  • Guy who works there after class
  • Always hits on costumers
  • Is low key such a hopeless fucking romantic
  • “One day I’ll have my own coffee shop au, Hunk, like in real life” “Is that why you wanted to work here” “You know it”
  • Hates drinking coffee sticks with his job for the Romantic Potential
  • Bodacious Bisexual
  • Somehow spills something on his jeans every shift
  • Doesn’t actually make any coffee drinks
  • He’s just the cashier
  • How does he spill coffee on himself
  • He is literally never near the coffee
  • What the fuck Lance

Keith

  • Angsty musician
  • Plays at an open mic night and Lance falls in love
  • Lance continually writes cheesy stuff on his coffee cups
  • “I’m not gay no really I’m not”
  • Is totally gay
  • Very much has the hots for Shiro and it drives Lance insane
  • Eventually begins to hang out around the shop as much as Pidge
  • Lance has his order memorized

Extra 

  • The coffee shop is called “Five Kitties” but Lance thinks it’s lame because “how am I gonna be like oh yeah I work at the Five Kitties” so he calls it “Voltron Coffee”
  • Shiro named it Five Kitties because of the five cats that visit his shop at night
  • Lance, Hunk, Shiro, and Pidge each take ownership of one cat, and name them Blue, Yellow, Black, and Green, respectively
  • When Keith starts hanging around the shop more, he names the last cat Red
  • They’re in constant competition with the “Galra Bean” coffee shop across the street

This is just what I have so far! Please please please let me know what you think!

I left right after because I really wanted (needed?) Chipotle and a little wine, but then I graded two assignments, budgeted and analyzed my finances for a solid hour, and very angrily cleaned the bathroom and kitchen.

My living situation is great right now with cheap rent, but I absolutely cannot wait to move by the end of summer. So done living with people that aren’t on the same page. Now it’s after 11pm and I absolutely could have been in bed well over an hour ago. Shoot me. I don’t feel good, I have a ton of deadlines coming up, and this weekend is ungodly busy.

Please send coffee.

When I started sixth form I had pretty dreadful grades. In December my Biology class had been told that anyone with less than 70% had to talk to our teacher. He told me that “I needed to work harder.” I was working flat out - I had nothing more to give. So he said 

“don’t work harder but work smarter”

This really upset me because I thought it meant I wasn’t smart but it’s different from that. I means you’re efficient. And this got me the grades I get today.

But how do you work smarter?

  1. When you’re studying dedicate all your mental capacity to studying. Don’t have the TV on. I like to keep a notebook/bujo with me so if I remember that it’s my day to clean the bathroom I don’t have to keep it in my head I can just write it down and focus back on studying
  2. ASK FOR HELP. SERIOUSLY, ASK FOR HELP.  Ask your friends, your teachers, your lecturers.
  3. Do the bits you find hard. Don’t focus on things you already know
  4. All subjects weren’t created equal. Focus on what the exam does and study specifically for that. So for biology a level I read the entire textbook because I needed to know a lot of facts. For chemistry I focused on being able to draw mechanisms like they were second nature. 
  5. Make goals. It’s so much easier when you know that you want to maintain your average or get a first or a 4.0 you yanks
  6. Make difficult vocab visible. Colour code, all caps, cover a page in it; it doesn’t matter. Then when you’re cramming all your key words will jump off the page
  7. Teach people. In revision I create audio files of me explaining topics without looking at my notes
  8. Do your studying in your best mental hours - I leave things like tidying for after study time aka 9-10pm.
  9. I like to use focustimer to see my % efficiency. For a single study period I like to be 95% efficient but for all day study I am normally around 50% efficient because I’ll have lectures and cooking etc
  10. If it won’t give you better marks in the exam don’t do work that is extra credit and won’t come up. By all means, work hard on your formative assessment if it’s a mock exam or benefits your learning. Don’t do things that aren’t efficient
  11. Don’t colour code for the sake of it - only do it if it helps you learn. It is time consuming and it shouldn’t look like a rainbow vomited.
  12. Try to get everything you need to study before you study so you don’t take breaks. Here is what I use
  13. When the brain fog sets in I either have a drink or go for a 25 minute cycle 
  14. If you’re super busy and you make your bujo beautiful develop a way to make it look pretty in about 30 seconds
  15. Don’t get frustrated if your efficiency capacity doesn’t form in a day. Mine took about 6 months to get me to the point I am at now
  16. Don’t do study days with your friends. Nothing gets done. Instead study in the day and go out in the evening
  17. Write your notes on your hands (not for the exam - duh), You will see them all day and it’ll go in to your head better. (I’m not sure about blood poisoning so be careful)
  18. Puns and devices are wonderful. The oesophagus epithelia is stratified so I drew a little Eliza Hamilton saying “isn’t this oenough” because she is always s(tr)atified.   
  19. If you get a bad grade ask for feedback. Go over it in detail. Just saying it’s not the end of the world with no proactive steps isn’t going to help
  20. Know when to take breaks because they’re v important. Don’t take them whenever but a day off once in a while can do wonders

Hope these help! genericstudyblr xx

anonymous asked:

So my bathroom sink is draining really slow I think it's clogged. How do I fix it? The cheaper the better

How to clean sink and shower drains without chemicals!

You need to remove the stopper from the sink. Then use a Zip-It (here’s where to get them - they’re ridiculously cheap) to pull all the nasty hair and gunk out of the drain. It’s going to be unbelievably disgusting (twice as bad with showers drains) and you’re going to want to be wearing gloves. Pull all that nastiness off the zip-it and toss it in the trash. Do this over and over until you have removed the clog. Then run hot water down the drain to clear anything remaining out. Replace your stopper and continue with life as normal. The whole process should take about five minutes.

This article from Family Handyman has some good pictures for how to do this (link) except they use wire instead of a Zip-It which is crazypants because it takes three times longer.

Better Off Dead// k.q.

//Self harming trigger// 

You and Kellin had known each other for ages, and had become closer over time. You had dealt with severe depression, and he had tried to help you through it. You had gotten about 10 months clean, when you relapsed; badly. You called him and he was on his way, but you were crying hysterically with cuts on your arms on the floor of your bathroom. Kellin had a key and was running through your house. 

“Y/N!! Y/N!!” he grew more and more worried. 

“Master bath,” you replied weakly. 

 "Y/N!“ He cries, dropping to his knees. He wraps you up in a hug, and you sob onto his shoulders. 

"I’m sorry, K. Really. I just couldn’t take it. I need to go," 

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Addiction

Originally posted by natasha-stark-rogers

Ask/Request: Bucky finds out his girlfriend is addicted to something bad and there’s angst and fluff


Pairings: Bucky x Reader


Warnings: Angst, fluff


A/N: I really like this idea!! I had to ponder how to write it though! Gotta thank Ro for giving me her opinion on this too!


I sat with my knees to my chest on the bathroom floor as tears slipped silently down my cheeks. I’d done it again. I knew Bucky needed me but I went ahead and did it anyway. I’ve tried countless times, but I always come back to it. It’s was the only way I know how to cope. I’d been clean for 2 months. For two whole months I’ve supported Bucky none stop. Until I couldn’t take it anymore. The pressure. The weight of everything on my shoulders. I snapped. I snapped and the first thing I went for was the meds. The only thing that I knew would keep me steady under all of that weight.

“Y/N? Hey doll where are you?”I heard footsteps approaching and then the bathroom door swung open, causing me to flinch.

“Y/N? Oh my god are you okay?”

Bucky kneeled beside me, pulling me into his arms and rocking me back and forth, shushing my cries, “Hey, hey, it’s okay. It’s okay. Just tell me what’s wrong.”

I whimpered softly, “I… I’m sorry! I’m a horrible girlfriend!”

Bucky shushed me, rubbing small circles onto my back, “Doll, tell me what’s wrong. Please, please tell me what’s wrong. You’re not a horrible girlfriend. You’re amazing.”

 I took a shaky breath and looked up at Bucky, “I’m not amazing. I cracked again. I… I just couldn’t… it was too much…”

 Bucky shushed me as he looked around the bathroom. He spotted the pill bottle and looked down at me with a sad smile, “Doll, why didn’t you come to me? Why didn’t you come talk to me about all of this?”

I sighed, “You’ve already had to deal with so much… You are going through so much. I couldn’t make you deal with my problems. This was the best option…”

Bucky held my face in his hands, eyes wide, “Don’t tell me you were… were you thinking about… taking your life?”

I looked down at the ground, breathing uneven, “It… it may have crossed my mind…”

Bucky wiped the tears falling from my eyes with his thumb, “Babydoll. I love you, okay? You have me. I’ll always be here for you, okay? We’ll get through this together.”

I looked up at him through my lashes, “But what about you Bucky? I can’t make you deal with my problems, you already have enough shit on your plate.”

 Bucky sighed, brushing the hair out of my face, “I do have problems, but you do too. I have to be here for you. You’re always here for me Y/N. Let me show I love you. Let me help you through this.”

I laid my head on Bucky’s chest and nodded.“I love you doll. We’ll get you through this. I promise.” “I love you too.”

When your parents are disappointed in you cause all you do is draw cartoons all day and pretty much the only thing you clean is your rooom: 

“"So I saw this picture on Instagram the other day and it said "what would you do if you woke up to this?” And the first guy who commented really pissed me off. He said that he would be pissed as hell and that he would make her clean it up and hope it doesn’t stain because “that shits nasty”.

Are you kidding me??

If I had a girlfriend and woke up to this I would run to the bathroom, turn on a nice warm shower, wake her up and tell her to get undressed and have her sit in the shower for as long as she needed, take the blankets off of the bed and throw them and her clothes in the wash, get her some new clean clothes and a towel and throw them in the dryer for like 5 minutes so when she gets out she can be warm. And then I would make her a hot cup of tea and bring her as much junk food as she wanted. I would cuddle her, I would play with her hair, and I would give her endless massages.
“That shit” is not nasty. That is normal. That is life.“”

5 stages of grief

MYTHLOVE

her eyes are missing in dreams, there’s nothing there, just clean skin, stretched neatly. like it was always that way. hey, there’s no shame in being a body of lies girl. the clawcut’s festered, become a part of her. i need it now, take it like medicine, like a holy thing. i’ve been seeing ghosts on the bathroom walls, their mosaic faces telling me i’m already one of them. people disappear, the water takes them, and the roads are clean again. i don’t expect to see your face for more than a month, don’t expect to hear your voice (SOMEWHERE) for more than ten days. some people, i’ve only really loved them after they’re gone. in cold storage, foxes lope, bark. fur always cold under my hands. the place is different every time. sometimes i leave bleeding, sometimes i leave with them. sometimes i cannot leave. sometimes i crawl into the coldest place, till i lose all sensation, till my heart stops loving.

PEARLBLOOD

her grandfather has a house in the hills. the journey down to the lake is fraught with hairpin roads and whispers from curious things. as a child she was never to go alone. as a child i went every week, once. running like a storm till i could outrun the trees and their dead hymnals. i did not understand grief then, but i understood fear (how to run from it). i understood love (the impure kind). grandfather says, child, foxes do not come here anymore. the world is too old for them. i am filled with a malice i cannot explain, for the hunter and the hunted. a fox stands by the lake, her eyes shuddering with the untold. she never comes across, but we look at each other for a long time. at night, grandfather smokes on the verandah. in the morning he will stir watercolours to make a lakescape for me. maybe he will paint me in, facing the lake, holding a camera. looking in (ON). maybe i will tell him, no. paint a fox, instead, with pearl-paws and ravening eyes.

IN TRANSIT

in ac three tier carriages, the subdued flavour of metal, the thin sheets. she feels the cold keenly, legs cramping on the steel-blue bunk. villages go by, the train stops erratically, greets empty platforms, a lone hawker boarding with his wares. the paper cup in her hands is wilting, the milky tea a wintry congealed mess. setting it aside, a pang of missing. quick, a turn to the window. a flash of whitegrey, a rustling whine, and then nothing. the train gathers speed. leaning back, i gather my bones together, dream bad dreams of sweat and platforms, curdles slipping down, sticking in my throat. sitting with my unflavoured milk as a girl, wanting to pour it down the sink. having to swallow. the train shrieks. it is still dark. we have not reached.

ADVENT

in a hotel, life jerks into a slow whir. they leave travel brochures at the door with breakfast. for 48 hours i drink only coffee, and look at pictures of places i will never visit. there can be no foxes here, in the heart of the city, but still, wherever i look, i feel the disjointed colour of dread. i call my grandfather from the front desk, it is the first phonecall i have made in five weeks. he says, where have you been? i say, oh, around. he says, i painted a fox for you. yes. yes, i thought you would. the clerk smiles at me. are you liking it here? i smile back. it comes automatically, no effort. yes, i say. it is almost spring, no? she looks thoughtful, says, good weather is hard to come by here. i think it will be overcast for some more weeks yet. would you like dinner delivered to your room?

DEPARTURES

the airport is pristine, as airports often are. in the waiting room, a part of a girl gets up. leaves, like a ghost. no one sees her go, but i feel it. it feels like freedom. winter, sighing into spring. putting the luggage up, i look out onto the tarmac. a fox, fur like snow-dusted dirt, eyes clear. she sits there a long time. i never look away. the plane moves, smoothly, gently. the fox stands, she runs, runs out of sight. the plane rises into the sky. sometimes, late at night, i see her eyes, unblinking. i see too much of myself in them.

i never see her again.

g-dragon x reader (request)

POV: Reader
Pairing: G-Dragon (Big Bang) x Reader
Rating: PG
Comments: As it turns out, I haven’t posted a GD scenario in like three months. That just feels weird to me. Anywho, this scenario’s probably awkward because the request doesn’t really give a whole lot of room for detail, but I feel I filled it out pretty well so it’s more interesting than just a short conversation. C:

Summary: “Hi may I request a scenario of GD and you in a club but you having to leave early as the music is giving you a headache and the smoke is choking you? thank you so much!!!” - Anon

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Ways autism and OCD interact

Since I’ve been seeing a lot of very good posts lately about comorbidity and how fallacious it is to claim that most mentally disabled people have only one disability I thought I’d open a conversation about make a post about my particular disabilities that don’t just co-occur, they feed into each other. Autism and OCD are very highly comorbid, so if you have one there’s a better than average chance you have the other.

Here’s some of the ways they interact for me:

-Stims becoming compulsions or vice versa. I mutter a lot to myself, whether it’s nonsense syllables or words that sound good to me (”iambic” is a common one) but when I’m beset by disturbing thoughts or even just embarrassing old memories my muttering becomes like a weird incantation to keep the thoughts away. Sometimes my obsessive phrases creep into my muttering too.

-Having a need to keep my kitchen and/or bathroom clean but often having a hard time bringing myself to actually clean them because they require contact with really unpleasant textures, typically of the goopy/slimy variety.

-The whole concept of alarm clocks — I need them because one of my obsessive fears is lateness and the consequences that arise from it, so I have to wake up with an alarm a good portion of the time since I’m a heavy sleeper, but they also induce sensory overload in me and I need to calm down for at least 10 minutes afterward through looking at stuff on my phone. As a result, I often set alarms at least 2 hours before I need to actually go do something.

-Feeling torn between urges to infodump when something really piques my interest and social anxiety/thoughts that other people secretly hate me compelling me to stay quiet. Usually leads to weird passive-aggressive and weaselly behavior from me.

-Overly literal thinking being a breeding ground for new intrusive thoughts, such as too-easily believing internet rumors, which is highly embarrassing to me.

Feel free to add more if you have this interaction too!

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All four corners of my dorm room!

It’s a bit empty right now, but it’s really light and clean and spacey and I love it tbh. And I’m so happy to have my own bathroom/shower. Tomorrow I’m gonna go shopping for some furniture and other cozy stuff and I’m so excited! I need all the cozy. This is where I’ll be working on my upcoming fics ;)

(One of my classmates suggested I’d go with blue/orange for matching colors and I only just managed not to fangirl on the outside. I might do it tbh.)

So I’m watching Season 2 of Arrow and can’t help but notice

FELICITY HAS A HEAD WOUND

After the van crash, where she’s actually knocked out, that head wound is pretty damn prominent.

I really need a fic where, at the end of that night, after Slade is subdued, Oliver  takes care of her. I need him watching her for signs of a concussion, going home with her because it can’t possibly leave her alone, waking her up through the night to make sure she’s still able to, sitting her on the bathroom counter and cleaning the blood off - and her LETTING HIM. 

Someone please write this? I have a train journey tomorrow afternoon and something like this would be perfect.

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I generally struggle with depression but every winter SAD hits me really hard and I find it hard to get motivated. I’ve been in a bit of a slump since Spring Ahead; after a month of waking up with/after the sun rises I’m back to waking up and getting on the subway BEFORE the sun rises. This weekend was my roommates birthday and we threw a party. I wanted to clean for myself but I really wanted to be clean for her. Sometimes you need that extra push of knowing others are coming to your space. Sometimes that push is the worst thing and has the opposite effect, but it was what I needed this weekend. These are pics from when I started at 9am and when I finished at 6:30. In between I also scrubbed down and vacuumed and reorganized the kitchen, bathroom, hallways, and living room. Found ufyh last fall, and it has been a tremendous help. Thanks for everything!