i really miss his blonde hair

It is the 29th of January, and I am eighty-nine years old, sitting in the garden of my Sussex cottage and watching the world’s only consulting detective play the violin. Her blonde hair is a mass of curls and the heels of her shoes are sinking into the grass as she sways and dances with the instrument. Sherlock has been dead for two years and missing him is an ache in my chest, except for those brief moment when I close my eyes and listen to Rose coax his instrument to life, and dream.

“I’m sorry, Daddy,” comes the soft murmur as the music stops. “I’m going to have to go soon. Miranda said she might need me to look at this really interesting murder she’s got.”

I nod and smile and get to my feet and-

 I’m standing in a lab at Bart’s and the most unearthly man I have ever seen asks to borrow my mobile and I say yes, and I do not understand in that moment that I will never stop saying yes to this man.

Soft grass under my cheek and Rose is crying as she turns me

I am strapped into a bomb and I am telling him to run, and I do not know that I have just carved out his heart and taken it for my own.

The sun haloes her hair and tears fall on my face.

I am standing in front of a grave and asking for another miracle, not knowing that my miracle is making his way toward me as I stand there.

I try to tell her not to cry. I am not sure if I succeed.

I am standing in front of the man I love with tears on my face, and he draws me close and enfolds me in his boundless compassion.

She smiles at me and throws her phone to the ground and holds my hands in hers. The sky behind her is fading to grey, and it occurs to me to wonder if I am dying.

I am wordless and at the end of my rope, and Sherlock has mercy on me and kisses me and I know that I hold his heart in his hands and he, mine.

She’s speaking but I can’t hear her. There’s a sound like a train whistle, like a summons bell, and I can’t hear her.

I am on my knees and I have just asked Sherlock Holmes to marry me, and he falls to his knees with tears in his eyes and says yes yes yes like a prayer or a song or the only word he knows.

She strokes her hand across my brow and smiles at me again, and the whistle fades.

I wake up every morning for a thousand days and he’s there, sleep-rumpled and happy and smiling at me as though I’d hung the moon.

“I love you, Daddy,” she murmurs as her hand cups my cheek. “Thank you for staying so long, I love you but it’s time to go.”

I’m watching my daughter get married and my husband is at my side and we go home and cry tears of joy on each other’s skin and make slow love in front of the fire.

“Tell Sherlock I love him, and I’ll see you again someday,” my daughter says and kisses my forehead.

I’m standing at the foot of a hospital bed, and monitors are screaming and doctors are shouting but they needn’t bother, he’s already gone. Always rushing ahead, my beloved, leaving me to tag along behind him. Well, no matter, I’ll catch up.

I am adrift in whiteness but there, there is a tall shadow in the distance. A man, perhaps, running. He has his coat collar up so he looks cool, and he’s shouting ‘Come on, John!’ and I follow. I will always follow. My legs are young and strong as they haven’t been in forty years or more, and the head of the man in front of me is dark as the midnight sky, and I am young and he is young and we are young here, together. Forever.

Oh, God, yes,” I say, and I run.

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“And in the meantime, we’ll stay right here and take things slowly.” He lifted a lock of her hair. “I miss this.” ~Excerpt from Before Ever After junior novelization

When I first read that passage, it really bothered me. One of the things we all really loved was his thing for brunettes, and it seemed out of character to go back on that!

But then, it occurred to me…

This is Eugene’s way of telling her that he loves her no matter what she looks like. Short, brown hair? Long and blonde? It doesn’t matter to him, because her hair doesn’t matter to him. It’s Rapunzel he loves, and that was what made him stand out in her mind from the start. That was what made him so different from the life she’d know up until he climbed into it.

Pledis: We’ve decided, Minghao, that your hair’s gonna be red!

Pledis: No wait, scratch that. It’s gonna be dark pink!

Pledis: Actually, no, your hair’ll be bluey silver!

Pledis: Nah, nah, blondeish silver works better.

Pledis: Although, come to think of it, we’ve kinda been missing your brown hair…


Street Racer!Jimin

Now it is time for the first half of the Busan line, an absolute angel who is looking s o nice like he’s always looked nicE but just when you think he’s hit the peak, he’s just like jk haha like did you see the pics from GDA that was some good shit, Park Jimin aka chim chim

  • Starting off with visuals bc he’s a literal model
  • Orange!chim bc I saw this gif set the other day of orange!chim and how it’s the best hair color on him and I was just sold
  • I mean blonde!chim is looking really fucking good too like I mentioned before GDA pics were literal gold but I gotta stay loyal to orange!chim it was just so perfect and beautiful and I miss it (but I’m also super content with blonde!chim)
  • Also I just wanna add in that all black clothing!chim is one of my favorites so he’s forever in black jeans that make his thighs do the thing where they’re really muscular and ni CE
  • Okay so I’m gonna throw in some bad boy!chim (here) just for the hell of it I love bad boy!chim
  • So for everyone that hasn’t read the original post, I’ll sum the visual side of it
  • He’s got a lip piercing (probably spider bites) an eyebrow piercing and he’s got a couple tattoos, his main ones are the Mama 2014 tattoos where he had the album name on his side and then never mind on the other (my mind is still blown that it was so planned out fuck me up bighit)
  • On top of those tattoos, he has the tattoo that all of the other members have, a “B” to represent the group Bangtan
  • His “B” is on his wrist, on the side of his right hand
  • He chose that spot bc it’s pretty easy to cover up, just put on a couple of bracelets and no one can even tell but also bc it’s pretty easy to show off
  • When he’s racing, he makes sure his arm is in view so everyone can see it as he drives by
  • Okay but we all know that Jimin and chim are basically two different people, when Jimin’s off stage he’s just a shy lil bub that giggles and just wants affection from all the people but on stage he’s ripping shit off he’s growling he’s doing the hair thing he basically goes into attack mode
  • And I think the exact same thing would happen for street racer!chim
  • Like he walks in with his all black clothing and all of his tattoos are hidden and he’s just giggling and talking to everyone Tae introduces him to and everyone’s cooing at him
  • Everyone automatically assumes he’s either there for a friend or it’s his first time there bc he’s just so smol and cute and not the typical racer but then they also see that he’s in the same group as Yoongi and Jungkook and Namjoon and it’s just oh shit
  • They don’t realize it until they’re up against Jimin and Yoongi goes over to tell him about the course and it’s just like one of those oh s hiT moments bc they know they’re about to lose
  • Head canon time but he’s a lil bit of a flirt when he’s racing (no one realizes that he’s only flirting with you from afar)
  • Like when he wins a race, he always winks at someone you and he’ll give a lil smirk to someone in the crowd before a race like he just gets that confidence boost chim gets when he’s in his zone 
  • Jimin is a pretty versatile racer but his specialty is just being really fucking fast he’s the racer that you never get ahead of
  • You know how when BTS were in those idol races and Jungkook started running and literally slows down bc the gap between him and the others is so huge, that’s street racer!Jimin
  • You can pretty much put Jimin in any type of race, short distance long distance, he’ll win 99% of the time
  • He’s only ever had a few losses and those were when he was starting out
  • But that’s quickly a thing of the past bc those were just test races so Yoongi could see what type of racer chim would be so that he can help him out
  • Yoongi gets Tae and Jungkook to race against chim bc they’re the fastest racers and that’s when yoon sees the potential bc if beginner!chim can get that close to beating them, he’s got some talent
  • Okay but head canon that he and Tae are forever racing against each other
  • “If I win, you have to do the laundry for a month”
  • “Emphasis on that ‘if’”
  • “Fight me”
  • Jimin and you have been together for years so you’re there to see the boys training him and you get to see him go from a total beginner who couldn’t even drive in a straight line at that speed to a badass racer that’s just a beast
  • You already know that chim has a less than innocent side to him so it doesn’t really surprise you when he tells you what he’s gotten himself into and tbh you’re just glad he’s got the boys around him to keep him safe
  • Like you never have to worry about him bc if any of the boys thought for a second he could get hurt, they’ll stop him
  • You go to every race to support him and sometimes you’ll even join him in his car
  • “What’s this button do?”
  • “It’s for the radio I told you this car doesn’t have any cool buttons, it’s a normal car that just speeds up quickly”
  • “But what’s that one”
  • “The heater”
  • “So you’re saying if I push it we don’t get a sudden burst of speed”
  • “I’m saying if you push it, you’ll get warm” 
  • “Awesome”

// seventeen + colors aesthetic (7/13)

// s.coups | jeonghan | joshua | jun | hoshi | wonwoo | woozi | dk | mingyu | the8 | seungkwan | vernon | dino |

// lemonade + persian blue

// “You know, I kind of miss your pink hair.” Jihoon turned to look at you with a raised eyebrow, an amused smile on his face. “Really?” You nodded, laughing. “Yeah. It’s my favorite hair color on you besides blonde. I think… I think it really fit you.” He laughed, going back to the song he was working on, and you only watched Jihoon with a small smile. His lips tinted a light pink, his cheeks brushed with the slightest shade of rose. His heart was a salmon shade, and his love a hot fuscia. And you’d never be able to get over it.

Gerard Way - Smut Request

*a/n thought a bit of student teacher could change it up a bit
- also I need comments of whether I should start laying my stuff out how everyone else does, with a word count and shit, it’s just kind difficult because these are written on my phone in my notes, just wanted to know if you guys want me to change*

“Miss y/l/n, what did I just ask you?” You teacher asked taking you completely out of your daydreaming.
“Um…” You paused, not having a clue. He sighed and ran his hands through his obviously dyed (but in a very attractive way) blonde hair.
“Please can I see you at the end of the day y/n”
“Yes Sir” you mumbled, feeling embarrassed. You weren’t a bad student. And you and Mr Way usually got on really well, (with him being quite a young teacher he got a long with your class as you were the oldest students at 18) but the last few weeks you had been distracted, not by anything in particular just that feeling your get when you can actually focus, you look at a book and the words don’t go in as much as you want them to they just won’t. And you find yourself staring at the page and nothing but you’re also blanked out from everything else, you just can’t do it. That was how you were feeling and now that afternoon you had to somehow explain it to him.

You spent the rest of the day going through classes thinking about what would happen after school.

You stood outside his classroom, he was sat as his desk on his laptop and you could hear him playing rock music. You knocked on the door almost hoping he wouldn’t be able to hear. But he did and looked up smiling and beckoned you in.
“Hi y/n, did you want to take a seat” he gestured to a space and moved opposite you.
“I’m so sorry for today, I mean I don’t know what was going on and-” the words stumbled out of your mouth.
“Hang on a second, you don’t have to apologise, I got you hear to ask you if you were alright and to see if I could help, you haven’t been yourself recently in class, is everything okay?” He asked in a concerned tone.
You looked at him not wanting to reply
“I don’t know, I don’t think so…” You stared at the floor.
You felt him take your hand in his.
“I’m here if you ever need anything, okay?” He took his other hand and lifted your chin with his finger.
“Thank you” you said quietly and smiled.
You squeezed his hand and stood up, he followed. You moved yourself onto a table. And pulled him towards you.
“What are you doing?” He asked.
You wrapped your hands around his neck and kissed him.
He pulled away, “wait, are you sure?” he asked, you answered by kissing him again, this time deeper, he kissed back and bit on your lip, causing you to let out a slight moan. You pulled at his tie, desperately trying to unknot it.
“Not here, we’ll have to go somewhere else, if anyone see’s us I’m done for, right you leave like normal and I will meet you round the corner of the school with my car. Understood?”
You took the information in, still shocked that this was going to happen.
“Yes sir” you replied and winked at him.

You walked out of school, the car park was half full, so it would’ve been likely you got caught and walked down the road. A car pulled up beside you and the window rolled down.
“Get in then” he smiled.
You walked around a sat in the passenger seat.
“So where are we going to go?” You asked as you buckled up.
“To mine? Unless you’re having second thoughts, I can take you home?” He asked.
“No, that’s fine, just thought your girlfriend would be there or something”
“I’m flattered y/n but I don’t have a girlfriend” he continued to drive.
“So you won’t get in trouble if I did this to you?” You said as you grabbed his crotch.
He let out a whine and tensed up
“No, please keep going” he moaned out.
You palmed him from outside his trousers, his dick was growing had and was getting too big for them.
Luckily you had just pulled up I his drive.
He got out his car carefully and opened your door. Letting you out, he took your hand and pulled you inside to house taking you straight to his room.
“You are amazing” he said as you pushed you onto his bed and kissed down your body.
He raised your top and kissed your torso, one hand slid down your jeans making you squirm.
“Fuck” you gasped and he moved his fingers around your clit over your underwear, you grind against his hand.
You undid his tie and began unbuttoning his shirt, he stopped you before you could take it off him.
“Wait, I’m in charge now” he said and used his tie to tie your hands to his bed.
He ripped his shirt off and his trousers. He climbed over you with just underwear on and pulled your jeans off. He then attacked your neck with his lips, one hand went under your underwear and he started pumping his fingers in and out of you.
“Gerard” you screamed his name in absolute pleasure.
He stopped, “you’re being brave, that isn’t how you’d address me in the classroom, then again, I wouldn’t be able to do this to you in the classroom” he moved his lips down your body and removed your underwear with his teeth.
He opened your legs and kissed your inner thigh, then flicked his tongue against your clit. You were desperately trying to push his head down but couldn’t get your hands free.
“Hey don’t squirm now” he looked up at your and you stopped, he went back to licking you but you needed more, you tried using your legs to wrap around him and push his head down.
“I said don’t squirm” he sat up “if you don’t obey you get punished” he pulled down his boxers to reveal his hard cock, he untied you and you went to touch him, desperately needing his body against yours.
“Stop” he said preventing you from reaching out to him “turn around, all fours” you did as you were told and he leaned over you.
He pulled your legs slightly open and slammed himself into you from behind and stopped allowing you to adjust.
“My god, please sir, I need you” you moaned out.
He pulled back out and pushed in again starting a rhythm, his room was filled with the sound of your bodies clashing and moaning.
He moved one hand to one of your breasts and he massaged it grazing over your nipple as he fucked you, making you moan even more.
“I’m so close, please don’t stop” you moaned.
He pulled out and turned you back over.
“I want to see that beautiful face when you come” he said and kissed you hard and he pushed himself into your and fucked your fast pushing himself deeper into you.
You screamed his name as you came over his dick whilst he continued fucking you as you rode out your orgasm and he went over the edge.
“Fuck” he moaned into your neck as his thrusts became sloppy and he slowed down kissing you gently.
He pulled out and laid beside you,
“did you want to stay? I can drop you off round the corner in the morning” he asked you as he played with your hair.
“Yes please, I just need to call someone”
“Okay beautiful, I’ll run you a bath”
You called your parents explaining that you were staying at a friends. Gerard walked back in “It’s ready” he carried you to the bathroom bridal style making you laugh. You laid in the bath and Gerard sat by you talking and laughing the entire time, he helped you dry yourself and gave you one of his shirts, he wore bottoms and you wore a top. The two of you stayed up downstairs watching films until 2am, when you were falling asleep on the sofa and you felt him kiss your forehead and carried you upstairs feeling a mix of tiredness and love.

“And what, leave you there to die?” Ryan slides his fingers into Gavin’s hair and grabs them roughly, tightly. He forces the blond to look at him, suddenly furious. “You really think I’d take losing you over getting shot?”

Blindfold by - miss-ingno


Anon requested: “Hi! Can you make an imagine where reader is Rebekahs twin and begs Klaus to undagger her but no matter what she said he refuse and says that if she will try to touch her he will dagger both of them for very long?”

“Morning, brother.” you say as you enter the kitchen. Klaus is sitting and reading newspaper. “How’s the World War II going?”

“Better than I thought.” he answers you as he drink his coffee mixed blood.

“Nik, can I ask you something?” you sit next to him.

“When you ask me like that you remind me of your twin, sister.” he giggles.

You move a bit and look at your reflection in your plate. Same blonde hair, same cheeky eyes… You really miss your twin sister.

“About that,” you take a deep breath. “I really miss her, Nik.”

“Y/N, we talked about this before.” he says without looking at you. “Rebekah will remain like that.”

“But, Nik, she didn’t do anything–”

“Sister!” he throws the newspaper away and gives you a really angry look. “Do not push it.”

“But I want to see her! She’s my twin for God’s sake!”

“Then you can look at a mirror to see Rebekah, can’t you?” he teases. “And of course you can see her as she sleeps in her comfortable coffin.”

“Niklaus! Please, I beg you, I’d do anything!”

Nik laughs nervously and throws a knife on your shoulder. Okay, that hurt.

“Let me make my intentions clear, sister.” he hisses. “If you ever, ever gonna touch Rebekah and her lovely dagger, I will dagger both of you for a very long time.”


“End of the conversation, sister. Blood?”

“Hope you’ll choke on it.” you mutter and leave the kitchen.

I really wanted to draw Jin’s blonde hair so here he is!! His hair, surprisingly, was the hardest so far. Maybe because it was blonde? I don’t know… I just had to put a lot more work into it than I thought I would. I like it though. And it didn’t get deleted this time!

And so, I saved the best for last, Hobi is next!! I’ve been on such a Hobi kick recently… He’s making a very good run to become my bias… Sorry Suga!

An update on the commissions: I’m hoping to have the first volume finished and printed by mid July at the latest. I just got a new job, so at this moment, I’m currently employed at three jobs, PLUS I’m doing commissions, so please be patient with me >_< I’m sorry!

I hope you guys like Jin though!

I’m crazy for you because you’re crazy.

This guy wants to kiss me.

This guy wants to kiss me and he’s not you.

For the last 25 months, you were the only guy I really kissed,

And kissed consistently.

Even after a few months of fighting,

We kissed.

Even after you left me for her,

We kissed.

Even after we agreed on staying just friends,

We kissed.

So now this guy wants to kiss me-

And I haven’t heard from you in weeks,

And I know this is common for you to do-

But that doesn’t make it hurt any less.

It doesn’t make me miss you any less.

This guy-

He has blonde hair too, but it’s nothing like your mess of a head.

His body isn’t as scrawny,

His voice is deeper,

His eyes are brighter,

His personality is simple.

And he’s nothing like you and maybe that’s why I want to kiss him back.

Kiss him back hard and long,

And enjoy it.

Knowing that it isn’t you,

Somehow proving to myself that I can have fun with another guy.

Without guilt, or shame, or thoughts of how much I’m so damned in love with you.

So that’s what I tried to do.

I got in my car at 1 a.m. and started driving to his house-

But I hit a red light on the way,

And was forced to sit and think about what I was doing.

I started questioning.

This guy-

What if he tastes you on my lips?

What if he can smell your scent still on my sweater?

What if, when I’m on top of him, he can see the emotion still in my eyes?

And the red hue because I’m still high off of you?

Eventually, the light turned green.

And I ended up making a U-turn.

I drove all the way back home in silence and tears.

I laid in my bed and looked up at the blank ceiling thinking-

This guy wanted to kiss me-

And he probably still does-

And there are probably a lot more guys out there that will want to kiss me-

But they aren’t you.

So there’s really no point in any of this.

The only guy I can ever see myself kissing,

The only guy I really want to kiss

Is you.

I can no longer deny this.

So there’s really no point in any of this.

Because these guys-

Aren’t you.


This is purely fiction! Anything I have said in this is taken out my mind. I don’t know what went down and I don’t want to act like I know. So without further questions here is the fic that I have promised you all. It’s shorter than what I’d like it to be but I like it so here you go!! Don’t kill me if you don’t like it!

Not edited… I really need to find a place where I can edit the things I missed.  


She was standing there dancing like her usual self, his head was trying to tell him to go talk to her but he knew that she wouldn’t want anything to do with him. He had a girlfriend any way, it wasn’t like he was desperate for someone to love him. But in the back of his mind he knew that he didn’t really love Aarika, she was beautiful but that was all. He still wanted the girl that stood in front of him though. Beautiful short blonde hair with stunning blue eyes and red lips to go with it. Everything she did was beautiful and he couldn’t help but stare.

Yes she was a super star and he was just a Dj but he’s heard of weird things happening all the time. He watched her dance though. There was no need to go over to her, there was no need to talk to her they had similar friends but that was it. There would be no connection and he would be at a loss for words because the blonde that dances weird has his heart and he can’t tell her that. He sat there trying to stop his shaking hands that was until Ellie came up and sat with him. She smiled at him and he gave her a side hug.

“What cha looking at?” She asked him.

“Nothing much,” he said not wanting to give anything away.

“Really? Does that nothing include a 5’10 woman that likes to dance like no one is watching?” Ellie asked already knowing that answer.

“What are you talking about Ellie?” Calvin tried to play dumb.

“Oh come on any one a mile away could see how you were gawking at her,” she shrugged at him.

“I’m with someone,” Calvin rolled his eyes.

“Aarkia is beautiful I won’t lie but… She was you’re summer fling, no pun intended, but what happens when fall settles in and you are cold and lonely?” Ellie always had a way with words.

“It is past fall… Ellie I can’t. She’s fucking Taylor Swift for crying out loud. She is the girl that everyone thinks is toxic because she can’t hold a relationship,” Calvin told the truth.

“Taylor was searching for herself in those boyfriends Calvin. But could you blame the poor girl, the media had chewed her up and spit her out more times than one… Now that she’s found herself I think the days of her toxic relationships are far behind her,” she seemed like she wanted to convince him, she was the small little devil on his shoulder.

“Why do I get the feeling that you want her and I together?” Calvin looked at Ellie with a sideways glance.

“I just think that she would do you some good. Whipping you into shape that’s all,” Ellie shrugged.

“What shape?” Calvin asked.

“You are already nice and caring sometimes Calvin but there is still a lot of things you need to learn. Respect is a large part, not that you don’t have any but it just comes out as rude sometimes. How to curb your tongue is another. Taylor is grace and beauty with a side of quirky and sometimes weird, if anyone could get you to settle down it would be her,” Ellie smiled at him.

“El you know how much I take your option in to account but this isn’t something that I can think about. I’m with someone and I am not one to cheat you know this,” Calvin explained it to her.

Ellie nodded and they were both just quietly sitting there, neither wanted to talk because they both knew that they would bring up Taylor without even meaning too. Calvin’s eyes wondered over to her once again, she was with her really tall friend and he was trying to remember her name, his head always went fuzzy when it came to names but he watched as she was just talking to her like it was just a casual party. He saw her eyes glance over at him and he stopped, he couldn’t look away is was already too late she saw his eyes on her. Her lips curved into a small and she started walking over to him leaving her friends behind. His head was reeling, what would he say to her? I like how you crazy dance? He shouldn’t have been looking at her like that, but somewhere in his head he liked how she was probably going to be the first to start a conversation.

She saw Ellie first and she hugged her like it was nothing but a casual day for her, but Calvin was sure that it was. Though Ellie had made it big she was nowhere near the stardom that Taylor was probably around all day. “Hi, I’m Taylor,” she reached a hand toward him.

“Calvin,” he took it and smiled at her.

“Oh I know who you are. Your song Feel so Close is like one of my favorite songs right now,” her smiled widened and he couldn’t help but feel pride, pride because he gave her that beautiful smile.

“Well if I knew you liked dance music I would’ve sent you an invite to one of my shows long ago,” Calvin couldn’t think of anything else to say, what do you say to a woman that you wanted more than air?

“Ha-ha! Oh that would be so worth it! I hear you are amazing live,” Taylor was sending out flattering words one by one. Could she not tell what she was doing to him?

“Tell me which concert and I’ll tell my people to let you in,” Calvin stated trying not to look over at Ellie, she had this large grin on her face like this was all a part of her master plan.

“Oh my gosh! Really?” She seemed too excited for it but he could tell it wasn’t fake excitement at all, he knew fake excitement, and he was flabbergasted.

“Yeah… I mean if you really want to come. It will be a lot of lights and a lot of people but there will be a spot for you,” he nodded at her.

“Yes, thank you!” She leaned in for a hug.

Calvin had heard that she was very touchy but he thought that it was only for people she knew. He hands slipped themselves behind her holding the small of her back, oh how he wished this hug wouldn’t stop. She didn’t let go and it was starting to get weird so he was the first one to actually move away from Taylor. Ellie was looking back and forth between them like there was something there. Calvin couldn’t lie her hug was something that people made up lies about. She hugs with her whole body and that was not something that he was used to.

“Sorry… It’s just something that I do. I don’t like being the first move away when hugging someone,” Taylor smiled at him.

“Why?” Calvin’s words flew out of his mouth before he could think about them.

“Because you never know who might need a hug and if you let go first you could hurt that person more,” Taylor shrugged.

He was taken back by her response but he inwardly smiled, she was more than he could have ever imagined. She was kind, that was obvious but she was kind to an extent that you knew it came from her heart and that surprised him more than anything. He watched as Ellie took over the conversation, but Taylor made it obvious that she wanted to talk to Calvin a little more. He watched how she laugh, casually saying something that went along with their conversation so he didn’t look like a creep. She looked back at him and smiled a very genuine smile at him.

“It was really nice to meet you Calvin. Maybe we all could meet up after the show?” She asked hopeful.

He wanted to tell her that he had a girl but he didn’t want the attention from her to go away so all he did was nod his head yes. That smile on her face widened once again and he fell a little bit more for this woman. He wanted her and he couldn’t see anything else. It was time to sit down and Calvin knew this award show was going to be one of the worst for him, the tightness in his pants obviously stating that fact for him.

It was it tedious, he never really enjoyed going to these types of things but he went when the time was necessary. His phone started going off in his pocket, everyone he knew would know that he was busy at this damn award show why in the hell would his phone be going off. He took it out of his pocket and Ellie was giving him a look, it was rude to have it out but he knew that it was some important. It was a picture message from Anton, Calvin opened it with a lot of curiosity in his mind. Anton knew better than this but it wasn’t Anton that made him furious, the picture of was of Aarkia and some random guy.

Calvin’s anger was hardly controllable, how in the hell was this okay. Calvin told Ellie he had to go to the restroom, his hands were clenched so tight. Here he was trying to be the better person, trying not to have feelings for another woman because he was in a relationship that seemed to be serious for him. How in the hell could she have played him like this? Calvin hit his hand against the wall and he felt like he was going to explode until he heard a small feminine voice behind him.

“Are you okay?” Taylor’s voice rang threw his head like a beautiful symphony.

“No,” Calvin couldn’t lie, the girl probably just saw him hit a wall out of anger.  

She walked over to him and noticed the feeling of betrayal on his face “ah so it’s a girlfriend thing,” she smiled at him.

“I guess you could call it that,” Calvin wanted to roll his eyes but he couldn’t.

“You know I am really helpful in situations like this Calvin,” her smile never faded.

He handed her his phone not really knowing the reason, he trusted the blonde though he trusted her not to tell anyone. He wanted her to look at him like the person he was not to look at him like he was in the wrong because he got angry at this girl. He looked up for her response but she was blank, he wanted her to say something but she wasn’t. He wasn’t someone who cried over silly things like women breaking up with him but looking at the person in front of him with just a blank stare sent him over the edge. He turned away from her. It was stupid for him to cry over a woman that gave nothing to him.

“Hey, this isn’t your fault,” Taylor reached out for him. “She’s stupid if she can’t see how amazing you are,” her voice was soothing him but in the same way making everything worse.

“Taylor I don’t need to be solaced, I know it wasn’t my fault.” Calvin lied to her, it was his fault he stopped loving her a long time ago and now he guessed she was doing something about it.

“You do need to be consoled. Calvin you are lying to yourself I can see it in your eyes. What she is doing is not your fault. Do I fully know the situation? No but I don’t think I have to, to understand that you are blaming yourself. You think that you didn’t give her everything because she wanted something different, you think just because you didn’t show her the love that you felt that somehow this is your fault. It’s not. I don’t think I will ever fully understand you situation but you can’t blame yourself for what she is doing. That gets you nothing but pain,” Taylor cupped his face wanting to let him know that she was there for him.

“I lost the love that I had for her but I kept the relationship going because I thought she still loved me,” Calvin told her the truth, leaning into her warm hand closing his eyes.

“You were willing to stay in that place of love even if you weren’t happy?” Her thumb was caressing his cheek.

“I didn’t want to disappoint her,” he finally let everything he has been saving go, all because of this one girl.

“Calvin it’s time you let it go. She’ll only hurt you more if you let it continue,” Taylor gave a small smile.

“But I can’t. I don’t want to hurt her,” Calvin tried but Taylor cut him off.

“That is kind of you but if she isn’t the right person for you and something happens you will be forever wishing you could go back to this moment and make the right decision. Calvin look at me. I don’t know really know you but I know that you deserve happiness and if that isn’t with her than you need to leave,” Taylor was very serious with him.

It was just a small movement but it meant everything to him, Calvin leaned down and kissed the beautiful girl that stood in front of him. He placed his hands on her waist and pull her closer to him. He could tell that she was taken back by his gestures but it didn’t take that long for her to move in time with him. He felt fire when kissing her, he felt like she was consuming him and he loved every minute of it. Her hands connected with his hair and she tugged just a bit, Calvin had never been more turned on in his life. He made sure she knew that he wanted more, he slid his mouth open enough for the slight movement of his tongue to cross her bottom lip. She understood and in a quick movement on her part they were in a heated battle for dominance.

One hand of his slipped down to her ass and yanked her closer to him, she gave a small yelp but their kiss wasn’t interrupted. Calvin smiled through the kiss it was something that was amazing and the fire that he felt was something more than he ever felt with anyone else. She was the first to push him back a little, she needed to breathe and kissing him wasn’t fulfilling that at all. Her eyes were closed but he could feel the emotion rage off of her, she was happy that he kissed her and that confused the fuck out of him.

“I don’t know what came over me,” Calvin said trying to explain his actions.

“Are you always that heated when you talk to a girl about your feelings?” Taylor giggled.

“Only when it’s a girl that I can’t get out of my mind,” his hand cupped her chin and his thumb started caressing her lips.  

“I can’t date you,” Levi said, pushing away Erwin’s hand. “I’m already taken, sorry.”

“Oh? Is that right?” Erwin asked, biting back tears. “Tell me about him.”

“Well, his name’s Erwin,” Levi said, smiling in reminiscence. “He’s got these really thick eyebrows, so thick you can’t miss them, and this blonde hair that’s as yellow as corn.” He squinted up at Erwin through his glasses. “You kind of look like him. But Erwin’s twenty-nine, and no offense, but you look…older.”

It was true. The past few years had aged him far beyond forty-two, and his face was littered with wrinkles, his hair shot through with grey. He was old. Felt older.

“What do you like about him?” Erwin asked, sitting down next to Levi on the bed. Levi grinned.

“Well, I like the way he makes breakfast in bed, or tries to. He usually burns the toast,” he murmured, leaning in to whisper it as though it were a big secret. “I like the way he smiles. I like the way he smells like aftershave and soap and clean linen, even if he hasn’t taken a shower yet. I like the way he holds my hand on the train, even when I tell him i don’t like it.”

“He sounds like a really great guy,” Erwin said, turning his face away so Levi wouldn’t see the tears coursing down his cheeks.

“He is,” Levi said. Happy. The happiest Erwin had heard him in a while. “I think I might love him.”

“I’m … I’m sure he loves you, too,” Erwin said, his voice hoarse with a sob. “I know he does.”


I highly suggest you listen to this while you read this in order to get the full Disney effect… 

Taylor’s skin was slick with sunscreen and all she could hear was the joyous screams of children. Her blonde hair was stuck to her sweaty neck and she could feel Adam pressed up against her. He wrapped his arms around her and she groaned.

“It’s too hot for hugs,” she whined. He laughed and pulled her even closer, pressing a kiss against her cheek.

“I love you,” he whispered.

“Love you, too,” she promised. The people in front of them began moving forward and she followed suit, Adam dragging along behind her. They were both in Florida for shows and they decided to take a day that they both had off and go to Disney World. Adam had never been to Disney and Taylor had only been a few times. It was almost Halloween time and Disney had an annual Halloween party that Taylor wanted to go to.

One of her favorite songs came over the loud speaker and she began to sing along, softly, as to not draw attention to herself. So far, nobody had recognized them. Though she loved meeting fans, sometimes she just wanted to have her time to herself. She wanted to just be able to go out somewhere as Taylor and Adam and not as Tayvin. She wanted to stand in a long line to get on a roller coaster without being led up through the exit to get right on just because she was Taylor Swift.

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