i really hope there is

rather tempted to change my url to silverliningjohn bc look at him, he’s holding galaxies and he’s so unaware. it’s the most precious thing and he’s so beautiful

I found this beautiful and pretty hard-hitting Welcome to Night Vale quote and really wanted to illustrate it. So, here it is, and here’s to everyone going through a rough patch atm <3

“Lie down and look up at the ceiling and breathe with those curiously fragile lungs of yours and remind yourself: Don’t worry. Don’t worry. All is as it was meant to be. It was meant to be lonely and terrifying and unfair and heaving. Don’t worry.”- Episode 31.5, Condos.  

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when everyone gets hyped and join to dance “Chewing Gum”…
except Jeffrey from California who probably hasn’t heard about it yet 😂😂

  • me: *literally just sees One picture of myself*
  • me: *has a full-blown existential crisis*
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Satellite 

Cress is ten years old. She is a hacking genius. The only thing she doesn’t have is people. She doesn’t have a family. She doesn’t have friends.

So she does the only thing she can: create one. 

Happy Birthday @sayaka-hime! I drew this for you since you’re so awesome! Sorry its so late in the day! I hope it was a good one!

@iridulcentdays
I’m finally done. I’m very very sorry for delaying this for so long but I just received my new tablet for my birthday today and could finally properly finish it and beforehand it had gotten quite complicated drawing with a broken pen. I really hope your wait was worth it and that you like it.

I imagined their bedroom to have a small window so i drew some sun/moonlight falling unto them. And I really hope you are ok with Russia having curled hair as this is just my personal preference and I didn’t wanted to bother you asking.
I’ll soon post the recordings as well but I had to delay this too due to a cold I caught around new years eve when temperatures here dropped below 0°C. I’m very sorry for that.
Nonetheless I hope that this does your incredibly writing talents justice.

And just in case you are interested i’ll add a sunshine/morning version

I watched a few tutorials on how to blend shit and this came out.

Actual Apollo/Elios Enjolras (the symbol was some shit I don’t know where it comes from but I’m p sure it means Sun)

there was an attempt (you tried Star here)

anonymous asked:

i've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety a month ago and i was just wondering why everything seems to be on me recently. i've never felt so awful. pls help alice. xx

  • Hello lovely, here are some reminders:
  • You still have control over your body, despite what your brain tells you. You can still do self-care (like getting up from bed, exercise, getting a cup of water, taking a nice bath etc.) even when you feel sad/lethargic. You can also slowly expose yourself to situations that make you scared so you can slowly overcome this anxiety. 
  • Force yourself to do things which will help you recover (even if you don’t want to!), like forcing happy thoughts, smiling a lot, going outside and talking to people who love you.
  • You’re growing every day. A lot of people have felt the same way and they overcame their depression and anxiety - so can you! 💕
  • Try to focus more on the good things in your life rather than the bad/stressful. 
  • Try not to dwell on past mistakes - forgive yourself and others and learn from mistakes! There’s no use living in the past.
  • Try to focus on the present rather than the future! Worrying is pointless because 1) it will steal your happiness, 2) time is better spent on what you can do now, and 3) you will be okay no matter what (whether you worry or not!)! 
  • Remember that depression and anxiety are liars. They will make you think that you’re worthless, unlovable, incapable, that the world is a horrible place etc. but those are lies. You’ll see this especially when you recover!
  • Unburden yourself by writing down your thoughts.
  • Read about cognitive distortions and try to challenge your own thought patterns: 🍓 🌻  💗
  • Be a friend to yourself. You deserve it! Treat yourself how you would treat a sad friend and tell yourself kind things.
  • Remember that you’re loveable, strong, important and loved by lots of people!
  • It won’t be easy but I know you can make it! I’ll be waiting for the day you overcome everything. Stay strong 💛

I’m so hyped for Nioh, I really need some more Souls gameplay in my life, and from what I’ve seen in the alpha and beta the combat is pretty neat. I just hope it has great bosses and world design and lore as well.

Loving Yourself? Or Loving Others? Theory

Sorry I haven’t posted something Trolls related in awhile, just been busy. (Also I got really into Yuuri on Ice so…)

So, I really love the quote that says,

“"You can’t love someone unless you love yourself first.” Bullshit. I have never loved myself. But you, oh god. I loved you some much, I forgot what hating myself felt like.“

Because I think Branch can really relate to this. I think it’s so interesting that Branch, being colorless (another theory is that the trolls call being gray Colorless), could care so much about Poppy and also others in the kingdom (to kinda a smaller degree? Maybe?).

It gave the idea that the trolls think that loving yourself is the key to happiness. Loving being who you are and show it off to the world. But ever since his grandmother’s demise, Branch couldn’t do that for himself.

But then Poppy just wanted him to be happy, Poppy was the only one who even wanted to be around Branch. Who even liked him. Branch couldn’t even say those things about himself, I bet.

Branch holds onto those things, the invitations, the poems he writes, because he liked being… well… liked. And Poppy is the only one who would do that for him.

As they go on their adventure. Branch sees Poppy even more in a new light. He sees how she thinks everything is beautiful and it INSPIRES him. She continues to be with and find out more about him and Branch can’t help but want the company and he can’t help but love her.

But when all is lost inside a crockpot. He misses when she would tell him to not give up, to look on the bright side, to sing, to dance, to hug, to love.

He finds his voice because he knows it’s what she needs. And he is willing to finally put down all the guilt and pain. To show how much he loved her. He gains his colors back by being happy. But not in the way that trolls usually thought would make you happy.

He accepted himself, but never can love himself. So he allows Poppy to fill that gap for him. And the love that he gives, gives him a reason to get up in the morning. To sing. To dance.

Yet, after the events of the movie, I think Poppy would’ve thought for awhile that he did love himself. Until the anniversary of the death of his grandmother. Where he lies alone in pity and sadness. Blaming himself. Being colorless once again.

“Don’t you love yourself?” Poppy asks in disbelief.

Branch lets out a sad and empty chuckle, “of course not, and I probably never will Poppy.”

“But there has to be a way, I want you to be happy with the way you are.” Poppy says, reaching for his hand.

Branch lets her take his hand as his shimmering blue flows back through him. All because of her, her touch, her words, her…

“Are you happy with yourself now?” She asks quietly. Letting their loosely tangled hands hang down between them.

Branch takes a step closer, resting his forehead against Poppy’s and shakes his head. Poppy then starts to cry, slightly surprising Branch as she slides down to kneel on the floor. Hands still tied together. She reaches for the other hand and looks up at him with tears in her eyes as he looks down with confusion but the look of sadness outlining his face.

Her voice cracks, “how come you can’t see yourself how I see you?” Her head then lowers as she continues to cry, letting his hands go as she brings them to her face to mask the tears she’s bringing. Branch’s look of confusion then relaxes into acceptance. He takes deep breaths for a second before kneeling down in front his princess.

He watches as she hides her face from him. Her shoulders are shaking and you can hear the quiet sobbing coming from her. He then takes her hands to pull them from her face. He then has their hands rest on his lap. He held her hands in tight grip so that she couldn’t pull away.

"Being… Happy. Is the best feeling in the world Poppy.” He says, trying to reach her eyes. “And I mean it when I say that it’s all because of you.”

Poppy’s eyes then blink to look into Branch’s beautiful eyes. “Because of me? But you have to-”

“No. You don’t.” He cuts her off. “Trolls always thought that loving yourself is the only way to make you happy. But that’s not always true.” He lets go of one the hands to brush against her cheek.

“Poppy, you touch me and suddenly I’m back in my colors again. It’s all because of you. I’m not happy because I love myself. I’m happy because I… like you. And I’m happy because you, somehow, you of all people, like me too.”

“O-of course I do.” She said, she then closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Then looked to her dashing prince with all of happiness in world “How could I not?”

Branch blinked at that statement and laughed as a deep blue blush covered his cheeks. He then pull her in to kiss her right then and there. Stroking her face softly with his rough hands as Poppy reached and pulled him closer by tugging at his vest.

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Poppy wouldn’t really exactly understand until her happiness relied on him too. Where Branch nearly loses his life when one of the lower branches (ha) lands on his house nearly destroying him. Poppy spent hours in the rubble looking for him. Until finding him scared and bruised deep in the rumble.

As soon as Poppy found him, her colors instantly grayed in horror, sadness, and worry. And she would spend the next couple of days right beside him, waiting for him to wake up. Barely getting any sleep at all. Holding onto his hand in the same manners as he did months ago. Not wanting him to ever let go.

One night, where the only thing lighting the room was Branch’s own colors. Which he said existed because of her. because she loved him.

She was dazing off, almost two weeks without sleep can do that to you. She could barely feel anything. Couldn’t even respond when her friends or family tried to talk to her. She just felt… empty.

She thought she was dreaming when she felt the hand she was holding shift and move. But then she heard a horse familiar voice.

“Poppy…?” Poppy looked to see Branch’s half lifted eyes looking right right at her. And she froze, he was alive. He was…

Branch smiled as he saw the now colorless princess have streams of tears rolling down her face as she stared at him.

“What’s wrong Bugaboo?” Branch asked. “I’m right here.” He then lifted his hand and as soon as he touched her cheek, color spread slowly from that spot and filled her with a feeling that Poppy could describe. She wanted to cry, she wanted to shout, she wanted to do so many things at once. But she just stood there as the colors overcome her as Branch wiped the tears off her face. When he finally stopped, letting his hands drop. Poppy looked at the one thing she knew now could make her the happiest troll in the world. And leaped into his arms without any warning expect a scream of his name.

She rubbed every inch of him, trying to memorize every feature while she kept whispering his name. Tears once again coming out of her eyes. Until he grabbed her hands and her eyes flew to his. His beautiful blue eyes that she could easily get lost in for hours. He slowly intertwined their hands together and he looked at her with what she could tell was all the love in the world.

“I love you Branch.”

She then gasped at the words she just said. Just then as Branch’s face turned into shock. Poppy never even thought she would be the one to say it first. Well, he did say it before in song and so did she but like this…

They both immediately blushed out of embarrassment. But Poppy then knew what Branch was talking about. And she knew now. That she loved Branch way more than she could ever love herself. She then felt a hand on her cheek turning to face him, with the deepest of blue on his cheeks.

“I-I love you too, Poppy. More than you’ll ever know.” He said. He may have looked and sounded nervous, but Poppy knew that those words were true and she would never forget them.

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But that’s just another thought I guess.

lady-fuj0shi  asked:

the thing i love the most of the new chapter is that gs is steal wearing ht's jacket, i mean he is at home he could have changed, but nope he decides to wear it (♡∀♡) or am i reading too much into this?

no, you’re definitely right!!!!

i got so sidetracked by he tian sending nudes out of nowhere that i kinda pushed everything else to the side, but im so pleasantly surprised by the fact that guan shan is still wearing he tian’s jacket………..and by pleasantly surprised i mean that i screamed when i first saw it and now i end up punching my pillow and making inhuman noises every time i think about it. um.

but yeah, i was very surprised by it, because like with he tian giving guan shan his jacket, guan shan actually wearing it throughout the night is something we were all fantasizing about and wishing it would happen, but i wasn’t really expecting it to!! im so incredibly happy that it did, though, and in my opinion that detail was the most important part of the chapter!! like you said, guan shan could have taken the jacket off as soon as he stepped home, or change into something else (something of his own) if he was still cold, and yet he didn’t, he consciously decided to keep wearing it while chilling on his bed, very likely as he thought back at everything that happened in the past few days, not only with she li, but with he tian as well

i find this so interesting and important, because it’s really telling of what guan shan’s true feelings might be. he acts annoyed and irritated when he tian is around, and im not saying he doesn’t also feel like that because let’s be real, he tian can be frustrating as hell, but that’s not all there is, not anymore: he followed he tian when he went to see his brother out of curiosity, he kept the note on his bed out of confusion, he helped he tian with his hand and accepted to treat him to food out of worry and thankfulness, he is still wearing he tian’s jacket out of some feeling he still can’t name nor recognise, but that i think we can easily interpret as interest (if not attraction). there’s really no other way to explain why he would do that, and im honestly way too excited right now because this is guan shan slowly, slowly, starting to fall for he tian, and i can’t wait to see what’s going to happen from now on!!