i really did not want to have these feels

(3/3) “The doctors discovered a tumor on Mom’s spine in 2007. She spent four years being really sick. First she couldn’t walk. Then she couldn’t move her arms, or her hands. When she died she could only move her head. My father took care of her. I don’t think there was emotion involved. I think he was just concerned about doing the correct thing. He’d openly say: ‘I hate this so much.’ But he did it. Mom died three years ago. When she realized she didn’t have much time, she really encouraged me to get closer to my siblings. She also encouraged me to travel. She’d say: ‘Go explore. Forget about me. You’re different. I want you to find people like you.’ She was always so worried about me being alone. And sometimes I do feel alone now that she’s gone. I don’t know who to call when I accomplish something. I miss her so much. But I always try to be like her. My whole life I’ve tried to be like her. I can be shy. I can isolate myself. Sometimes I remind myself of my father. But I have always tried to be my mother.”

(Santiago, Chile)

anonymous asked:

These top 10 you do are really great, you have such good ideas. Would you be willing to do one like "Top 10 Katsuki/Nikiforov Moments That Had Everyone Swooning" (from interviews, caught by paparazzi, public, whatever you decide) - something like the sweetest, sappiest shit the media managed to catch of them and had everyone wonder how did these two go from rivals to relationship goals. Thank you so much <3 <3 <3

Hi!! Just wanted to say I love your story too much, especially the social media bits that make it even more enjoyable and funny!!! Also, if you feel comfortable with it and haven’t done it already, I was wondering if you could do Top 10 Viktuuri Posts that made the Fangirls Die from Nosebleeds!! Sorry if you already answered it or don’t have time, I still love you and your beautiful fanfiction no matter what!!!

Top ten Viktuuri PDA moments?

Right, I’m going to group these all together because they are similar enough that I can’t come up with separate lists for them all.

Top Ten Romantic Moments:

10) Once, when they had been apart for a couple of months for euros/4c, they reunited in an airport and it was like romance movie level drama. Yuuri literally ran and threw himself at Viktor and Viktor caught him and spun him around while they were both smiling and laughing and then dipped him into a kiss and everyone around them was like ‘that’s super adorable but also can you two not be Extra for like 2 minutes around each other’

9) At one point the paparazzi caught them on a date in Detroit when Yuuri was still living there and Viktor had come to see him and they both brought each other flowers at the restaurant and tried to give them to each other at the same time and then laughed about how they had both picked the exact same way to try and surprise each other

8) Once after a competition in a cold country Viktor said something to Yuuri that made him glare at Viktor for a second and then stuff freezing cold snow down the back of Viktor’s jacket in revenge. Viktor retaliated by chucking a snowball at Yuuri and it devolved into a completely childish snow war that ended with them slipping and falling together and then laughing and kissing in the snow.

7) During an interview which was the first that either of them had really spoken about what happened to lead up to The Big Kiss, Yuuri was really nervous. So all throughout the filmed interview Viktor kept subtly reassuring him with little touches and being close except nothing is subtle about the two of them and it eventually ended up with Yuuri practically sitting in Viktor’s lap for the majority of the interview and looking more relaxed than anyone had seen him during an interview before

6) At Hasetsu, a paparazzi snuck in to watch them on the beach together and got a bunch of photos of a super competitive beach volleyball game that ended with Yuuri tackling Viktor into the sea until he begged for mercy while laughing and then them kissing in the waves in a very ‘poster for a romance film’ kind of way in photo that very quickly went viral.  

5) Once Yuuri slipped and fell on the ice in a street in St Petersburg and hurt his ankle and instead of calling for a taxi like a normal person, Viktor carried him bridal style all the way back to their apartment

4) After being apart for a while, Yuuri and Viktor planned to meet up at one of Viktor’s competitions that Yuuri wasn’t skating in but his flight was delayed and his missed the start. He showed up in the middle of Viktor’s skating and as soon as Viktor got off the ice he ran and literally jumped into Viktor’s arms to kiss him with his legs wrapped around Viktor’s waist which got a lot of approving cheers and wolf whistling from the crowd around them.  

3) At the competition after the events of chapter 14, their exhibition skates had changed to Viktor’s being the duet of Stay Close to Me and Yuuri’s being Dark Eyes in honour of Viktor. Yuuri skating to something Russian made everyone’s heart melt and the Stay Close to Me duet became considered one of the most romantic moments ever. Both exhibitions were generally considered their best non-competitive skates ever. The only other one that came close to that title was the time when a group of people started saying that Yuuri had only slept with Viktor to win gold and in retaliation in an ice show, Yuuri skated to ‘Fucked My Way Up To The Top’ out of pure spite and everyone loved it.

2) The Kiss from chapter 14

1) The engagement announcement but I won’t say when, how or who proposed ;)

thattastefulartist  asked:

If you were human what is the first place you would go to visit? A museum? A special city or country you've always been curious about. And also why was your phone wallpaper of Anti? Did you really like looking at him so much that you set him as a background? Hurt me if you want but I have to know. -CV

“If I were human, my first wish would be to stand in a large, open field with long grasses. It would need to be a day where it would rain, horrible rain, powerful rain, with thunder and lightning and pounding raindrops that would fall upon my face. And I would feel the wind whipping through my hair, tangling it to bits. I would see the drops, like ice, landing on my arms and staining my clothes. I would be able to see the flashes of light in the sky and hear the loud roars of the thunder, and understand what it means to be alive.”

His peaceful, gentle expression shifted, and small slivers of his being etched across dimensions, glitching his form and causing that high pitched noise, faint and uncomfortable, to echo from the beyond.

“Anti must have glitched that image to my phone. I would never be so bold or desperate to have his face, HIS face, of all faces, remaining there. Why on earth would I want to look upon such a face, and be forced to remember that-…. never mind. It does not matter. Don’t asK me AGaIn.”

chibilenalee25  asked:

I know it's something that is already very behind in your aus, but you can do more of the rivalry of Dave and Tom? I really liked Dave character as a conflict for Tom, and Marco always supporting Tom so that Dave does not make him feel less

Of course I can do that! I really liked the au of Dave too! @mage-of-words came up with a pretty good character, huh? I sure like it! I personally love love LOVE the idea of Marco becoming super protective and strong for Tom! This one didn’t have much of that. But I did leave you on a cliffhanger! So tell me if you want me to finish it! Enjoy!

Read the last one here! https://tomco-headcannons.tumblr.com/post/158286094572/the-story-u-wrote-for-me-was-super-amazing-that-i


Tom stood with his head down and listened to the commotion around him. He hated how they made him stand there and listen to his entire family talk him down. This happened every single time he messed up, which was often. And it was normally led by Dave, who got some sort of enjoyment at seeing them cause the smaller demon distress.

“Well, Tom, have you thought at all about what you have heard here today?” Tom looked up and saw his older cousin standing over him. Tom made a face and Dave laughed. “Come on, hearing everyone agree about your shortcomings MUST make you feel some sort of shame for… well who you are as a person.” He muttered.

“Yeah well, I don’t.” Tom bit back. Dave narrowed his eyes. “Just tell yourself the truth, the only reason you talk me down is because you’re jealous.” Tom hissed.

“Of you? Please tell me you’re joking.” Dave scoffed.

“Maybe not of me, but of what I have. The ONLY thing you’ve even wanted was to be the heir, but you aren’t. I am.” Tom smiled very smugly. “One day I’m going to rule this kingdom, and my dad won’t be around for you to complain to. Nobody will listen to you, and nobody will see your power, and you know it.” Tom jabbed his cousin.

“You entitled little brat!” Dave hissed, grabbing Tom by the wrist. Tom tried not to let anything show in his face as he ripped away.

“The only reason you try and get others to hate me is because you think they’ll make you the heir and kick me out, but you KNOW that’ll never happen!” Tom yelled at him.

“What do you know!?” Dave hissed. “You know nothing! Nothing at all! You never talked this big until that human showed up! And now you try and act string to impress him. Who are you fooling?” He demanded.

“I’m not acting strong to impress Marco.” Tom raged. He HATED when his cousin talked about Marco. Marco was too important to him for Dave to talk down. “I’m acting confident to piss you off.” To  smiled in an infuriating manner and turned, walking away.

When Tom turned away he finally cracked and let feeling show on his face. But it wasn’t at once sad. He smiled, big. He was proud of himself! He stood up for himself and didn’t get angry and lash out. He was civil and he acted like the bigger person. The nice person Marco always assured him that he could be. Maybe even Marco would be proud of him! And he would tell him he did good.

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“Oh Tommy! I’m so proud of you.” Marco beamed. Tom smiled and Marco held his hands.

“I did good?” Tom asked, unsure. Marco smiled big and stole a kiss from the demon, nodding excitedly.

“Of course you did.” He promised. Marco’s smiled then faded. “I just… wish they didn’t put you through that in the first place.” Marco sighed. He played with Tom’s hands and intertwined their fingers. Tom tilted his head.

“But it’s okay now, I have you. You make me feel like it’s okay.” Tom assured Marco smiled and this and gave the demon another kiss on the head.

“I know but… I also know how hearing them say such awful things day after day… it gets to you.” Marco whispered this. “I just… want you to know that you’re worth so much more than they try and tell you.” He promised. Marco squeezed his eyes shut. “I-I know you try your best not to let it get to you, and you do so well. You’re so strong, you’re my brave little soldier but…” Marco trield off. He decided some things were best left unsaid. He could still see how much it bothered Tom. He could see how their words and actions broke him down little by little. All those years of being told things, he starts to believe. But the verbal abuse was actually the least of Marco’s concerns, sometimes Marco got nightmares from anxiety. He would wake up in fear that Tom was unsafe or hurt. Somewhere Marco couldn’t get to him.

“Marco… it’s okay.” Tom smiled warmly and Marco wrapped his arms around the demon. “You make me stronger. You’re all the support I need.” Tom whispered against Marco. The human held the demon tighter and rubbed his back.

“I’m always going to be here for you.” Marco promised.

“You’ve helped me so much already I… I’m always going to be here for you too.” Tom beamed. “Any time you need me for support, I’m here too. No matter what.” Tom promised. Marco sighed in what seemed like relief and leaned against his demon.

“I can’t believe you used to be this scary bad boy I would fight with.” Marco giggled a bit at this memory. “You always seemed like the biggest threat.” He laughed harder. Tom giggled a bit as well and kissed Marco’s hair.

“I remember how much you got on my nerves. Even seeing you got me worked up.” Tom teased. Marco gave Tom another kiss and pressed his head against his.

“Well, we grow.” Marco told him. “You’ve grown. A lot.” He added. Tom looked down curiously and Marco kissed the back of Tom’s hand. “I’m proud of you.” He told the demon. Tom’s eyes lit up and he cupped Marco’s face, kissing him deeply.

“Thank you for helping me.” Tom whispered. “There were times I thought, that I just wouldn’t be able to get through it anymore. But you make me WANT to keep going.” Tom admitted. “I need you Marco.” He whispered this last part and Marco tackled im in kisses. Drowning him in love and affection.

“You’ll never lose me.” Marco swore.

Dave watched the boys enjoy each other’s love through Star’s mirror, which he used a spell to– in a sense– hack into. He made a face and watched Tom hold the human close. “If Marco is what you need… then he is what you are going to lose.”

anonymous asked:

Hello. Your blog is beautiful. I just want to confess, I'm very confused. I don't know if I have crushes on people or not. I only had actual crushes at school, but for about 5 years now, I can't feel anything, like back then. I only like people for a while and then it's gone. I really like romance and the concept of romantic love but I can't feel it irl. There's no way I'm asexual, cause I have no problem with sex. I'm bisexual. Is there something wrong with me?

Wow did I ghostwrite this? Haha, honestly, anon, this is literally me. And I can tell you there’s nothing wrong with this. You have plenty of time to find someone you want to spend your life with. I promise. Just because you haven’t had an official crush yet doesn’t mean there is ANYTHING wrong with you. The right person will come along, and you will know!

anonymous asked:

Earlier Daddy and I really wanted playtime but there were people right in the other room. When I have a hard limit the phrase is "daddy I'm going to cry," and although I didn't use that, I did say no and what a bad idea it was and he ended up doing it anyways despite my protests. My body adored it but mentally I've had a lot of turmoil about it. Daddy asked me if he crossed a line and made me pinky promise that he didn't but.. I don't know how I feel about it. How do I handle the situation?

Next time you use your safe word.

While I will say it’s irresponsible to do things with people in the next room, and even rude in some cases… it’s also a great rush and thrill.

I’ve had my fair share of walking out of rooms to laughter or standing ovations myself… while daddy is not in the wrong here, he should still act with respect for you and others.

Regardless, the point is, the old guard way is strict and adheres to the policy that the safe word means no, and the word no means nothing. You give the gift of your submission and turn ownership over to him. You become his property…. but you’re also his prize possession.

It’s part of the aesthetic, the role play and the rules.. or at least it should be.

anonymous asked:

I feel like I'm never good enough for anyone. All I want is to make people happy and I feel like no matter how hard I try I can't even do that much. Like am I doing something wrong? Am I not trying hard enough? Am I just here for convenience? I feel so useless and unneeded. I don't want to seem attention seeking, because I'm not trying to be. I just feel really shitty about myself and feel like I don't belong anywhere.

Just remember that you are only human. Realize that you are not perfect nor is anyone else. We are not meant to be. We are supposed to help each other and grow together. Perhaps other people said or did things that you internalized as you not being good enough. You must realize you are unique and valued. Start to value yourself, build on your confidence and see that you have a lot to offer people. You are good enough. You are loved. You are not alone. You are smart enough. You are pretty enough. Please, take care, beautiful soul. I love you!

Day 1: Stress on the Rise

Day 1:

I’ve decided to start writing a journal of sorts. Why? I’m not sure really. Some days I need to vent but I don’t want to burden people with my problems. Some days, I want to talk without really talking. So I’ve decided to keep this journal thing. It will be posted to tumblr, but whatever.

Today was stressful, to say the least. I have a busy few weeks, and I’m worried about grades. (but when am I not) I don’t feel like I’m doing enough for my blog. In general, I just feel behind on everything. Whatever I do is never enough. I never feel quite successful. I know I did good, but it’s not as good as I want it to be.

Mainly stressed because I’m in journalism and I’m worried I won’t meet my quota for this six weeks, and I might not get the grades my parents want me to get. So yeah, stress is fun.

The only good thing is my friends and my girlfriend, who constantly support me even when I lash out and forget things. I feel too loud sometimes, and I don’t feel like I’m nice enough to any of my friends really. They deserve so much more, but until then, I’m giving them all I got.

Basically, I feel like shit. But everyone does, so I guess we’re all in this hell boat called life, huh? I’ll fake it till I make it.

Things to look forward to: Panic! At The Disco Concert, Trip to Seattle, Seeing Phantom Of The Opera

Things I’m stressed about: Grades, Applying for an editor position, Standardized tests

That’s all for today, I think. I’m keeping my head up. You should too. Never let yourself sink below the water. It’ll all work out, hopefully.

Signing off,

June

yo fellow artists!!

where do you get your inspiration? ? like genuinely when you go to do something that isn’t just necessarily fanart of ur fav character where do u get it?

I feel like this is a bad question that I’m always embarrassed to ask because I struggle so much in actually finding subjects I genuinely enjoy making art of? and I feel like that’s sort of a bad thing to talk about cause it’s like wow sophie why did u want to become an artist when u have no creativity

it barely comes up for me really cause I’m always so busy with school work and just sorta practicing things but then when it does come up I’m sent into a pit of despair cause I realise painting random elven druids just doesn’t cut it for me anymore

just curious about other people’s thoughts!! 😦👌👌

anonymous asked:

wait he didn't win an oscar for titanic did he?

No, he took a break after Titanic because the film made him a superstar, and he wanted to get away from that attention, and then in 2016 with the Oscar win, I guess he feels over exposed again so he’s taking a break. He doesn’t really like that kind of attention. But I always considered Titanic to be his “oscar” because what that film did for his career is what an oscar win would have done for him as well.

anonymous asked:

What do you have against soft blocking wow you're sensitive to get angry over something dumb like that

it’s literally explained in my byf but i get incredibly paranoid when someone i thought i was ok with cuts me off and doesn’t explain it because i feel like i’m doing something wrong and everyone knows but no one wants to tell me; at least if they block me i’ll know i did something really bad and i’ll go look over what i’ve said/reblogged recently and try to figure it out, but when i’m softblocked i have no way of knowing if i did something bad or associate with bad people or i’m annoying or otherwise repulsive or if it was just something like not sharing fandoms or aesthetics and i don’t need to change anything

also i’d say that while i am sensitive, i’m not sensitive enough to send someone anon hate for not wanting to be softblocked

glitchosystem  asked:

If you do, what music do you listen to while drawing?

I really like all kinds of music, I am pretty open-minded for this. :)

It also depends on what I want to draw, if I want to draw something energetic, sad, cute,or funny… Since 3 weeks I am listening celtic songs, it makes me feel relaxed, quiet but motivated and that is really enjoyable while drawing. I also like to draw song’s lyrics a lot (I do not remember the name of this thing at all), I already did that for the Moomins.

If you have great music you want me to listen to, send it to me! I am always looking for good music! ;)

anonymous asked:

Two weeks ago I asked your gf for advice since I found out I'm autistic. I just want to belatedly say thank you for her kind words. I took the advice and blocked out tumblr and looked elsewhere for sources/representation and I can now see how much it makes things fit together for me. And I really liked To The Moon! I also now have a name for the biggest thorn in my life and that is executive dysfunction, fuck that part of autism, I want to fight it. The rest I feel like I can just accept.

That’s great to hear anon! She was very happy that her advice helped you, and also surprised that you really did take it to heart.

I hope you learn to manage your executive dysfunction and I’m glad you liked To The Moon! My gf and I watched Markiplier play that together and we cried at the end. It’s a beautiful game

(context for the people who don’t know)

anonymous asked:

hey my dudes! is it okay to ask for some positivity?my b-day is coming up soon and today my mom blew up at me about my weight ;U; it got to me and its upset me like a lot more that I've let on :)she's making me exercise more and is going to track?my weight?she said that I have all these good traits that no one will notice cause I'm fat and I was really offended and mad cause my weight?is none?of her business?like I don't come from a super skinny fam and even if I did what does it matter?

Originally posted by clingyfoil

You are wonderful and unique! Your feelings are valid. Your body is valid. You are worthy of respect. You are allowed to just be who you are right at this moment. 

Don’t let anyone change you [ unless you want to change of course! ] 

- Mod Dom. 

anonymous asked:

did you actually get a lot of hate on tumblr bc you are a fan of Casey?

you know, not really. we didn’t start running this blog until after the oscars though so i feel like we missed out on prime hate time. i made this blog, however, to avoid conflict with mutuals that are my friends on my personal blog. i didn’t want to have to fight them over my love and support of casey and wanted a blog i could do that in peace on (while also knowing we’d likely get SOME shit, but honestly we’ve not gotten much of anything). i keep waiting for lots of hate but it never comes. however, i do delete negative asks on the rare occasion we get them and block blogs that make negative replies on our posts or reblog and say negative things. our sidebar says this is a positive space for casey and im determined to keep it that way 😊

I support survivors who didn’t fight back

I support survivors who dissociated

I support survivors who feel invalid because ‘they could have stopped it’

I support survivors who feel weak

I support survivors who feel like ‘they wanted it’ because they didn’t resist

I support survivors who didn’t know what they were getting into

I support survivors who didn’t really know what they were consenting to

I support survivors who didn’t know it would hurt them the way it did

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♬ That moment when Mark is done the series yet your still drawing stuff for episode 3. Anyway Mark RE7 series was a blast to watch either way so much fun to draw ♬

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Comic N-040 “Comfy doesn’t have a T and I’m distressed”

This comic is dedicated to my dog who has started faking wanting to go out so she can steal my spot. Boo, I love you but you’re a jerk.