i really cried this time

Thank You

It all started when I was bored one Saturday night and decided to write a tiny drabble. Said drabble was posted for no reason. I never thought in a million years that I would be able to write like this. To be able to post whatever I want and receive instant feedback - it’s the writer’s ultimate dream. Thank you to everyone who’s read, ever commented or privately messaged me. All of it is appreciated way more than you’ll ever be able to know. 

Writing, although sometimes the bane of my time, has absolutely saved me in more ways than one and I really love it. Having consistent readers and all of you guys supporting me has only been gasoline to my fire of burning passion (lol fire of burning passion)

THANK YOU!


This marks the end of Jimlingss’ Festa 2017.

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A deleted song from Lord of the Rings

This song, Use Well the Days, was written for the ROTK end credits. You won’t find it anywhere in the soundtrack- It was cut after Into the West took its place. (this recording may not be the “final draft” of the song, either.) Just like Into the West, it was composed by Howard Shore and sung by Annie Lennox, with lyrics by Fran Walsh.

Use Well the Days is about Frodo bidding his final farewell to Sam…. thanking him, blessing him, and hoping the rest of his life in Middle Earth will be happy and peaceful. 

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this stream was a complete blast thank you so much to everyone who came and hung out!!! we got some real great work in lmao…..

And they will run you down, down to your core
Yeah, ‘til you can’t crawl no more (x)

I’m re-listening to the first season and I have a lot of feelings.

anonymous asked:

hey, I'm a 17 years old girl who has kissed just one boy her entire life. But I've been in love with boys and girls. Am I bi? I'm sorry, this is an stupid things to ask but I have no friend nor family to ask

Is not a stupid thing to ask, don’t worry about it! God. I hope I can give you a good reply

Let’s go with the definition of bisexuality:

HOW COOL IS THAT GOOGLE ADDS THE RAINBOW IF YOU LOOK LGBT TERMS!?

If you feel like boys and girls and you feel comfortable calling yourself bisexual, go ahead! sexuality is not something easy and is complex but you need to find something you feel comfortable. You don’t have to kiss a girl to know you like girls, I have also only kissed a boy in my life and I consider myself a bisexual even if I have never kissed a girl.

I feel like I’m still learning myself and I’m not sure how I can help you but I can share with you my experience accepting my sexuality, which I hope it makes sense because I think this is the first time I really talk about it.

For most of my life I knew I liked girls, believe me, it was so obvious yet I refused to accept that I wasn’t straight. I looked for dumb excuses like ‘she is so pretty I wish I could look like her and I don’t want to kiss her but damn look at her’ (years later found the term demisexuality and everything made sense for me) I knew I liked boys so that’s how I told myself I couldn’t like girls “You are crazy about this guy, there is no way you like girls”. 

I’m from a very catholic family where being gay is the worst thing that can happen (to the point my baby cousins can’t play with Barbie dolls or princess because “is gonna turn them gay” ugh) so I was definitely scared of accepting I liked girls too, I just simply refused and the fact that I’m also demisexual (and had no idea that term existed) made me feel like I was broken; most of my teenagers years I was miserable because I was ashamed of myself, I never told anyone, I pretend to have crushes because I was afraid of people calling me lesbian, I forced myself to be straight (like that was gonna work). 

Back then I really didn’t know bisexuality existed, I was on the wrong idea that you can’t like boys and girls that you had to choose one but then again I really didn’t know much about sexuality and even now I’m still learning. I honestly lived afraid of people telling me “you like girls is so obvious” In late 2014 I finally broke down and confessed my struggles to a person who was my best friend at the time, mostly because my sister was forcing me to come out to her even if at that point I hadn’t accepted my sexuality yet. It felt nice to finally tell everything to someone who wouldn’t judge me, someone who told me that I wasn’t broken, we both cried a lot during that Skype call. Then tumblr introduced the term demisexuality and that’s when I finally started to leave my fears behind, well a little I started thinking that if it comes to it and I have a close bond with a girl, I might be okay with the idea of being with her. I think I called myself demisexual for almost a year or so but my mind kept going to the term bisexuality, I felt more connected to it than I was with demisexuality but even there I was still afraid to fully accept it, by that point @bananannabeth was already my friend and she is very open about being bi and seeing Ashlee talk about it and being proud of it made start to little by little accept that I’m bisexual too. It took me a while but last summer when I was 24 years old I finally accepted that I’m bisexual but unfortunately I haven’t come out yet to my family for reasons already mentioned (well my sister knows but she forced me to come out to her and it was horrible) and only 2 ‘real life’ friends know.

Sexuality is something fluid, is a journey I guess and it can be confusing and scary and I can try and help you find yourself but I can’t tell you you’re bisexual because only you know who you are and what you feel comfortable with, I’m not sure if I’m making sense. I’m just still learning myself, as you can see, but we are both in this self-discovery journey and I just want you to know that you’re not alone and there is nothing wrong with you and you can always come to me if you want to and I’m gonna try my best to help you.

“Nanika is kinder than anyone. The one who’s cursed are the one who wishes” -Killua Zoldyck

((Since i’m not holding a game today. Here’s something to appreciate Nanika))