i really am generous

The Face Touch

So I’ve seen a lot of jokes going around about Neah and his obsession with face-touching and it’s honestly really hilarious because seriously, Neah, chill. Anyways, because I am a generous and benevolent malevolent ruler and like sharing my pain with others, I wanted to point something out.

Most, if not all, of the times we’ve seen Neah do the face-touch, there was a very specific Noah involved somehow. And that Noah is Adam (and Mana by extension).

We’ve got the instance with the akuma (through which Adam could see, and Neah certainly knows this). We’ve got two instances with Adam personally. And then we’ve got one instance with Mana.

Now…. bear with me on this.

Physical contact like that is very close, very personal. It gives a sense of security, strengthens trust, offers comfort, rings through with affection.

Which, between Mana and Neah, is perfectly okay, because they’re brothers. They’re very close and they must trust each other and we know that Neah loves Mana very, very dearly.

But what Neah is doing to Adam is essentially a form of both abuse and psychological warfare.

Think about it. When you’re going to betray someone, you would want to keep their trust, make them believe you’re on their side. (And sometimes, even after you’ve betrayed them, you’ll want them to feel confused about you, in case you need them for something.)

Which is what Neah is doing.

By establishing that level of extremely familiar contact with Adam, Neah is making himself seem softer, gentler, kinder to Adam.

When in fact Neah intends to destroy Adam and take his place.

It’s manipulative, and very terrifying, and very, very cruel.

(Which is part of why I love Adam just as much as I love Neah.)

Connection Enhances Money

The more i speak to these men, the more i realize how much i want a connection with a POT/SD; and the more imperative it is for me to have that with someone i’m exchanging time, energy and money with..in other words, my future “arrangement” needs to be more than just simple ass sex. i see nothing wrong with sex work, nothing at all! shit, i even thought about escorting for a minute–still thinking about it lmaoooo its way less tedious than this SB shit lma) .. but i just feel like a middle road for me is to have a leveled in-between type of fake-relationship instead of it just being, “okay you will spend the night here once a month and other days leave at 10pm” .. no. i can’t do that. 

And the more i realize that, i notice there are a lot of SBs in the bowl who are settling. This is NO SHADE at anyone at all. Its just a slight observation. These men want sex, yes. & they want it from us, yes. but there is nothing wrong with making sure we at least click with the man. It makes the sex/intimacy part (our end of it) so much more enjoyable. someone reading this may be saying, “duh, bitch you should like the man.” but its actually not that simple at all!

now the reason i say some SBs settle & i say its not that simple is because the hustle & struggle is real. i see it with my own eyes. even i have bounced around with the idea of just going along with things because the smell of paper is prudent. & its not much help to the real SB’s out there, showing their fruits of labor that make us want to do what we gotta do to get the same thing. don’t let those other sugar blogs make you bend backwards for no man because you want to post up a money stack, please!!!!

then i see the way some—no, A LOT—of these men talk to us; how objectified we are, and i realize these types of relationships are 100x better if we make sure we LIKE our SD. not just tolerate him. and make sure they actually respect us as women, our time and our struggles. these gross men bring out my petty side & i realize why should i share myself with this man who is making this sound like a job, no matter how much he doesn’t want to feel like a fucking ATM. which is a big ass contradiction to men who write on their profile oh i want it to feel like a relationship but turn around & create time slots of things to happen & don’t want to take the same time frame of a relationship.

i’m seeing the true essence of a SD/SB relationship: the honesty of the relationship comes together on pretenses that helping each other is what keeps it strong and enjoyable. besides, if you meet a decent man and actually really really vibe with him, the chances of you getting more than you bargained for, are HIGHER.

there are some gross ass men swimming through trying to run one over us and trying to get a quick nut. and its really unfortunate that the decent & good potential SDs are being screwed over by women who just want a quick cash getaway. which absolutely makes no sense to me because why would you ruin your chances of constant cash flow by up & leaving him???

anyway, this is my slight rant for the week. i pray to the Sugar Gawds that i meet a really decent & generous man who respects me for who i am. a man i can enjoy my time with instead of counting the minutes for it to be over. i hope ya’ll “aspiring” SBs are figuring out if you will cross that road, and hoping and praying for the same thing.

Stay Luscious. Stay Sweet Ya’ll.

God — you’re my God!
I can’t get enough of you!
I’ve worked up such hunger and thirst for God,
traveling across dry and weary deserts.

So here I am in the place of worship, eyes open,
drinking in your strength and glory.
In your generous love I am really living at last!
My lips brim praises like fountains.
I bless you every time I take a breath;
My arms wave like banners of praise to you.

I eat my fill of prime rib and gravy;
I smack my lips. It’s time to shout praises!
If I’m sleepless at midnight,
I spend the hours in grateful reflection.
Because you’ve always stood up for me,
I’m free to run and play.
I hold on to you for dear life,
and you hold me steady as a post.

—  Psalm 63:1-8 msg