Characters: Y/N, Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester (mentioned), Mary, Cas and Lucifer (briefly mentioned)
Pairing: Dean x Reader
Warnings: A tiny bit of angst at first but it’s all good. Smut, the fluffy love making kind.
Word Count: 1400ish
A/N: This is a two birds with one stone sorta of a thing. I promised @salvachester fluffy Dean smut and an aesthetic (hence why this fic has one) because she spend hours helping me create the new theme on my blog. Love you Scar. I hope you like this one.
It is set after ep 12x22 but before the massacre that was the finale.
Thanks to the sweet amazing @deansleather for betaing this one for me. Love you Maddy <3
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Dean knew he had no right to be here. He had pushed her away a long time ago. Back when the Mark was still on his arm. He had told her he didn’t love her anymore and he had practically thrown her out of the Bunker. Every since the Mark got ripped from his arm he had been telling himself what he had done was for the best. He knew that he had hurt her, but she left the life. She was safe. She could be happy without him, but the truth was he couldn’t be happy without her. Not even close. Y/N had left a gaping hole where his heart used to be. He had tried to fill it with booze and women, but no matter who he screwed or how much he drank the void was always there.
Admitting that to himself however hadn’t been easy. He yelled at Sam every time he brought her up and he told himself that he was fine. She was just a girl right? There was plenty of girls in this world. Nothing special about her. Other than there was. It had taken Dean being almost buried alive in his own home to see that. All he could think about being trapped in the Bunker while the air slowly ran out was her. He saw her at every turn of the halls. Her smile, her eyes, her body. He heard her laughter echoing off the walls, her soft whisper telling him how much she loved him.
Everyone always has to be angry about something…. So many stories have body swaps. Hell people write FANFICTION about malec body swaps and whatnot! Why all of a sudden is it so terrible? I understand some peoples concern. I do, I promise. But please. The writers are just trying their best, please stop finding everything wrong with the eps and just appreciate all the good they have. Its an amazing show and we’ve waited months. Can we bond over that?
This post started as one thing and turned into another
Just to clarify I’m disappointed with the MARKETING for this episode promising a big showdown, not necessarily the CONTENT in regards to my oh-so-precious ship.
Not every ep has to be chock full of nygmobblepot… Tho much much less Jim overall would be so welcome, god the police stuff is boring.
Anyway tho the finale better be amazing for real because compared to most episodes not a lot actually really happened? I am looking forward to what seems like Ed Oz and Fish working together so I’m kind if suspicious about this ep? Like, so little Ed, so little Os, and suddenly working together next episode? And Ed having so many perfect opportunities to murderate boo and just…not doing it? Something will be revealed next week that we don’t yet know, I think. I guess we will see.
This whole episode was just amazing, Kacey’s getting some justice aka Katelyn being an amazing big sis, and Daniel being the best cinnamon roll/ future alpha a gal could ask for. The episode made Aph and Aaron’s relationship so much more cute than it already was. The last little promise they made before jumping out a window gives Season 1 of mystreet ep: 20 So much more sentimental value and meaning.(in a certain scene)
Little side note: When PDH came out it was perfect timing for me. Season 1 came out my freshman year, and it actually helped me cope with the change of going from middle school to high school. Then season 2 came out for my sophomore year and also helped me when I was feeling down. Here’s hoping Season 3 and 4 come out for my junior and senior year. (Assuming they even make two more seasons)
P.S. I think I’ll be making some fanart for this episode so stay tuned
Sasha doesn’t get enough screen time and it freaks me out every ep bc I think she’s going home. I love her so much and I made the mistake of loving her before the show so every episode I keep wanting them to show all of her and everything I know she can do. I hope she gets to show them all how amazing she is.
Now, tonight, Arrow is back on our TVs and I really need to do this post. This list was really difficult. Because so many episodes were so good. And so many were SO BAD (honestly, Arrow has an ep 11-19 problem). SO. Here goes.
PSA to all you lovely Berena ladies currently utterly fed up with the clusterfuck that is Holby City. Come on over and join us here at Janet King central! Sure there’s only 3 seasons (S3 is airing right now) with 8 eps each but we’ve got Janet King, out proud lesbian and a kick ass lawyer who doesn’t take any shit and gives zero fucks. She has an equally bad ass gorgeous cop GF (in the second and third series). There’s a seriously amazing love scene, kisses and so far in Series3 kissing in a bathtub!
All the drama you could want, amazing writing and fantastic supporting characters. It’s smart, sexy, sassy, funny and unapologetically gay gay gay.
It’ll take the bad taste of the shit show garbage fire that Holby has become right out of your mouth I promise.
so last night there was a screening event for SnB:VS up to ep15 in Sendai, and apparently ep 15 is very surprising and pretty great, and is promised to show even more exciting story development.
even azazel fans who pretty much got disillusioned by the show say ep15 is pretty amazing and feels like an explosion, so I can only guess there must be appearance from some popular SnB demons characters (/coughs), or cocytus’ fall finally gets talked about, or *finally*, azazel gets shown again.
Okay so in Ep. 2 Yuri goes to Japan to get Victor to keep his promise of choreographing his senior debut. Then, when Victor tells Yuri and Yuuri that they will have a competition to see whose coach he will be, Yuri offers up this idea:
And this is Victor’s response:
So after watching the episodes over again, this is something I noticed. In Ep. 10 after the amazing montage of Yuri and Yuuri’s dance-off, we get this:
So to me, this just further proves that Victor was thinking about Yuuri the GPF Banquet a lot over that next year.
eyes were filled with tears and his lips trembled, a picture so devastating
Yuuri could feel his heart tear into pieces. And when the first one slipped
onto a pale cheek, soon followed by others, like dew running down a leaf early
in the morning, Yuuri wanted to take it all back. Take it back, stuff it down
his throat and choke on it, because no words were worth seeing Victor cry.
how Victor swallowed, trying so hard to blink the tears away, but they just
because of something I did?” Victor asked, his head bowed like he was
scared of looking at Yuuri. “Did I do something wrong? I know I’m still
inexperienced as a coach, even after all this time, and I swear I can work on
that! So if it is, you need to tell me so we can get through this and figure
out how to–”
it,” Yuuri interrupted before Victor could spiral further.
All he wanted to
do was to gather him in his arms and hold him, and kiss his cheeks and say I’m sorry as many times as needed to
stop the tears and make Victor smile again.
But he couldn’t do it now. He had to say this,
he had to let it out.
he called to make Victor look at him and Victor flinched. Yuuri’s heart almost shattered. “Victor, please,
look at me.”
It would’ve been
easier if he didn’t. Yuuri felt the guilt and the pain nestle in his chest like
a small monster, just waiting to grow and lash back at him for what he’d done
to the man he loved with his whole being.
“You may be
inexperienced as a coach, but I don’t think that is necessarily a bad
thing,” he gave a tiny smile, hoping to ease the broken expression on
Victor’s face. It didn’t really work. Yuuri sighed. “But I also know my
limits and I know I just hit them.”
mouth was opening to protest, and somewhere deep inside it made Yuuri happy
that he was still fighting for him, still believed in him, but he shook his
head to stop him from saying anything. It wouldn’t change a thing.
to convince me,” Yuuri said. “I’m going to retire after this season,
set. His bottom lip trembled, but he bit on it to stop it. Yuuri itched to
reach out and brush his thumb across it to free it, but he didn’t.
still reach higher,” Victor finally said, his voice petulant like a child
that was just scolded.
painful,” he cut Victor off, looking away from him. “Competing has
always been stressful to me. It’s not a burden I want to carry anymore.”
With that he
reached out and took Victor’s hand, the very one upon which a gold ring gleamed
in the dim light of their hotel room lamp. He locked their fingers together,
gold touching gold, and squeezed as if trying to tell Victor what he couldn’t
put into words.
and his face cleared a little, although it remained grim and unhappy.
change your mind?” he asked one final time.
Yuuri shook his
The hand in his shook
slightly when Victor took a deep breath, but when he spoke his voice was strong.
he said. “We’ll make the announcement after the gala.”
That night after
they slipped into bed, Yuuri could still feel the invisible line, the tension,
between them. It was something that wasn’t there before, not even when they
were complete strangers. He chewed on it alone, curling in on himself and
wondering if it was alright to reach out…
Victor beat him
to Yuuri’s back and arms tight around his waist, he held him close,
leave me,” Victor whispered.
clogged up, Yuuri took Victor’s hand and kissed the ring that bound them to
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